#I'm a worse person for it

[gay-otlc]

Actually I think we should talk about how incredibly fucked up it is for sapphic women to say shit like "I'm no better than a straight man 😔" when attracted to a woman in a way that isn't 100% pure and wholesome, or act like men's attraction to women is inherently dirty, predatory, or objectifying.

#like i mostly get impacted from this as a straight trans man #and the way people- even my friends- have acted like my attraction to women is now morally worse since i came out as trans #but this also affects like. bi/mspec men? it's shitty to shame them for their attraction to women! #and even cishet men. acting like objectification or predatory behavior is just inherent to male attraction to women #let's shitty men off the hook because 'they can't help it' or whatever #or victim blames anyone abused by a cishet man because 'what did you expect from being in a relationship with him' #yeah so like. sapphics stop saying this challenge #transhet #anti-transmasculinity #again i'm tagging because that's my personal experience with that sentiment but it has a ton of other issues too #antimasculism

[conscydraws]

My first 15 hours in Death Stranding

#conscydraws #death stranding #sam porter bridges #illustration #artists on tumblr #video games #meme #when i went out today the weather was pretty much like that. worse even. #i came back in 10 minutes fully soaked #thought how nice it would be to have clothes alike Sam's #it's also fair to say that i'm slowly moving towards a personal artstyle #been playing with lasso and airbrush and found out that it's much more effective and quicker than anything i did prior #which means i will be able to make moar art! :)))) #about the illustration. i was keeping one particular location in mind from the first part of the map. there i died several times #although i depicted the stones not so accurately can you guess where it is? 😁 #i still haven't finished the game btw #death stranding fanart

[princelabia]

the idea of hannibal as loustat's marriage counselor is soooo funny bc on the surface he would have to agree with lestat's attempts to corrupt louis's nature and have him embrace murder and killing and consumption but on the other hand I strongly believe that hannibal would find lestat's general personality and shallow theatrics in incredibly poor taste and would feel obligated to kill and eat him despite agreeing with him completely

#iwtv #hannibal #I'm also convinced that he would find louis completely fascinating and would make it a personal mission to coax him into murder #while deliberately pushing a wedge between him and lestat #every fucked up murder man looks at louis and says I Can Make Him Worse... fuck that last guy tho #princelabia

[sysig]

Two skeletons in a trench lab coat (Patreon)

Bonus:

He’s very careful! Everything was fine before you interrupted!

#Doodles #Handplates #UT #FJdlsafjdsf Handplates fuzzes my brain #I cannot tell you how weird it feels to draw Gaster with the Lost Soul head after all this time away haha #It drops me back into the person I was when I first read Handplates - for better or for worse. It's a very strange feeling #Even drawing Sans and Papyrus again sends me back! Not as strongly but certain little details stand out #Sans' eyes especially... Very strange feeling #Anyhow! Since Fellplates sent me back down the rabbit hole and I've gotten back into rereading lightly - still not a full commitment! #Maybe soon tho 👀 I feel like I always say that haha #But in the meantime thinking of the pre-Plates Handplates time period <3 Since that's the one I'm still most familiar with haha #I love when they're still growing and learning ♪ Scaffolded baby talk! Twin language! Love 'em ♥ #And fearless* mischievous little troublemakers hehe #They're so cute <3 I love the little ways they interact as young'uns - like when Papyrus will just lift Sans by his arms lol #I'd been thinking about and then had to go read the one of Sans as a the blanket/coat tickle monster and then - this ✨ #''Excuse me sir I'd like One Ticket to the R Rated movie I am an adult Monster'' lol #Probably another one of those moments where Gaster is just *nervously sweats in Dad* lol - stop being so cute! #Also there's no particular meaning to when I use WingDings for his text :P Just convenience and if I remember to lol #Comics where he talks a lot are not convenient XP I have enough trouble editing on this paper ugh I will Not miss it when it's done #Even attempted this comic in as few pencil strokes/erasing as possible and it was still a pain to work with! >:0 Rude #Doubly so that I've had a Handplates comic idea for past like - year lol - and /this/ was the first one I finished pfftbl #To be fair to the other I do want to at least attempt making it a look-alike hehe ♪ You know how it is with Ideas™ #I can't be too mad about it haha ♫ It did turn out quite cute after all :3

[trek-tracks]

The funniest part of this reply is not that it was on a completely innocuous post...

