#I have COVID :P

[rad-batson]

*Bruce and 9yo Dick playing chess*

Dick: Okay, I'm gonna take your pointy, sad-faced guy for my horsey guy.

Bruce: Stop, stop. *pointing to Bishop* What is this piece called?

Dick: I call him Dwight.

#can you tell I'm rewatching Psych for the millionth time #I have COVID :P #boooo #batman #bruce wayne #dc universe #dc #batfam #dick grayson #dc robin #nightwing #batfamily #richard grayson #batman headcanon #psych tv #psych 2006 #incorrect batfamily quotes

[moriphyte]

i’m cool i’m chill i’m fiiine it’s just thinking about inconsolable differences and boundless sands still feels like having my bones broken one by one and the only cure is to close my eyes and imagine ccrime passed the fuck out under a pile of mismatched blankets safe and sound in wilbur shitty apartment in the middle of the desert. i’m normal…..when they wake up they’re gonna get breakfast at the diner. wilbur drinks his coffee that’s more cream than coffee and feels soemthing like light when he watches tommy laugh and talk through a mouth full of blueberry pancakes and stained cheeks. and he has to wipe pancake off his glasses cause tommy isn’t tommy if he’s not talking with his mouth full and wilbur isn’t wilbur unless he’s pouring eight containers of creamer into his shitty black coffee and tommy and wilbur aren’t tommy and wilbur if they’re not together.

#i’m unwell and not just because i have covid #crime boys #dsmp #dream smp #c!tommy #c!wilbur #p

[scaryscarecrows]

So Ao3 tells me it's been about 7 years since I first started writing Cigarette Smoke & Snark.

It does not seem like 7 years. Time flies.

#we've had some good times and some bad times #and now i'm having a small crisis #SEVEN #NO #look covid time DOES NOT COUNT surely it doesn't count #:p #why did i look #WHY DID I LOOK #oh well i wouldn't trade this little punk for anything he's mine now

[soldier-poet-king]

IF I HAD A NICKEL

That's TWICE today folks and I've been on this webbed site since 2012. Like. Wtf. Spider attracting lotion except complete strangers randomly being semi or outright hostile to me on my posts???

#???????? what. #im just minding my damn business on my silly little corner of the internet #talking about insane philsophers and fandom. like. what is happening #ALSO IM 99% SURE I HAVE A MILD FEVER #not covid i did a test #but im hot and cold hot and cold and my head is killing me suddenly #can i just go in to work and nap tmrw in my office #p much everyone else is on vacation #maybe i wiil just do simple mindless task #go thru all those cds sitting in intake that came from lord knows where #WHY DONT WE USE PROPER ACCESSION FORMS. IM BEGGING U

[celestibears]

Wait 'til the music turns to romance~

so who's ready for tomorrow

#the owl house #willuz #luz noceda #willow park #celestibearts #i'm so fashion youtube pilled that i spent a fuckton of time stressing over wether their outfits are trendy enough #and then i realized i really don't care #like i really just wanna draw my babies again #i've been freed from the timeloop but i have covid now (it's going p good don't worry)

[ablazeinhim]

feeling like such a loser lately and like is it the winter or is the introversion or is it the disability???

#for a while now its been so hard for me to discern if social stuff is hard because im ND or because im an introvert #theoretically i love parties but im horrible at them on my own #i dont know what to say or how to start conversations #i desperately want to mingle and talk to people and have a god time but idk how to start that interaction #esp because i dont love talking about my work/home life (bc it makes me feel like a loser!) so i dont want to ask people about their work #in case they reciprocate and ask me about mine #also the masking #the masking is exhausting #! #the ND masking not covid masking!! #im afraid ill have nothing to add to a conversation #im afraid when i do speak up that ill ramble about something no one cares about or talk fkr too long or being jn skmething that feels like #non sequitur and ill watch peoples eyes glaze over as they scan the room for others to talk with #i have no social anxiety about like asking for help or directions or “hey where did you get that pizza it smells so good” #or “omg i love your outfit!!!” #but in a room full of people who sort of know each ither #or like p much any space where there are clumps of people talking and im not in any of them? #i feel like a bother and incompetent #i crawled out from under my rock for my only social engagement this month and theyre on their 3rd of the day and loving it #hoping eventually i wont feel the need tk mask so much. i know that makes things so much harder #=

[boudicca]

killing urself over school to get straight a's is such a scam like i had straight high-90s for three years and still ended up having to repeat my final year so it was pointless. i could have been going out and having fun with my friends instead

#p #and like. i probably would have passed even with covid if i weren't so burned out #so when i see high schoolers like oooh i only got a b it's like. who gives a shit. truly. save it for grade 12!!!! unclench!!!!!

