#.... that feels weird to say but it is true

[cloud-based-and-rainpilled]

I’ve been highly confused as to why Michael “deeply openly thirsting on Twitter about David Tennant for half a decade” Sheen is half-in half-out the closet but apparently Wales is absurdly homophobic lmao what the fuck how is a country the size of New Jersey that much of a hater bruh we out number the shit out of you

#i thought googling ‘how to say gay’ in welsh would be funny but it just made me sad #i knew the uk in general had a problem with trans people but WOW it’s fucked up in wales like. there are 8 of you what are you doing #i feel bad now lmao #wales #my weird welsh hyperfixation has taken me places let me tell you #cymru #homophobia #gay #lgbt #lgbtqia #good omens #bbc staged #michael sheen #i thought he was just ‘oh i’m quiet about my personal life’ but that’s not even true like my man’s probably actually scared #what a fuckass country lmao awesome #uk politics #united kingdom #david tennant #what is it with this tiny ass island taking over the world and being shitty lmao and this is coming from an american #bisexual #<- bisexual gang gang feel bad you fuckin haters lol #yes the whole world is homophobic i know etc but it’s like outrageously bad out there apparently #stay mad that i think nationalism is dumb ‘how dare you ever have an opinion you american’ #you’re white you are not going to like where the power + privilege argument inevitably goes

[oddly-casual]

Fiona and Cake spoilers seriously

(Something I noticed abt Betty and Simons relationship)

I love Betty and Simon’s relationship, I think their back story is so cute and romantic and all that lovely stuff don’t get me wrong.

But there’s this under tone of Betty constantly giving things up for Simon and we don’t really talk about it a lot???

Like, Betty let Simon have his moment with the artifact and the pubic, she also doesn’t go to her trip in favor of going on an expedition with Simon. Then when she goes to leave again she stays for Simon.

Even Fiona is like “you went with her on the bus?” And Simon just looks all confused like “what? No, why would I do that?” Like- hello???

Then after that she gave up her entire life and mind to get Simon back to the point where she literally says “I don’t know who I am without him anymore.” And that just sucks! Since the beginning Betty has been the one giving up the most, her mind, her own possible career, and it’s a story of love of course and it’s very sweet but it’s also a story of sacrifice.

Their love wasn’t a perfect solution, it was already sort of imbalanced when it started and I lowkey love how we see those cracks even before they’re together.

Again, I love their relationship and I think it’s sweet. I just think we should talk about Betty’s side more, especially when she tells a story of what most women do in relationships, sacrifice.

#fiona and cake spoilers #fiona and cake #simon petrikov #betty grof #It made itself really apparent in these newest episodes and I couldn’t stop thinking abt it #like Betty idolized Simon before they formally met so of course she was gonna drop everything to go on that expedition with him #but it was more after that too like she was going to leave to study in Australia but Simon stopped her #and Betty’s a grown woman she can make her own decisions #but even Betty’s friend was like ‘don’t make her miss the bus!’ because Betty had a real opportunity to do something else #and maybe It’s that true love trumps all or what ever but the way they frame it in the show feels weird to me #like Why have Fiona ask if Simon got on the bus with Betty if it wasn’t important??? #the way Simon responds feels weird too he responds like Fiona doesn’t make sense when asking that question #BUT ITS VALID Like why wouldn’t you encourage Betty to go off and maybe start her own career?? #or just go with her?? like she gave up stuff to go on your exhibition why wouldn’t you return the favor??? #and obviously Simon doesn’t do this on purpose I’m not saying he did #he didn’t guilt trip or force Betty or even ask her to give up these things to be with him Betty did all that on her own #i think it’s just interesting the way the show frames their relationship #like Betty gives up a lot to be with Simon in Fiona and Cake and in adventure time too #but she idolizes Simon and after Simon becomes IK she’s chasing after the man he used to be #meanwhile everyone learns to live with who IK is now it was just Betty who was clinging to Simon the whole way through #obviously they love each other and respect each other but I think Betty idolizing Simon didn’t just stay when they were kids #or college students or what ever it keto’s going even when the world ended and Simon became Ice King #this is was so much more than I planned on writing-

[creatrixanimi]

Was Ingo a true tumblr sexyman???? (Poll)

Ok so i have seen many debates over what makes a tumblr sexyman and i want to know what the consensus is on Ingo's sexyman status. Here are some points of discussion to think about:

is he weird-looking enough?

clothing/silhouette

tumblr sexyman vs blorbo vs babygirl culture. which one fits best?

personality. are tumblr sexymen required to be fucked up freaks?

was the fandom insane/horny enough to qualify him as a sexyman? How inexplicable was his fandom popularity/portrayal?

popularity in terms of scope and legacy. And do other sites cultures count? ex. jpn fandom on twit

twink death????