The funniest part is that it was on an innocuous post about Amok Time, an episode which canonically, as a major plot point, makes Star Trek characters roll around in the dirt.

Sir, take this up with Theodore Sturgeon, I was not involved in this decision

#star trek #star trek tos #spock #jim kirk #amok time #leonard mccoy #captain kirk #bones mccoy #theodore sturgeon #i'm counting bones because he also gets his knees dirty #cw homophobia #is this person a dry cleaner who despairs for the state of starfleet pants #well they're blocked now because I gave them three chances to try for a positive interaction #and instead they got worse #Ah yes #they also suggested instead of aos that we get a series about refitting the Enterprise with a secondary hull #or a universe where the borg have conquered everything

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Thank you. I'm sorry.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #jin guangyao #lan wangij #jin ling #LWJ shifting into fight mode was so damn cool. He is always ready to start throwing hands. #It's in a way that befits someone with a bit more bloodlust that his calm demeanor lets on - but nearly always in defense of someone. #What a great synergy with his personal philosophies! see that he is a Genuinely Noble Guy time and time again! #Is is also way more hilarious and unhinged than most people give him credit for? Also yes. #Nothing and no one ever said he did not or would not rip off JGY's hat mid-fight. I think LWJ needs to snatch more wigs LITERALLY. #Yes I'm delaying the part where I have to address the emotional turmoil of Jin Ling stabbing wwx. It gutted me terribly. #What is worse that realizing that someone you respected has done horrible things #than discovering someone who did horrible things being a kind and trustworthy person? #What is more horrifying that realizing other people are extremely complex and cannot be categorized into black and white? #When people hurt us or our loved ones we very much want to make them out to be irredeemable monsters. But they are not. #It is not actually such a terrible fate to just be a person. To be forgiven and forgive is possible. To change is possible. #This lesson is hard. It is something you have to actively challenge yourself to do. Black and white is the innate path to go down. #And its *why* I love Jin Ling so much. He is the character who fights the longest and hardest to challenge social and personal beliefs #He gets a pass for stabbing wwx for being so deliciously conflicted and tormented by it. #And with wrists THAT limp I can't imagine the wound was particularly deep

[laufire]

jason's lazarus pit was golden jason's lazarus pit was golden jasonslazaruspitwasgolden jason's lazarus pit was golden JASON'S LAZARUS PIT WAS GOLDEN

AND PIT MADNESS IS *NOTHING*

#can't you read the TWO universally accepted good jason stories #(utrh and lost days) #they're good jason's there. the pit? gold. the madness? NOT FUCKING REAL #your story? WORSE FOR NOT KNOWING THIS #talking to the void #my thoughts #fandom nonsense #dc comics #jason todd #before someone comes at me about how people can write what they want and canon isn't sacred and blah blah #yeah i know. you'll notice I'm ranting about this in my personal blog! instead of leaving it in someone's inbox! #in my personal blog i can say express my own opinions! #and my own opinion is that the pit madness trope SUCKS and if you use it your jason writing is BAD #and also at this point I've developed a violent pavlovian response to the word ''green'' but that's neither here nor there #bitter lau tag #dc #dc thoughts

[uncanny-tranny]

Hey, gentle recognition for the people who are taking care of themselves in "not aesthetically-pleasing" ways. To the people who have to do things they don't want to because they know they would suffer more if they didn't, to the people who have to brush their teeth with their fingers, to the people who have to use washcloths to bathe, to the people who need to punch pillows or scream into them to express their intense emotions, to anybody ashamed about the way they need to live and take care of themselves.

