#I never thought rly hard about that ''realizing you're not talking to who you think you are'' trope but it's scary as fuck now

[sevicia]

I suddenly just fell alseep for like 5 mins and in the dream I could hear my sister talking to me from her bed and I was replying to her until I realized that she's actually at her bf's place rn and I got very scared and didn't know what to do so I just went to post on here (like rn LOL my first instinct #tumblrina) but I got even more freaked out because the letters kept scrambling and I managed to wake up but now I'm just gonna have to go to sleep scared. @ God pleaaaaaseee deliver me from evillll pleaaaaaseeee

#diary #I never thought rly hard about that ''realizing you're not talking to who you think you are'' trope but it's scary as fuck now #and the 1st thing my mind went to was DEMON ... catholic school moment perhaps ..... #🆗 I hope I don't have nightmares. I keep trying to remember how el Padre Nuestro goes for some reason #never understood why my gma started praying when we had earthquakes #WHATEVER. I'm not even religious this is so unserious. Goodnight my beauties ... 🥀

[jujutsubaby]

after hours (part 3)

☆ pairing: toji fushiguro x afab!reader, satoru gojo x afab!reader ☆ summary: the parent teacher night conference is here and you finally realize how popular toji is with all the women in megumi's school. good thing you're the only one who goes home with toji at the end of the day. ☆ tags: modernAU, babysitterAU ☆ warnings: 18+ !! MINORS DNI! dirty talk, foreplay, slight power dynamic, and more dirty talk. ☆ a/n: 3/3 on mentioning jacob elordi in this series should i kms 🤭 anyway this was only partial smut but i promise you toji is going to dick y/n down in the next chapter so hard (ᵔ.ᵔ) so get read for it 😈 also i'm rly liking where the story is going esp for toji x gojo x y/n ahhhh ( •̀ᴗ•́ )و ̑̑ 🖤🤍 series masterlist 🤍🖤

“c’mon guys, i really need to figure out which outfit to wear!” you plead to shoko and utahime, while holding up a black jumpsuit on one hand and a black cocktail dress on the other. shoko and utahime are currently too busy building and decorating their joint animal crossing island to really pay attention to any of your bullshit (and you know it) but you cannot help but feel a bit anxious for tonight. you wanted to look good for dinner and toji, but also professional and respectable for the parent teacher conference.

utahime turns to you and frowns. “i just don’t think either of those are good, if i’m being honest…” she trails off. “i mean, who wears a cocktail dress to a parent teacher conference?”

shoko also turns around and sees the black cocktail dress and eyes it carefully, before finally recognizing it. “i’ve literally seen you wear that to a frat party and now you’re considering wearing that megumi’s school?” she questioned, looking skeptically at the dress.

“okay, so jumpsuit it is.” you say, heading back to your room. you pair the black jumpsuit with some layered dainty gold necklaces and rings and a pair of slightly dirty yet reliable white sneakers with your favorite pair of frilly socks with bow ties on them. you decide to leave your hair down with all its natural curls and grab your bag. you quickly send a text to toji before heading out:

y/n: heading out soon, cya in 8 🤍

you say goodbye to shoko and utahime, still engrossed in trying to make their cottagecore witch themed island of their dreams, and drive over to toji’s house. you’re not entirely sure when you started to feel anxious, but by the time you pull up to toji’s driveway, it takes everything in you to not hurl out your insides the minute you open your car door.

c’mon y/n, you’ve babysat here hundreds of times. why’s this any time different? well for starters, toji ate you out last time. your very poor pep talk barely made you get out of the car and ring toji’s doorbell. you bite your lip and tuck your hair behind you ears, wondering if toji will say something regretful about the time you spent together last night.

sure you aren’t that emotionally attached to him by any means, but you would be lying if you said you wouldn’t feel hurt if he says something along the lines of “this was a mistake”. your thoughts are interrupted by the door finally opening, and coming face to face with toji. your eyes millk in the sight of him, and your breath is quite literally taken away. you think you’ve never seen him clean up this nice, as he’s wearing a crisp navy blue shirt and a pair dark slim pants. fuck me.

“h-hey toji,” you say, greeting him with a slight smile.

"hey, pumpkin," he says, grabbing your arm and pulling you in. he closes the door, and you walk inside. before you know it, toji grabs your arms and swings you around to face him, your body flush against his chest. you squeak at the quick movement and before you can understand what is happening, toji's lips crash into yours. you're taken by surprise, but you immediately melt into his kiss, all your anxiety evaporating.

you stand on your tippy toes and wrap your arms around his neck, moaning into the kiss. you wish there was a way to press your lips even closer to toji's, mimicking the movement of his lips while you tried to ignore how soaked your panties were even though the night just started.

toji leans down and grips your ass tightly and picks you up. almost on instinct, you wrap your legs around his hips, slightly rocking them into his torso while he lightly presses you up against the wall. god, he could just take you right here, right now.

he feels your hips rocking onto him, breaks off the kiss, leaving you whining for more. "already looking for some action?" he teases.

you don't even have a good response for him because he's right: you are looking for some action. down there if you're being specific. and you don't care that he started it first. you nod a pathetic "mhmm" and throw your head back as he leans in to lick your neck and mark his territory. you don't even care that everyone would be able to see the hickey toji is leaving if it meant he didn't stop what he was doing.

"alright, keep holding onto me, pumpkin. i wanna touch you..." toji trails off, as he lets one hand off your ass. your legs remain wrapped tightly around his waist, and your breaths get shorter and louder as his fingers trail up from your hips to your chest. wait, has toji never touched your tits before?

your brain doesn't get a chance to ponder on the thought when toji gives your tits a harsh squeeze and you illicit an almost inappropriately long sigh, trying your hardest to contain your volume. toji groans, loving the response that just his hands over your clothed chest has on you. he gives your hardened buds the attention they craved, pinching and playing with them, as you started to beg toji for more.

"please, please, you know this isn't enough for me~" you complain, squeezing your legs even tighter against his waist. at this point, you were pathetically humping his waist, desperately trying to get some friction in the area you needed it the most.

toji responds by pushing you harder against the wall, your head rolling back as the sensitive buds on your chest sent electricity all throughout your body. if you weren't horny before, you sure are now.

you're about to ask (read: beg) toji to unzip your jumpsuit, when you and toji both hear little pitter patter footsteps coming down the stairs. megumi.

toji immediately shifts you back on to the floor, and you smooth out your jumpsuit and hair while toji adjusts the tent in his pants. you're still trying to regulate your breathing when megumi comes down the stairs. his eyes wild with excitement when he sees you and dashes towards you for a hug.

"megumiii" you greet him cheerfully, your arms open for a hug. you've always had a soft spot for this kid, and you pick him up when he approaches. god, he's getting bigger and bigger each day, you think as you realize he's heavier than he was when you first started babysitting him. "how was your dayyyy" you say in a sing song voice.

"it was fine...yuji brought his fruit scented markers to class today and i used the grossest flavored marker to draw on yuta's face during nap time." he says so unbothered that your jaw drops.

"umm...wow...okay...so that's a lot. i thought we talked about drawing on yuta's face during nap time." you frown. you remember when you were babysitting megumi a few weeks ago when the landline got a call from school about megumi getting in trouble and yuta crying because his face smelled bad. poor kid.

"i know but this time this new girl, nobara, dared me to do it, i had to!" he defends, as you put him down. you watch as toji chuckles at how fond the two of you are. he sighs with content and kneels down to help megumi put on his shoes.

