#2 years on this hellsite

[i-did-not-mean-to]

Happy Tumblrversary to me!

Drumroll for the invisible co-host of this blog:

💖My husband 💖

(who's a mathematician, a statistician, and an Excel pro)

𝕋𝕠𝕡 𝟙𝟘 𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕣𝕒𝕔𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕤 𝕨𝕣𝕚𝕥𝕥𝕖𝕟 𝕗𝕠𝕣

Ori (makes sense, he's my fave)

Thorin (still makes sense)

Maedhros (I guess?)

Fingon (I guess...)

Maglor (Where the fuck did you come from???)

Sauron (??? WHAT????)

Fíli (Ah, okay...well...)

Melkor (Nothing surprises me anymore)

Fëanor (Ok, this does surprise me)

Bilbo (??? Bagginshield?)

(Caranthir, Finrod, Elrond share 11! Next would be Thranduil and Kíli)

SAY WHAT???

𝟞𝟚% 𝕠𝕗 𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕞𝕪 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕕𝕤 𝕒𝕣𝕖 𝕖𝕚𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣 𝕥𝕒𝕘𝕘𝕖𝕕 𝕄𝕒𝕥𝕦𝕣𝕖 𝕠𝕣 𝔼𝕩𝕡𝕝𝕚𝕔𝕚𝕥

ℂ𝕒𝕟𝕠𝕟 𝕩 ℂ𝕒𝕟𝕠𝕟 𝕥𝕒𝕜𝕖𝕤 𝕦𝕡 𝟛𝟟% 𝕡𝕖𝕣𝕔𝕖𝕟𝕥 𝕠𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕤𝕥𝕠𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕤, 𝕓𝕦𝕥 𝕠𝕟𝕝𝕪 𝟚𝟞% 𝕡𝕖𝕣𝕔𝕖𝕟𝕥 𝕠𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕕𝕤

ℂ𝕒𝕟𝕠𝕟 𝕩 𝕆ℂ 𝕥𝕒𝕜𝕖𝕤 𝕦𝕡 𝟙𝟡% 𝕠𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕤𝕥𝕠𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕤, 𝕓𝕦𝕥 𝕒 𝕨𝕙𝕠𝕠𝕡𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝟝𝟙% 𝕠𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕕𝕤

ℂ𝕒𝕟𝕠𝕟 𝕥𝕒𝕜𝕖𝕤 𝕦𝕡 𝟟𝟛% 𝕠𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕤𝕥𝕠𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕤, 𝕓𝕦𝕥 𝕠𝕟𝕝𝕪 𝟜𝟝% 𝕠𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕕𝕤.

𝕋𝕙𝕖 𝔸𝕌𝕤 𝕥𝕒𝕜𝕖 𝕦𝕡 𝟚𝟟% 𝕠𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕤𝕥𝕠𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕤, 𝕓𝕦𝕥 𝟝𝟝% 𝕠𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕕𝕤. (𝕄𝕠𝕕𝕖𝕣𝕟 𝔸𝕌 𝕚𝕤 𝕒𝕥 𝟙𝟠% 𝕠𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕤𝕥𝕠𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕤 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝟜𝟜% 𝕠𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕕𝕤! 𝕄𝕠𝕕𝕖𝕣𝕟!𝔸𝕌 𝔹𝕚𝕥𝕔𝕙!!!)

Besides writing, I have posted a few bad artpieces (even GIFS!!!) under "idnmt draws badly", there has been the odd moodboard or graphic, I have started using colourful dividers, gradient titles, and clumsily made headers.

I am just annoying in every way I can think of 😁😁😁😁

Sooooo...commissions anyone? (There have been around 75-80 of those in 2 years as well)

(Also, pshhhhh, I do not want you to come here and laugh at me because EVERY SINGLE thing I've ever said about myself seems to be...erm...wrong)

Lots and lots, buckets and buckets, of love from me to you!

Thank you for making my experience on this platform so enjoyable, enriching, inspiring, and just all around beautiful!

I love you. I love you. I love you!

(My DMs are always open...come talk to me!)

