#I just cannot stress enough how much I love him

[barrenclan]

Can’t stop thinking of a Have You Seen My Sister Evelyn AMV/MAP of Pinepaw and Daffodilpaw looking for their sister. It starts out silly- cartoon art style, Pine and Daff asking various Clanmates on where they saw Asphodel last, lots of hijinks and slapstick, etc. Over the course of the song, the landscape gets progressively darker and more realistic, with occasional realistic shots, until at the very end the gleeful illusion is broken and it’s just BarrenClan standing over a child’s corpse

Okay, I have got to address this. This is the - fourth? fifth? - time that this song has been suggested to me with this exact idea for it. I answered the first one some time ago, and haven't answered the succeeding ones for that reason, but I cannot ignore it any longer. PATFW fans psychically communicating to each other.

I see you sliding a DreamSMP song in here, I was there. You ain't slick.

Where will you be When the sun goes dark

Where will you be When death comes knocking Oh no, where will you be

I'm always surprised how many people write songs about empty, forsaken lands! It's more popular than I thought.

There's nothing left of this day There's nothing left of this town Our time has ceased with such sorrow There's no one left here to mourn

Outside they cry, wolves in the night <- arooo.... Dark with their howls all around We'll just lie here, clothed in our sheepskin And trying to pretend there's no harm

I am going to put my two cents in and say DarkProwl.

You called, I answered Open the door, I enter The glow, the candor A feeling like no other

I wanna climb inside Be someone impolite Wanna eat you alive Should I, should I, should I?

AHHH HELP... you're not. Wrong??

This sounds like a super cute idea, with Blacknose being the singer and the bridge between Egret and Mallow.

It could be weird, but I think I'm into it You know I'm one for the overly passionate I like you, and I loved him We could all be the best kind of friends

You've got so much in common Talk about your taste in women I'll be in the middle While you two get along

Heartaches, heartaches My loving you, they're only heartaches Your kiss was such a sacred thing to me I can't believe it's just a burning memory

Heartaches, heartaches What does it matter how my heart breaks? I should be happy with someone new But my heart aches for you

Wailing... sobbing... my boys.......

Please, please be here for me dear 'Cause I've never needed a friend more And I can't stress enough How much it means to me that you're trying And I don't mind if you can't hold me like you used to 'Cause I've never hated myself more And this is just a bump in the road and I promise I'm trying

I'm trying to tear the wool from your eyes But a part of me wants to let you be 'Cause then you wouldn't see what I've become

Yes I think it would be!

Follow my moves Don't make a sound We will get past and we'll never be found Darker than blue Darker than black We will escape and we'll never come back

I can see it! Something about lost childhoods, and homes that used to be full but are now empty.

Standing in the yard, dressed like a kid The house is white and the lawn is dead The lawn is dead, the lawn is dead

Illinois toll road, Indiana plain Roll the windows down, shoot at the change Half return, half return Honey in your mouth when you gave me my name Tears in your eyes when you pull it like a chain

#ask #anon #music #pinepaw #darkprowl #blacknose #egrettail #mallowstar #cormorantpaw

[healing-winston-pratt]

10 - 10

"There are so many things to marvel at. How could anyone want to hurt it?"

He's the embodiment of everything good in this world. The sunshine in a smile. Spring breeze and laughter and *cries*

#renegades #renegades trilogy #renegades fanart #renegades art #callum treadwell #wonder #wonder boy #renegades fandom #renegades marissa meyer #archenemies #archenemies marissa meyer #supernova #supernova marissa meyer #marissa meyer #my art #winnie draws #I just cannot stress enough how much I love him

[ghastlyaffairs]

for something as trivial and simple those feelings sure are hard to get rid of

also made a gif a version for fun + alt version with no tears under the cut

the gif is in very low resolution...this is a feature (i could make it bigger but that would require saving each frame individually and than glueing it all together. also i feel like low resolution suits it better. aesthetically and fits the mood)

