#U.S. medical system fucking sucks

[hotchocolateandpillowforts]

I understand that your doctor wants to see you before renewing prescriptions, but I put in a request for a refill on Monday and it was denied on Tuesday. I talked to a nurse this morning who set up an appointment for next Thursday. When I told her my nightly medication that I take to prevent migraines will run out before then and asked for a few days worth of meds to be filled to get me to the appointment, they just said 'nope.' Apparently, people are asking for one month to hold them over until their appointments and then after filling the prescription canceling the appointment. So, my neurologist's new policy is to just have her patients go without until she sees them. I really wish I had known that two weeks ago when I probably could have been squeezed in before I run out of meds.

I know that making an appointment was just one of the many balls that got dropped this Fall thanks to buying a house and moving and transferring my job. But it really feels shitty that I'm going to be without my preventative meds for four days just because some people go against the office policy. I'm already so stressed about possibly having a migraine for four days straight and possibly having to call out of work (where I've only been for about a month at this point).

#rant #medical rant #I fucking hate it here #U.S. medical system fucking sucks #like. obviously I wouldn't be one of those people who cancels the appointment because you would only be filling a four day prescription #that would only get me TO the appointment day #obviously I need more than that before I just brush off my appointment #shit #chronic illness problems #chronic migraines #migraines #personal #spoonie

[fairiepunk]

Can I just vent real quick? About yet another shitty experience I’ve had with mental healthcare in the U.S.?

Vent below the cut. Tw: medication, anxiety

So I started what is more or less my dream job a few weeks ago (yay!), but I’ve found over the past few weeks that this job is triggering as hell for me (fuck!).

My anxiety has been through the roof for these past few weeks, and over the past week, I’ve had severe panic attacks that are nearly impossible to get myself out of regardless of what coping skill I use.

Knowing it would take at least a week to see my regular psych med provider to see about making adjustments, I went into the local behavioral health urgent care (which I’m sure is SUCH a great resource for so many people! I don’t want to shit on it, because I’m sure others have had good experiences, I just did not.)

It is worth noting at this point that the urgent care is a part of the facility I go to for psychiatry regularly, and I was reassured multiple times that they had access to my chart which includes my med allergies.

On my med allergy list is buspar, which is noted as giving me psychotic symptoms. Also on my med allergy list is a note about seroquel potentially causing psychotic symptoms (I took it at the same time as another new med, so we weren’t sure which med caused the psychotic symptoms.)

So imagine my surprise when I was offered buspar. I responded with “I can’t take buspar, it causes me to hallucinate. That should be on my allergy list.” To which, the provider scoffed and said “Well, we don’t do benzos here.”

I have no desire to take benzodiazepines. I am terrified of taking them due to my parents being addicted to them at various points in their lives. This is not to med shame anyone who does take them. I know they can save people’s lives, but just know that I was not seeking them out by any means.

She suggested increasing my propranolol, and then decided against it since my blood pressure was “already on the low end” (she put the cuff on my fucking elbow).

At the end of the appointment, she decided to send over a script for seroquel, and they made me an appointment to meet with my regular psych med provider next week. While I’m reluctant to try this med again, I am willing to because this anxiety is *unbearable* and this is my only option for now.

So I get home, and call the pharmacy to see how much my med will cost. The med provider never sent over the script, and when I called the urgent care to say “hey, I think the system might have glitched. Could you send the script over again?” The receptionist said “Oh sometimes pharmacists just say that they didn’t receive the script. Just keep asking them about it. We’ll double check on our end though.”

The pharmacy did not receive the script before they closed today. I hope they get it early tomorrow. This sucks ass. I am suffering.

#fable speaks #mental health #anxiety #vent #mental illness vent #anxiety vent #medication

[headspace-hotel]

I feel like when I was younger and arguing online all the time with antivaxxers I fell into the trap of just kind of blindly hating “alternative medicine” conspiracy theorists for being ignorant and stupid, and I regret it now.

the fact is, the average person is pretty ignorant about how illness and medicine work. Most people don’t get vaccines because they have an understanding of the science that makes them work. Most people haven’t really questioned it. I’m a little bit fatigued of hearing “believe in SCIENCE, idiot!” Science isn’t dogma. It’s about asking questions.

It’s not all about hating autistic people. For a lot of them it isn’t about that at all. Honestly what I’ve observed is that once they get really really deep into the rabbit hole, they just project whatever existing bigotry onto their flavor of the conspiracy. For some vaccines are making people gay. Or trans. Or whatever.

But they don’t start there. I swear I saw someone say once, no idea who, that an antivaxxer is a “scientist gone wrong;” they’re asking questions, a lot of the right questions, but they get entangled in existing bigotry, snapped up by a cult-like online community, or both.

Also, the American medical system treats people like shit. I can definitely see how “my doctor told me I was making it up when I was in excruciating pain” or “my doctor told me I just needed to lose weight when I had an illness that could have killed me” or just the pervasive casual dismissal of patient concerns and informed consent might lead a person to think “maybe my doctor isn’t right when they say this vaccine won’t harm my kid?”

And a lot of antivaxxers do talk about how they felt coerced and pressured into vaccinating their kids, and they had their questions dismissed and brushed aside. And for so long the opposition has been all “Believe in science! Your doctor has a degree and they know better than you! Science doesn’t care about your feelings! Just ~believe in science~!”

And honestly I’m starting to think this is how people fall down the rabbit hole. There’s an intense level of community and camaraderie among antivaxxers, almost like a cult. (I would argue that it is a cult, but that would take a while to go over.) There is so much resistance everywhere else, to the willingness to ask questions and be unsure until you have seen evidence. And of course these people end up taking the anecdotes of a bunch of people in a Facebook group as evidence, but let’s be real, no one is immune to the power of having a large group of people say “yeah, me too.”

There’s so much going on. The ableism. The cult-like dynamic. The influence of celebrity figures like Gwyneth Paltrow selling snake oil to people. But we fucked up, okay? We fucked up when we decided to beat “Believe in science!” over people’s heads when it’s not like that. It’s not like believing in Jesus.

Idk, there is absolutely nothing wrong with ASKING, “What is this made of? Is it safe to put in my body? How does it affect the body? How does it work?” Those are good questions, scientific questions. And it also is true that doctors are sometimes wrong. Just like scientists are sometimes wrong. You can’t just get a degree and never be wrong again. Some people who hold degrees could stand to realize that.

Like at some point we’ve got to realize that the antivaxx movement didn’t happen because a bunch of people just have something wrong with them because they “don’t believe in science.” And it didn’t happen just because of ableism either—there are loads of horrendously ableist people who are not antivaxxers.

Like I think a real contributor is just that medicine in the u.s. especially sucks ass with respect to informed consent, and the medical system is an Authority and asks for compliance, and people often have good reasons for mistrust. And people really do get belittled for asking questions about...just about anything that’s an established part of life.

And we get this sense of superiority over people that seem to know less than we do, even though we all started out asking questions. And most of the people countering the “anti-science/alternative facts” movements have started to talk about “science” much like evangelicals treat the Bible, instead of a way of seeking knowledge. It’s just not going to help.

#antivaxxers #science #knowledge #vaccines #ableism

[lareinenoir]

THE PURGE; Sanctuary C.E x black reader

PT III

60 Days Until The Purge

THEN...

"I'll order take out. I know you like Thai-"

"Don't order anything. I'm actually not even hungry." You said as he took your bag and put it on his shoulder. "What?" He was looking at you weird and it made you frown.

"Where's the rest of your stuff?"

"You asked me to stay the night. That is my overnight bag." You replied folding your arms and walking over to the couch. Your hand touched your forehead and you sighed. You could still feel him looking at you as you tried to relax with your head leaned back. "After I tell Shonda about our situation, you're signing the papers."

"What do you mean-"

"You know what I mean." You shot back

"Ok, well theirs a lot to consider now." He motioned to your stomach and you sat up straight. "We're having a baby, now."

"No no no." You shook your head feeling your petty insides bubble a bit in sarcasm. "I'm having a baby. Me. Just me.”

"Obviously I want to be apart of our baby's life." Chris argued back and you frowned and scoffed. He put your bag down and crossed his arms as you brushed it off. "You can't seriously think I won't. V that's insane."

"You wanna know what's insane? You think you're gonna get anywhere near it. Why in the hell would I allow you and your broken promises anywhere near my child? Do you think I'm stupid? To make the same mistake twice!"

"Again? V what do you want me to do?" He asks throwing his hands up. "Acting is what I do, that's my job-"

"I don't care about that. I'm not asking you to chose your job or me-"

"It damn well near sounds like it. I would never make you choose." He countered back and you gripped your fists together.

"You may not have said it directly, but there have been many times where you have indirectly patronized me. I just found out I'm pregnant and I have been trying so hard to deal with it." you replied watching him pace back and forth and shake his head. "I have been getting the worst headaches, I can't keep any food down and I literally get lightheaded on set every single day because hiding my pregnancy has been a real joy ride." You replied sarcastically with a small chuckle

"What do you want me to do? I tell you to tell the producers, you get mad. I tell you to take a break, you get mad. I tell you to come over and you’re mad.” Chris said in disbelief. “I don't know what you want from me." He shrugs brushing the hair from his eyes.

"Not once since you found out have you asked me how I'm doing? My whole career is at risk I could lose my job. And you don't even seem to care.” You said

"V, I do care." He reached for your shoulder and you took in another breath. "I want you to stop worrying all the time. And you're right, I should be concerned more about you. I should be there for you-I should've been there for you in the beginning.” He admitted and you folded your lips again.

Are For real this time? Should I let it go and move past it? Again? No because it'll start all over again.

"This baby is mine. This is a life changing thing that's happening, I can't let you ruin it too." You spoke

" I'm taking responsibility because this is something I want. Ok? Can't we find some common ground? You of all people should know what it's like to grow up without a father!"

"You know too!" You shouted back. Chris' dad had died when he was younger. He talked about him sometimes but not as much. "I'd rather have had my father six feet under then to have him choosing when it's convenient for him to show up!" You said with your foot down shaking your head.

"Forget the divorce. Me and you living here happily married for the years to come. Whats so bad about that? Why can't I have that? What's so wrong with the picture of two parents raising a child?" His voice was loud and he was getting frustrated. He didn't shout, but you could tell how passionate he was about it. He always wanted to be a daddy, a parent. "Huh?"

"It's not just about you!" You said stepping closer. "Because..." You shrugged feeling your eyes water as you suck in your cheeks. "I knew the kind of man I was marrying. So involved with his job it took him almost fifteen years to actually start dating. It's not about you or your career. This baby is all I have right now.”

He looked confused as he relaxed his brow and pinched the bridge of his nose. From two feet away you could feel his heartbeat and you felt a little bad for how foolish you probably looked. You still loved him, not like you ever stopped, but you remembered that you still loved him.

Because, it's not about me either anymore. You thought

"Forget the papers okay..." You said swallowing your own pride. "just forget it. You’re right. I want our child to have two parents who will love him unconditionally. But it has to stop, because it takes two. I can't have you with one foot in the door." You admitted

“Yeah yeah.” He nodded “yeah I get that. I’m not going anywhere.” Chris said and you walked forward and took his hand kissing his palm as you placed it on the side of your face. “I promise V.” He cups your face and stares into your eyes. His stubble poking at you a bit as you held his wrists.

“I love you.” You said with a small smile

“Still?” He laughed making you roll your eyes as you giggled a little. “I love you too. Are you sure you aren’t hungry?” He asks again

“Yes.” You nodded “now shut up and come take a nap with me.”

NOW....

CHRIS POV**

“Damnit! Damnit! Damnit!” I said throwing the phone on the couch. I had called five times and her phone went straight to voicemail.

“This is not a test, this is your Emergency Broadcast System. Announcing the commencement of the annual purge sanctioned by the U.S. Government. ALL Weapons have been authorized for use during the purge. Government officials of ranking 10 have been granted immunity and shall not be harmed. Commencing at the siren, any and all crime (including murder) will be legal for 121 days. Police, fire, and Emergency Medical services will be unavailable until December 15, 12:00 o’clock midnight, when the purge concludes. Blessed be our new founding fathers and America... A nation reborn. May God be with you all.”

My tv was replayed the message nine more times before shutting off. I swallowed the lump in my throat. Today is august 15, Vanessa’s birthday is tomorrow which was when she’d be 17 weeks. We had marked it on the calendar together. More than half my wife’s pregnancy would be spent during the purge. I needed to find her!

