biochemsitry

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When I was little I had this friend who I had at a couple of my birthday parties. He lived pretty close to my house, and sometimes I'd walk over to his house and play on his swing set with him. I'd known him since we were literal babies. I continued to know him until I moved away at 13. We rarely ever talked as we got older, and I wouldn't have said he was a friend when I was 13 just because we hadn't interacted in years. But we still saw each other at church and around town, although we didn't go to school together. We followed each other on Instagram and were friends on Facebook, but other than that, we almost never acknowledged the other's existence. Several years passed by after I moved and I had all but forgotten about him. I'm sure he had all but forgotten about me as well. Last year, in late September, he died. Drug overdose. He was 18, I had just turned 19 a month prior. I think about him a lot now. Why did he do it? He had just graduated highschool; he had his entire adult life ahead of him. He was not unhappy, from what I know. He just did what his friend convinced him to, one time and one time only, but that one time was all it took. I was not real friends with him. I didn't really know him. But I did. We stuffed birthday cake into our faces and laughed together. We sat next to each other on the swings. We probably stumbled around together on our chubby toddler legs and giggled at each other and stole baby toys from each other and made each other cry and built towers with blocks together. We were present in each other's lives for years. And now he's gone. Really gone. And I don't know how to feel. He was a complete stranger to me as we got older. But I wouldn't think this much about the death of a complete stranger, would I? Am I truly grieving for him? Or is it no more than a fact I have a hard time believing? I don't know what I feel. I don't know what to feel. How can you possibly know how to feel about the death of a complete stranger you knew so well?

#death #life #midnight thoughts #childhood #memories #i dont know what to feel #nostalgia #grief

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Can't stop thinking about the time I kept seeing TikToks of workplace accident animations that all had the search bar suggestion "lathe machine incident uncensored" like people actually thought they could find it on TikTok. Tiktok's crazy man

#tiktok #tiktok is crazy #what #lathe machine #lathe machine incident #reddit #people are crazy

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My brother's locker decor is *chefs kiss* on point (he's a pt student that's why his locker is so empty)

#chad #chad meme #gigachad #my brother is weird #locker decor #locker decoration #meme #high school #private school #not a bougie one tho #little brothers amirite? #what

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"I can make him worse" *fixes him* is such an underused trope which should be illegal bc of how frickin funny it is. Like "let's give this fricked-up man more issues than he already has" but he develops morals instead

#funny #i can make him worse #i can fix him #tropes #best trope #writing #writing prompt #favorite tropes #haha dont develop morals youre too sexy

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I put it in the tags but in case anyone still wonders, I have hyperphantasia, which means I can see images in my head way more vividly than the average person. The opposite is aphantasia, which is when someone can't see images in their head at all. Hyperphantasia is fun and all until you have the most vivid, horrific nightmares almost every single night (:

Sometimes I'll see a very, very clear picture in my head and I know it's from a work of fiction, but I don't remember what it's from specifically. And bc it's so clear I think it's from a movie. And then I try to look it up and I find absolutely nothing. Then I eventually realize it was not in fact from a movie, but from a book. One with no pictures. The image I saw so clearly was just from my imagination. Also, the book was one I read as a child, and was part of a series I didn't really like all that much. This character was in, like, one chapter. Without rly thinking I see him in an anime-like 2D style, but if I think just a little bit more I can easily picture him realistically. Why am I like this.

#hyperphantasia #neurodivergent #imagination #adhd #autism #audhd #overactive imagination #how my mind works #my brain is weird #why am i like this

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Sometimes I'll see a very, very clear picture in my head and I know it's from a work of fiction, but I don't remember what it's from specifically. And bc it's so clear I think it's from a movie. And then I try to look it up and I find absolutely nothing. Then I eventually realize it was not in fact from a movie, but from a book. One with no pictures. The image I saw so clearly was just from my imagination. Also, the book was one I read as a child, and was part of a series I didn't really like all that much. This character was in, like, one chapter. Without rly thinking I see him in an anime-like 2D style, but if I think just a little bit more I can easily picture him realistically. Why am I like this.

#hyperphantasia #adhd #neurodivergent #imagination #why am i like this #character #overactive imagination #how my mind works #my brain is weird #autism #audhd

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I talked to my dr and she said I need to see a therapist who can diagnose me with bipolar so that's fun

My three moods:

-"I am mentally ill 😞"

-"mental illness? don't know her"

-"ooooo I'm mentally ill hehehehee"

#mentally ill #depression #ooo im mentally ill #bipolar #i gotta see a therapist #mental illness #mania #guess im more mentally ill than i thought 🤷🏻‍♀️

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I have to show y'all this picture

This is Gibbs. Gibbs is a ~70lb senior golden retriever. Gibbs is not a lap dog, nor does he think he is. However, Gibbs forgot about not being a lap dog and sat down right in my lap when I saw him at my school a couple days ago. He has never sat in anyone's lap before, but I guess we're besties so he made an exception for me 🥰 his mom brings him on campus sometimes so he already knew me! Just look at that happy lil face!!! 😍 (I did not hold him down in my lap, nor did I do anything to make him sit in my lap. He just did it all by himself!)

