#Sorry a character I relate to THAT MUCH who had these exact struggles that no one had ever put into words who was treated as a charcater?!?

[caterpillarinacave]

Autistics love Henry Branwell

#Best autism rep right there #disabled girles love Henry Fairchild #Little tiny autistic me with my fucked up body read a book where someone like me (wasn’t just written off or used for comedy and had a mome #Sorry a character I relate to THAT MUCH who had these exact struggles that no one had ever put into words who was treated as a charcater?!? #He has character depth romantic intrest??? I’m not even shitting you I cried #tsc #tid #tlh #the infernal devices #the last hours #henry fairchild #henry branwell #Cassandra Clare #clockwork angel #clockwork princess #clockwork prince #actually autistic #charlotte fairchild #tsc memes #favorite #I’m hilarious thank you

[gatitties]

HEY HEY HOW R U DOING. ITS FINALLY CHRISTMAS TIME SO MERRY CHRIMUH (2023 passed too fast…) im the one who asked for the strawhats x anxiety! Teen! Reader!!!! And im an angsty person so I just wanna ask…

Can you write Strawhats x struggling! Teen! Reader?? It’s the exact same reader btw, they’re strong and kind and helpful and so sweet, has a tough exterior even if they’re just a kid and the youngest on the ship. And when I mean struggling I mean that they deal with self h*te, their anxiety got worse and so on. They didn’t plan to tell the crew but the crew has noticed their behavior. How they go to their room instead of playing with them like they used to, how they just sit down and zone out, a habit of their’s being to put their hand up to their face and rub in annoyance and stress just like they do with the hand on the chest when they’re anxious. The crew sees them being gloomy when they’re alone or whenever the adults look away (putting on the facade) and the reader doesn’t look like they’re taking care of themselves and they’re looking tired and unmotivated.

(kinda describing me a lil bit I just wanna see my comfort characters react to this sorta thing-)

And they finally confront her about it and after some convincing they finally spill all thats inside and get the love that they don’t think they deserve!!! I love angst sorry…

(Before I wrote this I checked through your rules to see if this kinda thing wasn’t allowed. I didn’t see anything opposing my idea but just know that if you feel uncomfy with this sorta thing then thats ok and you can just ignore this ask.❤️ Or maybe you could reply with a little “no” just so me and others know that ur not ok with it. I wanna be respectful!)

ANYWAY I HOPE U HAVE A GOOD CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR. PLEASE AND TY.

─Strawhats x teen!reader (platonic)

─Summary: You thought everything would be fine after your anxiety attacks subsided, but it was just the calm before your mind played with you.

─Warnings: none

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ayy sorry I'm a little late with this one but here it is 😭, I hope you had a good Christmas, that you started the year on the right foot and may everything go well for now!! 😌

─ You thought your anxiety attacks would end once you confessed how you felt to the crew, partially accepting their help, and while it worked for a while, you went back into your shell.

─ The mind of adolescents is incredibly moldable, and yours decided to take the most contemptuous path towards yourself, the attacks were controlled, but the self-hatred that you began to feel towards yourself made them return.

─ You felt guilty and your pride did not allow you to seek help a second time, feeling that you would be more of a nuisance to the rest.

─ Your appearance underwent changes as well as your behaviors, your energy was drained, you began to lock yourself in your room more, not be present at group celebrations…

─ Eventually they noticed your sudden change again, everything was fine and from one day to the next you become like a stranger with them again, Robin could notice it instantly.

─ All your actions gave you away, but Chopper recognized the signs of anxiety, your rapid breathing, your eyes moving uncontrollably, although he did not understand why you touched your face so much, he thought it was one of the causes of your anxiety.

─ They accepted that you were a stubborn teenager, but this had to be nipped in the bud just as Nami said once she found out that your anxiety attacks had gotten worse lately, since the indirect way of helping wasn't working now.

─ It was much more stressful for you that they decided to confront you directly, since you used to run away from conversations related to your well-being, being something that you feel insecure talking about, you preferred to avoid it.

─ You tried to escape from that talk with bad excuses, but Sanji's kindness made you sit in the chair like a scolded child.

─ Jinbe silenced Luffy because he knew that he was going to be too direct with you, and although they wanted to be, they needed a little tact to talk to you, Usopp took care of that.

─ You avoided eye contact for most of the talk, not wanting to confront them while you spoke.

─ Again, you ended up crying as you let your feelings come to light, you felt trapped enough to let it all out, much more sincerely than the previous time, feeling a little embarrassed by your cruel thoughts towards you.

─ Luffy scolded you again, but he gave you the best hug you could have received in years, everyone joined in afterwards, except Zoro, who watched from afar with a small smile.

─ You felt calmer after the talk, but it will still be difficult for you to express yourself about how you feel, they assured you that it was okay, that it was okay to want to have some time alone when you feel bad, but that they will always be there to help you with all your problems whatever they are.

#op #one piece #request #one piece x reader #one piece x platonic reader #sfw #reader insert #strawhats #strawhats x reader #strawhats x platonic reader #teen reader #one piece x teen reader #strawhats x teen reader #platonic reader

[museofthepyre]

do you know what everyones problem with elijah is? Im new to to fandom and im so genuinly confused as to why people seem to like think elijah is the worst (as in evil) character in the series. like i dont think people find him poorly written, they just, dont like him? which is fine yknow like who you like, but then people act like jedediah is a flawed but good character? which confused me a lot since I actually dislike jedediah more, as he just hurts in a more personal way it feels like. Elijah was sweeping Sydney in with promises of love that he hadnt gotten from jedediah, sydney only accepted that because of the way jedediah had been shunning him for years. It really bothers me that people forgive jedediah for his bad behavior, but then crucify elijah for behavior that while yes was very bad, had been hurting syndey way less for way shorter, and the only reason sydney was that vulnerable was because of jedidiah. Im asking because i am genuinly confused and I cant find anyone talking about the why of disliking elijah, i dont know if im missing something because of personal bias (jedidiahs mistakes that hurt sydney hit much closer to home than elijahs) sorry if this is a bit rambly, Im just very disenheartened to see so many people say they hate elijah when I just dont understand why, you dont need to answer this ask btw its mainly just curiousity

I think you kind of touched on the answer a bit already- imo it definitely comes down to what hits closer to home for any given listener. We all have unconscious biases. We all consume media through the lens of our own life experiences, and… ok ramble incoming

Elijah and Jedidiah both think/ behave in ways that are profoundly human, they represent very real concepts (see my whole Jedidiah= unhealthily distant, withdrawn and cold attachment style, and Elijah= unhealthily obsessive, suffocating and intense attachment style rant). These aren’t your typical innately evil villains, they’re just unhealthy people with warped ideas of love. That is an all too common thing to see irl. I think because of that… many of us can relate one or both of them to people we‘ve known in our own lives… alternatively, we can relate them to ourselves. I’ve heard some people say that Elijah’s actions hit a nerve because of past traumas with toxic relationships… aaand I’ve heard people say the exact same thing about Jedidiah! I think Elijah receives more scrutiny because his actions were… well they were actions. Visible, overt, right in front of you. You can point at them, pick a line from the transcript and say “that right there is bad”. Jedidiah’s wrongs often came in the form of neglect and abandonment, an absence of action, that’s so much harder to pinpoint. Maybe he’s slipping under people’s radars? Maybe more people see themselves in him and have a sense of understanding (which is valid, he embodies some very relatable neurodivergent struggles). Maybe it’s because he steps up and works on himself by the end and we don’t see that from Elijah (yet). Maybe people find Elijah “worse” because he reminds them of a more common negative experience, I’m not sure. One could speculate.

I’ll speak personally as an example of what I mean: I am wayyyyyyy more upset by Jedidiah’s actions. And that’s because of… you guessed it… my own personal experiences and how they influence my perception 🎉🎉🎉 I’ve got BPD, and I have an all consuming fear of abandonment. The idea of loving somebody and then having them suddenly withdraw, avoid you, and treat you coldly all the while providing NO EXPLAINATION WHATSOEVER… just leaving you to spiral and pick apart your own behaviours under a microscope, thinking you must be the problem— it’s a major trigger of mine. I’ve lived it!!! I grew up with it!!!!! It hits a huge sore spot for me and I admittedly struggle to overlook that sometimes when I see him.

