#I got you beat I have one whole people

[sas-afras]

i kinda don’t get people who characterize maccready as like… secretly generous, or having a heart of gold or anything. like don’t get me wrong i don’t think he’s downright malicious or anything, but the dude is absolutely a selfish jerk once you get past the charming facade. that’s the part that’s compelling!

like, he’s nice enough and open enough with the player once you get high enough affinity with him, but his reactions to player actions still point to him being a jerk overall. the sosu just happens to be in His Circle of people he can be vulnerable with. that includes you, his son, and maybe daisy. everyone else can kick rocks, the same way it was in little lamplight

he HAD to grow up with that kind of “us vs the world, every man for himself” mentality in the capitol wasteland. doing so otherwise gets you killed or taken advantage of, which is just protracted death anyways. having grown up in a place where slavers run rampant, people are all pushing each other further down just to boost themselves up and live one more day, and it’s literally impossible to make renewable food sources because the ground is so poisoned i genuinely don’t blame him for ending up a little tight fisted. the fact that he was the mayor of little lamplight just meant that he ended up being able to accept a few people as His To Protect instead of being a total lone wolf.

the way he reacts to the players open generosity isn’t just for show, he Actually Dislikes when you give stuff away without expecting anything in return. you might need that thing and now its just gone!! that person might see you as a sucker! you give an inch and they’ll take a mile! and it makes sense for his character to be like that considering everything. i don’t get why people want to change that into him just being kind of tsundere.

i understand that having your babygirl blorbo comfort character be a canonical asshole in ways that aren’t just kinda charming can be offputting, but like…. the way he treats the sosu is a very notable exception to the rest of his life & it’s a much more interesting dynamic imo. especially if you’re playing a goody two shoes martyr. but that’s just me

#robert joseph maccready #i also have come to the realization that him disliking when you give austin the cure in v88 is in character #he doesn’t know shit about how medicine works #he just sees some magical cure being used on a random sheltered vault kid who got himself into this mess anyways #meanwhile *his son* is suffering #i also think his disdain towards being generous is because of the ‘if i can’t have it no one can’ mentality #similar to how astarion acts in bg3 #maccready didn’t have any help as a kid. he went through it all by himself. he had to suffer alone #seeing someone get treated with kindness after spending his whole life getting beat down #to the point where he just convinced himself that good people were made up entirely #it’s like a slap to the face #‘you mean this existed the whole time? people like YOU have been out here the whole time? and i was just unlucky?’ etc #idk i took two benadryls and now im cooking #not art

[erynalasse]

I wonder when the Noldor looked around at their dwindling numbers and realized that they were dying faster than they could ever keep up with.

#tolkien #silmarillion #I actually have a lot of feelings about this #because the noldor that come over from Valinor are pretty much all you get for the first age’s long war #birth rates are also in the basement if they exist at all #elves don’t have children during war #even if the siege of Angband is peaceful enough to relax that custom #I still don’t think you would have many children #elves have known war before - we know they did before the great journey #but it’s also got to be sobering to realize that your casualty rates are literally unsustainable #(like so #the house of finwë probably isn’t a representative sample of casualty rates #but damn the big picture still can’t be good #we have one grandchild of finwë who survives to the second age out of fifteen and that’s a very very bad rate) #what does that DO to a people group #to go from immortal and undying #to accepting that your whole clan is getting whittled down chunk by chunk #when did they start realizing that even if they beat Morgoth #they wouldn’t recognize the survivors

[moongothic]

Hey so also have Sir Crocodile brainrot and have recently reread Impel Down. This is probably nothing at all but it made me question the artistic choice made. Like we dont see Crocodiles full face until Luffy recognizes him. Before that tho he joins in on Jinbei & Ace's convo about Whitebeard and is shown to (non-)react to Boa Hancocks visit. But we only get his face in shadows or see the hook. Which. Why. Oda we know what he looks like and who the guy with the stitches on his face and the hook is. WHY OBSCURE HIM.

