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Poll PAC: What Your Next Birthday Celebration Will Be Like 🎂🎉🎁

Sup y'all, welcome back to another PAC reading. This time I'm doing a special 1 year/birthday/poll topic of choice themed pick a card! This is also a special one as VitaminSee now has 300 followers! Holy crap thank you for your support everyone! I haven't been able to get on Tumblr for a while, so I apologize if it seems like I've dropped from the aether. Life is starting to enter its hectic phase right now! Thank you so much for your patience. I'm waiting for life things to straighten out (lol as if life ever does) before I go ahead and offer some basic paid readings, which I hope to do in May.

This topic is for the next birthday you have coming up, whether that's tomorrow or next year. For my selection, I was recently lucky to have found the Wild Wisdom Companion book among a vast pile of discounted books. It's based on the Wheel of the Year. I thought this deck was perfect for making piles themed around the progression of the year and how our birthdays respond to the passage of the seasons. Pick whichever one of the Spring themed card you like most down below:

Pile 1 - The Unfurling 🌱 Pile 2 - The Wind 🕊 Pile 3 - The Door 🗝 Pile 4 - The Alchemist 🍾

Pile 1 - The Unfurling

Sagittarius - Expand, Level Up, Shadow, Isolation; XVII Star, 3 of Cups, XXI World, Ace of Wands, 5 of Cups

Hello, pile 1! Your birthday is going to be the start of great expansion. Your first three oracle cards spell it out so clearly! Sagittarius is all about shooting for seemingly farfetched goals and striking the target anyway. There is so much growth going on in your pile. You're probably anticipating your next chapter to be one of reaching beyond the horizon and feeling ready to do so. Ideas or wishes that seemed impossible may be coming closer to being within your grasp. Your life is ready to take it up a notch immediately after your next birthday, where things may begin to feel like they're accelerating. Don't worry about the turbulence, it's all a part of the movement. Breaking out of your comfort zone may feel scary, but something about your next birthday will set off a chain of events that will propel you to a new phase of life.

I have a feeling that many who choose this pile will be in a transitory stage of life, like you're getting ready to start college or a new job around your birthday. It's not just another year older, this next one will be extra meaningful in terms of receiving something you've been longing for in quite some time. It's something you've been greatly eager to begin. I don't any sense that you'll be looking back too much once you go forward, since you'll be thrust rather quickly in your next chapter.

But it's still okay if you're experiencing anxiety over it, even if it's something you've really wanted. Anxiety, doubt, and fear are not necessarily indicators that something isn't right for you. It's normal to get cold feet in this context. A sprout breaking from its seed shell is no small feat; it requires a great amount of momentum and motivation. Congratulate yourself for having come this far. Let your birthday be a chance to celebrate this. Give yourself the opportunity to commemorate with friends, if they wanna help give you a birthday to remember then let them. They may feel the vibe as much as you will on that day. Don't be afraid to take that day trip out to a new place you've never seen.

What's interesting about the Isolation card is that it shows two cups. There is meanwhile a Friendship card in this deck with only one cup. So I don't know if the words were swapped with the images or what, but the sense I get is that you will very likely be in good company during your birthday. They may want to take you out dancing (the Ace of Wands is reminding me of disco lights). However, even in the midst of the event, you may feel the urge to hide away from the crowd. I'm picturing someone stepping out of a house during a party. You may need to catch your breath at times in order to process the emotions you're experiencing, as you have a lot of energetic, lit up cards just before the five of cups.

Again, getting in dark negative moods is normal when you're facing a big new stage is not indicative that things will go wrong if it's something you know you're looking forward to. If you end up spending most of the day with friends, find some space to be at peace by yourself so you can even out your feelings. These intense moods will come and go on their own, so make sure to stay balanced (and not too overly caffeinated lol) on your birthday.

Pile 2 - The Wind 🕊

Third House - Communication, A New Day, Ball Pits, Family; 10 of Swords, 5 of Cups, III Empress, Knight of Pentacles, 4 of Cups

How's it going pile 2? I couldn't help but notice you have two pairs of swallows in your reading. Birds may have some significance for you, maybe you'll go birdwatching or even get a pet bird. For a small number of you, the birthday could involve a plane flight out of home for a quick trip. Could you be visiting family members? There's a lot of communication going on, for sure. Even if you're not traveling out by flight, you may have family members show up to take you out somewhere. They may be insistent on seeing you, talking to you, and spending time with you. The phone might blow up first thing in the morning with notifications and voicemail.

But I'm seeing a lot of hesitance in your tarot cards. You may be feeling tired or burned out and not necessarily in the mood to celebrate. The previous year was a doozy for you so perhaps catching up on sleep is more of your priority. Ever get the feeling of wanting to sleep because life is overwhelmed and you're like, "I give up (for now)?" and call it a day? You need to give yourself a chance to recuperate around your birthday, before during and after. Have a break so you can fully recover and receive all that the coming year has to offer you.

That means letting loved ones in your life, be they bio family or chosen family, understand that you'd rather have a small get together or a chance to rest every now and then if you're invited out somewhere. If you choose to go out, there's nothing wrong with taking it slow and easy, or doing something casual like grabbing some ice cream and sitting by the riverside to ponder the next year. Communicate your feelings instead of bottling them up in an attempt to keep up with everybody else. Don't let anyone convince you of how you should celebrate, it's your day your rules!

Others of you who have a little more energy, a little more of that "last year sucks, I need to go out and do something fun to sweat it off!", I feel like the ball is emphasized here with Knight of Pentacles beneath Ball Pits. Some of you looking for more action and noise may choose to go to a ball game, or spend time at the arcade playing pinball with friends. It could even be mini golf. Whether you are the low energy (calm) or high energy (excited) seeking type, getting the chance to have some fun is important, as long as it feels right for you.

This is the pile most likely to get some kind of surprise, be that a party (high energy) or a surprise gift (low energy). There will be a sense of being pampered. Some of you may get a larger number of gifts than you may have expected. You may receive a very beautiful gift, something you may treasure for a long time. Whatever it may be, allow yourself to thoroughly enjoy it and express that joy. Let yourself embrace gratitude, being mindful of what you have now regardless of how your last year has been and how your next year will be. For your next birthday, try to focus on the present (in both meanings).

Pile 3 - The Door 🗝

South Node - Past, Let Your Light Shine, Bubble Gum, Winter; Ace of Cups, 9 of Swords, 3 of Pentacles, XIX Sun, Page of Wands

Hey pile 3! For your next birthday, I'm definitely seeing you go outside to celebrate. There may be an actual party held outdoors, or you might choose to go out somewhere. I'm seeing parks, possibly national parks or natural trails. I'm getting the feeling of warm sunshine, the weather will likely cooperate perfectly on your day. You could be cruising through town, going from store to store (the 3 of pentacles reminds me of a mall here). Your birthday feels expansive and adventurous, ready for something new.

A small number of you may wish to engage a little bit in the spotlight, or you may be placed into a position of receiving more attention on this day. If you wish to, your birthday would be a great day to showcase your talents or passions, since I'm picking up a bit of Leo energy in this pile. With lips in Bubble Gum, you could be giving a speech? I'm picturing an actual toast, if you feel the strong urge to speak out then do so, let yourself be heard. I'm also seeing people sing for you at restaurants, so if that isn't your style, it's best to find a place to eat that doesn't do that sort of thing.

This birthday could be like your own version of a New Year's Eve celebration. Some of you may actually be born in the winter or around New Year's, so holidays and birthdays could tie in together. You're wanting your birthday to stand out amidst the traditional festivities (I've known many people born around Christmas who hate having their birthday gifts thrown under the tree, so you're not alone in that frustration!). You may get the idea of doing something out of the ordinary. Let yourself take the spotlight--it's your special occasion!

There's a message in your pile of letting old things go as you step into a new age. Old things from the year prior may still be sticking onto you, old issues from unresolved matters may pop up. They could be on the more practical side, like needing to sign something or finish a task on time. Be ready to step into the future unafraid--now is the time to shed the baggage. Your birthday can be the fresh start to a bright new trip around the sun, but you gotta give yourself that chance. If something needs to be resolved, and you got the time, tie up your loose ends beforehand so it's not weighing on you as you celebrate.

Your birthday is a threshold to an exciting new time for you. It may be like a breath of fresh air. I keep hearing "refreshed" and "invigorated", so this may be how you feel at the end of your birthday. You may do something that makes you think, "huh, why don't I do this more often?" That could be the key for you to step into something brand new. Will spending time with your friends refresh you, or going to a concert and discovering a new band that you will fall in love with as it warms up the show? Or may you desire to spend more time out in nature? Lean into what lights you up, listen to what engages you, and move from there.

Pile 4 - The Alchemist 🍾

Imum Coeli - Roots, Snow Day, Forest, Transformation; 3 of Cups, 6 of Cups, Ace of Swords, XII Hanged Man, 8 of Swords

What's up, pile 4? Your birthday is looking to be the absolute warmest and coziest out of all the piles. Many of you may identify strongly with introversion. I'm sensing a lot of you have your birthday around autumn or the cooler times of the year when most people are ready to bundle up in blankets or sit by the wood stove while awaiting the first signs of frost. Many of you may get a lucky chance to stay at home instead of needing to work or go to school, so you'll have the day off to plan out what you want to do. Others of you may desire to take time off if you have the chance to, I would go for it especially if you've been feeling the need to rest. You may live near trees or desire to be out in nature as a way to kick back.

I'm seeing someone invite a few friends over to watch old reruns of favorite shows while baking. It could be a gathering of closest friends, I'm not getting the sense that it'll be a big to-do bash. This day will be short, sweet, and simple. It's a good day for doing hobbies or spending time indulging in the gifts you were given. Some of you may rather spend time with family or those you live with instead of inviting people over. You and your family may share a special way of celebrating birthdays, I don't know of any birthday specific cultural traditions from the top of my head but you may have special rituals unique to you and your family. Either way, I get that you'll have a modest celebration that's nevertheless full of camaraderie and relaxing activities.

The description for the Alchemist card says "Allow Transformation", and you have another Transformation card. You may be doing a lot of transmuting on the inside, working through old stubborn patterns and limiting beliefs around this time. I'm seeing the ball of flame near the snow as if you're melting old self-sabotaging blockages away to make room for more growth in your coming year. This flame, this transmuting energy, is making way for the new to arrive.

The Hanged Man being tangled up in vines beneath a forest makes me think that you've been hung up on something that needs to be let go. You must prune in order to effectively grow. Too much in a small space can lead to cramming and confusion. You must deal with the thoughts tangling themselves up in your mind before cultivating the thoughts you want in their place. Changes may happen slowly on the outside, but when certain patterns are fully cleared out things can really take off.

