#you wouldnt change everything about it in the worst way possible

[snobgoblin]

I’m not sure what it is about the powerpuff girls reboot that’s so ugly, it might be because they were allergic to sharp shapes or something because why was everything so round???

And the girls just do not look good I don’t know what it is that’s so ugly I feel there’s too much emphasis on the top of their heads

yeahhh, it definitely lost that edge that made the original art style SO good. it lost the chunky, varied line work and the snappy poses and the use of basic shapes to make something REALLY cool. there was a lot of skill and heart that went into the original ppg that I think is really lost on the newer one, it just looks awful

#asks #daftydill #and we KNOW they didnt give a shit about ppg bc if you actually cared about it #you wouldnt change everything about it in the worst way possible #(and you wouldnt just read Ace's wikipedia page to write him) #THEY LITERALLY didnt even watch Schoolhouse Rocked. are you kidding me #that means they genuinely didnt make it to season 2 if they even tried to watch the original show first #IF YOURE GOING TO BE REMAKING A SHOW. MAYBE FUCKING WATCH THE SHOW FIRST. AND ACTUALLY ENJOY IT FOR WHAT IT IS #anyway. i have Thoughts on the reboot.

[shower-phantom-ideas]

Got this idea while in the shower and an au where Jack and Maddie didn’t actually care about ghosts anymore. It was all a front. An act they put on to hide what they are really after.

They used to care back in collage but once they realised the government was getting on the bandwagon they decided they didn’t care anymore. (Gov probably asked for something from them that was just the worst).

Anyway this happens when Jazz and Danny are still pretty little. These kids couldnt get along for anything. Jazz a once only child now has to make way for Danny. Danny who doesn’t understand why Jazz doesn’t like him decided it’s only fair to be mean back and try to pull as much “im smaller than her” crap as he can. Their parents just don’t know what to do. And are at their wits end.

One day everything changes when the kids come home from school. Jack and Maddie are to busy being destraut over not getting as much government funding cause they just realised how crappy and insane their government is. They don’t notice that for the first time the kids didn’t come into the house bickering after the bus ride. The house is quite for a change so they can be lost in their heads imagining the worst the government has done with their inventions.

Anyway Jazz and Danny are in Jazzes room looking at a picture book and Jazz is reading to Danny when the parents finally realise something is up. Shell shocked (thats a good handsoap) they stand their frozen as Jazz patiently reads to Danny and even holds out the book to him for him to see the pictures. Turns out it’s a book about unicorns…. All thru dinner Jazz and Danny happily tell their parents about how amazing unicorns are. No fighting or anything. Not even talking over one another. They stare in awe at how Danny is smiling at his sister waiting for his chance to speak. Or how Jazz is helping Danny find some of his words by encouraging him in the conversation. It’s a miracle they think.

Then it hits them. This is what they can do. They will find a unicorn for their children. How hard can it be to hunt down another mythical creature. It will be a surprise for their kids too! Nothing too good for them after all. Wanting to keep it a secret they keep up the ghost hunting act. Making a few crappy inventions for the government here and there but all of them are for a different target. As the years go by they lean to much into the crazy ghost hunter act and even their kids think they are craY. Even making a ghost portal by mistake. It was supposed to be a window. Viewing the location of a unicorn smh. But all their ghost talk was hollow and even kinda fun. It was a great game for them. Hey dear how do you wanna look insane today. How long till someone cracked and actually tried to get them tried for insanity. I guess it was kinda like LARPing. Maybe it was too fun to just let loose and say some crazy shit ok. But no matter how much work they put into their ghost huntersonas they never lost soght of their true goal. A unicorn for their children.

Anyway it’s an au where jack and maddie just pretend to give a shit about ghosts but danny is in the back having the most stressful time possible for basically nothing. I mean with how often jack and maddie miss phantom when shooting it’s hard to believe they miss that much. Plus jack works with phantom. Imagine this reveal. Danny is probably so relieved hes crying and with how much tension just left his body I wouldnt be surprised if he doesn’t become a puddle on the floor. Jazz on the other hand is like “finally proof I was right. You fuckers are insane” who puts up that act that long and doesn’t tell their kids. Or even goes so far as to actually neglect their kids. (To be fair jack and maddie where still inventing just unicorn finding stuff)

#danny phantom #jack fenton #maddie fenton #jazz fenton #danny fenton #I call it fake freaks au #fake freaks au #u can ask me about it but idk how long it will take me to get to you #only made this cause I wanna write bird danny anst

[vashatxt]

blade x reader - period s3x

imagine: you're not feeling too hot, on your period and suffering in bed, but you have a generous boyfriend called blade who knows exactly how to get you to sleep.

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cw: period sex, piss mention, oral sex, ass play.

the worst thing about your period, aside from how little you’re able to get done and the moodswings, is the pain. you’ve always suffered from horrendous cramping, heavy bleeding, bloating, and every other symptom under the sun.

there are days during that week of the month where you can do nothing but curl up into the fetal position, clench your legs together, your hand not resting on your crotch for anything nefarious, just comfort.

one afternoon, after showering to freshen up with no relief from the misery, you resign yourself to a nap. your boyfriend is already in bed, cosy in his boxers and a sweatshirt, his long hair tied up in a ponytail.

You smile at him and then start to pout. "don't be mad, but i think i need to accept the fact today is a write off."

"get in here." you gratefully climb over him onto the bed, curling up and letting out a deep sigh as your head hits the pillow. your tampon is only making you more conscious of your flow with how it would leak within an hour, and that wouldnt make for a peaceful nap.

"i'll change the sheets later...," you mumble. "don't worry about that," blade shushes you, his voice soft and gentle. you nuzzle into his shoulder. "It's okay, my girl." "mhm."

blade lowers the volume on the television while you assume your usual position, hand between your thighs. You try to focus on your breathing to allow yourself to fall into a deep slumber, but it's no use.

the cramping pain that extended right down from your abdomen to your legs is just intensifying. You moan as and wriggle around, trying to relieve it any way possible.

"babe?” blade mumbles. 

"mhhm? im sorry, i know i'm disturbing you-," "you're not at all. i just...," blade slips his own hand between your thighs. "maybe an orgasm could help you sleep?"

"i...," you aren’t a blusher, but for some reason, you feel embarrassed. "i promise i wasnt trying to.... be presumptuous and initiate something-,"

"i know," blade presses his hand down onto your much smaller one, and smirks when you gasp. your hand is the only barrier between your cunt, and blade’s touch. "but you sound like you might need it." "b-but you know i don't like to make it gross...,"

"do you think its gross when i fuck you and my cock and my fingers come out covered in blood?" blade blinks, wide eyed and innocent. it takes everything for you not to moan at the words alone. "no... i think its hot."

"so do i. selfishly, this is one of my favorite times of the month." a grin flashes across his face, before he gently retracts his hand and uses it to roll you onto your back. "spread your legs."

he's gone down on you on your period before, but never while you were freely bleeding this heavily. but you don’t have time to feel self conscious, because the minute blade slips two of his long fingers into your pussy and gently pumps in and out, the lubrication from the blood and cum making it too easy for him to make you feel full. "more," you moan, but blade just laughs. "you're so fucking soaked, you slut."

blade is positioned on his knees between your spread legs, and makes sure to make eye contact before lowering his head, painfully slowly, like you have all the patience in the world. he doesn't break the eye contact until he has to, and he burrows his whole face into your warm cunt. the hand he was using to fuck you is now digging into your hip, keeping you restrained, and the other slips underneath your butt, fingers itching to play with your asshole. but eating you out is the main event. as blade’s tongue swirls inside you and he licks at your clit, just gently enough for it to be considered a tease, you are squirming. You’re sensitive at the best of times, but this is actually threatening to humiliate you with how quick you could climax. You muster the strength to start grinding against his face. "you ok?" blade pulls back, looking at you again. 

"what?!" "you're being a brat." You narrow your eyes. "are you for real?"

Blade loves winding you up, but you can't do it today. you’re destroyed. Blade’s face is soaked, the sun shining in through the window making it absolutely clear that his face is coated in not just blood, but clear, thick  cum too. "kiss me," you demand, and blade knows you’re feeling better already - but isn't going to complain about continuing to take care of you. You’ve forgotten all about your reservations regarding mess, and you clumsily climbs on top of blade, diving in for a sloppy kiss. You taste yourself, and fuck, there is something so hot about it, if you do say so yourself. You suck on blade’s bottom lip and cup his face to smear the blood further across it. he looks like an animal after devouring its helpless prey. and blade is licking his lips. Hungry for more. "leave some for me," he pouts. "not fair, babe." "you cant get enough of my taste, can you?" "you really are an insufferable little bitch."

You kiss him again, blade’s hands are around your waist and pulling you closer, while you fumble underneath his sweatshirt to start flicking and twisting at his nipples - you know how much he gets off on sharp pains like that - “fuck, you’re a desperate little thing.”

"always, baby," blade moans. "please. please please please." "please what?" "i wanna taste y-you... please... i wanna .. i wanna breathe you in... i want to drown in your cunt...i want every drop of you i want it i want it."

You shift forwards and lower yourself onto blade’s lips, blade dutifully supporting you from behind which has the added benefit of being able to pull you down further onto his face.

"this'll shut you up," you mumble, and it's not quite true, because though slightly muffled, blade is louder than ever, louder than even you were. there's something about a boy moaning into your pussy with his hot breath that drives you insane, and you know you won't last long, you’ll spill while still sitting on his face like its a throne made just for you. but thats how blade worships you, after all. he falls apart for you, so he deserves a good view of you falling apart for him.