And to anyone who may come across this and don't know anything about Ingo, feel free to vote based on visuals alone lol

#warden ingo #subway boss ingo #submas #pokemon #poll #im curious to see what people think #personally i feel like he overall qualifies but warden ingo was a little bit more of a popular blorbo rather than a true sexyman #ingo classic would absolutely be a sexyman imo but i think warden ingo was overall more popular on tumblr fandom so its hard to say #also this isnt a competition im just curious to see what ppls thoughts are so the poll isnt designed to maximize votes into any category #sorry if this is formatted weird this is the first poll ive made lol

[yunmeng-jiang]

that man does NOT think of wei wuxian as his gege

#jiang cheng #wwx #twin prides #i have a whole post about how they both think of themselves as having an older-sibling role #but even if that wasn't true jc still always calls him by his full name and the one time wwx tried to call him shidi jc yelled at him #their relationship is not that simple! it's a huge thing that wwx occupies a weird in-between role in their family! #he's definitely not a servant but also definitely not a full member of their family and that's super important to the story! #even if jc WANTED to think of him as his older brother he would need to get past seven layers of trauma to even realize he wanted that #and then he would have to admit it to himself and then work up the courage to admit it to someone else #and even then he probably still wouldn't say it to wwx's face #sure yanli calls wwx her didi but things are much simpler from her point of view #plus she's one of those people - like lxc - that can hold an opinion deep inside herself and be at peace with it even if it conflicts + #+ with what the world says and what she's been brought up to believe #jc is not like that. he internalizes way more from the outside world and if he feels conflicted he just kind of implodes #he's spent his whole life being told that wwx is not his equal and is someone to compete against #and also secretly believing that wwx is eventually going to abandon him because he doesn't think anyone truly cares for him #plus wwx treats him like a bff who is also a liege lord rather than a beloved younger brother #he would Not form a secure attachment to wwx lmao #it also really annoys me that when people write/conceptualize him as someone who thinks of wwx as his real gege + #+ they tend to completely erase jyl and minimize her importance to jc. he HAS an older sibling who he trusts unconditionally and confides + #+ in and takes comfort from! that person already exists! and they ignore her in favor of the protagonist #it also really bugs me when they have him mourning wwx those whole 13-16 years but don't put in a single word about yanli #this kind of turned into a rant about jyl... i have a lot of feelings about her especially since i'm the oldest sibling in my family #anyway. that man does not think of wwx as his gege #haterade #(kind of)

[supercalime]

Honest question, why do yall care? I mean, if it’s real, good for them but like, this feels so gross. I’ve seen how fans treat them like characters, they deserve all the privacy they can get, relationship or not

#also looking back there’s a lot of signs that it is fake #I’ll list them if anyone cares: #first the shipping has been weird specially from the perspective of assuming Shayne’s sexuality #he’s been saying he’s straight since forever and court is enby #so doing so you’re actively trying to out him #Courtney would never wear a dress like that #also court would do something with their hair #those photos look like all the photos Brennan takes #the engagement one was probably shot in the same day with a shitty phone to fool yall #there are literally no pictures of them inside a venue or with anyone else #the only people sharing stuff are smosh people #those pics have already been edited and to edit wedding photos it takes a long ass time #it wouldn’t be possible to have them ready by Monday if they married on Friday #they’ve wanted to have the podcast to reach a certain amount of views in 24h #and what better way to do so then to lean into the parasocial babies who can’t diferentiate real and fiction? #anyway #I feel bad for them #if I’m taking out of my ass here and the marriage is true #they deserved privacy #they deserved to not have every interaction they had not be analyzed #no one should have to hide a relationship in fear of public response #lety rambles #shourtney #shartney #shortney #Smosh #Courtney miller #shayne topp

[nightgoodomens]

I will just say this. No famous person with huge following would put it out there that two of his friends who he works closely with are very much in love if it wasn’t true. He could have said so many things but he chose in love.

