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effervescentdragon · 11 months

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i saw @mssr-monagato reblog this and i couldnt resist 🙃

"- and we have time before the next race, so I was planning on - cher, are you listening? Hmm."

Charles isn't listening. Pierre lowers his voice nonetheless. Walls have ears here, and it is unwise to tempt fate. Or how underpaid people in general are.

"I was planning on fucking your brother, except not the one that flirts with me to annoy you all the time, but the other one, the hotter one, and this isn't working because you're not even registering a word I'm saying, are you Charles?"

Charles isn't listening. That is proven when Pierre reaches for him and physically stops him in his tracks as they make their way through the corridor after the interviews. Charles turns to him and gives him a bland, practiced smile. His lips are bitten red. His eyes are looking almost through Pierre.

"Charles. What's wrong?" Pierre asks seriously. His eyes drop to where Charles bites his lip, then licks it. A nervous habit he's had ever since they were children, that rears its head whenever he kniws exactly what's wrong but doesn't want to tell. It comes right before Charles starts to lie.

"Nothing, Pear. Just thinking about, uh, Arthur's practice session later." He smiles. "I hope he does well."

The problem is, Charles is a really bad liar. Oh, he can manage well in front of the cameras, and in the interviews. Pierre thinks it's because he compartmentalizes to an unhealthy degree. Lorenzo thinks so too. They've talked about it a couple of times, but neither of them could find a way to say that to Charles that he wouldn't misunderstand. Pierre thinks Lorenzo's suggestion of unleashing Arthur on him may actually be their best bet.

That isn't the point now. The point is that Pierre knows Charles, and knows that Charles is lying about something that hurts him in some way, and that it has to do with Pierre. He also knows they're in Monaco, and that this is very important to Charles.

Pierre is unwilling to let Charles sabotage himself. There's enough shit out of his control already, and Pierre refuses to add to that burden.

He looks around and spots an emergency exit. Before Charles can even react, Pierre pulls him towards it. Charles startles, but followd, only squeaking a little. Pierre checks for the cameras and sees none. He makes a mental note to have Andrea check anyway, and then presses Charles into a wall.

"Cherí," he whispers, and Charles' lips part, an unconscious reaction that always makes Pierre feel three metres tall. "What's wrong?"

Charles purses his lips. Pierre knows he's thinking of lying again, but he also knows Charles isn't counting on Pierre knowing him better than he knows himself.

He pushes his knee in between Charles' legs and presses his thigh to Charles' cock at the same time he starts leaving little kisses on Charles' cheeks and neck. "Come on," he says, enjoying the way Charles grabs his shoulders to hold on, "tell me. Please, cher?"

It takes Charles less than a minute to fold. It helps that Pierre plays dirty, rubbing against Charles, feeling his cock stir against his thigh, feeling Charles' moans more than he hears them, their chests pressed together. It also helps that he knows exactly where on his neck to nibble to make Charles lose all coherency.

"Lewis," Charles gasps out. Pierre freezes, then moves away to look into Charles' face. His cheeks are pink, his eyes flitting around nervously and unless he stops, he will bite through his lip before quali comes around.

"What." Pierre states more then asks, because he doesn't get it. Charles meets his eyes, though, and then he realizes. "Oh. Oh. Charles," he grins, "were you jealous?"

"No." Charles replies petulantly. His pout gives him away. "No, you're making up - no, I wasn't, Pierre, just... shut up."

Pierre can't help but cackle in delight. "You were. You were actually jealous of me talking to Lewis, oh my God, Charles..." he trails off, because Charles isn't laughing. Shit. He really is an insensitive asshole sometimes.

He pushes back into Charles' space and raises his chin with his finger until Charles has no option but to look him back in the eyes.

"I'm sorry," he says sincerely, putting all his conviction into his words. "I'm an asshole, and I'm sorry. But Charles, you have to know, it's not like that."