I didn’t support the purge. Something about killing people to be “cleansed” just didn’t sit right in my gut. It made my heart ache thinking about the clean up at the end. I could bring Dodger, but he can only do so much. Maybe he could help track her scent. Grabbing my coat I folded my lips together.

“Fuck!” I shout

With what weapon? How was I going to run the streets looking for my wife without a gun? I loved the idea of owning one, but Vanessa made me swear not to bring one in the house if she was there. So I just dropped the idea. Looking in the kitchen I grabbed one of the Chef knives off the rack. Maybe this would be enough for now...

“Damnit!” I curse looking at Dodger. “She said she was at Topanga Park. Start there?” I asked, as if he’d answer back. I grabbed her bonnet from off the bathroom door handle and stuffed it in my backpack.

I didn’t hesitate l. I locked up everything and jumped inside my truck. Dodger sat on the passenger side and I felt my hands start to shake as I put my foot on the gas. I started to promise god I would go to church if he would keep her safe.

“I don’t even know if you’re even listening or you even care. I love her, I’ve been such and idiot and I don’t wanna lose her.” I looked at Dodger and he was sitting up straight. “I remember you didn’t like her. You wouldn’t let her anywhere near me, you bark and squeeze yourself in between us when we sat down in the room to watch movies.” I chuckle wiping the little tear that slipped from my eye “You stole one of her wigs too.”

“WHAT THE FUCK!” she shouted chasing you around the house. “DODGER GIVE IT BACK! COME BACK!”

We chased him around the house and Dodger thought it was some sort of game. We had been officially dating for a month. I had started laughing when I caught him and held her headband wig in my hand. She stood their with her arms folded while I petted his head and she rolled her eyes.

"I told you he doesn't like me." She said as I stood up and she took the wig from my hand.

"Come on, he's just getting used to you."

"I've been over here every day. Your dog hates me."

"What?" I tilted my head to the side and touch her nose with my index finger. "Deal breaker? If my dog doesn't like my girlfriend, I'm gonna dump her? Tell me where that makes sense."

She walked closer to me and wrapped her arms around my waist looking up at the ceiling as I kissed her neck. "I guess you have a point." Vanessa sighed.

"He's just warming up to you that's all."

"What's stopping me from breaking up with you?"

"Over a dog?"

"This is his third assault against me. First it was tearing up my purse, then chewing up my crocs, not to mention the little shit I found inside of them. And now stealing my wig and playing cat and mouse." Said Vanessa as I rested my head on top of hers. "Luckily this is a backup wig."

“Aren’t you wearing one right now?” I asked

“Headband wig. And that wig your dog has destroyed,” she gave him the side eye “it was my favorite and expensive.” She gritted her teeth

“I’ll buy you another one.” I offered

She purses her lips and shook her head. “I don’t want you buying me anything. I’ll just break up with you. For real this time.”

"Fine then..." I baited her shrugging my shoulders. "Break up with me."

“Over a dog?” She frowns mocking me as I smile down at her and her eyebrows bend downward a little as she caressed my face. Her finger was gentle and she stood on her top toes and kissed my lips. “Never.”

...

I look over at Dodger and pat his head. "We'll find her. I know we will." I say trying to lift my spirits.

When we arrived to Topanga Park, it was a sight. I didn't even want to leave the truck. I felt my heart race a little more. "What the hell..."

In the middle of traffic-in between the cars were bodies. Dodger started barking at the train of blood that stained the streets. It was empty, but I could feel a heavy weight on my back. Walking behind me, next to me...it was all around me. I hadn't realized I had my hand over my mouth an nose, it was hard for me to breath as the stench of dead bodies. Dodger kept barking and that led to me chasing after him. I had her bonnet in one hand and I called after him.

I came to a halt when I came face to face with another person. He had Dodger in his hands and I felt my muscle tense up. He was tall and very familiar looking. I swallowed the lump in my throat and held the kitchen knife in my hand with a firm grip.

"Captain America?"

I tilted my head sideways and licked my lower lip narrowing my brow a little. "Yeah, give me the dog and we can go our separate ways. Ok?"

He nodded his head. He ran his fingers through his hair and put the dog down. I wasn't really concerned about who he was I was trying to prepare for a fight. He dropped his gun on the ground and held up his his hand.

"I'm not going to kill you. I'm looking for my wife." He said "She left her watch in that building." He pointed to the school and slowly pulled the watch from his pocket.

"In there?" I asked

"Yeah." He nodded, but I still couldn't shake the feeling I knew him from somewhere. "My name is Jared. My wife's name is Gianne, I'm pretty sure she was with someone else-are you looking for someone too? Maybe we could help each other. There was something written on the chalkboard in there, I wasn't something Gia would write, but she was here. All I wanna do is find her-"

"Supernatural?" I asked turning my head to the side. Vanessa loved that show. Whenever she had spare time she would watch it or on those many night she'd spend the night at my house we would watch it-well not really watch it. The Netflix and 'chill' was emphasized. "You said something about some sort of message on the wall?" I asked motioning with my hand. "what did it say?"

"um, CE equals BE or something like that." He shrugged

I laughed a little. Vanessa Evans plus Chris Evans equals Baby Evans. It was a stupid joke-an Easter egg if you will. Shonda put in the show on the whiteboard in one of our love scenes as a way to announce our pregnancy to the audience. She often left clues to the next episode in every episode except this one was not only in the show but in real life.

"Chris Evans." I say extending my hand out to him. I'm pretty sure he knew by the little smile playing on his face. He shook my hand and nodded his head.

"I know. I'm a big marvel fan, I know all your lines." Jared chuckled and then cleared his throat as he nervously laughed. "Nice to meet you. I'm Jared Padalecki - I know I said that already..."

I introduced him to Dodger and I felt a little more relaxed. I gathered that she was alive and we both came to the assumption that they were traveling together.

"Where do you think their headed?" I asked as we walked to his car which was tricked out and full of ammunition and guns. Not to mention government level protective gear.

"While I was in there, I picked up someone else. Heavy footed and big, traveling with dogs. Hair everywhere." He went on tossing me a bullet proof vest. "You heard of Sanctuary?"

"The safety place? Yeah, but it's hard to find. It's for people who get caught in the Purge right?"

He narrowed his brow and shook his head. "No." Said Jared sharply. "Sanctuary is a secret government funded task force. It started off as a conspiracy some myth to explain all the random disappearances throughout the year. It's a government project designed for population control." He went on

"Ok...what does that have anything to do with the Purge?"

"Everything. An organization designed to control the US population. We're talking Pro killers who were once on a leash, but when that horn sounded and the Purge began, they are just as free to kill anyone they want." Said Jared handing me an ipad. It was a list of celebrities. From pro athletes like Steph Curry and their immediate families to movie stars and singers like Rhianna and Tom Cruise. "There are rumors that they are hunting celebrities. The kardashians and Jenner's are fair game. If not the stars themselves then they choose their parents, brothers and sisters."

"And do what?" I asked quietly as I saw mine and Vanesssa picture

"Most get auctioned off to the highest bidder, I've also heard they kill them on the spot for money or bring them in to fight for the death. Bottom line, there is a bounty on our heads. During the Purge everyone is fair game, their is no protection."

"You're telling me she's out there being hunted by them right now?" I asked

“Possibly. The dog hair isn’t a breed we know. They are a combination of hunting canines, bloodhound, foxhound, Labrador retriever with the built and aggression of a something like a pit bull a Rottweiler.” Said Jared as I looked up from the iPad and gave it back. “You’re gonna need more than a kitchen knife. We find the dogs and the hunter and we’ll find them.”

He held a gun out to me and wiped my mouth with the palm of my hand trying to mentally prepare for what is to come."

“Do you believe in the Purge?” I asked still questioning why his car was full of weapons. “You kill people?”

He nodded his head. “Yes. I don’t believe in hiding or waiting for someone to kill me. We all have the right to Purge."

"What's stopping you from killing me?"

Jared sighed and shook his head. "I'm hunting them. I'm surviving and if you decide to threaten my survival, then I'll kill you." He went over to the driver side of his Ford charger. "Get in. Knowing Gia she is headed for Roberts hole."

"What's that?" I asked climbing in the passenger seat of the car.

“It’s a Cassino for celebrities. Jack Black owns it. It’s locked up right but open to his favorites during the Purge.”

“They’ll be there?”

“Relax.” He out his hand in my shoulder and looked at me as dodger sat in the back seat. “We will find them. You know how to shoot don’t you?” Jared raised his gun in the air and nodded my head.

I guess it wasn’t confidently and he chuckled. “Vanessa isn’t a fan of guns.”

“Don’t worry, we’ll practice. Ok?”

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A/N: Sorry it took so long😬 don’t hate me, please. Lol, I hope everyone is doing well and safe out here. If you wanna be tagged leave it in the ask box, Anyways…Untill next time!

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[ravenpaw-93]

Buckle up y'all, I gotta rant.

So. I live in a weird part of KY that's like mostly Midwest with some strong 'Southern' (bigoted) values. Anyway, this meme has been going around the past few days and I've fucking had it.

This is some of the most ignorant shit I've ever seen. Asking you to wear a mask isn't about protecting you its about protecting people you could infect and potentially KILL if you have the virus and don't know it. Its not even close to being comparable to abortion.

You can be pro-choice without being pro abortion and saying you wanna kill all the babies. 

Sometimes it is medically necessary. Sometimes the mother will die if she continues the pregnancy. Why doesn't her life matter? Sometimes the child has severe defects or genetic disorders that would make life outside to womb excruciatingly painful and short without being constantly hooked up to tunes and wires in a bed. You religious people are telling me that life is better than eternal life in heaven?

Sometimes women are violently and horrifically sexually assaulted and it results in pregnancy. Why should that woman be forced to birth a child she had no choice in making? Do you have any idea the toll that would have on that woman mentally? Forcing her to have that child, even if she did put it up for adoption, would be actual torture. Does her life not matter too? (And before you say 'very few sexual assault cases result in pregnancy' remember less than 50% of sexual assaults are actually reported so the statistics for pregnancy that resulted from assault are extremely innaccurate). That's also not including spouses or significant others who only consented under coercion which is still assault, but many people don't report it as such or consider it assault, because America fucking sucks at teaching people the meaning of consent.

What about the women who are trapped in an abusive relationship and fall pregnant? What about her life? She will forever be tied to her abuser. What about the life that kid is gonna have being born into that?

Some kids are born to parents who shouldn't have children because they're abusive, on drugs, etc and their kids end up in the system often time passed from one foster home to the next until they age out. But yall aren't worried about those kids. Nevermind the ones who fall through the cracks of the very broken DCFS system.

Y'all aren't worried about the kids that go hungry bc their parents are too poor to feed them but by the governments standards make too much money for assistance.

You think the only people who need abortions are careless people who just got pregnant without meaning to and decide they don't want it? No. Absolutely not. 

So tell me what 'life' are you worried about? You're worried about a pulse. That's it. As long as the kid is breathing y'all are good with that? Doesn't matter the quality of life they'll have. Forget the mother, her life doesn't matter she served her 'purpose' since she popped out a kid, right?

 Like I said this isn't me being Pro Abortion. Just that there should always be a safe legal choice for women who find themselves in untenable situations. 

And even if it was just a case of I got pregnant but I'm not ready to be a mom, thats no ones business but hers and her physician's. NO ONE IS REQUIRED TO MAKE PERSONAL, MEDICAL/LIFE CHOICES BASED OFF SOMEONE ELSE'S MORALS/RELIGIOUS BELIEFS.

And while we're on that, don't even try the religious argument. There is no national religion in the U.S. The constitution grants everyone freedom of religion which means they can practice whatever religion they want and don't have to follow the rules of someone else's. So your Christian beliefs are not what laws should be based off when citizens of the country are Christian, Jewish, Muslim, Hindu, Agnostic, Atheist, Wiccan, etc etc.

One more thing, while we're talking about how much y'all care about life. DO YOU SEE HOW YOU TREAT POOR PEOPLE? BLACK PEOPLE. HISPANIC PEOPLE. TRANS PEOPLE. AND ALL OTHER PEOPLE WHO AREN'T STRAIGHT, CIS, WHITE, RICH CHRISTIANS. Get the fuck off your high horse. 

#i've had it #people are so fucking stupid #rant post #i hate it here #kentucky #pro choice #womens reproductive health #womens reproductive rights

[thebestpersonherelovesbucky]

If SImon gets a pass for what he was willing to do, what he DID to his friends to avoid his secret getting out - and no I odn't condone outing anyone and it's fucking dangerous - then actually his friends that are SEVENTEEN are allowed to be f-ing pissed that he was willing to basically whore them out to people they don't like, or go behind their backs or be an equally shitty friend. they're response is VALID & yeah its shitty but they're people too and they were hurt & betrayed.

