hydetheghost

[hydetheghost]

friendly reminder <33

uhm yea whenver i am mad, i destroy the food. in creative ways too. no, i dont mean just throwing it away. one time i threw it in the sink, the other time i cut in aggresivly in pieces w a pencil, another time i stepped on it, the other time i threw it in the fridge....and when my aggresion ended and i thought of maybe returning to it too late! ahah appetite gone too.

You don't have to eat, stop making up excuses and put the food away

It's easy, stop eating

#throw away the food #@na motivation #fasting is awesome #bye suckers #hyde left the building

[hydetheghost]

my weight sucks, my personality sucks, my looks suck, my grades suck- however: not my music taste. its good

#nah but fr?? #everything sucks but at least my music taste is great #silly #i hate everybody #i hate everything #i hate calories #i'm a poet #silly stuff #silly goe #sigh #21th century breakdown #music taste #everything sucks #green day #komplexe zahlen #i hate math very much :(( #i wanna lose weight #intp problems #words words words #sillyposting #silly goofy mood #Spotify

[hydetheghost]

(sht latelyyyy)

die jirche im dorf lassen: nicht so aufblähend, übertreibend sein

n= m/M

"i've destroyed myself a lot lately. i've done a lot of self-destruction in the past days. time to fix that again. with fasting, of course, cuz food is the mother of all problems."

"Mom destroyed me and left me here all broken. she has no idea how much she hurted me. and ive been sucking it up deep inside "eat for me" BITCH NO...and living with the hope i could fast for it and tmrw will be better. but im failing over and over again.

"i dont feel well, mom shouted at me. i dont feel well, mom judged me. i dont feel well, mom hates me. i dont feel well. i shouldnt eat.

and truly, the world is cruel.

ugh, bish. u annoyed me, i had to cope. ur still annoying. duh, give me a rest. m/§ never fails to make me feel like sh!t

druck mithilfe kompressor erhöht werden, so wird luft komprimiert und erwärmt

warme, komprimierte luft wird außen gekühlt

abkühlung durch expansion: nach abkühlen des verdichtetn gases wieder auf normaldruck expandiert

John-Thompson-Effekt: führt zu weitere verringerung der temperatur, kühle komprimierte luft wird expandiert und kühlt sich weiter ab

kühle luft kühlt nachstromende luft weiter ab

-> durch wiederholung sinkt temperatur auf 196 crad und so wird luft flüssig

flüssige luft erwärmt sich langsam weiter

franktionierung: aufgrund unterscheidlicher siedetmeperaturen verdampfen gase nacheinadner und können getrennt wered

#oh its the silly ghost again and theyre a mess!! #chemistrytestreaaalysuckssuckapainthooo #butyeaithinkillmanagesomehow butprofwillbediapointedlol #currentobsessionwithenfpsmakesmethinkthewordstillhashope #butthegrandfastbeganandi wontlet MOMruinit!! #heckyeahyou messypiece ofthingfgf #Spotify #SoundCloud

[hydetheghost]

"Medusa." You know what really scares me? I think mom knows the truth? Or, she is about to know. I gotta do something. My dqrling is in danger. Shit, she maybe reall close to knowing the truth. I hate my mther, rlly much.

#aha moment #the mother and the 7 failures #medusa #i hate my mother #my shitty art #sigh #i hate living #Spotify

[hydetheghost]

weeelll i know that things would be much easier if i'd live alone, cuz mom always- well, not forces, but drags me to eat and she often gets my fav food and i think thats tragic cuz when im at my own i can just easily avoid it :((( 😭😔

(btw im actually good at restricting)

Learning self control is so hard. ⭐️ving is romanticized on here but it’s really hard! Especially knowing there’s food around you ALL THE TIME! I feel like we need more people that are honest about the struggle.

#pro for me not for thee #th1nsp1ration #m3ansp0 #low cal restriction #light as a feather #i wanna lose weight #ana d!et #starv1ng #anafood #self control #wish i hated food lmao

[hydetheghost]

sharing is caring, right KAMERADE??

How I feel after sharing a protein bar with my mom 😍

#communism #sharing is caring #shared calories #kamerade #marxism #geteiltes leid ist halbes leid

[hydetheghost]

pls dude, it cant be so hard, right? why am i hestitating then?? sigh.