Charles stares at him, gauging his sincerity. Finally, he breathes out. "I know. I just..." he trails off, and Pierre doesn't neex him to elaborate.

"I know," he says, because he does. "I know, calamar. But you must know it's not - I love you," he emphasises, and pushes his thumb into where Charles' dimple is when he's smiling. It only takes a moment for it to form under Pierre's finger, and Charles' eyes shine brightly when he chuckles.

"I know. I'm being stupid."

Pierre hums. "Not stupid. Silly," he says, but his voice is gentle. Charles can use all the gentleness this weekend. God knows he won't afford himself any. "It's alright."

Charles nods, and they are, and for a moment they just breathe with each other. Then, as if by an unspoken signal, they both realize they're pressed against each other in an empty staircase and that nobody is looking for them. Pierre smirks. Charles' eyes are full of mischief.

"Come here," Charles says, and pulls at Pierre, and then they are kissing, and Pierre forgets about everything for a moment.

It's okay. That always happens to him, when he has Charles in his arms.

#pear: okay but sharl. baby. sugar. its LEWIS #sharl: ... yeah no actually i get it id wanna have his warm lovely eyes on me all the time too. and his lips and -#pear: ... omay well now EYEM concerned #ANYWAYS #this was supposed to be more playful but i went for gentle #now im rly going to sleep actually #GOODBYE #effervescentdragonwrites #my writing #f1 rpf #piarles #its always monaco

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ladysomething · 5 days

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"Until I think I can trust you, you’re not getting this door back.” I AM BROKEN. MAXIE. The fact that Charles thought he'd be hurt and this was his punishment 😭

This whole CHAPTER BROKE ME ALREADY??? AND I JUST KNIW THAT ITS JUST THE BEGINNING OF THE ANGST AND HURT??? Charles thinking Max is this mean abusive alpha but him actually being the complete opposite the whole time is sending me. Like my heart hurts for Charles situation but it BREAKS for Max??? Having to almost play this character and having his Omega believe the worst of him 😭 I'm just. And I'm ANGRY AT CHARLES. Lying about Max treating him that way. I'm a MESS. I love every. single. word.

honestly they are both just in the WORST position!!!! I feel bad for both of them, because everything they're doing and saying is so understandable (if you know the real reason behind everything), and yet the only people they're hurting is each other.

Max is literally taking away each and every one of Charles' freedoms, piece by piece, and he hasn't told him one single reason why. Max KNOWS how much danger Charles is in, and yet hasn't even bothered to tell him.

Whereas Charles can never see anything but the worst of Max (not that Max has ever given him a reason to look deeper) and is now just outright doing whatever he can to a) get away but also b) torment Max.

They're both digging their own graves.

#anon ask #lestappen fic #where you go i go #wygig: max #wygig: charles #wygig: the great war

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godza · 6 months

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if anyone cares ive regressed back to my obsessions from age 11. its not as bad as it was but i am sadly thinking about it again. lyric blast YOU WERE WAY OUT OF LINE NOW YOURE WAY OUT OF TIME SO TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT ON YOUR TOMBSTONE COME ON COME ON WOAH DONT YOU TELL ME TO GO SAY IM THE ONE SSSORRY SIR WE DONE SCUSE ME DID I JUST STUTTER WONT TELL YOU WHAT YOU KNIW THIS IS THE END YOU WERE NEVER MY FRIEND YOU WERE NEVER MY YOU WERE NEVER MY LOVER

#t #obviously i dont like the charicature of this song but you have to admit it slaps #redacted cant draw altered my brain chemistry sorry

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negativepeanuthoarder · 7 months

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i know that was tagged as a vent post so maybe you have your reasons but Who is out here saying reading only fluff is bad. fanfiction exists for fun if you don't wanna read angst you don't have to. sometimes u just need the comfort its like chicken soup for the soul if ppl are saying u can't only read fluff thats a them problem

I know I’m just a little self conscious about not being able to do anything angstier than a basic hurt/comfort. Like I KNIW bruises is good but I can’t put myself through that. I’m not stable enough rn.