Conversely, Elijah… I unfortunately connect with in a much deeper way. My own default attachment style is obsessive, intense, and often leaves me tunnel-visioned and unstable (…BPD), and he speaks a language I understand? If that makes sense. I see so much untreated, pre-awareness me in him. I know what it is to be involuntarily engulfed by an all-consuming obsession/ delusion. He doesn’t scare me, because I know what he’s made of- I see what’s beneath it all when I look in the mirror. Or at least that’s the lens through which I interpret him, I’m sure many disagree and yk what? Absolutely valid!!!!

There’s no one correct way to consume media, yada yada you get the idea, CHNT is unique because no character is intentionally malicious or evil (not counting Adam maybe… Lucille you’re on thin ice) and it’s fascinating how there’s such a dichotomy between the love and hate for these two. I may have swayed a bit off topic I just have many thoughts. I might come back with more later.

Ok rant over 🪱

#ramblings #camp here & there #ch&t #camp here and there #chnt #elijah volkov #jedidiah a a martin #jedidiah martin #sydney sargent #sydney o sargent #pink elephant man #the elephant man #the elephant man chnt

[dogtoling]

how would you go about designing a sona-adjacent character for splatoon? I know I’m going with octoling bc I play as them exclusively and this is more a character made from my ingame avatar, but everything else has me indecisive.. sorry I know this is a vague question but I’m interested in hearing your thoughts

this is a cool question! I struggled with this for a really long time and have had MANY sona designs (which either got trashed or became separate characters over time). Really i think how you approach a sona is different for every person. sorry if this is incoherent as i'm typing at 6am from bed

So basically first thing is what are you planning on using the character for? For example in my case when I used to try making splatoon sonas I made them *too much* like me to the point where i didn't like them and they didn't really fit in the world or were interesting at all. But that's just talking personality-wise. I could make an extremely bland octopus guy who doesnt play Turf War or ever go anywhere but it's also like, what is even the point of having a Splatoon sona at that point. What you want to use your sona for kind of affects how they would ideally be in my opinion.

So the way I ended up designing my sona (Koira) was to have us share traits but not have them specifically BE me, which is an approach that I find works really well in creating a connection to a character while still letting them be a character of their own. I would refer to it as more like making a self-insert character to control in a setting rather than physically being there and feeling confined to being yourself if that makes sense? it probably doesnt. But the self-insert player character is kinda what you already do in Splatoon anyway.

I find it a good approach to go with a mix of aspects that are accurate to you but combined with things that are kind of out there. Then you can have a character that's still interesting and appealing to you and might seem similar enough at face value to be relatable, while not being like, super boring. I don't remember my exact design process with Koira, I wanted the design to be silly and stand out and be relatable to how I play the game and approach the series, while at the same time not being confined to what I would realistically do or be like. Like I do not own a labcoat in real life, or mismatched boots, or round shades.

But I DO own a pair of broken shades i found from a trash can, and in the context of being an avid squid researcher online I felt it would be very fitting to make my in-universe guy an actual squid scientist, and i WISH i had shoes like that because theyre pretty cool. And he has split ends because I DO have split ends (there are so many), but i don't have blonde hair. I picked yellow because it's my favorite color. I would NOT touch turf wars with a ten foot pole if i actually existed in the splatoon world and was the same person there that i am in real life, but like, in the context of Splatoon i might as well have my Splatoon guy represent some aspect of my gameplay experience, hence they own like every weapon but don't really play. Et cetera.

So really again people have different preferences with how to approach making a sona, or sona-adjacent characters like you said, personally the Player Character approach tends to work pretty well for me. I try to reflect my real physical in-the-flesh self less, because that's kind of boring (i literally already exist), and go for the more exaggerated version where some aspects represent me but it's not Literally Me. Like, I'm trying to make What If I Was An Octoling, and not What If An Octoling Looked Like Me The Human. The process of how to get there is a little patchy and again, probably different for everybody, and bear in mind that you might make a sona and not like it and start from scratch. That might happen 5 times. That might happen 10 times. You still learn something more about the process every time.

Here's some questions I can present to help with sona designing...

1. What are some traits that I think reflect myself? How can I include those in the character design?

2. In tandem with the previous question; what species should I pick? (You already picked Octoling, so this one is a bit obsolete - but it's worth thinking about for people who struggle to pick.)

3. If I existed in the Splatoon world, what would I probably, somewhat realistically be doing with my life? What kind of job or hobbies would I have? Can that be reflected in the design?

4. Do I care about any of the above stuff or do I just want to come up with something original? Could I use some of my answers to work with and fill in the blanks with other things that are just cool?

5. How would the ways I play Splatoon be reflected if translated to an in-universe character? (For example, based on how I play, my game-realistic Splatsona would just be a full-time Salmon Runner...)

6. Do I want to use in-game gearsets, or reference the kind of style I prefer in real life, or maybe come up with something unique?

7. Can my main weapon or playstyle be directly equated to my character's personality or appearance? Do I want their personality to be game-accurate, real life accurate or somewhere in between?

8. Finding inspiration through your player character's Badges, Banner and Title that you currently have; what do those say about the player? Or what about the locker?

9. What are some things I love about the setting of Splatoon that I could reflect in a sona or self insert? (For example I made mine an in-universe Inkling researcher to reflect my own obsessiveness about Inkling biology. And squid suckers. I have a dried squid in a minigrip bag on my shelf)

10. The obligatory step in any character design: Can i do something to make it fun or appealing to myself? Adding some flavor.

Aside from all that and I definitely forgot SOMETHING, my general character design tip is do not expect the first draft to be the final perfect result. I watched a video once that said to draw every character design Three Times before 'finalizing' it and it works EXTREMELY well when youre whipping up a character basically from scratch and have an idea in your head, but on paper, you just need some kind of first draft to see if that idea works. The second and third iterations usually help trim out whatever didnt work in the earlier designs and when you keep making more, the parts that DO work are solidified and refined over time.

Rule number 2: if you make a sona design and don't like it, ask yourself why. Then change it! It's not the time to start some kind of self reflecting journey, maybe you just want a more interesting haircut than what you have in real life and you can totally do that if you're bold (my hair is brown, I didn't want the splatoon to have brown hair when like half the point of the game is Neon Color). Maybe you want bright pink eyes. Maybe you want a ridiculous job that you could never do in real life but that would make your character way more interesting. Maybe you want to give them a pet slug because you would LOVE ONE in real life but dont have one, and that would complete the character.

i forgot my point but hopefully this helped and was useful even a little bit? yay

#mailbox

[the-ninja-legacy-whip]

hi!!! im new to the legacyverse and i have a question that i hope youll be comfortable with answering!!

if you don't mind my asking, what are the races of your main ocs?? i noticed that in the oc bingo you did for jesse you didnt circle the "white" box, so im assuming hes poc, but i cant exactly tell what race he is by appearance alone :(

im so sorry if youve already answered a question like this; i havent looked through much of your blog yet so theres still a lot abt your characters i dont know! feel free to ignore this ask if you want!!

i hope youre having an absolutely wonderful day and i cant wait for the next chapter of book 3!! :DDD <33

Hello!!! Welcome to the madness ^-^)/

Shocking enough I haven’t been asked this specific question before! I’m actually a little surprised it didn’t come up sooner :d

And I certainly see you’ve been doing some research if you dug up the silly bingo post skfjslfjsjakd

Anyway:

Jesse and Miranda are both 1/4th-Japanese on their father’s/grandmother’s side and half-Spanish (as in, descended from someone born from Ninjago-equivalent Spain) on their mother’s side, which is related to why they don’t exactly have “oh yeah you’re totally ____” characteristics at a glance. Mainly pulling from my own mixed heritage experience here tho (just not that exact combination, haha). We haven’t had the time to truly dig into it in the main story, but it has been referenced here and there that the siblings do speak some Spanish, while their family’s restaurant tends to skewer towards more Japanese-inspired dishes. Surprise!

Olivia takes inspiration for her movie’s voice actor, Ali Wong, who herself is of Chinese-American and Vietnamese ancestry!

Bridget’s African-American

Sunni’s got French/German genes, but this is subject to change. Still poking around with her backstory!