My friend, this is what we call a "cocktease"

Okay jokes aside, yes it was an artistic choise. More specifically, a storytelling technique Oda masterfully used to build up hype and excitement to Crocodile's eventual reveal and re-introduction into the story.

So thanks to Ms Goldenweek's cover story (which ran back during Water 7/Enies Lobby) we already knew Crocodile along with Daz, Bon-chan and Galdino had all been sent to Impel Down, when we also learned about Impel Down, Marineford and the Gates of Justice (+ the giant whirlpool between the three locations) to some extent. ((Now of course, if you were an anime-only then you would've had no idea about the former BW members being in Impel Down. And even if you had read the manga you still would've had to actually pay attention to the cover story and its lore, and not forgotten all about it))

So even before Luffy decides he's going to head to Impel Down to save Ace, we know Crocodile's going to be somewhere down there. The second Luffy arrives there, we are immidiately reminded of the fact when Domino mentions Crocodile taking the traditional "bath" new inmates take at the entrance. And as we descend deeper and deeper into Impel Down, with those cuts to what's happening down at Level 6 every now and then, as well as with the Baroque Works Countdown, Oda time and time again keeps on reminding of us of Crocodile's looming presence in the background. This is all absolutely deliberate. Crocodile was arguably the most iconic (maybe not most popular but iconic) One Piece villian at the time, if given an opportunity of course the readers wanted to see him again. But just letting us see him right away would be anti-climactic, and distracting from what's actually important (Ace, and Luffy getting to him as fast as possible). So keeping him hidden could serve multiple purposes:

For one, Crocodile doesn't get to steal the spotlight from the other characters (at least not too early). We can focus on Luffy, Ace, all the new Impel Down characters and the other returning characters in peace, while Crocodile waits for his turn. Another thing is that Crocodile's presence being downplayed gives off the impression that perhaps him being there isn't that important to the story. Thus, him teaming up with Luffy to break out isn't such an obvious twist (and so when that happens, it's ever more hype as a result)

But indeed, the most important part is that by teasing us constantly through out Impel Down, Oda creates hype. He makes us the readers excited if/when we might get to see the bastard, even if it was just a quick little cameo. So when Luffy finally reaches Level 6 and we finally do get that reveal, everyone loses their fucking marbles over the HISASHIBURI DANA MUGIWARA when we finally get to see The Motherfucker Himself. (And indeed, then getting to see him fight alongside Luffy is cool as fucking hell, completely unexpected and absolutely delightful)

But there's also another thing building up to Crocodile's reveal does. Compare his original introduction to the re-introduction

Compare Crocodile at the height of his power and influence, to the absolute rock bottom he has hit. No longer happily laughing while looking down on people (literally), he's filthy, he has given up on life, with sunken eyes and a hollow look on his face, only moved by a thirst for petty revenge (/an opportunity to go out with a bang). He doesn't even get the whole page for his grand reveal anymore, he's been shuffled to the side so the plot can progress on the same page.

Oh, how the mighty have fallen.

And to some degree, this is kind of meant to be a shocking realization to the readers. That this is not the same Crocodile we remember from Alabasta, that Crocodile died when Luffy defeated him. This is just the husk that remains, a shadow of what was once there. It's a sad sight, and probably not what the readers who loved Crocodile The Villian wanted to see. It's not the epic Return of the (Evil) King they wanted. And that juxtaposition helps, because Crocodile doesn't return into the story as a villian, but as a frenemy/ally-on-thin-ice. And that idea is easier to signal to the readers in a lowkey manner when you do his re-introduction like this.

So yes, Oda refusing to show Crocodile's face until Luffy found him was 100% a deliberate artistic choise. This is fantastic storytelling