#hs #homestuck #dirk strider #eye strain #probably? if you think i should tag something else let me know!! #anyway hooray its time for rambling in the tags #so uhhh heres the teæ i've been sick for like a week and you know how it is when suddenly your throat becomes the main gunk warehouse #and you can't breathe lol. wish i could just pull it out. anywaaayy this is basically a vent piece for me being sick lol #also i could draw remotively the same thing with kris deltarune. oh how easy it is to project having a cold #though i have been also experiencing troubles with feelings recently as well....how fitting for dirk #speaking of the man himself (enough of me) his relationship with his own Heart...is peculiar to say the least #the thing i love about alphakids is that despite being so feral they were. so relatable. i cannot stress this enough how unwell they are an #and how they represented being a teen so well. yeah being 15 years old makes that to you #imagine being an emotional mess and trying to fit the 'norm' and act normal about your friends so youre not offputting #and then you fall in love with you friend and your ai clone falls in love with him too looool noone makes out of this one alive #uhh literally. godtiering stuff and dying remember #and speaking of it. tw for suicidal talk for the rest of tags #do you ever think dirk was suicidal. of course the part of when he teleports his head to jake was totally planned and he knew he would -> #wake up as dreamself but. don't you think the moment he cut his head off was sort of. cathartic. how much did he hate his own guts #beheading himself not only for the plan...but also because he thought he 'deserved' it #also wow he is a Prince and was literally beheaded don't you think its funny hahaa #sigh poor thing #this has ended on a not the very pleasant note hm #also fckkkkkk i didn't draw anything with rose/mary for the lesbian visabilty week #(putting the slash because tumblr search system has a dumb gag with showing you posts that contain the tag inside the other tag. #and i don't want this post to show up for the ros/mary fans because it's not!!!! its rose's father emotional crisis post!!!!) #update YOOOO WHAT THE HELL THE GIF HAS EVEN LESS PIXELS THEN I PLANNED fantastic #this your breakfast now tumblr. enjoy your crunchy flakes of dirks meltdown. mwah

[soullessjack]

Also just since my one jack-psychosis post made its rounds i’d love to add on these things for extra salt in the wound:

-> “jack smiles, so happy to be so needed, so loved.”

-> “they’ll never want to be friends again.” [“and that’s important to you?”] “they raised me. taught me to be who i am.”

#HE LOVED THEM SO MUCH NO WONDER HE WENT INSANE OVER LOSING THEM 😭😭😭 #also can this be the start of the fandom actually talking about him….paychisus included we are simply very lacking in jack meta #we’re lacking any acknowledgment of jack that isn’t a condensed ableist mischaracterization lmao #spn #supernatural #jack kline #sam winchester #dean winchester #tfw2.0 #castiel #spn scripts #spn meta #spn 14x19 #cannot stress enough that the idea of him as just being their adoptive baby to fix everything and make it all domestic is a gross #misrepresentation of how TFW2.0 actually works and how exactly jack feels about them #they’re his friends they’re his dads they’re IMPORTANT to him and he’s not only willing to harm/risk/sabotage himself for them #but he’s also very VERY willing to kill for them too #which is also highly glossed over in the fandom bc precious smol bean-ification runs rampant around here but i digress #guy who would very easily destroy the world because his surrogate fathers are his world 😝😝🥹

[sidesteppostinghours]

caine is a very calm, collected, stoic individual. it takes a lot to get him caught openly off guard or flustered.

getting picked up and kissed by a villain a foot shorter than him with no prior warning would do the trick tho

mitchel belongs to @hyper-pixels! i Did have ideas before this but unfortunately for caine all of them got thrown out of the window when i got this notif

#hes being carried bridal style for kissing purposes #but i personally love the image of caine getting slung like a sack of potatoes over trouvailles shoulders #theyd get a concussion over hitting the pavement but itd be funny as hell #this whole piece was a blast to work through holy shit #for the aforementioned reasons i dont get a lot of opportunities to draw caine w exaggerated expressions or posing #so this was a treat #i also need to stress how much fun mitchels hair is to draw #its literally so poofy #i could just scribble to my hearts content it was great #speaking of #mitchel has the awe inspiring ability to make his love life everyones problem and i cannot respect him enough for it #godspeed my man #caine lynzal #nmoc: mitchel becker #sidestep #fhr #pulp draws #ockiss24

[rottingraisins]

Happy meriris canon day

IM STILL NOT QUITE OVER IT wikidot user RosySaturniidae i owe you my life. ITS EVEN ON THE RESURRECTION HUB PAGE

Girls when they are still very firmly under the foundations thumb but at least they arent bearing the brunt of it on their own anymore!!