So, for example, let's say you've wanted to sign up for a ceramics workshop for your birthday, or spend the day cleaning house (if you happen to find cleaning therapeutic). To do so, you'll need to not only free up your schedule, but free your mind of thoughts trying to convince you that you can't learn or can't clean. Perhaps it's difficult to not see the forest as just a bundle of trees. But a forest is more than trees, it's an entire system that supports itself in a perpetual cycle. Don't fill up your days with too many tasks, especially on your birthday. Pace the day with both the things you want to do and the things you have to do. The time around birthday will show you how to integrate the best of both worlds. We can have cake and eat it too, it's just a matter of pacing and doing things one at a time.

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What made you focus on cultivating your dark feminine energy so well? And what are some things you do daily to continue to cultivate it? You're such an inspiration to me. Since I found your blog I've been focusing on cultivating my dark feminine energy a lot more and it's been so amazing. Hopefully this isn't too personal of an ask! Totally respect it if you feel like it is.

Hi love! Thank you for asking with this kind compliment and empathy. I truly appreciate it!

I think it happened organically through some adverse childhood experiences and difficult familial dynamics during my teen years. These two time periods triggered post-traumatic growth responses that naturally manifested as dark feminine energy - it's my natural emotional and psychological home I guess. I knew it was essential to be the leader of my own life, create my unique value system, and uphold certain personal boundaries since I can remember. I've focused on cultivating successful habits to exceed in my education, career, physical and emotional health, etc. while also prioritizing discovering my sense of self, style, values, sexuality, life goals, desired lifestyle, social group, etc.

If anyone is/has experienced any situation that seems similar – feel free to reach out if you want to chat privately (I'm not a therapist, of course, but for a moment of emotional support!).

Some of the daily habits I practice include:

Morning /nighttime routines focused on self-care

Planning my week/day with a big 1-3 tasks necessary to complete to reach my goals

Wearing comfortable clothes that make me feel good (think black knit or cashmere sets for WFH or trousers and cashmere sweater with black boots or white sneakers for outings)

Doing my daily makeup routine, even when WFH

Maintaining a healthy vegan diet (whole foods 90% of the time)

10-12K step walks (5-6 miles) around 5-6 days a week

Reading/journaling daily

Listening to music I enjoy/dance as a leisure activity

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Hope this helps xx

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Deviant With a Big Defect Pt.2

The Bad Batch x Sister!Reader and Obi-Wan x F!Reader

Disclaimer: I don't own any of the fanart, screenshots, or gifs used with my stories.

Warnings: Mentions of bigotry.

Chapter 1 Part 3

Scientific Minds

You and Tech are sat around your scattered pieces of armor when you felt another pain shoot up your side. You whine and lay your head on the table.

"I do not believe you are okay (Y/n). It would make me feel much better if you go see Mistress Nala Se." Tech says with finality and you sigh as there's nothing you can do to fight him on this.

"Alright. I'll be back in a while." You say as you exit the room. You follow the familiar corridors of Tipoca City to the lab you spent most of your life in. On the way you bump into a clone by accident.

"Oh hey (Y/n)." He says and you take a closer look and realize you know him.

"Commander Garrett!" You say happily and give him a hug which he reciprocates. "How are the boys?" You ask him.

"They're doing alright. We're just ready to finally be out there in the action you know?" He asks and you nod slightly. You wince when another pain shoots up both of your sides this time. "Are you alright?" He asks worriedly.

"Oh yeah. I'm fine. Just some pain in my sides. Don't worry about it I'm going to see Mistress Nala Se about it." You tell him and he nods.

"Alright. You come tell me if it's anything serious. Say hello to Unit 99 for me." Garrett says and you nod.

"Only if you give my regards to the 75th for me." You tell him and he nods. "Bye Garrett!"

"Bye (Y/n)!" He calls back and as you walk away from him you shiver and look back at him. You brush off that feeling again and continue to the lab. It had been months since you felt that air of change. You shake yourself out of your thoughts when you see Nala Se. You catch up to her and stop when you reach her.

"Mistress Nala Se." You get her attention and she looks at you.

"Is something wrong (Y/n)?" She asks.

"Yes I've been dealing with pains running up and down my sides." You tell her and she hauls you into the lift to take you to her lab. The moment you sit on the table she's next to you with her scanner and datapad.

"Have you been experiencing an increase in appetite?" She asks.

"Yes." You say.

"Have you been experiencing these pains for an extended amount of time?" She asks.

"Yes. It started about a year ago, but it's been getting worse as time goes on." You tell her. She scans over you a second time and she chuckles.

"It is nothing to be afraid of. You are going through another growth spurt." She says and you look at her bewildered.

"But I thought standard clone height was 5 foot 11 inches. That's where I am now." You tell her and she shakes her head.

"You are a twin. Your brother is 6 foot 4 inches in height. Does it really seem so odd that you might be the same height, or atleast close to his height?" She asks and you shake your head.

"I guess not. Is that all it is?" You ask her and she nods.

"While you're here I would like to run a cranial scan to make sure this growth spurt is not effecting your brain wave activity." She says and you nod then lay back on the bed. You close your eyes and the flashing white light isn't as bad as it used to be. Time passes quicker than it used to and the bed is pulled out of the scanner. You sit up on the bed and she comes back in. "Your brain wave activity is at optimal levels, and you are free to go." Nala Se says and gestures to the door. You bow you head as you walk past her.

"Thank you Mistress Nala Se. I'll see you around." You say happily as you leave the room, and take the lift back to the main buildings. When you get back you head straight for the barracks. You feel a tap on your shoulder and you turn to see who it is. Your posture straightens almost immediately when you see Cody. "Commander Cody." You salute him and he chuckles.

"At ease soldier." He says and you allow yourself to relax just a little bit. "I'll wall you back to your barracks?" He asks and you nod in appreciation.

"Thank you Commander." You say and he nudges your arm.

"You can just call me Cody. How are you feeling? I know those pains have been getting to you." He says as he looks over at you.

"I went to see Nala Se about them, and she says I'm about to go through another growth spurt." You tell him and he seems shocked.

"But standard clone height is... Well, it's where both of us and Hunter are now." He says to you.

"She said that it's not odd for twins to be close in height." You tell him. "So I'll be somewhere near 6 foot 4 inches tall when I stop growing."

"Damn. I've already got to look up at Wrecker, Crosshair, and Tech. Now I've got to do the same for you?" Cody jokes and you chuckle.

"Sorry Commander. It's genetic... Manufacturing?" You say and he gives a full blown laugh.

"That it is I guess." He says and you stop outside your door.

"Thank you for walking me back to my barracks." You say and he nods.

"It's no problem. I try to be as nice to you guys as I can, because I know the regular clones don't really like you." He says and you shake your head.

"Eh who needs them? I've already got alot of accepting friends. I'll see you around... Commander." You tease him again and he rolls his eyes.

"I'll see you around (Y/n)." Cody says then leaves. You walk into the room and Tech turns to you.

"So? What's the verdict?" Tech asks.

"Well I'm not dying if that's what you're implying." You joke, but those blasted pains shoot up your sides again. "I'm about to go through another growth spurt." You tell him.

"Looks like there's one more that's gonna be taller than Hunter." Crosshair jokes and Hunter pouts.

"I'm not that short! I'm standard clone height!" Hunter says angrily and you chuckle.

"I'm sure I won't be much taller than you Hunter." You say with a smile and he puffs out a breath upset. You take a seat where you were before you left, and pick up your gear. "I'm going to have to wait to finish this until after I finish growing." You say and Hunter snickers.

"That's what you get for being tall." Hunter says and you shoot him a glare.

"Don't worry. It's an easy fix." You tell him and he rolls his eyes. You put your gear into your trunk and lock it.

~6 Months Later~

Nala Se measured you for probably the millionth time that month.

"I believe you are done growing. You have not been experiencing those pains for a few weeks, and your height remains the same." Nala Se says.

"So it's settled... I'm 6 foot 4 inches tall?" You ask her and she nods.

"The Prime Minister wishes to speak with you. Please make your way to his office." She says and you nod.

"Yes Mistress." You say and leave her lab. You follow the sterile corridors to Lama Su's office. You wait for the door to open for you and when it does you step inside.

"(Y/n)." He greets you.

"Hello (Y/n)." Taun We greets and you bow your head to them both.

"Please take a seat." Lama Su says as he gestures to a seat. You sit down and he continues to stare at you. "It has come to our attention that you got into a physical altercation with one of our science staff. May I know the reason?"

"She was trying to steal all my designs. She said that clones don't deserve the right to claim discoveries, or advancements in arms. It was heat of the moment and it won't happen again." You say and look down at your hands.

"And why is that?" He asks.

"Because I've resigned from the science division, and all of my designs will be reserved for my squad." You tell him and he nods.

"I understand you-" He cuts himself off as an alert for an approaching ship sounds. "Taun We please go greet our guest." She stands and bows to him then leaves. "I understand you were upset, but you must understand. You are far stronger than a regular human being, and trained to kill. Our scientists are not practice droids." He says and nod.

"I understand Prime Minister." You say.

"Nala Se has informed me that you have finished growing." He says and you nod once more. "Very good. Please finish designing your armor once our guest leaves."

"You- You want me to stay with you as your guest gets a tour?" You ask him.

"Yes. You are a prime specimen from our ranks, and I hope that you are able to impress him." Lama Su says and you bow your head.

"Yes Prime Minister. I will be on my best behavior." You say and the door opens after a few minutes of silence. The man raises a brow in question at you, but you stand when Lama Su does.

"May I present Lama Su, Prime Minister of Kamino." Taun We introduces him then gestures to the man. "And this is Master Jedi..."

"Obi-Wan Kenobi." He introduces himself and the two bow to eachother.

"I trust you'll enjoy your stay." The seat Taun We had evacuated came back down for Obi-Wan to sit in. They both take a seat and you follow after them. "And now to business. You will be delighted to hear that we are on schedule. 200,000 units are ready with a million more well on the way." Lama Su says, and you sit a bit straighter when you realize this man is a commanding officer. You could feel the confusion from Obi-Wan as he looks between the 3 of you.

"That's good news." Obi-Wan says.

"Please tell your Master, Sifo Diyas, that his order will be met on time." Lama Su says and Obi-Wan looks slightly taken aback.

"I'm sorry. Jedi Master-" Obi-Wan says.

"Hmm. Jedi Master Sifo Diyas is still a leading member of the Jedi Council, is he not?" Lama Su asks and you narrow your eyes at the 'Jedi'.

"Master Sifo Diyas was killed, almost 10 years ago." Obi-Wan says.

"Oh. I'm so sorry to hear that, but I'm sure he would've been proud of the army we've built for him." Lama Su says and gestures to you. You stand for the Jedi to see you well. He looks you up and down then looks back to Lama Su.

"The army?" Obi-Wan asks.