#NightGoodOmens talks Michael and David #you can love someone platonically #in love is a completely different feeling #don’t you think it would be a lil weird for him to say that if it wasn’t true #I mean come onnnnnn #what else you need

[spitblaze]

I'm not at all an expert on gender studies but if you're interested in it at all I HIGHLY recommend you look into oppositional sexism as an issue because I feel like I can see into the fourth dimension of queer discourse now

#spitblaze says things #we SAY that gender is a spectrum and not a binary! and it IS a spectrum! #but too many people still view it as a binary on a social level #like yes your *gender* can be literally anything but what about your *experiences* and *privileges*? those get shoved into 'men' and 'women' #and a lot of people are under the impression that these experiences are Entirely Separate and Cannot Be Compared #which just isnt true! #i feel like we're sort of seeing a weird assertion rn that masculinity in and of itself grants privilege #as in. butch women have some sort of nebulous privilege over femme women #which is uh. not true but DOES come back to oppositional sexism. masculinity makes your experiences inherently different somehow #but it DOESNT

[skunkes]

Your post about loving to study the beauty of the human body as well as wanting to love someone male while also be them is something I've been feeling for the past few years tbh but I've never heard someone put it in the exact words I use before. I think it's also because when it comes to topics like that I also feel embarrassed trying to explain a melded and complicated but beautiful emotion that doesn't have a word for it other than imagery in my mind

Sorry for the random soul post in your inbox but I get you! And that makes me happy

Also you're art is very cool and holds the very idea of human warmth and love within keep it up

responding to the compliment first, thank you!!!

as for the rest, yes! In the past I've definitely understood "love someone so much you want to crawl into them because hugging and physical intimacy isn't enough" as well as the usual "do i wanna fuck them or be them 🤪" sentiment floating around,

but it's not until very recently that I pieced together the, "well, what would I do if I literally got my hands on another [human being]. I'm not sure it would be enough to just Behold a [beautiful human being], I also want to be a beautiful [human being], but in the way this [person] is, which is. Unlike the way I am. Different from how I am. (In the many ways that can be interpreted)."

Which is adjacent to the "crawling into them", and adjacent to wishing I could be desired in the same way that I desire, and then directly connected to the way I am being genuine and casual when I say I love looking at and am in awe of the human form, but it's so very easy for that genuine love to slip into that intense and strange enthusiasm to map out, touch, explore, examine, open, crawl, meld, Be. Be!

#skunk mail #Anonymous #(all metaphorical of course; im not chopping anyone to pieces) #<- also actually saying this genuinely and not in a sneaky sarcastic way #im not chopping anyone to pieces AND i understand healthy boundaries. i obvs wouldnt actually just get weird with somebody #in such a vulnerable state. its meant more playful. you are human im human i dont feel human i want to be human #i want to touch you human i want to be you human. human like you. not human like me. #is it enough to admire you when i so badly want to be a human of your appearance...in some ways general and some ways specific... #...your usage of the word ''male'' also rings true. for some of this. augh. #long post #long ask #Another way to describe it is: I have made many posts about my feeling of isolation from my alleged hobbies... #it's never enough to just collect beautiful art from others or marvel at someone's skilled Print Making #How do you just admire? I want to do it too. I want to do it too. #and also i am looking back and forth from the dynamic with talon wrt these sentiments #scratching my neck and looking nervous #🌺

[themthistles]

i think that while micro labels can seem useful and affirming ultimately they're isolating and kind of an obstacle to your understanding of self. that's because you can never find a word specific enough. there will never be a label or two labels or even ten, twenty of them to perfectly capture and describe all of your thoughts, feelings, experiences, preferences, needs, interests, identities, etc. because you learn more and more about yourself every day and then you change and your wants and needs change with you. having to hop between labels, fearing that you don't 'fit' into a label anymore (both in your own and others eyes), worrying how soon your current label will wear out, questioning if you'll ever fully fit a single one. all that causes a lot of uncertainty and anxiety which could be avoided by just picking a more general thing and molding it according to what it means to YOU. because words will always mean different things to different people, you will never be understood immediately and maybe never completely by anyone but yourself and that's fine