#i do wish. maybe. like if im allowed to complain a bit that there was less clef baggage like proportionally #i get that thats the point of the article AND I DO THINK irismeri. happening esp in resurrection #where he knows iris would be something he has thoughts & feelings abt just. idk clef meri stuff has a tendency to focus on him #pretty exclusively and i wouldve loved some more presence from meri herself :0 #the iris clef dynamic is v crunchy though i cannot stress enough how much i NEED them to yell at each other at some point in resurrection #also the worldbuilding abt the logistics of entering a relationship at the foundation is p interesting! #and meri wearing the hawaiian shirt ofc in true lesbian fashion + taking after her dad... #scp #irismeri #scp 105 #scp 166 #iris thompson #art

[ascendingconures]

Various pre-distortion mikeys that have been sitting in my gallery

#i cannot stress enough how much of a confort character he is to me #if it isnt obvious i never really finish my 2d art i just doodle for fun and its usually him #i mainly work in 3d #i cannot draw this motherfucker consistantly at all. how i draw him changes so much #the only thing that is consistent is the tooth gap and the freckles #michael shelley #i love him sm i just wanna ruffle his hair #mikey u didnt deserve such a fate #making myself post this to say fuck you to my anxiety LETS GOOOOO

[bluffmotel]

while only a minority share this view, i do find it somewhat tone deaf when people claim jay's ending is the best outcome for an abuse survivor -- either directly or indirectly implying everyone in the holt house was an abuser that jay, their sole little victim, had to get away from. for starters, none of his endings are happy ones. not even the fugitive path where he's holed up amongst nature, has a dog, and is bathed in solitude. maybe if you close your ears to what jay's saying during that scene you could see this as good for him, but his dialogue is stifled with an achingly loneliness, a sadness. this idea that he craved being alone in the wilderness is not one jay paints himself, it's only something that's said by tyler ; someone who clearly doesn't understand the younger on any level, much less grasps his desires. yes, jay wanted out, he likes nature, though no human can stew in their own space for years without this affecting them mentally. and that's not even taking into account that his entire life is over! he can't travel, he can't visit other countries or get lost in other areas of wood lands or plains, jay is infinitely stuck where he is. it's not a prison cell but it's a cage nonetheless, as the old saying goes : a golden cage is still a cage, after all. he tells zoe these beautiful sights have grown dull on him, laments about missing his family, vanessa, and is so chained by his want for connection he reaches out to a desert dream victim of all people. like, what about this muted cynicism, this barren home, seems happy? maybe he wanted this, some whimsical dream of this, before. now though? it's not what jay thought it'd be, and he lacks any power to change it. this is not some amazing ending for abuse survivors, it's still sad in a melancholy way, simply because jay is visibly unhappy with said circumstances.

but moving on to this, ah, ‘poor little victim in a lion's den’ narrative ... what? i think a lot of people fail to grasp how complex the holt household is in terms of toxicity and abuse. something that's very common nowadays due to how much people project rather than see what's in front of them. and don't get me wrong! projection is fine, you do you, we all consume and parse through media differently -- but this narrative is, by canon evidence, rather fictional. to be completely blunt, jay is not the only victim stuck in the holt house ?? the abusers have always been bear ( physical abuse, verbal degradation ) and sharon ( passive in the face of her kids' abuse, emotional manipulation ) ... and we are literally told point blank by the story itself and another character that these two favored jay immensely compared to their other children. now i'm obviously not saying that he has not faced trauma, he has! favoritism in a house like this does not shield you from the toxicity, sometimes that favor makes things worse, but he was protected to an extent, in ways tyler and dale were not. those two very clearly faced the brunt of bear's physical abuse ; for each other, for jay, and just overall caught their dad's ire more because they stood up to him. tyler takes a beating, a sight that's not at all new by his grim acceptance of this and the fact he states he's been doing this since young :

so, this is normal for tyler. getting beaten by his dad ( which isn't even mentioning the horror story bear can tell to ash, about how he literally threatened to cut tyler's ear or finger off ) and having his mom overall turn a blind eye to it, even going as far as to dismiss this fighting as childish behavior rather than what it is. and dale? we don't see much of him and bear in general, yet the second he steps up to defend tyler, with something as measly as a shove back, bear wastes zero time in hitting him so hard he's practically out of commission for the rest of the fight. he didn't even think about it, merely swung at dale as hard as possible on instinct alone before tyler hastily stepped up to defend him. what happens when jay tries stopping the fight, though?