You are doing the very best you can with the hand you've been dealt. It's not easy, it's not pretty, but it sure as fuck takes so much to do these things. You are doing what is best for yourself, and I, for one, think you deserve to be proud of that. Self-care isn't easy. It isn't pretty, often, but it's something you shouldn't be ashamed of or hide away because it's deemed "grotesque" or "not really self-care (because self-care is pretty and non-threatening to 'normal peoples' senses)"

#mental health #mental health support #self care #like when i was still in school i would end up forcing myself to go because i knew i would feel worse if i hadn't... #...and i don't think people get how difficult that is. it isn't like you choose to be difficult when you struggle #and feeling ashamed about doing these things only makes the situation worse for them (the person struggling) #something i've just been thinking about #i hate this idea that self-care *only* looks like the 'healthy' person's treat days... #...like lighting candles around your bathtub and putting rose petals in the water... #...because that isn't the only aspect to taking care of yourself. sometimes it looks like forcing yourself to bathe and grieving... #...and using rough washcloths because you can't stand the feeling of your own skin and you can't stand how dirty you feel... #...and obviously i'm not saying that mentally ill people doing self-care is the only way it looks... #...but that it really doesn't help us when self-care is almost made into a 'non-threatening' activity that is pleasant and nice-looking #and of course the examples i used in this post were examples and aren't the end-all-be-all

[mokadevs]

day 12: karma

#arknights #kristen wright #kirsten wright #ho'olheyak #ho'olsten #i'm fairly certain im the first person to ship these 2 so *i* get to make the ship name #kiki draws #minifemslashfeb2024 #women who make each other worse women who are using each other to doom themselves #they do not like each other but they respect one another #they have trust in the other not to do what they want but to do what they expect #ho'olsyse is still my fav ho'olheyak parallel and krisaria is my main kristen ship but #these two. consider. smiles

[commsroom]

it's true that sometimes people will soften eiffel, forget that he's kind of a dick, and play up the more good-natured, goofier aspects of his personality while downplaying how self-centered he is and the amount of undeniable Cis Guy Behavior he is known to display. but his character arc only works the way it does because he is, despite everything, very lovable - it's there in how minkowski's reaction to eiffel's conviction is set up to mirror the expected audience reaction, and desire to believe the best in him. wolf 359 captures something very real in eiffel that i've never seen as authentically represented anywhere else: a sincere, kindhearted man who still perceives himself as the default type of person, who wants to do right by people, but perpetuates harm through selfishness and ignorance. he's held to account for it, but isn't condemned. it matters that he improves because the people holding him to account are doing it out of care for him, because they want him to be better, and to be in their lives.

#wolf 359 #w359 #doug eiffel #i'm half asleep but. you know. #eiffel is a difficult person and a screw up in very average ways. and i think that makes some people LESS charitable to him #because it's far more likely you know someone with eiffel's faults compared to some others who are. objectively worse people but #in ways that might feel less personal. #and i think that's an important aspect of his character too but like. that's why i like him. he's a real guy. to me. #and i think the show wants you to like him too. at least as a character. it wants you to care what happens to him. #but i'm always surprised when eiffel is someone's 'i like him but would hate him irl' character because that is Not my experience.

[majimasleftasscheek]

snarling growling scratching at my screen

#the summit last night made me a worse person #I'm going to be more annoying than I already am about these two #I'm pumped for gaiden tho dkslgjkdgsSLKDGJ #yakuza #ryu ga gotoku #kiryu kazuma #majima goro #kazumaji #goromi #my art

[mostlikelytofangirl]

Yes, I love Jin Guangyao. Yes, I also love Nie Mingjue. We exist

And we want them to fuck

#mdzs #mo dao zu shi #the untamed #jin guangyao #nie mingjue #nieyao #just reaching out to other likeminded ppl #bc I'm seeing a not very nice sentiment towards big boobily man recently #and you are all free to dislike whoever you want #I'm not here to change your mind or pass judgment of you as a person #just trying balance it out a little bit with some good old fashioned shitposting #so if this doesn't speak to you or worse -feel the need to wElL AcTuAlLy #I highly recommend just scrolling by or blocking me before I do the honors myself #lemme enjoy my unpopular blorbos in peace orz #don't mind me

[electric-rabbits]

So, that fucking poster, hm?