"we'll talk about this later but peer pressure is never any good." you lecture as you hold the door open for megumi and toji. you lock eyes with toji, and he mouths a thank you before taking over and locking the door.

toji helps megumi get into his range rover while you hop into the passenger seat. you quickly check your phone and see two texts:

shoko: how's stepmomming going? me n utahime are scamming children on discord for mushroom diy recipes :)

satoru: ugh that girl who i was supposed to hook up w tn just bailed on me should i kms?

you quickly send a response to shoko that you were on the way to the restaurant and to be nice to the children, and open satoru's message and give it a thumbs up reaction. you're determined to have no distractions tonight.

toji takes you and megumi to a nice, but not too fancy, sushi place downtown, nearby megumi's school. over dinner, you hear megumi talk more about his friendship with yuji, which warms your heart. throughout dinner, you and toji sneak glances and smiles with one another, and you feel like a high schooler again.

you notice between conversations with megumi that toji has been nonstop staring at the tv screen behind you, and you quickly take a turn to see it’s the collegiate basketball game taking place. 

“i didn’t know you were into basketball, toji.” you muse, never pegging him as someone who would enjoy watching sports in general. you get no response from toji — it’s almost like he didn’t hear you while his eyes were glued to the screen. 

“toji. toji! TOJI!” you snap, in front of his face, finally getting his attention. “what’s going on, dude, talk to me.” you ask, confused as to why his expression turned scornful when your home team missed a three pointer.

“oh, sorry. i got really into the game, my bad pumpkin.” he says, eyes still glued to the screen. “just gimme a quick minute, i’ve got some money i’ve bet on our team tonight…” he trails off, quickly shooting you a forced grin before zoning out at the tv again. 

you’re a bit irked that he’s paying more attention to the game than you and megumi but you let it slide. why would he bet on a stupid basketball game anyway, you think. 

you and megumi make small talk while you help him eat his dragon roll before the game finishes and and toji rejoins the table mentally. you hear him groan in frustration before shooting off a quick text. poor guy probably lost his bet. “anyway, what did i miss? sorry about that, guys.”

“nothing!” megumi chirps, before slightly frowning. “also…i can’t finish my dragon roll anymore, daddy. can you help?” 

“of course, kiddo.” toji grins, before taking a napkin and wiping soy sauce off of megumi’s face.

“oh my god, you’re soooo babygirl,” you unexpectedly say. you have no idea where that came from, but you mean it. seeing any soft side of a big man like toji just has your heart melt into a puddle. 

toji raises an eyebrow, while chewing his son’s unfinished dragon roll pieces. "the fuck does that mean?” he says through bites. he’s not totally offended by it -- more so intrigued than anything else.

“i dunno, it’s like when big built guys like you are soft on the inside, you know. it’s just…cute. it’s babygirl.” you laugh, while explaining. you cannot believe you’re having this conversation with toji, but you can’t believe it even more when he laughs. 

“then i guess i’m your babygirl, pumpkin.” he winks at you, inadvertently making your heart skip a beat.

all three of you share pleasantries for the rest of the dinner, the topics ranging from toji losing his bet in the basketball game to megumi trying to convince his dad to get pet dogs. when the waiter comes out with the check, toji reaches in his pockets to retrieve his wallet, only to find it empty.

"oh shit, my bad. i think i left my wallet at home." toji apologizes to the waiter and you. "gah, that's what being a single parents does to you, i guess..." he trails off, making you feel bad for him.

"it's okay, i'll grab it!" you say, covering for dinner. you recall toji promising you dinner yesterday, and you also recall your friends making fun of his broke ass and find yourself holding back a laugh at the situation you're in. god, maybe he is a gigolo, you think as you sign off on the bill and head out to the parent teacher night.

megumi’s school is close enough to walk to, so all three of you are able to take a nice stroll in the heart of the city. as you approach megumi’s fancy private school (where does toji get the money to even pay tuition for this place?), you start shivering as the cool autumn breeze starts to get stronger. you wish you had brought something heavier than this cardigan but toji immediately notices, and wordlessly starts taking off his coat and wrapping it around your shoulders. 

“oh! toji, you didn’t -“ you start, feeling immediately less cold, partially due to toji’s sweater and partially due to your face heating up at toji’s actions. 

“don’t worry about it, pumpkin,” toji says, pulling you closer and leaning close to ear. “you can pay me back once we get home,” he whispers in a low voice, and you swallow, trying to maintain your composure as you walk into the school. 

megumi immediately finds nobara and yuji messing around in the hallways and runs to join them. you feel the warmth of toji’s arms around you disappear and you frown. 

“gimme a second, i gotta talk to one of the dads here real quick…” toji mumbles, seeming displeased about having to speak with this person.

“everything okay?” you ask. 

“uh…yeah. remember how i lost the basketball bet. well…he’s who i lost to.” toji sighs, giving the man a nod as he sulks towards him. you keep your eyes on toji as he seemed crankier than usual talk to the man about the basketball game. wait, where did he get the money to pay up? didn’t he say he forgot his wallet?

your thoughts are interrupted by irritating snickers and high pitched jeers coming a couple yards away from you. you turn to see a group of five or so older women (perhaps they were around toji’s age?) avoiding eye contact with you (but miserably failing). you’re not sure but you think you hear one of them say something along the lines of “that’s the gold digger megumi’s dad is dating now” and “i saw them kissing last night and she was barely wearing a skirt”. 

you really try hard to not laugh, but you accidentally let out a snort loud enough for them to hear. gold digger? if only they knew you had to cover for toji today during dinner, and that he hadn’t paid you in a week. ugh, fuck you really should get on that. 

trying to avoid eavesdropping on what these insecure women were saying about you, you pull out your phone and check your texts, and see one from satoru: 

saturo: do u think u would get off to step mom porn more or less now that you fucked toji?

oh my god, how many times do you have to tell this guy you didn’t fuck toji…yet. you start typing a lengthy response about the inappropriate text, when you’re interrupted by one of the women tapping your shoulder. 

“hi!” she chirps with conspicuous artificial delight. “i know it’s all the rage in your age to go thrifting, but you look really unprofessional coming to school here wearing that oversized piece of garbage.” her smile is dripping with poison. 

“i’ll be sure to let toji know you think about his coat. thanks.” you respond stoically before making eye contact with toji and marching towards him. 

“those ladies bothering you, pumpkin?” toji muses, ruffling your hair slightly. 

“nothing i can’t handle,” you wink. 

“toji, you may step inside the classroom!” megumi’s teacher calls from the homeroom door. toji motions for you to come with him and you do, not sure why you’re feeling a bit anxious about meeting megumi’s teacher. is she going to say something about how much you let megumi watch euphoria? what if you’re teaching him multiplication incorrectly, even though you’re an excellent student? your thoughts are immediately put at bay when, three minutes into the meeting with megumi’s teacher, you realize she has not looked at your or addressed you even once. 

in fact, she’s only looking at toji. not just looking at him, she’s full on flirting with him. 

“oh, toji stop it!” she laughs when toji says he doesn’t do much when helping megumi with his homework. “you’re sooo funny!” you can’t even focus on anything she’s saying about megumi’s performance in his classes. all you're focused on is how she always needs to be touching toji somewhere when talking to him — his arms, his shoulders, and (this one you had to commend her for pulling off) lightly grazing his thigh when he sat down.