"you feel what you do to me?" Blade presses his tongue into you in response. of course he can't penetrate much, but it's enough. You ride his tongue, closing your eyes and your hips rising and falling, throwing your neck back. You let the cusses and the whimpers and the "blade"s fall out of your mouth until the moment his lips latch around your throbbing clit and his tongue wraps around in weird and wonderful directions, you cannot even figure out what he was fucking drawing on you in his mind (blade tells you later it was the word "mine"), and when he refuses to stop stimulating your urethra when you warn him to not, you don’t have a choice - "fuck," you yell “blade, blade, bla--," You tremble into the orgasm, feeling the familiar warm sensations of a gush of blood, squirting, and a trickle of piss all while blade digs his fingers into your ass so hard that you can't move from his face.

then, finally, you can roll off him and fall asleep in seconds, this time to the soundtrack of blade jacking off beside you under the covers, not being able to keep your name out of his mouth as he does.

#blade hsr #blade x reader #hsr x reader #blade imagines #blade smut #hsr x you #blade x you

[wiihtigo]

CASEY NATION RISE 7, 9, 17, 20, 23, 25

ask game

7. What’s one way your OC has changed since you first came up with them?

i used to think that she didnt care much about the art of actually acting and cinema and stuff and for her it was more about just being famous and it didnt matter how. i think that was partially because although i knew i wanted her to lust for fame and money the acting dream was kind of just randomly decided on. i thought i could easily swap it out with modelling or singing or something and it wouldnt make much difference. but the more time ive spent with casey, the more i see her as a true lover of movies and art....which i think leads in well to her endgame job being a script editor rather than an actor. her true talents lie behind the screen even if she herself doesnt see it...

9. Do you have a specific lyric or quote which you associate with your OC?

whats a girl to do - cristina

a post canon (after nell dies) caseys life anthem:)

17. What is the worst thing you have put your OC through story-wise?

well i was going to blame it entirely on you that nell dies and i had no say in that but i suppose i did come up with her emotional reaction to that myself, which causes me a lot of slow damage pain. SO I GUESS THAT..the fact she pushes michelle away after it happens is really depressing to me because thats literally her only friend left and only possible pillar of support, but she pushes her away because she hates everything and shes mad shes not nell and shes mad at her family and wants to explode. I think she'd be marginally less suicidal if she stayed friends with her.....

I guess also pulling from alternate realities the one where she dies is pretty fucked up. and very painful. and nell doesnt even make it to her to cradle her in her arms. SAD

20. Does your OC have a tendency to get jealous? If so, how does this manifest?

yyessss. at least when he and nell start getting lowkey. no. highkey #serious. early in their setup he wouldnt gaf if nell was married to a businesswoman in russia.but when they start ummmm [redacted] then hes like waittt. lol waittttttt lol wait. lol. WAITTT. gets a little annoyed when theyre at the doom patrol warehouse party and jayna from the wonder twins tries to get ladybugs number. THATS MY BODYGUARD..GET YOUR OWN. it manifests in that he'll get clingy to nell and mean and passive aggressive (or just aggressive) towards the person pissing him off. will be petty and spiteful (sees some poor scared nervous young lesbian trying to say hi to nell so he slides in and nuzzles up to her shoulder in public to let that sstupid kid know to go away)

idk why he does this. if you asked him if he liked nell he would say And what has she done to MAKE me like her

23. What emotion is the hardest for your OC to process? How about express?

lol GRIEF. little casey has never experienced a death before nell! not even a pet death. she has no idea how to process those feelings or cope with them in the slightest. she goes like catatonic immediately after the fact bcuz shes so completely shocked and wasnt prepared for it at all (lowkey thought ladybug was too awesomeand strong to ever get got. stupidd)

on the complete flip side, also .....l-l-l-l-l-l-l--l-l-l-l-l-l...LOVE. or at least feeling a smidge of serious romantic attraction to someone. in canon end she never gets to deal with that bcuz she only realizes it after nell died and then promptly buried everything related to nell deep inside a hole. but in nyc nell simply has an epic near death experience where hes hospitalized and thats when casey is like fuuuuuuuuuck that scared me. DO I LIKE HER? she acts a bit pathetic and tsundere abt it which is endearing to me personally. maybe scares nell a bit. its cute to me though <3

25. What is your favorite thing about your OC?

shes not a good person </3 shes selfish and mean and doesnt care about other people </3 bent on revenge and hating </3 genuinely not a good guy </3 i love everything negative about casey the most

i also think secretary characters are sexy.

#asks #hi. goodbye #casey

[coldresolve]

i understand why you say "torture doesnt work for information" but like in one story, in one instance i wouldnt say its NOT POSSIBLE, like all characters you work with are different. some people would say the truth after torture (or even from the mention of it, like they get scared), some would get defiant, some would lie, etc. it all depends on the character and their personality.

i think boxing it into "every time it will, under NO CIRCUMSTANCES provide good information" is just as bad as saying that "every time it WILL provide good information", because we are sticking to a trope once again, although not as "harmful", but it's still not realistic. personally i think if you use torture in your story, at least have variety. yes, do have characters that "break" or give info, but have some that dont, etc. like dont have all your characters the exact same. different people react to stuff differently.

you cant say for sure that it will NEVER get them their info. you can still make it a point that its not justified, just because they got the info, the torturers can get traumatized too or maybe get demoted by someone who doesnt approve of their method of getting info ("enhanced interrogation"), but straight up saying it will NEVER EVER get them their info is just as unrealistic. like honestly if someone tortured me i would straight up rat on anyone. wouldnt try to be defiant or shit. just saying.

(this is not that i dont agree with what you say because i do, im just saying it's not that clear cut and there is variety and different personalities and such)

ehh. well first things first

like honestly if someone tortured me i would ...

just stop. you don't know. you can't predict how anyone might react to torture, yourself included.

i think your issue is that you don't understand how thoroughly torture sucks as an interrogation method. it's not just about "people react differently" it's about how torture itself functions. extreme stress fucks with the areas of the brain that are responsible for memory and cognition, it's why memory issues specifically are a part of the diagnostic criteria for ptsd, for example. pain has the capacity to change the physical fucking structure of your brain. torture, in this way, actively destroys the information you want to learn. plus torture makes people say whatever the fuck they think they need to say to make it stop. plus the fact that nothing in the infliction of pain works like a truth serum, people are just as likely, if not more likely, to lie. torture is by far, from everything i've read, the worst way to get trustworthy information out of a reluctant subject. blackmail would do better. coercion would do better. the fucken reid technique would do better, though that shit also has massive flaws. the moment you bring physical abuse into the equasion, you are shooting yourself in the foot

you could write a story where someone shoots randomly into a crowd and, by sheer luck, hits a pedophile. the issue with a portrayal like this isn't that randomly shooting into a crowd and hitting a pedophile is impossible, it's that you are portraying randomly shooting into a crowd as a valid method for hitting pedophiles. thats just not how randomly shooting into a crowd works, you know

#asks #torture discussions

[edwinspaynes]

buckle up, buttercups, i'm about to tell you about the most insane two weeks of my life

okay. so to preface this, i have definitely had an edible or two. so it's going to have kinda weird prose.

when i was a junior in high school, i went with my chinese class on a 2 week long exchange program to china. it was a really amazing country, rich in history and culture, and i am so glad i went.

but there was a catch.

my chaperon - we'll just call her laoshi - was the absolute worst chaperone ever. like, literally, worst in the history of mankind. before we went to china, she refused to get a new cell phone sim that would work in the country. so we had absolutely no means of contacting her if we didn't know her whereabouts. she also failed to convey our allergy information and other dietary restrictions in china, so i was fed oily carrot soup. (she also deadass gave us alcohol several times)

but everything was worse for my raw-vegetable vegan roommate. we'll call her o. o was a wonderful person.

when we were in china, we were on a tour trip. so we got all of our amenities. part of that was one (1) bottle of water to last the entire day. laoshi failed to get us more water, and it was scarce in our locations. tap water isn't potable, so we were at the whims of street vendors with water bottles and they were not everywhere. even if they were, laoshi wouldnt necessarily let us stop. it was about 115 degrees farenheit.

she also did not tell us where she would be staying. we asked her to take us to the pool one night, she literally just told us to get in the van with a strange dude and went to her room qhere we had no way of contacting her. we declined the ride and the trip to the pool because we had to be responsible for ourselves.

two of the kids in my group started dating, d and k. they were staying in each other's rooms every night and having sex. the teacher, at the end of the trip ddid not know they were dating and they were super into pda.

my o the raw vegetable vegan has no choice but to eat meat for the duration of the trip. this inevitably makes her extremely sick. one night, she is throwing up from the other side of the hotel bed. over and over. she is so ill and so miserable. i am scared for her safety but WOOT WOOT can't call a teacher. so i, age 16, am now tasked with this situation. so i go down to the desk and ask the hotel manager where she is. they don't know. it is a nightmare. i ask for them to send a cleaner.

i go back up to the room. o thinks some tea might settle her stomach a bit and i agree, so i make a pot of tea. i am so exhausted. it is like 4 am. i have been cleaning up after o and helping her all night. so i am stupid and i pour the hot, BOILING water on my hand. i shit you not. i sustained third degree burns. but still have no means of contacting an adult.

the cleaning lady comes. she begins to vomit sympathetically.

i am in the worst possible position. o is crying and apologizing and i am crying over my hand. so i go down to the front desk to get burn heal cream. we also had a conversation about getting a laxative for my roommate. i don't know how to say laxative. i say 'you take medicine, you get diarhea' because laoshi had taught us those words.

the entire rest of the trip is me applying that (very good) salve and reapplying gauze in the bathroom so laoshi doesnt notice the serious medical issue emerging on my hand.

o is meanwhile still vilely ill. i'm sad because i love her. we are super close at this point because we've undergone this horrific experience together in 2 weeks.

the rest of our trip, she doesn't notice. we get on the plane. i ask d and k if they want me to change seats so they can be together. laoshi asks why

@thevagabondexpress

#personal

[cure-typhoon]

i apologize for the wording in that ask lol. using the lalondes as an example again but better hopefully,, kid rose is sent in place of kid roxy and the same with their guardian counterparts. so rose grows up in post apocalyptic fish land with jake, jane, and dirk, while roxy is raised by guardian rose and is friends with john, jade, and dave. you can do this with any player duo like the captors, vantas’s etc but only just them. ur just swapping them around pre and post scratch. ig the question is more what swap would u be most intrigued by :)?

