#SORRY. childhood friends gets to me

[chompe-diem]

he’s a special kind of pathetic <3

#naddpod #albin pembroke #ba2mia #even for murph standards he’s got smthn to him thats a new exciting kind of pathetic #it’s the defeat. the resignation #and maybe even the fall from grace #but mostly the first part i said. bc it also makes his friendship w sol all the sweeter #u are the last thing i have from that life that isn’t tainted. u are the person who makes it feel worth it #you are my past were my present and i only hope you will be in my future again. i love you #SORRY. childhood friends gets to me #also they left him behind and i want him to come back ;-; #pleading on my knees but like an annoying toddler. pleeeeasee pleaseee murph #after they get calder back can they pick him up on the way to frostwind please #sorry now he’s stuck in my head. thinks abt sol making breakfast in the irondeep mountains and who he’s used to making breakfast for #i’m normal (im so lonely you guys) #<- not super serious but i do miss my friends ):

[topnotchquark]

Nico saying that Lewis gives his daughters boxes of presents every Christmas just got caught in my mind.

Imagine you were a mixed race boy born in Hertfordshire, different from everyone else around you. Bullied in school, being raised by your father to compete in a sport where money is very much of essence and you and your family do not have a lot of it. And then you meet this other boy who comes from the kind of life you dream to live one day. You're friends and fierce competitors. You find solace in each other. You visit Monaco for the first time with your friend, dreaming up the life you will have when you make it, when you beat out of the mould that the world thought it could capture you in.

And then you two grow through the ranks and you're at the pinnacle of your sport and you have what it takes to win and the world recognises that you can win. And you win. You win with your friend and fiercest competitor by your side fighting with you for those wins, and this fighting ruins something something that was valuable to both of you when you were still innocent and unsullied by life.

But despite everything that went into the doing and undoing of this relationship, you still realise that this person you once called a friend has a life and family beyond your bitter dynamic. He has children, and children need love and affection and good memories. And you're a better man now so you understand that. So you make sure the kids get gifts on Christmas. And you make sure of it every year. Afterall, if you met someone you loved deeply when you were both kids, wouldn't you feel a pang of nostalgia when they had kids. Wouldn't you try to extend the warmth that you couldn't find for your friend to his children. Afterall, whatever happens during childhood basically remains with you forever.

#and nico's perspective of the same is just #being bullied as a child and being profoundly lonely till you find this friend who is in many ways the yardstick for performance #and even when you go through all this rancidity and the love has almost evaporated down to bare bones politeness #you know there is something that remains deep down #and so he gets your kids Christmas gifts each year #both their childhoods were sites of pain and both of them found something with each other #and lewis honours that by being a positive presence in nico's childrens' lives #albeit from a distance #and of course we're no strangers to how much Nico loves his kids #you can bet if Lewis had kids Nico would do that same #sorry this caught in my heart a little #I knew he had been giving presents for a while and I always thought of that as very beautiful but seeing it on the tl made me remember #man #love haunts you in such peculiar ways forever #brocedes #lewis hamiton #nico rosberg #f1 #formula 1

[caelanglang]

dear diary… one day I met the little prince…

but just as the storybook said… we got separated… all I know is that somewhere out there… we see the same stars…

ps. they found each other again...

#sickly dazai and protective chuuya childhood friends au that nobody asked for #i have a very very special soft spot for wholesome childhood besties aus okay #im sorry if these are getting unnecessarily longer akjsdhfkalf I just love brainrotting abt them sm augh #yes its the little prince reference for me ~ #i have no thoughts my head empty but I survived this hell of a week and I'm so darn proud of every single one of you who did too #have some fluff !! (ignore the angst what angst) #bsd #skk #sketch #sketches #my art #bsd dazai #bsd chuuya #little prince skk au

[sirtotallynotatimetraveler]

Plush Pep's travel in Europe (more photos below the cut)

I wish I could have took more pictures with him but I was a little too socially anxious to haha. Maybe next time!