[kermitgasm]

can you feel my love buzz?

nirvana live at the mason jar in phoenix, arizona

(february 19th, 1990)

#well since i have covid and i’m gonna be suffering i have nothing better to do than make a bunch of gifs for you guys #here’s some nirvana #nirvanaedit #nirvana #dailymusicedit #musiciansdaily #chad channing #kurt cobain #kurtcobainedit #krist novoselic #90s #the 90s #punk rock #love buzz #1990s #1990 #bleach #b: nirvana #p: kurt cobain #musicedit #live music #nirvana live #concert #musicdaily #dailymusicians

[gotyouanyway]

new circle of hell discovered. it's cold dming people i've never even heard of before on slack to ask them for help with work admin tasks/basically asking to be trained to use a new system and doing this all several weeks later than i was supposed to do it and now everyone's lowkey frustrated at me for the millionth time for sucking at having a job

#in my fucking defence i had covid and recently developed chronic pain issues and was already autistic to begin with i'm LOSING #plus it's JULY AND I DON'T HAVE A/C I CAN'T SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEP #it's so fucking over. #p

[sprucestairs]

my entire body feels like it's trying to kill me

#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASAÀAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #LITERALLY WHAT THE FUCK #WHYWJYWHYWHYWHY #THE ACTUAL F U C K #HAVE I NOW HAD COVID THREE TIMES #YHATS IT. IM WEARING A MASK LITERALLY EVERYWHERE I GO OUTSIDE OF MY BEDROOM #I'm ean I should bc I'm sick asf. BUT ONCE IM BETTER IM JUST DOIN IT #THIRD TIMES THE CHARM YKNOW #HAHAHA I AM IN P A I N #MY THROATS RAW AS SHIT #IT HURTS TO SPIT UP SALIVA BUT IT WOULD HURT MORE TO BE SWALLOWING IT

[tramontane-fire]

looking back I have never gotten a job because I was qualified. I have gotten jobs and job offers because 1) an organization batch-hires everybody and just fires the ones that don't turn out or 2) the organization is desperate for someone to fill a hard-to-fill position that's been vacant for so long or needs someone at the last minute and I fell out of the sky and they didn't look too hard at my qualifications

Seriously if I had a dime for every time an interviewer asked me "so do you have your national/where have you worked/how long have you been doing this/do you have 911 experience/some other question easily answered with a quick glance at my application materials, I could buy everybody coffee. They do not care; I am just a warm body. And I do not care, because I desperately need work.

When I was 21 and just starting out this was fine; I had no experience and a crappy work history full of short stays and firings. Now I have a better looking resume; it's not perfect but there's some good stuff there. Someone should want me, right? I have experience, right?

But other people have more experience. Better experience. 10 years as a medic. 15 years of flight. 20 years in a trauma center. No matter what I do I'll never measure up.

#job search woes #I thought I had one but there's no way my s/p covid ass could pass that lift test #and the onboarding lady was like just try anyway! #yeah no #how about you benchpress a semi #just have confidence and visualize what you want I'm sure you can do it if you just believe #what's that? doubts? ugh no wonder you can't benchpress an 18 wheeler you don't believe in yourself

[gxlden-angels]

Idk I think it's funny seeing people on twitter say things like "Christians want to tell you it's all a part of Jesus's plan until it's them!" cause like idk about you but I've had family members 100% say they're ready to meet the Lord than interfere with his plans via a Tylenol and a flu shot

#I had a cousin think she'd die from covid and actually lost her husband to it #only to say she wasn't scared of the virus because she had the blood of jesus over her #I still have family that says the blood of jesus will protect them better than any vaccine so they won't get it #I had an aunt scoff at me for taking birth control to control my endometriosis #and use my nebullizer for a severe asthma attack #and she refused to take her singular pill for her blood pressure until she literally couldn't see and her sister forced her to take it #she's in her 90's so ig it's more understandable but also she is v healthy for a 90 year old #like there are so many twitter users speaking from the outside that do not understand just how intense these christians can get #the politcians running off christian values or whatever? they just want power and money #aunt mary lou and uncle billy bob in the middle of nowhere georgia? #they'll hunt you for sport for even thinking about taking a claritin #my grandfather doesn't believe in allergies btw and apparently that's a p common boomer thing too #some believe in allergies but think if you have them you're meant to die from them as intended #it's fuckin wild out here #ex christian #religious trauma

[berrymeter]

i'm calmer now btw. sorry for mental illnessing all over the place <3 i really needed to write down a list of things i need to get done instead of losing my mind looking everywhere. & also i need to not only rely on indeed. some places recruit directly from their websites so.