OHH thank you! English is not my first language and i get confused easily! sorry :b

Let's see... I'm assuming they grow up in the alternate universe and didnt just swap places out of nowhere with all their memories and all. Sooo, i think first one would be Feferi and Meenah /The Condesce and Beforus Feferi

It's kinda hard to imagine how some characters would be in different circunstances, as the enviroment is one of the primary things that shapes a person. But I doubt The Condesce/Adult Meenah in Beforus would be the same tyrant she was on Alternia. Meenah has been shown to be cruel (with bullying Damara so extremely that Damara straight up killed her) but also as someone who cares about their friends, like when she starts crying to June about Aranea.

So I think a Condesce rulling Beforus WOULD definitly change the way it is. First I really doubt they would have the Cuddling system the way Beforus Feferi had it, as Meenah literally tried to shape her team to become stronger, in the worst way possible and she ended up failling, but at least that was her plan. So Beforus in the rule of The Condesce would probably start to become like a less hellish Alternia?

But also Meenah was shaped by Beforus Feferi and not wanting to be like her so maybe The Condesce wouldnt have a need to try to make everything harsher? I think she would just be like, Royalty who is worshippped like Gods. Maybe she pulls up fight tournaments from time to time to not get bored and to shape the Trolls to not be ''lame''. This place is probably ridden with lots of inequality, but so was OG Beforus so its not that much of a change.

Basically she would be an uninterested Ruler who is just enjoying the fruits of being basically a Goddess to her people

Feferi in the place of Meenah HMMM, okey I really doubt the condesce in beforus would try to murder her, so at least she has that (And not taking care of Gl'bgolyb). So for starters Feferi would have like 100% less pressure but I feel she would have a God Complex.

Like OG Feferi where she wanted to help people but was obviously misguided, but here I feel she would straight up be like ''I can never be wrong'' and wants to overthrown the Condesce and kill her even though she Definitly Doesnt Need To Do That. But she is sending a message and telling everyone she is changing shit, well at least that was her OG plan before starting the Game as she found a way to make her Perfect World. She is not happy for the failling. I feel she would become like OG Aranea where she tries to be more relevant, she probably was in cahoots with Aranea in this timeline, besties in crime

She would probably be super studious and involved in everything, to try to become ''The Best Ruler That Beforus Will Ever SEA 38D''

(ignore that i forgot her horns)

About Beforus Feferi in Alternia

Like I feel she wouldnt try to change things in Alternia after coming to power, like I really doubt she is a fucking Nice ruler considering how Alternia is, but I think she has her doubts of how things are like, with how much unnecesary death there is. I think she would be a harsh and cruel ruler who definitly see's Lowbloods pitfully, but when she listens to the Sufferer's speechs and decides to meet with the him in private to hear his demand, I feel that The Handmaid would frame The Sufferer as if he was trying to murder Beforus Feferi and she would quickly change her mind.

Meenah in Alternia I really doubt would be having a good time, she would have to be feeding her lusus on her own, threat of murder with her ancestor, and the general Murderland that is Alternia

I don't think Beforus Feferi left the planet in this case or maybe she is much closer than the OG Condesce, pressuring Meenah to become a fit ruler for Alternia makes Meenah stressed

Like yes The OG Condesce went through similar stuff but i feel that Meenah being younger and also being influenced by her ancestor, her friendgroup, her lusus. She just wants to dip but she CANT with her lusus possibly killing everyone so she is very glad with the game starting soon

Okey this post is getting too long im doing another one later with the other swap!

#homestuck #my art #feferi peixes #meenah peixes #the condesce #beforus feferi #beforus #alpha trolls #beta trolls #trollswap

[koipalm]

my like i guess take/personal view of joker is that he's only able to help akechi because the other phantom thieves showed him kindness and love,

if we use the chain metaphor joker locked his heart away , he felt mad, betrayed and confused , and just to me joker at the start is a very just cold person,

but then he meets the thieves and little by little his chains begin to break then he meets akechi and a river suddenly overflowing, its very sudden and hard to control because he realizes he finally can allow himself to love

if that make sense fghgjkll;

i like that idea, but i also like the idea that its a two way street! im of the unpopular opinion that akechi likely wouldnt have done the same thing if he had been afforded the same thing in jokers shoes & circumstances. I say this because as joker people reaching out to you is just as important as reaching out to them and helping and spending time with them and connecting to them. theoretically in the game dynamics you could claim that joker is partially (or only) doing this to gain the confidante points and power up, but to me i only see that as a dynamic of the persona games. i really do feel storywise like joker is reaching out to others because he cares and wants to help them..... for example, even if the player themselves does not want to help a confidante, jokers dialogue options dont allow for that!

in contrast, i do think akechi was not in the worst possible position that he couldnt have "gone back" in a sense and reached out for help and helped other people too. of course, we dont have an inside look on akechi's life, but even at a more shallow look at things it does seem that he had options to turn back and he didn't. from his position as a detective, i think he would have had a lot of connections both from his work and even in the metaverse of finding people that could have helped him. i personally think that this mentality of akechis is interesting and kind of funny that he wanted revenge so bad that he was willing to forsake everything else. of course, its all up for interpretation....

but yeah, i really do think that his case was not necessarily a case of "i had to do this and there was no other choice because the adults made me" like mishima, but more of him actively, choice by choice, damning himself. of course, i dont think that his story can be divorced from adults using and abusing kids, but again, to me, PERSONALLY i see akechi as the type to throw others under the bus until the system eventually turns on him. in the end i also dont see akechi as genuinely remorseful of his actions, in that he actively grieves and regrets the lives hes taken. i think that he regrets the path that his life took and the fact that he was used in turn, but i think theres a kind of disconnect: he may regret that he killed, but i dont think he feels for the life that was lost, both with the mental shutdowns and the psychotic breaks, or the collateral damage.

even in third semester, (and while again. it can be argued that theyre shadows and not people, or that he is simply blowing off steam) it really does feel like he wants to cause harm. and i dont see a change like 'i want to hurt someone/something' -> 'im hurting someone/something because im pissed about being used by someone' BUT ONCE AGAIN. my personal opinion. i think hes a ruthless kind of guy.

in the end with all this being said, i cant be certain that in jokers shoes he would act similarly or that in better circumstances he would act as kind! that isnt to say that i think akechi was always doomed to be an asshole and he could never reach out and be kind, or hell that the system wasnt to blame for him turning out this way. but i DO think the system was not the only thing to blame! i think he made a lot of choices and felt that he had no other path or choice, so he didnt LOOK. but even at the end joker and the rest of the phantom thieves reach out despite ALL that he has done. he was irrevocably a murderer, and a hand was still extended....

#once again ALL JUST MY PERSONAL OPINIONS. THANK YOU ALL. #of course there is more to say but i always talk SOOO much for asks so. i will hold #ask #persona 5 spoilers #persona 5 royal spoilers #okay this is all to say that even with ALL of the circumstances reversed.... i dont necessarily think akechi is a perfect mirror of joker #not only do i think he would have made different choices but i think he might not have extended the same hand..... #again again again. my opinion. MY opinion bc i think its interesting #ok sorry my bad my bad #this all cannot be proved for certain because its all on interpretation #and we cannot know for SURE how the would act in different situations #especially if it was completely reversed #however. this is my take.... #but yeah like the guys his own character and hes allowed to not be a perfect mirror of joker of course #ok sorry again this got. super long #not sure i explained all of this right but uhh i talked enough i think

[polycharismas]

obligatory sappy post. hello. i remember last year i started the sappy post with going about how i lost someone important but. that bitch really doesnt compare to who i lost this year. its im pretty sure the first time i have ever experienced what a real actual loss is. im sure that sounds extremely depressing but one thing i know he would have wanted from me was to move on in the best way that i could and unfortunately for me that best way may or may just lie in bitches i met on tumblr dot com so. thanks for that ig. at least i can confidently say i am absolutely sincere with everything im saying and will say next, contrary to the way i actually felt back in 2022. for all my other mutuals, thanks. sincerely thanks for being with me during my highs and my many many lows. happy new years for all of you. and as for the 5 people that made this year and the next to come worth living. uhm. some stuff for all of you below ig

for my actual real sister. im not sure about how often you read my posts but i hope you read this somehow. every year spent with you by my side made every single one of my struggles something so so so much more bearable. no words will ever be able to fully describe the extent of happiness every second spent with you brings me. im so glad to have you by my side this entire year and im pretty sure for the rest of my life. lets keep bullying sanji this year. thank you so much for everything.