- Suicide is the 2nd leading cause of death among young people ages 10 to 24.1- LGB youth seriously contemplate suicide at almost three times the rate of heterosexual youth.2- LGB youth are almost five times as likely to have attempted suicide compared to heterosexual youth.2- Of all the suicide attempts made by youth, LGB youth suicide attempts were almost five times as likely to require medical treatment than those of heterosexual youth.2- Suicide attempts by LGB youth and questioning youth are 4 to 6 times more likely to result in injury, poisoning, or overdose that requires treatment from a doctor or nurse, compared to their straight peers.2- In a national study, 40% of transgender adults reported having made a suicide attempt. 92% of these individuals reported having attempted suicide before the age of 25.3- LGB youth who come from highly rejecting families are 8.4 times as likely to have attempted suicide as LGB peers who reported no or low levels of family rejection.4- 1 out of 6 students nationwide (grades 9–12) seriously considered suicide in the past year. [5]- Each episode of LGBT victimization, such as physical or verbal harassment or abuse, increases the likelihood of self-harming behavior by 2.5 times on average.6

SOURCES:

[1] CDC, NCIPC. Web-based Injury Statistics Query and Reporting System (WISQARS) [online]. (2010) {2013 Aug. 1}.  Available from:www.cdc.gov/ncipc/wisqars.

[2] CDC. (2016). Sexual Identity, Sex of Sexual Contacts, and Health-Risk Behaviors Among Students in Grades 9-12: Youth Risk Behavior Surveillance. Atlanta, GA: U.S. Department of Health and Human Services.

[3] James, S. E., Herman, J. L., Rankin, S., Keisling, M., Mottet, L., & Anafi, M. (2016). The Report of the 2015 U.S. Transgender Survey. Washington, DC: National Center for Transgender Equality.

[4] Family Acceptance Project™. (2009). Family rejection as a predictor of negative health outcomes in white and Latino lesbian, gay, and bisexual young adults. Pediatrics. 123(1), 346-52.

[5] CDC. (2016). Sexual Identity, Sex of Sexual Contacts, and Health-Risk Behaviors Among Students in Grades 9-12: Youth Risk Behavior Surveillance. Atlanta, GA: U.S. Department of Health and Human Services.

[6] IMPACT. (2010). Mental health disorders, psychological distress, and suicidality in a diverse sample of lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgender youths. American Journal of Public Health. 100(12), 2426-32.

Maybe I’m taking it too personally bc I have experience with this but fuck his friends. Yeah, it sucks what he did ((begrudgingly and very unwillingly might i add)) but he was trying to protect himself. He wasn’t whoring his friends out. He was attempting not to be outed by the shithead blackmailing him.

Sure, his friends have the right to be upset and angry, I don’t deny that, but to fucking abandon him without the least bit of understanding and literally sit there and do nothing when he’s openly mocked and bullied��for being gay is horrible. They never apologize to him. They never even say fuck all to the shit kid who did it to Simon in the first place or the asshole bullies. They just sit back and let him be alone with everything that’s just happened to him just because their feelings were hurt. Ffs the one chick even says “I can deal with you being gay.” 

Deal with it? She can deal with it? 

Other than Abby, they’ve known him since they were about five-years-old. You mean to tell me that their little dating problems outweigh twelve years of friendship? Of the fact that their best friend was just outed? 

I think his friends fucking suck and just like you’re allowed to have your opinion, i’m allowed to have mine. 

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[treadmilltreats]

Our healthcare system sucks

Yes, I said it our healthcare system sucks! I can say that because as a single mom who is also self employed, I have to pay for my own health insurance. And because I have so many other responsibilities I cannot afford the best policy but hey, at least I can afford something which is better than nothing... well....maybe that is true, but for me, it is still debatable. 

I say all of this because this past weekend I laid in my bed with pains in my chest and I debated on whether or not to go to the hospital. Why, you ask would I do something like that? Especially when I know I have such a horrible family history of heart disease? It's because I kept going over in my head how much was this going to cost me? How was I going to pay for this? Could I afford these bills?

Yes, it is terrible that I would even be thinking these things when I was feeling so bad but this is the reality we live in, in this country. So many of us are afraid to get help, to go to the doctor or hospital because we don't have healthcare or we have lousy healthcare. 

And that my friends really sucks! We live in what was once, one of the greatest countries in the world and we have the worst healthcare system ever!

People are literally dying because they cannot afford to pay for medicine, they go without eating to pay absorbent amounts of money on their prescriptions. 

While big pharma and the politicians are lining their rich pockets off of our elderly and our sicknesses! This has to stop, we need to do something about this together because this is not right! 

They even went so far as to pay for ads on television to tell us to ask us our doctors about this or that medication, with a list of frigging side effects longer than your arms. Does that make any sense at all? 

Here is something that is shocking, The Centers for Medicare and Medicaid Services estimates that prescription drug expenditures in the United States came to some 333 billion U.S. dollars in 2017. This amount includes only retail drug spending, excluding nonretail.

333 billion!!! And we can't afford better healthcare?? It goes in to say:

The United States is also the country with the highest total drug prices. For example, the price for the blockbuster drug Humira was more than three times higher in the United States than in Switzerland in 2015. But whereas in other countries' governments more or less directly control drug prices, the U.S. leaves drug pricing to market competition. As a consequence, the U.S. market is the most profitable for pharmaceutical companies. 

Listen to this lovely fact: nearly half of all Americans have taken at least one prescription medicine within the preceding month. 

Maybe you should read that again because we are getting royally fucked here people! 333 billion dollars that they are making off of us! 

Wtf is going on here?? And why are we letting this happen?

Our parents are dying, our loved ones are dying, our children are dying here, people! Because we are allowing the government and big pharma to control us. We are talking medications we don't need, things that are making us worst not better, so that we have to take more pills we don't need. They are selling us pills that they are making more than half of this country addicts, hello!! Wake up people and smell the money! 

So today my friends, I want you to think about all of this, stop scrolling on Facebook or Instagram for a minute and write your Congressman or your Senators and let them know your done! This is important, more important than reading about what the Kardashians are frigging doing!! 

Let them know we need a better healthcare system and a better way to help people who are sick, not have to worry about whether to go to the hospital or not because they can't afford it. Not to keep them awake at night thinking about how they will pay for the drugs to keep their children alive!

This should be a basic human right, especially in this country.... 

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[wanderingjotun]

A rant on jobs and applications

I really need a new job. Really, really. This one is slowly killing me. As in I’ve drained my already-meager savings, and had more intrusive thoughts/ nearly self-harmed more in this position than I have in my entire life put together, and I’ve only been here 9 months. So the fact that looking for a new job stresses me out more than this hellhole is saying something. And is contributing to this awful downward spiral that I’m not sure how to get out of it yet.

Why does job searching stress me out so much? Because our system is really fucking broken, I have undiagnosed anxiety/depressive issues, and our system is really fucking broken.

I have a Bachelor’s degree, graduated in three years instead of four, have consistently been employed since a little under a year after I graduated (with experience in the fields I’m applying to) and still can’t get a damn interview.

I’m already disadvantaged because I have a very feminine legal name and misogyny is still a thing. Plus, it’s easy to see from my resume how young I am, and no one wants to hire a Millennial if they can get someone else.

I’ve spent 15 years of my life studying and working with English and writing, developing it into my singular marketable skill, but I still haven’t figured out how to actually use it for marketing after three years as a social media professional. Which means I don’t want/can’t get marketing positions—which are really the only thing creative writing is good for in most business settings.

I have that one marketable skill set that is apparently in high demand, but after six years out of college, I don’t think I want to actually make a career out of it. But I can’t afford to go back to school to develop another skill set and taking a minimum wage job will get me and my roommate evicted from our apartment and unable to feed ourselves, due to sky-high rent, student loan debt (which will only get worse if I go on forbearance or default, which are my only two choices for the massive state loans), and other costs of basic survival in the U.S. So I’m stuck applying for jobs I don’t actually want on a career path that’s sucking me dry, because there aren’t really any other financially viable options for survival at the moment.

All of the things I think I would like to do as a career are closing, or being de-funded, or are otherwise in danger due to the current political and economic climate in this country: museums, libraries, community/cultural centers, nonprofits working with the queer community, and almost any other artistic or humanitarian organization. In addition, the arts are all undervalued and making your way as a freelance artist of any stripe is (while easier than it has been in the past, thanks to the internet) incredibly difficult, and not ideal for shy, anxiety-prone people like me. That’s not even taking into account the self-employment taxes (which I’ve dealt with for three years and they nearly bankrupted me each time) and other legal issues that come with being a full-time freelancer.

“You need five years of experience for this entry-level job,” or “you need an incredibly specific degree that only two schools in the country actually offer,” or “you have to know literally everything about everything to get hired in this position.”  

Are you an introvert? Have a disability that prevents you from going out regularly and talking to people? Just don’t do well in person? Well, congratulations, you’re fucked in the job market, because the only way to get a job is to know people. As another post I’ve seen floating around said, “networking is just a way to rebrand nepotism as a skill.”

The only way to get past the applicant screening programs is to literally rewrite your entire resume for every position you’re applying for in order to ensure you’re using all of the correct keywords, in the correct order. That wastes so much time that could be spent applying for other positions, or cooking dinner or something, but your resume will literally get sent to spam or auto-deleted if you don’t do it. Same for cover letters (which are hellacious in and of themselves; query letters for novels are less painful than cover letters, and those make me tear my hair out).

Also a waste of time are all those applications (of which there are hundreds) that require you to both upload a resume and manually type in your work history. Seriously, there is nothing that makes me less likely to finish an application than realizing they want me to do this shit.

More often than not, I won’t hear anything from an application one way or another. When I do get a rejection, it’s a form rejection with no real reason as to why they didn’t ask me for an interview. So I have no idea if my skill set is lacking, my resume is poorly organized, the computer spat me out because I mistyped a keyword, or some other thing I could improve for my next round. I know it’s standard practice not to provide a reason, but it’s frustrating not knowing if it’s me or the resume or the person who’s hiring that’s the problem. Is it in my control or not?

I have too much experience for an entry-level job, but not enough for a higher-level position, and there don’t seem to be any jobs in-between. My only options are an unpaid internship, or a director/supervisor. What the fuck?

Employers want to see results on your resume—things you’ve changed, or improved, or accomplished. So what the hell do you put on a resume if your entire working life has been “well, I survived this without murdering someone,” or “I posted shit that no one read because SEO is dead and I literally had zero financial or creative support from the company”? Sometimes, your job is literally to be a grunt for the company—which is why I’m trying to get the fuck out! But employers don’t seem to accept that.

There’s this weird-ass idea that if you just look harder, your perfect job will fall into your lap. Or just talk to more people. Or try this other job board. Or just be open to taking a position that you’re not 100% sold on (which is how I wound up where I am now). Newsflash: this only works if you know what you want, you can negotiate for what you need, and you have a viable and marketable skill set in the current job market. No matter how hard I look, I won’t find my perfect job because I’m pretty sure it doesn’t actually exist in a way that will also allow me to eat next month, and I don’t have the capital or the time to just “create it.”

If you’ve tried a lot of different things in your work life because you don’t or didn’t know what you wanted to do, it’s considered ‘job hopping’ and you’re often seen as a bad or disloyal employee. Because how dare we attempt to find something fulfilling that also allows us to continue living? Thanks, capitalism.

I want to ensure I’m moving into a company that will allow me to freely talk about my girlfriend, or wear my chest binder (once my digestive issues allow me to) without fear of getting fired, but there’s no way to tell that during the application process. So, for all I know, I could be applying to highly homophobic places without realizing it and wasting everyone’s time even more than I already am.

Speaking of another waste of time, this entire fucking process feels like a useless cycle. Send resumes out, wait for months to hear nothing, rinse and repeat. It’s demoralizing and exhausting and awful, but it’s really the only way to get a job in today’s market. And that’s bullshit. So much bullshit. In the meantime, I’m over here trying to remind myself not to claw my face off and that digging my eyes out with a spoon is a bad idea (I don’t know why my self-harming intrusive thoughts center around my face/head, but they do).