#Asks by peanut

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beloved-diary · 8 months

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My girlfriend is very sweet. An i really do like them but i know im fucking up the relationship my just my fears afrom my last relationship. To be fair i think its expected of me. Personally if course that would happen. Is it fair, no. Is it a realistic thing people who suffered from an abusicr relationship? Yes. ,(its very odd calling it abusive btw. I was aware to an extent. But its weird having someone whose in the system/close to my ex call it that. I really appreciate it. It feels very validating.) Sometimes i feel punished for being wary, which is something they also feel an i get.

Not that i think their my ex, just that this stuff has been pretty fucking ruined for me. Regardless dating her or someone else definitely this would of been an issue. Which is smth i feel like is slightly overlooked. Not that i blame them. I think it's understandable an im just trying to comfort them about it. I made them cry when they talked about it an i wanted to fucking kms. I feel sorry on making my partner cry about such a thing.

Though i do think wanting to hold back financially an doing??? Service?( unsure of the word rn) is not something that is bad to ask. When i said that it got a fairly bad respond an it makes me just feel a bit shitty. An question intentions. An i know shes not using me. But i also dont understand why it had such a bad response. I need to rebuild my savings. I need to not do as much as i did kn the last relationship. At least in the beginning of ours. I really want it to be mutusl. Not because rheir my ex, because im just setting myseld up for disaster if i do.

She told me before to prove im serious about her an not going to break up with her after 3 weeks an mentioned my situation with M as a reason. I'm not gonna cry to much about it. I do plan too. But i feel majorly miss understood about that. I love M an i kniw he does too. But sometimes its just a bit to much hearint how he loves my ex an how my ex is a good person, even when i tapk about it. Its glazed over, veey much ignored. Not that i blame him. Just that i don't think its insane of me to think that. Maybe our circumstances our different. But i dont think i should be punished for holding everyone to a standard of friends an having respect for me an others. Especially about my situation. They have been understanding regardless. But i hate the lack of ??? Understanding an processing sometimes. For most of mt relationship with all kf them my feelings an my struggling has been overlooked. Because well i suppose us first mentallily which i get. But im human an it really hurts regardless. Im your partner, im your friend, im your besfriend. But i feel a nagging feeling that despite them actually loving me I'm just lower on the tier. Their love for him ir suppose loyalty will always come first. Which sucks. But i suppose i really walkeed into that. I unfortunately do not have that built into me as much an i wish i did. An im also jealous that hes able ti have such people in his life. An they saw this. The whole time. My gf says he's abusive, that i was abused. Yet its only something hes doing something about it NOW. It feels like now that they like me romancally they care enough. Which really fuckinh hurts an confuses me. An its been a thing of telling me to be quiet about it. Which i get. But it's a bit insenstivd. Be the bigger person. He's just a kid. I'm hurt, very so. I think theirs consequences an i don't like the sheltering.

An thats not just them. Its everyone. Unsure why the people closes to me are content with this. Is he jusr more likable? Which im sure is D's reasoning too lol. It's nothing new at this point. Do you think I'm actually abused? Or are these words to just appease me? You say thinks but actions don't line up. I really hope things are different. But she's mentioned breaking up an it just feels hopeless.

I'm gonna fuck up .y dream girl with my issuas but. I don't think its a lot to ask for.

#zombie tag #an not that I'm innocent completely I'm always fucking shit up #i hace done my fair share of harm but do i think there is an extreme difference? absolutely yes #it ki.da just makws me feel crazt

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violentdevotion · 3 years

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Why the Moz hate? I'm not saying I disagree with you, just wondering what your reasoning is.

