phantom not going to anyone for comfort because he's scared that they'll turn him away. even when they said that they do care about him, even after they said sorry for treating him like shit, he just can't.
if he wakes up from a nightmare all he does is curl up and hug his legs to his chest until he falls asleep again.
if he's feeling sick he'll just lock his room and sleep it off.
if he passes out he doesn't say anything, just drink some water, eat something sweet and keeps going (and that's why it took them so long to figure out that he has a fainting disorder).
he sleeps with his door locked which is so rare for ghouls to do.
he never lets himself be sleepy or to fall asleep next to anyone, because he'll be vulnerable, and they always attack when he is vulnerable.
and there's nothing the others can do because he spent most of his life in the pit and his first month topside as the unwanted quintessence ghoul. he can't let himself be vulnerable around anyone.
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some punk max + older campers doodles >:3 they're all around 15-16 ish
in this au ered (now 20 i fear) becomes a camp counsellor in the future and works at camp Campbell, i need to draw her and max interacting
i feel like preston would be interested in max's new look considering he made a performance w a punk outfit before, he knows a little on the topic and would like to know more of max's experience as a punk to enhance his shows ( which doesn't help him much. max has no idea what preston wants/doesnt wana talk about it )
nikki and neil are step siblings, and they live out of state :) max and the duo are still super close and they message each other daily, and meet up on the rare occasion they all have time ( mostly when neil has time. he doesn't wanna skip lessons while nikki and max don't care about their schedule )
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*kicks the front door with all the strength I have*
WAKE UP, CHILDREN. I HAVE SOMETHING FOR YOU TO PLAY WITH.
Hey there IRIS fans. It's been a while. More than 3 months to be exact.
I came once again to offer you my gifts.
Behold…..breadcrumbs! :D
Yeah, that's all I have at the moment. I'm sorry.
I was reflecting on the idea of posting things that are more....small?
Don't just post finished drawings. Maybe WIPs or, sketches, or in the case above, a doodle!
Basically, I don't need to ONLY post finished drawings. Or drawings. Sometimes I can just. Post words, you know.
I had the realization about this a while ago when I remembered that I'm on Tumblr. I can post (almost) anything here without limiting myself. Now, will I fulfill this? I don't know. Maybe I'll do that, or I'll just post it when I have a drawing ready to post. I don't promise anything lol.
Anyway, IRIS! I made this little doodle of Goliath while I was out of the house. I only drew his Pre-Explosion version once and it was in that Transmission 3 drawing. As a joke too. So I tried to do something a little more serious. This time…he has a face!
I thought it turned out good. I think I found a good way to do his hair too.
I decided to color it (and do a light digital lineart over it) to make it more pleasant. Simple, but it looks nice! (I'll leave the normal scribble unedited at the end of the post)
Also, I know that in the only art we have of P.E Goliath it doesn't show him with irises and pupils in his eyes. I drew them here because I thought it would be cool.
Next stop is to practice drawing his body. I have to learn how to draw more muscular bodies. Goliath has to live up to his name (and he deserves the muscles tbh)
It goes without saying that I did this after watching the new chapters of Story of Vegala. And speaking of that: i'm gonna be honest with you: I think this is my favorite part of the IRIS story/lore drops posted so far.
It's quite intriguing to see the very story that happened before everything we've seen so far. It's also nice to receive what I've wanted for a while: Tyrant and Fate Lore. It's good to have more information about two characters that we've known (more or less) for a long time now. Especially their origins (broader origins than just *the first beings that walked the Earth* or *beings that came from distant worlds in search of the emblem*)
SOV also makes me excited for other things. Like, obviously, HOAA:R. Releasing soon! December is knocking on the door, you know. But I also really want to see Jaws of Vegala now. And whatever happens in the story that takes place after GT.
So again, SOV is currently my favorite part of the lore, I believe. The anguish of waiting for the next episodes this past week was real.
I'm talking too much once again, SHIT. Yeah, Pre-Explosion Goliath. He deserves the world (He's NOT a monster, he's just BIG and STRONG, and needs a functioning family *cries*)
I don't know when I'll do my next Big Piece related to IRIS. I had something in mind but I lost the will. But I was thinking about doing something related to Solitude for a while. Hold this thought,then.
Until then, I'll sketch Tyrant next. Because I like his official design.
Also, here is the unedited scribble:
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people telling me to watch the bear remind me of how I tried to convince people to watch succession. them saying this episode felt like the embodiment of a panic attack, I’ve never felt more stressed in my life and it’s the greatest show is not entirely dissimilar to please watch this life changing doomed by the narrative tragedy about late stage capitalism.
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if that post hits 30k notes maybe i'll cave and draw something based off it cuz awawaw
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People complain a lot about Gogol's "Dead souls" being a click bait because there's no scary ghosts and it's just a story about some guy scamming the government, but honestly.
Buying dead people in order to trick the system is some real capitalistic horror.
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the way that one line from the new epilogue in an astarion romance is going to HAUNT me
just. what a profoundly intense thing to confess to someone.
like, just these six months of newfound happiness with you exerts a force on his heart equal and in direct opposition to two centuries of endless torment, the gnawing hunger and exploitation. this flashbulb-bright fraction of his long life holds the same gravity to him as years upon years of darkness and suffering.
in all likelihood, he hasn’t even known his lover for as long as his worst memory lasted, that year sealed away to go mad from starvation and sensory deprivation, yet he still tells them this brief time has been so fundamentally and powerfully important that the weight of even that unimaginable hell is vanishingly small compared to this present he has now and the future ahead of them both.
how am i supposed to act normal about this.
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I just realised we can use the polls to ask the clone fucking debate questions. let's go!
(two answers are missing because you can only have 10 options. oh well)
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i think one of the things the pjo show has understood the best so far is specifically the isolation and insecurities that come with being neurodivergent, and how it reflects onto percy. the book touches on it a lot, but i think rick really wanted to push percy's own internal struggles more obviously to the forefront for the show.
Percy references again and again how inattentive and zoned out he is constantly, and how he blames himself for being stuck in his own world. He feels crazy and misjudged by everyone around him just for having what everyone else presumes is a very active imagination, hyperactivity, and a brain that works differently. and when people do acknowledge his differences, even attempting to spin them positively to him, like Sally and "Mr. Brunner," it only makes him feel worse, because again the only thing they can tell him is that he's "special," inherently other, something he's come to associate with being an embarrassing and shameful thing, with Nancy calling him "special" as an insult. I've seen "special" thrown at nd kids as an insult by their peers over and over again since I was little. So Percy can't help but believe it's a negative thing, no matter what the adults that do support him in his life try to tell him, because it's been internalized that he's just different in a way that's bad and inferior, and that that there's a reason he's lonely and troubled and delinquent. Even if it was a positive thing, like Sally and "Mr. Brunner" insist to him, he feels inherently isolated and confused and wrong in the mortal world for being different, and like there's nothing that can change that or make him normal.
We see Percy break down in front of Sally after being expelled about how he's terrified something's irrevocably wrong inside him now. And his immediate reaction of rage and confusion when the only thing she can tell him, once again, is that he's special. And I think that is really going to resonate with a generation of nd people who've experienced these types of scenarios.
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i had a dream last night jerma casually said the f slur on stream looked over at chat and realizing what he just said started yelling "I CAN RECLAIM IT. I CAN RECLAIM. IT I CAN RECLAIM IT" before turning off his camera, saying "I HAVE TO LEAVE" and then turning off the stream
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