for lyria. there are very little people that have been able to change me and the way i think to the extent you did. i'll forever be glad i was able to bring such a change in the way you were to the way you are now, and i want you to know you also brought a lot of positive in change in me, i know things ended up being complicated between us but that still wont change the fact you are one of the people i appreciate the most in my life. lets yuri it up once again this year. thank you so much for everything.

for nazu. despite how ? hard it ends up being for us to talk it always Always ends up being one super fun experience, i trust you to like. extreme degrees Thanks for seeing all my struggles fire emoji. i think you know a Lot about me at this point and thats. really really cool. im glad to know i can count on you for most things. i cant count the amount of times being with you ended up with me laughing until my ribs actually hurt. lets be the best ifunny users again this year. thank you so much for everything.

for apollo. never in my life would i have guessed the amount of shit that would go down with the mere action of following you slash. positive? negative? well mostly the first one for me though. theres a lot of insight i have gotten about myself that wouldnt have been possible with anyone else but you. you are so funny without trying at all also. everything is just so much more livelier and fun with you around. i'll do my best to study your brain this year. thank you so much for everything.

and lastly but not because of less importance, just because im scared of having to express. everything. for kie. theres nothing that could express the like. wide range of emotions i feel towards you. i know i end up Not expressing it as much as i would like because im genuinely scared sometimes but just know without you these last 3 months would have been genuinely the worst in my entire life. im still too scared to be actually sincere about some of my most. complicated feelings. but i'll always be completely certain you mean absolutely everything. i'll try my best to show that to the extent you truly deserve because you deserve way more than what i have given you up to this point. i love you. more than anyone else in the world. and i wouldnt mind dedicating my entire life to cherishing everything you are. lets Idk be more toxic this year THATS HORRIBLE OKAY. thank you so much for everything.

idk how to end this. just. thanks for being there. all of you. happy new years.

[heavyskysystem]

bro I feel like I can talk about it now that cederic is halfway stable. but I have personally never experienced anything more scary than having an alter take over to specifically threaten and hurt somebody I loved and cared for. nothing makes you feel as out of control as..... your own body hurting someone you love. and you having like... zero control over it. its taken from your hands. youre just helpless. good guy aimed right for what would hurt me worst. cuz like as an alter he obviously had direct access to every little fear I had and everything I think would be the worst.

it was my perfect fucking nightmare for so many months.

there were days I locked myself inside the bedroom, stayed inside all day and avoided my boyfriend cuz I was scared of cederic taking over to threaten or harm him. I was in and out of psych wards both cuz of physical damages that had the possibility to cause lasting damages everytime to myself and bcz I was scared for my partner and didnt trust myself around ppl cuz an alter may try to attack someone or harm them physically.

I went from not having a history of violence, never even having thoughts or tendencies in that direction, to someone who could not protect the persons he loves most from herself. all bcz of an alter.

that fucked with me. tremendously.

but now????????????????????? its over????????? after all these months??? its over?? safety?? stability??? connection??? praise??

its just good now. I lost. like a lot. like this shit fucked with me. it sabotaged everything. I did not just lose a relationship lol.

like. ive heard of persecutors, but that that shit could fuck with you like that.

& I cant describe how fucking dumb and silly and pathetic I feel for being like, an alter hurt my partner and it was traumatizing and bad for me. like this is still my body that done did it lol. I still feel responsible, I still feel fucking guilty for it even if I had ZERO way of stopping it. .

like. we as a system did damage to this person psychologically too. my now ex bf basically had the girl he loved ripped from him within a single day, ever since the repressed memories came back and switches started to happen. and he held the trauma inside. like. idk what to do with that. we as a system literally hurt this person so fucking badly. cuz he was close to us and around us during that fucked up timespan. just cuz he was THERE and alters were so fucking aggressive. I feel like its my fault for not having had control over them.

he went from feeling so safe w/ me, hed fall asleep ten seconds after being in my arms to fearing just being in a room with me. like. our entire relationship was build on trust and mutual safety-giving. connection. intimacy. it was a deep and loving relationship. with enough faults. but still. he was the first person that actually loved me, not just obsessed over me. he was the only person I couldve imagined having children with. I loved him. I really did. Like. you wouldnt believe the lvl of trust and safety this person had in me for all these years weve been together. then the DID really starts becoming obvious and it all flows together. and its just... a decrease steady decline after that. with so much violent energy. so much psychological damage.

but for him its like? yeah. he saw the person he loved go from someone he knew, to someone hes deadly afraid of, someone he felt he hardly knew. fucking terrified whenever an alter fronted, cuz he always cud tell cuz our voice and body-language changes. all of it terrifying to him. understandably so.

its fucking scary to go from a person that never acted or felt violent, to someone who has like alters switch her out and take over to act violent, to be out of control. and you know somewhere its your responsibility, cuz it just is. its still your body doing it. you know? even when youre completely blacked out.

& I think psychologically that was so fucked up for him.

Just to see the girl he loved being ripped away from him, the hatred he felt for my alters. the sheer fucking grudge he had against them. up until he had to accept being w/ me wasnt possible anymore. and I wanted that breakup ever since alters started acting out, ik I was shit for him to be around.

Idk man. Ive been w/ that guy since I was 17 years of age. He was a major part of my life. and im HAPPY about the breakup. cuz I didnt wanna stay w/ him after we done all that. I think it doesnt fucking matter if a alter did it or I did it. as soon as theres violence, its over. no excuses. so im glad it ended.

but like all of it was so fucking fucking fucking mental.

And now? I somehow got it under control. somehow its no longer even a worry.

I got control back. cederic is no longer rlly acting out. and if then its only aimed at me.

I made it out. I made it thru it. I survived it.

and now?? i have like. someone in my head with me still cheering me on, no longer butting in and trying to take over my body. no longer using all the horrible ways he could miuse us sharing a body to cause harm. now its becoming peaceful and pretty and serene. and comfortable. and connective and loving.

who wouldve thought man.

just a positive little guy in my head that cheers me on, that is there for me, that listens, that grounds me when I have flashbacks, that cheers me up, that tries to help me. that compliments me. praises me.

just a damaged person learning to be better.

#vent

[theclosetedskeleton]

heyyy hey hai!!!! just a reminder little that ^_^

i love youuu!!!! sososososooo very incredibly much. more than words and numbers could ever think about describing. even if the right words/numbers did exist, it still wouldnt be enough to accurately describe just how much. the amount is just incomprehensible. you are the light of my life, my everything, the brightest star in the entire night sky. you make everything better when things are bad. everyday whenever i wake up, even if im unsure if the day will be good, i always have talking to you to look forward to. you make me the happiest every single fucking day just by existing. even if we dont talk on somedays, just the idea of you makes me so giddy. i will do legitimately anything and everything just to make you as happy as you make me. it doesnt matter what that entails. if i have to construct a new invention no one has ever seen before just to get a grin out of you? well you can consider me already working on it. youre in my mind 24/7 and i really cant go 5 minutes without thinking about you, how you are, what youre doing, etc. you are the most amazing, kindest, talented, and just. best person ive met. ever. i dont know what the future holds, and it kind of scares me, but all i know is that whatever itll throw at me as long as im with you, everything will be okay. i love everything about you. your perfections, imperfections (i say this in a way as if theres any imperfections in your eyes. youre absolutely perfect to me <3), your art, your humor, your jokes, your silly images you make, your bracelets, everything. i really mean that. you can always, and i mean ALWAYS, talk to me if there is ANYTHING bothering you. i will always he here for you, no matter what. time, day, place, doesnt matter. you NEVER bother me. never have and never will. i love hearing you ramble about things and i could listen to you all day. i care about you more than anything could describe. if it was possible, i would make all the bad and nasty things in your life go away. you dont deserve anything of what youve been put through. 

you are fucking amazing. dont you ever forget that.

i love you so much ez <33333333/gen/qp!!!!!

HIIII IM SO SOS SO SORRY FOR THE LATE RESPONSE I DIDNT HAVE THE MOTIVATION TO REPLY TO THIS SORRY

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EAHGDH <3333333333333333!!!!!