Hes a raging racist and islamaphobe who's gone on stage wearing a "Britain First" badge and has been appealing to his skinhead fans since the 80s. As a brown Muslim I kind of have personal stakes in it when someone so publicly wants me gone. He also has said some anti-black stuff, stuff about #me too and idiot politics in general that I'll link, but the above is more than enough reason for me to hate him and want him dead.

https://www.latimes.com/entertainment-arts/music/story/2019-10-24/morrissey-anti-immigrant-white-nationalist-hollywood-bowl

https://www.theweek.co.uk/92990/morrissey-interview-five-most-controversial-comments-by-the-smiths-singer

https://www.independent.co.uk/arts-entertainment/music/news/morrissey-interview-far-right-for-britain-racist-brexit-nigel-farage-a8973276.html

https://www.nme.com/news/music/morrissey-fire-appearing-wear-britain-badge-2485776

[can reblog]

#hey thanks for asking nicely this isnt me attacking you or anything i genuinely get it if you dont already kniw this stuff is hard to access #since hes been irrelevant for so many years you probs wont google 'morrissey islam' for fun #and dont get me wrong ive listened to a few smiths songs before i knew he was racist and i STILL have 2 songs saved. despite him wanting me #dead bc music is weird and you cant let go of attachments if theyre there already #its just i also wouldnt simultaneously advertise his music and frame him as a dark academic when the mans the stupidest person on earth and #would probably resent being anyway associated to anything 'dark'er than paper #this is free to reblog btw in case you learnt smth #im not the most literate (ironic ik) when it comes to stuff like this but morrissey also isnt a quite racist and white boys who have blm in #their bio will still frame him the figuregead of british music and values #ask #silasmiser #morrissey #the smiths #TO CLARIFY!! i didnt know about the anti black stuff until after looking for articles to link #so when i say the above is more than enough reason that isnt me dismissing the anti black stuff or pretending it isnt as bad its just to #because i hated him before knowing that stuff and i think that hatred is justifiable without the stuff i learnt later #the later stuff just makes me want gis death to be slow #ameeras.got.mail

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softshouyous-archive · 6 years

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#nsksssjsmsmskskskssksns #thinking.... about.... going back... to therapy...........#it's been a little over a year since my last session and its honestly felt like so much longer #ive realized how lucky i was when i had my first therapist because the three after her were like....#ones i didnt click with at all... and it made me realize how important it is to have a /good/ relationship with one and how it affects your #sessions and your growth etc #like... even though i can easily open up like... opening up to them felt so weird and awkward #not saying they werent good at their jobs we just didnt click #and like... im really tired of searching for therapists #i saw those three all in the span of like. three months sjskks #school therapists are kinda :/ because we can only see them once every 2 weeks or even more... and it just feels so inconsis... and its hard #er to build a bond thst way.... but u kniw that if i dont keep trying then ill never find one #and i need to /stop/ comparing any therapist i see to my first one #and like i know i wont be able to see her for a long while because i got in contacr w her again recently and she working with a totally #different kind of group who knows where #and like... i tried searchinf for one on yelp and i found one half an hour away by bus #and thats not bad and ill see if they take insurance #but like i dont know i do care and want to work on things and myswlf but i feel like ive lost the motivation i used to have :///#i feel like i see myself not going or not wanting to and like. not caring to go and being late. god #and those are things i want to work on too...#this isnt going to be easy but... it should be done #:/#sun texts

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strawbnetwork · 3 years

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You need to listen to the George one! It's soooooi good

I KNOWWWW IM LISTENING NOW!! i was missing out 😔 i just have this. mental block where i cant listen to new things unless i Know what to expect and what I'll think of it so i just put it off for ages BUT, again, legally obliged to listen to tommy featured podcasts so NOW im like. Wait this is Good. Must listen to allllll of it bc now i know its good

