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astarriscus · 2 years
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i didn’t know solomon character song released alrdy omg ,,
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astrxealis · 2 years
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i hope everyone is doing well (currently in love w/ akito shinonome)
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ao3feed-crimeboys · 2 years
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started an avalanche, bones have fallen into place (the snow began to slip away)
by inkstainzed
"No more. You're okay. You're okay, Tommy." Techno says through his sobs. "I've got you."
"I m— messed up." Tommy manages through a hiccup. "I d— deserve it."
"No, no, you don't. Tommy, you're exhausted. You can barely stand." Techno says.
"But I—"
"Tommy, you're done." Techno says. "You did it. You put yourself through hell, and now you're done. You can stop now, okay? You're done."
  Or, in which Tommy sometimes finds himself caught up in his past, and when he accidentally upsets Wilbur, he ends up using his practice, as a punishment.
Words: 7159, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English
Fandoms: Dream SMP, Video Blogging RPF
Rating: Not Rated
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Characters: TommyInnit (Video Blogging RPF), Wilbur Soot, Technoblade (Video Blogging RPF)
Relationships: Wilbur Soot & TommyInnit, Technoblade & TommyInnit (Video Blogging RPF), Wilbur Soot & Technoblade
Additional Tags: TommyInnit-centric (Video Blogging RPF), TommyInnit Angst (Video Blogging RPF), TommyInnit Needs a Hug (Video Blogging RPF), dw he gets one 👍, Protective Wilbur Soot, Wilbur Soot is Not Okay, Sad Wilbur Soot, Protective Technoblade (Video Blogging RPF), team captain Technoblade :>, Older Siblings Wilbur Soot and Technoblade, Wilbur Soot & TommyInnit Friendship, Wilbur Soot & TommyInnit Angst, Technoblade & TommyInnit Friendship (Video Blogging RPF), Alternate Universe - Skating, Ice Skating, Alternate Universe - Hockey, figure skating, World Figure Skating Championships, Figure Skater TommyInnit (Video Blogging RPF), Alternate Universe - Olympics, ice hockey player technoblade, Ice Hockey Player Wilbur Soot, Angst, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Hurt/Comfort, Angst with a Happy Ending, Tommyinnit is Bad at Feelings (Video Blogging RPF), he’s trying his best :(, Wilbur Soot is Bad at Feelings, feelings are hurt, this is your warning, tommy is mean to himself :( but techno makes it all better, self punishment, light self-harm tw !! (nothing graphic), be safe yall Pls, <3 u, Mentioned Phil Watson (Video Blogging RPF), Self-Esteem Issues
source https://archiveofourown.org/works/40575624
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utterlyinevitable · 3 years
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Did you adopt your dog from another country? How does that work? Is it because it's hard to adopt dogs in England?
Yes we did, we adopted her from Romania! I'm not sure how it really works now that new Brexit rules hit on October 1st, I can just tell you our experience based on the rescue we used.
Basically under laws I'm not sure of or don't understand we were able to rescue her through a charity that rescues Romanian strays and finds them adopters in the UK (and parts of France).
The rescue we went through it amazing. They put the dogs first and foremost - which is why we had to wait much longer than initially told because they were being cautious about her health. The chairwomen and Romanian shelter vet are with us every step of the way for the rest of Lucy's life. Anything we have concerns or questions about we can message them for advice. They're great and I'd definitely adopt another dog from them.
I don't think it's hard to adopt dogs in the UK, it just wasn't something that worked for us based on what we were looking for. We could definitely get a local puppy easily for $1200+ but prefer to rescue. We spent about a year looking at pups in our local rescues but kept being denied because we're "too young". Apparently being in your mid-20s means we're not devoted or responsible enough.... The rescue we actually went through denied us for the first application for another dog (that Cam did) because at the time he was 25 and they have a strict 26+ rule. Then we applied again (under my name and experience) a few months later for our baby girl and were accepted.
For us it was important to have a young female rescue dog without much trauma.