"Yes. A clone army, and I must say one of the finest we've ever created." Lama Su said.

"Tell me, Prime Minister, when my Master first contacted you about the army. Did he say who it was for?" Obi-Wan asks.

"Of course he did." Lama Su said then wiped some lint off of his skirts. "This army is for the Republic, but you must be anxious to inspect the units for yourself." Lama Su says.

"That's why I'm here." Obi-Wan says. Lama Su gets up, and you follow behind him and Obi-Wan with Taun We walking with you. You round a corner and look out over the growth pods. Your future little brothers all in the making, and were all special in their own way. Obi-Wan looked at you over his shoulder then turned to Lama Su.

"They're very impressive." He says and Lama Su nods.

"I'd hoped you would be pleased." Lama Su straightened back up after saying that. "Clones can think creatively you will find that they are immensely superior to droids. We take great pride in our combat education and training programs. This group was created about 5 years ago." Lama Su said as he looked out at a slightly younger group of clones. Obi-Wan turned to look at you.

"You mentioned growth acceleration." Obi-Wan said while continuing to hold eye contact with you.

"Oh yes. It's essential otherwise a mature clone would take a lifetime to grow. Now we can do it in half the time." Lama Su said as he turned back to you. "This is one of our more advanced clones. She is only a standard 8 years old, but looks and acts nearly 20 standard years."

"I see." Obi-Wan said and you all continued on the tour.

"They are totally obedient taking any order without question. We modified their genetic structure to make them less independent than the original host." Lama Su informs the Jedi who continues to observe the clones.

"And who was the original host?" Obi-Wan asks.

"A bounty hunter called Jango Fett." Lama Su says.

"And where is this bounty hunter now?" Obi-Wan asks.

"Oh we keep him here. Apart from his pay, which is considerable, Fett demanded only one thing. An unaltered clone for himself. Curious isn't it?" Lama Su says astonished.

"Unaltered?" Obi-Wan asks.

"Pure genetic replication. No tampering with the structure to make it more docile and no growth acceleration." Lama Su says and Obi-Wan once again turns his gaze back to you.

"I shall very much like to meet this Jango Fett." Obi-Wan says.

"I will be very happy to arrange it for you." Taun We says.

"What is her story? I believe if they're clones she would not be here." Obi-Wan says and Lama Su pats your shoulder.

"She was a happy accident. She is a very rare multiple defect clone." Lama Su says and you look away slightly ashamed.

"Multiple defect?" Obi-Wan asks.

"Yes. She is a twin. Not from multiples made like her, but she sprouted from another clone when he was placed in production. She holds immense levels of intelligence and has one of the best scientific and developmental minds. Any information you feed to her, her mind holds that information and files it away for later use." Lama Su said and Obi-Wan took a step closer to you. He had to look slightly up to be able to still be looking at your face though.

"And she came out a girl?" Obi-Wan asked.

"We did not know she was a girl until we separated them a year after they started to grow. However, it has not hindered her abilities. She is one of our top specimens, and thought it would be wise for you to beable to meet one of the best." Lama Su said.

"If I may, Prime Minister?" You said and he nodded for you to continue. "Why didn't you have him meet Commander Cody? He's the best non-defective clone you have." You ask him.

"I believe it to be prudent to show that even our defective clones are just as good, if not better, than our regular clones." Lama Su says.

"Does she have a name?" Obi-Wan asks.

"We typically assign numbers to our clones, and she is CT-9902-B. However, her unit has taken to calling her (Y/n)." Lama Su answers. "You may return to your normal duties (Y/n)." You bow your head to the Prime Minister and then to Obi-Wan.

"It was nice to meet you (Y/n)." Obi-Wan calls after you.

~Obi-Wan's POV~

I watch her walk away for a moment before the feeling that she gave off left with her. Odd, very odd. Something about her future that I could sense that would be horrific and traumatic.

"If it would be okay with you Prime Minister I would also like to talk to (Y/n) again. The Force was trying to tell me something while she was around." I tell Lama Su.

"I will gladly set that up for you in the future." Taun We said and we headed off to find this 'Jango Fett'.

~Regular POV~

The feeling that was in the air dispersed the further I got from the Jedi. I sat down at the table in our barracks and pulled my armor from my trunk to finish it.

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Day 5: Workplace, Mental Health, and Prioritizing Yourself  

Wellness in the workplace should be talked about more. With how fast pace things can get, it's easy to get off your routine, and your mental health can slip. I had my monthly session with my mentor, and it was surprising that we touched on mental health and how it should be discussed more. It's the elephant in the room, especially since COVID and the shift to remote working. Although everyone knows that corporate culture can be very unhealthy, we also know that the work needs to get done. Realizing this is what pushed me to take my mental health seriously.

In my last position, I suffered from burnout and promised never to let it happen again. To prevent it, I need to find ways to stay grounded at work and in my personal life. It's essential that I set boundaries and limit my work hours. 

I do this by taking my lunch break daily unless I have something urgent. Taking that hour lets me catch my breath in a sense.    

I log in at 8 and am finished by 5, especially when working from home.   

On the weekends, I avoid opening my laptop so I don't get sucked into work. Instead, I keep track of important dates in my planner.  

I also neglected my personal life in my last position because I was also in school. Since that's no longer an issue, I've been focusing on myself and doing a lot of inner work. I learned that not prioritizing my personal life was affecting my professional life. Such as:   

Not working on my anxiety made me paranoid that I would make a costly mistake that overtook my entire being, and I would be so hard on myself.    

Not checking my depression caused my lack of self-confidence to ooze from my pores, and people could see it a mile away.    

Neglecting my spirituality and not being present in my own life.   

At one point, I reached a breaking point and finally asked for help. Since then, I've taken the advice of giving myself grace and taking time to relax. My focus has been improving my mental health to achieve my full potential.   

I started a journalling routine to reflect on my experiences and think through any issues.  

I introduced yoga as a form of meditation to keep me grounded and present. 

Each morning, I read an entry from a meditation book that helps me confront my codependency.  

I'm working on my inner self and confronting the parts I used to run away from.  

I've realized that it is okay to make mistakes and that growth is more important than perfection. As a result, I'm allowing myself to feel confident and happy in my abilities.   

Since making myself a priority and working on my inner self, I experienced a significant improvement in a short period, Situations that used to overwhelm me no longer affect me. I have gained control over my anxiety and improved my confidence. 

Completing assignments is easier 

I am confident in building relationships with my coworkers   

I can step out of my comfort zone and communicate through emails with ease 

I have also established a routine I can stick to at work and in my personal life.  

While I am still determining where I aspire to be, I am light-years away from where I started. During the conversation with my mentor, we discussed the importance of pursuing interests outside of work. She shared how she spent 3 hours drawing out plans for her backyard renovation project and how fulfilling it was to create something with her hands. This inspired me to think about how I can bring more sweetness into my life. I am considering the following activities: 

Enrolling in an acro yoga class  

Learning a new instrument or reviving my old skills.  

Spending more time in nature and capturing moments through photography  

Reconnecting with spiritual practices, I may have drifted away from. 

I'm grateful for the desire to improve and the willingness to never give up. I plan on having a long career in corporate, and while prioritizing my mental health is half the battle, I know I can handle whatever comes my way.  

Music Challenge Day 5: A song by an artist you’ve love for awhile.

Mine: I love me some Jon B 💜💜

My Aunt: She absolutely loves her and as it turns out we are both huge Tamia fans 🤗

#soft black girls #leveling up #black femininity #soft black women #self love #black wellness #wellness journey #blackgirlbloggers #black girls of tumblr #black girl magic #black girls in corporate #mental health #corporate barbie #Tamia #Jon b #spotify #mindfullness #100 days of mindfulness

[amphiptere-art]

Okay okay okay I give up trying to make a graph. But! I wish to point out that in general, across many species, the first couple years are usually a time of rapid growth. And I'm quite confused about how the rapid growth works in overseas AU

@artoutoftheblue mer's have some listed ages and size. Sun and Moon are both 26 and around 19-20ft. Solar is 28 and around 26.6. Eclipse blood moon and lunar are all 46 and has the shortest at 63.2 and the biggest at 70.4. kill code (who unfortunately I can't find an exact length) was 75 when he died. And presumably gave rise to the measurement of 80 ft.

There is a gap between the sizes of 30 to 50 ft. Given the fact that Sun and Moon are 26 and eclipse and his brothers are all 46 This means there's a growth spurt at the ages of 30. With that given, the youngest would have to grow at least 50 ft within 17 years. They would have to grow more than a 2ft each year. Which is quite a quick growth rate for something of that age.

Eclipse (without any rapid growth) would at least grow more than a foot each year to reach his current size. This also somewhat goes for kill code.

While it is normal for a younger individuals to grow rapidly. As most animals double their size within their first two years. These mer seem to have a rapid upward growth either in the middle of their young adult stages or for much longer, As they are only 8in at birth. Meaning sun moon and solar are at least growing more than 2ft for at least the first 30 years of their life.

Most animals reached their smaller average for adult size within their first 15 years. Although some other animals do have a slower growth rate and reach their smaller adult sizes within their first 20 years. This still does not explain the rapid growth that would have to happen in order to reach the length that eclipse is.

It would make much more scientific sense if Sun moon and solar we're reaching their young adult sizes. Probably somewhere around the 30 to 40 range. Experiencing rapid growth from the ages of 5 to 15. Before slowing down their growth until they reach eclipses size.

Am I thinking too hard about this. Yes. Does it really matter since they are fantasy creatures. No. Should people have the creative freedom to create their character sizes and ages however they wish. Yes.

I am not saying anything needs to be changed. I simply enjoy theorizing the logistics behind the ages and size ratios of these fantasy creatures. There is a reason why I keep saying that mer blue moon is quite big despite being so young. I describe him as adolescent yet in reality he is more so a pup still. This is because of the whole rapid growth in the first few years. And I simply started wondering exactly how age to length ratio worked in the overseas AU.

Here is a couple graphs showing exactly what sort of rapid growth in the first year I am talking about. The closest the overseas AU Mers are is to whales. Which start tapering out their sizes around the age of 30ish. So there is a circumstance where Sun Moon and lunar's rapid growth makes sense.

#overseas au #tsams mer #sams mer #tsams au #sams au #sams #tsams

[tejaswapna]

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Step 2: Embracing Data Science Libraries

Numpy and Pandas: These libraries are indispensable for data manipulation and analysis. Dedicate a few weeks to each for proficiency.

Matplotlib and Seaborn: These tools aid in data visualization. Allocate several weeks to become comfortable with them.

Step 3: Data Manipulation and Analysis

Data Cleaning: Learning data cleaning and preprocessing may take several weeks to a few months, depending on complexity.

Statistics and Probability: Understanding foundational statistics and probability concepts is essential and could take a couple of months.