Harleigh’s not 100% locked in yet, still researching some stuff, but due to the red hair there’s some limited options, heh (I’m struggling with her since she’s related to Ronin + I’m still designing her mom, ahahah)

#info tag #legacyverse #oc: jesse marvell #oc: miranda marvell #oc: sunni dayes #oc: olivia omar #oc: bridget rondinelli #oc: harleigh kognito

[disabilityshowdown]

i'd like to showcase a character i really like... saki tenma!!!

saki is from a game called project sekai, where 5 groups of teenagers all have worlds in their phones called SEKAIs, manifestations of their emotions and feelings, and in them is hatsune miku (and other vocaloids) to help them figure out their true feelings!

saki is in a rock band called leo/need with her 3 childhood friends. saki is chronically ill, although her exact chronic illness hasn't been mentioned, and had been in and out of the hospital since she was little. during middle school, she was practically always in the hospital, and her and her friends had drifted away, due to all of them having different problems in their lives at the time.

saki's described as having a very physically frail body, along with fainting very easily. she catches illnesses very easily and can make herself sick from overexerting herself, so most fans agree she most likely has some form of an autoimmune illness.

after being deemed healthy enough to return back to school in her first year of highschool, her and her friends eventually reconcile and decide to form a band together, she's the keyboardist! she is very cheerful and tries her hardest to get things done. because of all the time she spent alone in the hospital, she's dead-set on making the most of her life! she loves hanging out with her friends.

she also has an older brother (one year older), tsukasa. the two are very close and have an ADORABLE relationship. tsukasa is an actor/performer, and became one because of saki's support!

overall, i think saki's chronic illness is treated really well in the plot of project sekai. while it does affect her and how her life goes, she isn't reduced to only her chronic illness. she has struggles other than her illness, and has plenty of times she is happy, outgoing and enjoying herself. i think the writers did a very good job writing saki.

also, most importantly, shes adorable! what's not to like?

fun fact: the pink gradient in her hair is completely natural! her brother has a similar natural gradient, but orange rather than pink.

[also im very sorry for not including image descriptions, i am mentally disabled and cannot properly explain images and cannot write image descriptions properly]

[Image 1 ID: A fully rendered and dynamically posed art piece of Saki, a light skinned anime style character with pink eyes, and long blonde hair in two pigtails, that fades to pink at the ends. She is dressed in a white collared shirt, red tie, black skirt, and yellow jacket. The background behind her is of a classroom with some tables put up for the end of the day, and she is posing at a piano keyboard, with one hand on the keys and the other reaching out to the viewer]

[Image 2 ID: A much more chibi style comic panel set in a hospital, where Saki is in white pyjamas with a bunch of magazines in front of her, and flowers to her right. Her brother (who looks similar to her but with short hair that fades to orange) is posing with a flower while doing a dance move, wearing a similar uniform to Saki in the first picture. He says "As your brother I'm here to cheer you up with a new move!" while a person behind him says "Mr Tenma, please keep it down! This is a hospital!" There is a "Yay!" not in a speech bubble above Saki's head, and more onomatopoeia illustrating the dance]

[Image 3 ID: The same art style as the first image, in bright colours. Saki looks to have fallen down, lying amidst a pile of toys and music equipment, adjusting glasses on her face. A white coat and orange sweater have been added to her outfit, and she holds an open notebook in one hand. /end IDs]

thanks for sending this in! i can totally see why you like her, and as a disabled actor/musician i can relate so much

#totally get you on the image descriptions it's tough! and like 90% of the reason i've been taking a week between rounds #project sekai #saki tenma #bonus events

[tothepointofinsanity]

the new pmmm movie trailer has brought back my Brainrot for the show so ive been re-exploring the pmmm corner of tumblr and

oh my god???? oh my fucking god???? oh holy shit???? oh my goodness gracious your art is so pretty??????? hello???????????

the way you draw sayaka is just fhfhfhfhhfhfhfhfhfhfhfhfhfhfhfhhfhf. yk? the english language does not have the words to articulate how much i love you art and the style of your art. i am going insane. i am losing my mind. every piece you've made featuring sayaka just captures her essence so well and it makes me feral.

sayaka's not my main favorite of the show (sorry sayaka, you rock but kyoko is just too cool with her Christian Guilt) she's a very close second and it makes me so happy to see an artist who just understands her character so well. she's a foolish girl blind to her own fate, desperate to do something special and be someone worthwhile but she's ultimately just a footnote in the grand plan of the universe, she wants to be just and righteous and kind so badly but she's too wrapped up in her own despair to truly be selfless, she can be selfish and callous but that's just because she's human, a human who realized her existence is ultimately an exercise in futility and that fact burns and it hurts so she does whatever she can to make the pain go away but it never does because she's just A Normal, Flawed Girl and that hurts so goddamn much-

i have so many Thoughts about sayaka. she makes me insane on a daily basis and your art just feels like it captures all the screeching in my brain and puts it in the form of some beautiful images. they're so great. you're doing great.

Ah, thank you for the kind words [♡] I appreciate the time you had taken out to write and send this long scroll of a compliment.

I have been told by others that the way I depict Sayaka is "so real" and that it captures her essence most of the time, even though I am not sure what particular elements about her that people in the audience like unless specified. I suppose, personally, whenever I am drawing her, I have to enter her shoes of not just "the frustration of a lovesick teenage girl", "my perceived sense of justice was flawed", but also to accept that resignation is a highlight of her character. A young girl who believes she is unloved despite her desire to do everything Right. A mermaid who cannot swim - futility and uselessness contribute to why Sayaka is a realistic and compelling person to a lot of people watching the show. Whenever I draw her, my brain paints a sketch of her sadness before anything else. The despair of "no matter what I do, this is the outcome" is true to the canon of Sayaka turning into a Witch in every timeline she tries to accomplish this Goodness by being a magical girl, reflecting the reality at large the helplessness girls in general experience on a daily basis.

It is why I find people who hate Sayaka to be...strange, since their prescribed reasons for dislike are mainly how "foolish" her wish and outlook in life was, and how she became irritating to those around her as though Sayaka isn't literally a paragon of not just deteriorating mental health, but to me, people with personality disorders as well, given that there is always a "sense" that the inevitable ending involves everyone actively avoiding you and you will eventually just...fade away into non-existence; a bad memory that no one wants to speak about. It makes me sad. Sayaka is sick, and everyone can smell the rot of magic off her.

Everytime I draw her, I want to capture, perhaps, this exact feeling of resigning to this disease. I don't want to always make the drawings beautiful since her struggles are ugly and difficult and tiresome, and shouldn't be trivialised as a result. She's always trying her best to regain control of her own life, thus being so unmatched in terms of how relatable she is to a lot of people.

I am glad that someone appreciates my works, even if they aren't always consistently quality. •́ ‿ ,•̀

#ASKS 💌 #the most girl ever

[wutheringskies]

"Well, personally, I don't think MDZS characters are on the spectrum?"

oh. not even Lan Zhan? (or Song Lan?) I'm autistic and it's genuinely impossible for me to not read him that way. Especially the part where your personal morals clash with the chaos and messiness of the outside world. He's my favorite because I felt his journey and growth as a character deep in my soul. Idk about other autistic people but to me it was always the most painful thing: holding on to my values while trying to be more flexible and not attacking people or cutting them off for minor offenses. Over the course of the story,Lan Zhan manages to mature,understand Wei Ying better,and become more flexible without becoming disillusioned or passive,so he's really an ideal in that sense.

Sorry,I ranted too much again

"No wonder why Jiang Yanli, though a little more aware due to her sex and standing, gives the same vibes? like a sort of lost, good, kind vibe?"

Yes! yes! Those are exactly the vibes. I was just joking to someone a while ago that both Lan Zhan and Wei Ying have been raised by the exact same older sibling figure. Honesly that puts Yanli and Xichen's achievements in perspective,cause they both encouraged or allowed their younger siblings to be idealistic and righteous,instead of stifling those impulses,which is a choice and a great thing.

And yes,unlike Lan Xichen,Jiang Yanli is that passive mostly because of her status and sex. And because of being traumatized by a horrible abusive narc mom.

They should have been allowed to have like a soup and flute club together every sunday or something. The friendship would have done them good. (Maybe let Wen Ning join too)

Anyway,thank you for replying! It was fun talking to you!

Hey! I'm really sorry for not seeing this before. I forgot to open my inbox.

Yes, I personally do not perceive MDZS characters on the spectrum. There are two reasons for this - firstly, Lan Zhan's character is very well written. Personally, I did not feel the need to enhance him. I think you can call me a bit of 'canon purist,' that is, I derive most pleasure from improving my understanding of a literary work to be as close as possible to authorial intent (I am of course, open to divergences, enhancements, and all sorts of stuff. But if we go by my 'default' setting, it is this.)