And the fact her rescue name is Lorelei is totally destiny.
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walkingflowerxiv · 4 years
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Sheep Acquired!
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bonelessice · 5 years
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ask-swagger-dagger-trolls replied to your photo “just pretend i made his outfit shiny so he looks like a thot.”
(Curse you and your sexy OCs..WTF!? >3<)
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local man whos never been called anything positive in his life sobs in ur arms asmr
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nyanzaya · 4 years
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@drrr-multi-muse replied to your post
// I really do love your portrayals of both muses <3 lol thank you! i think i remember that post XD and true my izaya is trouble >w<
LOL It’ll be funny to have Iza and Izaya interact though :eyes: vampire!Izaya and werecat!Iza would be just as fun I think because lmfaooooo werecat!Iza is sooooo literal. If izaya were to say “take a seat” he would legit “Oh, we done here? Okay.” pick up the chair and leave :SOB: HE IS SO LMFAO I haven’t written him in years but god he’s kind of dangerous though? Bloodthristy boi smh smh I think that would be super fun to see what happens xD
And even then, normal Izaya and Iza would be fun too!
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capitainecorbeau · 5 years
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madotsukiphile replied to your post: It’s the second fucking time my computer stops...
Seigneur, je t'arrose d'eau fraîche :‘DDD On peut dire que vous savez occuper vos journées, vous alors ! *sob* (tant mieux si t'as rien perdu au moins, oui ! >_< Mais du coup j'espère que tu vas pouvoir régler le problème ? )
Merci ;u; Ah bah oui, c’est spur que je m’ennuie pas cet été :D Et je vais enfin pouvoir finir les trucs que j’avais en cours mgyfutkgy mais du coup le premier truc que j’ai fait en ouvrant l’ordi c’est des sauvegardes XD
Yep, j’ai chopé un adaptateur et j’ai branché les écrans à différents endroits et pour le moment ça marche, donc on croise les doigts :o
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Headcanons for Shinsou, Tokoyami and Tamaki confessing to a s/o (separately) and got refused because the s/o is insecure about their scar-filled skin and their awkwardness compared to other girls and they deem themself unworthy of love. I need that angst but can u please make it a happy ending? Also please use gender neutral pronouns for the s/o! Thank you so much!
Hitoshi Shinsou
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When he finally has the courage to ask you out he pulls you aside where it’s just the two of you. 
When you reject him he has to pull himself together and accepts your rejection. 
He won’t be angry with you or push you away. You’re still a precious friend and he doesn’t want to lose you.
He nods his head and tells you that he doesn’t want to lose your friendship despite his feelings. He doesn’t ask why you rejected him or anything of the sort. He accepts your rejection and moves on.
Later, perhaps when you feel open to talk about your feelings with him and you express your insecurities. How you hate your scars, you hate how awkward you are compared to others.
The moment you confess everything to him through a shaky breath he’s just overwhelmed by emotion as he places a hand on your back and gently rubs it in an attempt to soothe you.
It doesn’t work as well as he likes so instead he pulls you in for a hug and once again confesses his feelings for you, telling you how he loves you despite your flaws and how he adores your awkwardness. It’s kinda cute.
Once he confesses his feelings once again he makes it clear that he knows you aren’t interested and he respects that and he hopes the two of you can continue being friends.
He’s surprised when you confess you would like to start a relationship with him. He’s a little worried that he made you feel as though you needed to be with him but when you take his hands on your own and confess sincerely he’s flustered.
He’s swooning and he just wraps his arms around you, grinning.
Fumikage Tokoyami
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He’s very understanding. The moment you reject him he accepts it, letting you know that he still hopes the two of you can continue to be friends.
He doesn’t want to lose you.
Although he’s a little upset, thinking that maybe it’s his odd bird head or perhaps even his quirk that is the reason you rejected him. He becomes a little self-conscious about himself. 
He’s a little surprised when you come to him, confessing all of your insecurities about yourself, your hands grazing over a particularly noticeable scar. 