I LOVE YOU TOO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO SOS SSOSOSOO SO VERRY EVERY VERYER MUCHHH !!!!!! THE WORDS THAT EXIST AND MORE CANT EVEN DESCRIBE THAT!!!!! THE AMOUNT IS FUCKING INCOMPREHESIBLE.!!!!! YOU ARE MY ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING. THE LITERAL REASON I GET OUT OF BED IN THE MORNING !!! IM ALWAYS SO FUCKING HAPPY WE GET TO TALK, EVEN ON THE DAYS WE DONT GET TO/BARELY DO !!!!! THE THOUGHT OF YOU MAKES ME THE HAPPIEST PERSON ON THE PLANET OH MY GOD !!!! EVERYTHING REMINDS ME OF YOU. !!!! ALL THE SONGS YOU SHOWN ME, YOUR FAVORITE COLOR, THOSE SILLY WOLF IMAGE SYOU USE ALL THE TIME, FALL, ETC !!!! THERE DOESNT GO A SINGLE MOMENT WHERE I THINK ABOUT YOU, IF I COULD I'D HAVE YOU HERE WITH ME ALL THE TIME <333 you make EVERYTHING so sos SOOO MUCH BETTER !!!! I COULD BE HAVING THE WORST DAY I EVER HAD AND YOU WOULD LITERALLY MAKE IT THE BEST DAY OF MINE !!!!!!!!!!! IM LITERALLY SO LUCKY TO HAVE YOU HERE. I DONT FUCKING KNOW HOW I HAVE YOU IN MY LIIFE, BUI IM SO HAPPY I DO!!!!!! I'D DO ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING FOR YOU !!! LIKE I MEAN THAT. DO YOU WANT ME TO COLLECT THE STARS FOR YOU? GO ON VC WITH YOU? OR JUST BE WITH YOU? CONSIDER ME ALREADY DOING THAT. YOU ARE THE LITERAL MOST AMAZING. KIND. AWESOME BEST FUCKING PERSON LIKE. EVER !!! I MEAN THIS!!!! I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU. THERE IS NOTHING, AND I EAN NOTHING THAT I WOULD CHANGE ABOUT YOU, I LOVE YOU JUST THE WAY YOU ARE !!!! YOURE PERFECT IM MY EYES, AND IT DOESNT MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, YOU ALWAYS WILL BE !!!! I WILL ALWAYS ALWAYS (SHAKES YOU BY THE SHOULDERS) ALWAYSSS BE THERE FOR YOU !!!!! IT DOESNT MATTER HOW BIG OR SMALL SOMETHING IS BOTHERING YOU, OR IF THERE IS ANYTHING BOTHERING YOU, I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU !!!! I WILL NEVER. EVER. EVER LEAVE YOU, IF I NEEDED TO, I'D CLAW MY WAY JUST TO TALK TO YOU AGAIN. FUCK EVERYTHING THATS IN OUR WAY, ILL BE THERE WITH YOU UNTIL WE DIE, AND LONGER THAN THAT !!!! ID TAKE ANYTHING THAT WOULD EVER BE BOTHERING YOU AND MAKE IT SO THAT WAY YOU'D NEVER SEE THOSE ISSUES AGAIN!!!!!!

YOU ARE SO FUCKING AMAZING AS WELL!!!!!1 I LOVE YOU SO MUCH RICKY !!!!!!!!! <333333333333333/GEN/QP

#closet rambles again on tumblr

[guiltycorp]

@crimsongrimoire here: #okay honestly the last name part bugs me too#doesnt it STILL say on the wiki that a former alias was their last name#like what is your proof! cite your fucking sources!#literally somehow one of the worst wikis ive been interested in#so many sources of made up ass info are just like trust me bro#and the gross oversimplification of their dynakic#*dynamic jesus.#like idk you can prefer them platonically idgaf. just dont make shit up wholesale to sell a narrative that doesnt exist.#(...not to say klk enjoyers dont as well But. brother insisters are so much worse about it)#(so few genshin fans have reading comprehension at all fr)#its just such a mess. you can just Say you dont see them romantically. you wont die. i promise#no need to have 10 banners and 20 tags with posturing about how you want klk shippers to choke and die#when theres like Literally nothing Inherently Wrong with it#though people who say shit like 'yeah well it WOULD be hot if they WERE brothers so!'#you are not helping the cause#the 'making people mad on purpose for fun to make them look dumb' works so rarely and almost never over fandom nonsense#either way big agree op#fave#funnily this is the same kinda people who are all like AWWWW HIDDEN STRIFE WAS SWEET IT WASNT SAD AT ALL#and like completely misreading the tone of like All the letters esp those between kaeya and diluc#which is funny cause like Every post ive seen on the subject has been about Them and That part and how AWWW THEY KEPT I CONTACT?!?!#when.... the letters on both sides carry very palpable senses of tension from the wording and esp the brevity of dilucs#some very minor but painful details#and just in general all the letters in question like.. while it was nice diluc was getting support#it was in the WORST circumstance. its incredibly melancholy and bittersweet. like yes its nice to know everyone cares.#but also it was so avoidable. but also at the same time nobodys fault. even though both of them kick themselves for it#remembered my other point DILUC ONLY REPLIED TWICE. TO KAEYAS 9 LETTERS. THAT IS NOT KEEPING CONTACT!#there is no reason kaeya wouldnt have put any other letters from him with the others tbh unless theyre recent in which case#kinda irrelevant. thats not 'keeping contact' theyre in the same place now like Often.#ngl we have no indication if kaeya got those letters to him somehow or just left them for his return.

Literally like!! Genshin fandom has actually been one of the worse fandom experiences for me, and I think we can blame a lot of it on the game and its translation, but also it’s just so goddamn frustrating at times. That klc post was written before hidden strife but if anything the event further confirmed that their dynamic wasn’t ‘adopted siblings’ (despite eng translation as usual messing up everything including Kaeya’s opinion of their fight) and that Kaeya doesn’t view himself as a Ragnvindr. 

An AU where Kaeya would have been fully adopted could be potentially interesting, actually! Ragbros AU if you will. But for some reason people never really go for all the implications of that - how strongly it would influence Kaeya’s internal conflict and his abandonment issues, how Diluc would change his treatment of Kaeya, how differently another Ragnvindr progeny would be viewed in Mondstadt, would he succeed the Dawn Winery’s business, so many possibilities... But no, they simply take canon klc dynamic and twist it, ignoring all the discrepancies which point to a non-familial relationship. That tag is just one more annoying attempt at censure within fandom spaces, familiar to anyone who ever interpreted fictional relationships as homoerotic before (how dare you tarnish this beautiful brotherly or sisterly bond by your sinful delusions etc etc yawn). And big agree about Hidden Strife letters, they still represent the usual dynamic as is the norm for all those temporary events. But fandom sadly tends to go for extreme interpretations, either the characters totally hate each other or they are secretly totally fine and getting along splendidly... I guess maybe people are getting tired of this kind of one-sided relationship, so they want some kind of resolution one way or another, but I kind of like the place Kaeya and Diluc are in right now. It would be nice to get some more Diluc POV just to confirm whether he cares in a detached way or in a barely suppressed passionate & deep way, and/or if perhaps he does carry some hateful feelings towards Kaeya, but otherwise it’s just a really good starting off point for creating fan content.  Speaking only for myself, but it’s all the more bittersweet that there is a possibility that they won’t reconcile after all, that their paths might diverge, that their ideologies might already be irreconcilable without us knowing, that Diluc maybe doesn’t really care that much after all. With this in mind, positive outcomes such as reconciliation, a romantic relationship or a rekindling of friendship, are so much more impactful. 

#especially since i dont trust genshin with writing khaenriah vs celestia in a compelling way #when they finally get to it #kaeluc #kaeya #diluc #genshin #is it weird to answer tags in this way? #probably #but that was an already long post #@crimsongrimoire #text

[lunarsapphism]

i got my birthday cards from my dads family tonight. i swear i almost caught myself opening them more carefully this year. ive never kept any of them. i dont think it would have been good for me, but i wish i did. i think that getting rid of them makes doing this every year easier. more like a transaction, less like real people. im a sentimental person but i try not to be. people and things mean a lot to me and its really hard when i try to push everything away. i always pretend that i dont care about whats written in each tacky piece of folded cardstock with crudely printed cakes and balloons and flowers on each of them but i think i do. i think i always have. i read them quickly and make a facial expression that represents something between nonchalance and disgust in hopes that that performance is enough to keep myself from crying.

its an indescribable feeling, this one is. it comes out as tears but i dont think its sadness. I think its an amalgamation of every complex emotion ive ever felt. its grief, anger for sure, and something else. i mourn for something that once was, that i know ill never have again. half of the people i hear from every year are dead now, they all died this year. i could talk to the living ones again, but ill never get out of it exactly what im seeking because thats impossible. im not the child they knew and they're not the people i knew. we're different now, but everyone always stays the same in the worst ways possible.

my sister said "they're bad people, but they're still people," and i think thats what gets me the most. they are truly inherently bad people. they are harmful and unsafe. and i miss them. not for who they are, but for how i remember them. still they grieve and mourn for people i once knew too, regardless of how horrible they are and were.

its a weird thing, to mourn as an adult and a child at the same time. nobody tells you that that's something that can happen, but it is. how do i, at twenty years old, process something that ten year old me never got to? twenty year old me doesnt feel much for these people and this situation. she's been through a lot and has learned to expect very little of people. she cares too much and she's always scared but she'll never tell anyone that. ten year old me knew too much and not enough. she didnt know why things were happening, just that they were and that things were unsafe. she didnt know that that was the last time she was gonna see those people. she really cared about them. maybe she would have said something. i know she wouldnt have. she didnt know how. i still dont. not even when i had the chance. we're still the same person, her and i. we're different in many ways, but fundamentally very little has changed. maybe thats why this is all so hard.

id like to talk to the younger me, i think. someone needed to give her a hug and let her cry on their shoulder. i wish i could be that for her.

i hope that somewhere in another universe im living happily with no emotional burden. not for my sake, but for the sake of the little girl i was before i was me.