Secondly, I would count as a neurotypical person. I think you'd agree that in many fandoms, the 'quiet' or 'just a little bit weird' person, as well as the cheery, energetic person are often immediately headcanonned as neurodivergent. Thus, I guess I felt like doing so to Lan Zhan etc might be me leaning heavily into stereotypes! In my personal experience, my close cousins - though diagnosed similarly on the spectrum, had extremely varying thinking processes.

However, it is enlightening to know more about why you characterized him as such - especially about becoming more comfortable in his skin. Lan Zhan is also my favourite character, though for different reasons. I can relate to his desire to perform each task with excellence, preference for quietude, and struggle with his dominant orientation. How he tried his hardest to be a liberal, before becoming radicalized. The struggle of being someone who respects traditional and societal values, but has his own strong personal ideals, morality and desires that cannot co-exist with them :( It's tragic how he wished to protect the one he loved, tried but wasn't good at expressing himself, wasn't powerful enough to guarantee peace, wasn't politically smart enough to change things, wasn't strong enough to fight the whole world for him, and eventually, he was even unwanted by his lover, who was hurt by him. Thus, exiled by love and punished by his clan, he really had nothing to look forward to. Yet, he choose to rise up, day after day and make the differences he could make.

I think his persistence and his healing is the most impressive thing about him for me. How he was inadequate but then, became someone who could protect Wei Ying.

There's no need to apologize! I quite love your takes and rants. (PS - please don't take my stating I am a canon purist as a form of discouraging thought. That is only for my personal satisfaction!)

I totally agree. I wish to add Xiao XIngchen to this club. In a highly tense political environment, these characters were adorably in need of some splash painting and crafts sessions. I'd love to put all of them together in some club in a Modern AU. Jiang Yanli will cook, Lan Xichen will paint and play sad, and funky melodies, Wen Ning will help and Xiao Xingchen will laugh at everything.

#my ask #mo dao zu shi #mdzs #lan wangji #lan xichen

[seventeenlovesthree]

How Byler reminds me of Taishirou

I actually didn't ship any ship in Stranger Things prior to season 4, as all the couple related drama in season 3 was definitely not for me and I also hadn't been aware of all the subtext. Upon watching season 4 and falling down several meta rabbit holes, the cute Byler AMV I had watched a year ago or so suddenly made a whole lot of sense - and, looking at my shipping preferences, it does surprise me that I hadn't fallen for it sooner.

Long story short, in their essence, they remind me of Taishirou - I know, I know, please don’t throw rocks at me yet, I do compare them to a lot of other ships, but hear me out. Obviously, they are NOT the exact same characters, but the way they became friends, adore and admire each other and grow up to have severe communication issues are somewhat interesting parallels. At least to me, so I'm gonna try to explain it a bit.

Things Mike and Taichi have in common:

The first thing that comes to mind is how they start their respective stories with (perceived) main character status, driving things forward, showing courage and ambition while doing so (finding Will vs. leading the Chosen Children). 

Interestingly enough, their associated worn colour is "blue". Also: Layered clothing.

One of my favourite comparisons is their abilty to turn into grumpy cats when things don't go their way - especially when they struggle to reach certain people on the phone. 

Having very caring moms (even if they can’t really open up to them about their “secrets”), a little sister and a dad who’s more in the back (though Taichi obviously doesn’t have a big sister). 

Both of them have a talent in getting girls mad at them (El vs. Sora), mostly due to poor word choices. They’re actually both hopeless nuts in that regard with 02!Taichi being the only exception.

Lots and lots of hair. 

Growing self esteem issues for various reasons, as Mike considers himself just “lucky” to have found El and not being good enough for her. Additionally, he’s seen afraid of losing her just as much as fearing to lose Will in season 1 and 2; whereas Taichi struggles with his sense of recklessness, fearing to hurt and (also!) lose the ones he loves; both of them are pretty much unable to face these things for quite a while, causing a drift towards their best friends...

Things they don't have in common:

While Taichi is not your typical "nerd", he can still be quite a dork, despite being very sporty - whereas Mike struggles to even run in a straight line.

Taichi trying hard to pursue a girlfriend is mainly a thing that happens in fanon, but not in canon.

Things Will and Koushirou have in common:

They are (at least starting off as) being quite short - which has some impact on Mike and Taichi respectively being protective of them.

Their associated colours may not be the same, but “yellow” and “orange” are quite close after all. Additionally, "Will the Wise" (= knowledgable) has a “purple” colour scheme (which is Koushirou’s signature colour). Also: Collar shirts!

Both are being bullied at school early on for being “different” (which is only implied for Koushirou in the novel, as his classmates are making fun of his laptop or considering him “hard to get along with”). 

While their family situations are very different, it does have impact on their self esteem in some ways (having an abusive dad vs. being adopted and not knowing his whereabouts). Despite that, they are dearly loved by their closest ones (mom and brother vs. adoptive parents), even if they can't fully open up to them (yet). 

Humble ("Are you okay?" after waking up from being possessed towards his big brother’s injured hand vs. "I'm sorry I couldn't fulfill your expectations" after having figured out how to get the group back into their own world), but can be snarky if necessary (”Friends, what friends?” vs. “How did you ever guess?”). 

Also surprisingly emotional about things/people who matter to them (especially when they feel rejected by them)...

Questionable haircut choices. 

Can get very focused on/invested in their special interests (art vs. computers/problem solving) while not noticing their surroundings.

Both are getting panicky over girls - in somewhat different contexts though.

Quite perceptive towards certain things ("feeling" Vecna vs. feeling that something about the Digital World is "off"), even if that definitely isn’t their strongest comparison, see below.

Things they don't have in common:

They're different kinds of "nerds", artistic (+ D’n’D) nerd/genius vs. computer/science nerd/genius.

Unless we’re talking about Reboot!Koushirou, despite both of them having underlying self-esteem issues, Koushirou’s “otherness” doesn’t seem to bother him too much (as his self-esteem issues are rather resulting from him not not knowing where he comes from at first and then later whenever he is unable to function without his “knowledge”).

The whole deal about Will “getting possessed” and being “perceptive of some otherworldly (and/or dark) being” would actually be more fitting for Hikari, but for comparison’s sake... Let’s stick with what we have, shall we. Koushirou DOES have a strong intuition when something’s up after all.

How Byler reminds me of Taishirou:

The way they became friends is not exactly the same, but has similar implications - Mike saw Will on a swing in kindergarden and asked him to become his friend, which, in his own words, was “the best thing I ever did”. Whereas Koushirou joined the football club at their shared school, Taichi immediately took him under his wing as an upperclassman, making him “one of the few exceptions”, according to the novel. And without Taichi, Koushirou would “never have gone to Summer Camp”. The rest is history.

Hands on shoulders. Lots and lots of hands on shoulders. Also the (decreasing) height difference, of course.

My favourite comparison about them is their deep-rooted loyalty towards one another - even if Byler is definitely more vocal about it (”Crazy together?” - “Crazy together”, as Mike’s entire objective in the first season was to find Will), Taishirou are definitely devoted to one another as well (”I have believed in Taichi-san from the very beginning”).

The thing that actually sold me on the comparison was their growing communication issues though; Season 3!Byler is shown to be on bad terms, as Mike is trying very hard to outgrow his nerdy tendencies to impress El, whereas Will is craving for the old D’n’D days with his best friend - the most common fan theory here is that Mike is trying very hard to cover up his true feelings. Season 4 makes that even more apparent by having them “fight” over not having been in touch for 6 months. Taishirou are not explicitly drifting apart, but Taichi is pretty much implied to be drifting away from everyone and, according to the stageplay, lost sight of himself, without being able to confide in his best friend (and Koushirou has been vocal about being mad at Taichi for dealing with things by himself very early on).

Despite that, the devotion is still there - as mentioned above, Koushirou always believed in Taichi being “their leader” and Will always believed in Mike to be “the heart”. Will giving Mike his painting (which he specifically made for him) in season 4, reassuring him in his strengths, is basically synonymous with Stageplay!Koushirou giving Taichi his goggles (which he specifically made for him), and thus giving him his courage back as well. And in the end... They’ll always have each others backs if they manage to open up to one another.

Long story short, if Byler becomes canon in season 5, I will cherish this even more. One could also say... There’d be stranger things than that.