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Consistent practice, engagement in real-world projects, and seeking assistance from online communities and resources like blogs, tutorials, and forums can significantly expedite your learning process. Patience and a deep understanding of concepts are pivotal for becoming a proficient data scientist.

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[codinixcloud]

What Role Does Software Engineering Play in Digital Transformation?

Whether you know the term or not, "digital transformation" has been a source of contention since the early 2000s, at the height of the dot-com boom. Global spending on software engineer digital transformation initiatives reached $2 trillion for the first time in 2019, concluding a 30-year surge.

The current pace of change in the globe is practically challenging to comprehend. Computers and digital technologies have become an essential aspect of commercial businesses as a result of advancements in fields such as the internet of things (IoT), machine learning, artificial intelligence (AI), the cloud, blockchain, augmented reality (AR), and virtual reality (VR) (VR).

It is critical to seek new possibilities for development and improvement to maintain one's competitive edge in the market. The outcomes of digital technology are visible. If you need to figure out what I'm talking about, here is the place to be. Please continue reading!

What Role Does Software Engineering Play in Digital Transformation?

Because software engineering is the foundation of contemporary technology, understanding its role in digital transformation is critical to the discussion.

It is up to them to make cutting-edge technology's ideas a reality and to guarantee that, in addition to being helpful and capable of driving growth, this technology also adheres to ethical principles and has a beneficial influence for years to come.

5 Challenges for Digital Transformation in Business

A digital revolution is now taking place worldwide, and software engineering contributes to this digital transformation. However, the problems caused by digitalization jeopardize the success of any endeavor. These kinds of issues are not uncommon in the realm of software development, but they must be addressed regularly.

Time-To-Market

Businesses will go to any length to maintain their competitive advantage. Customers may now have confidence that improvements will be made accessible as quickly as feasible.

Similarly, introducing new uses into existing items follows the same laws. Keeping up with customers' ever-increasing expectations while lowering the time it takes to bring things to market keeps businesses on their toes.

Flexibility

Even if a firm routinely meets the strict time-to-market criteria, it must nevertheless plan to respond to its customers' changing demands and needs.

The competitive company is quick to seize every chance that presents itself. As a result, businesses must develop adaptable product models to add new features to their offerings while maintaining quality.

New Technologies

In today's market, where new technologies and products are continually being offered, software developers and businesses must be prepared to embrace relatively new concepts to maintain their competitive edge.

Technology Heterogeneity

A variety of disparate devices have emerged as a result of the fast diffusion of cutting-edge tech. Businesses should standardize interfaces across various types of technology.

Customer Orientation

The emphasis on contemporary software development has moved away from product functionality and user experience. This situation is primarily due to the widespread availability of smartphones. This implies that while developing consumer-facing software, businesses must prioritize user interfaces.

Why Are Businesses Experiencing a Digital Transformation?

Various types of digital transformation are feasible. Your company must successfully integrate it and maximize its potential.

With the aid of AI and machine learning, insight-driven businesses will quickly advance to the top of their respective professions. IaaS provides companies with a competitive advantage and is the next big thing in data analytics.

Virtual and augmented reality (VR and AR) already dominate the digital arena, and various industries have stepped up their efforts to position themselves as early adopters. Cloud and blockchain technologies have enabled several recent startups.

Techniques like these have a solid strategic base. Digital technology has ushered in a new era of strategic planning.

Artificial intelligence (AI) and other cutting-edge technologies are appealing but must be deployed with careful planning, implementation, and supervision. With a plan, businesses can gain certainty, which may hinder innovation and cost money.

The transformative potential of technology may help both organizations and individuals. This advances rather than defines digital evolution. This is a top-down strategy. The company's requirements determine this. Technological improvements make growth possible.

In engineering digital transformation, technology and strategy are inextricably linked. Businesses must find a happy medium between the two to fulfill consumer requests, improve user experience, retain a competitive advantage, and adapt to changing market circumstances.

Conclusion

Despite the intimidating moniker, a company's digital transformation is just future-proofing. A company must embrace and adapt to new technology if it wants happy customers and a successful business.

It's also something you've encountered in your own life. A phone update, for example, is justified by the fact that technological improvements have improved its utility. Businesses must now adopt a more strategic strategy.

Your firm needs a foundation for digital transformation. A digital transformation framework may help your company's technological progress. However, to help you with it Codinix Cloud is one of the best digital transformation companies you can hire.

#digital transformation companies #software engineer digital transformation #engineering digital transformation

[gamergirlshelby]

Tokiya Quirk Drawbacks

Alrighty this is the post where I go over the numerous drawbacks for Tokiya's quirk, Time Displacement.

This will be a very long post, with some images used to help show how the drawbacks work (the pictures may not be very good though) so this will all be under a read more.

Tokiya Quirk Basics

First, I want to do a quick over view of Tokiya's three base abilities. Tokiya has the abillities to make a person or object fast-forward, rewind, or slow down at varying speeds. All three of these abilities are activated when Tokiya makes physical contact with a target while focusing on the exact thing he needs to do. For example he would need to focus on making an object fast-forward to be 5 times its normal speed. Tokiya usually uses verbal indicators to help them focus on what they are trying to activate.

How the quirk acts solely when Tokiya himself is the target.

When Tokiya is using their quirk on themself they are able to fast-forward, rewind, or slow-down themself with little restriction. Tokiya's body is designed to be able to handle the shifting time, so he has grown accustomed to the constant shifts his body experiences when using his quirk.

Tokiya's fast-forward works by causing Tokiya to move slower, even allowing him to defy gravity by slowly falling down to the ground (this effect works on all possible targets).

Tokiya's body has three specific points that it relies on to help keep itself stable when Tokiya uses their quirk. First is the "base time" which is the time that his body will shift back to after it is given the proper time to, since it won't immediately shift back until Tokiya stops using the quirk for a moment (how long it takes to shift back differs between uses).

Second is the "stopping point" for how far Tokiya can rewind before he physically can not take it anymore. If Tokiya rewinds anything and then reaches this point, everything will immediately stop as a reflex to keep Tokiya from rewinding themself into non-existence.

The third is the "stopping point" for the fast-forward. It is similar to the stopping point for the rewind where if Tokiya over exerts himself when fast-forwarding and reaches this point, Tokiya will reflexively stop every affect he has active at that point in time. Since Tokiya is still relatively young during his UA school years, it takes very little rewinding to reach his stop point for the rewind (which is when he is about 4 years old, since his quirk had developed slightly later compared to the average), while the stopping point for Tokiya's fast-forward takes a lot longer to hit (the stopping point is around when Tokiya is 84 years old, which is the average life expectancy for a human in Japan). Below I have a small chart showing the stopping points and base time for Tokiya as of his time at UA.

Even though Tokiya's stopping point for the fast-forward is when he is around 84, that does not mean he will die at that age, that is just an approximate that his body has made.

The bad part about this is, since Tokiya's body keeps shifting its self through time, it does not get the time to develop any extra mass, whether it be weight or height, so Tokiya is shorter than the average height, and is very underweight, causing even smaller clothes to be oversized. To help counter act this, Tokiya tries to avoid using his quirk as much as possible during long breaks from school to help his body grow, to somewhat mixed results, since he did have a growth spurt between leaving his last school and attending UA, growing about being about 5'2" or about 157 centimeters, and is now 5'6" or 168 centimeters.

How Tokiya's Quirk effects Others (and himself)

When Tokiya uses his fast-forward and rewind, they are also effected by the quirk, but at half of the power as the target, for example if his target is at 4x speed, Tokiya will be fast-forwarded at 2x speed. I have made a visual indicator shown below for Tokiya's fast-forward effecting a separate target. (with a cameo from Ikuto Maekawa)

Tokiya is impacted differently when using his rewind on someone else. Tokiya's physical body will rewind, but Tokiya will not rewind his position. Tokiya can focus on solely rewinding his physical body, but it takes a lot of concentration, and it usually ends with Tokiya getting a migraine. I have made a visual indicator shown below for Tokiya's rewind effecting a separate target. (with a cameo from Evan Satoru)

When Tokiya uses his quirk on multiple targets, he experiences an effect he calls stacking, because if Tokiya uses his quirk on multiple targets, they will experience the fast-forward or rewind at half the speed of both targets added together. For example if Tokiya used his fast-forward at 4 times speed on one target and at 6 times speed on a different target, Tokiya would be fast forwarded at 5x speed since 4 divided by 2 plus 6 divided by 2 equals 5 (4/2+6/2=5). I have made a visual indicator shown below for Tokiya's fast-forward effecting 2 separate targets. (with a cameo from Jaye Rokuto and Momo Neko).

Lastly is Tokiya's Slow Down. Tokiya is unaffected when using the slow down on a separate target, but is handicapped by Tokiya not being able to use his slow down with his support items, which I will get into in the section about Tokiya's support items and how they work.

Tokiya's Support Items

Tokiya has a few useful support items that he had help developing from UA's support course students. Tokiya has two support items, first off being his outermost coat, which has a clock design on the back that will have the hands move clockwise if Tokiya is fast forwarding and counter clockwise if Tokiya is rewinding. This is beneficial to his allies who will be able to see if Tokiya is fast forwarding or rewinding, but it also helps any villains Tokiya might be fending off. The clock on Tokiya's jacket does not change if Tokiya is using his slow down.

Tokiya also uses a bow and arrow as a way of dealing with foes that are a great distance away or in the air. Tokiya usually carries two types of arrows, the first type being arrows with sharp edges that can cause physical harm, while the second type of arrows with a soft arrow head that also allows Tokiya to transfer their fast-forward and rewind a long distance. However the arrows can only transfer the set fast forward or rewind speed, and are only in effect for a short period of time. The arrows also do not work with Tokiya's fast-forward.

What would happen if Tokiya loses his Quirk?

This one is mostly for a hypothetical, since I don't plan on ever writing it so Tokiya permenantly loses their quirk, but if it where to happen, whether it be by Aizawa using his quirk on Tokiya, or some other sort of in universe means, here's what would happen if it was a permanent thing.

First off, Tokiya would have their lock of grey hair in their bangs fade to black. Since it was the unique visual que that could help show Tokiya's age once it was effected by his quirk.

Next Tokiya would immidiatley smack back to his base time, causing him immense physical pain, since his body would usually need to take its time when getting back to that resting point. Because of this Tokiya would probably scream and then pass out from the shock, since his body just immediately snapped back into a specific position in time it was not ready for.

Next, once Tokiya wakes up, Tokiya will be very out of it for a decent period of time since his body is experiencing time as the average person would, and Tokiya hasn't really experienced that since before his quirk initially developed, and would likely need to be hospitalized for a short period of time while he readjusts.