#new things bad they make me anxious 🥺🥺#anyway #🥺 157 feeling quirky n smashing an already smashed plate #can karl go live btw whats going on rn #godddd i jsut. i LOVE hearing friends talk to each other and hang out esp the fb 😞#tommys live was actually everything btw everyone joining call and all reacting n hanging oht holyyyyt shit #i was like THISSSS is epic. george needs to never say that phrase ever again btw its wormed its way into my vocabulary #LAST THINGanyone else Love the way george says. Nno like extra emphasis on Both the N and the O #like he sounds like hes thinking abt it but u kniw hes not hes just like that #strawb.asks

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steampoweredskeleton · 3 years

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#delete later #i am #worried #that the only reason im ticcing is bc i need an excuse to put off doing uni work #i know im not consciously choosing to tic bc ive been tunning experiments (e.g on good tic days telling mysekf over and over to tic #and on bad days telling myself over and over not to) but im still terrified im making it up #im terrified itll just go away abd ill never kniw what it was. im terrified itll stay forever. im terrified there's something wrong with my #brain or nervous system. I've beeb trying to normalise it to myself so i can start functioning somewhat but im terrified again #i feel like its not a good enough excuse to delay uni things bc i can still technically function if i make myself #its just painful and so hard to concentrate. and im so scared. i cant get away from it bc its always there. ive settled into a pattern #now that seems to ne consistent. regular head tics. two types mostly. one to the left abd one to the left tben right.#popping sound is a regular tic that goes with the head twisting. saying doot doot has crossed from stim to tic and thats annoying #its still a stim but ill also tic it. also humming tic. my left hsnd tics regularly too #tic attack tics are loud humming and leg kicking out and head tics every few seconds #normal days range from that to ticcing once or twice an hour #its been two months. im so scared. i dont know what to do. all i can do is wait and try to do things as normal but its almost impossible #theres nothing i can do and it is the worst thing. make it stop. i want it to stop. nothing else please for gods sake.#dyou know the only way ive found to calm my tics? lying down. my head has to be fully supported. i cant do anything like this.#i cant work like this. god i hate it i hate it. i need it to stop please please please.

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altruistic-meme · 3 months

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Updates in bookbinding:

BOOKPRESS!!! yes it's kind of bad bc it's 2 $5 cutting boards from walmart and some screw c-clamps but im EXCITED to have smth better than. a large stack of books piled on top of each other.

currently being pressed is Scared to Live (But I'm Scared to Die) by @major816 bc its what i managed to get to the printing stage first! I'm gonna be sewing tomorrow since I'm only working a half-day so wish me luck with that :')

and for printing stage... well...

let's say I've had quite a time figuring that out

something something my printer was only like $40 and among the things it lacks, including the ability to actually do printing on both sides automatically (I could cry)(actually I did cry), i have also learned it likes to do scaling when printing in booklet :) which is why I've been having such a difficult time with the huge margins and tiny fonts and printing 2789 signatures trying to fix the issue as you can see above :)

with Scared to Live, I did the typeset for it which meant I had a lot of ability to edit the original document in order to fix the issues presented by my printer, which meant ultimately there were only ~6-7 test prints to fix it.

Even In Another Time by @irregularcollapse however. well. she did the typeset herself and shared it and i have spent so much time staring at it bc it's so pretty and i adore it. however that meant I only had the pdf version and pdf is infamous for being basically uneditable. which has been fun.

outside of staring listless at my computer, I also got help from my dad, and then help from a family friend who does printing semi-professionally (among other things), and we Still Didn't Kniw What To Do. eventually I caved and got the adobe free trial and FINALLY I fixed the issue. So yay! EIAT is next to be printed, possibly tomorrow or over the weekend :)

now i need to find a place to recycle paper. bc I have So Much.