He tells you how beautiful he thinks you are, including your scars, and how they help add to your character. They provide a sort of personality.  
He thinks you’re not only the most talented but also the most gorgeous person he knows. 
He finds himself saying everything he likes about you, your scars, nervous habits, your awkwardness, your eyes, etc....
You’re almost sobbing in his arms by the end of his little speech. He holds you for as long as you need before walking you home in silence, not wanting you to feel as though you have to say anything. He wishes you a goodbye and a small reminder that if you need to speak with him he’s there for you. 
A week or so after the incident you pull him aside and confess to him, admitting that your insecurities had gotten in the way but you would like to try, even if you’re scared. 
He’s proud of you and will take things as slow as you want. He cares for you. He doesn’t want to do anything that would make you feel uncomfortable. 
Tamaki Amajiki
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He is extremely nervous when he confesses to you. His hands sweaty, knees weak, arms feel like spaghetti.
Mirio has to psych him up to get him to confess and he stands nearby as a reminder to follow through with his confession.
When you reject him he’s a little hurt and a part of him thinks, seems about right. You’re perfect and he’s... well him. He accepts your rejection and walks away stiffly.
He doesn’t speak with you for a few days and actively avoids you. Not because he’s mad or anything but he just keeps thinking back on the conversation and thinks how you’re probably thinking how lame he is and how he could have done it better, He’s a major over thinker. 
When he speaks with you again it’s because Mirio finally steps in and tells him how much you’ve been asking for him. So he pulls you aside, away from prying eyes to speak with you once again.
When you break down, apologizing for everything, including your insecurities, he’s a little surprised and feels extremely guilty. 
He pulls you into a hug murdering his own apologies as he realizes his mistake and how he hurt you and wow, heroes aren’t supposed to hurt the ones they love.
He keeps apologizing as he pulls you closer and listens to you.
The two of you sit down and work things out, including you confessing your insecurities to him and he just shakily tells you how much he loves you for you. He’s all flustered while he does this.
When you confess to him he can’t believe it, he has to stay calm as he takes your hands in his and gently tells you that you don’t have to date him if you don’t want to.
When you insist that you want to he’s quite happy, squeezing your hands as the two of you continue to talk.
He’s happy that you were both able to overcome this together.
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soldtothechurch · 6 years
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“ i’m sorry, i thought i saw—… ” //hello there! i'm a friend of samaelfell c:
Head bowed, Marcus had been kneeling on the hard wood of the bench, his hands folded and forehead pressed against his thumbs. It was pure desperation that had drawn him into the church where he had at first argued and demanded and finally, with tears clinging to his lashes, fallen into sobbing pleas.
He didn't know how long he had been there when a voice dragged him out of what someone with more understanding of the human brain might have identified as an obsessive repetition of prayer, but his knees ached and his hands had gone pale and cold. Marcus unfolded them as he looked up, flexing his fingers to bring the feeling back as he smiled a gentle, absent smile at the young man. 
"If you're looking for a priest, I'm afraid you're a little late.", the bitter joke would make no sense to the visitor, but it was better than to admit that the words had not registered with him over the utter, deafening silence in his mind where there had once been ...
No good in dwelling on that now.
"But don't let me stop you."
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moocha-muses · 6 years
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Replies, Hugs All Around!
@nekosayuri replied to your photoset: 1000! Posts! 1000th post!  *confetti* *confetti*...
 I’ll find a place for this in my game somewhere >:3   
nekosayuri replied to your photoset: Matsuri Ramen! CC-free. This version doesn’t have...                
   Omg Matsuri Ramen awesome <3 thank you! I hoped you’d share this one XD 
Honestly? I absolutely added Matsuri Ramen to the list just for you.
@dramallamadingdang replied to your photoset: Matsuri Ramen! CC-free. This version doesn’t have...                    