#another thing is that micro labels often feel like they fracture the community unnecessarily #idk how many times i've seen fighting over hyperspecific ace labels and what they mean and if people described in them even belong #and honestly i think this discourse wouldn't be so vile and neverending if people accepted the idea of falling under general umbrella #and accepted that you can't describe complicated weird and wonderful act of human existence with a couple of words #you don't need to explain yourself to anyone #i know in our present pronouns/sexuality/gender in bio carrd era it feels like you have to but you really don't #people aren't entitled to a short summary of your inner world and you can't speed run connection #also feel the need to say: i have nothing against people who use micro labels #if you feel like your micro label describes you perfectly? i'm really glad and happy for you #i'm just expressing my own thoughts and feelings that come from personal experience with exploring these things #at some point i started doubting if i could call myself a lesbian #i thought oh i'm not exactly what a lot of people generally think of when they hear that word #oh they'll misunderstand and i'm not being my 'true self' i'll find a word that fits me exactly if i just keep looking #and then i found out being aroace is a thing and boy did that add a lot of anxiety and confusion to the pot #i didn't feel like i fit in with both communities wasn't lesbian enough wasn't aroace enough #but at some point i just got tired of trying to justify myself to others and to myself #identities aren't houses you live in they're more like seas or rivers flowing into one another #and spaces where they intersect are vague and hard to define and they shift and change and this metaphor is getting away from me #basically #words are complicated #but they're the only direct way we humans can communicate #it is what it is #so make art #a lot of it #oh also unrelated but if you ever tell older queer folks that they're using wrong words to describe themselves i am going to jump you

[authenticcadence18]

I miss the person I was a year ago. two years ago. more social. happier. doing more creatively.

#ya girl is just sad today #yelling into the void bc idk where else to yell #I was so much happier this time last year #even tho I have really good things in my life rn #I just think about like #April 2023 me :( #or! #fall 2020 me #she was living in constant covid anxiety sure #but she was also having the time of her life writing phinbella romance and sharing it with friends #now I haven’t updated that fic in nearly two years #and there’s friends I just don’t see much of anymore #which is no one’s fault that is just how life is #but it just aches #I just feel so sad #or 2021 me #she was posting so much art!!! literally living it up!!!!!!! #now well I mean #my newest pnf piece has gotten close to 500 likes on instagram which has never happened with my pnf art before #so that’s really cool #but I just #ugh #at least I have TTPD #I feel so disconnected from people which is the true reason I post art or fic or whatever #even tho I have lovely friends who I adore!!! they just feel far away #which isn’t anyone’s fault it’s just how life is and my own weird perception of the world #anyway #all this to say I do have a chfil chapter in the works still #maybe finishing that will heal me lmao #cadence rambles

[strangesickness]

losers playing ttrpgs... losers playing ttrpgs save me...

mike is running a multi-year homebrew ttrpg campaign that is basically just a combination of any rulebook the losers can get their hands on + anything they come up with. i know it to be true. the campaign started as a call of cuthulu campaign but it is now a terrifying mix of call of cuthulu, dungeons & dragons, and cyberpunk with elements from a dozen other games including star wars: the roleplaying game, warhammer, harnmaster and somehow alma mater(??? idk how. but i know this happened). richie was like. "mike man, i love you forever, you're great at this. but why don't i have magic powers?" and he pointed at ben's collection of d&d rulebooks he'd been browsing through and he sounded so earnest and excited that mike knew in that moment he was going to sacrifice the integrity of his cool mystery campaign so richie could cast vicious mockery (99% sure vicious mockery didn't exist yet... don't quote me on that but it doesn't matter because the idea of richie using it constantly is hilarious)

they've all been playing the same characters for years and they keep convincing mike to add more stuff so they're all like super powerful and mike keeps having to come up with more and more powerful enemies.