both parties grab for him so they can toss him out of the way so he doesn't possibly get hurt. you can speculate bear was only doing this in order to finish his punishment on tyler, he'd deal with jay later whatever, although why not punch him like dale? why, out of all the moves on his belt, does he do the more merciful option? bear, who is nothing if not made of violence and has been molded to respect it? his fist that's raised in the air isn't for jay, since the next frame is jay shoved out of the way and him hitting tyler again ... hell, in dialogue where bear and jay are sitting on their porch, the youngest can even say bear beats on tyler and dale specifically. why not say “you beat on us”? like, the game is heavily implying that while jay is traumatized, there are some methods of abuse he simply did not face. one of them being the physical abuse prominent at home. and no, i'm not counting whatever pranks dale's pulled on jay ( like shooting him six times with a bb gun lmao ) because honestly? that's just older brother behavior, and we know that despite the morbid pranks, he still looked out for jay in the ways that counted. like protecting him from pa and to an extent tyler, something which, again, jay says himself!

back on topic a bit, the notion people seem to have of jay and his family seems overly simplified to me. people just looked at dale being his usual asshole self and went ‘abuser’, people looked at tyler's rather drastic and not usually like himself reactions to a high stress situation and went ‘abuser’, and that's a bit ridiculous to me. can't say i'm shocked! since so many people nowadays just see someone mean to their favorite character and decide woobifying said fave while demonizing their opposing force is exactly what canon intended. as dusk falls couldn't be a game more clear about it's main theme of family and the fact there's no purely good or bad people in this world, two statements that correspond directly to the holt family. are they bad for each other? probably! but that's a different discussion compared to, say, every single soul in that house violently abused poor jay and they should reap the consequences of that. dale and tyler, like their beloved younger brother, are also victims of abusive parents and a toxic home life. in turn, they both show signs of this abuse in ways that aren't entirely sympathetic or easy to swallow, especially when they've been dealing with it longer than jay and have never had their parents' favor the way he did. i see people get angry at tyler for the famous cabin scene, but nobody turns a critical eye to sharon ; who for all intents and purposes is watching this unfold without a care. she never physically stops tyler and her attempts to kill the fight are weak compared to her previously steely commands. and, honestly, the fact that tyler was that stressed about sharon getting on that bike so she can be protected, when she's the most capable out of the three of them, is way more strange than tyler's outburst -- when he's in a high stress situation, his baby brother's dead, and his life as he knows it is over. a life he didn't even have to begin with, since it was stolen due to his abusive upbringing.

whether this excuses what he did or not is entirely up to the player! i personally don't think it does, though i also understand where this is coming from and the game makes it clear this is not usual tyler behavior. throughout other people's views it's hammered into us that tyler has a cool head relatively, is the most sensible and smart out of his brothers. so, no, i do not think he was choking jay out all the time for his misplaced resentment -- i think his obvious disliking came from his stilted interactions with jay, and his lack of bond with him at all. we see in book one two times he reaches out to jay, demanding that he eats ( a minor, small thing to fret and worry about ) as well as panicking when he sees jay away from the rest of them during a shoot out. dale constantly looks out for jay as well, going as far as to take the heat from romero if they get caught and something as small as taking blame for jay's mistake in the barn scene. are his brothers more prone to violence and apathy? sure! yet they clearly love jay regardless. abusive households are not easy and see through. in fact in many cases the different levels of abuse the kids suffer does breed life altering resentment later on, envy that can damage these bonds permanently. honestly the holt family intrigues me deeply because of how well written they were as a unit, the effects of abuse and toxicity subtle and not overt in a ‘psa message’ kinda way. and these horrible relationships and ideals shared do not negate from the even more horrible fact that there is love in this messed up family, even bear clearly loves his sons, but that doesn't make it better. it almost makes it worse, seeing all the good intentions and care. knowing it doesn't excuse what they've done to each other nor does it make them better. they're a picture perfect family of an ugly wound! which is fascinating! i only wish more people saw that wonderfully shown depth rather than this bland and lukewarm take on the holts overall.

jay is a victim, he is traumatized, he deserved to one day spread his wings and put some distance between himself and his family ... but he was not the only one who deserved that ending, and he was not the only victim there. he was merely the only one with easy to parse trauma responses.