#also need to look for a place to trim the edges bc quite frankly i dont think ill be able to without fucking up my nice paper #which i am Unwilling to do #also phlegmatuc when you see this i know i couldve asked you and we mightve been able to work it out #but aside from the many pages of paper and ink and the much frustration i mostly wanted to figure it out #in case i run into the same issue again later when i cant just ask the person who made the typeset!! and i did figure it out so im happy :)#tho idl what ill do about having to pay for adobe.... maybe ill just pay for like. a month at a time when i have to fjsjjf #or ill just try and make more of my own typsets. we'll see.#anywho #<3 #shh ac #adventures in bookbinding #big post but also! big updates and im happy and proud #also also i acknowledge that a LOT of binders - especially early on - have book presses like this so im happy with it

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raven-at-the-writing-desk · 2 years

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Hey miss raven! I respect you so much for the fact that you keep the reader gn in order to include everyone! I truly wish everyone who writes for twst (and really any other fandom) would do the same. Just wanted to let you kniw i appreciate you ❤️

Its my first time writing to a blog off anon (cuz im shy 🤭) but its worth it if i get to say this to you :)

Hello, and thank you for coming off anon to offer your valuable feedback! ^^

I believe that one’s (general) sense of identity is of extreme importance. It is how you define yourself for others, to the world, and even to yourself. Gender, of course, is not one’s entire identity but one of many factors that make up one’s identity.

The gender continuum is admittedly something that I’ve had to personally educate myself on over the years, whether via my own academic studies or via personal experiences and those of friends or family. I will probably never personally know what it is like to question my gender (as I am comfortable with what I am now), and I will probably never understand what those struggling with their gender are going through (the same applies for other traits, such as race and sexuality)... but I can empathize with the feeling of “not being included” or “not belonging”.

I know it feels really bad to be left out, forgotten, or treated like an afterthought. It’s like being picked last for a group project or for a sports team. Everyone else in that group or team seems to already know each other, and the “last person picked” has a hard time integrating because they’re just... different. They don’t “fit in” with the rest. Now magnify it by a large factor; that’s how it feels when the team or the group you’re lumped in with is society itself placing its “norms” on you. When I think about that, well 💦 that’s kind of what prompted me to make the switch to writing entirely gender neutral reader inserts a long time ago! I don’t want anyone to feel excluded, you know?

I want to be clear to any content creator reading this: It is not my intent to shame anyone who chooses to write gendered works; I am just explaining my own reasons for choosing to write exclusively gender neutral for writing requests. Writing gendered works is fine, it’s just not something I personally choose to do. At the end of the day, it’s up to every individual content creator what they wish to do for their work and how they wish to do it.

To those who do write gendered readers, please consider tagging your works with the correct genders so it is easier for people who identify with those genders to read them (or, conversely, so it is easier for people who don’t identify with those genders to avoid them). At best, reading a piece with improper pronouns takes a reader out of the story. At worst, it can cause genuine discomfort and even trigger distress (such as in cases of gender dysphoria).

#tw // gender dysphoria #twisted wonderland x reader #twst x reader #twst #twisted wonderland #advice #disney twisted wonderland #notes from the writing raven #feedback for the writing raven

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inessencedevided · 4 years

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There's been a lot of cql/mdzs atla-au posts going around lately and I need to add my take.

Because I think a lot could be done with Wei Ying as the avatar.

Imagine the story goes similarly as in canon. He is the son of traveling benders. Maybe Cangse-Sanren is a firebender and Wei Changse a waterbender. They get killed on some mission and he gets taken in by his father's old friend and leader of the Yunmeng water tribe. (This reminds me a lot of kyoshi's backstory, too.) He raises him a long his own children, his daughter who takes to healing more than fighting, and his son who likes nothing more than fighting.

Wei Ying already showed signes of being a waterbender, so they train him, even though he is the son of a former servant. He is, of course, more talented than any other of their students, even Jiang Cheng. Madam Yu still hates him for it.

At some point, they let all the children of the sect take the Avatar test. He passes. Occurs, they don't tell him until he is 16, so he doesn't know. Madam Yu dies though and her hatred for him for upstanding her son only grows. But Wei Ying is happy and loves them, much like in canon and, much like in canon, he is also convinced that he is deeply indebted to him and always brings more trouble than he is worth.

