#Audhd traits

[rockstarlwt28]

The Light In The Darkness; The White In The Blackness

Tags: Psychosis, Psychiatric Disorders, Mental Health, Medication, Depression, PTSD, Overdose, Addiction, Drug Substence Abuse, Institutions, Hospitalisation [to be continued]

Saturday Snippet:

'I can't imagine what you're going through. I wish that I could take away all your pain, your sorrow.'

Obscuring the symphony of colours are buildings, for miles beyond; varying in height and width. Neither match the other, almost like civilians; different in structure, internally and externally. Resemblances can be made, the human flesh signifies their being by name while the architectural structure of bricks and mortar give a sense of binding in their outerwork. Though like humans, their outer detects are visible, signs of wear and tear, behind the flesh, humans have wounds invisible to the naked eye. Buildings tell a thousand stories of its previously owned tenants, the inner workings of furnishings or neglect are similar to human kind; a destruction of each other. And while one builds walls in metaphor to seek closure, comfort and protection; a sledge hammer of words and anger can break through even the toughest of walls.

#fanfic #Wip #Work in progress #Mental health #Psychosis #psychotic disorders #Psychiatric break #Depression #mental health #tw drug addiction #Substence Abuse #Over dose #Audhd traits #Hospitalisation #Institution #medications #Addiction

[onyx-got-clowned]

Every. Single. link is neurodivergent coded and you can pry that from my cold dead hands.

#Neurodivergent #actually autistic #loz #Legend of zelda #linked universe #lu wild #lu #lu wind #I think Wind is more adhd and wild is autistic :3 I’m also self projecting sooooo #Lu four #four reminds me of us #he is system to me :) #Lu twilight #twilight i feel like would be auDHD but has more adhd symptoms #Lu legend #cmon… it’s legend. He is autisming with his hoarding cus he hyper fixated on weapons and jewelry and stuffs #Lu time #Time is probably like- adhd but masks a lot. #Lu warriors #warriors gives me ‘has internalized ableism’ type adhd cus he got teased for his traits and symptoms when In knight training so he masked #Lu hyrule #Rulie probably has traits #Lu sky #sky always gives me adhd vibes from him. He definitely day dreams a bunch #i know i do! #Again #I’m self projecting so this is all headcanons #It’s canon in my heart tho #As an AuDHD osdd system #Lu headcanons

[bwbawa]

hello, so I'm questioning if I'm autistic so i can reach out for a diagnosis maybe, and i saw another person do this so i wanted to try it out

i wrote a list of some of the things i think that are autistic traits about me and if anyone would like to please read them and tell me if they could be autism or maybe smth else? lol, just as a big favour really. I'll give more context if any is needed, thanks so much!!

also please reblog for reach if you want to, thank you

ts bellow the cut :]

- stimming ( twirling and braiding hair, used to suck on my own hair as a kid, rocking back and forth, doing ??? weird stuff with ny mouth and fingers lol, moving legs a lot)

- echolalia; internal, repeating phrases and songs on my head, but also doing sounds with my mouth

- always feeling like an outsider. This wasn't bad for me as a kid since i was very into creepypastas and media related to being an outcast, i never related it to something bad until adolescence which im still in, and I'm more insecure now about it.

- also, very extroverted as a kid, didn't get social cues and was offensive sometimes

- couldn't and still can't control my strength very well ( sometimes things fall out of my hands or i touch someone harder than i wanted to)

- sensitive skin, to heat cold and pain

- very talkative, as a baby was LITERALLY born babbling

- not good at eye contact, either do way too much or way too little

- terrible at maths (jst not logical to me??? dk how people find them logical )

- kinda restrictive interests but no special interests

- very picky as a child, fav foods were salted noodles with ketchup or by themselves. ( still can't stand some foods and mixing some foods together )

- horrible coordination and balance: didn't learn to tie my shoes correctly, how to ride a bike or how to swim, i bought wheelies and cant use them because my balance is horrible, i run weird (like a baby kind of) and I'm always stumbling on my own feet