#as dusk falls #interior night #jay holt #dale holt #tyler holt #the holt family #meta post #ngl i'll make fancier tags eventually because i do not wanna clog the adf tag but this'll do #this was not supposed to be my first post yet i feel very strongly about this topic and the holts so um #here we go i guess! #cannot stress enough the literal dev of interior night has said the holts do want what's best for each other #they just have different ideas of what that best is! so it comes out wrong and warped and sometimes mean spirited #but they aren't just 2-bit abusers with signs on their heads saying : i hate jay and abuse him on the regular im a monster kill me #like do you know how much it wrecked me going through variations of the jay in prison scenes and seeing him say like #that tyler might even be happy out there as a fugitive. and that jay wants that for him? for tyler to be happy? #even jay himself comes into his wisdom which has always been there and acknowledges his love for his family #and the fact tyler and dale were miserable going on the way they were. just like he was! #the game centers around the holts and the walkers because they are two families that love each other and fumble the landing of it #jim lies to vince over something unforgivable. yet lying is all he knows. yet he did it out of a selfish love for his son #michelle cheats on vince which is awful and tries to paint it as something not important but she loves vince #is even willing to let him indulge in petty revenge ( which is missing the point ) so that they can stay together! #terrible things they're doing but it never takes away from the fact they love vince and zoe #a sentiment echoed by the holts! #idk like i know this take might get me killed but seeing morally gray games get the black and white treatment kills me #you are missing the true brilliance of adf's writing! you are missing some amazing characters! #also jay is not some unflawed creature. he literally can get so jealous over some girl that he isn't dating to the point of MAIMING a guy #he could've killed todd. he probably almost did! vanessa even says he might be more like his family than he thinks #and even if you don't choose this option it is still inside him. this paranoid jealousy and brutal violence #he can shoot vince or watch him die. he can let his dad die. he can bury someone alive. he can kill a cop and some poor ranger #dale and tyler and jay might be different characters and were shaped differently but they're still the same at their core

[dirt-str1der]

Love characterising nishikiyama as a booze hound drug hound meth addict high every day body mass 75% alcohol hands constantly shaking literally spacing out while driving fifty over the speed limit using elderly folk as speedbumps one hand on the wheel and one hand free to do more drugs and coming into work while functionally deaf and blind and he is still leagues more competent at his job than kiryu