(I posted some of these photos like a month or two ago on reddit, so don't mind if you've seen the pisa tower pics before)

#i took these pictures back in the summer but i didn't get the chance to post them #i wasnt in the right mental state to get back to posting on social media after my trip #my family got a call from the boarding kennel that my childhood dog passed away while we were still on vacation #2 of my best friends left me not long after that #it was too much to handle to say the least.... #sorry #im being too personal here #anyways here's the tags #pizza tower #peppino spaghetti #peppino plush #doodle does other stuff #this post keeps getting formatted weird so I have to edit this constantly haha

[jjkyaoi]

LOVE ships that are best friends first and lovers second. childhood friends to lovers is my absolute shit. i know everyone loves enemies to lovers rivals to lovers whatever but i love people who just know each other inside and out. who, when they’re together, are still silly and friendly first and foremost. the type of relationship that can have slap fights and know every single intimate detail about each other. who are constantly glued together and sometimes speak at the same time like freaky twins in a horror movie. i love friendship as a deep aspect of love u bitches js don’t get it

#this is abt bakudeku sorry for being cringe will happen again #ships #ship dynamics #bakudeku #best friends #best friends to lovers #lgbt #ao3 #bakudeu #izuocha #mlm #wlw #merthur #farcille #edwin #edwinry #fma brotherhood #edit: this is not a diss on enemies to lovers ships i’d be a hypocrite if i tried considering half of my ships are made up of that dynamic #but friends to lovers is also very cute and gets too much hate for being ‘boring’!! #a relationship doesn’t have to start with hatred to be interesting!! #anwyays slow burn mutual pining childhood friends to lovers will ALWAYS be the blueprint . when will it be me

[pettyprocrastination]

The first time Eddie says he loves you is freshmen year when you order him a meat lover's pizza. 

He’s still asleep, sprawled out on the couch in a way you know must be uncomfortable but he slumbers on through the phone call and the door opening. Only waking once you gently shake him and set a plate on his lap. He looks around for a moment, still disoriented as he squints at the plate before slowly picking it up and then bringing the pizza to his mouth with a hum. Mumbling a “I fuckin’ love you man” with a mouthful of food as you sit down next to him. 

He says it often, after that. Each time you cover a bill, help him study, or race to the Hideout to hand him whatever equipment he had forgotten back at the trailer. 

Each time he picks you up or rents a movie is done with a dramatic frown lined by his voice huffing. “You’re lucky I love you, you know that?” 

But he doesn’t truly say it until senior year. 

When your friendship had become more. After shared woes of lacking romance and desire on the night of homecoming turned into wandering hands and cautious kisses with “is this okay” mumbled against skin that turned into matching hickies hidden under his hellfire t-shirt and the creaking of bed-springs in his trailer damn near every night. It turns into that black lipstick he loves so much smeared against his neck as you straddle his lap and curl your fingers in his hair. 

It isn’t until he’s snapping his hips against yours, fucking into you on a random Thursday night, so delirious on the feeling of your soft cunt gripping his cock and your lips against his that he moans out “I’m in love with you” without realizing he had said it out loud. 

It isn’t until he feels your hands twitch and you pull away to ask “wait, what did you say?” that he his heart drops. 

Tears brim in his eyes as he stutters out excuses as a rapid fire speed. 

He didn’t mean to. 

He was just kidding. 

He didn’t say anything. 

You misheard him.

Anything to save it. Save the relationship. The friendship that he spent years wishing would become more but never acted on because he’d rather you be his best friend than not in his life at all. The one he didn’t want to fuck up just because he was a lovesick fucking moron who didn’t know how to keep his mouth shut and now he’s scared you off for good. 

But then your hands reach out and cup his face, thumbs wiping away his wears as you lean forward until your bare chest is pressed against his and Eddie realizes then you’re crying too. 

“Say it again?” You ask him. That voice he’s laughed and sang with, pleading to him in a tone so soft and broken his heart bleeds. “Please, Eddie?” 

Eddie Munson holds you with trembling hands as he tells you he’s in love with you, and finds ecstasy when you say it back.

Now, the Freak of Hawkins does not only say he loves you. He announces it. Every day he drops you off he hollers it out of the van window with an accompanied honk of his horn, he screams it into the mic of a dingy bar with only three patrons, including yourself, watching him play with his band. He mumbles it into your ear as his hands creep up your waist in a setting entirely too public for him to be so confident in sharing this affection. He moans it against your neck at night, crying it out each time you ride his cock and each morning when you have to pull his head away from your cunt beneath the bed sheets with a wet grin before getting up to make breakfast. 

It’s his greeting, his goodbye, his melody and his battle cry. Days may come where you feel exhausted and desperate, but never do you feel unloved. 