#Good Omens #To all my mutual who started following me kind of recently: I am so sorry. I'm gonna be unbearable once s2 comes out #You didn't see me in 2017 when they announced the show. You didn't see me as bts pictures started to come out #Worse yet. You didn't see me when I was a teen and decided to read this fucking book for the first time #Those two motherfuckers are the reason why I started reading fanfic. They're the reason why I draw. Sorry for the person I'll become

[celebrate-lesbianism]

Officially so fed up with mainstream lesbian books that I am writing my own ✌🏻

#it's gonna be butch4butch bc that doesn't seem to exist at all rn #there's gonna be toxicity there's gonna be drama #ya'll I'm so serious I'm like 50K words deep into this thing #The state of things is so bad it gave me the self confidence to go for it because at least I know I can't possibly do any worse #personal #mine #lesbian #bookblr #booktok #I encourage you all to do the same please I need some half decent literature that isn't allergic to masc women 🙏🏻

[undertheredhood]

ykw would've made s02 of atla even better? if jet didn't immediately find out that zuko is a firebender and for the majority of the season they're really close best friends only for jet to find out the truth about zuko in the worst possible way imaginable (i.e. when zuko sided with azula in the crossroads of destiny).

#atla #avatar #avatar: the last airbender #zuko #jet #jet & zuko #jet & zuko friendship #book 2: earth #maybe i'm just a sucker for angst but i would've loved to see that #the feeling of realizing you never really knew someone and you only knew the person that they were pretending to be #what makes it even worse is that jet dies in canon so there would be no hope for reconciliation #and zuko would be left wondering if they could've been friends once again but he'll never know #he can only hope #atla angst #avatar angst #prince zuko #it's sad zuko hours baby!

[kedreeva]

Sorry about the color mix up. I appreciate the reply and additional info! I guess bc I know nothing about peafowl (and the fact i dont breed any type of animal), I'm having a hard time understanding how being sterile would be unethical. I do somewhat get the shortened life span. I really would like to understand this, I just sometimes need stuff explained like I'm 5.

Up front, there's no "somewhat get" to a shortened lifespan being caused by a mutation in captive populations. If an animal is capable of living 20+ years (and some live 30+ or even 40+!) and some non-essential mutation is causing them to live 7-9 years, it's flat out absolutely unethical to breed that mutation, full stop, regardless of anything else going on. That's indicative of a MAJOR problem in their genetics. There's NO ethical reason to breed that because humans like how it looks. So, even without the sterility, these birds would 100% be unethical to produce.

The short answer on sterility is this: we don't know WHY they are sterile, but they shouldn't be, and that means something has gone wrong. When something goes wrong with an animal, and it's something genetic that can be passed on, the ONLY responsible and ethical thing for a breeder to do is to stop using that animal for breeding and closely monitor any already-produced offspring for signs of the problem, and likely not breed them, either.

The longer more complicated answer is this: sometimes it's possible to separate the problem from the aesthetic when it comes to morphs, like it was for cameo + blindness, but sometimes it's NOT, like it wasn't for spider + head wobble for ball pythons. In those instances, it's... difficult. Because you're LIKELY going to produce animals that suffer the same problem as their parent(s), in the attempt to separate the problem from the aesthetic, and sometimes that's ALL you're going to produce. As a breeder, it's your absolute responsibility to NOT release the offspring into the general population, where the problem may be replicated without control, and to keep or cull the affected individuals if the problem cannot be separated from the aesthetic, or AT BEST find them guaranteed pet-only homes that will NEVER breed them.