#Yakuza loveblog #i dont talk about nishikiyama enough because im kazamapilled and hate him a little bit but im also kiryupilled and love him so much so you #see my problem? like i adore when nishiki is just. better in every way than kiryu and nobody ever sees that because theyre all too busy #sucking kiryus cock like okay nishiki had the rest of his life planned out when he was twenty and he was an extremely successful criminal #and getting himself noticed in many many circles then kiryu steps outside and gets into a street fight immediately and the entire tojo clan #surrounds him to throw cash at him like nishiki was actually doing so well for himself before his life was ruined. nothing is his fault #like i love just accepting that nishiki has one hell of a substance abuse problem and nobody cares enough about him to talk to him about it #and kiryu thinks its normal because hes the only one who can see that nishikis doing some great work out there so he must be doing #everything right. inconceivable that nishiki has any sort of ‘problem’ hes the real screwup and kiryu knows he makes life harder for himself #but he refuses to change because hes convinced that thats the only thing hes good at. like i believe that nishiki has a coke snorting #mechanic in game like harry db and without his coke buff he cant do as much damage like with it his output is on par with kiryus whos just #been blessed since birth by the violence gods. anyway kiryu is the only person in the world who thinks that nishiki is great do you get it #nishiki has lived his entire life in kiryus shadow and he doesnt care that kiryu has a natural charisma that he will never have. he has to #get out there every single day networking and socialising and hustling and nonstop landing interviews with cool magazines to get his name #out in the world while kazama takes kiryu out and drags him by the elbow to meet people like this is my son kiryu who has every disease and #everyone claps and cheers like i cannot stress enough how on top of the game nishiki is compared to kiryu. he has a car. kiryu doesnt even #have his own lighter. they are not on the same playing field and yet nishikis always trailing behind him because opportunity is always #knocking at kiryus doorstep whether he likes it or not and nishiki gets fed scraps and nothing else and hes the one with ambition he wants #the view on top and most importantly he wanted his brother there with him but nobody ... likes him ... nobody likes nishiki nobodys in his #corner he onky had kiryu and when he lost him it was quite literally him against the world. it always made me laugh how at the end of yk1 #harukas paying her respects at nishikis grave when the only time he ever cared about her was because he wanted her little pendant and he #(actually fucked how alone nishiki was he didnt even have his own fucking men to rely on he was basically working alone with someone he knew #was using him like ??? he was fucking desperate) anyway i really love to think that kiryu being nishikis only friend and the last person in #the world who thought kindly of him (barring like ... kashiwagi) was grieving terribly over his death and haruka being a sensitive and #sweet little girl took the initiative to ask about nishiki and i think kiryu would tell her stories every night of the kind of stuff he and #nishikiyama would get up to when they were her age. he would tell her how amazing nishiki was and how he always looked out for him how he #took care of his sister and how he would always be the one to remind them of impending birthdays and the like. nishiki cared about the #little things .. and he made kiryu want to care about them too but theres just something different between them because nishikis always #been a better person than him .. and he would tell haruka in a voice that sounded like he was begging her to understand that nishiki wasnt a #bad person.. though he did bad things he was a good man and he still wishes with all his heart that he could have done more to save him ...

[plumbley-bee]

I will not regret having loved.

I don't mean I won't be sad, and my heart won't ache over connections I've lost.

I don't mean I always forgive people who have betrayed my trust and hurt me.

I don't mean I haven't loved the wrong person before.

I mean, the day I regret having felt love at all is the day I fear I will truly lose myself in every way that matters.

Even if I no longer hold any love for someone, I can not regret having felt it in the first place.

Why on earth should I regret the part of me that loves when it is my favorite thing about myself? Why should I shame myself for feeling the very same thing that allows me to have friends to hug and laugh with and milestones to celebrate?

I refuse to feel at fault for having felt something so beautiful and untouchable as love. I can not with good conscience condemn the version of me that loved when I didn't know why I shouldn't have. I will not punish myself over having found something worth loving, even for only a few seconds.

So I will weep for the connections I've lost, and I will do so proudly.

I will scream and cuss and cry at and about the people who have hurt me, and I will do so proudly.

I will laugh and hug and celebrate the people in my life, and I will do so proudly.

I will do these things with all the love I've ever felt etched into my heart, and I will do so proudly.

#fuck #yeah #anyway #ignore this #I'm just rambling #if anyone thinks this is stemming from a breakup im so sorry #but its absolutely not #this post is about the friends and family i have loved and even still love throughout my life #i cannot stress enough how much love as an emotion means to me #familial love #platonic love #romantic love #even the love you feel for that random person you saw give their dog kisses in their car at a gas station #please understand #it is essential for me to love #if I regret the love I ever felt for every person who has hurt me I dont think I'd be able to love the people who haven’t quite the same #i love my brother and even though he never wanted me as a sister when we were kids i dont regret loving him then #and even though he sucks a lot and used to suck even more in the past I still don't regret loving him now #he can't take that away from me. #no one can #mitski is this what you meant #when you said your love was yours and only yours? #because my love really truly is just mine alone

[priestfrommidnightmass]

these violent delights is actually kind of ruining my life because i’ve never read something that portrays a characters self hatred so thoroughly and unavoidably and entirely Needlessly. it’s tearing me apart if i’m being quite honest