mike's dice collection is so so so cool he has so many dice, and whenever he introduces a new important character he goes out and gets dice that fit their theme and it is such a moneysink but it's worth it because ooooh pretty dice

after four occasions where the losers decided to adopt a random npc mike hadn't planned anything for, mike has started planning every single npc out down to the specifics of their childhood education. he has endless character sheets hanging out in his room with characters he's created that populate his game world.

okay hanbrough agenda time: bill is the most oblivious guy in the entire world. i know this. (he is the guy who looks at brokeback mountain and goes "what do you mean it was gay? why can't men be friends anymore?" this is based on that one passage at the beginning of the book where he goes on one of those "why can't the curtains just be blue because they're fucking blue" rants lol. he does not know what media literacy is. to me) and mike is. increasingly frustrated and feels like he's losing his mind. he is like head in hands because he asked bill to go to prom with him and bill was like "yeah sure man! sounds great, you're my bestie forever!", and he has no idea what to do, because how is this man this dense, so he just starts having all of his NPCs fall head over heels for bill's character and flirt like madmen. it is painful for everyone involved. except bill. who still has no idea what is going on. that is a very unfortunate month.

mike and ben hang out a lot and ben helps mike brainstorm for the campaign so ben has all this insider knowledge and mike will just look at him before something insane happens in the campaign. they'll like make eye contact and ben will be like holy shit holy shit holy shit :0 and mike just drops some insane new lore. it's very special to me.

#i know it might be like. why isn't ben or bill GM? they're the writers! #but like. idk it just fits. watching mike in it chapter 2 gave me so much unhinged GM energy #that man can spin a TALE. i know it. i also know he can improvise like crazy #they finish a session and he's like. btw guys everything after like the first hour was improvised i hope it didn't feel to awkward #and the losers are like... wdym you didn't perfectly plan all of that????? #bill could not run a campaign to save his life. he does not know what chekhov's gun is. he does not know what nuance is. #he would be trying to run a campaign and the losers would do ANYTHING even slightly off the hyperspecific plan he made #and he'd start trying to railroad everyone and everyones just getting increasingly stressed #basically it would be a bad time #that man can't do improv i know it in my heart #ben on the other hand is a massive ttrpg nerd and has run multiple one shots with the losers #he's not big into long campaigns like mike is but he loves coming up with new campaign ideas #he also collects ttrpg rulebooks and is always looking for weird ones to try out with his friends <3 #they all have so much fun doing character creation with ben too. it's great. #i'm not done with this btw. i have so much more to say #i love ttrpgs and a party is the highest level of friendship. this is true #my high school best friends were literally just my d&d party #and cyberpunk (the ttrpg) is how i made friends in college lol #posts afflicted with a strange sickness #it stephen king #it 2019 #it 2017 #mike hanlon #bill denbrough #ben hanscom #hanbrough #richie tozier

[phoenix-clan]

been thinking a lot about the structure of the comic lately and i wanted your guys' opinions on this:

#i think maybe i've been trying to keep everything categorized like this when realistically it doesn't totally make sense #with how i have been drawing the comic it means more eventful chapters (like 4) get up to 30+ pages alone! #where smaller parts like 5 and 1 only take a handful of pages #so i wonder if the numbering was ever even necessary at all #idk i wanna hear ur thoughts on this :) ur the audience so u should get a say! #feels weird to call y'all the audience but it's true 😅 #also if ur wondering i didn't go with a moons-based system bc 1) i thought rveryone did it so not doing it would make me stand out #and 2) the kits were young enough that i figured they had yet to be taught how to calculate when a moon passes #so not using the moons system was like. an indicator that the fire not only took their family and friends but also their culture #anyways YES please let me know ur thoughts! #max moment

[fluentisonus]

while we're talking about it though that's something really fundamental to spock's character I think in a way I don't always see discussed, that by joining starfleet he's making the explicit and intentional choice that he'd rather be seen as a perfect example of an alien amongst humans than as an imperfect vulcan amongst vulcans. I see this framed a lot as him being more accepted in starfleet than he was on vulcan, and I really don't think that's the case at all: he's still very attached to vulcan, and we see all the prejudice he has to face and how little he's understood in starfleet. but what it comes down to is that he'd rather exist in a place where no one understands him and so he has nothing to prove -- even if that means being very alone -- than in a place where he's surrounded by the familiar & meaningful but everyone can see the ways he can't quite fit. if that makes sense