#Moon posting #OP Meta #Sir Crocodile #Also yes part of the reason Crocodile's re-introduction doesn't take up the whole page is just how Oda has changed as an artist #And how his paneling/page layout had evolved over the years #ALSO ALSO back in Alabasta Crocodile's Grand Reveal taking up as much space as it did made sense 'cause he was The Final Boss of The Level #Where as in Summit War he's just one of the MANY players in the up-coming chaos. He wasn't as important #AND it was a re-introduction of an old character. Compare to like Iva-chan who got a much more Grand Reveal as a brand new character #But my key points still stand #(Yes that line was anime-only but to be fair HISASHIBURI DANA MUGIWARA is an iconic line so let me have this) #(I was laughing quite hard when a while back on Twitter there was a meme of people sharing anime quotes that live in their heads rent free) #(And a considderable amount of people responded with THAT QUOTE SPECIFICALLY) #((Personally the OP quotes that live in my head rent free are all pretty much Luffy quotes)) #((''I will surpass you'' and Luffy SCREAMING ''OF COURSE'' at Usopp when getting the energy to beat Lucci are just. Yeah)) #((I love Mayumi Tanaka so much its unreal))

[19871997]

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#prefacing this w ik in fanfiction they're all just our little barbie dolls we're making kiss and it doesnt matter whatsoever but like Do you #understand how much love and respect and loyalty there is between connor and leon irl #like in connors nhlpa ama he immediately no question said that leon's the nhler who knows him best + that he's spent his entire professiona #career w him. whenever leon's asked what he thinks of connor the first sentance out his mouth is 'you [the media] know. he knows' and then #he carries on talking about how he's the best player in the world + connor never hesitates to return the sentiment #and between the two of them it's not sentiments they sau it like its fact bc it is #and their whole 'cup or bust' thing every analyst and their mother have taken it as a 'they're going to win in edmonton or not at all' in t #e sense that they want to stay in edmonton n stay together <- like not even in an insane person edmonton polycule type of way in the they'r #the best players in the world and have insane chemistry on the ice and are eachother's best friends type of way #like a reason why their pp is so lethal is bc those two on a line + the other team down yeah ofc thats going to be automatic #and leon saying that their best beats anyone else's best no doubt and connor talking about building the team from the ground up like leon w #s there when they got boo'd off the ice in 2014 he was a part of building the team that's thier damn team and in turn the sheer amount of #respect the rest of the team have for them and they have for the rest of the team and the trust that while they're the best players they #don't have to play for all of them n that's part of thier whole like. our fourth line stands up to any other first line rock solid belief #like and ofc thier on ice hugs and lockerroom hugs and that moment in the sportsnet knee injury doc and how they mention that they're best #friends whenever theyre asked and how their gf's are also best friends and also their damn dogs #NOT TO MENTION. he's my ride or die. im really lucky our paths crossed here in edmonton. as a friend it was really tough to watch that #<- leon's insane 2022 playoff run on a broken ankle #and the way leon's been dubbed the german gretzky and connor's been the next next one since he was 15 and the way they have such a solid #control of the lockerroom together and i dont know if they've ever said conflicting things to the media and how they've said that they push #eachother to be better (connor saying that leon told him to score more) #and their little taps throughout their season and bringing back their team from the dead and leon being the one to make connor laugh in #pressers and on the bench #ALL TO SAY. like i am a mc.matt.drai enjoyer in the threesome/winners room/asg/2997 are actually quite abnormal about eachother and matthew #has never been normal about anything in his life and this might be fun. kinda way #but 2997 are soulbonded in ways quite possibly none of us will ever be able to truly understand #<- also i do mean this genuinely like they're not normal people but both of them are not normal #SORRY FOR RAMBLING. i just wish there was better written fanfiction. #<- wish to be the change you see in the world innit tho #so funny to me how the eh is just canadian innit.

[batcavescolony]

I'm back talking about Harry Potter and Snape's worst memory because while I hate the author y'all bug me.

Snape worst memory isn't James bulling him or string him up in front of the school, (that was bad I'm not saying it wasn't) it was Lily ending her friendship with him because he called her a Mudblood. With evidence.

To prove my point we have to go read the Deathly Hallows when Snape gave Harry his memories! We get to see the scene again but this time the thing that sticks out the most is Snape calling Lily a Mudblood. Now if that's not enough proof the next memory goes like this.

*Outside Gryffindor Tower*

Snape: I'm sorry

Lily: I'm not interested

S: I'm sorry!

L: save your breath... I only came out here because Mary told me you were threatening to sleep here.

