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Doesn't feel like it. But I guess it's trying it's best like me.

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And we're back....again. Hi.

The depression is back and the AuDHD is clawing at the walls and cutting cables in my head again. And again. And of course I'm in a place when I can't appropriately communicate verbally because Social Anxiety and past trauma it gets worse.

I want to do everything I want to do but I feel really worse because I'm forcing myself to do it now because I was told off for half eating a packet of cheese that was ment for my brother and ( I was only told that I wasn't ment to eat it after I ate it) then being told the whole "you're 21 now", 'you need to grow up and act like an adult', 'you can't be doing this all the time', 'this is just pathetic' thing...well, yeah. I'm now crying/sulking.

I also like the shaped cheese. And I'm not 21 mentally. Heck who is their actual age mentally 😂

If anyone else says that I need to grow up after being told off not to eat a packet of fun shaped cheese I will throw another fit.

The fun shaped cheese is good depression food for when I'm trying to make sure I don't eat all the ice cream in the house. Because damn they're expensive now.

And the fact that my free Cyber Security course ends in less than a month and I had been putting it off for ages and I'm not even halfway through it it a MASSIVE burden because if my Asian father knew then I would get the disappointment silent treatment. And then the telling off. And then the more family based trauma for not even being able to go through a basic course. See why I can't appropriately communicate verbally? 😂

And I've finished my sweet stash. That's the main problem here.😭😭

#mental health #autism #venting #depression #asian parents

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Said manager went on a 5 week trip and came back to be laid off. Mainly because everything went better when she was away😂😂😅😅

I took a day off work for burnout.

Do you know what stressed me immediately after? My manager asking for more information during the day.

Yes I did say "I'm not feeling good. I won't be in tomorrow" at 11pm. But I ain't responding at 7am and then 11am. I be sleeping then. I am 20 years old. I still sleep in.

And there was an email sent the day I was off. Not listing names but I definitely was the main reason it was sent:

I sent the text message at 11pm without stating the main reason why I wasn't well.

And then we're gonna have to do a return to work interview even after a day of sick leave. I stressed even more about this but then after a day told myself not to worry as she'll forget about it for a few days. It looks like she's forgotten about it already. Or she thinks I've got too much work on my plate to have a 'meeting'.

And she's got this tracker "Bharams(?)". It's to compare how many days we've had off to how well we work. *Cough* WHATS THE POINT OF THAT *cough*

Rant over 😂

Well, it's never gonna be over. I'm still scared to ask to work from home. Even if I've now got a letter from my old therapist explaining the reasons (ASD Burnout reasons). And now i have to think about how to ask permission to be a on call/retained Firefighter after I get my full driving licence... Ugh.😂

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Mood with bottom gif....

Can we please bully Nintendo into leaving the Nintendo DS eStore open like we did with bullying the Sonic the Movie team into changing the design of Sonic?

Think of all the games that we now can't play because the only modern backwards compatible system is now out of production. Especially the ones that are/were download only.

I commute at least 2 hours to work and back almost every day. And I carry my 2DS with me all the time. Mainly to get the step count so I can get the coins but also to see if I can get a street pass. The switch cannot do that!

I would definitely not bring my Switch on my commute because it's too big and too expensive so it's a big enough target to be snatched. Also, I don't want to damage my switch. Being on a bus that's probably half my age (I'm 20) combined with bad pavement, roadbumps, and bad breaks means that I definitely won't be risking my only modern console. My 2DS is small and sturdy enough for my hands to have a tight grip on it. The Switch does not have that safety...

Also, my phone's battery dies quickly and I normally forget to charge my phone before leaving work so I go play on the DS. The DS is my go to travel console as stated earlier. Also, Switch doesn't have streetpass... Sad. A missed opportunity. One of many that Nintendo have ignored/missed out.

I know I'm on a rant here. I'm angry and sad that Nintendo basically shut down the eStore MONTHS before they said they would ( You can't buy anything since last Monday. I only found out the hard way today. They said they were shutting it down on Feb next year...) and THAT HURTS.

As someone who likes to spread out the spending because I want to buy the games I want to play, this hurt because I now have to move to Amazon to buy the games whilst using the Nintendo eStore to see what I want. And a lot of the time at a higher price which puts me off a bit. Also, I have A.S.D and A.D.H.D so I'm even more upset as my planning has now gone out the window and I'm stuck with 170+ tabs of games that I was gonna sort through and buy from Nintendo.

And I'm a chicken for not wanting to Homebrew/mod my DS. It was my first console and I don't want to risk anything software wise to my precious. I'm sentimental! Okay! Also, I've never been a good pirate...

Lastly, (never promise on this. It will never been the end of this sadness...) NINTENDO IF YOU INCREASE THE PRICES FOR THE SWITCH STUFF NEW/OLD YOU HAVE YOURSELF TO BLAME! SEE THE FIGURES OF HOW MANY PEOPLE LIKE ME WERE RUSHING IN TO BUY DS GAMES! LOOK ON THE INTERNET AND SOCIAL MEDIA TO WATCH THE VIDEOS OF PEOPLE TRYING TO GET A STREETPASS IN 2022!

I really want to know the figures of Nintendo DS family VS Nintendo Switch Family. Especially from when they first announced that they were closing the DS/WiiU eStore.

