poemprincess22

[poemprincess22]

MOON

Small girl.

Big world.

A whole universe.

I know nothing about.

When we go.

Do we know.

All of the answers

We never used to before?

I stare up in awe of you,

Beautiful moon.

All the constellations are out tonight.

I take a few breaths.

Grateful to have some left.

So thankful for this life and the night sky.

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[poemprincess22]

FLAT LINE

Put my happiness in your hands

And you dropped it.

Came to the realization that the only one

I can depend on is me.

You took advantage of my kind heart

Until it was frozen.

What used to race for you,

Now no longer even beats.

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[poemprincess22]

SICK

The last text you ever sent me

Said "clearly you're sick. It's not worth arguing."

Then proceed to wish me the best

Bet that took a lot of pride right out of your chest.

Your ego has a way of getting way too inflated.

It's like when I'm in pain, you're elated.

But I don't hurt anymore these days.

If I was sick, it's cuz you made me that way.

Typical man to say something like that to a woman.

Typical man to be doing what you are doing.

I really believed I found one of the good ones.

Turns out you're just like all the rest of them.

Turns out I hated you more than I cared.

I never admitted that. I was too scared.

Endless cycle of unnecessary fighting.

You claim you gave it everything, but you weren't even trying.

I don't miss you. Not in the slightest bit.

If I text you, I was drunk and was talking complete shit.

Never should have given you a second and third chance.

Had I known what you would put me through, I never would have given you a single glance.

Waste of breath, waste of energy, waste of time.

Critique your own sanity. You know nothing about mine.

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[poemprincess22]

Me and You

I have your nose, or so they say.

I have nearly the same exact face.

The same freckles on my arms.

The same blood pumping through my heart.

We have the same attitude for sure.

Even had the same hair as yours

When you were a child back in the day.

We look so similar but you and I aren't the same.

I care and you don't.

I've changed and you won't.

I would do anything for my kids

And you'd do anything for you.

That's the biggest difference between us two.

I love my own more than life.

You love yourself and your self absorbed wife.

No doubt there are similarities, I know that's the truth.

But when it comes down to it, I'm really nothing like you.

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[poemprincess22]

DIDNT LOVE HER BACK

I remember that apartment on 1st street

And every tear that ever fell down my cheek

From the mean words you'd say straight to my face

Going to bed with a cord wrapped around my neck, praying I wouldn't wake.

I let you control my feelings, it's true.

My thoughts were consumed by you.

Took forever and a day to pull through that

But I did and I wouldn't give anything to go back.

You hurt me, but made me heal myself.

You scarred me, but those scars are stories to tell

Our daughter one day when she asks me

I'll tell her about our history.

And why we couldn't last.

It's not that mommy didn't love dad. It's that daddy didn't love her back.

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[poemprincess22]

Dead To Me, Yet Still Alive

I still remember the smoke.

And the memories in that home.

Down there in Erie, Pennsylvania.

And the scent of your soap.

I still recall the book you'd read before bed.

And the melody from that lullaby still echos in my head.

And the times we'd eat at the table.

So many things I wished I'd said.

Heartbreak experienced at a young age

When I should have been happy and free, going outside to play.

Instead I sat by the tree in the front yard, in silence.

Writing poems of anger and hate.

I remember the car rides, listening to journey.

"Lights" and "Don't Stop Believing" still, to this day, cure me.

Something about those melodies feel like home.

Even though it's been years since I heard from you and you've heard from me.

You're always in the back of my mind.

I'm still hurt by your selfish pride.

And your reasoning for leaving mom is absolute bullshit.

You couldn't love her but you adore your new wife.

And your new life.

With a kid that isn't yours.

In a house my sister and I should have grown up in.

How do you live in your skin?

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[poemprincess22]

Wither

I'm withering away

More by the day

With each word you say

I become more enraged.

And a piece of me dies

So sick of your lies

Who you are tonight

Isn't the one that used to be mine.

You've become a stranger before me.

Your actions are torturing.

You think you're funny.

But I'm not laughing.

So watch me wither away.

Disappear before your face.