When they tell him he is the avatar on his 16th birthday, he is shocked and scared of his responsibility, but doesn't show it. He laughs it off and tells everyone he is glad because that means he can see the world and doesn't have to annoy madam yu anymore. He only shows cracks to his cheerful facade when they tell him that he has to leave the very next day. That means he will miss Jiang Cheng's birthday. When he tells Jiang Cheng's this, he gets angry and tells Wei Ying that clearly he is very important now and why not run off to the other sects, see if they will put up with him. He refuses to say goodbye after that, so it's just jiang yanli and Jiang fengmian seeing him off.

He goes to king Nie first who is the most renowned earth bending master of their time. He is unyielding and harsh, but unbelievably fond of his younger brother, who mostly uses his bending to sculp intricate and detailed statues. Wei Ying likes him instantly.

Next is fire. He doesn't like the fire lord who greets him and treats him like he is royalty himself, but in a way that makes Wei Ying's skin crawl. He does like the shy boy in his group lessons and his older sister. Wei Ying is good at firebending, even though it should be his natural enemy. Maybe it's his mother's side showing itself though.

Then of course, to complete his training, he needs to learn air-bending. He gets to Gusu and immediately dislikes it there. They are monks and they live like it, too. There are rules regulating every waking moment and the sleeping ones too and he vows to break at least half of them. By now he us 20 and he'll be damned if he lets himself be bossed around like he's 12 again.

He is greeted by their unusually young leader and his uncle and brother. He expects the uncle to be his teacher, but no. Lan Xichen explains that the honor of training the Avatar will go to the youngest air bender to ever become a master, his brother, Lan Zhan.

Okay, Wei Ying thinks, he can live with that. At least a teacher close to his own age should be fun, right?

Wrong!

Lan Zhan is strict, reticent, unyielding and punishes him for every single infringement of the 3000+ rules. He scolds Wei Ying for not taking the enormous responsibility of being the avatar more seriously. He never smiles and never praises him with more than a "passable".

But he is a challenge. One he is good! The best opponent in a fight Wei Ying has had since he was 14. And there is something so fun at making him react in even the slightest way! Also, his ears blush when he is angry and it's cute!

The first time, Wei Ying uses something other than air bending in their training fights, Lan Zhan is furious (Undisciplined!). But tge second time he grots his teeth and fights, really fights Wei Ying. He holds his own again a 3/4s-trained avatar for more than 30 minutes until Wei Ying let's him get swallowed by a whole in the ground that he than seals with a thick layer of ice that will take him way to long to slice open with air bending.

After that, their relationship evolves. It's more of a mutual rivalry, rather than just Wei Ying needling his air bending teacher until he snaps. After a few months, once Wei Ying has progressed beyond the basics (he can fly now! He loves flying! How can the Lans be so serious all the time? They can fly!!!), Lan Zhan introduces him to musical air-bending. Through bending, they can use the sounds to heal and to hurt, amplify them at will or direct them to a specific direction. Lan Zhan demonstrates some techniques on his guqin and then plays a song, though he refuses to tell Wei Ying its meaning.

Wei Ying picks a dixi. He takes to music like a fish to water and soon he is declared a fully trained air bender. His last night in Gusu is when it happens. News reaches them that Yunmeng is under attack from the Wen sect, who have been annexing more minor territoires for years. By the time Wei Ying gets there Lan Zhan at his side, Lotus Peer is burned to the ground. They barely get Jiang Cheng and Jiamg Yanli out, helped by Wei Ying's old friend, Wen Ning. They make it Wen Qing, who takes one look at Lan Zhan and tells him to go because Gusu is next.

(The wens knew where the avatar was abd where he wasn't abd chose their attacks accordingly)

Lan Zhan rushes back (alone. Wei Ying has brother to get back from the brink of death) but he us too late, too. Cloud Recesses is burned, his father dead, his brother missing and he is taken prisoner.