So, yeah. I’m fucking stressed. I feel like I’m trapped in this lose-lose situation—I can’t physically or mentally survive in this current position for much longer, but I feel physically ill every time I open the job boards and try to find something I think I’m fit for. And, unless I get a better-paying job, I can’t afford a therapist, or medication I probably need, or even good produce on any regular basis. I need to look for a new job, but looking for a new job takes more spoons than I have when I get home. But I need the new job so I can recover the spoons. It’s this awful catch 22 every damn day. And I’m terrified that there’s no way out.      

#Personal #Long post #TW: self-harm mention #day job blues #Add to this the bullshit that's happening on a national level and I'm just so done with everything

[surveyjunkie]

1. First of all, what do you prefer to be called? Tasha. 2. What is your favorite form of creative expression?  For me, it’s either blogging or painting. If I had any musical talent, it would be that. 3. How do you like your coffee OR if you don’t like it, why?: I take it with loads of flavored cream.  4. What is the least desirable thing, in your opinion, to put on a pizza that you have heard of people actually eating?: I guess anchovies...fish and pizza just don’t sound appetizing together. I’m also not big on putting chicken on pizza unless it’s chicken bacon ranch.  5. Would you rather witness the beginning or the end of the universe?: The beginning.

6. Describe your favourite pair of socks: They have the sailor moon bow on them. 

7. What is the current or last song you are listening/listened to, and does it have any special significance to you?: I don’t even remember what it was. I can’t find my headphones :(  8. Do you prefer rainbows or stars?: Stars 9. Describe the best day of your life NOT in terms of events, but in terms of your feelings: Elation.  10. Would you rather go to a planetarium or an aquarium?: Aquarium. 11. Do you know the reason that 11:11 is considered to be auspicious?: No idea.  12. What decorations are hanging on your walls?: At home? There’s a couple of paintings I made, a framed Margarita recipe, and my Bachelor’s degree.  13. What is your favourite planet in our solar system?: Earth 14. How do you express love?: More through actions than words because I suck at talking about emotions. << 15. Do you consider yourself to be more spiritual or scientific?: Spiritual I guess.  16. If you had a lava lamp, what color would you want it to be?: Teal 17. Would you rather be able to revisit your past to simply re-experience a positive moment or revisit your past in order to change things and risk the consequences?: Maybe just re-experience a positive moment. I’m weird about the idea of changing things that have happened in the past, even though I have strong regrets. I feel like things wouldn’t be how they are now if I hadn’t had the unique experiences of the past. Idk.  18. Have you ever had a past-life regression or memory?: I remember when I first got braces, I told my mom that the feeling of having them felt familiar, even though I’d never had them before in my life. That’s the only indication I’ve had so far that I may have led a past life.  19. What is your favourite holiday and why?: Christmas. Family and food. << And eggnog/booze 20. Are you better with remembering dates or names?: Dates. I’m terrible with names.  21. What was your favourite book that you had to read for a class?: 1984.  22. What is your favourite number and why is it significant to you?: 7. It signifies my 7th year of life and the 7th grade, which were both great times for me.

23. Would you rather explore space or the ocean?: Space.  24. What prompted you to call the last person you called?: I missed her call so was calling her back. 25. Star Trek or Star Wars?: Wars. 26. Lord of the Rings or Harry Potter?: LOTR. 27. What is your favourite band and why?: I have lots of favourites, because I can’t choose just one. << 28. What colour best resonates with your best friend(s)?: Navy blue or white.  29. Where do you work and why do you work there?: I work in the research office at the local hospital because they offered me a position that is relevant to my bachelor’s degree and will look extremely good on grad school applications.

30. Have you ever gone to a public karaoke facility, and what did you sing?: I’ve been to one, but I didn’t sing 31. What animal do you feel most connected with?: My dog. 32. Have you ever had “special brownies” or any other kind of “special” treat?: Yep, I didn’t care for them. I just prefer to smoke it.  33. What book are you reading at the moment?: None. 34. What is the funniest thing that you have done at a fast food restaurant? Probably when I fell asleep on my food when I was drunk.  35. Do you enjoy listening to music that is sung in another language?:

Yes, especially Spanish 36. Quote the last movie you watched: “Tale as old as time, song as old as rhyme, Beauty and the Beast” 37. Do you know more than just your sun sign (like your ascending sign or moon sign etc.)?: I’m not sure what that is 38. Do you have any jewelery on you that holds significance, and if so, what is it and why is it significant?: I have a couple of rings my mom bought for me on my birthday. One is a ruby ring which is my birthstone and the other has two small diamonds in it.  39. What is your favorite kind of cheesecake?: Peanut butter fudge 40. Why did you last feel warm and fuzzy inside?: Just cuddling with Josh.

41. What band that no longer performs together do you wish would have a reunion tour?: Pink Floyd.<< Yes. They came to my city back when I was in college and I was hoping my dad would take me, but he never did. I’m still salty as hell about it.  42. What band that IS still together do you wish would perform in your area?: Alt-J 43. Have you ever been in a band, and what role did you play in it?: Nope 44. What has been the single most frightening experience of your life?: I haven’t had anything too terrible. Most of them just involve minor car accidents, my car breaking down in the middle of the highway, or locking myself out of my apartment. They’re stressful scary things but I haven’t had anything that has caused trauma, which I’m thankful for.  45. Who is/was your favourite Spice Girl?: Baby Spice.  46. Do you prefer free verse or poetry set in a form?: It doesn’t matter to me 47. In a hotel, would you choose to go in the hot tub, the sauna, the workout room, or the pool?: The hot tub.  48. Imagine that you are exploring space. Who would you want with you and what would you want to explore, assuming you are not limited in any way?: I would want a bunch of trained astronauts with me. The idea of space freaks me out. <<  49. Have you ever astral projected?: Say what? 50. What is your favourite song by the group t.A.T.u?: Probably “All The Things She Said” because that’s the only other one I know besides “They’re Not Gonna Get Us”. 

51. Describe what you envision as “paradise”: Being on a boat in the middle of a lake with beer, a fishing pole, and good music. I think I may have been a redneck in another life, but I’m okay with that.  52. What element do you feel most connected to?: Water. 53. What is a cause that you feel very strongly about and why?: Keeping Planned Parenthood around. I just think low income women should have the same access to gynecological exams and life-saving procedures that rich women do. Defunding them is not going to stop abortion.  54. What was your favourite class from the last year that you were in school?: I really enjoyed Diversity and Health. I learned a lot about other cultures and how difficult access to healthcare is in other countries. I really think everybody should take that class.  55. What is a topic that you study independently for your own interest?: Politics or psychology, when I’m in the mood.  56. Describe what you would want to wear if you were getting married, handfasted, or having some kind of “love celebration” or “commitment” ceremony between yourself and another? A long white dress, probably lace with belled sleeves.  57. What song do you want played at your funeral?: "Tubthumping” by Chumbawumba.  58. Would you rather alphabetize or put things in order according to numbers?: Alphabetize 59. What medication do you dislike the most?: Antibiotics, they ruin my stomach.  60. Would you rather write a story or a poem?: Story. 61. Do you believe in non-physical entities, and if so have you ever communicated with one?: I don’t know if I do. I mean, I used to pray to God, but I’m not sure if that’s what you’re referring to.  62. What invention or discovery do you think that the scientific community should focus on?: I think they’re already focus on a lot of important priorities, like medical care, disease cure and treatment, etc. << Yeah. I work in medical research and I can tell you that we are extremely well funded. 

63. If you could go anywhere, where would you go and why?: Anywhere? I’d go explore the west coast because I’ve never been there in my 24 years as a U.S. citizen.  64. What skill do people often compliment you on?: I don’t know. I don’t have any skills.<< 65. What are three facets of your personality or thinking patterns that you want to improve?: Social anxiety, self-doubt, hastiness 66. What is your favourite symbol?: $$$ 67. Name an unusual shortcut or file that’s on your desktop: There’s nothing unusual on my desktop, unless you think my Doge background  is unusual, which if you do, FUCK YOU! Lol, just kidding. I don’t know.  68. What do you smell like right now?: Burberry Weekend 69. You get to have a theme party of your choice, just for fun. What theme do you choose?: 80′s! Even though it’s been done fifty billion times. I don’t care. 70. Have you ever been in the depths of a cave?: No 71. How do you deal with the dark side of yourself?: I listen to depressing music or watch fucked up movies.  72. Name something that you can’t help but save: Receipts.  73. What is your addiction?: Fries, pizza, online shopping 74. If you could wish something for three people, but not for yourself, who would the wishes be for and what would they be?: Health, happiness and money for everyone I love. << 75. Would you rather send a message in a bottle or on a balloon?: Balloon.  76. What did you dream last night?: I had a nightmare I was stabbed in the ghetto and ran to a guy in his car for help. I asked him to drive me to the hospital because I was bleeding a lot but he ended up taking me to the grocery store instead and made me wait for him to spend 10 minutes picking out fruit before he finally took me to the hospital.  77. What is one of your most frequent daydreams?: Quitting my job  78. What is your favourite stuffed animal?: My squirtle. 79. If you could have a conversation with any well-known figure of the past or present, who would it be and what would you want to talk about?: I really don’t know.  80. If you could bring anyone back to life, who would it be?: My uncle 81. Are you affectionate?: Yes 82. Name one thing that each of your best friends is really good at: Smoking pot.  83. What are you a perfectionist with?: Certain things at work.  84. Could you see yourself being able to carry on a long distance relationship?: I did it for 6 months. Granted, we were within driving distance, but it was still hard. 85. If you could be anything but human, including anything mythical, what would you be?: A unicorn.  86. Have you ever meditated? If so, what is your method, and if not, what do you do to relax?: I’ve done it a couple of times, it doesn’t really help. Usually breathing exercises and hot tea help.  87. What is something about yourself that you feel no one else understands?: I’m over analytical 

#survey

[red-pillgrimage]

Debunking bullshit, partie trois.

This is part of the on-going critique of a particular anti-feminist/MRA wall-of-test/links that has been going around and needs some particular attention.

Rape Culture

Statistics doesn’t back up Rape culture(1) RAINN debunks Rape culture(2) “97% of rapists never see a day in jail” is a myth (3) Lesbian on Lesbian Rape (4) Inflation of anti-human trafficking statistics (5) Men who are falsely accused of rape can have their names published and their lives ruined even if they are not convicted or charged - their accuser is protected and is likely to face no punishment, or a light one. (6) Under a recent federal directive, men are convicted of rape in university campuses if the investigating board finds that the chances they committed the rape are at 50.00001% or greater. (7) The DOE policy in practice: Caleb Warner was accused of rape and expelled from the University of North Dakota, then his accuser was charged with filing a false report. He remains expelled as of June 2011 (8) Woman rapes boy, woman becomes pregnant, boy must paid child support. 40% of rapists are female (8) 1  (9) Definition of rape, erases victims of rape who are forced to penetrate, generally men who are forced to have sex with women.  (10) Men are raped in the military  (11) Men Outnumber Women Among American Rape Victims (12) Male statutory rape victims forced to pay child support  (13) 59% of the rapists had been heterosexually molested.  (14) Female Pedophiles Cause Children More Harm, According to Research by University of Bergen, Norway  (15) males and females carried out sexual violence at strikingly similar rates after the age of 18  (16) Female-on-male sexual assault is under reported  (17)

1. Yikes, once again OP doesn’t bother to do their homework and read the sources and their sources. Or maybe OP doesn’t care to understand what is being said and by who. In this U.S.News newspaper article, we’re presented with another story of a reportedly falsely accused man on a U.S. campus. This newspaper would like us to believe that sexual assault rates aren’t a big deal because according to their non-expert opinion, stats are just inflated by loose language but only in the studies which support their own views.  The 1 in 5 women on campuses who are raped (or sexually assaulted, but the article doesn’t mention this distinction from the actual study) is presented as some feminist-driven propaganda because 

Surveyors employed such a broad definition that "'forced kissing" and even "attempted forced kissing" qualified as sexual assault.

While this already sounds like sexual assault the journalist didn’t bother to read their “counter” study, which if you bother to also read, will give a very similar definition of sexual assault

Sexual assault is defined across a wide range of victimizations, separate from rape or attempted rape. These crimes include attacks or attempted attacks generally involving unwanted sexual contact between a victim and offender. Sexual assault may or may not involve force and includes grabbing or fondling. Sexual assault also includes verbal threats. 

So no, sorry to break it to you, it’s not a definition problem between stated rates of sexual assault. And lets make it clear for those people in the back, yes if someone forces themselves on you to kiss you it is sexual assault.

If not definitions, is it maybe who and how they were asked?

