#Did osdd

[lorelei-system]

Nobody seems to talk about being a little in a system who has to pretend to be a grown-up a lot. I know this may not apply to all systems, but at least for us, our child alters are a lot more like permanently age regressed adults than actual children. We can mask as adults when necessary, but that can also make us feel bad.

Sometimes I wish I was a real kid without all these responsibilities. Something as small as being praised for something that most adults take for granted makes my day. I wish I could act, and be treated, like an actual child all the time, but part of us having to stay covert and function as an adult, with an adult life, is that I have to pretend to be an adult even though I’m not.

But when I see people on here say that littles shouldn’t be on the internet at all, it confuses me. Maybe there’s some sys kids out there who aren’t mature enough to protect themselves, and take care of themselves. But for us, our littles tend to be the toughest alters. We’re the ones that have been around the longest, that had to endure some of our worst trauma. Our innocence was already stolen, so treating us like innocent children doesn’t make much sense in my opinion.

But of course, every system is different. I just find it patronizing to see random people on the internet say that it’s not good to let littles on here. Sys kids are a lot more complex than you think. We’re different because of what we’ve been through, and how much we’ve already seen.

-Sophie (she/her, little)

#did osdd #did alter #did system #osddid #actually did #osdd system #system little #sophie speaks

[lefluoritesys]

Yet another thing I don't see talked about in the DID community: the host anxiety of letting go of front.

Obviously it doesn't happen to every system, as some systems don't even have a host; but can we talk about the fear and anxiety about potentially never coming back to front if you fully let go, as a host? I dealt with it for a year and a half until I was able to actually start letting go and sitting off front for long periods of time. But there were times when 5 minutes off front fully caused me panic attacks.

This fear especially comes when you are a baby (newly discovered) system. This feeling that you built a life for yourself, and suddenly, you feel like you'll lose it to other people. And it's not that you want it all for yourself, but losing it entirely is what's scary. And there is usually a whole inner world behind you... who knows what happens inside of it, what it can do, who lives there? As well as, it's scary to let go of control of events IRL. Who knows how others would handle it, even if you know them well already?

And that's just our reasons.

Moral of the story: y'all are not alone, and it gets better.

-host

#looking at one specific system #you know who you are #did system #did #osdd #osdd system #dissociative identity disorder #did osdd #system #other specified dissociative disorder #system stuff #system things #osdd 1a #osdd 1b #actually did #actually osdd #median system #actually median #cdid system #cdid #hc did #hc did system #highly complex did #complex dissociative identity disorder #complex did #highly complex dissociative identity disorder

[zero-templates]

I made lgbt and disabled pixels for my simply plural, all the first, second, third, fourth, fifth, and disabled sets are out rn ! (though that's just the sets, I'll still be making more pixels)

( read my pinned before interacting )

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[antiendovents]

Honest the god(s) questuon

How can yoy tell if you are an endo or not?

Because I honestly feel like I don't have enough truama to be a system. But like I know im a part of one. But others have said I do have enough truama. I just need help i think

Trauma is trauma. No trauma is too little or too much. You are valid, trust me. You have enough trauma, do not worry. you're not an endo, you have trauma

#anti endo #did #did system #endos dni #plural #actually did #alters #system #endos fuck off #did osdd #Hope this doesn't sound mean 😭 #I'm really tired #But don't worry anon #You're valid #You have enough trauma #There is no such thing as not enough #Trauma is trauma

[reimeichan]

I'm a little. Biologically, I'm in my late 20s. And... I had the realization hit me last night that even though I'm a little and feel like I'm still a child, with all my childish wants and needs and fears and stuff, it doesn't change the fact that I've lived through 20-something years of my life. I have adult responsibilities and adult experiences and adult memories.

But more than that, I can't go back to being a child anymore.

My past, my childhood, I can't change any of that. The pain and traumas are real, the memories I have still haunting me. And even the moments of nostalgia I have, when I reminisce on my past... well, that's all they can be anymore. They're not my present.

And in spite of all this history I have inside of me, I still feel like a kid who didn't get the love and affection I needed. I feel stuck in time, but time always keeps marching forward even if I don't. The grass grows and the meat rots and the rocks weather. I can honor these feelings of being a kid, and give myself the things I didn't get back then. But... I'm still an adult. And I think it's also important for me to acknowledge that.

Integration is so hard. I've fused and gotten closer to so many of the other littles that now we're all sharing those moments from our childhood: happy times and sad times and even just times that existed. But I'm also closer to the adult parts, and with that comes... I dunno. I guess I'm less dissociated from my current reality and I'm more grounded now. And it feels so scary and confusing trying to navigate this new reality that I'm not used to. But I know I have people around me who can help me, from my friends and partners to the other parts of me I share a life with. It'll be okay, I think.

But for now I'm gonna mourn my past.

#did #dissociative identity disorder #actually did #actuallydid #did osdd #osddid #cdd #did little #trauma #trauma processing #by azure #with a little bit of help from gray and green

[irlminion]

So one of our alters who really struggles with doing things without commands made a pizza without any prompt to do so and then ate like a slice!

Making a pizza and eating a singular slice doesn’t seem like much but for us it’s incredibly lovely to see.

#actually did #did #did alter #did osdd #did system #dissociative identity disorder #ramcoa #traumagenic did #traumagenic system #cdd system

[plnetl]

Honest t god I sent that at like 2AM so I can't tell you what I meant by that

this you?

#osddid #did system #lifesteal smp #did osdd #planetlord alter #lifesteal #lifestealsmp #plnetl ask #plnetl doodle #minidoons

[wxrmeaterz]

noooooope nope

stop that

stop invalidating your experiences as a system based on other peoples opinions of you!