#breaking the habit #i will end it tonight #sigh #Spotify

[hydetheghost]

ah yes, the daily battle in my head 😵🥴

"Zwei Seelen wohnen, ach! in meiner Brust, die eine will sich von der anderen trennen: Die eine hält in derber Liebeslust sich an die Welt mit klammernden Organen; die andre hebt gewaltsam sich vom Dust zu den Gefilden hoher Ahnen."

Faust I, Vers 1112 f.; Faust

Fr. Nothing more to say tbh.

#battle #kick #no dude dont eat #u will regret afterwards trust me i know you better #ach zwei seelen in meiner brust #goethe #no bish dont eat #ana problems #hahahhaha #im silly

[hydetheghost]

whenever I see a child, I remember how much I hate life.

(important reminder, I guess?)

#i hate everything #i hate children #i hate everybody #children are the worst #pedophobia #my quote #quote #children make life unliveable #eww kids #silly #daily reminder #still dont understand why ppl get kids like bruh do u wanna ruin ur life voluntarily??

[hydetheghost]

you may call me insane.

but in reality your noise is causing me pain.

#quote #silly #misophonia #actually misophonic #actually mentally ill #i hate a lot of stuff actually #sigh #allergic to sound #i hate noise #weirdo #i'm a poet #dark acadamia quotes #dark urge #dark academia #spiled thoughts #spilled thoughts #spilled words

[hydetheghost]

uhm its also very common that i..disappear for some months pls dont wonder

#nihilism #its okay that i disappear for 5 months right #nihilist #memes #meme #the void #aerikvon #aerik #von #aerik von #black veil brides #ghost #life is meaningless #Spotify

[hydetheghost]

yes, they'll PASS, just patience <3

sometimes cravings are just worse than hunger and that sucks lol- especiaally the cavings for patistry..man hell no. but with the right distraction and a lot of water...it goes good

The craving WILL go away, the fat will stay. It’s your choice

#justwater4me #disordered eating thoughts #tw restrictive ed #4n4tips #4n4blr #@nor3×14 #@na vent #@tw edd #@nor3xia #@n@ diary #@n@ tips #@n@ buddy #@na buddy #@na motivation #@na tips #cravings suck #@na rules

[hydetheghost]

im too w0rthless to e@t.

the world is too disgusting for me to $at.

everything is too loud for me to eat.

thats why i am not @ating

thats why i will not eat

#⭐ving as coping mechanism makes so much sense #worthless #hey worthless! #yes you i mean you #disgusting world #loud world #i hate noise #i hate calories #i hate a lot of stuff actually #the list goes on and on and on #tw ana diary #ana bllog #ana trigger #tw disordered eating #tw restriction #oh #oh okay #silly ghost makes poetry #can i even call this a poem #idk #autism #misophonia #i am actually silly #sigh #week 28 #Spotify

[hydetheghost]

if food is that what i want, water is that what i'll get.

#bitch ur not hungry #drink #WATER #just water for me please #okay but i wanna eat my vegetables so badly #food? no thanks ill pass hahha #water >>> food #i cooked spinach beans broccoli cauliflower and it looked good #but im kinda hungry too #tips #@na tips #weight loss tips #@n@ tips #anorexcya #an0rec1a #ana bllog #ana trigger #tw restriction #tw restrictive ed #restrictive diet #omad

[hydetheghost]

"loud noise makes my head hurt. but thats okay, rock makes everything better."

I don't mind spending the whole day studying."

"Josh was really adorable. He had a notebook and wrote silly stuff inside it. And his handwriting is so silly too. He's so adorable. I like him a lot."

#loud noise #i hate it #tumult #émeute #i hate children lol #josh #damn hes so silly #dude and his notebook #studying #math #mathematique #mathematics #mathblr #wahrscheinlichkeitsverteilung #i hate math #math exam #saturday stuff #week 28 #miss murder #damn this song is so cool #afi #cool band #random #random thoughts #random mess #Spotify

[hydetheghost]

im so greatful for this shit for existing. it sounds so damn good and made my goddamn mood better </3

#damn #such a good band thooo #afi rock #afi #rock #mess #messy #i am actually silly #Spotify

[hydetheghost]

I'm not a person anymore. I'm just a mess.

#hate living #its not a joke anymore #:/ #dont wanna live tbh #but i dont wanna live #i'm a poet #silly words #quote #dark acadamia quotes #dark aesthetic #dark academia #sighhhh #messy #mess #idk #d #DUUUUUDE #DUDE #im a fucking mess #and #i hate living #i hate life #i hate every aspect of life and being alive #end me pls #end me now #end me please #end me already #sighhghghhgh #Spotify