#obviously in the end he's not alone bc he has them all but that was never a guarantee or even something he could have hoped when he joined #thoughts #star trek #tos #I don't like how the vulcans are treated in a lot of discussions around spock imo. there's a weird angle everyone seems to have that he's #better off with humanity & with humans that I think is simply not true #like I'm not trying to deny that he had it rough there or say that they were always kind to him but this impression of them all as rigid & #xenophobic is a bit. eh #part of the reason he feels like he can't be on vulcan is because he was raised w vulcan culture & traditions -- which he stil follows! bc #they mean a lot to him -- and he feels like he can only do that all properly away from vulcan #which obvs isn't really a great solution either #but I think a lot of people misunderstand the whole learning that emotion is okay sometimes from tmp as retroactively justifying that #humans were right about emotionals & vulcans were wrong. which is like the opposite of the point. the point is that he can have both #& they don't have to mutually exclude one another and he can be a good vulcan while also being comfortable with being half human #he wouldn't be happy being human either. #and there's nothing inherently harmful about vulcan beliefs he just had to come to an understanding of them that made sense to him #& that worked for him rather than forcing himself into a misunderstanding of them that didn't suit him #anyways.

[coquelicoq]

uhhhh just opened my christmas present from my grandparents and it's...a rape whistle?

#what is it with this family and weird presents!!!!!! #'at least it's not a used dildo' <-true and relevant thing i'm saying to myself that is not actually making it any better #like who goes 'i wonder what this person would appreciate receiving as a gift for the holiday of christmas' #and thinks 'ah yes i know. a rape whistle!' #i feel like this is the sort of thing that a person buys for themselves #or maybe they receive as part of a self defense class or something??? but just getting one unsolicited is kind of bizarre #i guess it's good they sent it by mail so i don't have to figure out how to react to it in front of them

[piosplayhouse]

Not going to get involved in the ao3 politics shit but I just want to say after reading some of the top posts on this site I can tell most of the people talking about this subject very clearly did not experience Sexytimes With Wangxian

#honestly though despite how you feel about rhe big topics i havent seen much discussion about how The Candidate just... doesnt seem #experienced to be working that position at all? just objectively reading her interview she says she has NO experience working online #even communicating with slack or such; self proclaimed fandom newbie etc #like I can't tell you what to think about the big issues but like if you wanted to hire someone to work at your local dog shelter #and you interviewed them and they said they only really just started interacting w dogs and they had never had any experience #with dealing with caring for animals at all or the adoption process.. would you hire them lol #anyway just my 2 bits #ao3 #ao3 discourse #also hiding this at the very bottom of the tags bc i dont want to catch heat but i actually dont think people are aware so just to qualify #the rpf rhat got ao3 banned in china was not about a real life minor . i see a lot of people talking about minor rpf and i think its weird #as shit too personally but just to get facts right the rpf that allegedly sparked the ban was about a 30yr old adult man #idk if that changes anything but just putting that out there #oh ok also im getting intel that the reason the fic was mass reported and ao3 wS subsequently banned was because the fic #featured one of the actors as trans. so thats a frightening addition if true

[palin-tropos]

“Children have a natural grasp of the dialectical method; whether it arises from obstinacy or playfulness, the sudden declaration of “Opposite Day”, and an insistence that thenceforth all immediate paradigms must be turned on their head, is a common rhetorical device found on playgrounds or in classrooms…”

- Ignus Nilsen, A Guide to Raising Revolutionary Children

#am I joking or not #actually when I was a kid I made up this game I really wanted to play with people #and would bug my family about it #where they would say a statement that’s true and I would try to find a way that it wasn’t #and then we would have to make it more true and thus harder for me to find an exception #like: the sky is blue - the sky is sometimes gray or black - the sky is blue on a clear day - but not on other planets #and that feels at the very least adjacent to dialectic #maybe i was just a freak #also maybe it isn’t adjacent to a dialectic but it’s just my own weird ass method that also works somehow