#perth.txt #we also have an arguably better version of indeed but i think i need my fiscal number to make an acct & i dont know it #the main focus is gonna be covid shot/name change #after that i'm p sure i can try applying to two specific places #maybe more? could try applying to other supermarkets for night shifts #& like since its in the city i dont mind doing the walk home cuz like. its my home yk. im not scared #although! if they let me bring my sword in ill be even less scared LMAO

[ghoul-haunted]

I'm gonna fucking cry my mom just tested positive for covid even though we've all been masking while my dad's been testing positive, because he hasn't been masking and just coughing right into the air and he came into the kitchen and just started touching things and coughing onto stuff and I spent the last two hours scrubbing and washing and disinfecting everything

#im UPSET #my mom has been working so hard to take care of him im u p s e t #fellas i have spent every day since the pandemic vaguely dreading the thought of future health complications #related to covid with my parents. like. every day is just! oh cool the looming spectre of mortality!! #but EXTRA because what if i have to start thinking of funerals NOW what if!!! so many people ive known in art have died #from underlying covid complications that came in the metaphorical night. ive been worried about it with myself!!! #i worked! HARD! to make sure that my parents would never pick it up from me!!! #i want. to scream. and also cry a lot rn #anyway i tested negative again so ye fucking haw or whatever

[k1rishiki]

ok fr last one but there's actually a bootleg of my school's anastasia and i'm linking it bc you all NEED to understand that my infatuation with this one girl's voice which started when i was in the 6th grade and still hasn't really worn off isn't based on nothing

#brielle's the one in the n95 mask (the video is too grainy to actually make out any of the ensemble's faces but she stands out) #and i'm the in my 'teenage tboy's diy first short haircut' era in every scene she's in #apart from everything abt the girl who plays anya. the tea on everyone else is that our director liked the boy who played gleb's voice so #much that she actually lowered some if not all of his parts to be in his range. the guy who played vlad was a total diva and uhm. the phras #'peaked in high school' has been tossed around at him a lot. and the fact that he came back to sub the year after he graduated isn't helpin #his case. also he pressured the girl who played anya's grandmother into wearing old age makeup + spray her hair grey bc he decided he was #going to wear it and since she's supposed to be older than him she had to too and used to waltz into the girls' changing room whenever he #wanted. everyone was like super shocked during auditions though bc we all thought he was a shoe-in for dimitry esp since seniors get #priority casting bc it's their last chance. but at callbacks (we had singing auditions via video and dance auditions in person and callback #were tacked on to the dance auditions) he kinda flubbed his song and then this freshman. who was with us via google meet bc he literally ha #covid at the time absolutely blew him out of the water and i remember walking away w brielle like 'holy shit [first name] [last name] just #lost a part to a freshman' (he's the kind of person you just have to full name otherwise it sounds wrong). that said i do think he made a #much better vlad then he would've made a dimitry and while he is. a lot. he's always been nice to me and i did briefly idolize him and his #stage presence way i did anya's singing voice but that faded when i got into hs and started actually observing his prima donna ways #(the one production we were in together before in middle school we didn't have any scenes together). the girl who played the grandma #actually shouted me out in cast circle and that's the only time that's ever happened to me. also i'm p sure her dad is/was dating someone m #dad and by extension myself work with so that's. Oh My God. like she (the one who works for my dad) brought him w her to a comedy show as i #think her bf but i'm not 100% sure and when he found out what school i went to he mentioned his daughter went there and despite the fact #that i basically have a script for when people ask me that question bc i do NOT pay attention to most of my fellow students and don't know #anyone i was like 'holy shit' bc i actually did. hm what else. the guy who played the tsar and i used to shittalk bad period dramas #backstage during the first part of act 2. also during the press conference scene i need you to picture all the bolshevik soldiers and #romanov royals doing the macarena behind the curtain bc that was absolutely what we were doing back there. speaking of the press conference #the really high singing w/o a clear source was actually anya standing behind the curtain on the other side of the stage bc she's the only #one who physically could sing the part. also in regards to the bolshevik soldiers. we were originally supposed to have wooden rifles but fo #some reason our director took them out so we had to just walk menacingly towards the romanovs. you can't rlly see me that well in that scen #but that jacket would NOT stay closed and for 2/3 performances i had to awkwardly hold it closed the entire time. luckily the one that was #filmed was the one where i was smart enough to bring safety pins and also saved like all of the ballerinas bc their costumes all started #falling apart at once backstage. #romeo.txt #theatreposting