“how does he interact with the other kids?” you ask, thinking of poor yuta. 

megumi’s teacher completely ignores you and pretends you didn’t ask anything, and proceeds to “accidentally” “drop” all of her notes on the floor. she bends over to reach them while abruptly stopping a couple feet from toji, and makes a show of apologizing while her pencil skirt hugs her ass. “oh my god, i can be so clumsy sometimes,” she apologizes. 

you do everything in your power to not burst out laughing at how absurd this night is, starting from the the group of women outside the hall to megumi’s own teacher. you make a mental note to tease toji about how popular he is with the moms and teachers at school. meanwhile, toji is off staring at the classroom decorations, smiling specifically at megumi’s artwork that’s being displayed on the wall. he’s so engrossed in it and other similar classroom art that he doesn’t even hear how the teacher moans pornographically when she sits down and takes off her pencil heels, saying “these shoes are just killing my feet, toji…”

“oh uh, okay. that sucks. anything pressing about my son or can we go now?” toji says, finally paying attention to megumi’s teacher. he snakes his arm around your waist, pulling your closer into him, and you take in his warmth. 

“o-oh yeah. no it’s fine, i hope to see you again tomorrow when you pick him up,” she says with anticipation. 

“um, yeah. okay, um. bye!” toji remarks, clearly not catching onto any innuendos or deeper meanings behind anything she’s saying. 

you and toji walk out of the classroom and you immediately stifle a laugh. “woooow, everyone is just sooo obsessed with you here~” you joke. “megumi’s teacher was totally hitting on you!”

“oh yeah, i know. she’s been hitting on me since the beginning of the school year,” he says, taking you by surprise. “why, pumpkin? you jealous?” he says as he squeezes you hips. 

“oh really? you just…didn’t seem to care…” you say, intrigued. you look up at him, searching for some answers but he just shrugs. 

“not my type, really.”

you raise your eyebrows, not even realizing when you start giggling. you probably shouldn’t say what you’re going to say next but you can’t help it. “well, who is your type?” you ask coyly. 

“let me just show you,” toji says and grabs your jaw with his large hand and kisses you square in the mouth, in front of everyone in the hallway. albeit, the only people who actually cared were the group of women who were jeering at you earlier in the night and you think you hear them gasp. you smile into the kiss, resulting in toji chuckling. “let’s go, yeah?”

you nod, and get megumi from his friends and all three of you shuffle back to toji’s range rover. the minute you get in, you crank the seat warmer setting to high, trying not to shiver so loudly. 

megumi immediately starts talking. “i had so much fun with nobara and yuji!” he says excitedly. 

“yeah? what did you kiddos talk about?” toji asks, backing out of the parking lot. god he looks so hot while driving. he has one hand on the wheel and the other hand resting softly on your thigh. you lace your fingers with his and squeeze. he squeezes back and you feel butterflies.

“we talked about euphoria!” he yells with excitement. you stop squeezing toji's hand and your jaw drops. you’re at a loss for words. what the hell are these kids doing watching euphoria? “nobara told us to watch it, and that guy on euphoria is soooo tall did you know? super tall just like your friend that came over a couple weeks ago, remember y/n? the one who was super tall and was wearing glasses and had white ha-“

“ohhh-kayyy megumi, thank you so much for that recap”, you say nervously, absolutely dreading asking megumi ever about his recap of the night. you sneak a glance at toji and see him smirking. suddenly, you were not shivering anymore and the car was actually really hot. “y-you shouldn’t be watching that show, you know.” you say, trying to change the topic.

“who was this guy that came over? i wanna hear more about that,” toji teases, sneaking a quick glance at you before his eyes return to the road. 

“he’s no one, i swear. he just dropped off some pain meds for me from when i got my wisdom teeth removed,” you say. it’s the truth, too. you literally asked satoru to be discrete when dropping off the medicine he picked up for you for this exact reason but he kept on trying to see the house because “no one broke could afford this place”. you don’t want to be known as that babysitter that brings a guy over when the parents are out, especially if that parent is toji. and especially if nothing happened.

toji smirks at how defensive you're getting, trying to go above and beyond to show that you were only his. to be quite honest, it was turning him on and he slams on the gas a bit harder to get home faster. toji pulls up to the driveway of his home and opens the garage, and megumi immediately opens the car door and sprints to the bathroom, while the both you chuckle at how cute he is. 

“so this guy...he your boyfriend or somethin', pumpkin?”, toji jokes. 

“what if i said yes to that, huh? would you ask me to go home?” you press, cracking a slight smile. 

toji doesn’t think it’s funny. he thinks it’s fucking hilarious. his hands touch your thigh and start roaming upwards. “absolutely not pumpkin. i’d wanna know if you guys fucked in my house.” your breath hitches and you swallow. 

“w-we didn’t, i swear,” you start, trying to control your breathing and not fold when toji digs his fingers into your inner thigh. 

“hm, a shame. would’ve loved to seen your back getting blown out from the security cams…” he trails off, squeezing your inner thigh and forcing your leg to open a bit more. even though you’re still fully clothed, you feel exposed by the action, and unintentionally shift your hips slightly which earns a smirk from toji. he leans even closer to you and whispers in your ear, “it would’ve been my new favorite porno. i'd jerk off to it every chance i got.”

this time, you audibly moan. you don’t even care that his dirty talk involves you getting your back blown by satoru. you don't care that you would enthusiastically get your back blown out by satoru if it meant toji would be watching. the thought of him seeing you in such a vulnerable exposing position just turns you on even more, and you suddenly need him. “just take me right now, please. i’ll do anything,” you plead, leaning towards toji for a kiss. 

“oh, i know you will do anything pumpkin.” toji coos, leaning back and stopping your kiss inches before you reach his lips by snaking his hand around your neck, applying the slightest bit of pressure. your breath hitches and you muster a weak "please".

“let’s get inside first, pumpkin.”

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[slytherinshua]

i'm not really one for new years or rly doing anything for it, but i thought i should at least thank all my friends who have made this year infinitely better for me. i'm ngl, this year was really hard in many ways. it felt like me and my family particularly were hit with new things to deal with as soon as the old ones had ended, and we just desperately wanted a break.

my way of getting a break was talking to you all, writing my silly little delusions, and being able to have a space here to share my work. so thank you. whether you were a silent reader, liked, reblogged, followed, or gave feedback for my writing-- all of you have helped me so much this year. the love that my writing has received has given me such motivation to keep going and to keep trying, and i don't think i would've otherwise.

now to thank my lovely friends, who without, i wouldn't be here today :( in no particular order...

@aravrs,, @kyrjnie,, @nyukyujs,, @etherealyoungk,, @rubywonu,, @kyeomyun,, @idubiluv,, @minholing,, @welcometomyoasis,, @dinotoro,, @wonijinjin,, @hannieheartuu,, @mangocustard16,, @amara-mars,, @glosskirt i don't like putting you all together because each of you mean so much to me individually, but i was worried i was gonna forget some of you especially since i don't talk to you guys as much </3 i love each and every one of you, and you have made 2023 such a fun year for me since i was able to talk to you all!! thank you for wanting to be moots with me and for talking to me, talking with you has been so fun and comforting this year <3 cheers to 2024 🫡

@blue-jisungs axe you were one of my first moots ever, and the first blog i followed. we became friends last year but i feel like we became so much closer this year. we watched kdramas together, spammed and ranted to each other, fed each other brainrot and delusions, and just generally enjoyed each others company :( i cannot see my life without you in it, you are so so so important to me now and i want to cry whenever i think about how amazing it is to have you as one of my best friends. i love you more than you know <3

@fairyhaos yena! you were one of the first blogs that i saw and went "woah" bcuz ur writing has always been so amazing. i seriously love it so much, i'll never get sick of it. once i got to know you as a person, i realized that you're even more amazing than your writing is. you're fun and kind and sweet and caring-- thank you so much for being my friend this year and i can't wait to make more memories with you next year 🫡

@weird-bookworm sky you are truly one of my closest friends. we've spent so much time talking and i've enjoyed every second of it. i feel like we have a unique dynamic cause unlike my other friends, we're constantly teasing and bullying in each other in the best of ways <3 in a weird way, the fact that i still know someone who is as big an army as i used to be is comforting. you feel like nostalgia-- like the old me in 2021. and even tho ur older by a bit, you feel like a younger sister to me sometimes skdjsk i really love you a lot, thank you for being my friend this year!!