#i really genuinely dont care who reads this #i think kve finally given in to the idea of oversharing about my mental state on this website #if its not obvious im not doing well #if someone wants me to tag this ig i will but im not doing it if no one sees it #aiilov-personal

[miikewazowski]

i HOPE you see this.

disclaimer: this post is filled with all the hate i could possibly emit. it is everything i want to say to him, so please excuse my french. it is the punch to his nuts that i should have given him then. it is the mental pain i wish i could have reciprocated in the moment. 

other disclaimer: i am not a violent person. i do not condone violence. this post is simply my demons having a little freedom for a moment. they are running amuck in my head. i need them out. i never abused anyone, i was always the one BEING abused.

you fucking suck. you are probably the worst human i have ever met. youre fucking crazy. you should be a mental patient. and if you need proof of that, i have it sweetie. i will have it until the day i die. in case your dumbass tries some shit in the future. “wHy ArE yOu ReCoRdInG” fucking dumbass. i have all your little meltdowns on tape. you yelling at me, you scaring my DOG. you PUNCHING YOUR OWN DOG, you telling lies, you pulling out the GUN, should i keep going? you cant be trusted. and we ALL know you have your fucking family wrapped around your little finger. you treat them like SHIT and they still care about you. they still think theres something there worth saving. first hand i can tell you, you are a shell of a human. YOU KNOW HOW FUCKED UP YOU ARE AND YET YOU STILL REFUSE TO BE HELPED. so fucking be it bro. what really pisses me off is you just fucking got away with ALL OF IT. i called the cops on you TWICE and both times you stopped me. i WISH one of them went through. i was on the phone with the girl while you were screaming. hoping you wouldnt see me on the phone. i couldnt put it up to my ear. do you know HOW BADLY i wanted her to trace the call. i was BEGGING for the universe to save me from your insane ass. you are a piece of shit. karma is on its way to you. i manifest it every day. i hope your life is awful. i hope nothing ever goes your way. i hope you rot in hell, oh how i wish hell was real. people like you deserve to live there. burning. in constant agony. YOU NEED TO ATONE FOR WHAT YOU DID TO ME. YOU NEED TO BE PUNISHED FOR YOUR ACTIONS. YOU NEED TO OWN UP TO THEM. I SHOULD NOT HAVE TO LIVE IN SILENCE. THE WORLD NEEDS TO KNOW YOUR FACE, YOUR NAME, YOUR ENTIRE BEING.

YOU ARE AN ASSHOLE.

YOU PUT ME IN DANGER WITHOUT ANY REGARD.

YOU SHOULD BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE.

takes u to court for emotional turmoil

bitch i would sue you for everything you OWN

i should have taken bucket. youre going to kill that dog one day. for fucks sake you punched him full force in the head because he tried to lick your popsicle. then threw him across the room like a football. i should have called the animal police bro. you cant even take care of yourself, why are you being trusted with a helpless dog? i dont give a fuck about you. let me make that clear. you dont deserve anything in this world as far as im concerned. but that dog, that dog needs to be saved.

you are LUCKY that you still have your family, unfortunately for them. but they are all you will ever have. you are a gaslighter. and i hope to fucking GOD that you dont entrap ANYONE else. live alone, die alone. 

that being said, you pussy ass bitch, if you MIRACULOUSLY decide to admit yourself and become a GOOD PERSON, then MAYBE i will consider manifesting positivity for you. but if you are still the same abusive asshole that i lived with, then i will continuously wish nothing but hell for you.

but heres the thing about GASLIGHTERS. its in your DNA fuckhead. your brain is LITERALLY fucked up. so you cant change. and i doubt you will. because you are “fine”.

well, YOU DONT GET TO GET AWAY WITH THIS. the more i heal, the more i see the truth. you manipulated my entire life. i became a pet to you. a pet that you abused. im basically bucket. i loved you unconditionally, and you abused that love. YOU ARE AN ABUSER. YOU ARE DANGEROUS. you need to be stopped. and i will live with this pain for the rest of my life because of you. i will ALWAYS remember what you put me through/did to me. if i EVER see you on the street, i WILL catch a case I. DONT. GIVE. A. FUCK.  DONT YOU ever STEP IN MY LANE AGAIN. you are dead to me. i was the best thing you ever had. i hope you think of me. i hope you miss me. i hope your heart aches from the loss of me. i hope the pain is as unbearable as the pain you caused me.

now heres where you misunderstood me.

you took me for a fool. someone that you could manipulate endlessly. you must have thought i was dumb. LMFAO. i love HARD but i am NO idiot. i saw you. i KNOW the real you. and it gets clearer every day. you cant run from who you are. and if i have to let the world know who you are too, i will. so stay low. dont make any noise. dont hurt another SOUL. or i’ll pop up. you dont get to hurt anyone else. i refuse to let it happen. i crave justice and revenge. only thing keeping me quiet now, is i dont want to be a bad person. i dont want drama. you aint worth it motherfucker. but im ready for anything. you can not be trusted.

so keep telling your lies. keep everyone thinking you have a halo. keep abusing people. keep it up. i know you will end up where you are supposed to be. people like you dont make it very far in life. 

just know, as long as im alive, you have an enemy walking this earth.

fuck you w, d.e.

[bamberry]

With Marinette’s emotional state in utter shit, here’s some angst I’ve been thinking about. (Spoilers if you haven’t seen S4 or rocketear)

-Marinette just found out Alya told Nino she was still Rena Rogue. Possible Alya and Marinette fight.

-“You did what?”

-“It seemed like the best choice.”

-Cue Marinette giving into all the bad outcomes and worst case scenarios. Y’know, her rambling.

-she starts saying things without clear thought.

“I should have never given you the miraculous back. I knew this would happen. I’m such a idiot for thinking everything would be fine.” Marinette says.

-Her emotions are high. The anxiety about Hawkmoth finding out her identity is overwhelming her.

- “Marinette, calm down. We’re still in this together.”

- “Are we?”

-Alya is taken back,”What?”

-“Are we really in this together? because it seems to me that you go just go ahead and make the decisions without discussing things with me first.”

- *cough* parallel to her situation with chat noir

-“Well if you trust me, you would trust me my better judgement, wouldnt you?

-“I don’t know. I don’t know if I can even trust you anymore.”

- Alya takes a look at Marinette who is not her charismatic self anymore.

-“You don’t actually mean that.” Alya begins to feel the betrayal of Marinette’s words.

- Cue Marinette’s alarm ringing as a reminder for her patrol with Chat Noir.

-“I do.”

- She takes off to patrol with Chat Noir, leaving Alya stunned and hurt.

-A dozen emotions flood Marinette’s senses. Guilt, Betrayal, Sadness, Pity, and self depreciation. She did get into a fight with Alya. It was her fault after all, it was her mistake of telling Alya. She couldn’t blame anyone but herself.

- She makes it to Chat Noir, he’s quieter than usual but she doesn’t think much of it. She’s been thinking too much.

-She doesn’t know that Chat Noir has had a real bad day. She doesn’t know his father was harsher than usual, she doesn’t know that he found out about Rena and Carapace, and she doesn’t know that he feels completely left out of her life.

-“Milady, are you doing okay?” Chat Noir asks, regardless of everything. He still asks, because he still cares.

-“It’s not important Chaton.” She lies right through her teeth. Chat Noir knows she’s lying. He can’t help but feel the anger in him bubble lightly.

-“Does it have to do with any of the other heroes?” Chat Noir asks.

-Ladybug looks at him with pity,”it’s probably best you don’t know..”

-“So what exactly can I know then, Milady? Because it just seems like I’m the only person left out of the loop as of late.”

-“Chat.. please don’t take it personal-“

-“No I think I will take it personal, Milady, Or whoever is behind that mask. I get you’re guardian and everything but you said nothing would change between us. You said you trusted me more than anyone else.

“Chat-“

“Were you ever going to tell me?”

-he finally snaps, he finally tells her that he knows about Rena Rogue and Carapace.

-Ladybug stands in fear. Her heart starts to race uncontrollably.

-“I- I’m sorry chaton i -“ Ladybug sputters out. She can’t avoid the subject. She feels trapped into a corner.

-“Why can’t you trust me? Isnt trust suppose to go both ways? What happened? We were suppose to be in this together! Instead you go ahead decide what you think is best.”

-He’s crying.

- She reaches out to grab Chat Noir’s arm, in attempt to calm him down. Her arms tremble, all that could race through her head were images of Chat Blanc.

- He moves from her grip, tears streaming down his face,” All you do is keep things from me, do you even need me anymore? Do you even want me as your partner? Am I just not good enough for you?”

-All the shouting, he didn’t notice Ladybug

-he touches his ring,”I think it’s best if I-“

-He hears someone choke back a sob.

- He looks up at her.

-she’s completely shaken up. Her body trembling as she attempts to wipe the tears falling from her face.

-Chat Noir stares at her slightly stunned.

-She runs her hands through her hair as she lets out another sob. Full on breakdown.

- “what have I done”

-“It’s all my fault…” Ladybug’s breath quickens

-“I did this, it’s me, it’s all because of me. I’ve been so horrible, to you, to alya. To everyone.”

- Chat Noir can’t help but feel guilty, it’s just who he is. He reaches out to her, just as she did to him.

- she takes a couple steps back shaking her head. Tears flooding her eyes.

-“ I can’t - do this ….master su-han was right.. I’m not cut out for this. I’ve done nothing but fail. I wasn’t met to be guardian- I never was never meant to be Ladybug.”

- Chat noir is taken back,“Mi’lady wait-“

-It’s too late, she zips away on her yo-yo and back to her house. Because the girl who always has a solution doesn’t have one anymore.