S: I was. I would have done. I never ment to call you a Mudblood it just-

L: Slipped out? It's too late. I've made excuses for you for years. None of my friends can understand why I even talk to you. You and your precious little Death Eater friends- you see, you don't even deny it! You don't even deny that's what you're all aiming to be! You can't wait to join You-Know-Who, can you? I can't pretend anymore. You've chosen your way, I've chosen mine.

S: No-listen, I didn't mean-

L:-to call me a Mudblood? But you call everyone of my birth Mudblood, Severus. Why should I be any different?

*Lily leaves. Memory ends*

The next memory is Snape becoming a turn coat for Dumbledore so he could keep Lily safe because Voldemort wouldn't spare her.

Snape has had worse experiences then a teenage James Potter being a bully (even if it was shitty). so we look at the rest of the memory and lo and behold what do we see? The actual worst moment of Snape life, the moment he lost Lily forever.

#I just saw someone say they hated Lily because he's was too hard on Severus all he did was call her a Mudblood. #Yeah just called her a slur...And found it funny when dark magic was used on someone. And joined a hate group that would kill her. #And would've let her child and husband die if it ment she lived. bffr 🙄 lets put this in real world terms! #you're a minority (pick one) and you go to a school but their are some people who hate you for existing. but its ok you've got your bff! #now years go by and bff is still your bff but theyve changed. they're hanging out with those aforementioned people who hate you for existin #and yeah you dont like it but they're your bff since for ever so you make excuses. but then bff starts calling people like you slurs... #now bff hasn't called you slurs so maybe its just peer pressure you let it slide its your bff. now you find out that not only are there #people who hate you for existing there is his hate group and they want you and people like you dead. obviously you dont like his. now bffs #friends they want to join this hate group... and bff doesn't deny it. ok thats not great. bffs friends who wanna join the hate group have #now moved passed just calling people like you slurs. they've went and beat the shit out of a person like you that you considered a friend. #and bff.... they say that it was just a joke. but are again not denying wanting to join the hate group that wants you dead. you love bff so #you just keep your mouth shut. now the day comes! bff has now called you a slur. and you cant make excuses anymore. they're just like their #friends and you cut your losses because again bff and their friends want to join a hate group that wants to kill you!!! #its not poor litte Severus its poor Lily. she thought she had a friend and HE betrayed HER! but but but why didnt she stop him from joining #she was a child! she was in a new world with no idea! she was in a whole nother house! and its not her fucking job to fix him! he joined th #hate group HE KNEW HATED HER! if he truly loved her he wouldn't have joined. but but but its not that- ADROMADA TONKS could be a Slytherin #and not be a Death Eater and her family was pure blood. she could do it! so could Snape. #severus snape #lily potter #snapes worst memory #the marauders #harry potter #the deathly hallows #lily evans #put some more respected on her name. #fuck jkr #james potter #slytherin #how can you be a snape stan and not like lily that 80% of his personality. #snape

[paperlovesadness]

Me seeing all the comments under Glasto-themed posts blaming Alex for being sick and calling off Dublin

I'm barely able to fold that knife though.... And I'm not trusting myself that it'll stay folded.

#I really have no words for people who lack the basic minimum amounts of sympathy and understanding #and YES IT'S POSSIBLE HIS SYMPTOMS CLEARED UP IN JUST 4 DAYS #am I worried they didn't completely? yes. but they might have. and either way they're Definitely A LOT better after him resting #taking care of himself. possibly getting some meds prescribed. hydrating. not talking. sleeping #What did they want him to do. go out and mime the songs for them? #go up and barely utter some words through the hoarseness - make things worse and call of yhe next month if shows instead? #risk getting actual chronic laryngitis? risk his whole career? #the hell is wrong with people #you've got no idea how scared I was & am for my show that's coming up too. It's like extremely meaningful and important to me #the vision of going helped me through some tougher times #but you know what I'm also scared of? #of one of my favorite artist's getting seriously hurt. #of him beating himself up for disappointing people when there's nothing he can do about it. #can't believe people lack the basic empathy. #i get being disappointed. Sad. Furious even. #be furious with a god if you've got one or the universe or bacteria or the very idea of voice boxes being suspectable to strain #not with the man who's just as frustrated with the situation as you are #AHHHH #(i unfolded the knife safely in the tags. folding it back up) #(I see the typos & I hate em & I'm mad but I won't be doing anything about it. I'm sorry) #// #my posts