#taishirou #taishiro #byler #meta #my two cents #personal #i probably could have found more comparisons and pictures but i'm tired

[slowbrunette-archived]

You can't be a stan of Billy and Nancy at the same time! lol are you crazy or what? you're supporting classism, ableism, homphobia and white feminism by deffending Nancy.

shit, not this again 😂🤦🏻‍♀️..

i can because is fiction and i chose to be an apologist for both in equal ways if i fucking please. also, embarrassingly funny of you to assume nancy is all those things when you are basing all your opinions on her in your own bias, rather than using the empathy you'd surely lay on your fave male characters like steve, jonathan or eddie for example.

steve has a right to have a shred of nuance, humanity and the 'poor innocent little nice guy' treatment just because he said sorry to every person he hurt with his actions and has a gay best friend. that's apparently enough to pat him in the back.

however, god forbid a teenage girl for calling her boyfriend an idiot while helping him with school in spite of said boyfriend clearly taking it as a joke, struggling with her best friend's death that everybody, yes including steve, failed to listen to her about, getting drunk in the middle of her suvivor's guilt trauma, mixed emotions about two guys, using bad coping skills that affected her communication towards both and poorly misshandling a break-up, that um, she was so in her right to do after no longer taking how steve was not even trying to understand the grief she she was processing and him still wanting them to live in their own shallow bubble, act like stupid teenagers and pretend everything's perfect like nothing happened.

if i had a boyfriend who allowed his idiotic friends to degrade me and try hard to errase my grief over serious shit, hell i'd call him bullshit too sober or not! i don't care if that makes me a bitch.

my bad for thinking steve calling jonathan with the f word, using vile insults against him, his mother and missing brother. him allowing tommy and carol to make 'nancy the sl*t wheeler' spray paint bully antic happen, him being creepy at nancy on insisting to breed her in S4 knowing she's with jonathan, apparently all that are all tolerable since he apologized, wohoo nice guy uwu steve innocent!!!

god forbid nancy for asking barb to go with her at steve's party since she didn't want to be left alone with him and his other two best friends, that made it clear from day one, that hated her so bad. god forbid nancy for trying different things or social groups her age when the chance was given. don't even try to come for me saying i'm against barb not agreeing with her choices, as much as i also relate to her here, barb's attitude towards nance could also be critical because she seems very bitter that her best friend is hanging around with popular kids while she couldn't fit. that, along with her being swallowed by the monster wasn't nancy's fault either.

god forbid nancy not understanding jonathan's struggles and using the oliver twist as a sarcasm reference in S3 while he, aka the same exact creepy ass fucker who took pictures of her naked without her conscent in S1, neither understands her when she got all kinds of sexist and degrading harassment from older co workers. no, she must he the only wrong one and her situation must be downplayed at all cost because its her, she's not poor and because she hasn't gone through any consequences, which by the way, y'all are getting weirder everyday on wanting her to go through hell and be punished as if she was an adult, a sociopath or k*ren. y'all are getting fucking weirder each day by diagnosing her as a narcissist, an abuser, an ableist and a republican that hates gays just because her parents are reaganites.

it all must be her fault or else i support the duffers making her a girlboss who can't make mistakes yada yada andallthatjazzshit, i MUST see her as an abuser or else i support real life toxic women.

god forbid nancy for existing on the show and messing up i guess 🙄, regardless that the duffers don't know how to write her either, for making mistakes when said male characters have done much and lower worse stuff, but they get a pat in the back bc y'all buy their so called redemption cheap ass atempts, y'all are about talking shit about the duffers for how they've treated your faves and at the same time y'all cherry pick what is convenient to you lmfao

you morons keep bitching every day about antis when y'all also participate in their agenda by trying this hard to dictate others who to stan or how to stan them, class act!, bravo! 🤡🤡🤡

do yourself a solid, if you're on billy tumblr and you're gonna loathe nancy basing your takes on your own judgement go ahead, but don't go around with this hollier-than-thou god complex on fans from the same niche that chose to stan or at least give her some empathy.

here are some facts to make you much more pressed:

S1, S2 and S4 canon steve was bullshit

nancy didn't kill barb

nancy did nothing wrong S1 and S2

hating on stancy, jancy, ronance, eddancy, wheelgrove just because of her does not make you edgy or interesting.

suck some ass, fuck off and choke. go take your air quality of critical thinking somewhere else.

#nancy wheeler antis dni #billy hargrove antis dni #ask #cheri answers #anonynous #billy hargrove antis DO NOT REBLOG/INTERACT #nancy wheeler deserves better #anti steve harrington

[mangalover4321]

Hi, I love your story of Requiem of a redemption where Shinjuro is the main character. I would want to know what is your opinion about every Rengoku and who is your favourite.

Hello there! Sorry for the wait! Thank you for the ask and compliment on the story as well!

So first up would be Shinjurou. And you might think that he is my favorite but actually he isn't! I love writing and developing him more as a character. Giving him a background to who he was as a person, father, and brother prior to the known canon story is fun and enjoyable. I like expanding on certain characters in stories, hoping to evolve them and have readers connect more with them.

Next is Kyoujurou! An absolute sweetheart when it comes to watching over his brother and having a gigantic heart too! He is definitely most easy going on his home life but definitely has a solid grip and focus when out on missions or with his fellow Demon Slayers. He has that big brother vibe and really is like a ball of sunshine!

Now, my favorite of the family, Senjurou! I just love writing him as well, expanding his personality and how I believe he would be react with all the events that are occurring. In the manga, he is such a lovable character and connects with Tanjirou with such ease and sees him as surrogate brother of sorts. He is able to form bonds with others fairly easily and can relate to others on a more mature level as well. I love being able to develop more of him with his flaws and personality!

The matriarch of the family: Ruka! She is kind to children and loves them as well even with such limited time with them. Her time with Shinjurou helped pulling him out of his struggles and even made him become the man he had desperately wanted to be (although it did not last after her passing). Do I believe she is watching over Shinjurou? ABSOLUTELY. She is proud of his progress and watching him slowly overcome struggles, especially with giving up his drinking.

I've also included the brief thoughts on my Rengoku OC's as well!

Tsuyojurou is definitely someone not to mess with. He cares little about Shinjurou but is well aware of the care and concern his mother holds over him. Writing him is a struggle since his attitude is much like his father's and I don't want him to be seen as exactly the same. He has differences with the man and he too like the rest of his brothers care little about the man.

Ryoujurou portrays a kinder exterior but he holds massive secrets (in regards to the Rengoku family and himself). Eventually more will be discussed about him in the Scabbed Heart (Let Me In) but he is fun to write! His outward appearance is more deceiving than others believe because of his kind nature.

Yua, the beloved mother to Shinjurou, is secretive to Shinjurou. She wants to protect him from his father and make sure that her other sons do not follow their father's path. She absolutely loves her children to death and unfortunately as the readers know, she is unwavering in this act. She is definitely among one of my favorites to write about since she is mysterious in her exact past and why she cares so immensely for her children.

Tokujurou, the father, is pretty much a shit bag. He holds no love or care over his wife or children; only wanting to secure a line in the Rengoku name. He continually belittles and abuses his children and there are hints of Yua undergoing this as well.

I hope this answers your question! Thank you again for asking!

#fanfiction asks #demon slayer #rengoku kyoujurou #rengoku shinjuro #rengoku kyojuro #rengoku kyōjurō #kny #rengoku senjurou #rengoku #rengoku ruka #kny spoilers #ask box #requiem of a redemption #time travel fanfiction #time travel #rengoku family #rengoku kny #kny rengoku #kimetsu no yaiba rengoku

[the-obiwan-for-me]

Hey, I’ve been reading your “She Said The Word” AU religiously (I am sorry that I didn’t comment much on More Than Blood and I wish I had, but let me tell you I was eagerly reading all of it and was so incredibly happy when a new chapter came out) and I LOVE EVERY WORD, but I’m not here to write an entire novel. I’m here to say thank you for Lily Bo in particular. Lily resonates with me so, so much in every stage of her life. Her feelings, her triumphs, her struggles, her chaotic energy and how that affects her life, her trauma, her feelings toward her family, all of that is so relatable to me that it feels like I could have written her. What I wanted to thank you for, specifically, is her relationship with Tiana. It’s not a main focus and it didn’t last for very long, and of course her exact sexuality is not stated, but I am l a lesbian and that little bit of representation with a character that had already given me so much means the absolute world to me.