The war happens almost like in canon. The other heirs are taken hostage and given lessons as to how to behave towards their occupiers. They escape through the stupidity of Wen Chao.

I don't think that there'd be a burial mounts though, nor an equivalent to the list golden core. you can take someone's bending but i want Wei Ying to remain the avatar because:

In his desperation to beat the seemingly almighty Wen and his grieve for the Jiangs who took him in, he devices a plan. A) he goes to Lan Zhan and asks him if musical cultivation might help him to learn how to control the avatar state. He says they can try. They do try and after a while, Wei Ying reaches that state. And B) he rensacks the world for scrolls on blood cultivation.

When they advance on nightless City, he is ready. No one kniws his plan. Even Lan Zhan only knows of his having learned to control the avatar state. He needs the element of surprise and he needs it when he stavds in front of Wen Ruohan.

So he waits. By the time he stands face to face with Wen Ruohan and his army, the floor us littered with corpses.

Wei Ying, in front of his brother, Lan Zhan, everyone goes into the avatar state and with the power of all his former incarnations, bebds the blood of every single corpse, as well as every single Wen soldier to turn on Wen Ruohan and then each other. It's a massacre.

When he comes to it again, there is silence. And then cheers. Everyone cheers for him, even though blood bending has veen outlawed for ages. He won them their war though.

Everyone cheers, everyone but Lan Zhan.

They fight after that, a lot.

(I helped you enter the avatar state. You could have died! - my problem, not yours! - You desecrated the dead! What about their spirits? - what about their spirits? I'm the avatar, i can deal with them! - the avatar state is the sacret link to your past lifes ... - My past lifes, yeah Lan Wangji! Let me decide what to do with them. - Wei Wuxian! - Lan Wangji.)

They part on bad terms more often than not.

So when knews reaches that the Jins, a notoriously rich noble family in some corner of the earth kingdom, has taken Wen citizens, civilians mostly, for slave labour, he goes alone. He is furious, more so when he realises that his friends are among them. He enters the avatar stare involuntarily and has the blood of all present Jin soldiers boil in their veins. Wen Ning is almost dead, but he uses his bending to circulate his blood in his body until he can get him to his sister. She is in Lanling after all, having married their heir.

Now because I love Jiang Yanli, in this au, she plays a bigger role. She saves Wen Ning and shows them out of Lanling.

They flee to a part of Qishan that was all but destroyed during the war and then used as a mass grave for the Wens wei ying himself killed, the ones whose spirits Lan Zhan had warned him about.

And the workd turns on it's Avatar.

The avatar is supposed to bring Peace, stand for balance and justice. Not choose a handful of people to protect at all costs.

But Wei Ying thinks, this is just! The world is full of greedy rich people trying to outdo each other for power, so isn't protecting those who suffer from it through no fault of their own justice?

Now, this could go two ways. Either, in a plot more similar to mdzs, the spirits Wei Ying disturbed abd that he is now living on top of, betray him when the rest of the world finally comes to ambush him (cue Lan Zhan trying g to protect him abd falling from grace himself. And the eternally yearning because he list his chance. the avatar is reborn ofc and Lan Zhan vows to protect them because Wei Ying is still a part of them, but they aren't Wei Ying. They are a completely different person and Lan Zhan never loves again.) DEPRESSING

So, let's go the atla route. Wei Ying goes through a spiritual journey, similar to Korra, gets the Wen remnants rehabilitated, makes the right people see sense and basically does the whole Avatar shitck of first finding peace within himself in order to bring peace to the world. *waves hand*

He confesses to Lan Zhan. They adopt A Yuan. Cue kiss in front of a glowing sunset and "The End" displayed to soaring music.

Admittedly, the second ending needs more flashing out, but it's late,so if anyone wants to have a go, feel free :D

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