#dogs #dog #happy doggo #doggo #senior dog #golden retriever #happy pupper #pupper #we're besties now #funny dogs #senior puppy #gibbs #yes he's named after Gibbs from NCIS #awww #cute #adorable #cute dog #“lap” dog #dog person #dog lover

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My three moods:

-"I am mentally ill 😞"

-"mental illness? don't know her"

-"ooooo I'm mentally ill hehehehee"

#mentally ill #neurodivergent #ooo im mentally ill #hehehehe #sad #depression #ooooo #mental illness #mental illness but the funny kind #adhd

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Growing up is so weird like. I saw a picture of my fifth birthday party which feels like it just happened, a hundred years ago. In the picture I'm sitting next to one of my friends who's dead now. The rest of my friends at the party, I haven't seen in ages. I wonder if they think about that time too. I never want to relive my childhood but I want to be a child again and relive those little moments, and just those moments, with the face paint and piñatas and chocolate cake and laughter and innocence and the ignorance of what was to come.

#childhood #childhood trauma #growing up #the tragedy of growing up #childhood friends #i dont want to go back but i do #child #my childhood #old friends

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I was doing math hw in my university's coffee shop and I got up to order a coffee and horribly misread the sign for the drink of the week (I thought it said "potentially filled with creme de menthe" but it really said "piquantly fused with creme de menthe"). I had too much calculus and functions and derivatives on my mind to read words, and my friend (who was taking my order) laughed at me because of my illiteracy. So for a few minutes while I was trying to figure out the sign, I was literally this meme

#math #calculus #funny #misread #horrible misreading #coffee #confused math lady meme

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I have decided that my life is much happier if I simply stop letting insults affect me when they are genuinely funny. Like, don't insult me if it's not funny bc I will cry. But I'll allow it and even encourage it if it is funny.

#funny #insults #funny insults #key to happiness #my sense of humor is so warped #good luck on actually figuring out what makes me laugh #life advice

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I hate having heat intolerance so much bc everyone gives me crap for it, like constantly. Its caused by my sensory problems, but it's uncommon enough that even other people with sensory problems give me crap for it. I get physically sick when it's just slightly warmer than what I'm comfortable with. I can't take long hot showers bc I have literally passed out from them. I actually have gotten fevers from being overheated. I get stomach cramps, nausea, headaches, and just your general sensory overloads and anxiety attacks from intense heat. I've never met anyone else like this. And on top of it, I get way more narcolepsy attacks when it's hot. I'm just glad I live in an area known for its freezing cold, long winters.

#sensory processing disorder #heat intolerance #sensory problems #just neurodivergent things #neurodivergent #adhd #forgot to mention i also have partial anhidrosis #means i lack sweat glands in some areas #really just makes it worse #heat intolerance caused by sensory processing disorder #autism #audhd #autistic

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You know what the actual scariest character design is? It's not sharp teeth, or all-black eyes, or claws, or being faceless. It's when the character has a really unnaturally long face, with a fairly normal-sized nose (probably not normal shaped tho), but they have a huge gap between their nose and mouth. Bonus if they have huge lips that no human could possibly have. If they have pinprick pupils with no irises, it's even worse. Examples that kinda fit: the obunga meme (make fun of me all you want but I absolutely hate it) and the long faced titan from attack on titan (which I have not seen a single episode of but I saw a pic of this character the other day). This character design is the most disgusting and horrifying thing I've ever seen and I hate it so much. But I also think it should be more common in horror games/movies bc of how freaky it is.

#horror #character design #scariest character design #obunga #horror games #character #i hate it so much

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Just found out the reason why this guy didn't know functions and it's so painfully obvious I don't know how I didn't think of it before: he used Abeka. For people who don't know, it's a (quite poorly made) Christian curriculum that's popular with Christian homeschoolers that covers all subjects. It also doesn't teach functions, at least not till, like, college level math, and not at the pre-algebra level like when I first learned them. It's about the same level of bad as Paces, which just teaches sooo many incorrect things. Not that I know from experience... 😬 (but that's a post for a different time!)

So I was wondering if anyone can explain this to me. I doubt anyone can but it's at least an interesting story I think. (Disclaimer: if you aren't a math person, this might be pretty confusing, but I will try to explain stuff.)

I'm sitting in my 300 level calc 1 class. We're learning about instantaneous velocity and limits and the like, not super hard stuff. This is the fourth class period we've had so it hasn't gotten to the hard stuff yet.

By the way, I go to a tiny private university. I'm one of 5 students in this class. My uni is, um, known for not being great with math-- we literally have two math profs in total. Two. I think we have 3 math majors in total, and all three are in this class. The fourth is math ed. I'm biochem.