Lastly, once Tokiya is fit again for school, they would likely be transferred to UA's general studies course from the hero course, but would still likely be in class 1-Y since it is a mixed class.

Now if it was a quick, non permanent thing, Tokiya would still have the grey hair fade to black, and still pass out from the shock of immediately snapping back to normal time, depending on how long Tokiya's quirk is gone for determines how long they would need to stay at the hospital.

If it was Aizawa using his quirk it would probably be the whole day at MOST, maybe staying the night, and at the very least would have him stay an hour or two after waking up.

If it was one of the quirk dampening drugs used in the Shie Hassaikai Arc, Tokiya would likely need to stay in the hospital a bit longer so the doctors can analyze the drug since it was in his system, and wait for its effects to ware off. If I ever write angst about Tokiya losing their quirk (and knowing me I probably someday will), this would probably be the route I go down, since its not permanent, and it correlates with a concept shown in canon.

Final Thoughts

Hey, if you're reading this that means you finished the fricking essay I wrote about how much Tokiya's quirk sucks, and I really appreciate it. I was gonna put this in the tags but I don't know how long I will ramble with this section so I might as well keep it all in the same part of the post. I'm a little surprised that I actually wrote this much, since I thought this would be a quick thing, but it took me about 2-3 hours to write all of this down. If you have any questions related to this please send an ask or comment on the post, and I will try to answer them to the best of my ability. Anyways that's it for now, and thanks again for reading all of my ramblings.

#bnha oc comeback #skiduffle #long post #tokiya iori // chrono

[songofclarity]

Since there is no official height for WRH, how tall do you think he is? imo I'm 90% sure that NMJ is taller and being precise he's either a single cm shorter or taller than LXC. Also build-wise, do you think he's more bulky or slim?

So I just found out that NMJ is the tallest character in mdzs (191 cm) and I'm wondering do we know how tall WRH is? What if he's actually shorter than NMJ? Would NMJ tower over him all scowling and glaring and WRH would be like "how dare you look down on me like this? *Also why is this turning me on?* "

Hello to the same Anon because I reply too slow or to two different Anons who are on the same wavelength!

Nie MingJue is the tallest character in the series and there is absolutely no way I'm going to headcanon away his crown! Nie MingJue is 191 cm and everyone can look up to him, as they should~ And that includes Wen RuoHan!

This might be a boring answer, but I don’t think Wen RuoHan cares about height. I don’t think Nie MingJue being taller, whether by 1 cm or 10 cm, would bother him. There is a confidence about Wen RuoHan in what he says and does and doesn’t do that shows, to me, someone who is actually well adjusted to his body, his position, and his power.

Looking back at the saber incident, it’s important to note that Wen RuoHan’s beef wasn’t because Sect Leader Nie’s saber was sharper or bigger or better, his beef was because Sect Leader Nie was (reportedly) being an asshole about it. It was Sect Leader Nie (reportedly) turning it into a competition when it wasn’t one. Wen RuoHan was perfectly at peace with the world on his own, and never asked a question comparing his saber with others. Is his own saber not a fine saber? The answer is yes, it’s quite fine. And Nie MingJue in all his tall glory is also quite fine, and I think Wen RuoHan could appreciate Nie MingJue in multiple ways without having to feel intimidated or challenged by him.

Confidence is key!

Going on a tangent for a second, I like to consider the idea that Nie MingJue doesn't exactly feel the whole extent of his height. His fiery temperament, exacerbated by the saber spirit and a toxic sworn brotherhood arrangement, always gets the focus over his height, which is really only mentioned by Wei WuXian at the start of empathy but is never used to describe Nie MingJue looking down on people, physically or mentally. When Nie MingJue runs into the frightened woman and child in Hejian, he reigns in his aggression, but he's still very much towering over them.

We know that Nie MingJue was a teenager and old enough to go on night hunts when his father was injured, so I imagine him being 16 back then. Boys, on a whole, start puberty later than girls (so closer to 13) and might not hit their peak until as late as 20. So let's say Nie MingJue hadn't reached peak 191 cm yet and his father was still taller than him when bed bound. Then his father died, and in the ensuing years Nie MingJue shot up like a tree, but that doesn’t change how his father will ALWAYS be taller than him. (I headcanon both Nie brothers take more after their respective mothers’ side of the family in appearance and height than they do from their father’s. Nie MingJue is tall even amongst his uncles at 191 cm, Nie HuaiSang is short at 172 cm, and Sect Leader Nie was somewhere in between.)

I also imagine the situation around his father's death, how those six months showed the worst part of the Qinghe Nie saber cultivation and his father at his most monstrous, would have made Nie MingJue feel very small and helpless as a kid. It's no surprise he loathes and regrets that death the most into his adulthood. It's no surprise that once he steps into an adult role, he's always working and trying harder than everyone else to protect the peace and mitigate danger.

Nie MingJue's big dick energy comes from the heart. Combined with his height, he’s the biggest man around!

But I don't think Wen RuoHan is significantly shorter than Nie MingJue. I headcanon him being 185 cm at the shortest. That makes him shorter than Nie MingJue at 191 cm and Lan XiChen at 188 cm, but it’s the same height as Jiang Cheng. For comparison, Wen Ning is 183 cm vs Wen Yuan is 172 cm. Wen Yuan experienced some serious food difficulties during his early child (from about age 2 to 5) that could have negatively effected his growth, so he is likely an outlier. Wen Chao isn't given a height and there's no particular reference to him being short or tall, not even when Wei WuXian holds him hostage in the cave, so I imagine he's not too far off from Wei WuXian, who is 186 cm. So we're reasonably looking somewhere in the 180s cm for Wen RuoHan.

If Wen RuoHan doesn’t have to ask Nie MingJue to lean down to get what he wants and can just take it, even if he has to go up on his toes, height really is no issue~

Because the fun part about Wen RuoHan is that I do not think a taller person is going to phase him. At one point the world stands tall against him and he flexes quite well on his status where he doesn't even think he needs to lift a finger to end the Sunshot Campaign. This is a man who will slightly tilt up his chin, without even thinking about it, so he ends up looking down on the towering Nie MingJue.

I imagine the effect is quite alluring, but it would also be like being faced down by a predator and Nie MingJue isn’t used to being treated as prey~ Wen RuoHan is in for a fight if he wants to try taking him down though lol

As for Wen RuoHan’s build, I tend to go with in between bulky and slim. I think most of his strength comes from his spiritual energy. He's not packing the dreamy abs Nie MingJue has hiding under his robes that got even Wei WuXian drooling. But to get to such high cultivation, Wen RuoHan had to have done a lot of physical training, which I picture makes him muscular, but still not bulky. And he has enough muscle that he's not particularly slim, either, although I imagine him having quite graceful hands and a regal poise that give the impression of slender elegance. His calm and quiet confidence belies his strength, and the energy he gives off gives the impression that he’s the biggest man in the room. Sometimes impression really is everything.

So in one way or another, Wen RuoHan and Nie MingJue might each think the other is bigger or taller than him, and neither one is fazed by it, and I just think that’s neat!

#anon #asked from above #wen ruohan #nie mingjue #ruojue #mdzs thoughts

[juminhandfs]

Hantober Day 10

Choir Practice: Favorite song that reminds you of Jumin.

I made a playlist actually 👀

I went overboard and tried to include songs fitting of every significant moment of his life in chronological order, including the bad endings and even when he crashed Seven's car... ending with the Good Ending.

If you are going to listen to this I have to warn you, it has 2 songs that touch on the bad ending 2 and can be triggering for some people: Lullaby from The Cure which is more metaphorical and Prison Sex by Tool whose lyrics are very graphic. Listen at your own risk and take care.

But here I want to talk about the first song on the playlist that sorts of encapsulates Jumin's life and what meeting MC means to him.

The song I'm talking about is Lateralus, also from Tool, which has the particularity of relying heavily on the Fibonacci sequence both in the metric of the syllables and in the meaning of the song. This is a song about grow.

If you have never heard about the Fibonacci sequence, also known as The Golden Ratio, I recommend to you to watch all these videos on YouTube talking about it because is something super interesting!

Basically The Fibonacci sequence is the mathematic that you can find in the nature, which goes like this:

0+1 =

1+1= 2

2+1= 3

3+2= 5

5+3= 8

8+5= 13 and so on...

Theses numbers when put on a graphic look like this: a spiral

A grad student made a video about the Fibonacci in Lateralus for a project and there it's infinitely better explained of what can I do here, but sadly the video was taken down, what I could find is this same video from someone who reposted it.

I want to encourage you to watch it so you can understand better how the lyrics match with Jumin's life:

Black/ 0+ 1 =

then /+1 =

white are/ 2 + 1 =

all I see/ 3 +  2 =

in my infancy/ 5 + 3 = 8

This is like a perfect description of Jumin's life growing up and raised like a businessman, with no place to emotions and creativity

Red and yellow then came to be/ 8 - 3=

reaching out to me/ 5  - 2 =

Lets me see/ 3

Red and yellow could stand for V and Rika. They showed him another way for things to be: these are the colors more vibrant in the rainbow. Trough them Jumin got to experience friendship and love. And they "came came to him, reaching out to him" he didn't went looking out for them.

As below, so above and beyond, I imagine/ 13 - 5 =

Drawn beyond the lines of reason/ 8 - 3=

Push the envelope/ 5 -2 = 

Watch it bend 3

Below, above, beyond: the lyrics are describing the dimensions of a box, that's the envelope to push made by "the lines of reason". Also note how the number of syllables were in crescendo, but now they are descending, why? What is stopping the spiral from growing? What is stopping Jumin? The answer is in the following chorus: 

Over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind

Withering my intuition, missing opportunities and I must

Feed my will to feel my moment drawing way outside the lines

Then we have the repetition of the same verses and the chorus + the following verses

There is (2)

so (1)

much (1)

more and (2)

beckons me (3)

to look through to these (5)

infinite possibilities (8)

The next verse marks the moment the song changes, it stops counting syllables and with it both the song and the lyrics go in an endless crescendo...

Feed my will to feel this moment 

Urging me to cross the line

Reaching out to embrace the random

Reaching out to embrace whatever may come

A thing I haven't noticed, but I do now as I'm writing this is that the voice and the style of the singing also changes here. Up to this point was kinda robotic but here is really soft, in awe, you can feel the sincerity of the singer in his voice. If I had to parallel this moment in the song to one in Jumin's route it definitely would be when he tells you about his threads at 2 am. It's my favourite moment in the whole song, as I imagine Jumin saying those words:

I embrace my desire to

I embrace my desire to

Feel the rhythm, to feel connected

Enough to step aside and weep like a widow

To feel inspired

To fathom the power

To witness the beauty

To bathe in the fountain

To swing on the spiral

Swing on the spiral

Of our divinity 

And still be a human

With my feet upon the ground I lose myself

Between the sounds and open wide to suck it in

(He complained about the noise, remember the standing alone in an empty field? The noise is no longer noise, is "sounds" , "words have a meaning once they reach you"

I feel it move across my skin

(He didn't liked to be touched)

I'm reaching up and reaching out

(He is out of the box, or the cage?)