The columns look like chopsticks! Very clever. :)
That . . . that did not even occur to me. I meant it to be sort of a minimalist version of the big temple gate deco that comes with BV? But they do look like chopsticks. Gosh, I’m really good at this
@eulaliasims replied to your photoset: 1000! Posts! 1000th post!  *confetti* *confetti*...                   
aaaaa, I still love this lot so much. <3 Thank you, Moocha!     
Yeah! I think Coriander still looks really warm and rich, even without my  . . . my beautiful converted tapestries *sob*
Definitely the lot with the nicest bones, though. I like that roof a lot.
@pixelry replied to your photoset:1000! Posts! 1000th post!  *confetti* *confetti*...                
   Yay for 1,000 posts and we get your amazing lots too 😀  
@kairisu replied to your photoset: 1000! Posts! 1000th post!  *confetti* *confetti*...                
   1000 posts already? amazing! it feels like it’s only been 3 months sinxe you came back :D thank you for sharing your lots!    
Happy Anniversary to me! (My actual anniversary won’t be for a while because “three months” is not that far off. I post a lot!) I’m glad you guys like the lots! I hope they will come in handy and possibly alleviate the horror of giant dark squares that is the shipped Downtown.
@katatty-main replied to your photoset:1000! Posts! 1000th post!  *confetti* *confetti*...
oooooh, looks great!!! <3  
If you say that, oh queen of CC-free builds, I’m going to get an even more swollen head.
@holleyberry replied to your photoset: 1000! Posts! 1000th post!  *confetti* *confetti*...                   
We missed you Moocha. Of course you would be welcomed back. *hugs* Thanks for the lots!   
*hugs back* *hugs everyone in sight* I missed you too! I seriously can’t believe we’re all still around, this computer game is the best thing anyone could ever hope to share with a bunch of internet pals.
I’ve really stepped up my Sim game since I came back - I’m getting better at building, I can recolor objects now (still so excited about that) and it would not have happened without having this community around to inspire me to step up my game (and also commit to the goal of seeing at least one piece of CC I’ve made in every game on my dash.)
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quillandsaber · 6 years
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Prompt for Newtina 88 “I never meant to fall in love with you, I just did.” :)
Newt blinked at the sad, sorry-looking American witch standing outside his door in the freezing rain.  “Tina, what--”
“Can I come in?” she interrupted, her voice wavering with unshed tears.  “I don’t mean to get in your way, but with Queenie and Jacob in hiding--”
“Of course, of course.  Come in.”  Newt stepped away from the door, casting drying spells in Tina’s wake as she trudged into his dilapidated hovel to plop down on a rickety stool in front of his fire, staring blankly into the flames.
Newt swallowed, eyebrows furrowing in concern.  This was not like Tina, not like her at all, and if it wasn’t for the fact that she’d actually found him in this godforsaken hut in Wales he would have thought it an imposter.  “I’ll go make tea, Tina.  We can talk once you’ve warmed up.”
His wand-hand shook as he filled the kettle and set it to heat by the fire, and his dingy, mismatched cups rattled in his hands as he set them out.  Still, Tina did not move a muscle.  By the time their cups were filled (only half-way, Newt didn’t trust his grip to not spill anything any higher), Newt was nearly afraid that Tina had gone catatonic the way some of his comrades had during the War, but she allowed him to move her hands to wrap around the saucer and the teacup handle.
“I lost my job.  Completely.”
The words seemed to come from out of nowhere, and Newt blinked in surprise before crouching down beside her so he could see her face.  “What?  On what grounds?  After what happened with Credence, I would have thought they’d be afraid of the mere idea of you leaving.”
“MACUSA’s gotten suspicious of anyone with foreign ties.  Foreign ties could mean Grindelwald helpers.  I guess they thought me fighting him the first time around didn’t mean much.”  She seemed to try to smile, but it looked more like a snarl.
“What do you mean by foreign ties?”
“We had to take a Veritaserum test.  Everyone in the office did.  They asked about our friends, family...lovers.  And as soon as they asked me about you, it was hopeless.”  Tina’s voice broke, and her shoulders began to shake with silent sobs.