- again, didn't learn some stuff until grown: didn't know how to shower correctly or make my bed ( could be due to being very taken care of as a kid, aka my mom didn't let me do stuff by myself )

- terrible spacial awareness: again, stumbling with my own feet, waddling like a penguin when i walk with my friends lol

- bad perception of time

- got upset when things didn't go my way

- ran away when kids were being too loud but didn't mind big performances loud spaces

loud THUDS or sudden noises however startle me, scare me and stress me out: was and still am kind of afraid of balloons, shouting people and loud thuds. As a baby i cried when someone spoke too loudly

- lately I'm much more sensitive to stimuli than i was, could be due to heightened stress in my life: badly done beds make me want to cry, crumbs on the bed feel like hell, heat and sweating are hell, some months ago i cried because my sunglasses and headphones weren't working and there were too many sounds, my head it hurted and everything felt wrong, sent me into a kind of crisis.

- don't think I'm overly empathetic, but i have a strong sense of justice and get very upset and ill about injustices.

related to that, movies and shows that require a lot of stress i don't like, they make me feel ill and i prefer spoilers when it's like that, i get too nervous.

- socially awkward and don't know how to keep conversations going, at least small talk.

- although i used to talk a lot, nowadays i prefer to stay quiet sometimes.

- i get VERY angry and frustrated but it goes away kind of quickly?

-i used to be very loud and I still dont know how to control my tone of voice ( how loud or quiet i am) and i spoke in a very high pitched voice as a child

- i used to read a lot, went to the library in the recess instead of hanging out all the time with kids and used some complicated words that my parents didn't know i knew

- all my life i only had one close friend ( not the same, but always one)

- i think i had a specific routine of morning

- i have a hard time concentrating and being organized

- i make plans for myself in the night and get upset when OTHERS interrupt it but not when i do

- hard time knowing when to pee and when to eat

- again sensory issues, some foods make me want to puke, and wet, sticky or extremely dry hands are disgusting. Also, light touches feel like anger.

- as a kid I repeatedly watched stuff, ended up boring my family because i only wanted to watch that multiple times

- sensory seeker as a kid kind of, slept with my feet up, danced a lot (stimming?)

-i get irritated easily and can hurt people verbally

- don't know if related but i sometimes very anxious, get upset about not saying goodbye correctly to certain people, as a kid i used to cry and didnt want to go to school because of a "bad feeling" that smth bad was gonna happen, could be anxiety.

i absolutely sure there's more, but I don't wanna keep typing

just to finish, most of my circle is neurodivergent. And family wise, my sister is audhd, one cousin and uncle are autistic, my mom has adhd and two of my cousins are suspected autistic.

#audhd #self diagnosed autism #undiagnosed autism #autism #am i autistic? #neurodivergent #adhd #autistic teen #autistic girls #autistic #autistic things #autistic traits #undiagnosed neurodivergent #undiagnosed autistic #undiagnosed adhd #neurodiversity

[imoanurparentsnames]

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internal autistic traits by neuro_lou on twitter.

all slides have blue background with black text, and original poster's username, neurodivergent lou, in the bottom hand corner. all text is medium sized unless otherwise stated for that slide.

slide one says "internal autistic traits" in big text.

slide two says "for too long, being autistic has been described from the outside, from the impact of autism on other people. autism is more than a sum of external experiences. a lot of being autistic, to me, is the parts that are not visible. and these autistic traits are equally valid, even if they are not spoken about enough".

slide three has the title of "internal echolalia". it says "echolalia is the repetition of sound. it is often thought of as words being repeated out loud. echolalia can also be internal, where someone repeats words or sounds in their head rather than out loud. it is part of an internal monologue. sometimes internal echolalia can bring us lots of joy and feel regulating, but equally, at other times, it may feel overwhelming".

slide four has the title of "feeling inherently different". it says "another thing which can be part of the internal autistic experience is feeling inherently different from other people. this might involve not feeling a sense of belonging or feeling isolated. we might notice that we process and experience the world in a way that is different. i had an intense feeling of being different before i even knew i was autistic. it still consumes a lot of my brain space."