@haecien cien my only guy friend 👹 talking to you has been especially fun this year. introducing you to the new loves of ur life, listening to you scream about minghao, harua, seungwoo, hyunjae, shin and gaon, playing stardew valley, and sharing some nostalgia from the philippines is all so comforting to me <3 i love u so much and i hope that i can find some more guys to add to ur loml list in 2024 🤞

@kkooongie sarah!! we've talked quite a bit since we met, and it's always been so fun and nice to talk to someone who is as much of a multi as i am <3 finding someone who also stans groups like victon and verivery is extremely hard??? and i'm so happy that there's someone out there who loves silly little nugu kpop men just like me <3 i love you a lot, and i hope you never forget that 🫶

@evalevaeva eva.... ur just incredible to me sometimes?? from writing the best fuma delusions to stressing out abt ur auditions (don't go to cube istg) talking to you has always been so fun!! i'm still so glad that you reblogged that one so mun fic, otherwise i would've never found your blog or talked to you </3 the sieun delusions are real and stan lucy for a better life 🤞 you always make me laugh and smile so much, and i hope i do too cause otherwise that would be a little awkward... 🧍‍♀️ PLS I HOPE IM NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO LIKES OUR FRIENDSHIP 👎

@caramel-maveeato viv </3 my wife fr 🥹 whether it was screaming about the men i love the most to dying over your art or fics, you've always been someone who was always comfortable to talk to. i just love talking to you so much its so therapeutic??? stop rizzing me up tho it must stop before i go insane 🙅‍♀️🚫 no more rizzing in 2024 okay 👹 i hope we talk a lot more and stay as close as we are now bcuz talking to you has always been one of my favorite things to do, i love you so much 💖

@candewlsy mizu my baby </3 I LOVE U SO MUCH LIKE PLS PLS PLS KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE U IM GONNA SCREAM I WANNA SQUISH U?? what. ur just so fun and silly and comforting and I LOVE U AND UR HUMOUR 🥹 i love how you allow me to introduce you to new kpop men and actors, and how you love them just as much as me!! you're just as delulu and slightly deranged as i am AND THATS WHAT MAKES IT FUN 😭 i love watching kdramas with you, and i hope we can finally get through our list of kdramas to watch in 2024 cause its getting l o n g e r 🧍‍♀️ thank you also for reblogging my fics bcuz ur reblogs have to be some of my favorites ever </3 they're so fun and entertaining to read, i always end up giggling :(

@wheeboo rania :( i know i usually bully you and you bully me back, the whole divorced wives things but idk i'm feeling a little emo rn so i'm just gonna be appreciative?? i know we have talked recently, but it feels like we haven't talked enough since before christmas cause i've been busy and you've been busy... and idk i've just felt that void a bit?? talking to you has always been so fun and relaxing, and it's guaranteed to make me smile and laugh and just be an escape from anything i've been thinking about. watching k-dramas and having little music sessions were some of my absolute favorite memories of this year. it's just so special that I can call you one of my best friends, and i hope that i can continue to talk to you for years to come because you're one of the most comforting people i've ever met. not to mention that you write like an absolute goddess?? i still remember proofreading psycho for the first time and just being so shocked bcuz how does anyone even write like that????? i love that i'm ur little go-to for fic spoilers pls don't ever replace me or i'll cry 🧍‍♀️ and whenever i'm struggling with a fic, i always go to you as well <3 i can't express how much i love you and how much you mean to-- words just aren't enough 😭 i'll never get tired of talking to you

@eternalgyu i saved you for last cause i know this is gonna be a long ass paragraph.... ppl are gonna be dying to scroll past this so i wanted to make sure u were at the end. saving the best for last yk 🫡 hannie you have changed my life. like from the day i met you my life was completely changed. it felt like i had finally found my missing puzzle piece?? the best friend that i never had was finally in my life. and my life has never been the same since. everyday when i wake up, i text you. my brain is just "hannie hannie hannie hannie hannie hannie" that's all it is now. when you weren't able to text me for 3 days, i felt like my world had stopped. i couldn't think about anything else, i couldn't sleep. at this point, i need you to live. i need you to be able to function. you are the reason i kept writing. you are the reason im alive. and you will always be my favorite person on this entire earth. i'd choose you over everyone and everything in a heartbeat. it's not even a question at this point, but i know the answer is gonna be you every time. i know this isn't an accurate number of the messages i've send to you, but just on discord, in 2023, i've sent you 183,422 messages. i'm sure ive sent thousands on instagram, and hundreds on other social media too. if you ever stop talking to me, i'll literally find u. LIKE U CANT EVER LEAVE ME CAUSE UR STUCK WITH ME FOR THE REST OF TIME >:( i'll start sending you daily emails pretending to be car insurance or smth like idk ill think of smth... anything to keep you as my best best friend for eternity. i know i say that i don't believe soulmates exist, because the idea of romantic soulmates is a little too fantastical for my realist mind. but since meeting you, i can say for certain that platonic soulmates do exist. we fit together so perfectly, i couldn't imagine anyone else as my best friend.

i remember one time before i met you, i tried to make an irl friend here and my dad said "i hope that you'll find your diana". obviously they didn't end up being your diana, but it's fine. because i did find my diana. you are my diana, and i am your anne. if i could spend the rest of my life talking to you, it'll still not be enough, so please keep talking to me in heaven or something.... the beomgyu to my taehyun, the jeonghan to my joshua, the sejun to my subin, the hoyoung to my gyehyeon, the wyatt to my yuto, the anton to my sohee, the taesan to my jaehyun, the yechan to my wonsang, the chanhee to my changmin, the jeongin to my seungmin, the moonbin to my rocky, the jo to my yuma, the jake to my jungwon, the theo to my jongseob, the taehyung to my hobi, the hwiyoung to my hwiyoung (what), THE HWIYOUNG TO MY DAWON (there we go), THE TAEYANG TO MY HWIYOUNG (even better), the jihoon to my minhyun, my one and only hannie. i love you more than anyone and anything. even though we're so different, we work so well together. we have different biases, and different habits. different religions and different plans for our lives. but we both have plans to meet each other, and i know it'll happen eventually. my life won't be complete until i can run up to you at the airport and give you the biggest hug. i'll probably start crying when that happens since i'm crying just think about it. i won't let go of the hug for maybe 5 minutes because i need to make up for all the hours spent that i couldn't give you a hug. i don't usually like hugs, but giving you one is all that i want to do. there's been so many times where i wished i could hug you. whenever you're struggling or feel depressed, whenever you feel hopeless and lost and uncared for and unloved and overlooked. i just want to hug you when i hear about them, because even though i don't know how to help you in those times, even when i don't have the solution, i know a hug would make things just a little better. when we eventually get ourselves a little apartment with a couple of cats, you can always come to me for a hug when you feel down. i'll bake you some brownies or cookies and we'll watch some kdramas together. we'll reminisce to old kpop songs from our childhood (like... srr SUGAR RUSH USH SUGAR RUSH USH SUGAR RUSH USH UH) and we'll eventually be old porch grandma's still bopping to txt's emo songs. i'll spend my teen years with you, and my adult years with you, and when i'm old and wrinkly, i hope you're still by my side. cause i don't want anyone else as my best friend. only you. pls don't cry while reading this cause ik you might AND I DIDNT MAKE THIS W THE INTENTION OF MAKING U CRY BUT LIKE IT MIGHT HAPPEN..... i rly rly love you. seriously. i love you so much. every memory i've made with you in 2023 is precious, and i know we'll make millions more in the years to come. please stay my best friend for the rest of time, because i'm never going to get sick of you. i love you the most, i hope you know that <3 i hope this is a good paragraph cause i forgot everything i wrote at this point, i don't really plan to write this much but whenever it comes to writing an appreciation for you, i always have more to say. you're my favorite person in the entire world, so ofc i would never run out of words to describe how much you mean to me. please be happy in 2024 and talk to me a lot <3 we'll meet each other for real soon and share a long hug together. until that day, let's continue how we are 🫶

happy new year to you all!! i hope 2024 is filled with love and joy and happiness <3 i love you all very much!! - zanna