Maybe this doesn’t make a lot of sense and this whole thing about being grateful for a fanfic character’s love interest is weird, but I like to tell people when they’ve made me happy, and you have made me so much more than “happy” can sufficiently describe, that I sent this to you. Vor entye, ner vod.

Thank you so much!!! ❤️❤️❤️

Of all the characters I have added to the canon cast of characters in this AU, Lily seems to be the one that truly touches people the deepest. And I love it, and I get it.

It could be so easy to write a boring one sided family who is always 100% perfect together, but that would be so disingenuous and unrealistic. Lily, particularly, suffered trauma that literally NO ONE should suffer through at 13, and you just don't simply bounce back to normal after that. She should have baggage and issues, even if she has doting, loving supportive parents, siblings who want the best for her, and extended family (including many wonderful friends of the family from Jedi to Wrens) who think the world of her.

And as for Lily and Tiana, I'm glad you loved their bright but short little love affair (and I've also been really relieved no one has been mad that it WAS short! I have a lot of thoughts on why I did that but that's neither here nor there). Beyond my trite "no one is really 100% straight in a GFFA because sexuality and gender identity aren't issues in a world with space wizards," I do think representation MATTERS. And I think making it no big deal within the story is important, too. Lily falls for a girl, Korkie loves a man, Tol'ket talks of his first true love being a Twi'lek boy, and Bo all but admits to having been in love with Ursa. But these things are talked about easily. Without judgement or bigotry. Even though Korkie hides his love, it's only because of poor Aled's anxiety of not being worthy of a Kryze than the fact that they are gay.

Essentially, I might write a lot of angst and trauma, but I also write, in a way, a world I wish WE had.

I don't know what is in store for Lily, love wise. But I am so happy her brief little love affair made you happy. She deserves to be happy, and I think Tiana was a big catalyst in helping her start down a path that would get her there. Which just goes to show that not all meaningful relationships have to be deep and long romances like her parents.

Anyway, thanks for letting me ramble on about my girl and her family and my musings about why I write what I write. I never get tired of talking about them.

#she said the word #she said the word au #more than blood #lily bo kryze #fic writing

[oleanderblume]

I watched all of heartstopper today and I have THOUGHTS

Don't worry they are good thoughts.

One of my absolute *least* favorite things in entertainment media is the use of current, and predominantly online terms.

Especially when it comes to more left leaning politics. Because it comes off incredibly pedantic and pandering and insincere. Like, there was this cute show I was totally into up until it started using terms in that incredibly forced and insincere way, where I turned it off and simply haven't touched it again.

I'm really picky about this shit because I'm one of those fuckers that likes the characters to be characters before they are *insert token check box here* and that particular form of "inclusivity" just reads as tone deaf because I don't know a single person who would *out loud and in regards to themselves* use that type of language.

And like, that's generally a really big issue with lgbt+ fiction in media, because for some reason production companies and directors think that we like our identities being entirely linked to politics :/

Heartstopper was a breath fresh fucking air for me (I legit almost cried like 4 times watching it) because all the characters had incredibly believable dialog and reactions and even little inside jokes that are common within the community to the point that if you are *in* the lgbt+ community, you'd get it, and if you aren't, it's something small enough, you'd not even notice.

They felt like characters before they felt like stereotypical, tokenized identities, which was really nice. It felt like a *romance* before a story about sexuality, and the romance was incredibly well done 👏

And holy FUCK I love how they handled Elle. Actually, I loved how they handled every character's gender and sexuality, because it wasn't cheap. It was organic.

They trusted the audience to put two and two together about Elle being trans before finally dropping the proverbial bomb in I think like, the second to last episode??? Idk for sure but I *loved* it.

Maybe because I do the exact same thing with my trans character in Caring for Your Clown. Cause Oliver isn't *officially* revealed as trans until the mid point, but there are tons of hints throughout the text leading up to that point and I've not seen that anywhere else except for Heartstopper. (Granted the only other example i can think of is the trash fire that was high guardian spice trying to explain transgender people XD)

Like, Elle's treatment in the story is basically why I'm ranting about the show right now because I loved it so much. Granted, I kind of wished she had more screen time, but I'm automatically biased to love literally any trans rep so....that aside, Elle's character specifically was a really beautiful take on that representation.

I think though, the thing that really made this show so wonderful for me was how every POV character (with exceptions of Isaac cause he sort of doesn't exist) has incredibly relatable and realistic thoughts, reactions and above all else, STRUGGLES that are accurately portrayed.

Not over emphasized, or made into a caricature. It's genuine nuance to them in their individual arcs.

Case in point: Elle's crush on Tao being largely inhibited by her fear (or at least me perception of her fear) that Tao would never be interested in her *because* she is trans. Cause you best be damned if I didn't catch that.

It's framed in a "Don't want to ruin the friendship" sort of way, but you cannot reasonably convince me that she wouldn't be terrified of pursuing a relationship with him because he is straight, and how that commonly reflects the idea that straight people won't ever be into trans people on the basis of their AGAB.

Like I'm sorry. You can't tell me I'm wrong here.

(This is also a parallel in my books, cause my MC has feelings for another and he actively dismisses them because he thinks that that person doesn't want him as a *boy*— I mean, there's also like a ton of other reasons, but that's one of them)

Or the entire arc with Charlie being feeling as though he is a burden to Nick because of his past relationship. Or the fact that it is so *evident* that Nick immediately understands that his fear of being ostracized and asking Charlie to do the exact same thing he did with Ben is hurtful.

Also HOLY FUCK actual God damned bisexual representation???? Like a MAIN CHARACTER being openly, decidedly bisexual? I love that. Because it's so often the "I don't like lables" sexuality. I fucking loved it when Nick came to that conclusion.

Basically, as an author, and avid lover of storytelling...heartstopper is really good and I highly recommend it if you want to see genuine and nuanced portrayal of LGBT+ romance.

And I really hope I get more fucking Elle and Tao because I love every scene with them so much I need my girl to be happy.

#heartstopper #idk i liked it a lot

[romanarose]

Hi!! I'm the person who left the message about chapter 4 of Seattle and I have so much I want to say!!

First of all, you are absolutely NOT useless. I think you'd be very dearly missed in fandom. You're great! Second, I am so so sorry to hear what you have been going through. As someone who struggles with depression I relate A LOT to what you described and I wish I could give you a hug. I have had that exact "crying in the car for 45 minutes" moment and honestly I respect you so much for going into Panda Express with tears in your eyes. That is a sign of strength, to do something even when it is difficult. I respect the hell out of you and I'm rooting for you really hard (I actually live in Seattle so just know there is someone over here cheering you on!!)

Speaking of, I finished Seattle yesterday and a big part of what I appreciated about it was exactly what you described - Rebecca is strong, but abuse can happen to anyone. Seeing her strength, her love, her hope was honestly so inspiring and motivating. Another thing I absolutely adored was her connection to her faith. You honoured that Marc has a complicated history with faith and his family in a beautiful way, and you allowed him and Rebecca not to be on the exact same page about it in such a respectful way. The traditions and the Hebrew you incorporated added so much character to the story and warmed my heart to read about. I have Jewish holiday notifications on my google calendar bc I want to honour my Jewish friend's faith and check in with her when important days are coming up, and Seattle actually taught me some new stuff and showed me there are so mamy things I should google so I can be a better friend to her, I dunno it was just a sweet added bonus for me in a fic that was already so great and meaningful.

Lastly!! I did not find $10 dollars on the street but I read your story Lucky which was even better!!! Again, as someone with depression that story REALLY hit home. This line in particular "...and then I started feeling fucking useless, and things just spiraled." I FEEL LIKE YOU READ MY MIND. Everything described is exactly how I have felt, exactly what I've gone through. And everything Will said in this fic is something I need to learn to tell myself. This story really tugged at my heartstrings, made me feel understood and seen and hopeful. Thank you so much for that. I know I will be coming back to it time and time again when I feel down and need a pick me up.

Hi!!!!!! Thank you for reaching out again! The panda express cured me

jk but after a huuuuuuuuuggggeeee cry and a lot of food i feel much better this week and im really really really hoping things are on the up now.

As for Seattle... your from seattle!!!!! I bet thats why it caught your eye lol. Sorry it wasn't actually about Seattle haha.

