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food log 3/7/21

breakfast: coffee and 1 chocolate digestive

= 96 cals

lunch: 1 crab stick and 2 baby cucumbers

= 28 cals

dinner: sandwich thin + spinach + shredded chicken + brie 

= 151 cals

snacks: 2 salt and balsamic vinegar rice cakes 

= 178 cals

exercise: 1h 30m walk & hard labour at work (5 hours)

= -213 & -286cals

total cal intake = 453cals

net calories = -46 cals

i am pretty happy with today cause i was really busy at work so overall im feeling pretty good about myself

#anamia #anarecia #food log #tw ed content #tw ed stuff #tw ed things #tw ed #mia #tw eating things #disordered eating thoughts #analog #ana #ed

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update: he cheated on me i shouldve seen that coming

mini rant?

so i’m talking to this guy from tinder, we had planned to go on a date this wednesday and everything was going great and we were supposed to meet up at the club last night with our friends. we has also been talking the whole night while we were at different places. eventually we ended up at the same club and  i saw him and he saw me but i was a little bit nervous so i was gonna stay with my friend for a bit and then go over to him when i had more confidence.

and i turn around to go up to him only to see him making out with this girl who was literally perfect. like she was my ultimate thinspo and fuck it was like a stab right in the gut it hurt so much. this experience has given me more motivation to reach my goal but i cried in the uber home with my friend and i bought a pack of smokes and smoked half the pack until i couldnt breath properly. i hate myself so much. 

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update: i like to ruin my life so we’ve been on two dates and now i really like him ha ha ha ha

mini rant?

so i’m talking to this guy from tinder, we had planned to go on a date this wednesday and everything was going great and we were supposed to meet up at the club last night with our friends. we has also been talking the whole night while we were at different places. eventually we ended up at the same club and  i saw him and he saw me but i was a little bit nervous so i was gonna stay with my friend for a bit and then go over to him when i had more confidence.

and i turn around to go up to him only to see him making out with this girl who was literally perfect. like she was my ultimate thinspo and fuck it was like a stab right in the gut it hurt so much. this experience has given me more motivation to reach my goal but i cried in the uber home with my friend and i bought a pack of smokes and smoked half the pack until i couldnt breath properly. i hate myself so much. 

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i want this to be my main blog but its a sideblog and now im mad lol why did i do that

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if i’m not in the 50s this time next week im gonna riot istg

#tw ed things #tw ed #anamia #not pro just using tags #eating disoder things #tw ana #ana #anarecix

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ed buddies perhaps?

lol i really need some ed buddies so uhm if any of these apply to u:

- 17+

- have an ed

- pro recovery (but not in it urself)

- like one direction :)))))

- have a mental health that is almost completely gone

- have ig or snapchat

-  lgbtq+

- not underweight

then reply with ur ig or snapchat (or dm me lol)

i need people to talk to and i just want friends tbh

#anamia #ana #not pro just using tags #tw ed things #ed #ed things #eating disoder things #anorekcia #edblr #ed tumblr #tw ed

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mini rant?

so i’m talking to this guy from tinder, we had planned to go on a date this wednesday and everything was going great and we were supposed to meet up at the club last night with our friends. we has also been talking the whole night while we were at different places. eventually we ended up at the same club and  i saw him and he saw me but i was a little bit nervous so i was gonna stay with my friend for a bit and then go over to him when i had more confidence.

and i turn around to go up to him only to see him making out with this girl who was literally perfect. like she was my ultimate thinspo and fuck it was like a stab right in the gut it hurt so much. this experience has given me more motivation to reach my goal but i cried in the uber home with my friend and i bought a pack of smokes and smoked half the pack until i couldnt breath properly. i hate myself so much. 

#tw ed #tw ed things #ed things #rant #anamia #tw ana #anor3xia #anarecix #bulimxa #thinspo #thinspr0 #thin #skinny #eating disoder things

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I HAVEN’T WEIGHED MYSELF IN LIKE TWO WEEKS AND IM WEIGHING MYSELF ON WEDNESDAY BUT I KNOW I’VE GAINED IM GOING TO CRY I HATE MYSELF HAHAHAHA

#ana #tw ed things #ed #anamia #thinspo #ed things #tw ana #anarecia

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i don’t experience morning skinny, i have morning chubby and rest of the day obese

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goal weights!!

sw: 65.3kgs

height: 160cm

gw1: 60kgs

gw2: 55kgs

gw3: 51 kgs

ugw: 47 kgs

#tw ed things #tw ed #ed #anamia #ana #thinspo #anor3xia

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i haven’t weighed myself in over a week and i’m scared to cause i’m pretty sure i’ve gained lol (but i also got my period so)

#ana #tw ed things #tw ed #ed #anamia #thinspo #thinspr0 #not pro just using tags

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not me using work as a way to fast and look at anablr

#tw ed things #not pro just using tags #anamia #thinspo #tw ana #ana

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aaaaaand relapsing

#anamia #not pro just using tags #thinspo #ana #tw ed things #tw ana #personal #tw ed #skinny