I will never be the same.

I'm not some game to play.

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[poemprincess22]

This is It Now

This is my final goodbye.

You were once the love of my life.

But all we have now is a pile of ash.

Shared memories that have been burned of our past

It lay there in the destruction.

Where once was love now there's nothing.

Isn't it a shame? Isn't it sad?

You torched the best love you've ever had?

I hate how we got here. I'm so confused.

You act like I meant nothing to you.

Belittled me, called me names right to my face.

It's like I don't know you, you've drastically changed.

You once made me feel safe now I'm terrified.

Your ghost it haunts me all of the time.

Do you think of us in the slightest bit?

Do you hold any remorse inside of your thick skin?

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[poemprincess22]

Honest?

You can be honest without being cruel

But you choose not to

You like to see my face as you rip me apart

Every word out of your mouth makes another scar.

And I cry for weeks on end.

As you'll sleep soundly in the bed

That I bought for us two.

You kill me and yet you'll say I can't handle the truth.

There's a difference between honesty and being cruel.

And being the Villan is something you'll always choose.

Wonder how many girls you've done this to.

Leave them defeated just to end up resenting you.

I would have loved you for life.

Even though you never would have made me a wife.

Despite the words you'd throw in my face.

No matter what it took, I would have stayed.

That's the difference between us.

You don't like to play fair, you just give up.

When I tell someone I love them I mean it.

But you'll never believe it.

And that's on you, that's not on me.

I'm not the bad things that you called me.

I'm not fat, lazy or a freeloader by any means.

You just always wanted my best and hated me when I was weak.

Never once tried to pick me up off of the ground.

Constantly stepped on, constantly let down.

I hope you get what you want in the end, to be alone.

I hope that place is haunted, the one we used to call home.

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[poemprincess22]

YOU LOVED ME WHEN I DIDNT LOVE MYSELF

Whenever I needed you, you were there.

In hindsight I was so scared.

Never had someone that loved me so much.

From the very beginning you knew I was the one.

And it terrified me to my core.

I was 18 and couldn't give you more.

You were 26 and were more mature.

I had to grow up before I could be yours.

I recall times I got drunk and you never took advantage of me.

I laid in your bed and you let me fall asleep.

And in the morning, I ran out the door so fast.

I'd turn myself around if I could go back.

And I'd thank you for always being there for me.

When I never felt like I amounted to anything.

Remember playing pool there at the rec room?

We'd talk and laugh cuz there was nothing better to do.

When life got hard years down the line.

I'd call you and you'd still want to be mine.

Looking back I know you were my safe place all along.

The one person in the world who made me feel less alone.

I haven't said it enough but thank you for everything.

For loving me for 13 years unconditionally.

And for being here for me through the thick and thin.

Despite me ruining us time and again.

I owe you my life.

And you still want me to be your wife.

You want babies and a home and so much more with me.

You make me feel like I mean everything.

And I'm sorry for pushing you away.

For once, I just want to stay.

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[poemprincess22]

Advantage

You took advantage of a kind heart.

One that was there for you since the start.

I told you the first time you came back around.

The next time I will shut you out.

You told me it wouldn't happen again.

You swore you wanted to remain friends.

Then disappeared without a trace.

I won't make the same mistake.

If you decide to reappear.

I will no longer be here.

You ruined a good thing before it could start.

Now you will never hold my heart.

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[poemprincess22]

Parts of Me You Hate

All of the parts of me you hate

Were things you once adored.

You say we were a mistake.

Said loving me was a chore.

If that were really true,

Why didn't you leave 3 years ago?

Why did you tell me "I love you"

The day you decided to let me go?

Called me overweight.

Said you're smarter than I will ever be.

Said I will never change.

You did "absolutely everything."

You got mad I went away

To my mom's, you got mad at every damn thing I did.

To think I would have stayed

By your side no matter how complicated it'd get.

You have some nerve to shoot me down.

When I loved you wholeheartedly.

I feel like a clown

Just another circus freak.

A pawn in your game.

A stupid girl blind to reality.

How did I turn into someone you hate?

How many signs were there that I didn't see?