Rebecca's faith is something I really wanted to explore with her and Marc. IDK if you read any of the bonus endings, but in Cleaning Out My Closet, Marc is quite religious again. I wanted Rebecca to be a proud Jewish woman and explore her finding her practice again. She never left being Jewish, but it was pushed down due to Jack. So it was more finding that faith expression again, while Marc found his faith. Marc never stopped being Jewish, but he was fairly removed from it all.

Jack caught Rebecca in a vunerable moment, a moment she was no longer codependant with Marc and was probably still struggling with that idea of being on her own, even if she was still in contact with Marc. Also, she didn't date. Her entire high school, Marc was at her side and no one was going to fuck with Marc. for 6 years of college and grad school she didnt date either, just trying to get through each day. And no matter how strong you are, when you've grown up with abuse and never having that parental love, you're ripe to fall for lovebombing and someone rich taking care of you.

Doesn't mean she's weak, it makes she's human.

And one of my favorite parts of Seattle is Marc's reaction to Rebecca's pregnancy. Not only is he just genuinely thrilled, elated to be having kids with her, but the fact he's so excited to tell his dad, Matty, and all his street level marvel friends.

AH Lucky, that's a comfort fic of mine, honestly. The idea of Will taking care of me....

Not that you have to, but Sunshine Starlight Sweetheart Brightside and then Leather and Lace deal with similar themes of recovery from child abuse, sexual assault, and addiction, but that's just an aside

I appreciate you reaching out, and telling me all these kind things. These sorts of messages I've gotten for my series at different times always make me so happy and warm, but at this particular dark point in my life, it's meant a lot more.

So, thank you again.

#seattle moon knight series #romana answers asks

[thyandrawrites]

Hi, there! Hope you're doing well.

I wanna ask a question regarding Dabi and Twice's relationship.

We've seen that Dabi has no problems working with Twice and is seemingly not annoyed by his antics and contradictory personality. Twice also has confidence in Dabi's strength and rebuffed his doubt about his own strength. It is implied that Dabi and Twice views each other as brothers in combat, even though there were occasional arguments between them.

During the war arc, Dabi doesn't blame Twice for his mistakes and goes to save him from Hawks. Dabi even gives Twice some encouragement to keep fighting, showing no signs of blame towards his comrade and actually gives Twice a high-five.

But during Twice's death, Dabi appears devastated to the point where he becomes fully committed to the task of killing Hawks to avenge his ally, but only because he cares more about Twice's worth to his own ambitions than his friendship with him.

Dabi even further says that he doesn't care about Shiggy or the League.

Did Dabi really mean it what he said there to Hawks? Or is he just trying to suppress his emotions by acting all tough and ruthless and not caring about anyone around him especially the League?

Hey! sorry for the belated response, I've been busy and this ask deserved more than a quick response.

To understand Dabi we need to understand a key trait of his characterization: he is not emotionally well-adjusted. As such, none of his statements about how he feels can be taken at face value, because he's not in touch with his emotions when he says them. A take I see fairly often is that he acts aloof and standoffish on purpose because he values his independence, but imho that's only partially accurate. He does do that, but it's a subconscious thing. He doesn't do it to be a tough guy or a tsundere. He literally lacks the emotional tools to relate to others in a healthy way.

Allow me to make a comparison with Shouto to better explain my point. At the beginning of the manga, Shouto was very similar to Dabi in a lot of ways. He was distant from the rest of the class, he was super self-reliant, and he picked fights with people that he felt were looking down on his strength:

these are all things Dabi does, too. The reason behind them is simple: it's a learned behaviour from having to survive in an abusive household with a self-reliant, authoritative example of masculinity as their sole role model growing up. I'm not stating this to say that either Dabi or Shouto are trying to consciously emulate their dad, but they do, in fact, model after him to a certain extent, though without realizing. They definitely internalized that someone who is strong acts like this. Standoffish, strongly focused on a goal, hostile to anything that might distract them from achieving their goal:

before his character development, Shouto used to be dismissive of other people, unwilling to accept their help, and outright rude. All of this not because he wanted to, but because he didn't realize he was doing it. By Shouto's own admission, his goal of getting back at his father clouded his best judgement, leaving only anger and laser-focus ambition behind.

And I say it's subconscious because even after receiving character development, Shouto still struggles to shrug off his self-reliance:

It's only when Aizawa points it out to him that Shouto realizes he cut off Momo entirely. He assumed he had the best plan, and didn't let her give suggestions on their team strategy. Shouto did notice that she wanted to say something, but since he's used to dealing with things alone, having been trained to be strong on his own, he doesn't even think of asking for her help. He just assumes he's the boss and that she'd play support cause the situation calls for it, and he's already got a plan.

In much the same fashion, Dabi does the exact same thing with the League. He doesn't clue them in on what he's planning to do with the broadcast, assuming they would all play support:

He's rude without meaning to (calling Spinner a lizard and Toga a freak), and above all, he's too laser-focused on his own goal to take part in a group goal, coming across as cold and distant in the process:

How does any of this relate to Twice, you might wonder. I'm getting there!

As I mentioned, Shouto did all of those things for two reasons: one, he didn't know better, and two, his hatred for his dad put that burning, all-encompassing urge to achieve his goal above any attempt at socializing and having other priorities in life.

In fact, that tunnel vision was so strong, Shouto later reflects that it blinded him from even acknowledging other people.

"I guess I wasn't even looking at him from that very start. In order to deny Endeavor and all that he is... because that's the only thing I was seeing"

the above line applies to Dabi as well. Shouto got to the point of relating to his brother and saying "he is me" because he recognized that same self-destructive, single-minded hatred that paralyzed him for so long in Dabi. Dabi, who is still stuck in that mindset.

It's not that Dabi consciously wants to keep Twice and the League at arm's length. It's that he's too emotionally maladjusted to even look at them and see friend material in any of them. Just like how Shouto protested that he belonged in the friendly atmosphere of class A and challengingly declared that he wasn't there to make friends but only to become a stronger hero, Dabi shows the same inability to think of the League as anything else but an asset to his goal.

So when he says this:

he's not a reliable narrator that we should take at face value. He says what he thinks to be true, but we readers know that is not an accurate depiction of his real feelings, the ones he's repressing in order to achieve that goal. I mean, look at his eyes. They're as wide as dinner plates, his pupils tiny pinpricks. His mouth is pulled in one of his most manic smiles. The art also clues us in: when he says all of this, he's high on adrenaline and pure rage. He's not lucid, and he's furthest away from being in touch with his feelings than ever. Cause in this moment, with the sting of yet another hero's betrayal that he didn't see coming, it's like he was slapped across the face by his trauma all over again. So clearly, he reacts with a coping method: he closes like a clam, shuts people out even more, and clings to his revenge with an even more desperate effort.

This is how I think he rationalizes it. Follow his "logic": if he doesn't care about the League, then he doesn't care about Hawks killing one of them. If he doesn't care about Hawks' backstabbing, then he doesn't care about heroes betraying his trust. That in turn means he doesn't care that his father was one of those as well, a "hero" who never showed up at Sekoto Peak and let him die alone. And if he doesn't care about his father's betrayal, then he cannot be hurt by it. If he's not hurt by Endvr's abandonment, then it means he's indifferent to his father's judgement that he's a failure. And if he's indifferent, then it means his father never had that much power over Touya's self perception in the first place. Then that judgement wouldn't be true. Touya would not be a failure after all. And if he's not a failure, then he is strong. If he is strong he's still in the running for his father attention, and his existence still has a purpose.

Are you still following?

Putting it that way shows just how far his emotional repression goes. Basically, Dabi's got 25 years of unaddressed issues that he never got any closure on, and to this day, they still stunt his ability to move on from his trauma and see anything past the goal of getting his father's attention. His relationships with his family and with his peers, unfortunately, end up as a casualty to that war. It's not that he doesn't care, or that he wants to keep people distant, or that he wants to hurt them.

It's that his hatred is stronger than any other feeling he might've once experienced, numbing him to anything that isn't his revenge.