#happy new year #i love you all #slytherinshua 🍰

[menalez]

I've been thinking lately about the women on here who claim that any woman who thought she was a lesbian and later realized she was bi was deliberately lying. I think it comes from a place of fear about being wrong about their sexuality. But that pressure and stigma they put out into the community about being wrong makes it harder for women who were wrong about themselves (in any direction or way...thinking you were bi but you're straight, bi but lesbian, lesbian but bi, etc) to come forward about it. And then I think that only makes their fear about being wrong even worse and perpetuates more of the nastiness.

Yeah, there's a chance that I'm wrong about being a lesbian and one day I will wake up and be attracted to a man I guess. I don't believe it will happen because I'm secure in my sexuality and don't take it out on others. But even if it did, it wouldn't make me a bad person and I also still wouldn't date a man because bi doesn't mean you have to date men. I'd just have to admit I was wrong and that can be hard but we don't have to make it harder. No one is perfect and the world can make figuring this all out harder because we don't live in a vacuum where sexuality, which should have no stigma attached to it and no oppression or privilege, is not a neutral thing in reality.

agreed with u here. we need to make it normal for ppl to admit to when they were wrong about their sexuality, instead of making it like a public spectacle and assuming the worst. im not saying there weren’t cases where ppl were simply lying, im sure there was, but there’s also cases of ppl genuinely being confused. i identified as bi for like 3 years (tho i was quiet for the first year, wasn’t sure how i felt about men throughout & for like the last year of it i was rly thinking that im actually a lesbian but wanted to be sure before i said anything) and it wasn’t some kind of malicious act. i wish sexuality could somehow be visible at times or sth so that we could know for a fact and never be wrong especially bc it’s so persecuted and doubted by homophobes & others but the reality is there’s nothing to really “prove” that kind of stuff. our sexuality is more or less internal and our understanding of it will change depending on our own thinking and awareness. this makes being wrong about it pretty possible. i run a lesbian-only server and there were many women who would have sexuality crises or would realise they’re bi (most were still young so it makes sense. i think it makes sense to be bi but feel so strongly about women that u only notice feelings for men between ages 18-22) and i talked to some of these women for years. iirc all of them have never been with men and didn’t realise they felt anything for them until a certain point. it can be scary esp when u confidently thought u were a lesbian for years and it’s difficult to accept as well after you’ve already gone thru the process of accepting urself as a lesbian. i believe they were honest about their situation and didn’t secretly know or sth. they were just young & inexperienced & that can happen. what matters to me is that the person who previously misidentified as a lesbian doesn’t then claim they “used to be a lesbian” or that sexuality can change. being mistaken is ok and shouldn’t be treated w such scrutiny & suspicion on here. instead being honest about it like that should be encouraged

#anonymous

[caatws]

Thank you so much for your post about Gamora and the way grief has been portrayed for her compared to other characters like vision. I have felt all alone for years in being upset that Gamora's death just didn't get treated like it was supposed to. From the beginning it was mostly framed around what it meant to Thanos and then slowly confined to Nebula before landing on Peter to do all the emotional work while eveyone else who was part of Gamora's life acted like they had no clue what was going on. Vol 3 felt like watching some sort of long con cover up job with people trying to pretend a murder never occurred. I don't know what Gunn was thinking because we all saw Gamora die. It was one of the stand out moments in one of the mcu's biggest movies. We have video evidence of the murder so why are they acting foolish.

Then fandom has been another mess. People thinking there just wasn't any time to have anyone else say any words about her death even though it would take less than 1 minutes for a sentence about how hard it's been for everyone. Some people are acting like Gamora never did anything before dying and the whole team was run by all the guys. On top of that writing fic has been pushed as a solution to this whole situation and it's not that simple. The canon has turned the abuse and murder of a woman into something we're all supposed to be okay with because Thanos was sad and most of her family thinks she has memory problems. Fic isn't going to fix this.

It hurts because you can see how in real life reactions to tragedies and loss can be different when people who aren't white are involved. It feels like the mcu mostly had time and space to care about some characters who died in IW and EG and not others based on the same criteria. I thought as time went on it would get better but instead it kept getting worse. First the idea to have 2014 Gamora instead of bringing 2018 Gamora back to life. Who really sat there and thought doing that was the way to go as if all Gamora's growth and healing was meaningless. Then the holiday special taking no time to address how Gamora's death had been for the team. Now we have vol 3 with its entire debacle of a storyline for Gamora where she's popped back in to deal with a mess she didn't help create with people she doesn't know and with no explanation of what she's been going through in the years since EG. Nobody knew what they were doing or where they were going with any of this and it shows. Gamora never should have been murdered in the first place. But since they went there the least they could do is not treat it with idiocy.

you're definitely not alone anon! the lack of mainstream popularity for gamora's character definitely made the experience of grieving her feel very isolating. like all my irls who aren't In This Deep with mcu who just casually follow were def more focused on the avengers characters and their stuff in iw or just weren't in deep enough to care much beyond it being a summer blockbuster (which is also valid!) so it rly felt like no one else grasped like just how much that movie imploded the gotg franchise

i must admit i second guess myself and my feelings toward the gamora situation a lot bc it just feels so weird that it seems like not many other ppl rly talk abt it the way they probably would if this kind of thing happened to one of the lead avengers characters or something. like it feels like most mcu viewers don't even realize the depth of what's happened which is so ?!?!??? so it's nice to see there are others in fandom like you who get it <3

and yeah, i agree with everything you said here. i think it's fair to say fandom often reflects like society in the ways they regard characters of different backgrounds, and i'd argue that's definitely happening here with gamora at least to some extent

#ask #the gamora situation

[atherix0]