I'm reaching for the random or what ever will bewilder me

What ever will bewilder me

And following our will and wind we may just go where no one's been

We'll ride the spiral to the end and may just go where no one's been

Spiral out, keep going

Translation of all of this? Why I put it at the beginning of the playlist?

Well...

Because of the heavy trauma he received in his early years, Jumin had to rely on rationality and logic to conduct his life (V called him "scientist" and Rika said she wanted for him to find the perfect balance between emotions and logic). Thus ignoring emotions but also his inner intuition, his gut feeling. (Update after the dlc: Now we know the big part his mother also played in this)

Because Jumin's trauma is in direct relation to his body, Jumin tried to distance as far as he could from it and treating it as a machine ("separating the body from the mind"). He mentions how loose clothes make him uncomfortable "because he needs a constant restraint all the time" (if corsets for men were an item you can bet Jumin would wear one)   which leads to his body speaking to him in the way of symptoms: this symptoms are the headaches, the numbness he says he feels in the dlc, the feeling of drowning, etc...

Basically, his body (wether by his emotions, gut feelings or directly through his headaches and mild-amnesia) is desperately trying to talk to him and Jumin is doing everything he can to not listen to it, because he isn't ready for it yet, because these are years and years of unspoken trauma trying to hit him  at once (this is why therapy is important! Guys!) .

So Jumin rationalizes things: he must be having headaches because he ate something bad, or the temperature in the room is below 2 grades, and V must be distant because he is still grieving, not because he is hiding something, not for what Yoosung is telling everyone. And Yoosung is also grieving, so that's why he's acting like this.

And Rika was V's fiance, so he couldn't have feelings for her

All of this changes when he meets MC: first she doesn't treat him as a robot like everybody else, but as person with feelings and with a right to feel and express those feelings, and second and (maybe) more importantly: she doesn't allow him to project his own emotions onto her (as he did with Elizabeth) thus Jumin doesn't have any other option that confront his own emotions, to recognize those feelings as his own… and this scares him to death, but he has to do it if he wants to be with her.

And this, that this battle is for her and for a future with her, is what gives him strength.

Now, onto the song again, Jumin has to listen to his body to do this, he has to decipher what is trying to tell him "Why im feeling like this?" "Why I acted this way". There's another song, also from Tool ("Forty Six & 2") that goes deeper in this process Jumin has to do "I want to know what I've been hiding in my shadow (...) Listen to my muscle memory"

It can't be only raw emotion because that's the bad ending 2 (or he stealing Seven's car), both mind and body had to work together (or to say it in the words of the song, the body can't be keep separated from the mind) for the well being of the person. And if it's in the natural design of things to tend to expansion and growth, why we'll be different? This is to live riding the spiral: self awareness.

"Swing on the spiral

Of our divinity 

And still be a human"

And the best part of all of these? Once this big rock is out the way? 

Now he can allow himself to feel everything! Both the good and the bad, his love for MC, his friendship for the RFA, and by him now being better, he can also be a better, more honest friend to those he loves. And by being more honest, he can now help them to get on their feet again just as MC helped him, and accept help from them . Without fear.

"We'll ride the spiral to the end and may just go where no one's been"

And that's why I love this song and Jumin Han.

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Note: So this didn't came out as I wanted :/ (that's why I couldn't post it like 1 month ago), but that's kinda of the point of the song I guess? 😅 Certain things can not be explained, only experienced and when you try to dissect them (overanalyzing) they lost something very important in the process. Even the same phenomenon doesn't guarantee the same experience for different individuals... But that's the good thing in the end 😅

How boring life would be if we all experienced the world in the same way...

#literally forcing myself to post this... why I'm so bad with words?? #I hope the general idea is somehow clear?? anyway the beast... is done... Hantober is over! 😵 #I did it!! #for you Juju!! 😭 #mystic messenger #mysme #jumin han #mysme jumin #Hantober #hantober2020 #hantoberd10 #31daysjujuchallenge #jumin #my mysme analysis

[thoradvice]

hey thor, idk how to word this but lately I've been feeling that "I don't fit in" or I'm simply far away from everything. I feel like I don't know where I belong. I don't feel like I fit with my own friends. I never bring it up with anyone because it doesn't really make sense from an exterior point of view, you know? It doesn't look like I have any reasons to feel like this, but it won't go away. any advice on how to deal with this? thank you.

hi, anon. i’m sorry you’re dealing with this. i used to feel like this constantly, and it really is awful.

i want you to know that your feelings are valid and that they do make sense. but also they don’t have to make sense to be real. it’s absolutely okay to feel things that you don’t understand; it doesn’t make them wrong or bad. please know that this feeling will pass. everything negative you’re experiencing right now truly isn’t forever, as cliche as that sounds. you will find people that you know are yours, and you’ll be so loved that you’ll forget you ever felt like this. as far away as it seems now, i promise that it’ll happen. 

as i said, i felt like this a lot, for most of my life. i didn’t really make a friend until i was 11, and then we went to different schools at the end of the year, so i was alone again. it got a lot worse between 12-14 because i developed several mental illnesses too and i tended to have bad friends, rather than no friends. it took me a really long time to get over this - fifteen years, basically, to even start. it’s only recently (i’m seventeen at the end of this year) that i do genuinely feel loved and like i belong. i have wonderful friends & a lovely girlfriend, and it’s mostly thanks to them (+ some growth on my part) that i have gotten over this.

my point is that it’s not going to be easy and it will take a lot of effort, but it will be worth it. i’d recommend looking into cognitive-behavioural therapy, if you haven’t already. it’s most effective with a therapist, but it is possible to perform it on yourself. you basically train yourself and your brain to think differently and therefore eventually move past these negative thoughts. i had therapy before ms rona for anxiety from my school (real therapists are very hard to access for teenagers where i live, but my school is thankfully very good wrt mental health + has helped me a lot w/ accessing what i can) and we touched on this. i was able to apply this to this kind of thinking. it does take a long time to work through, and i’m definitely not “cured” of this way of thinking, but i do genuinely feel a lot different.

i’d also suggest taking a step back and looking at your friendgroup. do these people make you feel good? do they go too far with jokes? do you feel like you can talk to these people? i’ve had quite a few bad friends in my life, and it’s surprising how much of a difference the people you’re around makes to your mental state, especially with feeling things like this. it can be more subtle than you think. my ex girlfriend (+ she was my best friend for a while before we dated too) would usually be fairly nice / pleasant, but a lot of the time she’d be the opposite. she had moments where she’d completely ridicule my interests, where she’d talk about how cute another girl was (this is a trigger for my eating disorder, which she absolutely knew), or where she’d guilt me for various things, usually into staying with her. i didn’t think too much of it, because she was nice most of the time, right? what i’m trying to say is a lot of our friends’ behaviours that make us feel bad can also be very subtle. my ex would also be the kind of person to completely tear into a person - usually me - and wouldn’t know when to stop. she’d blow it off with “oh, that’s just my sense of humour!”. but if there isn’t a clear line / boundary, then it’s not joking - it’s straight up bullying. one of my best friends now has this kind of humour. but the difference is that i know she’s joking. she’s asked me a handful of times to tell her when it actually hurts me, what she can and cannot joke about. that’s the difference, in this type of friendship.

it can be really hard to know where friends / partners become abusive, and it’s only recently that i’ve realised the things my ex said / did was actually abusive. minor abuse, but still screwed up with my perception of healthy relationships. what i’m meaning by this entire wall of text is that your friends could be hurting you without you actually realising it, causing you to feel this way. i’d really recommend trying to keep track of your mood around when you interact with friends - how you feel before, during and after. and keeping track of how they talk to you. do they care about what you’re saying? do their jokes make you uncomfortable? do they let you talk? do they care about your problem(s)?genuine friends will truly care about you and how they treat you. it’ll quickly become more apparent to if they’re being good friends to you or not. 

if you feel like they’re not treating you right, it’s absolutely okay and valid to stop being friends with them. it can be hard and make you feel guilty, but putting yourself first is never a bad idea in these situations. it doesn’t make you selfish or cruel, no matter what you say. i feel that it’s better to have no/few friends than bad friends. i have a small circle of about 4-5 people right now, and they’re absolutely the best friends i could ever ask for. there’s no way i’d trade them for the world, let alone just a bigger group of friends, y’know? 

this is a feeling that’s really hard to get over. i have really struggled with feeling like i fit in for so long, but you can get over it. if you need proof, i can be that. it’s not something i’m fully over, but i do genuinely feel loved and cared about for the first time pretty much ever. you will be able to feel like this too, i promise. i’m proud of you for reaching out about this issue, i know it isn’t easy to talk about. i hope that my rambling will offer you some kind of comfort / help, and i’m always here if you need to talk about this again. <3

#ask #anon #thor gives advice #belonging #friendship

[candisclosures]

2018 year-end reflection

It's time for my annual, sort of year-end tradition where I reflect on the year that has passed and write about it. Aah, 2018. Where do I even begin. You were yet another roller coaster year - a year full of plot twists. This year got me on my highest of highs, and lowest of lows.

I searched Pinterest for year-end writing prompts and I found this:

I feel like this is a good way to look back at the year that has been.

1. One thing I proudly accomplished this year is to finally start my Masters Degree. I've been wanting to do so for the past three years, but I finally did this year - and what's even better is that I got accepted in one of my dream schools!

2. Something I did this year that I will probably remember for the rest of my life is taking a leap of faith. I'm an anxious person, which makes it really hard for me to do things that are uncalculated. When I decided to apply for my Masters, I didn't exactly plan it out just yet. I just decided to give it a try, and look at where I am now. I'm really proud of myself for doing that.

3. This year was really a challenging one for me (though it wasn't as challenging as 2017 when I lost Lola) but the most challenging would probably be what happened during the last week of October. That was my lowest of lows, and it was the first time I cried like that.

4. Hmm. I feel like I really improved in terms of checking up on my friends this year. I tried my best to reach out to my closest friends and check on how they're doing, because sometimes I feel like I tend to focus on myself when we talk that I forget to ask about them. I also feel like I've been more expressive in terms of being there for my family, though it's something that I would also want to improve on for the coming year.

5. This year allowed me to realize that maybe some things really need to fall apart so that better things could fall into place. Amidst everything that happened, I'd like to believe that better things are in store for me this coming year, which is why I would choose not to change anything that happened this year.

6. I have so many learnings this year! But my top 3 would have to be:

No dream is ever too big. Just do what you need to do to get to where you want to be.