#tj talks #dont look at me i burst wrote this its not even edited i jusr wanted to write some eddie and throw it to the voice #eddie munson #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson x you #eddie munson x yn #also peep the black lipstick mention because MORE EDDIE WITH ALT BITCHES #this post is brought to you by the thought that eddie is so full of love and starved for affection that #he def gets off to you saying you love him #sorry yall im still horned up for this man and will be so for the future #anyways childhood best friends to friends with benefits because yall are in love my beloved #sorry for the randome ddie munson smut but IM #this is probably riddled with spelling errors and misformating but hey take this #wasn't sure if this was long enough for a read more or not so please let me know if you'd like me to add one!

[wikitpowers]

i really don't care if this is an unpopular opinion - but i wanted lucie and matthew to end up together so freaking badly :'))

artist: @camisala01-art

#sorry but yeah lucie and jesse are cute #but there is just something about lucie and matthew that sticks out to me #might also be the childhood friends to lovers trope that i love #+ brother's best friend #c'mon now #they would have been gold #and i feel like we rarely get extrovert x extrovert tropes :( #ALTHOUGH I DO LOVE JESSE DONT MISUNDERSTAND #i'm just thinking out loud here #don't come for me #anyways they're canon to me :')) #lucie herondale #matthew fairchild #jesse blackthorn #the last hours #tlh #tsc

[paunchsalazar]

neck and neck in the bottom awards

#sorry to my friends I did tweet this but it stands.. #bastard sons.. mixed race.. blond. tall.. extending roses.. weird stunted childhood.. history nerds.. #arguably Catholic though I think Alistair is critical of the church to the point of not practicing/participating in organized religion.. #bottom subs…. let’s just be realistic #they are very different don’t get me wrong but their overlap is hilarious to me….. I think what keeps Alistair from being Tamaki is ofc #the horrors of his genre and also that he’s not a full bishonen baby adored by his parents.. #dragon age #ouran high school host club

[pokimoko]

Listening to instrumentals from the silly doo-wee-ooo show is actually something that can be so painful.

#doctor who #doctor who music #murray gold #segun akinola #musings about music #this is specifically about 10's theme in vale decem. the long song in 11's regen piece. and clara's theme in face the raven / clara's diner #i get psychic damage everytime i simply hear the use of the motifs elsewhere because of the tragic associations those sadder renditions hav #obviously these songs aren't the only examples in doctor who but they are by far the most emotionally devastating ones for me personally #and obviously it isn't just leitmotifs either. basically hearing any piece that played during a sad scene gets to me. #how are you supposed to explain to your coworkers that you're tearing up because of instrumental sound association? #'yeah sorry these violins and humming sounds summoned vivid images of my favourite character dying/leaving and it made me sad' #love that composers can just straight up pavlov bell your emotions by getting you to associate a melody with a sad scene #an addition to this is doctor who instrumentals that make me nostalgic because I associate them with my own past #like 'this is gallifrey: our childhood. our home'. that song was one of my alarms for a good long while back when i was 15ish #so it kinda transports me back to that time in my life whenever i hear it. music really is its own little kind of time travel #i am very much looking forward to the continuing psychological damage murray gold will inflict upon me in the new season #and to have previously uplifting character leitmotifs used against me and forever be contaminated with sad feelings. love to see it #(also: not a instrumental but damn 'the stowaway' has no right being as good as it is. who knew a christmas sea shanty could sound so great #apologies for this probably niche-ish post (is it niche to know ost title's by heart? asking for friend). just feeling things about music

[lolpsxd]

i cant believe i bought this piece of art for just like 5 dollars

#he worth millions I SWEAR HE'S AMAZING IM IN AWE #garfield #shitpost ig #IM SORRY I NEED TO SHOW IT TO EVERYONE. EVERYONE. #HE'S AWESOMEEEEE #the seller said her friend with whom she was studying design made it for her son #her son grew up and this plushie was “taking too much space” so she asked him if she can sell it. he said yes as long as he'll get the money #tbh this whole “taking too much space” thing is so saddening to me when it comes to childhood stuff #i mean. i could never #idk for me the only place where memories can “take too much space” is the brain #i literally can't throw away or sell ANYTHING that means at least SOMETHING to me or meant something for anyone #it just seems so cruel to me #but im glad they didn't throw it away and decided to find a new owner for this plushie #it makes me feel responsible for him lol #sorry i just want to share it with everyone sORRRYY #lOLPS SHUT UP

[bright-eyed]

Today someone who i thought didn’t like me told me I’m a calming presence and that i always say things to them that make them feel better (like “don’t be sorry, that makes sense” etc) and idk that’s nice. I try to do that but i feel like i mostly fail so i guess that’s nice to know other people don’t see it like that