Sometimes the problem IS purely aesthetic or harmless, like it was for pied in peafowl, and sometimes it's not, like it was for vitiligo in peafowl. The problem comes when you ASSUME a mutation is the first, and treat it like the first when it's really the second. This has caused FAR reaching consequences in the peafowl community, and I'm sure in others, where now the autoimmune disease that first bronze had has been passed into genpop by folks who thought they were breeding a harmless new variation of pied. Hybrid animals are often sterile (not in peafowl though, hybrid cristatus-muticus birds are fertile) because of a mismatch in chromosome pairing numbers, and often that's harmless. So, in some cases sterility is not an issue because it's the expected result or is otherwise harmless... but in the case of peafowl, it's NOT an expected result and we don't know if it's caused by something harmless or not.

Some species, like mice and horses and cattle and dogs, genetic testing and DNA mapping done with millions of dollars has proven that while some stuff isn't purely aesthetic, it also doesn't cause harm to the animal in a way that affects quality of life or that can be adapted for in captive care. For example, in chickens, the frizzle gene causes curled feathers in single copy and an absence of feathers in double copy. This gene is considered ethical to produce IF the breeding is done responsibly by putting a single copy bird over a zero copy bird, which produces smooth coats and frizzle coats, but it is unethical to produce double frizzles (called "frazzles") because frazzles cannot thermoregulate, can easily sunburn, and easily suffer skin injury during normal chicken activity.

For peafowl, we have NO genetic testing. We do not have the genome mapped. As far as I know there's a research group working on it (mostly for green peafowl though, in conservation efforts), but that's not remotely finished or available to the public to test anything. We don't know where any of the morph mutations sit, or what is causing them or if they do anything beyond just change the color. Sometimes color mutations are the result of malfunctions in enzymes. For charcoal specifically, we don't know what the mutation does, besides what we can observe on the outside- the birds have half or less the lifespan of normal birds, poor feather quality, and the hens are sterile. Is the sterility harmless like it is in some hybrid animals, or is it actually a major organ failing? Is it the only major organ that fails due to this mutation, or is it just the first sign of their shortened lives? Is it some deficiency in something the birds need to be healthy? Does it hurt the bird? We don't know, but we do know the mutation and the problems (multiple, please do NOT forget that this is one OF MORE THAN ONE problems) can't be separated, and so until we do know why and whether it's harmless or not, the ONLY ethical response to seeing a problem in a major organ's function linked inextricably to a mutation in color is to not propagate that mutation. If someone wanted to fork over the millions it takes to sequence and map genomes and then determine exactly what is going on with peafowl, that would be nice and good, but I don't see that happening. When I win the lottery big, I'll be doing it, but til then we can only follow normal breeding guidelines

Also, to put this into perspective... peafowl mature sexually around 3 years old. They are chicks until the turn of the new year following their hatch. They are yearlings that year, and immature 2yo next year. They aren't actually considered fully grown until 6 years old, and should live another 14+ years. Charcoal birds die a 1-3 years after full maturity. Is it a coincidence that they fail to thrive shortly after full sexual maturity, or is it linked? Again, we don't know. We don't know if the sterility is fine or if it's just a symptom of something worse.

Even without the sterility, though, charcoal has enough issues it would be unethical. If it was JUST sterility, with no other deleterious effects, then maybe it would be different. But it's not.

#peafowl #asks #anon asks #as always please bear in mind that animal breeding is NOT the same as human reproduction ethics #and I ONLY deal in animal ethics #and honestly even if it was just shit feather quality then I would personally consider it bad breeding #I asked the only person I know who still has charcoals what their issues were and lord it is worse than I thought even #she's keeping/breeding only what she can keep herself #and experimenting with feeding regimens in the hopes of correcting a nutritional deficiency #that might account for the sterility #but so far after like 10+ years she's had no luck #so it's not likely #Like there are SO MANY perfectly fine and healthy morphs out there #there's NO reason to keep making this one #it's not essential to the continuance of the species #also to anon: I'm not mad at all this is just how i sound about my special interest #I'm glad you asked questions #I appreciate you seeking info