NINTENDO! YOU WENT TWO STEPS FORWARD AND ONE STEP BACK WITH THE CREATION OF THE SWITCH! Yes, it's amazing, brilliant, portable ( to a degree), family friendly... BUT not as much as the DS family was.... IF YOURE GONNA SHUT DOWN THE DS ESTORE YOU MIGHT AS WELL MAKE US A BRAND NEW DS CONSOLE THAT CAN PLAY THE SWITCH GAMES. SMALL, DURABLE, COMPACT, STREEPASS, BLUETOOTH/AUX CABLE COMPATIBLE... EVERYTHING THAT THE MODERN DS FAMILY HAS BUT INTO AN EVEN MORE MODERN CONSOLE.

I should've been in bed around an hour ago. But I needed to get this off.... Because I can. And there's a chance Nintendo *might* read/skim through it. And I'll take that chance even it it's 1 percent.

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Someone's been playing Splatoon a lot🤣

GRAFAIAI  ||  poison/normal-type ⤷ Grafaiai is a moody Pokémon with a fastidious disposition. It doesn’t form packs, preferring to roam alone. It’s constantly caught up in territorial struggles with other Pokémon.

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He is ready for Halloween! 🎃🍬✨

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This page is two years old yesterday 💀

And at the time when my mental health is dropping again 😅🤣

#mental health #two years old #positive mental attitude dammit

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I took a day off work for burnout.

Do you know what stressed me immediately after? My manager asking for more information during the day.

Yes I did say "I'm not feeling good. I won't be in tomorrow" at 11pm. But I ain't responding at 7am and then 11am. I be sleeping then. I am 20 years old. I still sleep in.

And there was an email sent the day I was off. Not listing names but I definitely was the main reason it was sent:

I sent the text message at 11pm without stating the main reason why I wasn't well.

And then we're gonna have to do a return to work interview even after a day of sick leave. I stressed even more about this but then after a day told myself not to worry as she'll forget about it for a few days. It looks like she's forgotten about it already. Or she thinks I've got too much work on my plate to have a 'meeting'.

And she's got this tracker "Bharams(?)". It's to compare how many days we've had off to how well we work. *Cough* WHATS THE POINT OF THAT *cough*

Rant over 😂

Well, it's never gonna be over. I'm still scared to ask to work from home. Even if I've now got a letter from my old therapist explaining the reasons (ASD Burnout reasons). And now i have to think about how to ask permission to be a on call/retained Firefighter after I get my full driving licence... Ugh.😂

#mental health #autism #positive mental attitude dammit #venting #life #two sided coin #working on the problem #work is being weird and i dont know how to think about it

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ONLY YESTERDAY IT CLICKED TO MY PARENTS THAT I HAD SIGNS OF ASD. YESTERDAY!

AND JUST BECAUSE A NURSE SAID: A 6 YEAR OLD DIDNT SHOW SIGNS OF ASD TILL THEY WERE 11 YEARS OLD.

FML

#mental health #adhd #autism #strict parents

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18 month wait list for 18+ year olds to get an ASD diagnosis.

3 month waitlist for my almost 4 year old brother.

UK... No wonder a lot of us are going private. Someone needs to save the NHS.

I'm looking at you Government. With what little faith I have left.

#mental health #adhd #autism #positive mental attitude dammit #life #waiting list #comparison of adult and child

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I'm being more blunt without realising it this week. And of course it's Friday 13th too lol.

I'm blunt, not realising it, and not knowing how to change my words to be softer or think what people might think before I send messages.

Fml.

And I was just getting better.

#mental health #adhd #autism #venting

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in light of this news, I do wanna say this for anyone who needs it: staying informed/in the loop and doomscrolling are two different things, and it's important for your mental health to know what that difference is for you.

it's essential now more than ever to make sure that we're in the loop with current events and politics. this post is absolutely not advocating for ignoring the news, especially considering factors such as privilege. if you're able to, please do try to stay informed. but there comes a point where information can become too much (particularly when you belong to a marginalized group), causing stress, anxiety, and burnout. being an informed citizen shouldn't come at the expense of your wellbeing.

right now, please ask yourself: am I checking the news to stay up to date, or am I checking it because I'm scared? am I following current events to enhance my understanding, or am I following it because I'm too anxious to tear away?

if you feel rising panic, dread, and anxiety that's spiraling, it's time to step back. being an informed citizen doesn't mean agonizing over things you can't control. when that happens, it's time to reign yourself back in.

consider this post a checkpoint, especially if you're an American, black/a person of color, a marginalized identity (be it religious, gender/sexuality, or disability), or any combination thereof. it's alright to step back and care for yourself.

allow yourself room to breathe. it'll be okay. you'll be able to step back in when you're ready.

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AND GUESS WHAT ADHD IS A COMORBITY OF!!!

THATS RIGHT!

AUTISM.

AND WHAT ARE "HIGH FUNCTIONING" AUTISTIC PEOPLE STEREOTYPED FOR?!?

BEING CREATIVE.

THATS RIGHT PEOPLE! WE HAVE A FULL CIRCLE!

Fml.

Maladaptive Daydreaming is scaring me again.

It's making me think I've got D.I.D with hardly any memory loss. Well, not obvious memory loss.

But I hear that ADHD also plays a factor in this mayhem.

Trying to filter through all this AGAIN sucks arse.

#mental health #adhd #venting #maldaptive daydreaming disorder #autism