#and then another person told me my voice is calming and that i’m a comfortable presence and that i’m nice. sorry i’m just collecting these #little compliments and sharing them but i spent my whole childhood and young adulthood being told by my caregivers that i am a bitch so #it’s nice that that’s not the absolute reality of who i am. even though i still believe that about myself for some reason #i sort of wish i could show my family the version of me that would get these compliments but it’s like another person #i get embarrassed even thinking about them meeting any of my friends #they would ruin it forever #kennapost

[horatios-mom]

Tomoe’s KF card & Girl’s Blossom Project you will always be famous

#childhood best friends to lovers u make me SICK /pos #may as well post here too right 🤩 #anatomy one day I will Get You #tomohima #bandori #bandori fanart #idk if any of the collabers go here but just in case this is for a vday swap over on insta: #saayasvalentinesswap #Saaya’s valentines swap #tomoe x himari #himatomo #himari x tomoe #idk what tags ppl use sorry for picking all of them. bandori fans where u at let’s be friends #himari uehara #uehara himari #tomoe udagawa #udagawa tomoe #my brain is FRIED. lesbians<3 #bang dream #garupa #my art #lanposts

[wildflowercryptid]

if i was toshiro, i never would've fumbled a bad bitch like hien...

#dude had a locked in childhood friends to lovers arc set up for him and fuckin squandered it #i do get it though i also love falin and she's definitely my type #but if you'll allow me to be overtly gay for a sec #hien's hot as hell like she's a babe #her namari and kiki are the hottest women in that dungeon sorry #toshiro's an understandable fool but a fool nonetheless #i need to go fucking sleep good lord #dungeon meshi #mj.txt

[ben-the-hyena]

Had a very good day, good news kept coming, time to go to bed with a smile-

*finds out a NOTP became semi-canon because of the main crew who decided to randomly post ship art years later on their social*

Oh

#yes this is about luberto. never saw the good in that ship nor liked how the fandom saw the movie as a lgbt story #when the director said it was based on his childhood and his platonic childhood friend. but apparently his own crew disagrees #i don't care. i'll never ship it anyway. have fun with it just away from me ok ? why does everything have to be romance #plus luca straight up had a crush on Giulia in the storyboards (I don't ship either tho). so if gay it is one sided on Alberto side #(alberto I never liked either. ugly design(s) annoying personality and super possessive of Luca causing him trouble. toxic) #also sorry but in the 50s Mediterranean friends were that touchy it's not necessarily romance. it's getting lost precisely because 'no homo' #reaction image #lol #aaah. rant over. i feel better :) #i don't ship it !

[amee-racle-ofmyown]

Csptaineer art request 5. admiring them from afar

dear anon, I know you asked for art but I had intended these as writing prompts! however!! I may doodle something for this later anyway, because it's cute :3

and still, never do we tire of watching stars glow

head engineer mark x reader (the captain) | words: 877

For as long as you'd known him, he'd always had a certain look of awe about him when it came to space:

When you were kids, huddled up in blankets watching a documentary about The Solar System while you shared a bowl of cookies.

And as teens, laying side by side in the dry summer grass, gazing up at the stars dotting the sky, laughing and pointing out constellations and making up stories about what it would be like when you got to be among them. 

And as cadets, the first time you voyaged beyond Earth's atmosphere.

Now the Captain of a ship he'd built from the ground up, it took you by surprise when you looked up from your data tablet one day to see him gazing at you with that same look of wistfulness and wonder.

His expression lasted for the briefest moment before he registered that you'd seen him, eyes widening and cheeks flushing almost imperceptibly from this distance. He immediately averted his gaze to anywhere but yours, busying himself with whatever he could.

You let out an amused huff, an incredulous yet flattered smile tugging at the corners of your lips.

It was far from the first time you'd caught someone giving you a starstruck or near-mesmerised look, especially within your own crew. But for him to be the one staring like that? The same admiration and fascination that you'd seen in his eyes when he beheld an eclipse, or a meteor shower, or your new home planet, directed at you…? 

You couldn't deny the small flutter in your stomach, or your heartbeat slightly quickening its pace.

You brushed off the thought and continued working, but from then on you couldn't help but keep noticing the awe and longing when he looked at you, whether it be from across a room or in conversation. It made you wonder if this was a recent phenomenon, or if you had simply been blind to it for a long time.

It was one of those moments of catching his warm, starlit gaze in which you were caught off-guard once again.