Newt swallowed.  “They sacked you because you know me.”
“Not because I know you, Newt.  It’s America, you can’t not know foreigners in America, witch or No-Maj.  They fired me because I have a conflict of interest.”  She sniffed into her coat cuff.  “Serves me right for falling in love with an international criminal.”
It was as if the world stopped for one Newton Artemis Fido Scamander.  “You...love me?  After everything I’ve done, everything I’ve not done?”  He raced back through everything.  He’d nearly got her killed more times than he could count, left her without any intentions in New York for the foreseeable future...it didn’t make sense.
Tina nodded miserably.  “I know.  I never meant to fall in love with you, I just did.  And look where it’s gotten me.”
Newt Scamander was not a man of ponderous thought.  He was a man who functioned on instinct and plain ideas, and it took him all of two seconds to decide what he was going to do.  Gently so as not to startle her, he shifted from his spot on the floor so he could take her teacup, set it on the floor, and take her trembling hands in his.
“Tina, listen to me,” he said gently in the voice he normally reserved for terrified creatures.  “I know it feels hopeless right now, but I promise you that you will get through this.  And I know you will get through this because I will stand beside you every single step of the way.”
The dark-haired witch swallowed.  “You aren’t obligated to help me.  Mercy, I shouldn’t have even come here--”
“No, you did right to come here,” Newt shook his head firmly.  “Tina, I am not offering to help you because I feel I have to.  I’m offering to help you because I want to, and I now realize you might not think me entirely overreaching for doing so.  I don’t have much, but what I have is yours.”
Tina’s jaw slackened, and she slowly uncurled her spine from its slump.  “Are...are you proposing to me?”
“It’s a proposal if that’s what you want it to be.  But if all you want right now is a hot cup of tea and a warm place to spend the night, it could be that too.”
“I...I don’t know.”
“Then tea and a warm place to spend the night it is for now,” Newt said gently.  “The offer is an open one, dearest.  We can talk about it tomorrow, or the next day, or the next, or however long you want to wait.”
Tina nodded, and she let one thumb gently brush against his clasping fingers. “Thank you, Newt.  Thank you for everything.”
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sakuxrisu · 6 years
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macabrextenshi replied to your post: In the beginning of RP I remember how the gap...
I was very open to it when I first started but I never got any fanblogs to message me since at the time I didn’t play a very popular person, when I did finally get them I wasn’t used to it so it was weird for me, and on top of it they were very sexual messages. ;; I’m not saying I won’t interact with fanblogs/personals but people gotta be patient for me since I’m not used to it. >.<
Oh man sexual messages can get awkward fast ... if it’s something like that then of course it’s uncomfortable and makes you wary. I just made that post because I miss the sweet fanblogs who used to stop by in the inbox, especially when one of Sho’s dramas was airing. And some of the friends I made in RP started as fanblogs who followed me. I miss those kinda interactions sobs.
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Brother vs Brother Pt 5- Dean x Reader x Sam
Alpha Dean, Beta Sam and Omega Reader
Series Summary: This series is an au sort of Beta Sam is an EMT and Alpha Dean is a firefighter. Omega Reader is a waitress at a coffee shop. Sam and Reader meet and fall in love and move in together. Sam introduces his girlfriend to his brother and they scent each other. Reader may be Dean’s one true mate.
Pt 5: Love and a True Mate
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p>Warnings: Language, a/b/o dynamics, heat, talk of sex, polyamerous relationship and claim biting drawing blood
After Sam stormed out Y/n was sobbing in front of the door, Dean went over knelt down next to her lifting her up. She curled herself into Dean her head buried in the crook of his neck. He laid her on his bed laying down next to her, he wiped her tears away with his thumb. “Dean, he’s right” she said, “yeah he is” Dean said. “I love him Dean” Y/n said turning into him sobbing into his shirt, “I know you do sweetheart” Dean said.