slide five has the title of "not feeling connected to our own body". it says "to some extent, this autistic trait is external and observable in terms of my difficulties with co-ordination, but there are also less spoken-about internal experiences. for example, i sometimes feel like i want my body to move in a certain way, but i just can't execute that movement, no matter how hard i want to. other autistic people describe not feeling connected with existing as a visible feeling.

slide six has the title of "evaluating past social interactions and imagining future interactions". it says "I spent a lot of time in my own brain thinking about past social interactions, scrutinising and evaluating my performance within them, and trying to de-code other people's emotions and intentions. i equally spend a lot of time thinking about and imagining future interactions, thinking about the alternative ways which they might play out. i might script my own interactions too."

slide seven has the title of "vivid imagination". it says "a lot of autistic people describe how they have a vivid imagination and spend time creating intricate worlds for themselves, including having imaginary friends. some autistic people describe how creating these internal imaginary worlds for themselves has been a way to create an escape and safe space, in a world which doesn't always feel safe."

slide eight has the title of "pattern seeking". it says "pattern seeking can be a key way which autistic people internally process the world. we may be constantly seeking out and recognising patterns in the world. this might involved seeking out and processing number plates, understanding patterns in people's behavior, or seeking patterns in films and tv shows".

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#internal autistic traits #autistic #actually autistic #neurodivergent #audhd #autism #autistic masking #neurodivergent_lou

[77ngiez]

project sekai is crazy because literally every character is queer trans neurodivergent physically disabled or some combination of the above

#and im not talking abt hcs im talking abt actual coding #minori is very explicitly in love with haruka #harukas is less obvious but she clearly returns minoris feelings as well #shizuku is so obviously nd [likely autistic but she could read as a number of other things] #airi is incredibly trans coded [that one event + her fes card] #mizuki is canonically trans #ena has ptsd in some format due to her fathers abuse and shes also got a lot of cluster b traits #kanade has ptsd from what happened with her father and wlw and physically disabled coded #mafuyu. oh gd. the cdd coding the transmasc coding the girlkisser coding. #anhane is basically canon #touya is autistic coded as is nene and ichika #shiho is nd #everybody in l/n likes girls #ichika is aro coded #and autistic like i said #saki is canonically physically disabled #akito [like ena] has some measure of ptsd from his father #akito and touya r both mlm coded #rui literally compares himself to a famously gay scientist in jp [FUCK THE EN LOCALIZATION OF THAT BTW] #emu is VERY CLEARLY AUDHD and somewhat wlw coded #nene is also wlw #tsukasa comes across as very nd #all of wondershow is aspec coded as well #and oh gd ive been talking a while i need yo shut up #but like. MAN. man. [goes crazy] #77ngiez.txt #can u guys tell ive been thinking abt pjsk lately

[vivianseda]

Thank you Em @ NeuroWild

“Edited to add: I have changed some of the wording on this image.

The original wording was meant to be funny however I can see how it may have been triggering. That was not my intention and I apologise to anyone who found it distressing.

The world spends a lot of time talking about the hard neurodivergent traits (and I do get it. They are there. I live them.)

But let’s celebrate the good ones for a minute.

This collection of traits is one I put together based on the neurodivergent people in my life. I know many of us will relate to some of these.

These traits are not all exclusively neurodivergent. Neurotypical people will tick some off too. These are not diagnostic criteria by any stretch of the imagination.

I called them neurodivergent traits here because if you are a neurodivergent person and you have one of these traits- well that makes it a neurodivergent trait then, doesn’t it? Simply because it’s yours.

This post is not looking for modesty.

Tell us about your neurodivergent brilliance.

Or tell us about your kid’s.

Oh, and if your best trait is missing from this collection, let us know what it is.

We’re here for it.