That doesn't mean that he doesn't feel those things, though. His grief for Twice was real. He still feels the other emotions, but they're just overshadowed by his rage and desperation, which get worse and worse off the longer he spends self-destructing to achieve his goal

#ali replies #bnha #bnha meta #meta:dabi #meta:todoroki #dabi #todoroki touya #my post

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haikyuu!! boys when you come out to them as bisexual  🏳️‍🌈

characters: yamaguchi, tsukishima & kenma

part two!!

tw// fem!reader, fluff, coming out, 

Tadashi Yamaguchi

ok so hot-take but i think yamaguchi is straight

(or maybe bi but with a heavy preference for females)

but rn he identifies as straight 

but like..he’s so supportive of the lgbtq+ community

like tsukishima gives off ‘gay but homophobic’ energy

but yamaguchi has ‘straight but a strong ally’ energy

and this is hugely bc while tsukishima fell down the alt-right pipeline, yamaguchi was going through that ‘women 😍🤩💕’  phase which i think every WLW has went through at one point

like while tsukishima was watching ‘sjw get rekt compliation #125′ , yamaguchi was watching those heart-wrenching lgbtq+ short films on youtube 

and on tiktok his fyp was probably originally cottagecore (bc it’s his ideal lifestyle ofc) and somehow he is now kinda on sapphic cottagecore tiktok 

like not to fetishize them or anything, just bc he’s awed by how in love they are and that’s kinda what he wants for himself

(also he uses them as date inspo for you and him DFBZVAYUL)

anyway this was just my lengthened explanation as to why - unbeknownst to you or anyone - he was an ally to the lgbtq+ community (if not apart of it)

you didn’t really expect him to be disgusted or unsupportive of it tbh - i mean, it’s tadashi ffs! 💞 you know he’d never break up with you or judge you for something like that, but that didn’t stop you from being slightly nervous

but he was ten times more nervous when you texted him, asking for him to meet you by the local park’s fountain bc you had something important to tell him

mans thought you were dying ngl

he almost burst out crying on the walk to the park bc he imagined a whole scenario where he was sitting next to your fkn death-bed 

but you seemed healthy enough so his next assumption was that you were going to break-up with him

so when he approached you by the water fountain and you noticed that his eyes were glossy and his hair was damp with sweat, you were quite worried for him now

‘tadashi! are you okay?! your eyes are all puffy and red! do you have hay fever?’

yamaguchi rapidly shook his head, hastily escorting you to a nearby park bench so you could sit down beside him, ‘it’s nothing; what is it that you want to tell me?’

‘oh’ you choked, quickly averting your gaze from his kind, damp eyes. ‘it’s- um, i don’t-’ you cut yourself off, mentally cursing at yourself as you had practised what you were going to say to him hundreds of times before he arrived yet you still couldn’t stammer it out

yamaguchi was hanging on each word you uttered, but once he noticed that you were struggling, he placed his hands upon yours and shot you a reassuring smile

you let out a sigh in hopes to relieve your nerves while rehearsing what you were gonna say one more time in your head before blurting it out,

‘babe, erm, i’ve been questioning for a while and i’ve concluded that i’m bi - as in bisexual; and i just thought i’d tell you bec--’

you genuinely thought that you might have to explain to yamaguchi what bisexual means so IMAGINE your surprise when he simply replies, ‘you’re bisexual? is that all you wanted to tell me?’ and once you hum in agreement, he lets out a heave of euphoric relief

‘(y/n), please don’t make fun of me but on the way here, i was almost gonna cry because i thought you were going to tell me something horrible.’ he clutched his chest, breathing heavily - usually he’d never admit to something like that but right now, he felt that it was appropriate

you snickered at his rather exaggerated actions, ‘awh, baby. i’m sorry.’ a pout formed on your lips as you soothingly rubbed his back.

yamaguchi rapidly shook his head before turning the tables and rubbing your back instead, ‘nonono, it’s fine! i’m fine!- and i’m glad you’re fine too.’ he stumbled, hastily placing a kiss on your cheek before whispering in your ear, ‘i’m so proud of you. congratulations!’

although you couldn’t see his face, you could tell from his light voice that he was beaming 

after that, he buried his nose into the crook of you neck and snaked his arms around your waist to pull you into a hug, which you both stayed in for a good 5 minutes

Kei Tsukishima

let’s be honest, tsukki’s definitely part of the lgbtq+ community but in deep denial

like if you ask him, he’s not even questioning his gender or sexuality, he’s just ✨straight ✨

so when you just randomly joked one day ‘oi, four-eyes, turn this shit off. she’s too much for my lil’ bi heart to handle.’ while y’all were watching a movie and you instinctively made an off-hand comment about how gorgeous the female lead was 

upon realising what you just said, you turned to him with the most awkward grin plastered on your face, ‘tsukki, i’m bisexual, by the way.’

‘no shit, sherlock.’ he hissed at your use of that little nickname 

you turned your head to look at him as you blinked rapidly, finally  mentally processing his response 

while he did the exact same thing simultaneously, dramatically turning his head to meet your gaze before muttering, ‘was that you coming out?’

your eyes widened as you realised, then nodded slowly

tsukishima smirked, shifting his attention back onto the movie, ‘congrats.’ he spoke in a mellow voice, a slight sense of amiability laced into his tone 

‘thanks-’

‘have you told your parents yet?’ he quirked a brow, his eyes remaining glued to the screen

you hesitated before shaking your head, ‘no.’ 

‘what about your friends?’

‘yeah, i came out to my friend group a few months ago - along with yamaguchi.’

tsukishima couldn’t help but frown at the fact you came out to yamaguchi before him but honestly, he couldn’t blame you - he was aware that his bitchy exterior probably discouraged you from telling him sooner, so he was just glad that you had the confidence to tell him eventually  

‘so how long have you known that you’re, like, y’know, bi?’  he inquired further

‘a while.’ you hummed, biting your bottom lip, internally so relieved that he wasn’t being too awkward or weird about it

‘good for you.’ he pushed his glasses up the bridge of his nose, not a hint of sarcasm or irony detected in his voice for a change, ‘oh, and good luck with coming out to your parents’

‘thank you.’ you murmur, happily shifting your attention back onto the movie

 tsukishima honestly doesn’t mind/care tbh

like he’s supportive and will beat a bitch up if they don’t accept you - but in general, he thinks that it’s none of his business who you love

as long as it is him (ಥ _ ಥ) 

Kenma Kuzome

ok so fun story 

you were both chilling in his room on a saturday, he was playing on his nintendo switch as always and you were on your phone

you had been meaning to come out to him for a while now but every time you tried, it seemed as though something happened to prevent you from doing so 

for example, you tried to come out to him while y’all were chilling at the park but then a bunch of geese started terrorizing y’all and it completely ruined the mood

so you thought that now you were in his room - where there was less of an abundance of geese - it’d be a better time than any to just lift the burden that had been weighing on your chest

you were as nervous as any one would be but you kept on trying to reassure yourself that kenma would be supportive 

however, he had never discussed any lgbtq+ related issues with you so you had no idea where he stood with that sort of stuff but tbh, he doesn’t give off homophobic vibes 

after a while of staring at the wall and working up the courage, you finally spoke up, ‘hey, kenma. i think i might be bi.’

you mentally cursed at yourself as you didn’t ‘think’ that you are bi but rather you knew that you are bi, yet you felt the need to add that filler just in case things went sour

he perked up upon hearing this and turned to look at you, a small smile gracing his lips, ‘okay, that’s cool. congratulations.’ 

you couldn’t help but beam back at him, ‘thanks, babe.’ you almost whispered, gladly going back to whatever you were doing on your phone

honestly, you were happy to leave the interaction at that - i mean, his brief and calm response was satisfying beyond expected, as it was probably the least awkward way that could’ve possibly gone down

however, what happened next filled you with endless amounts of euphoria 

‘oh, and (y/n).’ kenma said to grab your attention, ‘i’m bisexual.’

you did a double-take 

your instincts told you to throw yourself into his arms and rave on about how proud you are that he had the courage to come out but after a moment of reflection, you had a better idea

‘okay, that’s cool. congratulations.’

kenma automatically pouted at how you used his own words against him when he was clearly expecting a hug, ‘(y/n)..’ he whined lowly, shifting his gaze back onto his game

but you were weak so ofc you pulled him into a hug as you both muttered sweet, reassuring things into each other’s ears

‘i love you so much, (y/n) no matter what.’

‘i know.’ you snickered.

‘bitch-’

‘i love you too. and i’m so proud of you for coming out - you’re so brave.’

‘aw, thanks. so are you, babe.’

‘i know’

kenma playfully nibbled at your neck for being such a clown during a sentimental moment

but anyway, you helped kenma come out so- yeah :))

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