#idk maybe I’ll do a part two #ml spoilers #no salt #just tears #princesss justice #ladynoir angst #miraculous ladybug #adrien agreste #chat blanc #marinette dupain cheng #mlb #ladynoir #adrienette #miraculous lb #marichat #chat noir #adrien x marinette #chat noir angst #miraculous marinette #mlb season 4 #ml speculation #ml theories #ml Drabble #drabble #bamberry drabbles #ml drabbles #angst #ladybug angst #marinette angst

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4 Lords Raise Rose AU Ideas

Not a single person asked for this, but that other post where I talk about the 4 lords adopting Rose but still technically being terrible people got way more popular than I expected it to, so, with about 6 shots of tequila in my system and a terrible urge to spit my thoughts out for all the internet to see and judge, I’ve decided to make a follow up post. Here’s how I think the 4 lords would take care of Rose in the event they rebelled against Mother Miranda and decided to raise Rose as their own instead, but like under the cut after a little bit cuz i accidentally went way too fucking hard with this and I don’t want ppl to get mad at me for making them scroll for an hour to get past this post:

First and foremost, I think they’d do it in stages, and what I mean by this is that Rose would essentially be given to a specific Lord for some period of her life, like a couple years, and then when she was deemed old or strong or annoying enough, she’d be moved to a different lord for some period of time and so on and so forth. They would do this because a) they all live in different areas and have shit to do so it’s easier to have Rose live with one lord at a time and then the other lords can just go visit her there from time to time, rather than try to work out a weekly custody schedule which we all know Alcina and Karl would NEVER be able to agree on so let’s not even bother, and b) because each lord would have either some skill or set of knowledge that would make them the best for caring for Rose at that specific point in her life. This way, all the lords have a (somewhat) equal chance to be a part of Rose’s life and teach her something while she’s with them. So with all that in mind now, let’s get down to who would have Rose and at what point in her life.

1. Starting off with infant Rose, I think she’d end up with the Dimitrescu’s for the first few years of her life, and the reason why I think this is because... well, Alcina IS already a mother to 3 girls, and while we don’t know a terrible amount about Bela, Cassandra, and Daniela’s “upbringing” under Alcina, we can gleam and theorize from her notes that, despite their fully grown bodies, the girls could very well have started out with the mental and physical capabilities of infants, and thus needed to be cared for and brought up in a similar manner as infants or children until they reached a certain point where they could officially be considered adults in mentality and ability, not just in physical appearance. So with this in mind, it’s entirely possible that Alcina could have at least some vague idea of how to care for an infant child through her experiences with the bug sisters; perhaps there’s some gaps in her knowledge, but if nothing else I imagine Alcina would be an infant Rose’s best shot at surviving infancy if only because the other 3 are so incompetent on how to care for a baby that Alcina looks like an expert in comparison. Not to mention that, of the possible locations for an infant to be raised, I do genuinely think that castle Dimitrescu would be the safest place for Rose to be kept during this vulnerable part of her life. Not only that but if Alcina has actually come to care for Rose as though she were one of her own daughters, then she would absolutely spoil Rose rotten with all the nicest clothes and fanciest toys, things that a small infant wouldnt be able to appreciate but would show that she’s loved and cared for nonetheless, and don’t even get me started on the bug sisters, I could see them fawning over Rose for hours on end, playing with her, singing to her, telling her stories of all the man-things they’ve gotten to play with today, and so much more. Overall, Rose would just be the most spoiled and pampered little baby with the Dimitrescus and there’s no changing my mind about this. The only thing I’m struggling to wrap my head around is how they’d feed her, since I doubt a small infant would take very well to blood wine and human flesh. I suppose it wouldn’t be terribly outrageous for them to hire a wet nurse/nanny to care for Rose during the day while the other Dimitrescus go about their daily duties, and when Rose is finally old enough to be introduced to solid food (I.e. fried human flesh cubes) they could do what they always do and turn the nurse into wine too, I guess. It’s not a solid idea but it’s more plausible than anything else I thought of so it’ll work!

2. After spending about 3 years with the Dimitrescus, Rose would then be moved to the Beneviento house. Now, If u don’t know anything about 3 year olds, then you’re probably ignorant to the fact that they are some of the craftiest, sneakiest, and most coniving groups of people to exist on this planet. 3 year olds are masters at getting into and touching just about anything and everything u don’t want them to touch, and worst of all, u won’t realize what they’re doing until they’ve already done it and left a huge mess behind, so while the Dimitrescus love and adore Rose dearly, they know it’s sadly time to hand her over when they find her sitting on top of a pile of dead bodies playing with a metal scythe in the dungeons. Once Rose is dropped off at the Beneviento house, I imagine Donna is her usual stoic self the first few weeks Rose is with her. She’s not cold or distant necessarily, in fact she’s quite happy that it’s finally her turn with precious baby Rose, but Donna isn’t exactly known for being outwardly expressive herself (and even Angie isn’t being quite as forward as she normally is), so things are quiet and peaceful for the first little while that Rose is under her care. It’s not until Rose takes an interest in her doll Angie, and more importantly the things that Donna can do with Angie, that things really start getting fun. By the end of Rose’s first month in the Beneviento house she and Donna are the best of friends and often spend their days either playing dress up and make pretend with Donna’s extensive doll collection, or playing elaborate games of cat and mouse, where Donna will set up lots of puzzles throughout the house for Rose to find and solve (I.e. rose has to match her dress to the doll with the same one as her to find a map telling her which kitchen cabinet Donna hid the chocolate in, or something like that), but be careful little Rose, Angie has been trying to get her hands on that chocolate all day, and if u take too long, she’ll find the map first and eat all the chocolate without saving you a single piece. Just silly little puzzles with enough at stake to engage the mind of a curious 3 year old, but never enough to put rose in any actual danger. Donna is nothing if not a watchful caretaker, so she makes sure she has sight of Rose at all times, occasionally giving her a hint if she’s struggling, and perhaps occasionally making things harder if that day’s puzzle is proving too easy for her. Overall, Rose’s time with Donna, while not as grand and luxurious as the Dimitrescus, was still a fun and enriching experience for the young girl, and there’s nobody in this world who thinks that Donna’s scar is cool more than Rose.

3. After another 3 years with Donna, Rose is now 6 years old and officially far too good at puzzle solving for Donna to keep up with. No matter what she tries or how hard she makes it, Rose just keeps blazing through the puzzles at an almost alarming rate, making it clear that Rose is desperately in need of not only a change in scenery, but also a change in education, and this is where Salvatore finally comes in. After leaving the Beneviento house, I think the next logical place for Rose to stay would be with Salvatore, who, with lore hinting at him perhaps being a scholarly man of some kind, would basically act as her elementary school teacher throughout the duration of her stay. Now, to be fair, Rose could have gone to Heisenburg’s factory, but Heisenberg outright refused to take her and the other 3 lords decide that the factory is simply too dangerous for Rose rn, who thus far hasn’t shown any signs of being anything other than a normal human girl with no noticeable abilities (save for a smart mouth and a terrifying habit of popping up when least expected, a habit she mostly uses to mess with Heisenberg, much to his disdain and Lady Dimitrescu’s delight), so it is to the mutant fish man’s unimaginable delight that he is unanimously voted Roses next caretaker, and the one responsible for her basic education. Despite his initial excitement however, when Rose is finally dropped off at the windmills by Donna, Salvatore realizes that he’s not 100% sure what to do with Rose now that he has her. He’d like to get started on her education right away but at the same time he’s so fearful of Rose hating him because of his disgusting appearance that he kind of just... avoids her entirely at first. He’s never far away from the little girl and is always ready to jump to her rescue should she need it, but other than that Salvatore seldom allows himself to be seen for the first month that Rose is with him, the only sign of him still being around being the platefuls of food that mysteriously appear in Rose’s room 3 times a day, as well as the occasional shiny trinket Salvatore found and thought Rose would like. At first, rose doesn’t seem to mind being left entirely to her own devices, but after every stone, log, and rotting fish corpse within 5 miles of the lake has been turned over and thoroughly examined, Rose decides she’s had quite enough of her Uncle Sal ignoring her, prompting the headstrong little girl to go looking for him herself. She finds Salvatore hiding underneath a patch of floating algae not far away from where she was playing and all but demands that the mutant man come out of the water and give her something to do or she’d tell Mother on him. Salvatore, shocked by the small child’s fearlessly blunt request, hesitates, not wanting to frighten Rose, but ultimately relents, crawling out of the water and timidly suggesting that he teach her how to read and write. Rose quickly agrees, seeming totally unbothered by Salvatore’s grotesque appearance, and the two quickly move to the schoolroom that had been set up specifically for Rose, where Salvatore spends hours upon hours a day teaching Rose everything he knows, filling the little girl’s head up first with the basics, letters and words, then numbers and simple equations, followed later by historical dates and time periods, algebraic formulas, and classic literature analysis, then biology, chemistry, physics, astrology, calculus, ecology, and so much more. Basically, anything there is to know, Salvatore knows at least something about it and he’ll make sure that Rose knows about it too. In the 3 years Rose spends with Salvatore she goes from already sharp as a whip, to being smarter than most adults even, and Salvatore takes immense pride in how intelligent and knowledgable Rose becomes thanks to his surprisingly effective teaching style. Overall, as a caretaker, Salvatore is pretty weird and doubts himself a lot, but Rose thinks he’s funny and loves learning from him so they get along very well and she loves him very dearly! He probs teaches her to swim and fish too.