 The study which examined 2 specific universities in the U.S. found that 20% of women would experience sexual assault or rape during their senior undergraduate academic year based on a ~2500 student sample. When the data is broken down, it’s 1 in 7 women experienced unwanted penetration, rape, in these two universities. 

The “second”/”counter” study to “disprove” the former claim states that there’s so few cases of sexual assault or rape of men that it can’t be validly measured through their data and that’s why it’s called “female victims of...” So I mean, if this is the kind of back-bone you want for your MRA/anti-feminist ideology about men being victims as well, I guess I can roll with it. But I guess these “facts” won’t match the “facts” we see later about the victimization of men. 

So what us readers should know, because this man was found guilty and later found not guilty, that rape culture is not a thing. Because this man was falsely accused of a sexual crime, expressions like “they got raped” aren’t casual gamer-speaker. Because this man was falsely accused, “hatefuck” isn’t an expression used by anyone. Because this man was falsely accused, men are sexually assaulted or raped so rarely that it doesn’t even deserve particular mention or interest in national surveys. I’m sure glad countries who don’t believe in rape culture don’t promote rape or let rapists walk among them.

2.  I mean, come on, OP. are you even trying

One out of every six women and one out of every 33 men are victims of sexual assault – 20 million Americans in all. Those of college age are more likely to be victimized than any other age group.

And alarmingly, the Department of Justice (DOJ) estimates that just 12% of college victims report their assault to law enforcement officials.ii This is far below the rate of the general population, where about 40% of all sexual attacks are reported to police, according to DOJ.

Rape is all too often a crime without consequences. In America, out of every 100 rapes, only 40 are reported to police, and only three rapists will ever spend a day behind bars. 

When these crimes aren’t reported, ...  serial criminals are left unpunished and free to strike again. And the message this sends to the broader community and future offenders? You can rape with impunity; that’s just what happens in college.

The FBI, for purposes of its Uniform Crime Reports, has a hierarchy of crimes — a ranking of violent crimes in order of seriousness. Murder, of course, ranks first. Second is rape. It would never occur to anyone to leave the adjudication of a murder in the hands of a school’s internal judicial process. Why, then, is it not only common, but expected, for them to do so when it comes to sexual assault? We need to get to a point where it seems just as inappropriate to treat rape so lightly.

I don’t exactly see where “rape culture” is “debunked” by these folks. Do you? 

3. this is literally a 20 years old crime trend analysis. this was published in 1997. the crime trends it measures are from 1980s-1995. this is so irrelevant it’s absurd. 

4. So this is an article about woman-woman sexual assaults/rape... Which is meant to accomplish what? I really don’t know, but here’s some nice stuff out of it

White and SFWAR take the approach that when a person is raped “your power has been taken away from you. We like to provide people with a lot of different options. There are no ‘shoulds’ in response to being raped. Every woman needs to know that. First off everybody needs to choose their own healing path.” SFWAR tries to present specific and individuated plans to help rape victims find that healing path–including victims of rape by women. White explains that these can include “filing a police report, seeking medical attention, looking for community-based responses to get the healing that you need and healing from a community as well.”  

White explained that women who experience female/female sexual assault are less likely to seek help than women who are raped by men and have other fears associated with dealing with police and the court system as well as their own LGBT communities.

According to the SFRCC, the primary barriers to confronting same-sex sexual assault are disbelief and denial, with a giant dose of homophobia—external and internalized—thrown into the mix.

SFRCC notes that, “Many people do not want to believe or are unaware that same-sex rape happens. If it is acknowledged, often it is thought to be ‘not as bad’ as male-female rape.” Much like Whoopi Goldberg’s declaration that Roman Polanski’s rape of a 13-year-old was not “rape-rape.”

It really sucks that people who have been victimized are forced to deal with social gender stereotypes in both their peers but also institutions like the police and courts. 

5. This has absolutely nothing to do with rape culture. This is about sex work. Neither “rape” nor “sexual assault” appear anywhere in the text. 

6. So because I don’t have “Bloomberg Professional Service” I can’t say I’ve read this article but I know from the URL that it’s about the Duke Lacross players who had been falsely accused and they were railroaded by a soon-to-be disbarred state attorney. Long story short, if some asshole lawyer didn’t want to advance his career by breaking laws, taking over a police investigation and breaching procedure numerous times then lying about it, those students wouldn’t have faced their situation. 

7. Huffington Post blog article sums up what (2) had to say: rape/sexual assault is a serious fucking crime and college review boards were made to oversee plagiarism, not felonies. 

8. Broken link. :( but also it’s the same shit as mentioned in (1) and (7)

9. Wow, another old as fuck page. This one from 1996. The 1990s didn’t see men as being able to be victimized by women? Sounds like patriarchal gender norms have been harming men too =o

10. broken

11. broken

12. broken

13.  According to this news article, people in the military are sexually assaulted by their peers, superiors. What this has to do with denying rape-culture, I don’t know. But if we recall from the previous installment that regions with higher rates of patriarchal values experienced higher rates of violence? 

The VA denied her claim nevertheless, “Because they said I couldn’t prove it … since I had not brought it up when it happened and also because I had not shown any deviant behavior while in the service. I was outraged and felt compelled to talk about what happened.”

While it will go to any length to maintain public silence over the issue, the military machine has no such qualms within its own corridors. Guzman discloses, “Through the gossip mill we would hear of women who had reported being raped. No confidentiality was maintained nor any protection given to victims. The boys’ club culture is strong and the competition exclusive. That forces many not to report rape, because it is a blemish and can ruin your career.”

The department of defence reported that in fiscal year 2009, there were 3,230 reports of sexual assault, an increase of 11 percent over the prior year.

However, as high as the military’s own figures are of rape and sexual assault, victims and advocates Al Jazeera spoke with believe the real figures are sure to be higher.

The report attributes the huge increase to better reporting of incidents due to increased training and education about sexual assault and harassment.

Is THAT why 25 year old stats are useless? =o

14. “Men get raped in prison and so there’s so men victim of rape” = rape culture isn’t...? So if men are a bigger portion of sexual assaults or rape due to incarceration sexual violence, will you keep making “drop the soap” jokes? Will you laugh when the police arrest men of colour without due cause or justice? Will you give a shit about rape any other time than when women are talking about their own problems?

15. Fucking OP, trying to play another one on us! This is the same link as (9)

16. broken.

17. Thanks for the Swedish page on google translation. Real, uh. Something.

"The media is a female teacher who becomes pregnant by a 15-year-old boy described as a" tragedy ". But if a male teacher had done something similar, it will be spoken of as "grotesque".

Inge Nordhaug believes that men more often described as demons but other emotions and words are used when women abusers. "They become 'victims', while the man is the 'perpetrator' - one who is guilty.

So Swedish media has a pattern of portraying men as offenders and women as victim? Sounds like age-old sexism to me. So what’s the problem again for MRA/anti-feminist?  

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Males were significantly more likely than females to report coercive sex or attempted rape, with similar but nonsignificant results observed for completed rape. White youths were more likely than nonwhite youths to report perpetrating coercive sex, and Hispanic youths were less likely than non-Hispanic youths to report perpetrating coercive sex. Similar, nonsignificant patterns were noted for youths reporting completed rape. Youths living in low-income households were less likely than youths living in higher-income households to report attempted rape. 

“ Youths who begin perpetrating at younger ages are overwhelmingly male. It is not until age 18 years that female perpetrators emerge at notable rates.

Challenging Bias When Researching Sexual Perpetration

It is not uncommon to believe that a man cannot be raped by a woman.45,46 Gender stereotypes can make it difficult to imagine a dominant woman coercing or forcing an unwilling man to have sex.47 Accordingly, male victims of female perpetrators are judged more harshly than male victims of male perpetrators.48 Moreover, the same behaviors perceived to be sexually aggressive when committed by a male can be perceived as romantic or promiscuous when committed by a female.47,49 Nonetheless, physiological data suggest that men can be raped; an erection does not necessarily mean sexual arousal50 and can be reflexogenic.51 Adolescent health care professionals need to assess the potential for their own gender biases in this area so that they can be more effective in identifying and treating female perpetrators and male victims when they present.

19. CNN rehashes what we’ve already talked about in (2), (4), (13). 

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                                                            MAY                      2020

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Check out the We are One Global film fest on youtube from May 29-June 7. We will be able to experience movies from Cannes, Sundance, Tribeca and Venice for free!! Yahoo!!

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May 10 will bring us The Feeding America comedy Fest. So far the stars on board are Eddie Murphy, Adam Sandler, Tiffany Haddish, Chris Rock, Louie Anderson, JB Smoove, Brad Garrett, Jon Lovitz, Tim Meadows, Keegan-Michael Key, George Lopez and Sarah Silverman, just to mention a few.

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Jim Carrey will release his Memoirs and Misinformation on May 5.

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If you need honest medical info, take a look at Quackwatch: A guide to quackery, health fraud and intelligent decisions.

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Current times are a magnification of a problem that has been brewing for quite some time. The kiss ass, the indifferent, the greedy who don’t miss a trick are todays fortunate sons.** If half of this country didn’t want the other half to have a fighting chance we wouldn’t be in this situation right now. The Federal government should have all of our best interests at heart.  I will never understand why so many of the’ have not’ voters love supporting the’ haves ‘that love to fuck over the little guy.

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SAVE THE USPS!!

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I guess we know how this country would be prepared to react to bioterrorism.

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SNL is working from home like so many but with Tom Hanks, Brad Pitt, Fred Armisen, Paul Rudd, Miley and Sandler.

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George Gray, announcer for the Price is Right is recovering after a week of 3 heart attacks.

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Marijuana use is at an all -time high. Alcohol use is up 40%.

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What is up with Georgia Governor Brian Kemp who seemed so surprised at the virus months after everybody else seemed to know the facts? This is what happens if we only listen to Trump and Fox news.** He is so ready to open up the state early. ** A Georgia citizen said it best: Kemp mandates restaurants open, whether I reopen dining rooms or not. I file for business interruption insurance, it does not go through since I am “allowed” to operate full capacity. My landlord can demand all their money since I am allowed to fully operate. Furloughed staff that is collecting unemployment insurance have to come back to work or I have to let them go. Their unemployment insurance then goes on my tab. If things blow up again they are still on my tab, not on the state since they are no longer employed. This is about screwing the working class.** A dog has now been diagnosed with the virus as well as some cats.

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UFO footage has been declassified by the pentagon. Wow, anything to distract! ** This whole Scary Clown 45 mess often seems like a big government experiment. Just how much will we put up with? How stupid or complacent are we??

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The President’s council on reopening America has a message for our country: Die you fucking slaves. Die Die Die. We’re rich and you’re not and we’ll be even richer after the mass burials are over. Sucks to be you.

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The Federal government does not have absolute power. Why do “big government” haters suddenly want the Feds to run their lives??** Some checks were delayed because Trump wanted his name on them?** The Huffington Post has reported that $180,000 a year of Trump campaign money is given to his son’s significant others.

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The Carter’s have asked donors to the Carter Center to instead give those donations to local organizations in need.** A great charity is RIP medical debt which puts $100 to every dollar you donate to wipe out medical debt.

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Need some nature sounds in your life? Visit NPS.gov/sounds

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It looks like Macgruber may become an 8 episode series according to Will Forte.

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It is sort of reassuring to see that the late night hosts who mostly hover around my age, are no better at technology than I am.** BTW, Billy Eichner is such a great guest from home.. more please!** I see that one of the 8G band on Late Night has a big pic of Mick’s face behind him at home. I also see that same pic everyday above my desk. A kindred spirit.

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Linda McMahon, wife of WWE chair, announced the18.5 million Trump super PAC in Florida. Governor DeSantis now calls WWE essential. Many of the wrestlers were fired so the bottom line looks good.

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Being willfully stupid is not part of the Christian tradition.- John Meecham

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Some fast food workers went on strike. This is a good time to do it. Risking your lives for minimum wage is hardly worth it.

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Threadgill’s, the Austin bar that helped launch Janis Joplin is closing down.

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Is this true? 150 members of the Saudi royal family tested positive for covid-19.** Did Trump play down the virus because he owes millions to China’s state owned banks or was it to try to get dirt on Biden?

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I am not sure what has happened to the American workplace. So many strides were made in the mid 20th century but a lot of that seems to have fallen away. I see so many employers leaving it to employees to provide supplies before they even get the job. Teachers sometimes buy things for the classrooms. Some employees must buy their own cell phones for video conferences or even punching in and out. Some nursing home employees bring in their own cough drops or snacks for residents. How much $ do the people at the top need?? No sick pay? Work or starve!