#the way paul hates himself is so Blinding and intense that it’s so difficult to read #because it reflects my own way of thinking so much that it feels like a personal attack #honestly if anyone ever wanted to truly understand what goes on behind my head i’d tell them to read this #because i’ve never seen the most gross and regretful parts of me put down and i. i don’t even know #some of the things that julian says to paul have Literally been said to me #and there have been moments where it’s so intense that i just have to put it down because i feel so nauseatingly sickeningly Seen #it’s such a . visceral reading experience for me it’s . god it’s a fucking lot #especially that part over the summer where him and julian are apart #and he’s so doubtful and suspicious and paranoid i felt fucking Sick #because julian loves him so goddamn much and no matter what he does paul just Can’t believe that anyone could ever love him like that #yeah it’s been a truly horrifying reading experience for me and not for the reasons i suspected #but because it’s like i’m being thrust in front of a mirror and forced into look at the grimy reflection so closely for the first time #this book has made my chest tighten and literally almost made me sick from how real it is. cannot stress enough how much i’d recommend #these violent delights

[kakusu-shipping]

I’m so incredibly normal about him I promise please believe me

#Baka and Test #Toshimitsu Kubo #Kubo #I finished the entire series again tonight and I swear I'm SO normal #if I make a Baka and Test self insert tomorrow night please... I beg you all don't change your opinion of me.... #He is just. The most character of all time. #(that's not true Hero hell's library is but we're not talking about him rn ar we) #I am making a self insert JUST to be his best friend #To everyone in my server; #thankyou for putting up with me about him every night so far I am in a weird mental place it's late summer it happens #I love a character who's so in their own head about everything and also really fucking loud about it #and also gay he's gay he's so gay I love him so much he's so canonically gay I cannot stress this enough about him #that scene in like. The last episode of season 2 #where everyone's razzing the shit out of Yoshii for being so oblivious about Kubo's crush on him #I will think about it every day of the rest of my life #He's the dumbest smart person you'll ever know and I adore him to no end #He is my best friend and I need everyone to understand this #like how Koro is my default for romantic F/Os #Kubo is my default for Platonic he means the entire world to me I love him So Much. #I know he's incredibly fucking stupid and played for laughs in season 1 but he gets better I swear he gets better I promise please #believe me #this is not prompting to watch Baka and Test btw this show sucks kdfgjfdkjgkfd #It's my emotional support really crappy program that I feel a normal amount of attachment and emotions for #the manga's only 15 volumes......... #if I could find it in English..... I could read it all in a day................... #sobbing

[azusawrites]

Theo had been right. Taking off in the middle of the night with some stranger had been a recipe for disaster. It had been a death sentence almost. And yet, as if the last year had not been spent in bed, nursing her wounds, and wanting for her ribs to heal, for breathing to become easier, for Theo to stop looking at her as if he would never be able to trust her again, here she was, repeating a mistake which she wasn’t sure she could survive this time. Those two weren’t Theo. They weren’t prepared. Seven – they couldn’t even get along now, of all times, when it was critical to have an ally of sorts, instead of an enemy ready to sell you out. Perhaps that’s why her own disappointment seemed so potent. She was hoping for some sort of approval from people who would always see her as lesser than them. 

Feeling a gentle and familiar tapping, Kore looked down into Grim’s eyes. He seemed just as apprehensive as she was, glancing in Ace and Deuce’s direction occasionally and it suddenly dawned on her that she had once again missed the main point. She wasn’t doing this for herself. 

wip: mirror marchen

fandom: twisted wonderland

wc: 3602

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#azusaprogress #mirror marchen #twisted wonderland #i cannot stress enough how important kore's love for her dumb tiny cat is #cause ace and deuce rn don't matter to her #they're just some strangers who keep causing her trouble #but grim is her baby #even when they fight and he acts bratty #and kore is willing to do anything to make him happy #he's her first real friend #and she's terrified of losing him #and it's this love for him that pushes her to do better #because kore is the sort of person that wants to change for the better out of love #she can be very kind #but cynicism has its claws in her #and she still needs time to let go of it #but with love being her motivation she starts making baby steps and improving her life #much like her romantic relationships her platonic ones function as a way to start healing herself #because she can't yet do it for herself #so she does it for others