“How can I find my true mate while I’m in love with his brother” she said, Dean didn’t know what to say, he could physically feel her pain. Dean rubbed her back soothingly trying to calm her, it took awhile but she finally stopped crying. Dean rolled to his back and pulled her with him her head on his chest. They laid together in silence for a long time, “an old friend a mine is a Beta and his wife’s an Omega after they were married she met her Alpha and forever mate and she and her husband made it work, they like have a polyamerous relationship” Dean said.
“Okay so her Alpha and her husband just like both are with her and that works” she said. “Yes seems to, they’ve been together 5 years and have 3 kids” Dean said, “that sounds like it might work, but could you share me” she said. “With a stranger no, but with Sam, yes, I know how much he loves you, Sam and I can’t just not see each other, he’s my brother and I need him” Dean said. “Now all we have do, is get Sam to agree to it” she said. Both Dean and Y/n called and texted Sam and got no answer, “I think we should give him some time let him call us” Dean said.
Dean took a breath in through his nose and a beautiful intoxicating smell hit him, his Omega was going into heat. "Omega" he said, "yes Alpha" she answered, she felt she had to he was her Alpha, it was nature for an Omega. "Are you going into heat Omega" Dean asked, "yes Alpha I am" she said, her phone rang. She looked at it and it was Sam, "Sam" she said, "yeah I got yours and Dean's messages what do you guys want" Sam said. "Dean and I wanna talk to you about, I know this is gonna sound weird but, just meet us at the bar okay" she said. Dean glared at her, she held her head down knowing she'd done something wrong. "Fine I'll be there in a couple hours" Sam said and he hung up.
"He'll meet us in a couple hours" she told Dean, "Omega you don't have a couple hours, the way you smell you have minutes before your heat hits" Dean said. "I know but, what was I supposed to say Dean, okay we'll meet you after Dean knots me" she said. "Okay your right, but I should knot you before we go" he said, "no, Dean please, I can't not until we get Sam, please Dean, I promised I'd never cheat on him and that's what it feel like" she said.
Dean saw how upset she was and just gave in, "okay fine, but I am gonna claim you before you go outside and draw out all the unmated Alphas" Dean said. She pulled her shirt off leaving her in her bra, she lowered her head to the side exposing her neck to him. Dean located the skin just above her shoulder blade and sank his teeth into her flesh drawing blood and claiming her as his Omega. Dean biting her sent a wave of slick pouring out of her pussy and running down her pants. Dean licked the bite soothing her broken skin, she moaned leaning into his touch.
After she cleaned up and changed her pants, she and Dean went to meet Sam at the bar. This time they had gotten there first and got a table together sitting next to each other. A few minutes later Sam walked in looking like he lost his best friends, which he thought he had. Sam sat across the table from them, "so Sammy, you know my friends Kevin and Collin and Emma and their polyamerous relationship Y/n and I were thinking maybe that might work for us" Dean said.
Sam looked at Dean and than over at the woman he loves and the hopeful look on her face. Sam saw the top of the bite mark and knew Dean had claimed her, "Dean you claimed her already" Sam said. "Yeah it's what we wanted, she's in heat and we didn't want to have sex before getting you" Dean said. Sam couldn't hide the smile on his face, "wait, when we have sex, we just do it with her, right Dean" Sam said. "Gross Sam, yes just her, we talked about that she wants us all to be equal in this, so you're going to claim her too" Dean said.
Sam couldn't help but tear up, he could be with the live of his life and his brother all the time. Y/n started sweating heavily as a fresh coat of slick started to drip out of her. Dean's nose caught wind of her scent right away, "fuck, Sammy, we've gotta get her home, her heats raging, she needs to be knotted" Dean said. Both Sam and Dean helped her up and back to their shared apartment. Sam didn't know if this could work but we was all in, as were Dean and Y/n.