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Everyone staying at home proves how badly we need a better high speed internet system in the U.S.

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Porn hub has been giving free porn.** The My Pillow guy is praising Trump as he donates 50,000 masks.

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All these Trump worshipping MAGA shills, they’re willing to die for the dumbest, flounciest fancy lad in history. –Patton Oswalt.

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So we don’t want to give Government help to immigrants who pay taxes, we do want to help cruise lines who avoid taxes by registering as foreign companies. Got it! ???

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The Neo confederate hate group, ‘league of the south’ is moving ahead with its annual conference in June.** Trump is getting ready to open the country with a coalition of his republican Governors and companies (some of whom seemed surprised). ** How did we get here? If our Pres is incapable of reading simple memos, he is incompetent. ** Scary Clown is trying to speed up the Wall as we are dropping like flies.

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This can’t be true. Federal agents are confiscating masks and supplies in hospitals, presumably for ICE agents??** Was Scary Clown 45 trying to force congress out of session so that he could skate some recess appointments by?** Rules have been weakened as to the release of mercury and various toxins from oil and coal power plants.** Dr. Oz and Dr. Phil do not seem to concerned about the virus.** Trump circled back around to the heat and light thing as a cure because he could not get over the shit he got for telling us that spring’s warm weather would take care of everything, right?

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Chicago businessman Gene Staples has purchased Indiana Beach amusement park and will open in July if he is able.

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Nascar will be back this month with new races but without the live audience.

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Catch Ashes to Ash: The disappearance of Robert Bee on Youtube.

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As everyone is sick with respiratory problems and the pollution has ebbed a bit, scary clown 45 has to roll back some of our rules that protect clean air. Auto emissions are rolled back to 1.5%.  He has to be loving the fact that we can’t all gather and protest. Hmmm?? Perhaps it is a conspiracy.. but his.** Oh but the disbelievers did gather in Michigan with dolls in nooses and confederate flags. Why do they think that the medical experts are telling them this for partisan reasons or just for their own kicks? They have our safety in mind. Use your fucking heads. How can this country get stupider as time goes on? ** Why can’t they just cover Covid treatment? Medical debt is gonna skyrocket.** I don’t like big government either but in times of crises and health care, we need it to work properly. ** But when the powers that be tell us that animals can’t get it and then a tiger gets it or that masks don’t protect you and then they suddenly do, it makes us all skeptical. Way to confuse us fuckers!!  Even with the ignorant and the panicked, just tell us the truth and the average person will be with ya!!** It was snowing in April? Where was this warmer weather that was going to kill the virus?

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You just knew that Trump and his cronies had money on the line when it came to hydroxychloroquine. ** Scary Clown 45 has removed the very man who was set to oversee the $ 2 trillion stimulus. The good ol boys can’t wait to get their hands on that money while people are dying. ** Trump delayed checks that are not direct deposit because he wants his name on them.** People had trouble getting thru when applying for unemployment. Canada gave out the benefits and then checked the details.** States and companies are very confused. Jared claims he is in charge, Pence is supposed to be in charge and FEMA claims they are the final word.  Trump seems to thrive on chaos. The states bidding, stocks up and down and Doctors disagreeing are right up his alley. He probably does hate being stuck at the WH.

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People will forgive you for not being the leader you should be, they will never forgive you for not being the leader you claim to be.

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Why should it be surprising that poor communities are being hit so hard? The poor, the minorities do so much of the cleaning, the cooking and delivering that still has to be done. When people are not sheltering in place because they are needed or they need that paycheck, of course they are getting infected since they are still out there. Add to that, little or no health care and poor diets from food deserts etc. and there you go.

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White House press secretary Stephanie Grisham is out after 9 months.  Kayleigh Mcenany is in.** Vaccine chief Rick Bright is reassigned. He recently wanted to put hydroxychloroquine to some rigorous tests. He has been vocal about the administration.

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Lights Out is leaving Comedy Central and looking for another place to air.

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Can’t wait to see Mrs. America about the women who shaped our past.

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I rarely pay attention to advertising but I love that Chantix turkey. I hate the fact that he had a smoking problem, though.

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Every prisoner in every prison, especially the non -violent and the elderly should be reviewed. There needs to be more room made for white collar crimes that hurt so many more of us.

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Word is that Kim Jung un is brain dead.

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Rumble media has released Planet of the Humans from Jeff Gibbs on Youtube . The film will run free for 30 days and sort of explodes the myth of our ‘green’ heroes.

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Common, Woody Harrelson and Shinola watch co. have created a cannabis leak motif watch and the proceeds will go to criminal justice reform.

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Navy Captain Crozier was fired for telling the truth and looking after his crew. ** The U.S.S. Comfort isn’t taking Covid patients??

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Good bye Schitt’s Creek. We sure will miss ya!!

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Franklin Graham was asking volunteers for his field hospital in NY to sign a ‘statement of faith.’  It stated that they, “believe in God’s plan for human sexuality within the context of marriage between a man and a woman and that those that stray from those beliefs face eternal damnation and eternal judgement in Hell.”**

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Jon Cryer has a new book out: So that happened.

We can see now what would happen if all the humans were dead. The mountain goats have come down the hill and taken over a town in Wales. The Pandas are finally mating in Hong Kong now that they have some privacy.

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Bernie is out after 4 long conversations with Obama and tells us that he will concentrate on the pandemic. Looks like we are stuck with Biden.  At least Biden is talking about lowering Medicare to 60. It’s not enough but at least it’s a start.** Who will the female VP pick be, Klobuchar, Witmer, Abrams??

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Netflix along with Steve Carell and Greg Daniel will bring us Space Force on May 29 with Lisa Kudrow and John Malkovich.

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In Sweden, all land is for public use. Imagine!!

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ICP cancelled their Juggalo fest.

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Perhaps home schooling will become more popular. Perhaps with the pollution dropping, humans will get the message that we have really fucked ourselves in this world. Less cars people!!** The Twitter CEO donated a billion. That made the other top $ people look like schmucks.

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Kleenex Cottonelle is donating a million rolls and a million bucks. Share A Square!!

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Fight Island??

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Tiger King.. who cares.. Crip Camp is the one to watch.  A Secret Love is also great. This is the world that we should build from the ashes of Covid-19.** Stop trying to get me to watch Tiger King. –Bill Maher

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We are in a recession.** I don’t understand when I see so many “devout”  people show no respect for religions other than their own.

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Tom Pelphrey on Ozark this season just blew me away!! He has to be the one to watch at the Emmy’s.

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On a personal note: Hey Aunt Ritski, I will never forget that you saved a couple of people from drowning when you were a lifeguard. I will never forget one of your favorite tales, that you wanted to be Miss Kitty when you were 5 years old and got a little drunk trying. I will never forget the times that you drove thru the ditches, your Cooter Brown stories or the way that you often left all the change on the bar when we were out.  How could anyone forget the weddings, the bullet you had to live with the rest of your life and the love you had for your siblings. We will miss you forever because all of the lives you touched would have been a whole lot different without you in it. What the fuck would we have talked about if not for the saga of you? I can think of nobody who would disagree with that. Your family loves you baby. Go in Peace and serenity.

 R.I.P. Adam Schlesinger, Ellis Marsalis Jr., Mort Drucker, Lorena Boreja, Janet Alexander,  Patricia Bosworth, Bucky Pizzarelli, Logan Wiliams, Maeve Williams, Wallace Roney, Joe Diffie, Andrew Jack, Alan Merrill, John Prine, Thomas L. Miller, tornado victims, Charlotte Figi, David Driscoll, Hal Willner, Patricia Bosworth, Ann Sullivan, Brooke Taylor, the Canadian shooting victims, Matt Seligman, Barney Ales, Bootsy Barnes, Bruce Meyers,Roger Beatty, the tornado victims, Tim Brooke- Taylor, Jorge Camara, Andrew J. Fenady, Brian Dennehy, Don Reed Herring, Henry Graff, Allen Daviou, Tom Lester,  Bill Withers and Rita Hale.

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Cognitive Dissonance

       I wake up in my college dorm, once again drenched in sweat - a common occurrence these days. An outline of my body is molded into the sheets and mattress. I put my headphones into my ears, turn on my iPod and play a song that is chock full of melancholy and sadness. I walk into the conjoined college bathroom, splash water onto my face and just look at my reflection in the mirror. A stranger looks back at me.

       I grew up in an abusive household. My father is an alcoholic with a bad temper, and the alcohol only exacerbated his verbal abuse toward my mother, my younger brother and me. It was an onslaught of being called, “stupid”, “ugly”, and even one time he called me a “tramp”; I was only 13 years old at the time. I spent the majority of my life in extracurricular activities, from playing club soccer to Catholic Sunday school classes.  Pretending you didn’t live in an abusive household was pretty exhausting, feigning happiness became an art form of sorts. This one particular occasion that stands out was in my 7th grade gym class. I remember how my face felt awkward when I smiled and laughed. When I got home that evening I examined my face when I smiled: the left side of my face was slower than the right. When I blinked my left eyelid took a few seconds longer to match the right in movement. When I drank water, the water dribbled out of the left side of my mouth, when I flared my nostrils only the right side would flare out the left stayed motionless. I remained relatively calm when I brought my mother into my room to look at this anomaly. She took me to the doctor the next day and I was diagnosed with Bell’s Palsy, which in my case, was related to stress. This was not one of those moments where we tell the doctor the type of abuse we endure day to day. I took my prescribed medicine and moved on with my life.        Major Depression Disorder affects more than 16.1 million American adults, or about 6.7% of the U.S. population age 18 and older in any given year. [1] When I was a freshman in High School, I began having anxiety attacks during the day, it was as if there was a large weight on my chest and I felt my heart slow down. Normally these attacks would happen at night. I would be lying in bed, trying to fall asleep, but then I would see the walls start caving in around me. It would feel as if my body was being pinched between two fingers, a hard thing to describe. I had the impulse to jump out of bed and begin walking as fast as I could, sometimes I would I have to go outside so I can take a deep breath with fresh air in it. I would mention these events to my Mother but I think she just found it odd but nothing really came from my telling of these anxiety attacks. I don’t believe she really knew much about depression and anxiety, or at least, she didn’t put a label on it.        My freshman year of college was out in Brenham, Texas, just an hour north of Houston. I was pretty excited to live on campus because that meant I was going to be far, far away from my Father. However, the loneliness I felt while I was there took me by surprise. Growing up, I had no problem sitting in my room reading a book. I wasn’t very social outside of my sports playing and church-going activities. I suppose my being holed up in my dorm room, outside of going to class, wasn’t the healthiest option. My roommate was cordial and on the occasion would include me when her friends came over to study. I found it must more pleasant when she would go home for the weekend, some peace and quiet, for me to collect my thoughts. There was a night that my roommate was away and I was feeling so sad. I was frustrated that I wasn’t doing well in any of my classes that weren’t electives, I missed my dog, and strangely enough my home. I began thinking about what would happen if I decided to kill myself. What were the pros of no longer existing, anywhere but here would have to be better; even as a God-fearing Catholic I was willing to take those odds of being sent to Hell for suicide. I put a large amount of my depression medication in my hand and put it up to my mouth to ingest but I couldn’t do it. I thought about how much my death would destroy my Mother, how much she has gone through with my Father and how she didn’t deserve to endure pain by my hand.        I withdrew from Blinn College in April 2007, moved back home, my parents got a divorce, and I just began working full time. Since I was making some money from working so much I moved out of my Mom’s home and started working three jobs at the mall. I was so busy living a 21-year-old lifestyle I didn’t have time to dwell on my sadness. I still have major depression that rears its ugly head when I’m overwhelmed by work but I put on a happy face to power through. What else can you do? ________________        You begin routines to push you from sunrise to sunset. The industry I work in has the “same shit different day” attitude, I work as an estimator for a body shop. Dealing with the aftermaths of peoples hardships; their loss is my gain. Customers and insurance groups don’t see the monetary benefit I see from damaged vehicles that cost thousands of dollars to fix. However, when dealing with that amount of money from various companies across the country can become very stressful. Paperwork, the quality of work you need to sell back to the owners of those vehicles, and the hassle of collecting payment from insurance companies that might feel they don’t have to pay for certain items.        I have worked for three different body shops around the city of Houston and each one has the same type of coping mechanism: drinking alcohol and ingesting various types of drugs. When I first began in the automotive industry I was still “green”, which was just another term for being new to the field. One of my co-workers, Josh, had anxiety issues and took a high dosage of clonazepam[2] which can help with panic attacks but can also lead to suicidal thoughts, memory loss, and drowsiness. Josh would give me a pill or two to take when he could see I was having a rough day. Normally after a long work week, my co-workers and I would buy a bottle of Crown Royal and hang around the shop for a majority of the night. Josh would tell me, “Fuck it, this job sucks anyway” and we would take a clonazepam with a glass of whiskey.        One afternoon I couldn’t handle the clonazepam I took. I honestly can’t remember how many I took, but I remember having a major panic attack. I couldn’t stop crying or saying how much I wanted to die. It was enough that my manager at the time asked me if I wanted to go to the hospital and...I don’t remember how I got to the emergency room. After I was evaluated, my Mother and Step Dad showed up at the hospital and talked with me about what I was feeling. I was put in an ambulance and taken to a mental institution and held there for 7 days. This was a completely different type of outcome than my attempt at attempted suicide some 6 years prior. You have a routine from sunrise to sunset in that hospital. Nurses wake you up around five in the morning to take your blood pressure, take your meds, and then back to bed only to be woken up again at eight in the morning for breakfast. It was an interesting system to be in because of the different types of health issues you personally get to be involved with. My first night there I was woken up to a woman screaming for her cigarettes. Some of those women coming off of meth or heroin can’t miss an opportunity to smoke or else they will fight a nurse.        This hospital was split between men and woman when it came to breakfast, lunch, dinner, and quiet time. You can’t spend too much time mingling with the opposite sex. I did notice a younger, dark-haired, Hispanic guy who couldn’t have been more than 25 years old. He was manic-depressive; the way he would just stare off into the distance but he had a look in his eyes that just seemed empty and lifeless. I would try to talk to him but he wouldn’t really say much of anything, hardly a grunt of acknowledgement. The other guys would say “he’s too quiet” and “very weird”. I saw something in that manic-depressive guy that I was so afraid to see in myself. I couldn’t shut myself off completely like that. I had one of my best friends from the body shop, Chris, come and visit me. He asked me, “How long are you gonna be held up in here? This place feels creepy, almost like jail but cleaner.” My best friend has been in county jail for street racing so I could see where he was coming from. “I don’t know when they’ll let me out of here. Once I have my evaluation and the doctors think it’s safe for me to go home.”, I told him. Chris had such a look of pity and confusion on his face and in his eyes. I’ve always been honest with Chris about my depression but he could never quite wrap his head around the issue of me just feeling sad. After 5 days in that hospital, I was ready to fake being happy. I missed my home, my dog, and fresh air from outside of those walls. On the 7th day, I was released. My Mother came to pick me up from the hospital and as soon as we drove away from the building I started crying. A cry of relief, of shame, guilt, and happiness to be free.