#og post #it's my tumblversary #2 years on this hellsite #LOL #my life #IDNMT celebrates #writing #fanfiction

[hellsite-hall-of-fame]

Wait, girl in red? Are you female??

no i’m a ✨mystery✨

….but actually yes lmaooo

#i’m still a ✨mystery✨!!! #and this blog is like in my head a separate entity of myself as like a person? #lmao but yes #also why’d you phrase is like that anon?? lmao #anyways #alexa play girl in red #ask #the hellsite answers #anonymous #hellsite hall of fame curator’s bullshit #also #I woke up to this ask and was like ‘nope can’t answer bc mystery✨’ #but also then I remembered like 90% of the people on here think i’m like an 80 year old man😭 #which is absolutely hilarious and adds to the lore #but I got called ‘LITTLE MAN’ in an ask #and like 1. that’s absolutely hilarious #2. even if I was a little man why would you call someone that in an ask bc it so hilariously condescending lmao #and so yeah lmao #oh also i’ve literally posted my spotify on here (which everyone should check out and totally not get rickrolled in the process :) #but I put actual playlists at the bottom and those are. like. so wlw #so anyways yeah #alexa play girl in red even louder

[idliketobeatree]

my only resolution for 2024 is to count the times I've been caught unaware of some important information and only learned it from that Castiel saying "I love you" meme

#so far its been 2 times this year #supernatural #spn #castiel #dean #destiel #marcela talks #destiel news #confession scene #its been three years. and its still working #when you just scroll through this hellsite and actually get world events hand-delivered by a clown

[danseofitaly]

had a fnaf lore thought today about Henry and William and Will’s motives for killing Charlie and Sammy being a bit more in depth than they are in what we’ve been provided in canon

we all know part of William’s motive was because he was jealous of Henry still getting to have a family after losing his own, but also consider Henry’s part in this

when William lost CC and Elizabeth, he was torn to shreds obviously, but Henry must’ve gone into shock too, leading me to believe that he would be running on autopilot trying to take care of everything in order to let Will grieve over the death of his two youngest

from Henry’s perspective this is a pretty normal way of different people dealing with grief and loss and shock and whatnot, but to William? he’s angry. he’s so angry because he lost the kids he loved so, so much. he’s angry because he feels at fault for it. but he also feels angry because Henry has spent less time comforting him and trying to sympathize and more time trying to deal with lawsuits

this is the deepest and most destructive pain Will’s ever felt in his entire life, grotesque and heart wrenching, and all he can see is Henry being more worried about legal issues than caring for his best friend. Henry’s trying his best to balance everything and not break, and he knows Will is too incapacitated to handle business, so he’s doing what he thinks would be helpful. But William’s mind isn’t wired that way. Rather he takes it as betrayal, and thus begins war.

Henry’s kids are dead. “Who would do something like this?” and Henry doesn’t know he knows. Eventually he confronts him, he’s devastated, but not quite in the way William was. he didn’t want to exact revenge. He was just in shock. And once he’s broken Henry down to his core, ripping into him about how he “didn’t know how to care and didn’t want to bother”.

Henry is destroyed, and all William can think about is “finally, some real sympathy from a real friend”.

tl;dr I don’t know I just think Henry and William’s arc should be more intricate and emotionally driven than what it’s shown to be in canon past the basic “oh no you were my best friend but I’ve been struck by tragedy and now I’m jealous that you have something I don’t so I have to destroy the thing you love because if I can’t be happy then neither can you” trope because despite their limited appearance in the actual shown canon events their backstory is vital to the plot of the series and I would love to see that elaborated on in depth

#silly little fnaf thoughts at 2:45am #finals are coming up and I actually get to go home and visit family tomorrow so between stress and excitement I can’t sleep #college is making me think about and overanalyze everything except what I’m in college for #audio engineering? nope. all fnaf #I love all this silly little nightmare lore #there’s a 50/50 chance I’m gonna wake up in a few hours and read this and it’s going to be incomprehensible #in true fnaf lore fashion #but oh well #also not sponsored by creed’s human clay album #wash away those years inspired these thoughts spontaneously #alright that’s all the brain thoughts I’m gonna spill onto this hellsite for a while now bye love u❤️🥰 #fnaf #william afton #henry emily

[i-can-even-burn-salad]

Dead darlings tag

I was tagged by @winterandwords to:

Rules: Share a part of your writing you love that got cut for the greater good. It doesn't matter if it's a line or a paragraph. It doesn't matter if you might work it back in. If it's not currently in a WIP and you want to share, please do.