Tags @queencflair @deanwinchester-smut @wwe-spn-twd @gummybearsandjellybeans @uniquewerewolfsuit @lucilepiewhiskey @honeyrollins95 @justanotherdeangirl @reedusmorgan @notnaturalanahi @wheresthekillswitch @plaidstiel-wormstache
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princerevelucide · 7 years
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j0y-c0n said: aaaa I’m sorry you have to get a blood test!! :( i was on a medicine where i had to get one every month and that kind of diluted my fear but they are still scary… looking away definitely, definitely helps!!, sometimes i brought headphones bc the pressure on my ears helped against the pressure on my arm!! :> you’re going to be OK, it won’t be very long and then you’ll feel brave after!!
j0y-c0n said: also, good luck talking w your psych!! i know it can be stressful, but they’re there to help, and if they aren’t doing that, then you should try to look around for another if you can!! :< it’s really nerve-wracking to kind of criticize a person of authority about dancing around a subject, but please try, it could be your exact answer to getting a new psych or not. best of luck with everything tomorrow, remember that you’ll be OK and it will pass soon!!
aaa thank u so much sudsy... i had a blood test already sometime in the beginning of june and the result was that i was extremely vitamin b12 & d deficient, and i’d need injections, but i was allowed until the end of july (or, til tomorrow, i guess) to see if i could fix that on my own and not need injections after all... but i’m terrified that i haven’t done well enough ;_;,,,, & i just hate everything about veins & needles & drawing blood like that it all makes me so uncomfortable and honestly kind of sick so even if i’ve done this before i absolutely cannot handle having to do it again,, last time i looked away and everything and was still sobbing for like an hour afterwards
and she is here to help & i get that anxiety exposure will help but like,, my last counselor did this exact thing and ive been with this new one for so long i feel like its too late to back out,, i told her already that i know anxiety + depression arent my only problems & i wanted nothing to do with anxiety exposure if it was all we were going to talk about but it feels like she’s forgotten both of those things!! ive already got proof that she doesnt 100% listen to me cause ive told her i have problems with written work & homework and that i just cant do them for multiple reasons and yet she still gives it to me expecting me to do it... i do want to try to tell her that things are starting to feel bad with her and not work out but i just dont know how... its all so scary
but thank you, sincerely, your kind words mean so much to me... <3 i hope everything will be ok...
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imagine-it-tho · 7 years
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Steve Rogers: Baby.
Pregnancy is both a wonderful and terrible thing. Wonderful? Well what can be more magical than creating new life with the person you love beyond belief, the person you want to give everything to. Terrible? Everything else: the aches, the cravings and pains, the mood swings…
You’re 8 and a half months pregnant and currently feeling like a beached whale sat on the sofa of the Avengers tower, watching reruns of Friends with Natasha. Your husband Steve is away on a mission, the worst part is you haven’t got a clue when he’s going to be home and that scares you considering you’re ready to pop. Feeling a surge of pain you place your hands on your swollen stomach rubbing it tentatively, “gosh Nat, I’d never have signed up to this whole baby thing if I knew it’d be this painful” you chuckle and so does she, “well that’s your own fault Y/N, at least it’ll be worth it when it comes, I still can’t believe you don’t know what gender it’s going to be” she smiles at you, you smile a little too, “you know me Nat, all about the element of surprise” you wince again as another surge of pain runs through you, Nat’s smile turns into a face full with concern “are you alright?” “I don’t know, I’ve been getting surges of pain all day and they keep getting worse” you explain still rubbing your stomach.
Nat looks deep in thought but doesn’t say anything. You move to get up, shuffling awkwardly to the edge of the sofa; “I’m gonna make a cup of tea, do you want one?” You ask as you finally manage to get up, Nat shakes her head politely and you smile walking over to the kitchen. As you’re grabbing a cup out of the cupboard another wave of pain like no other hits you causing you to drop the cup, making it shatter all over the worktops and floor; you can’t focus as the pain is so excruciating. Nat bolts into the kitchen and over to you, “Oh my god! Are you okay?!” She practically shouts, you can’t think it hurts too much, then you feel something warm and wet run down your leg making your eyes go wide. “Nat…” you croak still bent over in agony, Nat helps you straighten up “what is it Y/N?” She asks cautiously, “I need to go to the hospital… my water’s just broke…” you say surprisingly calmly considering you’re having a meltdown on the inside.
