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i feel like way too many of you dont actually know what a vocaloid/Miku is nor how they work and still trying to talk about them in regards to ai

They're just voice-banks, some modern ones using AI for assistance in making them sound more natural, that are ethically made by recording whoever is the original voice and made into separate syllables for use as essentially a "synthetic" voice. The voice actor is compensated and it's all done with their express permission/consent and everything making it entirely ethical and fine.

You don't just hit a "music" button it's not generated you have to actually put together and pitch the voice to make anything. Just calling it "AI" is disingenuous at best. Songs made with it aren't just random slop made by an algorithm, they're basically an instrument like any other to create vocals.

#agreed #i do think there could be repercussions with the AI tuning on AI voicebanks #but it’s definitely not AI-generated music or anything #vocaloid #cevio #cevio ai #synthesizer v #vocal synthesizers #music ones at least #I know there’s ones for speaking and stuff #vocaloid is not ai

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I never post stuff like this, but my former best friend apparently blocked me!???!

The whole situation was they got their phone taken away indefinitely, and they started homeschooling—which they live in a different state than me—so I wasn’t really able to keep in contact with them. I decided to shoot them a text and see what would happen and they blocked me?! I messaged them on other platforms as well to no avail.

It just hurts. They were the best friend I ever had, and what little time we had together was amazing; I never got to properly say goodbye, I never got to see them again, and now I can’t get into even attempts to get into contact with them without messaging their parents or going lowkey stalker mode…

Maybe their parents made them block me, maybe they changed their number, I don’t know… I just hope they don’t think badly of me now… I truly love my friend

#to my mutuals #to my followers #vent post #idk how to tag this kind of post #venting #emotions #losing friends #i really don’t know how to tag #I don’t hang around the vent-y side of tumblr

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What do you think about electric scooters?

uhhhhh they’re pretty cool ig? I’d like to try riding one at some point

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Would you like to be (online) friends?

Do you think you are capable of being an (online) friend?

Sorry for anon.

I’d love to, and I totally think I could be an online friend. At least, I’ll try my best (*´∇｀*)

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What is the whole celebrity crushes thing?! Like, are people being fr when they’re wanting to kiss/marry/ I don’t even wanna know these people who they’ve never met?!?

I was talking about how I don’t want to ever kiss anyone, and my art teacher asked if I would kiss this one musician I REALLY, REALLY like, and everyone was surprised when I said I wouldn’t kiss even him if given the opportunity. Like, he’s gorgeous, amazingly talented, and a sweet person, but that doesn’t mean I want to kiss him?!? That’s kinda weird….

So yeah. Celebrity crushes.

#aromantic #asexual #is this asexual? #I don’t know if this extends to asexual or not #aromanticism #arospec #aro #aroace #aromantic spectrum #aspec #aromantic things #aroace things #aromantic asexual #aroace spectrum

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I had to do an impromptu speech where I drew a topic and had to think about it for a minute or two; I got what celebrity would you marry

I talked about how I actually don’t want to get married and how marrying a celebrity would be a nightmare

#I also don’t care about any western celebrities really #im more into Japanese men lol #psych! #aromantic #asexual #aromanticism #asexuality #acespec #arospec #aro #ace #aroace #aromantic spectrum #aromantic asexual #aspec #aroace spectrum #aroace spec

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Cat cuddles>>>>>>

Yesssss

My cat isn’t really a lap cat though :( but he will lie down next to me when I’m in bed. You win some, you lose some

#to my followers #to my mutuals

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Up ahead they’s a thousan’ lives we might live, but when it comes it’ll on'y be one.

John Steinbeck, The Grapes of Wrath

#LOVE grapes of wrath #and pretty much any of steinbeck’s writings

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I need the asexual equivalent of the word “gaydar”. My favorite I’ve seen proposed is compACE (compass + ace). What about for aros?! My brain cannot rest until this is solved…

#I love it

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Sweetheart, even though you treated me kindly, My stubbornness prevailed. After we parted last night, I went and drowned my sorry self in booze again. Waking This morning, I remember your kindness And sadly reflect on my vile behavior. And now, I - a complete fake - now I’ll openly confess: Stripped of all dignity, lacking any sense of honesty, I was spurned on by my own illusions, into madness.

When had I ever tried to grasp the feelings of others? - Sweetheart, even though you treated me kindly, I was as stubborn and selfish as a child. Waking to intimations of morning breaking outside, Which somehow register through this pounding in my head, I remember your kindness, and also that drunken other. And as I sadly wonder who I really am on this chilly morning, Something tells me that I am nobody at all.

- Nakahara Chūya, “Untitled” from Poems of the Goat

#holy moly #i was not expecting to open up to this poem after school #its really good #but dang #nakahara chūya #japanese literature #bungou stray dogs #bsd #i really like this poem #beautiful

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I need the asexual equivalent of the word “gaydar”. My favorite I’ve seen proposed is compACE (compass + ace). What about for aros?! My brain cannot rest until this is solved…

#aromantic #asexual #aro #ace #aroace #aromantic spectrum #asexual spectrum #aspec #asexuality #aromanticism #aromantic asexual #arospec #acespec

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Kissing on the lips. No. Why? I don’t get it. Truly? What is so enticing about putting your lips together? Don’t even get me started on tongues…

#aromantic #aro #arospec #aromanticism #aspec #aroace #aromantic spectrum #aromantic thoughts #that’s not a tag?! #i love kissing people on the forehead or whatever #but I will NEVER kiss someone on the lips

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Funnily enough, despite being ace I can’t help sex constantly on my mind, constantly connecting things to sex and seeing them everything in a sexual light ;-;

#asexual #asexuality #acespec #ace #asexual spectrum #asexual thoughts #ace spec #ace spectrum

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That made me laugh, but dang! That’s crazy!

Literally why do people have to look at me funny when I say I don’t have a crush? Like, is it really that hard to comprehend?!

#aromantic #aro

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How are you pretending to be a person?

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8th grade me just wasn’t vibing, okay?!? Recognized I had trouble being vulnerable, thought I didn’t love my family, thought my friendships didn’t meet the standard of other friendships, also aroace, AND I stumbled upon hitomodoki by Mafumafu?!!?

In all seriousness, I felt other because of my inability to form genuine connection with people, for having difficulty making friends, and even then those friendships weren’t strong, and I was struggling to tackle whether or not I loved my friends, what kind of attachment and affection I had for them. This also bled into me doubting whether or not I loved my family.

I also might could maybe possibly exhibit symptoms of C-PTSD, and one of them is a feeling of “otherness” and having your self-concept just be messed up in general. (Not saying I do have C-PTSD; I just find I relate to many of the symptoms and have grown up in such in an environment where this could possibly be the case. I DO NOT support self-diagnosing mental disorders!!!)

I’m doing much better now. I know I love my family, have pondered more about what love actually is, and have done more soul-searching. I don’t necessarily feel “other” to the same extent I did before, but I’ll always feel a puzzled regarding people

#to my followers #to my mutuals #about me

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Now I have neither happiness nor unhappiness. Everything passes. That is the one and only thing I have thought resembled a truth in the society of human beings where I have dwelled up to now as in a burning hell. Everything passes.

Dazai Osamu, No Longer Human

#one of my favorite quotes from no longer human #it’s so true #bsd literature #bsd #bungo stray dogs #japanese literature #dazai osamu

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Stupid question, but favorite drink?

Mmm… I dunno exactly.

Dr. Pepper’s good, root beer from Weber’s in Tulsa is amazing. I really like matcha lattes. Hot soy milk is also really good

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