If you or someone you know is struggling with an eating disorder, you are not alone.
If you are located in the U.S., contact the National Eating Disorder Association (NEDA) Helpline at 1-800-931-2237 for support, resources, and treatment options.
If you are located in the United Kingdom, The Beat UK is here to support people who have or are worried they have an eating disorder. You can find all of the support services they provided by clicking here.
If you are located anywhere in the European Union, you can find support resources in your area at Mental Health Europe.
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Ik I shouldn't, but I wanna become one of those very famous aesthetic thinsp0 pics one day. I just wanna know what if feels like to be one of those people that make others say " Wow I wish I looked Like That "
Being able to just walk out of my house without thinking " Is this gonna make me look fat? " " I feel like I'm insulting people just by walking past them " " They don't deserve to see this trash"
And I try wearing oversized clothes but all I can think about is the fat that there's underneath, that skinny people still look skinny in everything and that if I look fat it's probably my fault and not what I'm wearing.
Today I was gonna weight myself but I forgot and already started eating🤦♀️ I only ate a spoonful of oatmeal so I guess it's not a big difference. I stepped on the scale anyway. I'm lighter than cw from last week, hell I reached my lw again :DD
My lowest weight in adulthood was 128. I was playing college ultimate frisbee and was pretty active, so I didn’t even have to watch what I ate.
In 2017 I started working full time in the ER while I was a full time student and I was forced to quit frisbee. I never slept, lost all of my hobbies, and was doing a lot of stress eating. I also had a new boyfriend and we ate fast food like every night when I got off of work. In less than two years I gained more than 40 lbs.
When I became an EMT at 17, my instructor gave me a sage piece of advice based off of his own mistakes. He said if you’re not forced to work in college, don’t. One of my biggest regrets is not taking that advice. I had to neglect my mental health, my physical health, my grades, and my hobbies to stay afloat and now a month out from graduation I’m still paying the price. Gaining weight sucks. Having an ED sucks. Maintaining terrible coping mechanisms sucks. I hope this shit starts getting easier :(
I’ll be ranting a lil bit so read if u want or don’t read idrc: I’m suuper mad!!!!! My mom was making stuffed vine leaves today for dinner. I was going to pretend to sleep so I’d get out of eating. Today was my first day of summer and my family knows I wake up soooo late so it would’ve been really easy to hide my ed from them. My mom ended up burning the food. She had made fish for her and my dad and pasta for me and my brother the day before and we were all out so nobody even ate them. Instead of making us eat them which I wouldn’t have eaten the pasta I would just lie abt it. She decided to make us go out to eat as a family. WE DONT EVEN EAT DINNER TOGETHER. I mean it was a really nice gesture coming from my mom but I just started fasting🤦🏽♀️🤦🏽♀️ soooo I begged them to let me stay at home. I kept making excuses but then my brother also said he didn’t want to go. I could see my mom getting upset so I said that I’ll go. Then my brother and father wanted to go tomorrow and I didn’t want more of my progress to be wasted so i insisted that we go out today and I feel like shit😭 we went to our neighbors’ new restaurant to support him and the waiter kind of pushed me to get this huge dish of like chicken rolls or some shit like that and it had a side of Alfredo pasta which our neighbors/the owner made me get bec “it tastes incredible” fuck that dudee I didn’t ask 🤷🏽♀️. I just accept the fact and eat. I don’t order a drink or dessert or nothing. Our neighbor sends over a CAKE for us to share. I literally never talked to him before, he didn’t even know my name. He just knew my mom. And now I ate cake because of him 😭😭😭😭. I feel terrible and so long time has passed I can’t even purge now.
it’s important when restricting you keep up with having a life. when out to lunch with my mom today and got pad see ew (finished most). tomorrow i’m going on a date and we’re getting ramen. monday i’m going over to a friends house and we’re getting dinner and i’m also having noodles and company for lunch.
but i’m NOT STRESSING. i know i’ll be okay if i don’t eat anything else the rest of those days and stick to 100-300 calories the rest of the day.
what’s the point of getting to your ugw if once you’re there you can’t even enjoy your life and have no friends left