[lokh]

being like man i probably gotta talk to people/make friends. finding out ways to make that happen irl and being like ykno what nevermind

#the effort involved........ i dont do anything or go anywhere so thats the first problem #and i dont do that becos i prefer not leaving the house and also thats effort. so i have to beat that urge #and then like. go places with the Intent of talking to strangers and initiating conversation?????? #at this point its like dude u know you dont HAVE to do this if u. dont want akndbfhb #i feel like i. should lmao i do feel like left to my own devices i might rot #as in like. living independently etc becos thats gonna happen at some point. parents getting on in years #this is probably not the best motivation to try making friends LMAO but like it is what it is! #anyways the point is i got distracted and ended up learning more about sex on premises places and im just like #fascinated. whole other world i know nothing about and some people regularly partake in. a whole other culture lmao #I KNOWWWW its like. u HAVE to put urself out there and be slightly uncomfortable #but i start thinking about like. what do i get from it ratio to effort im like..... bro i dont even like talking to people that much #u kno that one post abt like. autistic people perpetually starting outside the comfort zone #or was it about chronic illness. anyway yeah LMAO

[hopecomesbacktolife]

crying weeping. this book was phenomenal. 100/10 magnificent and soooooo intense and vast and searingly intimate and heartbreaking and swoops of joy and I just. Katherine x Zera 5ever I love them so much

(possible spoilers in the tags even though I redacted the most spoilery bits)

once I’m a bit more coherent I plan to write an actual legible review (a glowing one, of course!) but I had to scream about all my feelings for this book here 😭❤️

#personal #a swift and sudden exit #definitely one of the best books I’ve read this year and probably even broader than that #it is so utterly unique and unlike anything else I’ve ever read and is so incredible and I just #it was so gotdamn INTENSE at times and the whole last bit was a TIME but oh my god #they got their soft epilogue 😭😭 that they deserved 😭😭 they’re good people and they’ve suffered enough 😭😭 #my heart went on such a wild ride with this one #to have a love that literally spans the decades.. ‘with you I remember everything’… ‘I’ve waited a hundred years for you to say that’… #I can’t 😭❤️❣️ #they loved each other and gave each other a renewed desire not just to exist but to LIVE that they literally saved the world 😭😭 #nico this was brilliant and spectacular and beautiful and magnificent and I’m so glad you wrote this book #it’s lovely and I am a changed woman after reading it. my heart. I’m so emotional and in awe of the journey they went on #my god. 10/10 #this book was just. I don’t even know it was wonderful #and like you know me poster child of emetophobia!! if I can get past the mentions in this book and still be raving about the book. that spe #ks to how incredibly GOOD this book is. and it is. it’s so good. so good ♡ #sci fi sapphic bis is such a fantastic genre and I’m so glad this book exists in it #also I’m not over posh (derogatory) to posh (in love) and formal (lying) to formal (trembling with the intensity of their love) ough #Katherine x Zera 5ever x2059953920019493929201 #and the SILVER IN [redacted] IN THE FINAL CHAPTER IM WEEPING I LOVE THAT SO MUCH #as we all know I cannot relate to immortality idolization whatsoever and when [redacted] and she was JOYOUS about it #which was made all the more beautiful and poignant by her journey to GET THERE #I JUST. OUGH😭🥹 #so beautiful #and to have all of this grandiosity high stakes end of the world post apocalyptic life and death. and to have it end on a picnic in [redact #d] with wine and a sunset. I just. I just. it’s so perfect and so right and I just. #i love this book so much #also jenifer prince your beautiful beautiful art is so perfect I adore the illustrations the cover and the Polaroids & bookmark 10/10 so lo #ely #and all plot important beats too 😭❤️

[iridescentis]

Something I realised quite recently is how much my views of Girl Meets World changed as I got older and how much more critical I am of it now.