HII yes i'm here to talk about chapter three of midnight ambush!! :D murderous intent mumbo<3 protective mumbo<3 he's everything to me<3 my man was immediately ready to get up and go kill the vampire who dared to hurt scar lmaoo. it's so cute that his urge to protect grian and scar is stronger than his rage and will for revenge, he's so sweet even when he's all (murder and violence scary vampire instincts). AND HE THINKS OF THEM AS HIS COVEN. I'M NEVER GONNA GET OVER THIS. and of course grian has to try really hard to covince scar that yes, mumbo got all protective because scar got hurt. oblivious little guy . mumbo: i would literally kill for scar scar: i don't think mumbo sees me as a part of his coven tbh and grian has to deal with it as always . plus the mental image of grian trying to stop both mumbo, who's five seconds away from going after a supercharged vampire lord because she hurt scar, and scar, who is weak from injuries and trying to stand up and falling over..... world's most disastrous throuple<3 none of them are functional, they match<3 also . scar getting flustered when grian called him out on his crush on mumbo :3 yeah sure, you're not obsessed at all scar. not even a little. totally. hehe "(Scar won’t be here in twenty years.)" THAT'S EVIL . DO YOU WANT ME DEAD. ahh thinking about how hard it must be for all of them to deal with. like the knowledge that the person you love is gonna die and there's nothing you can do about it:( i'm looking at the angst with a happy ending in the description really intensely right now of course they got the hair routine wrong lmaoo . but they tried! maybe scar can teach them how to do it properly one day :3 he's their elf now after all. not officially yet but still . grian and mumbo took one look at scar and decided that they need to care for him forever now bc he will never do it properly himself and someone has to. i love when they all take care of each other btw, they're so sweet thay make me<3333 ohh btw more random thoughts, neptune by sleeping at last is such a midnight!scar song . the lyrics are soo scar vibes, i've thought about him when i was listening to it today, the brainrot is really strong

Hiii I have gotten home now and can answer without getting lost <3

Yessss I love him so much <3 It would have been ON SIGHT <3 Yes he's such a good Lord boyfriend/future boyfriend, need to protect his bird and his Elf <3 And it's so important to me that Mumbo even tho he has Vampire Rage moments will always prioritize Grian and Scar's safety so <3 YESSSS it's ALSO rly important to me that Mumbo forms his own Coven in direct contrast with the Covens they're fighting <3 hhhhjgjdf Scar has so much baggage/trauma it was so hard for him to accept his son loves him I s2g he <3 He thinks he's unlovable </3

HAHA it's accurate and Grian is just on the side like "what do you MEAN-"

They're dysfunctional in the best ways possible <3 Grian digging his heels in and having absolutely no chance of stopping an angry Vampire and Scar leaping up just to immediately crash to the floor because he's lost so much blood <3 They're all disasters and I love them so much-

Scar will literally break the law for Mumbo, and Mumbo (and Grian) only, and then turn around and claim he does not love the man smh he deserves to be called out <3

MWAHAHAHAHA I cackled when I wrote that <3 As time goes on it'll only get harder especially when it all starts catching up with him and Grian realizes something coughcoughcxough um anyway- YES don't worry it's angst with a happy ending <3 Specifically happy, not bittersweet <3 Don't worry <3 It may be open-ended but there'll be a few avenues hjfsdlkds <3

They tried and Scar appreciated the effort <3 👀👀👀 Scar teaching them how he takes care of his hair <3 hhhhgh frikkin- I wanna write the hairbrushing scene so badly because that alone is so big for Scar jkfsjkdfkjds I also look forward to Grian and Mumbo standing there staring down some idiot daring to flirt with Scar in front of them because they're both possessive mofos lmao Taking care of each other because they don't take care of themselves <3 they all care so much more about each other and have to learn how to love themselves too hjglkfsdgjkdfs they're helping each other heal and that's so hhhhh <3 I love relationships that lift each other up <3

I would like you to know that I have been listening to this song on REPEAT now, it is SUCH a Midnight!Scar song holy cows, I really need to continue writing and not analyzing a song for why it fits Midnight!Scar to a T hhh-

#Ask #Midnight Series #Mumscarian #Hermitshipping

[harley-michaels-main]

Hi! May i have a Demon Slayer and MHA matchup please? My name is Leah, my pronouns are she/her, Im a March Aries and an ENFJ! Im native irish, and my hobbies include drawing, guitar, reading, watching scary movies and true crime documentaries, and listening to punk rock and city pop! my ideal dates would be going to an art museum, dinner and a movie or an arcade! im pretty competitive, but in a playful way! I would describe myself as kind, creative, smart and extroverted. I do tend to overthink, and i have a habit of being overly hard on myself, but im improving! as for my appearance, im kinda slim/curvy, and im pretty soft looking haha, i have rly messy dark brown hair, brown eyes, pale skin and long eyelashes :) im around 5’4” and have freckles! my fashion style is very 70s/90s inspired, and i wear a lot of rings lol. im really spiritual, and i love connecting to my surroundings and beliefs that way! I do tarot cards a lot, and i love crystals! i love learning about other cultures, so i have a long list of places i want to travel to and things i want to see! i tend to have my head in the clouds and fantasise a lot, but on the other hand i wouldn't mind having someone to join me up there sometimes haha. thank you so much! :)

Hi hun, you sound a lot like my best friend I actually thought you were them for a moment. Anywho, I hope you enjoy your matchups!

Your Demon Slayer Match-up is...

Tanjiro Kamado

When you first met, Tanjiro saw you as another friend that he wanted to protect from demons. He didn't think much about relationships since he mainly focused on his sister at first.

What first drew Tanjiro into you was how passionate you were about the things that you liked. He admired that you didn't seem to let things get in the way of what you like.

He never really had time to explore what he likes so he really enjoyed learning new things from you.

Whenever you two have free time he likes to hear about different types of music and other things that you like. He enjoys just being able to have a few moments to act like a kid instead of having to deal with a lot of responsibility.

He always makes sure that you are cared for and that you have eaten your fill before resting. He firstly thinks of you almost like a sister, but he quickly realizes that isn't the case.

Tanjiro first realizes he likes you when he sees you and Nezuko together. You're simply showing her a song you learned while he watches.

It takes him awhile to work up the courage to tell you how he feels because he doesn't want you to get dragged into his mess.

When he finally does tell you, he makes sure that he is always there to protect you, no matter what.

He doesn't want to lose you like he lost his family. He makes sure that everyone is always cared for around him.

In between missions, he likes to take you out to small restaurants. Just small moments to yourself so you are able to recharge and relax.

He isn't sure how to act in relationships since he has never been in one, but he tries his best.

Overall, he may not know what he's doing and may need a bit of guidance, but he tries his best and will always be there for you.

Your My Hero Academia Match-up is...

Shinsou Hitoishi

Shinsou wasn't very interested in you at first. He really only saw you as another student who could possibly get in his way.

What drew him into you was just your overall vibe. He thought you were a fairly calm person when he first met you and he also enjoys a lot of the same things as you.

You two got a lot closer when you two randomly started talking about a few true crime podcasts you both listened to.

He still didn't think of you as a friend, more like someone he shared things with. He also liked to share a few fashion tips about how to input 70's fashion into their time.

He doesn't like to admit it aloud, but the moments you two spend together are the moments when he feels most at peace.

Shinsou still has a few trust issues with people so he's always cautious around you, but he's slowly learning how to be more comfortable around you.

He first realizes that he likes you when you two go to a museum. You're staring at some exhibit that he can't remember because he was too busy staring at you.

He's fairly easy to read, so it isn't hard to figure out that he has feelings for you.

When you two are together he starts to realize just how extroverted you actually are. It somewhat takes him back because you're so much more outgoing compared to him.

He tries his best to be there for you at all times, but it's hard since his social battery is just so much lower than yours.

When both of you need sometime to just relax with each other, you will either listen to true crime podcasts, or turn on some music.

When you two go out together, he likes to have small things of yours that match. It just makes him feel all giddy.

All in all, he may be awkward but you two share a connection that you don't really have with others.