Em 🌈”

#asd #tea #adhd #audhd #adhder #audhder #tdha #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #neurodivergente #neurodiversidad #autism #autismo #autistic #autista #actually adhder #traits #autism community #adhd community #sped #special needs community #neurodivergent community #comunidad educacional especial #comunidad neurodivergente #autistic community #comunidad autista #comunidad tdha #comunidad

[mental-illness-bingo]

I feel like people constantly forget what "on the spectrum" actually means, so let me remind you.

I want you to think of an item that is purple. Any item, but make it purple in your mind.

Now if you add a lil more red to the purple, or a lil more blue, or you make it lighter so it's lavender or darker so it's plum or desaturate it a bit so it's more gray-purple or make it super saturated so it's a fushia purple, all of that is still purple right?

But if you make that item green, it is no longer purple. It is not "less purple" and the other item was "more purple". One item is purple and one item is not purple. Two purple items can look very different, but there is still such a thing as purple and not purple, and that line is pretty easily identifiable, especially by experts in color.

Now replace the word item with person and the word purple with autistic.

#autistic #autism traits #actually autism #autism diagnosis #autism spectrum disorder #autism #asd #actually autistic #actually audhd #spectrum #autistic spectrum #on the spectrum #mibingo

[purpurrock]

Sometimes I forget i have ADHD

Like sometimes I'll be like "if I were really autistic I would/wouldn't do xyz" and its like yeah it's a fucking ADHD trait silly

#actually autistic #autistic #audhd #adhd #actually adhd #obviously you dont need to havd all autistic traits to be autistic this is just my experience

[titan-god-helios]

me culture is all of will wood’s songs

#im queer trans audhd depressed anxious AND have npd traits #so #yk #was bound to happen #music #will wood

[funkylildragonfella]

I honor of canon autistic Doctor (Chibnall confirmed canon autistic 13 at GallifreyOne and I'm taking that as all incarnations autistic canon and also ADHD canon cause I'm AuDHD and I say so)

#autistic!doctor #canon autistic Doctor yesss #we love autistic and ADHD and AuDHD Doctor #I'm just really happy stimming #actually autistic #doctor who #autism #autistic #adhd #audhd #stimming #there are so so so many more traits The Doctor has and even for the ones listed there's so much more to it than could fit into a short edit #canon AuDHD Doctor I love you

[rockstarlwt28]

The Light In The Darkness; The White In The Blackness

Tags: Psychosis, Psychiatric Disorders, Mental Health, Medication, Depression, PTSD, Overdose, Addiction, Drug Substance Abuse, Institutions, Hospitalisation [to be continued]

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Unwanted. 

Over sanitised and saturated lemons; a smell Louis knows only too well. It lingers in every room, his feelings of impurity made crystal clear. He's sure the woman; dark eyes and dark hair cleanses his room more than any other. It's the way she stares at him, a little too long, obtaining his inner thoughts and weighing up his soul. His skin crawls in fear of discovery, a sense of nakedness. 

Louis religiously strips himself bare, tossing the clothes into a corner of the room when she closes the door, her contaminated glare infecting him and the fibres that cling to his skin, the venom seeping into his bloodstream. Inhalation from the steamy shower maximises his lungs, restricted by her presence; skin red and sore from the intensity. Eradicating the woman's intoxication leaves Louis like a spirit the moment he exits the shower cubicle; more when he slips on an oversized button up and slips beneath the duvet; hidden in plain sight.

#fanfic #Wip #Work in progress #Mental health #Psychosis #psychotic disorders #Psychiatric break #Depression #mental health #tw drug addiction #Substence Abuse #Over dose #Audhd traits #Hospitalisation #Institution #medications #Addiction

[mariatesstruther]

audhd ellie hc! she hates showering!