Hm. Most stuff gets cut out because I don't really like it, or it's just one sentence in the middle of something. This one here was kind of nice, but I removed it when I streamlined his thoughts about his past.

It's from Till Death (Ebook | WIP Intro), who would have thought. Also, because I don't think I have the graveyard documents of the others anymore.

He couldn’t stop his thoughts from wandering back to the last time he had felt this empty. To being pinned beneath a pile of rubble, his leg crushed by the weight. To the girls, one bleeding heavily from a head wound, one impaled on a broken plank. To his magic, wasted on his own, non-fatal wounds, despite his best efforts to stop it and focus it on what was important. He might have lost his leg. He would have given it, but his magic had never obeyed him. For as long as he lived, he would never forget the blood on his hands, and the terror in their eyes, and the crushing realization that he wasn’t enough.

It's funny; I usually remember the first draft in much more details than the edits, so I have no idea anymore how it turned out in the end.

I'll leave it an open tag for whoever wants to do this.

#salad-tag #Dead darlings tag #so my last tag was ignored by all the people I put in #and I spent a day or two wondering - did they see it #did it even work #should i ask #and i just do not have the mental capacity to play another round of #did the hellsite fuck up or does everyone hate me :D #so open tags it is #(chances are it'll appear in notifications 2 years from now)

[sharkneto]

It's my 11 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

#i started this blog... on *new years* #happy eleven years on this hellsite 2 me

[dreambones]

Two years since I decided to move blogs, who wanna help me celebrate by rebloging lots of my art and video games? :D

Pretty please, I keep getting mostly followed by bots and the occasional human, I would love to finally reach 1,000 before this year ends.

#2 year tumblrversary #tumblr milestone #Dream talking #just random #Tumblr #Hellsite

[gayemoji]

"hey doc my periods are fucking debillitating agony like i want to kill others or myself they hurt so bad" 'yeah thats probably normal; its called pms' there is just simply no way you can convince me this planet. this life. this world. is real .

#like its crazy that i can say 'everything is awful #and there are sudfen changes to my cycle after years of setting expectations p solidly . #and also ! family history of endometriosis.' #they can just hear me say ALL that and without even taking my fucking temperature they can just say 'yeah its just pms. #have you tried ibuprofen?' #like . girl . you cannot be fucking serious . #this all happened months ago and it still makes me livid and also my periods . seem to only get worse each cycle . #so yknow maybe im due for 'THE IBUPROFEN 2 YOU GAVE ME ALSO DIDNT WORK CAN I JUST HAVE THE PILL AND BE DONE WITH THIS?' appointment. #uterus trauma #m #suicide mention #bad idea to openly journal on the hellsite but here we are

[bigassbowlingballhead]

Do you know that once on Twitter they invalidated my sexuality (Im a lesbian) because I praised Taylor's physical appearance? It was bad, I feel safer here ❤️

because you're a lesbian you can't appreciate taylor's body?????

what???

#every thing i hear about twitter makes me so glad i left that place 2 years ago #hellsite (derogatory) #box talk

[tiredclownpossum]

According to my calendar, today is my Tumblr anniversary!

#this hellsite feels like home #cant believe it has been 2 years! #2 year tumblrversary #tumblr anniversary

[sairitaikutsu]

honestly about time i made an actual intro post for my MAIN lmao 💀

i did have an “about me” thing on my blog but screw that, i’m doing a 2024 edition

Hey everyone! You may call me Sairi :)

On this side of the internet, I’m mainly an artist and fanfic writer, but I also do a lot more than that.

When I’m not doing things for fandoms I’m in, I’m a musician. A music producer, specifically, but I recently started getting into songwriting. I also like to play MK11 and Minecraft when I can, which is fairly often.

You’ll find a lot of things on this blog, but currently I’m into: Salt Raiders, Mortal Kombat, Star Wars, and the MCYTber Ashswag in particular. (may edit this as i go on in life)

I’m just someone on the internet who happened to have too much time to grow creatively. I hope we can get along :D

OH and another thing: my ask box is always open!!

This is also probably a bit unnecessary, which is why I put it under the cut, but I have youtube and twitch channels! My YT is Sairi Taikutsu and my twitch username is taikutsu_peep. I don’t post or stream as often as before due to school and life in general, so until I can get myself to stream or work on videos, they’re basically dead for the time being 😔

Other links to my socials can be found here!