I went from saying "everyone who says the Maya becomes Riley plotline doesn't make sense is stupid" to "Yep that plotline made no sense"

When I was Maya's age I thought her relationship with Josh was adorable and once I got to Josh's age I immediately went absolutely the fuck not

I think such a big appeal of GMW canon comes from a younger perspective, at least for me, and now I'm older I have a much more canon critical viewpoint of the show.

#one thing that never changed tho #i have never and will never understand the appeal of rucas #i just can't #there's just nothing there #i never shipped lucaya but i kind of understand where people are coming from with that #but rucas... #not so much #nothing beats rilaya that's all im saying #ALSO where the fuck did people get riarkle from?? #like that pairing didn't even occur to me until i was in the gmw fandom #it still makes no sense #I AM A FIRM BELIEVER IN SMARKLE #I DON'T CARE IF YOU THINK THEY ARE BORING #SMARKLE HAVE MY WHOLE HEART YOU CAN ALL FUCK OFF #im sorry i got carried away there #i put way too much ranting in my tags #i need to be stopped #girl meets world

[girlboyburger]

Is it ok if I reference your art? I want to make a reference sheet for my character and you're so good at drawing my body type. I would NOT directly trace yours, but it might come out as the same pose as whatever I end up referencing. If that's not okay, I understand and it's completely fine! If it makes you uncomfortable, I will not use your art as a reference. (Sorry I'm bad at wording things)

sure! referencing poses or w/e is super okay with me ^^ also tbh, i don't mind if people trace* my art,

****AS LONG AS*****

they're not posting it, and especially not posting it claiming it's their own. anyone can *privately * use my work to learn shapes or lines or whatever else, tracing is a good tool to feel out the shapes in art.

👍

note: by tracing, i specifically mean breaking down the art to bare bones shapes. finding the circles and squares and bean shapes that compose the anatomy in a piece, NOT just tracing along the lines. direct tracing does not work as a tool, and is something i'm very not okay with happening to my work. ... annnd is something i very heavily encourage you to avoid for the sake of learning on your own.

#most of my poses are super generic imo so very especially okay if you mean standing facing the left with hand up lol. #there's way too much of a stigma against tracing in art communities when like. it's a REALLY good way to get a feel for anatomy and shapes #back in highschool/college i traced uh. luxebytes (yes i know the drama surrounding them forgive me i was in highschool) #coconutmilkyway creamsie okamiwolven n like. a whole lotta other artists i still admire today. not to mention i STILL trace poses in find o #pinterest and google and sometimes tumblr of human people just for practice #n for the record. before someone beats my door down with a bat: #AGAIN. i do NOT mean just tracing over the lines of someone's work. i get how tempting it sounds from a beginner standpoint to just have th #piece look like art style you like but. it's not only super uncool but won't help you learn. #them's my onions. obviously don't reference artists who specifcially ask not to be referenced #but #i dont mind with my art specifcally as long as youre doing it Morally Correct :] #last time i got asked if someone could reference my art they straight up recolored one of my ocs n posted it as their own but i'm assuming #you don't mean that lol <3 #ask #anon

[devilbrakers]

OC DUALITY

was tagged by @morvaris​ to take this uquiz for my ocs >:) thank you nico this was super fun!!

tagging: @numbaoneflaya @time-is-a-lake @aartyom @nuclearstorms @girlbosselrond @druidgroves @malefiicarum @swordcoasts  @aldcaldos @sufferthorn @steelport @calenhads @lavinet​ and anyone else who’d like to join in !!

you and the hat man

oh boy you're fighting demons aren't you? it's like you're in a constant staring competition with something that's always in the peripheral. what the fuck. (at least, that's how people who don't know you would react). at this point you've probably gotten pretty familiar with the hat man. he's a reliable kind of guy. keeps to himself, sure, but you can trust him to be there. maybe a haunting isn't too bad if it's never left your side. you can only imagine what it will be like when he's not there any more.