Back to what happened today. Our prof, let's call her Dr. H, is explaining limits (for non-math or science ppl, it involved lots of graphs and functions and letters). The freshman math ed major, let's call him J, is very confused and raises his hand. "What does f(x) mean?" he asks.

Dr. H pauses, unsure of how to answer. The other 4 students, including me, try to explain f(x) to J. Dr. H ends up drawing a graph on the whiteboard to explain that f(x) often, at least at the level we're at and with the stuff we're talking about, is the same as y. f(x)=x is the same as y=x. f(x)=3x-1 is the same as y=3x-1.

J seems to be satisfied with this explanation, so Dr. H continues the lecture. A few minutes later, she gives an example problem with both f(x) and g(x). J is now more confused than ever.

"Wait, what's g(x)?" he asks.

"g(x) is the same as y in this situation," Dr. H answers.

"But I thought f(x) was y."

At this point, we're all looking at J in disbelief. For people who don't know, g(x), f(x), h(x), etc. in graphing are all representative of y on a graph, at least typically, and at least in contexts like this.

Dr. H pauses, then says, "I think we need to have a conversation about functions after class."

Now, don't get me wrong. Functions can be hard. If you're not a math person, it's easy to go without knowing what they are. I'm not trying to put anyone down for not knowing what they are. My mom never got past algebra 1 and either never learned them or has completely forgotten about them. But then again, my 16yo brother with severe discalcula (math dyslexia, basically) knows at least about functions and he's barely even done pre-algebra...

But this kid made it into calculus apparently without any knowledge of functions, which (I think???) are usually taught at the algebra 1 level (so about 8th-9th grade, or 13-15yo, at least in the US. It's usually younger in other countries though, at least from what I gather?). It's not something you'd learn at age 14 and never use again until college-- most maths from algebra 1 and up use functions pretty much all the time. But this freshie is, like, 17-18, and a math ed major, who must have either klepped out of lower math courses, or had gotten a high enough score on the ACT/SAT to be able to go directly into calc 1. This guy's smart-- he seems to be really good at math other than functions. I just have absolutely no idea how he made it into calc without knowing about functions. Just... how?????

(In case anyone's wondering, we absolutely did NOT try to make J feel bad. None of us students even said anything about it afterwards at all. We just don't do that. Dr. H was very kind in how she handled the situation, too. Never make a person feel bad for not knowing something. I'm not making fun of him by posting this, either; I'm just very confused lol. I doubt he'll see this, and if he does, I doubt he'll know it's me talking about him. He's a smart guy, and I'm not blaming him for his lack of knowledge on functions. I'm mostly just wondering how his HS teachers neglected to teach him about such a basic and important part of math.)

#abeka #abeka Christian curriculum #abeka math #don't use abeka #bad teaching #math #college calculus #calculus #college math #homeschooling #homeschooled #functions #paces #paces Christian curriculum #don't use paces curriculum #bad curriculum #Christian curriculum #Christian curriculum nightmare

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A joke my dad told me, that he learned from his sister:

A new monk joins a monastery. The other monks are showing him around, telling him about the monastery, etc. Then one of the older monks tells the new monk that every morning, they have this ritual where the head monk chants "Gooood MOOORN-inggg." and the rest of the monks chant it back to him. The new monk is like, "ok, that's a little unusual, but I can live with it".

So a week goes by, with every morning starting with the head monk chanting "Gooood MOOORN-inggg." and the rest of the monks chanting it back. The new monk eventually starts to get annoyed and kinda weirded out by this, and decides to change it up a bit. So the next morning, the head monk chants his usual "Gooood MOOORN-inggg." and the rest of the monks chant it back. Except for the new monk, who loudly chants "Gooood EEEVE-ninggg."

The head monk hears this quite clearly, since the new monk had chanted it pretty loudly, but he doesn't know who chanted it. So, he peers around the room looking for the culprit, and sings:

"Someone chanted evening!"

#jokes #dad jokes #clean jokes #monks #funny #bad jokes #joke #some enchanted evening

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Narcolepsy is objectively the funniest disorder. You're just. Sleepy all the time. The medical name for this is "excessive daytime sleepiness" (which btw really confused me when I read that "all people with narcolepsy have EDS" and thought it meant Ehlers Danlos Syndrome). And the doctor has to give you crack so you don't spontaneously fall asleep while, idk, mopping the floor or whatever (this legit happened to me once). And having ADHD on top of it is even funnier bc like, I feel like I could either take a 20 hr nap or run a marathon. And I get the same med for both and it somehow works???? (It's not actually crack, it's Adderall, but my friend likes to say I take crack.) And the reason for all of this is bc my stupid brain can't make the one chemical that keeps people awake. My brain actually just sucks at making chemicals in general (I have ADHD and am mentally ill so things like serotonin and dopamine are also in short supply), but why this one in particular???

#narcolepsy #narcoleptic #adhd #narcoleptic with adhd #adderall #sleepy #funny #excessive daytime sleepiness #eds #drugs #mentally ill #neurological problems #neurodivergent #neurological disorder #disability #chronic disorder