#demon slayer #demon slayer fluff #demon slayer x reader #kimetsu no yaiba #kimetsu no yaiba x reader #kimetsu no yaiba fluff #kny #kny x reader #kny fluff #tanjiro x reader #tanjiro #tanjiro fluff #tanjiro x reader fluff #tanjiro kamado x reader #tanjiro kamado fluff #tanjiro kamado x reader fluff #tanjiro kamado #my hero academia #my hero academia x reader #my hero academia fluff #mha #mha x reader #mha fluff #boku no hero academia #boku no hero academia fluff #boku no hero academia x reader #bnha #bnha x reader #bnha fluff #shinsou

[janisarkisian]

Hey if you're interested in prompts I have one for toh. How about amity being jealous? I love your storys. Keep it up 😁

so im like rly sorry this took FOREVER but i had writer’s block and school and also a tumblr break somewhere in there but here it finally is lol

Word Count: 1,439

“Hey Willow, do you know the answer to number seven?” Luz asked, and Amity held back the urge to growl. 

“No, this one’s hard even for me,” Willow responded, giggling. 

“I know the answer to number-” Amity started. 

“Oh! It’s the potions track!” Willow interrupted her, for the third time that day. 

Feeling her face go completely red, it was hard not to yell at Willow. They had been doing homework together, in the library, and Amity had known the answer to every problem so far. Luz had needed help on three, and Willow seemed to be stealing her chance to talk to Luz every single time. To put it simply, she was jealous. 

She tried telling herself that Luz did not like her the way she liked her. Luz seemed to like her only as a friend, but Amity was in denial. She wasn’t ready to fully accept it yet. Plus, Luz would have to leave the human world in less than a month, so there was no chance for a relationship to last. It was best if they remained friends. 

Still, every part of her was attracted to Luz Noceda. 

“Are you okay, Amity?” A voice shook her from her thoughts. Looking up, she saw it was Luz talking to her. 

Her face going scarlet, Amity practically fell on her words, “Oh, yep! I’m totally fine. Everything’s fine here. I mean, with me. Yes, everything’s fine with me. Hahaha. Why would things not be fine with me?” Somehow, when she finished talking, she was leaning on the table weirdly and couldn’t have been any more obvious about it. How could Luz not see? 

Or maybe, she did see. Maybe, she saw and didn’t care. 

Out of the corner of her eye, she could see Willow looking at her oddly. Expecting her to talk, Amity inwardly cringed, but Willow remained silent. Still, Amity could never forget the look of contemplation, and at that moment, Amity became certain that Willow knew about her crush on Luz. 

***

Later that day, Amity was sitting on her bed, trying to concentrate on an assignment for abomination class. It was hard to focus though because Luz kept invading her thoughts. 

By now, Luz wasn’t even invading anymore. Luz had already captured her thoughts. 

Just as she had started to think about (not for the first time) weather Amity Noceda or Luz Blight sounded better, she caught the twins staring at her, standing in her doorframe. 

“What do you want?” She asked, and it came out harsher than intended. 

Edric’s face went soft, then mischievous as he replied, “Nothing, dearest sister.” 

She shot him the come-on-tell-me-what’s-up-face and Emira spoke up. “We want nothing. It’s what Luz wants.”

Amity felt a rapid blush crawl up her neck, and her heart was beating louder than Hexside’s Percussion section. “Luz? Luz is here, like right now?” She asked the twins in dismay. 

“Heyyyyyyy Amity!” Luz popped out from where near Edric had been standing. Amity thought she might faint. Luz was standing right in front of her, in her own home. Not to mention her parents probably had to let her in. Her thoughts were a rush as Luz sat down on the bed next to her. 

“We’ll just give you guys some space,” Edric emphasized the word space, trying to make it clear he knew Amity’s feelings. But did he want Luz to know? Or could he possibly be hinting to Luz? Did Luz like her?

Luz appeared unfazed and finally spoke, “You seemed a little upset earlier. I just wanted to make sure you were alright.” 

This was what it was about? She hadn’t been fine earlier, and what was practically rejection still stung a little, but for the most part, she was fine. 

But there was no way she could tell Luz the fact that it still stung a little. “Oh yeah, I’m fine,” She responded, trying to show no particular emotion. 

“Are you sure? Because I didn’t come out here to talk for nothing,” Luz pushed. 

There was so much she wanted to tell Luz. She wanted to tell her everything that she felt when she was with her. How her stomach felt like it was in her throat, and the words never really came out right. How Luz made her pulse flutter like thousands of butterflies were flying around. How when Luz was around, she never failed to smile. How when Luz was around she felt like she was flying, and it was just them, and nothing else mattered. 

But there was no way she was going to tell Luz all that. 

A few seconds later, Luz’s face lit up, and Amity immediately recognized the thoughts running through her head. She had seen it many times at book club. Mainly when they started talking about Azura and Hecate. Luz was wearing her fangirl face, plain and simple. 

“Is this about your crush?” She asked brightly, eyes wide. 

“What? No.” Amity responded quickly. 

“Oh my gosh yes! This totally is about your crush, spill the tea.” She went silent, looking at her hands, probably blushing like she always was. Or, how she always was when Luz was around.

Luz seemed to notice she was uncomfortable with the question and tried to fix it, “Amity, look. It’s okay if you don’t want to tell me who they are. Will you please tell me about them though? It’s okay if you don’t want to, I mean I don’t want to be like the person who pushes you to do things, sorry.” 

She took a deep breath. Luz wasn’t asking who she liked, just wanted her to describe them. Truthfully, she desperately wanted to tell someone about Luz, even if it was Luz herself. “Okay.” 

“So, um about my crush,” Amity started, “Well, they’re brave. Really brave. They aren’t afraid to stand up to someone if they’re wrong or doing the wrong thing. Sometimes, they stand up to bullies for other people, just because they don’t want to see their friends getting hurt. And they’re so funny. I mean, on Grom night, they told me so many jokes I was smiling so hard. And whenever they’re with me, I can’t seem to stop thinking about how pretty their deep brown eyes are. And they’re courageous. I know that’s kind of the same thing as brave, but the word just feels right. They once did something so brave for me that I want to call it courageous, simply because it sounds fancier. Anyways, they’re a really, really great person. 

“Wow Amity,” Luz said after a few seconds of them sitting in silence, “They sound like an awesome person. Whoever they are, they would be lucky to have you.” 

They were sitting so close now. As they had been many times before. She had never had the guts to kiss Luz, though she thought about it every time they got close. Sometimes, she was thinking about it even when they weren’t close. Or even if she wasn’t with Luz at all. 

Before she had time to digest the terrible decision she was about to make, Amity leaned forward a couple of inches and pecked Luz lightly on the lips. 

Though the kiss was short and too quick for Luz to cooperate, Amity felt fireworks. She was tempted to lean back in, but she needed Luz’s reaction first. 

Praying that Luz wasn’t mortified, she leaned back. Studying her face, she tried to get a read of Luz, but it was hopeless. Finally, Luz talked. “It was me? I’m the amazing person you were crushing on?” 

If Luz wasn’t with her, Amity would have been convinced that she had a fever, but she knew that wasn’t the case. She was blushing redder than she ever had before. Honestly, she felt just about ready to pass out. 

“Yeah.” 

Luz took a deep breath and finally responded, “Wow.” They were both quiet for a moment, and Amity realized she was doomed. If Luz hadn’t done anything by now, there was no way Luz had feelings for her. It was hopeless. 

All of a sudden, she saw Luz leaning forward. Before she knew it, their lips were colliding and Amity felt as if she were on fire. It was the best moment of her life, and even though her body was begging for air, she didn’t want to leave. She never wanted the seconds to stop. 

Finally, when there was no oxygen left in her lungs, she pulled apart. She and Luz stared at each other for a few moments, but Luz spoke up, “Well Amity, I think you’re pretty great too.”  