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I was fired from my job at the body shop a month after I returned to work from getting out of the hospital. I honestly can not remember my final month at the shop. I am fairly certain they kept my workload to a minimum. When I was let go it was the shop foreman, TJ, that brought me into the manager's office, “I’m sorry, Ashley, but we’re gonna have to let you go. Clean out your desk. You’re done for the day.” No one is a fan of being fired and I remember feeling calm at first as I packed up my desk and said my brief goodbyes to Josh and Chris. As I was leaving though I saw TJ again and that was when I started crying and he hugged me. Apologizing. So only a month away from my hospital stay and I was home alone with only my dog and bills I couldn’t afford. This was November 2013, just a week before Thanksgiving. Ah, what to give thanks for? It actually took over four months for me to find a job as a receptionist at a moving company and over a period of six months, I was promoted to an accountant. Thus began my love for accounting, or more specifically the love of counting money. During this time I also started having a friends with benefits relationship with my current boyfriend. I have not had another major depressive episode since working at the body shop. When I told my boyfriend, Jonathan, about the mental hospital I was in he was very supportive. One of his best friends, Clayton, was in a mental hospital for three weeks, I have actually spoken with Clayton concerning this and he describes how generous Jonathan was, “Jonathan would come and visit me almost every other day just to see how I was doing. He was the only one of our friends who would do that. Jonathan is one of the kindest guys you’ll ever know.” All of that is true. On me and Jonathan’s second anniversary, he told me how he really feels about me, “When I look at you I see someone that’s felt sadness and hard times just like me. I see someone that hasn't quit. Someone that hasn’t compromised being themselves.” Knowing you live with this overwhelming amount of sadness inside of you and having to carry the burden of that knowledge alone is tiring. To have someone by my side through toughs times is very helpful. My family has all but moved to other sides of the state or out to other states so seeing them becomes more difficult. I’m not one to attempt contact with friends. I prefer to be alone so my old friends are just distant memories. My dog passed away a couple years ago so it was tough waking up alone and not having someone to get you out of bed every morning. However, having Jonathan, even his cat Pablo has made a home with us, is a blessing I would have never known I deserved or needed. I have found my way back into the body shop business. I have learned from past mistakes and I don’t drink on the job or do any drugs; which is funny to even say considering that should be a give-in with any job. I came back into this industry because I know it pays and I already know the routine it asks for. I have worked at this particular shop for over a year and I have come home crying from stress more than twice but I had Jonathan to catch me as I am falling. However, I find myself drinking just a little bit more every day just to get out of the reality of my current workload. I know though that the harder I work and more accounts I take in the more money I can make, which has paid for the college classes I am currently taking, and the car I am saving up to buy. To keep me from making my past my present I try to keep up a healthy lifestyle with exercise and eating correctly. Running helps create dopamine which creates happy feelings.[3] Although as I’m running I just wonder what it would be like to run away from everything I currently hold dear and never look back; I don’t think I could do that. ________________ [1] Facts & Statistics, Anxiety and Depression Association of America, ADAA, 2018, adaa.org/about-adaa/press-room/facts-statistics. Accessed 22 Sept 2018 [2] Medline Plus. The American Society of Health-System Pharmacists, Inc., 1 Oct. 2018, medlineplus.gov/druginfo/meds/a682279.html . Accessed 18 Oct. 2018. [3] Healthline. Exercise, Depression, and the Brain, 2016, www.healthline.com/health/depression/exercise. Accessed 17 Nov. 2018.

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Expert: Spinning through time and space on a tiny blue sphere, somewhere in an infinite universe.  Well into my 70th revolution around the burning star which sustains us.  Growing ever-closer to imminent demise, but searching…still searching…ever searching for an infinitesimal shred of understanding.  Just a worker bee, blown off course by a hurricane of conflicting information.  Separated and alienated from my Hive long ago. Somewhere deep within the Hive, and hidden from their underlings, the Banking Queen and her Wall Street/Government Drones disseminate electronic misinformation, manipulate the masses, and scheme to control or conquer neighboring colonies. ‘Tis the Hive of Empire. The exceptional Hive. The all-powerful one. Hive of the feared, loathed, and despised.  The Hive of Empire wields unthinkable destructive power, rattling its saber constantly, lest anyone forget it.  Swarms of uniformed, armed killer bees infiltrate neighboring colonies across every inch of the tiny blue sphere.  Info-bees commandeer foreign and domestic media.  Assassin-bees deliver death stings to uncooperative rulers.  Actor/king bees strut, threaten, and remind any doubters who’s running the show.  Worker bees keep noses to the grindstone, hoping only for a small share of milk and honey, bread and circuses. 341 years and counting, the Hive of Empire has grown like a sticky-sweet metastasized melanoma upon our tiny blue sphere.  All the while, those in charge, and a succession of ancestors have been busy concocting tall tales for subservient swarms of workers.  From cradle to grave, the song and dance, dog and pony show goes on.  Worker bee larva suck the fantasy teats of Santa Claus, Easter Bunnies, and Tooth Fairies.  Pupa, spoon-fed tall tales of gods, devils, and angels…heroic accounts of Pilgrims, Founding Fathers, wars of righteousness, the taming of savages, civilizing of Africans, Manifest Destiny!  Can I get a “Hallelujah”?  Adult bees mature, eagerly embracing any yarn they’re told.  Behaving as required.  Blindly, deafly, dumbly, obediently. “Believe!” is the mantra.  To do otherwise: blasphemy, betrayal, unthinkable.  A worker bee’s allegiance must be pledged to the Hive.  Mindlessly and in good faith we toil, oblivious to our own slavery.  Unaware that we’re nothing but resources to be harvested at the whim of the Banking Queen and her Wall Street/Government Drones.  We stand in unison, teary-eyed-proud when The Star Spangled Banner is sung; ignoring the glorification of rockets and bombs, deaf to the third stanza, which cheers the slaughter of runaway slaves during The War of 1812.  Dutifully we cast our sham-election votes.  Left duopoly/right duopoly; death or death, destruction or destruction, war or war, impervious in our sad, sorry, electro-lobotomized ignorance.  Heedless of the abrupt cliff at the end of the road.  Faces buried in our new iPhone 8s; happily texting, tweeting, mimicking the latest mindless chatter, necks bent over on 90 degree angles, spellcheck, google maps, Facebook, iTunes.  Unconcerned with other worker bees around us, for they are equally insulated from their surroundings.  Electro-lobotomized, exemplary and exceptional worker bees. Since my long, lonely separation from the Hive, I’ve acquired some infinitesimal degree of understanding of the seamless, pernicious perfection with which it operates.  To find the root of all evil within the Hive, just follow the money to the Banking Queen.  Shameless slut that she is, she fornicates with Drones from the Legislative, Executive, Judicial, Military, Intelligence, Security, Police, Hollywood, Fake News, Television, Aerospace, Oil, Gas, Coal, Mining, Agrochemical, Big Pharma, Beef/Pork/Poultry/Dairy/Egg, Medical, Insurance, Prison, Real Estate, Construction, Education, and Illicit Drug Industries…just to name a few.  Fucking like rabbits, they form an impenetrable coalition which jealously guards against any changes in the status quo.  The Queen maintains her opulent throne, Drones bask in obscene wealth, worker bee slaves are used and abused until their utility diminishes; then cast aside. The seamless, pernicious system safeguards the continuation of business as usual.  Impossible, infinite growth within a finite blue sphere.  Warfare to maintain continual chaos, population reduction, and control of resources abroad, while the profits trickle down to Drones of every stripe.  C.I.A./Big Pharma-illicit/legal drugs further zombify electro-lobotomized, superfluous masses, sharing wealth and profits with Police/Prison industries.  All branches of Government collude with Agrochemical, Big Pharma, Animal Food Industry, Medical, and, of course, Fake News in a multi-trillion dollar nutritional scam, resulting in a nation of endlessly sick, morbidly obese worker bees, fed a high-protein, high-fat, animal-intensive diet.  This multi-faceted racket has the added benefit of helping eliminate unproductive old people.  Milk makes energy, beef is what’s for dinner, and if you believe that, I’ve got some newly created swamp land in Puerto Rico that might interest you. An infinitesimal degree of understanding has led me to a shitload of conclusions.  Although the whole truth often remains hidden, once you grok the system, the lies jump out and bite you in the ass.  Three Kennedys, King, X, Evers, Wellstone, and Lennon were most certainly NOT killed by lone gunmen or freak accidents.  The official stories of World War II, and all U.S. wars before and since, are pure fiction.  If the Hive of Empire is involved, all the bloodshed is magically turned into profit; U.S. Military Alchemy.  All those heroic trips to the Moon and back were just Hollywood at its best.  If there’s an impending coup d’etat in a socialist-leaning country, it was NOT started within the boundaries of that country.  If the president of a socialist-leaning country is assassinated, the Assassin-bees of the C.I.A. should probably be included in the lineup.  Two Trade Center attacks, The Oklahoma City Bombing, Boston Marathon Bombing;  C.I.A./Hollywood at its best.  China wasn’t the villain in Tibet, rather it saved a whole little colony of worker-bees from lives of slavery, bondage, and mutilation.  Hollywood’s darling Dali Lama is a giggling, babbling C.I.A. stooge.  Nightmare diseases are invented regularly for the benefit of Big Pharma, and provide vewy scawy stories on your favorite Fake News channels.  Poor El Chapo was just a small player who took the fall in the world drug trade, which is owned and operated by the freaks at the C.I.A.  And on and on.  You get the gist. Disclaimer:  It is entirely possible that I’m wrong about any information in the above paragraph…but highly unlikely.  My crystal ball does malfunction occasionally. I really hate to be involved in the assassination of The American Dream, but like George Carlin said; “The reason they call it the American Dream is because you have to be asleep to believe it.”  The Hive of Empire is built upon a framework of lies, and the truth shall set you free.  Free to fly, and dream of a better hive.  If you’re reading this, you’re probably already a Hive escapee.  Our assignment (should we choose to accept it) is to awaken a few hundred million slumbering, electro-lobotomized flying bugs.  Like Che Guevara said:  “You North Americans are very lucky.  You are fighting the most important fight of all.  You live in the belly of the beast.”  Hasta la victoria siempre! http://clubof.info/

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5 Baffling Lies Society Told You About Fat People

A few months ago, Reddit prepared report because it censored a 150,000 -strong radical dedicated to tracking down and harassing fatty people( don’t fret, several fat-hating subreddits “re still here”, at least one with over 100,000 members ). The live of those groups surprised some people — not that there was mock of the overweight, but that there was frothing, pathological hatred of them. And if you’re an overweight girl, then God help you — girls’ self-esteem is inversely proportional to their body weight. And this is because society makes it clear that the overweight are brutal, soulless monsters.