OH almost forgot i run a salt raiders-centric blog that u guys can check out —> @local-salt-raiders-fan

#intro post #finally after 2 years on this damn hellsite #a proper intro 😂😂 #salt raiders #ashswag #mortal kombat #star wars #fanfiction #minecraft #mcyt #mortal kombat 11 #mk11 #musician on tumblr #artist on tumblr #writer on tumblr #youtuber #pngtuber #small streamer #ask me anything

[hellsite-hall-of-fame]

can you stop trying to be funny and post unrelated stuff and just reblog the famous posts like you're supposed to

unfortunately I cannot

I did create the “the hellsite answers” tag so it can be blocked if you don’t want to see asks

but there are other blogs that I think only reblog posts (like @worldheritagepostorganization and many others that I can’t think of at the moment) that you’re free to follow if you prefer that

#ngl 2 years ago this would have made me cry lmao but it didn’t so I call that *growth* #no but the cursed asks and color of the sky shit is hellsite-y af and brings me joy #but when I do answers asks I make sure to also reblog a post that same day because yes that is the point of the blog #but I do apologize if it’s annoying and you’re not alone because lots of people do unfollow when I answer asks- as they’re free to do #which you’re absolutely free to and i’ll slow down on the asks but won’t stop because i’ve been answering random asks since the beginning #(like legitimately i’ve done this since I started in 2019) #but I do very much apologize but you’re free to not follow me if it’s not what you like from your legendary post provider #there are many many others out there more worthy than I #ask #the hellsite answers #anonymous #hellsite hall of fame curator’s bullshit

[gyuhanniescarat]

It's my 2 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

#my 2 year milestone celebration event will be announced soon 🔜 #be on the lookout for the deets #get me off this hellsite #jk jk y'all won't get me outta here 🤣 #2 year tumblrversary #jessi's rambles #jessi talks ✉

[unspuncreature]

happy valentine’s day autistic aromantic gay poly people in my phone ✌🏻💕

#i didn’t know i was any of these things until the last year or so and i am learning 2 love myself #as i learn ways to express love for and experience love from my most beloved people in my life #wahoo :’) #anyway even if you don’t match anything of the above and we are very dissimilar #i still think we are alike enough to share space on this hellsite together #i hope you have a lovely day thank you for helping make this life one i can love :o) #scout.txt

[sevenfails]

*throws this* shitpost be upon ye

(I kept promising myself I’d come back to this to correct some of the lip syncing but let’s be real it’s never gonna happen so have it just take it free me from the burden of artistic expression via low quality anime memes)

#the case study of vanitas #vanitas no carte #I made it before season 2 was a thing you can tell how much of a perfectionist I am #also ya I relate to vanitas #perfectionism wise but also wanting to be dicked by a handsome vampire wise #oops did i say it out loud #Ive been on this hellsite for 15 years and still I have no idea how to tag #can you tell #vanitas memes #I have two more of these rotten fruits of fandom labor saved up #might upload later

[onlyblackcoffeez]

yeah so next time i'm at ois's i'll definitly see if he'd let me try another of his meds just to see whether it's a fluke or not lol

#like he doesn't take them daily as he's meant to so he always has a surplus #Usually he just uses them until they run out and then fills the perscription - its not something he does every month on the month yknow? #and yeah he has been v open to my trying it out since i told him about my suspicions #well.. after the first time i told him & it was a lil bit of a shitshow but that was bad reactions on both our parts & we're over it now lo #he even said that like yeah #given that a common tester is seeing how you react to the meds #whether you go 'zoom zoom get a million things done in 20 minutes' or 'hey i can do these tasks with less pushback now' #and yeah i'm certainly not zooming #like hell i'm still on the conclusion i've been writing for the past couple hours #but its just easier to get it done #idk i'm rambling sorry lmao #a n y w a y i took it like 2 hours ago and it's a normal-speed release as far aas i'm aware so i'll probs just work on this for a lil while #like what i'm currently working on was due wednesday gone at 3pm (so like 49 hours ago here) and apparantly you lose 10% every day late #but i've had this lecturer for two other modules previous years and she never docks marks for lateness and i did a great presentation #for the module so here's hoping <3 #well that was certainly a tangent lmao #me talking into the little hellsite (affectionate)