[viovio]

well I'm too tired to say words but idea click 💡

#speak iza #ji-woon ok hes so. wants attention so screaming and dying isnt enough to describe it actually this #specific part of his tome is so fucked but i think its why they nailed it so much #so yippee excited just to show what he could do with the flute but at a huge concert his dad was like you love music #so THIS is what youre made for and ji-woons like ohh ok i get it ←throws out the flute in order to pursue this all #doesnt make sense but WHATEVER he thinks its carved in his own style but the music industry changing he wont be a the top of the boards any #more. no matter how much people like it its just business shoving him aside for a new face also shown w yun-jin #its not how she wanted when she decided to pursue a career in music but thems the breaks #UGH ITS JUST. SO FUCKING GOOD #she auditioned to be an idol first looks you in the eye cannot stress how important that js

[coyoxxtl]

ngl if you’re looking at what biden and his administration is doing to palestine and all you can say is “well trump would’ve been worse!” i deeply and truly want you to shit your pants to death

#i just CANNOT stand that EVERY discussion or grievance about how fucking foul the dem party is being rn is just #always met with this shallow and thoughtless choir of weak liberals who are so convinced that there is safety in a president thats fucking #and i cant stress this enough #FUNDING AND LEADING A FUCKING GENOCIDE #why are yall so fucking ATTACHED to voting as your only form of activism #do yall not give a shit if the people you vote for do wrong? do yall just not give a shit about holding our govt officials accountable? #this is outside whether or not voting is important to do or not. this is about seeing the people who we elect in positions of power abuse- #that power and acting accordingly #which means also not fucking voting him in office again #who give a fucking Shit if trump would be worse. to still believe that is so fucking childish. that’s irrelevant now. because Now our dem- #president is committing FUCKING GENOCIDE. to see a man lead the extermination of the palestinian people and think hes a Lesser Evil is #absolutely fucking insane. rethink your understanding of our government because it’s Painfully naive #im nowhere near confident of my own knowledge but i dont think you need to know much to understand this. its really fucking easy to see- #a president commit genocide and think No I Dont Think I Will Vote For Him Again #and that this is bigger than voting in a fucking election. do better. be more. because you will not stop fascism with voting. #and if youre still attached to voting for some reason then for the love of GOD do something. ANYTHING. when the people you vote for fail. #make them pick a candidate that wont commit genocide. but good luck with that. america wont stop being no.1 genocider until its dead. #txt

[astrxealis]

i'm so angry at myself sometimes for how obviously i would have become an astarion lover

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #he's just like me but also i would give him a hug. and a kiss. #LIKE ... i have a very definite list of Most Favorite Characters and it's complicated and complex and fun #and i also talk too much abt it sometimes or maybe it's all just in my head bcs i think wayyy too much #so anyway astarion fits the list so badly it's almost embarrassing for me but unfortunately i'm cringe and free #it's so bad for me guys #i'm incorporating bits of him in my irl-ness (personality etc) too ..... which has. always been there bcs i'm a dramatic theatric extra #gay little boygirlieboygirl but ????? !!!!! god #he's just like me in so many ways (either literally directly or just vaguely but in a way that matters) #he is so important to me it's indescribable and honestly it's. really special and important to me #and the fact i associate way too many hozier songs w him ... downright evil to myself ..... why do i hurt myself so #and the fact my TAV. and by extension Me. so much stuff with light and the sun and the stars #MY TAV IS LITERALLY NAMED APOLLO okay and that is my name also i love to go by ....... #and i love anything to do w the sun especially with . just. yeah okay. #and the way astarion's a little chaotic a little babygirl a little traumatized and and and #LITTLE STAR. i cannot stress enough how much that means to me. little star. #and i Love vampires ... but i forgot abt that until astarion tbh but i have always adored vampires oh my god. so yeah. #and. astarion. just. Yeah!! yeah #i also have a funny story behind how i like him and his story fits so well and his color scheme. fits all the checks for being my fav #and yeah like i said i've adopted some of his mannerisms!!! i've done that w Raha and Akechi and Nines and etc #and he's in a fantasy game series based off dnd and ????? what more can i say. it's so obvious he would have been my fav #once again bg3 is a game i am... so in awe i only learned of literally in july. oh my god. #i've played elder scrolls dragon age etc etc etc so many fantasy games i ADORE fantasy and. goodness me