And where you find irrational hatred, you find lots of people who have no idea what the hell they’re talking about. Almost every aspect of our war against fat is clamped by a batch of fallacies, corrects, and dodgy data. For instance, did you know that …

# 5. Weight Discrimination Is Widely Countenanced( But Makes No Sense)

It would be one thing if the obese is just easy-going comedy targets around the place( and “they il be” ), but there is an entire method of all forms of discrimination purported directly at the horizontally-challenged amongst us. Workplace bias against the flab is more prevalent than discrimination on the basis of ethnicity, sexual direction, and disability benefits. And as you can probably guess, it’s worse for women.

To clarify, neither the study nor we are insinuating that weight discrimination is somehow “worse” than racism or sexism. However, unlike its challengers, weight discrimination isn’t often talked about, and actually seems various kinds of acceptable. While we’re all pretty much in agreement that you can’t opt your fornication and race, lots of beings cling to the mentality that weight is not just a option, but likewise a moral alternative. “If those lazy rascals just had some self-respect, they’d put down the ice cream and get off their fuckings! ” Yes , now tell us again about the time you had to sit next to a fat person on a long flight!

… Too, tell us about how when you eat ice cream, it doesn’t weigh .

Never mind that researchers now know over 140 locations across the human genome that contribute to obesity in various ways. Or that whether or not you’re overweight depends heavily on what part of the world you grew up in, what prescription drugs you’re taking, whether “youve had” babes( yes, in the event of its both mothers and fathers ), and your income and demographic group. Thoughts the problem is that parties these days have simply get too lazy? Well, subjects show that in parts of the country where physical activity increased, so did obesity.( Note: People who exercise tend to eat more .) Oh, and your “lazy” Western lifestyle burns the same amount of energy as that of your hunter-gatherer ancestors.

Roughly restated, “Ugg’s mama so fat, when she gather around fuel, she picked around fire.”

What we’re saying is that while you do verify what you gobble, causes outside your verify determine how often you get hungry, how strongly you feel thirst, what food is most easily available to you, and how much occasion and force you have to devote to fitness. In other terms, a thin person taunting a fat person is no different than a wealthy person scorning the poorest of the poor — it requires willful knowledge about how both of you got that way.

# 4. Our Dietary Attires Are More About Vanity Than Health … And That Can Kill You

Ask overweight people why they want to lose the pounds, and a desire to improve image comes in as the top react. We all know why — the fat-hate bunch likes to insist that they actually simply worry about their targets’ health. But the stigma against the overweight has far less to do with health than it does with seeing fatty parties distressing to look at. Channing Tatum can be smoking tobacco and gras on camera in between burns of pure butter, but no one will blink as long as he has those abs. But if he increases 150 pounds, his film vocation will be completed and the tabloids will call him a monster. Twenty pounds if he was a woman TAGEND

“We ask every cadre of fatty be in your butt and breasts! Your person is exclusively for our amusement! ”

The problem with this should be obvious: If we’re thin, it’s all too easy to be lulled to a inaccurate appreciation of security interests, despite the multitude of ways conventional “fat parties diseases” such as cardiovascular both problems and diabetes can plague thin beings, too. Who attends if the doctor’s cry at you when your six-pack says you’re as healthy as can be, right? Nobody looks at a seductive model on a billboard and asks how their blood pressure is doing.

Here’s how crazy it’s gotten. It’s well-known that ceasing inhaling have contributed to heavines gain( about ten pounds, on average ). Society has established us so scared of being overweight that smokers are afraid to quit because of this. A third of smokers say that the same reasons they don’t quit is that they’re afraid they’ll get fat. Hell, many who actually finagle to quit soon find themselves contemplating picking up the garb again because of the pounds they packed on after quitting.

“At least now the judgy assholes just oblige faces and walk away.”

That’s how ingrained the “thin is better than fat” happening is in our culture. There are beings out there who’d preferably danger croaking from cancer than living as a fat person, although there are no physician in the world would recommend it. “You’ve put one across a few pounds, Steve, I’m going to prescribe you this here cartons of Camels. What’s incorrect, Steve? Don’t you want to be hot ? Are you a pussy ? “

# 3. The Obesity Epidemic Is Far More Complicated Than We Think

Type “obesity epidemic” in Google and you’re punched in the gut with close to 1.5 million search results, many of which are from reputable foundations, such as Harvard and the World Health Organization. So who the hell is we, a humble comedy website, to claim that the epidemic doesn’t subsist? No one, that’s who. The nature is fatter and more diabetic than it’s ever seen. The difficulty encompasses countries around the world, and science has identified lots of factors that are contributing to it( none of who the hell is “people around the world all abruptly became lazy slob” ).

However, we are saying that things are a lot more complex than “People are getting fat, so we need to get them thinner, period.” For speciman, being overweight doesn’t means that you’re inevitably unfit , and research expresses that being too lean might in fact be worse for your health. According to a 2013 report that reviewed over 100 previous investigates on the subject, persons living the longest on average are the ones with a BMI in the “overweight” range of 25 -3 0. Though there is a host of possible reasons for this( they might get better healthcare than their leaner equivalents, for one ), this throws an interesting darknes over the whole “thinner= healthier” mentality.

Who could’ve suspected that 100 lbs of extra opposition added to every progress might buttress you up a little bit .

Studies demonstrate that if an obese person is metabolically fit, which predominantly implies activity and not feeing too much horrendous nutrient, then they can be health. Yes, healthy while being obese. There is convincing exhibit that these fit obese parties don’t have a greater danger of expiring from, or even developing, illnesses like cancer and coronary thrombosis than their slimmer counterparts. And then there’s the “obesity absurdity, ” a recent breakthrough that obesity appears to lower fatality in the face of innumerable illnesses, for reasons discipline doesn’t completely understand.

Which is good, because as we’ve “ve said”, dieting statistically repairs severe obesity with a success rate on equality with voodoo and wishful thinking. It’s not much different than telling an addict to “just stop doing heroin” or a poor person to “just go acquire a skill that will acquire you lots of money.” Prohibiting surgery or some other medical involvement, the obese are going to have to find ways to be as healthy as is practicable while knowing they’ll never be that thin, smiling being on the billboard holding up a giant duo of pants.

Don’t be clowned; those are going right into storage for eventually, because your body will try like crazy to force a relapse .

And since we brought up surgery …

# 2. Liposuction Sucks( Away Your Good Fat)

Our fierce rejection of anyone in the plus-size category drives about 400, 000 beings a year in the U.S. alone to try to take a shortcut to thinness via the cheater system of liposuction. Well shit, why doesn’t everybody do that?

It’s because liposuction is a fruitless tool for the obese — and, for that are important, a questionable one for everyone else. It is only appropriate for those with very specific health concerns, or thin people who want to be very slightly thinner in a particular area. What’s more, the methods used comes with more potential health hazards than a crosswalk in the Fast& Furious universe. Harmonizing to lipo experts, the findings are “never drastic.” Well, to its implementation of weight loss, regardless; the drama factor of spooky skin flaps or sudden nasty health complications is well and duly present.

So be developed for the chance of more cellulite — one of several ways lipo can leave you gazing worse .

Even if the surgery goes perfectly, you’ve still likely endangered your health. Read, fatten is kind of useful for some nonsense. This is especially true of the subcutaneous paunch — the stuff directly beneath your skin. This fat protects you from injury and cancer, regulates metabolism, fights infection, and even attains your skin sound smoother and more youthful. Guess which type of fat liposuction almost exclusively removes? The procedure is useless against visceral fat — the other, truly hazardous type of fatty — which is usually lodged deeper down in our body and can’t be lipo’d away, due to a stupid technicality of a whole cluster of organs in the way. Therefore , no matter how much fatty a liposuction removes, you’re unlikely to get the health benefits normal dieting would give you, because the bad paunch is still there, disguising. Scheming .

And that’s the excellent -case scenario. Liposuction also offers copious health risks for something that is typically solely for cosmetic roles. Your surgery might come with a slope order of swelling, smolders, illnes, or other, weirder complications( embolism, skin necrosis …). Too, liposuction is a surgical procedure, so complications can straight-up kill you.

“I don’t upkeep; health risks is worthwhile not to have a slight elbow bulge.”

All right, it was therefore sounds like the goal “mustve been” prevention. If it’s that hard to fix obesity once it starts, then we need to make sure everybody is eating accurately from the moment they pop out of the womb! But then the problem is …

# 1. Calorie And Fat Guidelines Are Ridiculously Flawed

How numerous calories does an adult need? Harmonizing to official data ,~ ATAGEND it’s about 2,000 a daylight. If you’ve evaded appearing up the information collected, don’t fear — they’ve slapped nutrition labels with calorie guidelines on all of your packed nutrients, all according to that sacred 2,000 -calorie estimation. All those Daily Values percentages in the labels are based on it. Which is odd, as your average non-overweight soldier should actually eat 3, 050 calories a daytime merely to insist his load. For women, the above figures is 2, 400 calories per day.

“Do we look like caloric calculators? How much is that in pizza, damn it.”

The only bullshit 2,000 chassis is the product of a funny serial of spurious conclusions, and exclusively exists because when the FDA was trying to come up with nutritional guidelines, they constituted the adroit observation that sketches are a lot easier to do than dependable science. So they looked into a number of USDA inspects on how many calories Americans generally snack. This Family Feud approaching to settling a highly important, nation-defining question gave them the somewhat low-pitched hitherto semi-accurate ballpark of 1,600 -2, 200 calories per epoch for women and 2,000 -3, 000 per era for men. However, the FDA immediately proceeded to fuck up their hard-earned data by deciding to play averages, and mount the recommended daily caloric intake at 2, 350 calories, regardless of age or gender.

Conveniently forgetting that “round figures” was what they were trying to prevent in the fucking first place .

And then there’s fat. If you miss your form to be low in fatty, then you need foods that are low in fatty, right? Hell, that’s basic science! But then that turned out to be complete and utter horseshit, extremely. When the U.S. started clumsily coughing up its first dietary guidelines in 1977, heart attacks had recently taken the throne as the most common cause of demise. There was nothing in the available data to support the claim that dietary fatten grows the risk of heart attack, or any sort of death at all( except perhaps those caused by declining in a puddle of bacon paunch ). Nonetheless, officials were anxious to do something to at least appear to deal with the situation, so they grabbed a knot of arbitrary sign pointing toward paunch and declared it the enemy.

This is in spite of the fact that studies have found that a high-fat diet doesn’t even play a important role in cholesterol buildup, and that our constant fat-avoidance prepares us consume voluminous quantities of carbohydrates instead. Incidentally, carbs break into carbohydrates and a different sort of fatten announced triglyceride, which may cause more harm to your cardiovascular system than any quantity of swine produces you could chow down.

“I’m not sure; let’s accuse eggs and be done with it.” “Good , no one know what the fuck they end up doing anyway.”

Okay, what about sugar and high-fructose corn syrup? Hasn’t science proclaimed them to be Public Enemy# 1 these days? Sure, and you’re wise to cut down on them … unless you replace them with artificial sweeteners, which appear to cause just as much weight amplification, if not more, for a variety of reasons that mostly come down to “They attain you hungrier afterward.”

Confused? Good. That means you’ve gained an accurate belief of what is a truly confusing place. Any jackass who smugly proclaims, “It’s about calories in versus calories out, beings! ” is the most ignorant of all. It’s like saying that solving violation is simple-minded because all we need is everyone to “stop doing crimes.” If they’re not stopping to consider the causes of this abrupt worldwide caloric inequality, they’re being, well, as lazy as they accuse fatty parties of being.

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