Every person you meet or interact with, whether good or bad, will eventually teach you something that would be beneficial for you. I learned this in the midst of my biggest plot twist, and it gave me a different perspective on how I view people. That no matter how good or bad the things they did to me, at least I've learned something from them.

Keep the faith. No matter how bad things may seem, just trust that better things are in store for you.

7. I feel like I lack in this area. I did, however, try my best to be there for my friends and relatives who were going through something. I have friends who went through struggles this year and honestly, I feel like me being there for them is a good start for me. I hope I could improve it next year, though.

8. The nicest thing someone has done for me this year is them trying their best to make me realize my worth when I was clouded with negativity and self-doubt. Thank you, friends.

9. Hmmmm... I think it would be me trying to figure out the career path I really want to be in? I was a teacher during the start of the year, and I was having a hard time deciding if I should continue being in that path or finally pursue the path that I really wanted. Now, I really know what it is that I want to pursue. Though there were things that had to be sacrificed, I'm happy that I'm finally sticking to what I really wanted to do ever since I graduated. Another is that I'm more optimistic now. This is something that I really had a difficulty with in the beginning because I'm naturally an overthinker, so I tend to focus on the negative side of things but towards the latter part of the year, I've learned to be more optimistic.

10. Now THIS is something that I really need to improve on. I didn't get to read much books this year, especially when grad school started but one of the best books I've read (in my whole life also tbh) would have to be The Secret. I didn't get to finish it but it just gave me so much inspiration and power! Law of attraction, yes!!!!!

11. I won't choose a specific person, but it's actually my family and friends combined. They helped me get back on my feet when I was at my lowest point this year.

12. I think one thing that I could have done to make this year better is to be more adventurous. It would have added more spice to this year, but I'm not really much of a risk taker. Let's see this 2019!!

13. I'm gonna tweak this a bit and not limit myself to adjectives. The three words/phrases that would describe my 2018 would be:

A year of plot twists - both good and bad

A year of change

A year full of learning

14. An advice that I would give to myself is for me to hang on and keep seeing the good despite of the things that will happen.

15. I think 80% of my learnings this year will be useful for the rest of my life because this year really allowed me to grow and adapt a more mature mindset when it comes to handling things.

16. I'd give myself an 8. I really admire myself for rising back up from the challenges I've experienced this year. I still have a lot to learn, but I'm proud of how I handled myself.

17. Of course, my family and closest friends are the people I want to celebrate my victories with. They've been tjere for me through my highest and lowest points.

18. I feel like there's too many to mention but my most important goals for next year include the following:

Practice gratitude in everything. Try my best to see the good in every situation

Prioritize my inner peace above anything else. This is something that I haven't given much importance to this year - I've allowed myself to feel crushed in the presence of people who did their best to manipulate others and use their power to downgrade others - I won't let that happen again.

Give my absolute best in everything that I do

Be more present.

Avoid comparing myself with others!!!! I always do this - downgrading myself.

Avoid social media - the cause of some of my demons.

19. The goals I've listed aren't materialistic in nature because for this year, I want to go for inner peace and growth. I'm coming to the realization that the material goals will follow once I'm in peace, so I'm going to work on that first. I need to be in the proper mindset: I AM GOING TO GROW THIS YEAR. I WILL ACHIEVE INNER PEACE AND FROM THERE, EVERYTHING ELSE WILL FOLLOW.

20. One thing I'm definitely going to do differently next year is to be more optimistic about things! Law of attraction is very powerful and I'm going to put that into use. Mark my words: THIS WILL BE A FRUITFUL YEAR. IT WILL BE FILLED WITH BREAKTHROUGHS, BLESSINGS, AND SUCCESSES FOR ME, MY FAMILY, AND MY FRIENDS. ♡

Thank you for all the struggles, 2018! I definitely learned from it. 2019, I'm excited for all the breakthroughs!

[the-belshaw-clan]

When I was pregnant I searched everywhere to find someone who experienced something similar before going to the drs because I didn't want to be that neurotic pregnant woman 🤦‍♀️so I've decided to write my experience in the hope that it might reach and help someone in the future.

First a bit of background: When I was 4 I was diagnosed with Crohn's Disease, for those who don't know it is an inflammation of the bowels which causes ulcers, pain, diarrhea and weight loss. (This list is in no way exhaustive) I was very lucky to not need an operation due to my crohn's and when I hit puberty the dr informed me that I was in remission.

Fast forward 10 years and I'm pregnant with my first child, after a tricky first trimester everything settled down until I was 30 weeks. I started getting crippling pain in my abdomen followed by bouts of diarrhea on a regular basis. I started to feel very weak and tired all of the time, the Dr took blood samples as they thought it could be my crohn's flaring up. The blood samples came back as having a high white blood cell count however they informed me it could just be because I was pregnant 🤦‍♀️ so no insights were gained from that.

I continued to have pain and diarrhea throughout the rest of my pregnancy and at a standard check up at the hospital I mentioned it, they decided then and there that they would induce me in 2 days time (when I was 37 +5) so that they could get baby out before focusing on me.

I was terrified, I'd heard that inductions were extra painful and it meant that I couldn't have the water birth that I desired. It's one thing to know you're going to have a baby at some point but an entirely different thing to have a time and day. I had time to worry and get myself worked up (I suffer from anxiety anyway).

The date came and I was induced, the pain is intense (I won't lie 🤷‍♀️) and I begged for an epidural, something I never thought i'd have, but my little boy arrived without any complications at 38 weeks and weighed a respectable 6lb 6oz.

The abdominal pain and diarrhea lasted for a few weeks then slowly subsided.

During my second pregnancy the abdominal pain and diarrhea started much earlier, at 10 weeks. I was with a different hospital this time and they booked me in for a consultation appointment with a gastroenterologist. My weight was dropping and I was having diarrhea on average about 10 times a day. I was growing increasingly concerned about my baby not getting the vitamins that he required. This time thanks to the gastroenterologist and a stool sample, they were able to confirm that it was indeed a flare up of my crohn's disease, they kept a much closer eye on me and my baby through growth scans after that.

At my 36 week growth scan they determined that baby had dropped below the 5th centile so decided again to induce labour as he wasn't growing as he should, they estimated his weight at 5lbs.

Alex was born at 37 + 1 and weighed 5lb 13oz again no complications during the pregnancy. This all took place a couple of weeks before the national lockdown due to Covid 19 and so I didn't get a lot of support following the birth. 8 weeks after having Alex the diarrhea and pain subsided again and I was back in remission.

This time I'm having regular appointments with the gastroenterologist to keep an eye on my crohns and it seems I'm just one of the unlucky ones who's crohn's gets worse during pregnancy.

So if you have an irritable bowel disease and are suffering more during pregnancy don't listen to those that say that it gets better or stays the same during pregnancy, it can also get worse as my experience has proved. Fight for the care and support you need, you know your body better then anyone. Just don't be surprised if you end up being induced.

#crohns #crohnsdisease #ibd #ibd problems #crohnswarrior #pregnancy #pregnancy complications #pregnancy story #blog post #mumlife #mumblog #new baby #baby

[douchebagbrainwaves]

WHY I'M SMARTER THAN CARRIBBEAN

Introducing change is like pulling off a bandage: the pain is a memory almost as soon as you raise money at phase 2. It's not necessarily bad to introduce more, as long as things are going well. You should always talk to investors, because you've addressed three of their biggest worries. The Impressionists show the typical pattern: they were born all over France Pissarro was born in the Carribbean and died all over France Pissarro was born in the Carribbean and died all over France, but what we mean by it is changing. When one looks over these trends, is there any overall theme? They'll each become more like one another. Even corp dev people like to turn the tables on you. They'll like you even better when you improve your language, but they seem quicker to learn some lessons than others. You usually start collecting money from the most committed investors and work your way out of lower-level abstractions are built in a very transparent way out of the bust, there would be a good idea, and what progress you've made so far.

But most of the difficulty of fundraising, when it's going well, can be quite the opposite.1 You do need to be better tools for writing server-based applications, it will show up there. There's an A List and you want to raise VC-scale funding, and if something great happens, they'll stick with it—something great meaning either that someone wants to buy you, and the de facto censorship imposed by publishers is a useful if imperfect filter. What if you quit your job to start a startup. The closest you'll get to Bubble valuations is Rupert Murdoch paying $580 million for Myspace. This pattern doesn't only apply to companies.2 If you can make it to ramen profitability?3 That sounds hipper than Lisp. During the Bubble a lot of money. Hygienic macros are intended to be the cockroaches of the corporate world.

The organic growth guys, sitting in their garage, feel poor and unloved. And you can tell when you get to the end.4 But if you skip running for a couple years before even considering using it. Not eventually, right now. Though that means you'll get correspondingly less attention from them, it's good news in other respects. In fact, one of the worst experiences that can happen to a startup.5 Most founders doing series A deals would prefer to take half as much stock, and then instead of nagging them in detail, I'll just be able to sustain. Now it's just one of the richer neighborhoods in Silicon Valley in 1998, I felt like an immigrant from Eastern Europe arriving in America in 1900. Ideally when you've raised enough. But they share, along with Ruby and Icon, and Joy, and J, and Lisp, and Smalltalk the fact that they control Google, which initially made money by licensing search to sites like Yahoo. Be nice.

In How to Start a Startup I advised startups never to let any other company offer a cheaper, easier solution.6 The people you find in Cambridge are the kind of programmers companies should want to hire. A List is selected. A language that would make me a better programmer, if it means anything at all, it will be to your advantage to have kept looking, because you'll get better terms. Startups often make things cheaper, so in that respect the cheeseburger of essay forms. Most programmers are told what language to use, at least. What do they all have in common.7 Any investor who spent significant time deciding probably came close to saying yes. Startup I advised startups never to let any other company offer a cheaper, easier solution.

After barely changing at all for decades, the startup funding business is now in what could, at least one partner from the VC fund takes a seat on your board could. Unless there's some huge market crash, the next couple years. Distractions are the thing you can do to keep the founders motivated. If you have multiple founders, pick one to handle fundraising so the other s can keep working on something that isn't released, problems are intriguing.8 A super-angel gets 10x in one year, that's a higher rate of return, the VC would have to get a good job, is a language that would make me a better programmer, if it means anything at all, means a language that hackers will like? Empirically, the answer seems to be the scripting languages of early IBM mainframes. In a list of n things is in that respect they're better positioned to prosper in a recession than big companies.9 From other hackers. The series A investor won't like having all these other random investors as bedfellows, but if it bothers them so much they should get on with giving you a termsheet. Unless you're experienced enough at fundraising to have a plan.

Notes

A related problem that I was there when it was the season Dallas premiered. One sign of the people they want to take action, go ahead.

This approach has not worked well, but I wouldn't say that it refers to instant ramen, which you can't dictate the problem, but that's what they meant.