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[poemprincess22]

UNION COLLEGE

My high school boyfriend broke up with me in August 2010.

I was fully convinced that I would never love somebody again.

Sank into a depression and couldn't see any light.

You never knew this but you came around just in time.

You loved me at a time I couldn't give love in return.

You spent the next 13 years head over heels while I was a jerk.

You saw something in me I couldn't see whatsoever.

Told me one day you and I will end up together.

And I kept searching and searching for what was in front of me this entire time.

For a love that was right and real and that was all mine.

I pushed you away long ago because I felt like I didn't deserve you.

Never crossed the line that I drew between us two.

But I'd always find myself running back to your arms.

Every time life got a little too hard.

You've been my safe place and I didn't see it until now.

You've always been there for me while everyone else has let me down.

You think I'm beautiful, funny and smart.

You only have eyes for me and you've given me your heart.

And I'm so sorry for being so hard to please.

I'm sorry I never allowed myself to love like the way you loved me.

But I did and I do.

I hope you know that it's true.

I'd do anything to keep your heart safe from me.

But being guarded gets me nowhere I'm starting to see.

I was 19 and you were 26.

I was too young to have a grown up relationship.

Too young to know how to properly love another person.

Had no idea who I was or what I was doing.

But thank you for waiting, I really hope to make it all worth it.

So we can fall like we're supposed to. I don't want to lose this.

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[poemprincess22]

End Up Together

You've never given up on me.

Despite me giving up on myself.

You love me unconditionally.

And I've put you through such hell.

You'd marry me tomorrow.

And I'm not sure exactly why.

I've been drowning in my sorrow.

While you've been trying to paint me the brightest blue skies.

And a huge part of me thinks

I don't deserve you whatsoever.

But you just say "I still hope and believe

That we will end up together"

I push you away

But still you stay.

Are you insane?

Or am I for denying myself the greatest love of all time?

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[poemprincess22]

Run Like You Do

You said you were sorry.

Guess you didn't mean it.

Because you went and did

The same thing over again.

I really believed you.

When you said you were different.

When you said you wanted to get to know me

As more than a friend.

I'm a sucker for guys like you,

Always lying out of the mouth.

I fall into the damn traps everytime

Can't fucking figure out

Why I care so much for boys who can't care at all.

Why I sit around and wait and you don't even bother to call.

Hopeful and delusional thinking you'll come around.

You were only ever good for letting me down.

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[poemprincess22]

Scotch Tape

I still can't wrap my mind around

How you turned into someone so different, so fast.

It's like the old you is dead and in the ground

And the new you is someone I can't stand.

You say words that cut me to the bone

And to think you once said you'd "love me forever."

And every time, after every blow

I still try to keep us scotch taped together.

I don't know why you've gone and done

The very thing you swore that you wouldn't.

It was all a game that you somehow won

And in the end I ended up looking stupid.

Forgiving is so hard to do

When you have crossed so many lines now.

Can't believe I put so much faith in you

I look in the mirror and only see a clown.

But God, I loved you with a fire

That burned so deep down to my core.

I put my trust in an exceptional liar

Who only ever left me broken on the bathroom floor.

I would have stayed no matter what

Despite every reason I had not to.

Guess in the end I paid the cost

And you're living and loving life like I meant absolutely nothing to you.

Like you're not affected in any way

Like my touch never put goosebumps on your skin.

Guess there's nothing left to say

But one day you'll be sorry for what you did.

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[poemprincess22]

My Narrative

You controlled the dinner we'd eat.

You'd control the shows on TV.

You'd control who paid the bills each month.

You controlled how little you gave me love.

You'd control which places we'd go to.

You'd control where I put my things in the house too.

You'd control everything, like only a narcassist can.

But you don't get to control my narrative.

My view of the relationship.

I know you couldn't give two shits.

But you're the cause to all of this.

And I hope you get much needed help.

For destroying those who only wished you well.

I hope one day you'll understand

How much I tried to fix a broken man.

You have your truth and I have mine

And that's fine

But you don't get to decide

If mine is wrong or right.

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