god-hungry scientist and their abominable child

you stitched something together inside of yourself and gave it life with light from the sky and now it won't die and you can't kill it because part of you loves it and you're not quite right in the head or the person you used to be but at the end of the day it's simply a beast of sadness. you crave the mercy you didn't get from your creators and so i'm telling you please forgive yourself. please hold the monster by the hand.

moon curse of the werewolf

you have found yourself hungered or sickened or ambitious to the point of emotional carnage. you are fine, until you're not, and then you could rip someone in your way apart with your bared teeth by complete accident, and later claw at yourself in fits of pain trying to apologize. do you look at the moon that blessed you in her name, at her marred beauty and baneful eyes, and wish she could just crush that loving-hateful heart of yours before it crushes itself? every bite you take out of flesh is a response to the threads of silver bullets in you that haven't healed. the duality is that the human inside is howling too, gnashing, and without the wolf pelt, everyone can ignore it and turn away. at some point, you got tired of the moon being your only witness. now the wolf is there to make sure others know that you are hurt, and deserving of humanity, of attention to wounds. because that wolf loves you; all of you; and knows when you are hurt better than yourself.

#feel free to ignore this if you want !! idk how many people have already been tagged fjsdkl #anyway. going to be annoying abt this in the tags now <3 #the main thing that gets me abt gray's is the 'maybe a haunting isn't too bad if it's never left your side' #like????? ik the hat man thing is probs supposed to be funny and it kinda is but it fits them so well #almost everyone close to them has died or left them atp but maybe it isn't so bad. just to have one constant #dmitri :| yeah. yeah #everything he felt he had to become to save his sister who was dead the whole time anyway but ended up being a better survival tactic anyway #so he just stuck with it until he died but then he comes back as a demon and now he has to live with what he did forever #i don't think he really could ever forgive himself. mainly for failing nina but it's started to eat him alive less and less over the years #mainly bc he does everything he can not to think about it too much but he also doesn't really want to totally get rid of that part of #himself. the part that was capable of torturing and killing all those people bc it really was powered by love and desperation to some extent #and that proves that maybe he has some shred of humanity left even if she's been gone for decades now #not that he does shit like that anymore. but he's capable and willing to for those he loves even if they'd probably hate him for it #and miko's :( #yeah #lashing out at people when it gets to be too much which is often given the life that she lives and then beating herself up for it nonstop #but it's also a way to protect herself and even tho she died young it got her pretty far #and it helped her protect other people (mainly gray and blake) when it came down to it because she couldn't stand seeing them hurt either #idk if i articulated myself v well but yeah jfdsklfdjs my dmc gang are all my blorbos #my ocs #tag #gray #dmitri #miko

[akkivee]

mtr has my favourite brand of codependency (husbands with their new doctor bf who def cannot survive without each other lmao) but all the divisions have their own versions of codependency and I Like That tbh lol

#vee queued to fill the void #whether it’s healthy or not i am just an overall sucker for codependency tropes lol #lol so there was a whole thought process here that led to this one but it started from musing about samatoki and ichiro’s relationship #to just how samatoki is now surrounded by people who will take care of him just as he wants to do right by them and man!!!! #i love seeing samatoki relaxing and being cared for lmao!!!!!!!! #but then it was also giving mtr vibes and when you think mtr fp often goes hand in hand #and before i knew it i was just thinking about the hypmic’s collective found family thing it’s got going on 😭😭😭 #the og divisions have had a lot of time to develop their codependencies and while nagosaka hasn’t #the foundations i think have def been laid #like dh fills each other’s emptiness from being left behind with each other (the rosasa paradox tho lmao) #and bat’s got that ‘a family that puts their lives on the line’ thing going for them (kuukou @ hitoya: i would die for you and jyushi) #i’m looking forward to seeing nagosaka’s bonds hit that ‘oh they RLY RLY need each other’ beat lol #c: rapping boys

[the-fire-might-be-shooting-at-us]

Soooo do people in this fandom know about not being fucking condescending assholes or