ellie discovers in jackson that she HATES showers, especially because she didn’t ever have them growing up. once jackson gets water and power and proper plumbing, working showers are no longer out of reach—everyone rejoices, but ellie is displeased

she DOES NOT LIKE THE SHOWER. the shower is loud and hot and stuffy and a little gross and makes her want to pull all her hair out. unfortunately their place does not have a bathtub, so she’s stuck spongebathing until joel realizes just what’s going on. him and tommy and maria and ellie brainstorm ways to make the shwoer manageable, including and not limited to: setting up a rewards system calendar so that every 15 showers ellie can keep whatever book she wants from the library, joel and tommy playing music outside the bathroom door so that ellie has something else to focus on while she gets clean, and some sensory aids like shower shoes, lower lights, and a shower stool so she can sit if she wants

ellie never quite enjoys the shower, but it gets more and more manageable to do as she figures out things that help her cope. maria logs what works and what doesn’t in a notebook the family has deemed “the miller do’s and don’ts journal” in which they all take notes on how to make each other’s lives a little easier

#audhd ellie hive #neurodivergent miller tag #the millers #tlou #ellie miller #autistic ellie #autistic traits ficlet

[welcome-to-green-hills]

Mystery, can I be your assistant when building Shadow? I don’t know anything about engineering or science but I know how to supply foods and recommend good music (and provide plenty of water of course)

YOU’RE HIRED!!!!!!!!!❤️🤩❤️

#Please I need someone to remind me to eat every once in a while. I’m AUDHD and have the trait that makes me forget to eat dinner some times #mystery anon #off topic

[godsfavoritescientist]

Ok time for a few Bill ADHD momence:

- executive dysfunction. Lots of factors contributed to weirdmageddon taking so long to happen, but executive dysfunction HAD to of contributed to this

- chronically understimulated. This guy watches through eyes across the multiverse, he is doing SO much all at once all the time. He is constantly fidgeting and floating around and changing topics when talking to people in their mindscapes, and when he is possessing someone he is coming up with new ways to stim like its an extreme sport.

- He is also very easily distractable and little things that aren't important to him easily slip his mind.

- Immediately dropping everything to do the funniest/most interesting thing he just thought of at any given moment is Such an indicator of understimulation and chronic boredom

#bill meta #neurodivergent tag #<-need to add that to the bill autism post #i remember Slightly less about adhd than i do about autism off the top of my head. rly hope im not mixing up traits or anything #easy to get things mixed up bc im audhd and there are overlaps in symptoms and all that #feel like i could maybe bring up time blindness and hyperfixations here too. but i dont wanna need to add a readmore

[flimsy-roost]

a side effect of the medical framing of neurodivergence that I haven't yet seen articulated, is that it makes it hard to engage most neurotypicals on the topic, because it exists in their minds either as

a) private medical information that cannot be discussed in polite company, or else should defer to medical literature, or else is uncomfortably TMI for all but the people closest to you,

or

b) a mental health issue that can be "fixed" or alleviated with community support, and should only ever be addressed in the service of healing and growth, but is considered a separate entity to the individual, similar to how general depression and anxiety are viewed today.

but like you shouldn't be squeamish, it's ADHD, not a tapeworm. and as much as I appreciate understanding from friends and family when I'm struggling, I don't want to summon a pity party or toxic positivity parade whenever I send an autism meme to the group chat. I think I favor identity over diagnostic labels because the former better articulates all the good, bad, neutral, and mundane parts of my existence.

#i think of it in the same category as people born blind/deaf/with physical or limb differences #you're allowed to feel however you want about yourself but it's ultimately a neutral trait #it's not good or bad it just is #just like any sexuality/gender/ethnic/racial/cultural identity #adhd #audhd #actually autistic #neurodivergence #neurodiversity #nd

[foolwife]

(develops 3 years and counting devotion to fictional character(s) with very autistic traits including literally masking which i relate to really hard for some reason) waow this is some really advanced adhd !

#☁️txt #im reading its a pretty common experience for autistic traits to become more pronounced when an audhd person takes adhd meds #and i wonder. i used to jump from hyperfixation to hyperfixation every couple of months #but i think i started my thing with bobby when i started adderall??? #and i haven't really fixated on anything else since besides general stuff like getting really into movies ....... #now i really don't know if this is like. a coping mechanism developed from the stress endured when i started working #or if this is just autism mode now. perhaps both ! scream #delete later