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[thespacenico]

again im rly sorry i know you're not bi but hhhh idk you're older than me so maybe you could share a little nugget of knowledge on the subject? you absolutely dont have to respond though

hello!! i read your first ask too but i’ll just answer this one so we don’t have to let everyone who sees this post know all the personal details of your dilemma hahaha, also don’t feel bad for spilling this out to someone! it can be really confusing and overwhelming, and talking about it definitely helps you process things better. i’m not sure to what extent i can help but at the very least i can share my own experience with you and hopefully that can give you some perspective! 

(also, if anyone reads this and has more advice to add or maybe needs to correct me on something i’ve said, feel free to do so in the replies!)

i identify as lesbian now, but originally i thought i might be bi (and honestly, sometimes i still question things and that’s okay!). i had dated two guys (each for a month) by the time i started questioning if i wasn’t straight, so i had not a lot of relationship experience, but enough to have a feel for what it was like. obviously i had never dated a girl, but when i imagined myself dating a girl i realized i definitely was not opposed to it. i had never had a crush on a girl either (or so i thought), but i felt like i had the potential to. in my case, it was like once i accepted even the possibility that i wasn’t straight, it was so easy to recognize that i was (and am) attracted to girls!! in the past i never thought i had that option so of course i never recognized my attraction for what it was, but once i got past that barrier everything made so much more sense for me lol

i think one piece of advice would be to try not to think so much about relationships necessarily and focus more on where your attraction lies, if that makes sense. you definitely don’t have to have relationship experience to know what you do/don’t like, but when you think too much about not having that experience, you can get stuck running in circles saying “i might like ___ but i’m not sure bc i don’t have experience” or “i don’t think i like ___ but maybe that’s just bc i don’t have experience.” relationship experience isn’t a determining factor! obviously it can make some things easier to understand, but again, it doesn’t necessarily determine anything.

hopefully this doesn’t make things more confusing, but in some cases, even if you found that you were attracted to girls, that doesn’t necessarily mean you want to be in a relationship with them. it differs depending on the person! i also know lots of bi people who prefer guys over girls and vice versa, but they’re all equally and unequivocally bi. so anyway as i said before, attraction is an important factor! when i started questioning if i was a lesbian, thinking about my attraction vs. lack of attraction was a HUGE help for me, and i think that applies to most people questioning their sexuality.

i can tell you that when i identified as bi, i definitely imagined relationships differently depending on if it were with a guy or a girl. as i understand it, that’s extremely common! the dynamics may be much different if you date a guy vs. a girl, and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with that, in no way does it mean you’re not bi. 

obviously i can’t tell you what you are, and it’ll take some more thinking and processing and talking on your part! but from what you said in your first ask, you sound a lot like i did when i was first questioning my sexuality. there’s a lot of confusion and uncertainty and there are so many times where it feels like you’re faking it or just kidding yourself, but in the long run, you know yourself. trust your gut and let yourself feel what you feel! if you think long and hard on it and decide nah, you’re not attracted to girls after all, that’s fine! but if you really think you’re bi, there’s a really good chance that you are.

my messages are open if you ever need someone to talk to about it more! i hope some of this could help ah

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[mermaidsirennikita]

Hi. Hope you're doing again. I saw ur asks qbt Anne Boleyn and I hope it's not to late to talk to u abt it. I rmmbr reading abt how Henry's ardour was too much too cope with (kinda oppressive?) so Anne at some point had left court for Hever and Henry had started writing her plenty of love letters and even went up to her place. Seems like he was rly obsessed with her? Can we call that harrassment? How do you think this grew up to the point of turning into such an obsession for Henry?

Hey!  Not too late to talk about Anne B., I’m always up for that--also other historical/art historical topics.

Anne did seem to initially be disinterested in Henry; it sounds like she loved Henry Percy and that didn’t work out, she entertained the affection of Thomas Wyatt in a “courtly love” sense (knowing they’d never happen as he was married) and had the idea of the Butler marriage floating about.  So being a king’s mistress wasn’t in her priorities, and I don’t imagine she immediately thought that being queen was even an option.

We can definitely call the way Henry treated Anne as harassment.  He attempted–and arguably succeeded–at alienating her affections, inquired after her past romantic interests with the possible intent of getting them out of the way, and followed her when she left.  What has kept people from calling it harassment in the past is a) sexism and b) the fact that Anne has this cloak of mystery around her.  People believe that every attempt she made to spurn Henry was really her playing hard to get.  And I’m not saying that she never did this; I believe that what began as her genuinely attempting to avoid him progressed into her realizing what she could get from him, and she did purposefully tantalize him a bit.  (Mostly with the prospect of full intimacy as he saw it, and a son.)  BUT there’s really nothing I’ve seen that has led me to believe that Anne immediately was receptive to Henry’s advances.  More likely, she wasn’t because she’d seen her sister get tossed aside fairly quickly.  If we go with the theory that Catherine Carey was actually Henry’s illegitimate, unacknowledged daughter–well, if Anne knew this, she’d probably be even less likely to accept his initial advances.

I feel like once Anne decided that there were advantages to courting Henry’s interest, however, she encouraged the obsession.  And the obsession began, I think, with Anne being what he wanted and couldn’t have…  That drove Henry crazy.  He was an exceptionally egotistical man, and seemed prone to throwing fits when he didn’t get what he wanted or was slighted in some way.  (See: his rivalry with Francis I.)  Anne–initially unintentionally, then later intentionally–played into these qualities.  For that matter, Henry was used to being praised as this super hot prince who any lady would die for.  He had his beautiful Spanish bride as a young man, and when she aged had no issue with courting Bessie Blount and Mary Boleyn.  He didn’t have as many mistresses as Francis, but prior to Anne it seemed like he didn’t strike out with the woman he wanted.  He may have also started to fixate on Anne as a symbol of his masculinity, and Henry was so conscious of this; he considered his inability to sire a son an insult to his masculinity, and Anne caught his eye when he was in his mid-thirties–not in the terrible shape he became famous for in his later years, but not quite the golden prince he’d been in his younger years.

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[kaiitae]

You are not an oversensitive cry baby for wanting respect and wanting to be treated right. I don't know anything that is going on, ofc, but don't let whoever is making you feel this way make you think you're oversensitive for feeling the way you do when they hurt you. If you feel hurt, then you feel hurt and you have every right to feel that way when someone mistreats you. I hope you feel better babe. ;;

oh gosh, this has been in my inbox for quite a while now i’m so sorry ;; exams and school overwhelmed me (everything overwhelms me at this point honesty rip). thank you so much anon you’re so so so sweet!! this put a smile on my face and made me feel better. it’s kinda hard to grow out of the mindset when you grew up your entire life being told that you’re really sensitive and shouldn’t be like this it kinda just invalidates your feelings you know?? so i never rly talked about what makes me upset in people because it feels like,,it’s wrong of me to be upset or that i’m overthinking or things like that. it also doesn’t help that some people who talk about how much they “care about me” have never rly accepted how i feel abt certain things and always denied their mistakes when i always tried my best to acknowledge everything they were upset abt even if i don’t remember doing any of it. so yeah, it’s like all the people that i thought would take it seriously just didn’t almost all my entire life which got me thinking that i...need new friends, lmao. but again, thank you so much!! i’m trying my hardest to grow out of that mindset (i have an ugly habit of telling people that i’m sensitive when i realized that i’m actually not...it kinda made everything worse adkfj. mom: i love you, but what have you done to me sighs. also sorry this turned to an ugly ass rant. if you’re on mobile: sorry again!! ;;)

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