And that’s when you see the most calm and collected person you know break into undiluted panic, with a shrieking yell she begins to guide you to the elevator not bothering to alert the other Avengers. “There’s a bag ready in my room, would you be able to get it please” you say through gritted teeth as another wave of hell hits you, Nat let’s go of you in a frenzy running off down the halls of the tower and returning moments later with the bag you had prepared ready for this day…
God you wish Steve was here, how can you be taking this alone! You throw your head back against the hospital bed as another contraction hits you like a tonne of bricks. You panic as tears flow from our eyes- not because of the pain, though it is tear worthy, but because you’re absolutely terrified. You can’t do this. You really can’t, you can’t do this alone. Of all the days and all the times it had to be now. WHY THE HELL DID STEVE TAKE THAT MISSION! HOW THE HELL CAN HE MISS THE BIRTH OF HIS OWN CHILD!
You whimper as the midwife encourages you to push, Nat is in the waiting room as you insisted to do this alone, along with the other Avengers who eventually had been notified. “I-I can’t do this, I can’t” you cry out, the midwife continues to encourage you as you push with all your might. And then you push again feeling everything drain from your body making your eyes shut, the room is silent for a moment before loud screams fill the room. You did it. That’s your baby screaming, you sigh deeply as the tiny baby is placed on your chest for the first time.
“Congratulations Mrs Rogers, you have a healthy baby boy” the midwife smiles, your heart flutters and swells as you lay your eyes on your whole world, you’ve created this tiny human being… The midwife then takes him from you so he can be cleaned up and weighed, and so you can be sorted out a little. <br> <p><p><br> Heaven almighty you did it.
Steve runs into the hospital waiting room to be greeted by the other Avengers, his face filled with panic and self loathing for not being here sooner; “any news?” He pants still in his battered uniform, the group shake their heads causing his heart to drop- is something wrong?!
He moves quicker than lightning to your hospital room, gently opening the door to feel his heart almost burst from his chest. There you are.
There you both are.
You lay in the hospital bed holding a tiny bundle, you look up at Steve smiling tiredly “better late than never Mr Rogers” you chuckle slightly, Steve moves further into the room closing the door behind him. He could cry. You did it. He walks over to the bed taking a seat in the chair beside you, he stares at the small baby held within your arms unable to take his eyes off of the beauty of such a miracle. “Say hello to our little boy Stevie” you whisper, Steve looks up at you with tears streaming down his own face, “I- oh my…” no words can describe how he feels right now.
“Would you like to hold your son?” You ask holding him out to Steve, with shaking arms he allows you to place the tiny being in his arms. He can’t hold back the sob that emerges from his lips as his heart swells to the point of bursting. How can he have so much love for two people? Taking one look at the little boy cradled in his arms he can’t help but ask “have you named him?” It comes out in barely a whisper as the child squirms lovingly in his arms with closed eyes, you smile gently placing a kiss on Steve’s cheek, “his name is James Buchanan Rogers” Steve looks at you with eyes that almost pop out of his head, “I know how much Bucky means to you, he’s been the only family you’ve ever really had, and besides I like the name” you laugh a little at the look upon Steve’s face. “I love you so much Y/N, and you little James, I promise I will protect you with every ounce of my being” he says to the baby as his minuscule hand wraps around Steve’s thumb.
Welcome to the world baby James.
AN; we are incredibly sorry for the lack of updates but as we've probably said a billion times before (I know we're like a broken record) school is a bitch! But all is not lost! I will be writing a lot more on here (for a change), I'm feeling like it's what I owe to you all so don't be afraid to drop a request anywhere you see fit! -Jade xx
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