You met his eyes with the same intensity once you realised he was watching you, raising your eyebrows slightly to get his attention. He looked embarrassed and a little taken aback, as he always did in such scenarios, and you could practically see the gears turning in his head as he decided whether or not to abandon ship. Instead, his mouth curved into a smile that crinkled his eyes with fondness, followed by a quick wink. 

Now it was your turn to look surprised. 

It's not that the gesture was out of character or that he couldn't be bold when he wanted to. You just hadn't expected it now.

Later, you found it in you to be direct.

‘What's with all the staring lately, Mark?’

His eyes widened at the question. It wasn't particularly like you to be so upfront about something like this.

You watched as your head engineer’s expression turned apologetic and a little guilty, like he'd been caught red-handed.

‘Uhh- I'm sorry. Am I in trouble, Captain?’

You giggled quietly. ‘Nah. I never said I minded, just wondering…’

He visibly relaxed at your response.

‘Oh, well in that case. To be honest, Cap, it's sorta hard to look away sometimes.’

You felt your face flush at this, but were given no pause to utter a reply even if you’d had the words; he continued quickly, as if just realising what he'd said aloud and in the same moment deciding to fully commit to speaking his mind, before he could let himself back out.

‘I just- I love seeing you doing your job, you look so happy and assured. And proud — of everyone you work with, proud that you're part of the team. You're always so willing to help out and listen to what everyone needs. And watching you take command of a situation- You just– you have this aura that screams that you belong here, this is what you were meant to do, and you have a positive effect on everybody around you. We're so lucky and grateful to have you as our Captain.’

And here you are, stunned into silence for a moment. 

He stands there, trying to gauge your reaction, a little flustered himself but steadfast in his confession.

You feel a little giddy, but take a breath to soothe your racing heart, finally composing yourself again as the smile you can no longer hold back paints your face.

‘Thank you, Mark. That's… that's really sweet.’

He grins. ‘Just being honest.’

‘And I feel exactly the same about you, by the way.’ 

He tilts his head in confusion.

‘Watching you in action, it's the same.’

You can see it in his eyes when it clicks.

‘Wait, Captain, are you saying you-’

‘Almost as much as you,’ you chuckle. ‘Except I don't get caught. You could definitely use some improvement in that area.’

He looks away, smile becoming sheepish, the tint on his cheeks you are sure matches yours from only moments ago. 

‘But… like I said,’ you speak up again, drawing his attention back to you. ‘I don't really mind. It is kinda cute seeing your reaction when I catch you.’

#I'm sorry this took a lot longer than I was planning #at first I was just struggling then when I got into it stuff was happening irl and I was too busy😩 #but anyway I hope you enjoy! #hope this doesn't read as too ooc or anything😬 I just want super sweet fluff rn #maybe I am just overthinking but lmk what you think y'all think #as always reading your comments makes my entire day or week even #ALSO CHILDHOOD FRIENDS CAPTAINEER WOOO #I AM SUCH A SUCKER FOR THE TROPE #AND I THINK ABOUT MARK AND THE CAPTAIN AS KIDS ALL THE TIME LIKE WAY TOO MUCH #also about the title bc I was feeling a little poetic :0 just think. #humanity has been gazing at the same stars for eons #and yet we still do it #we don't ever get bored #maybe some like to more than others but #I think it's fair to say that it's a pretty universally shared and agreed upon idea that stars are beautiful #and looking at them is nice #and we probably won't stop any time soon #I think that's a nice sentiment :) and it literally just came to me as I was trying to think of a title #amee writes #blooming romance prompts #asks #anonymous #iswm #in space with markiplier #captaineer #engineer mark x captain #engineer mark x reader #head engineer mark x reader #head engineer mark #engineer!mark

[brownandwhat]

i am no longer the therapist friend

#sorry but i’ve realised with some of the friends i have had long term #that i probably have outgrown them as when suggesting to do things outside of just meeting up at each others houses #we don’t do anything else #we have very different interests very different hobbies and availability #i say outgrown but i wouldn’t cut them off as they are childhood friends #but when i do meet up with them which tends to be twice in a year because that’s when they are available #it just so happens to be reminiscing about high school talking about their marriages and themselves and the issues they’ve been having #i end up feeling like i’m watching a show being played out because i’m not asked anything im not in the same era of their lives #there’s defo a grey area or wall that until i do that i won’t know or get it #and im alwyas just left feeling like i could’ve just stayed home and they just text me this #it has been voiced and addressed that we do stuff together pre plan if we have to #but it’s one of those where the marriage and husband comes first which i get #but when things go south of that then you remember me as a friend? #idk