--

someone told you that you aren't traumatised enough?

the literal people in your head prove them wrong

someone thinks you're faking?

they aren't in your head, they don't know your life and you don't owe them anything

someone said you have to source separate?

bunk that! as long as you're safe and happy who cares!!

#endos dni #actually did #did system #polyfrag did #did alter #did osdd #osdd #cdd system #osddid #endos fuck off #anti endo

[nearsightedbat]

I often wonder if any other systems out there struggle with lying.

Not about being a system but just with lying in general. I feel most would answer “no” for fear of ending up on r/fakedisodercringe

We struggle with lying a lot, it’s a protective thing. Or it was when it started. Over time we just couldn’t stop. For the most part now we do better with it. But it took a lot of help from professionals and things like that.

Just thoughts I’m having while stuck here.

#actually dissociative #did osdd #dissociative identities #dissociative identity disorder #tw: dissociating #system #actual did #did alter #did system #osddid

[aspenfrosten]

got any complaints?

#pluralgang #plural system #plural community #actually plural #osdd #did osdd #traumagenic system #plural #did #plurality #did system #endos fuck off #not endo safe

[autopsycollective]

more stress leading to more alters leading to even more stress, is a cycle that literally just feels like hell.

#we keep losing track of our headmates #actually osdd #endos dni #osdd #osdd plurality #did osdd #osdd community #osdd 1b #osdd things #osdd alter #osdd system #osdd1b #osdd stuff #osddid #traumagenic osdd #other specified dissociative disorder #unspecified dissociative disorder #dissociative system #actually dissociative #dissociative identity disorder #dissociation #dissociative identities #did #udd #system #traumagenic system #sysblr #actually plural #plural system #plural community

[noodles-in-the-sink]

“The worst system struggles are this!!”

“No, the worst system struggles are that!!”

LOUD INCORRECT BUZZER

I think deep down we all know that the worst struggles are when your headmates get the stupidest fucking vocal stims and will NOT stop saying them. Currently going insane because the co-host repeats “I am absolutely PENISED!!” every third second

#WHY ARE ALL HER VOCAL STIMS SO SIMILAR #It’s always 'Paynus!!' or 'Peepnis' #Sometimes even 'Peepis' or 'Penice' #THIS IS GOING TO DRIVE ME TO GENUINE INSANITY #system host #system #endos dni #actually did #did #did osdd #cdid system #did system #did alter #traumagenic system #osdd system #sysblr #system things #system stuff #osddid #osdd #actually osdd #vocal stimming

[enchantingducktheorist]

I honestly feel kinda jealous of hosts that have built a good and functional relationship with the majority of their system :/

#mental health #dissociative identity disorder #did system #actually did #did alter #endos dni #plural system #plurality #traumagenic did #did osdd #system host #system problems #system stuff #dissociative system #traumagenic system #sysblur #sysblr #sys blog #plural blog #plural community #actually plural #actually multiple #multiplicity #osdid #did host #did stuff #did plurality #did posting #did problems #did community

[antiendovents]

Don't most doctors say that DID is only caused by continuous or chronic trauma?

yes, many studies and sources say that DID/OSDD is caused by "severe or repeated trauma before the age of 9-10" ((age might be debatable))

It is important to keep in mind that what is "severe" for some people might not be severe for others ((adding this before any fakeclaimers get any ideas, not claiming you are a fakeclaimer though anon)) <- also repeated could be tons of small things, even if they're "small" over time they can have a really big affect on the brain

#anti endo #did #did system #endos dni #plural #actually did #alters #system #endos fuck off #did osdd #CW trauma mentions #No details

[ben-marco]

I want to take a moment to recognize older systems / people with DID who were directly impacted by the Satanic Panic period of the 80s and 90s.

While OEA and RA/TBMC are very real, the panic surrounding these topics affected OEA survivors and nonsurvivors alike. Communities went from looking for abuse on every corner and sensationalizing trauma -- to establishing rhetoric that abuse just doesn't happen and that any child (or adult, later) who speaks up must be lying or making things up, whether it's OEA or CSA or even physical abuse. It's out of the media around the Satanic Panic that we were left with people touting "false memory syndrome" and denying the existence of DID as a diagnosis.

This post is for older systems whose abuse, OEA or otherwise, was sensationalized or misrepresented due to the Satanic Panic. This post is for older systems who went through OEA and were told they didn't, or had their stories minimized. Older systems who went through CSA, organized or not, and were told that they were lying or making it up. Older systems who recognize signs of trauma or even DID in their family members but who know that these family members will likely never say a word about any of it. Systems who lived through the Satanic Panic period and experienced/saw firsthand just how quickly any allegations of abuse were swept aside, ignored, or otherwise invalidated. Systems who still struggle to talk about their trauma today, 30+ years later, because of this pattern of invalidation.

#actually did #actually dissociative #ramcoa #ramcoa survivor #did osdd #did system #dissociation #dissociative identity disorder #dissociative system #osddid

[delphientropy]

what fucking sucks about your family not knowing about multuple of your disorders (namely autism and did) youll be on the bed, blurry, head hurt, very low spoons, nothing is real and your body is not yours and everything feels Wrong, i dont even know who the fuck i am, and your dad comes in like hey wake up do the cat litter

#osdd #osddid #did osdd #did system #did #actually did #osdd system #system #pdid system #pdid #autism spectrum disorder #autism #asd #actually dissociative #actually plural #actually mentally ill #actually autistic