#bro #stfu #no way do they tag things with the anti hargrove tag like you are actively instigating rn bro #I blocked his tags for a reason I do not want your ass on my dashboard #like why are they stalking the anti hargrove tag come on now #also is generalising a them thing or is this one particular person I'm thinking of #bc this person is making claims that ive literally never heard of before bc only one person ever made them #idk maybe im biased bc i got told to get run over and beat up in the most condescending quirky way ever #bc billy hargrove stans are the funniest people ever #like i hate him but his stans are literally so funny you guys the things they say sometimes bro like even just the way they talk #its so funny when i dont feel like im being talked down to #its giving marvel protagonist main character moment #and actually lets make this abt the whole fandom why do you guys not like having different opinions why cant you respect that #like hate on the opinions sure but can you not be annoying about it #rem does stuff and panics #stranger things #anti billy hargrove #anti billy stans #anti harringrove

[adore-gregor]

How being sick messes with your mental health is sometimes worse than the illness itself honestly 😕

#i mean it depends on what kind of illness you have if it's serious or just a bad cold #but i just had a very bad cold and it sucked so much #the symptoms were not nice but i could handle it #but i had to stop sports for a whole week and that was hard #i also didn't get anything done for uni really #sports just help me sm to be in a good place #and then you don't get things done you need to do for uni/work bc you can't concentrate well #and that makes you stress even more and beat yourself up because of deadlines #i just missed my routine and structure so much because normally i have some things i do almost everyday #and it keeps you motivated / disciplined #and just being outside getting some sunlight or also meeting people #without that i just got into such rut and i felt so disapointed in myself because i couldn't finish anything #like maybe i should have tried harder #and you miss your life because these days just suck #oh and i had to play tennis half ill 🙃 #because we had no players left bc of injuries no time or being ill even more #i did not even play that badly against a strong opponent and got a few points #but did not feel 100% and i wonder if i was fit maybe i could have won that set in which i got those points :(( #and then who knows i might have even had the chance to win the match #maybe not because my opponent was great but also i wasn't even that far off in that one set #well it's pointless #rant #and now i'll have a very stressful week of catching up ahead 😔

[vampyre-kin]

I low key kind of wish I'd been raised more religiously? Like I have such a weird fucking relationship with Christianity but at the same time I only have comparatively mild religious trauma, I only consistently went to church for about two years and the most my mom ever asked me to do was pray during hard time. I guess I just wish I had something more significant to connect all these feelings to. This weird guilt, the even weirder yearning to be more involved. Idk. It's all just weird and I don't like it.

#tw: mini trauma dumping in the tags after the basics -> #religious trauma #religion #christianity #the only real religious related trauma i have revolves around my queerness #in 4th grade a boy outed me as bi by reading a page of my diary to the whole class #i got beat up and called slurs regularly‚ they said id burn in hell and spread disgusting rumors about me #youd never believe the cruelty a flock homophobic of 10 year olds are capable of #and when i was 12 i went to church and one day i asked the pastors wife a simple question #“if god is all forgiving then why dont gay people go to heaven?” #“because god may forgive you but he will never accept you.” was her response #i know there are good christians and good churches who truly believe in loving thy neighbor and acting in kindness #but they seem so horribly rare

[disaster-bi-shan]

adventures in achievement hunting

pro tip: don't try soloing the heroic 4 seeker droid mission lol

#i mean i did get past them eventually but then i hit a roadblock with the regenerating tongue monster #cos i didn't have enough dps or stunbreaks to outpace it healing itself #or at least i didn't have the patience to sit there for a whole hour trying to beat it down #ramblings #i got the 'one and only' title tho :D pretty easy to get if you do the alderaan fortress w/ a good healer cos the exarch's a pushover #oc: rylthos dvuhmi #z0-0m while annoying is a scarily good healer as is altuur apparently but i've never checked otherwise any of the dualwielding ranged comps #ie. vette and theron who are my favourite companions to run w/ ry so it works out :3 #waiting on a guildie group to form up for the shroud stuff cos the puzzles need 4 people; i need to complete the macrobinocular series to #find the mcr droid outside the star fortress