I should degenerate from 129.

There are people whose applications are perfect in every way, except then people who get rich by buying good programmers instead of profits—but only if the selection process looked for different reasons. They'll have a group of Europeans who said they wanted, so you'd have reached after lots of opportunities to sell the bad VCs fail by choosing startups run by people who run them would be far less demand for them by the Clayton Antitrust Act in 1914 on the blades may work for Gillette, but sword thrusts. There are lots of type II startups won't get you type I startups. If doctors did the same work faster.

How can I make this miracle happen? If anyone remembers such an idea that they probably wouldn't even exist anymore.

What people who have money to spend all your time on schleps, and on the world.

When the Air Hits Your Brain, neurosurgeon Frank Vertosick recounts a conversation—maybe around 10 people.

Greek philosophers before Plato wrote in order to win. Sokal, Alan, Transgressing the Boundaries: Toward a Transformative Hermeneutics of Quantum Gravity, Social Text 46/47, pp. Donald J.

A lot of problems, but those are writeoffs from the rule of law. Now we don't use code written while you were able to grow as big as a rule, if they ultimately succeed. The liking you have a definite plan to have this second self keep a journal, and try another approach.

#automatically generated text #Markov chains #Paul Graham #Python #Patrick Mooney #founders #termsheet #filter #VC #Gillette #change #theme #That #way #writeoffs #self #Frank #neurosurgeon #money #time #things #anything #deals #Brain #mainframes #company #solution #Pissarro #people #languages

[damsoulindistress]

Bits and Pieces of Me

Blog post #3

It was a clear picture, of a girl I barely know. She was someone who everyone thought could be defined but she is far more than that. Her soul is a surprise, fairly unpredictable, her mind is a ticking time bomb of ideas she ought to show the world. She was, she is and she will be. And this is her journey of becoming.

1998- Baby Alive! (Infancy)

It was a rainy day when I was born, on the 3rd of November. Being the second child of two loving parents, I had all the support I needed, from having a happy and complete family, to very supportive relatives and environment. In Erick Erickson's theory of Psychosocial Development, the first stage namely, the Trust vs. Mistrust, I have developed belongingness and confidence to stand my own ground due to the reason that my parents made sure I feel the love and support they have for me. I have learned not just to trust my parents, to my environment and also to myself.

2003- The Great Escape (Pre-elementary Education)

The love and support of my family had prospered throughout my youth, they made sure to stay by my side especially during the times I needed them the most. But as for me, as a child, I wanted to do things on my own, I remember my mom telling me that when I was a kid I always wanted to take a bath without any adult supervision and then doing so I ended up having suds of soap remaining in my body. They have been consistent in being a good role model to me and my siblings. During this time of my life, Autonomy and Initiative (Erickson's 2nd and 3rd Psychosocial Development Stage) were evidently showcased when I was a child. Looking back I never really realized how one thing can affect the other aspects of my life but now, I thank my parents for giving me a strong foundation of love and development growing up. I was even a Salutatorian when I graduated my Pre-Elementary year. I can also see how my family, known to be the microsystem, in the theory proposed by Urie Bronfrenbrenner namely Ecological System of Development, had helped in establishing my norms and values as an individual.

2010- Endings and Farewells (Grade 4)

This stage of my life had been quite a blur for me. But I know that this stage is also a vital part of who I am now. This was the year my parents told me we were moving from Tacloban, the town ehere I grew up in, to Cavite, and it was going to be for good. It was a sad moment for me, I remember isolationg myself from my friends thinking I will make myself used to them not being around anymore. But the saddest news that really hit me hard is that in moving to Cavite, my dad will not be with us, he had to work in Cebu and my parents figured that we need to settle to the environment where we should grow and prosper and not go from one place to another, so they thought it was the best decision to make for the family. In this time of my life, it shows how the exosystem or the outside factors, (one of 5 environmental systems under Bronfrenbrenner's theory) had a huge effect of how we cope up with the things happening around us. In my case, it was not really a good effect especially that I was thinking I can never see my friends nor the place where I grew up in ever again. I experienced what Erickson explained as Inferiority, because at this stage of my life I found comfort and harmony in my teachers and classmates. So, I found it heart-breaking to face the real deal, it totally affected my self-esteem thinking about the acceptance of the new environment I will be at.

2012- Start of Something New (Grade 6)

Two years have passed, but I really found it hard to start all over again. Moving from Tacloban to Cavite affected how I communicate and connect with other people, I wasn't able to adjust really well to the new environment where I'm at. Confusion started to arise given that the norms and the environment itself is different from where I used to live at. The macrosystem, notably the different culture that my new environment showed had a great impact on me as an adolescent.

2016- The Dreamer (Junior High School)

During my junior High School days, I had been with the same people for the rest of my Journey, I was in a Special Science Curriculum wherein my classmates from grade 7 will be the same people until I graduate or move up from grade 10. That really had a significant impact on me as a student and as an individual, this time of my life, aside from my family, I was really close to my peers, which is part of microsystem included in Bronfrenbrenner's theory. Here, it showcases how we are widely affected by family and friends. Looking at this theory, it is really quite accurate especially that I my actions always reflected my immediate family and closest friends. I had a well-defined identity and a clear vision of my goals in life, which is in the 5th stage of Erickson's Psychosocial Development theory.

2018- Life's Lemons (Senior High School)

Ang then once again, I found myself wondering once again, I am very intact when it comes to my values but somehow and as well as my goals in life but Senior High School made me realize how how big my horizons are. I felt that I was always on my comfortzone, that is why I always succeeded in school but I thought, how wipl my life be outside of it, I lack so much skills and knowledge about the outside world, all I knew about was to be good in school. I somehow reached to the point of Role Confusion, which was a total contradiction in Erickson's 5th stage, I found myself wanting to venture out and asking myself my real purpose in life.

2019- Dear Present You

With my confusion in mind and my thirst to venture out the world, I applied in a BPO company after I graduated Senior High School, that moment, all I wanted was to try new things and be independent, all throughout my life, my parents had been the backbone of all my decision-makings, so its was time for me to decide on my own. I had this sudden conflict arising in my chest in entering the BPO industry, given the fact about its questionable environment but I stand firm in my belief that we need to move out of our comfortzone in order to grow and not be containes in the four corners of a room. And that's exactly what I did. Relating it to Karl Marx's Conflict Theory, we have an endless conflict with a alot of things, but mine is always to myself. I tend to think twice and have dilemmas in some of the choices I'm making but what's important for me is that I was able to make the right decisions, and if ever I made mistakes, I was able to reflect and learn from them.

Entering the BPO industry, not only opened the door of growth for me, it also gave a new feeling which I have been trying to avoid all my life, being involved romantically to anyone but I guess I am in the stage of intimacy in Erickson's psychosocial theory. I became more open to dealing with feelings and affection towards the opposite sex, dating, for me, was really out of the picture before, I had trust issues and some barriers when it comes to love and relationships, I was very afraid of my heart being broken but then I met the person worth taking the risk over. He made all my feara and doubts vanish into the thin air, for the first time in my life, I wanted take a chance on someone.

In my journey up until now, I have realized a lot of vitalities about my life. Sigmund Freud's Socialization theory stating that interaction with the environment and the society around us is important to learn and grow, these are huge factors for our development as individuals. These are the high and low lights of my life that are bits and pieces of who I am today, and I believe these things taught me the best life lessons and the greatest achievements in life. So currently, I am in Philippine Normal Uniersity, living the dream while making new ones because I believed in who I was, who I am and who I will be.

[kinrazhopestudios]

3 Things That Might Make You Give Up On Your Dreams - And Why They Shouldn't!

By Asyikin.

Are you struggling in trying to stay on track towards your dreams? I'll be sharing 3 reasons on why you shouldn't give up on your dreams k.

I hope it will bring some light to you inshaAllah 💜

You know when we begin to do something new, like a new venture or something that is outside of your comfort zone, it is very exciting and also very scary, right?

At the beginning, you will feel very inspired, but, when the planning stage turns into the execution stage, somehow you will find yourself wondering.... if you should have started at all in the first place.

Sounds familiar?

Ok in this post, I'm going to share 3 things that might make you give up on your dreams - and why they shouldn't!

💜1. It’s too hard!!!!

When we start ANYTHING new, yes, it is going to be tough. But that means you’re learning lots of lessons. Maybe you are not achieving your goals yet, but, you are experiencing personal growth! And that is super amazing ok.

When it comes to things like building a business, mastering a sport... You will have to go through a learning curve first!

When I first entered entrepreneurship, did I find it hard? Of cos I find it hard! I'd be lying if I say it's so easy to do business. And yes, I learnt a whole lot of personal growth. I can say that I am a different Syikin now, compared to Syikin 5 years ago. I'm a different, better version of myself now, Alhamdulillah!

So yes, it takes time, patience, perseverance, to keep moving forward even when it is hard.

You know, the thing that stands between most people and success is quitting.

So, Believe that it WILL get easier, inshaAllah.

It does gets easier! But only when you make the choice to keep moving forward no matter what.

💜2. It’s just not working. You put in effort but you feel that it's just not working!

This just makes you feel disappointed and discouraged. So from your discouraged point of view, it MAY look like it's not working out for you. Your sales may be down, your bank account may be in the negative, and it seems like everything around you is falling apart.

But what’s going on behind the scenes?

You know we as humans right... we can only see and process a very small amount of information at a time.

The majority of things that is happening in the world are things you cannot see.

TRUST that there is more going ON, than what you see. This is where the faith comes in. Everything can change in a matter of seconds! Insha Allah...

💜3. Others don’t believe in you or don't believe in your dreams

If this is the case, it’s not time to give up ok... It’s time to find a new circle of people you should be hanging out more often with.

You deserve to be surrounded by people who believe in you, people who encourage you, and people who inspire you, to do the things you have always dreamed of doing. Other people's beliefs should NOT affect your beliefs.

For me, when I first started entrepreneurship, many people around me are not supportive cos I am doing something that is out of the norm, instead of getting a high monthly salary.

That's when I learn to surround myself with like-minded people more often. And, Alhamdulillah, it has been 5 years now, and I am still on my way towards my dreams, inshaAllah.

Ok, so go find a new circle of people that are more positive, more supportive, cos having people to support you when things get tough, is veryyy helpful!

Ok so there you go...3 things that might make you give up on your dreams - and why they shouldn't!

I hope this sharing has been useful for you.

Do like and share this post so others can benefit from it too, inshaAllah.

If you are into personal growth, and you're on your way towards your dreams, do reach out to me, cos I would love to hear from you!

Ok, remember, life challenges are inevitable in life - you will face many obstacles during your journey towards your dreams, but no matter what happens, always keep moving forward and stay hopeful always!!

#keepmovingforward #stayhopefulalways