4. So another 3 years come and go with incredible speed, and its with great sadness on Salvatore’s part that Heisenberg finally comes banging on the fish man’s door, all but demanding that he now be given his turn with Rose. Now, personally, I can see several different arguments being raised by the other 3 lords over why its a terrible idea to let a 9 year old anywhere near Heisenberg, much less be given into his care fully. After about 9 years of seeing his siblings paling around with the constantly growing child, and looking like theyre having the time of their lives all the while, however, Karl decides that perhaps there’s more to this little girl than he originally thought, and, with his interest now piqued (or at the very least looking forward to pissing the other 3 off for entertainment purposes), that its only fair that he be given a turn with her now too, seeing as how he’s the only one who hasn’t been given the chance to be her caretaker yet. This naturally does NOT go over well with the other 3 lords. Alcina all but threatens to kill Karl should he step so much as within 10 ft of Rose, while Donna pipes up and demands to know what his sudden interest in Rose is. Even Salvatore, who is quick to flinch away from direct conflict, goes as far as to harshly point out the plethora of times Karl had outright denied their previous attempts to get him to engage with Rose, so why on earth would they hand her over to him now when he’s previously shown to have absolutely no interest in her? After a long spout of yelling between the 4 siblings, an agreement is reached, wherein Rose herself will be given the chance to decide whether she wants to go with Heisenberg, or whether she’ll return to one of the other 3 lords for the time being. It is to Alcina, Donna, and Salvatore’s absolute horror however, that Rose enthusiastically agrees to go with her Uncle Karl to live in his factory, and with the deal already set, the other lords can do nothing to stop her from going. The trip to drop off Rose at heisenberg’s factory is a long and arduous one, especially for Salvatore, who sobs the whole way there about Rose forgetting about him despite the young girl’s insistence that she’d visit. The first thing Karl does after officially having Rose handed over to him, is give her an extensive list of all the places in the factory in which she is under no circumstances permitted to enter without his permission (which basically only leaves the control room and the old storage closet that acts as her bedroom as viable places for Rose to go and explore). The second thing Karl does is dump her in her new storage closet bedroom and then hightail it for his workshop to work on whatever sick and twisted amalgamation he’s got cooked up this time around. At first, Rose isn’t terribly bothered by this, since she’s used to having something of an “adjustment period” when she’s with a new caretaker, but unfortunately for her, this adjustment period lasts a hell of a lot longer than the others did, and by the time 3 months of almost no meaningful contact with Karl, Rose decides to take matters into her own hands and ascends into the depths of the factory despite the express orders not to do so. Now, going back to the idea that the 4 lords are still pretty terrible people, I doubt Rose has been kept ignorant to the less savory aspects of her caretaker’s lives, and tbh she probably doesn’t think anything of the fact that the Dimitrescus makes wine out of the blood of virgin women or that Salvatore still does cadou experiments (and had her help on occasion), but I imagine even Rose would find the projects Karl works on to be at least a little

4, cont. gruesome and horrifying in nature, especially since Heisenberg is the one she knows the least about. However, instead of turning Rose away from Heisenberg, these terrifying metal creatures she sees locked up only spark her already insatiable curiosity, and by the time she finally tracks Karl down, Rose is all but trembling to learn more about this horrifyingly fascinating metal world. Unfortunately, Karl is not nearly as happy to see Rose as Rose is to see him, and the engineer all but grabs Rose by the scruff of her neck and drags her back up to the control room, yelling and screaming at her all the while about how she was explicitly instructed not to enter these parts of the factory without his permission. Needless to say that Rose does not enjoy this treatment and immediately lashes out, half out of anger and half out of confusion as to why Karl was treating her like this. He was the one who wanted her here in the first place, so why the hell was he just ignoring her now? It didn’t make any sense and it was starting to piss Rose off, so naturally the only thing left for her to do in order to solve this complicated situation would be to continue to disobey Karl until he either gave up and sent her back to one of the other lords, or finally payed some damn attention to her for once. So that’s exactly what she did. Every single day Rose left her room (which Karl kept telling himself he needed to put a lock on, but never did cuz he’s an idiot) and descended down into the depths of the factory looking for something ogle at or tinker with, and every single day Karl would track her down wherever she’d managed to get to and throw her back upstairs threatening to feed her to the lycans if she did it again. This incredibly frustrating cycle continued on for the better part of the next month or so, finally coming to a head when Rose managed to wander into the part of the factory where the... less than successful experiments got put whenever Karl doesn’t have any further use for them but is feeling too lazy to kill them off himself. Long story short, Rose runs into a Sturm that chases her around the factory, causing all manner of mayhem and destruction, and would have torn her to ribbons had it not been for Karl, who jumped in at the last second and was able to fend the damn thing off long enough for Rose to get the ever living fuck out and back up to the control room where it’s safe. There’s a lot of loud noises and explosions coming from deep within the factory that last for what feels like an eternity, but Rose doesn’t dare venture out again until everything has gone eerily quiet and a deep sense of worry has settled in the pit of her stomach over what had become of her latest caretaker. Turns out the Sturm had recognized its creator and, after watching its initial prey escape because of said creator, quickly decided that it fucking hated Karl with every fiber of its being and wanted him dead if it was the last thing it’s propellers did. Now, we all know that Karl is a big strong boy who’s more than capable of handling his own creations and taking down strong enemies, but the Sturm is a creation that even he struggles to control on good days and today is decidedly not a good day so not only does Karl not have the slightest bit of control over the death machine trying to kill him, but its also a lot stronger than Karl initially thought and apparently not picky about the method which causes Karl’s death, which is evidenced by the nearly dead Sturm ramming itself into a power generator as a final act of defiance and nearly blowing up the whole factory and everybody inside. Heisenberg is able to contain the explosion somehow but not without considerable damage to himself first. Rose is, naturally, quite horrified to find Karl passed out in the elevator that had taken him up from the lower levels of the factory where the explosion was, skin burnt nearly to a crisp in certain areas and blood pooling from just about every part of him, and immediately heads over to try and help her injured caretaker.

4, cont. again cuz I physically can’t stop myself. Now, I imagine that any normal 9 year old probably wouldnt be able to handle this sort of situation in any meaningful way, but i think we can all agree that Rose is the furthest thing from normal (especially considering who raised her) and has probably seen enough blood and gore to not be terribly freaked out by it, but this is where things get a little speculative because we don’t know what Rose’s powers are exactly but we do know from the final cutscene that she does have them, perhaps even a plethora of abilities, and I like to think that some of those powers are related to Ethan’s superhuman healing capabilities, but unlike Ethan however, who from what we’ve seen could only heal himself, Rose can actually heal other people (tho this isn’t something she’s aware of at this point in time). The second the elevator door opens to reveal, what looks to be, a half-dead Karl slumped over in the corner, Rose panics and runs to him, doing everything she can think of save for maybe grabbing him by the collar or slapping him across the face, to try and get Karl to wake up, except nothing works, he wont wake up no matter how hard Rose tries and i imagine this must be incredibly distressing for Rose who never intended for something like this to happen or for her caretaker to die because he had to protect her even tho he told her not to go down there because its dangerous and anything down there WOULD kill her if given the opportunity. Anyways Rose is now full on sobbing on top of Karl like only a 9 year old who just discovered that her actions have consequences can, but unbeknownst to her (and technically Karl cuz he’s a little busy bleeding out all over the floor) Karl’s wounds are slowly beginning to close, the burns on his face and hands shift from a bright red to a dark brown before crusting over and flaking off, and even his breathing, which had been labored and inconsistent at first, began to level out slightly. Karl woke up not long after that and was surprised to find that a) he was still alive, which was cool, b) he was injured but not in indescribable pain, also cool, and c) there was a literal sobbing child all but sitting on top of him, which is definitely not something Karl was expecting but he supposed he’s been met with worse things upon waking up after almost dying so why question it. After taking a moment to gather their bearings, the two return to the safer parts of the factory to rest and recover and for the most part this little incident of their’s goes largely unspoken, with Rose not exactly in the mood to talk about how her disobedience nearly got herself and Karl killed, and Karl being too fucking tired to go after her about it, especially since she seems to have learned her lesson. The only downside to this whole thing is that now Karl has a busted up fuckin leg thats gonna take an eternity to heal even for him, and with so much work to still do he’s more or less forced to drag Rose around the factory and use her like the annoying assistant he never wanted (except he did want her, thats how this whole fucking mess started, you lug), except that Rose, who is more than used to playing lab assistant from her time with Salvatore, quickly proves to be a rather capable and handy person to have around, if only because she knows the difference between a philips and a flathead screwdriver even better than he does. An amicable, if still slightly awkward peace settles over Heisenberg’s factory once Karl starts actively engaging with Rose and giving her something to do on a daily basis, even if its just standing around watching him work and occasionally having her questions about what he’s doing answered. It doesn’t take very long after that for Karl to begin realizing that perhaps throwing a huge tantrum to get Rose to come here only to ditch her upstairs by herself for 3 months might not have been the smartest (or most considerate) thing he’s ever done, and even goes as far as to (kinda) apologize to Rose for being such a dick to her since she arrived.

4, last one i swear. Rose forgives him, though not before adding that she already knew he was an asshole from Alcina, which earns her a halfhearted swipe from Karl that Rose easily dodges with a childish giggle. From that point on their relationship improves astronomically as Karl finally gives in and teaches Rose about about engineering and everything else that goes into making the metal horrors that he’s known for. Karl is shocked at how quickly Rose picks up on the trade, getting to the point where Karl wonders if he should start giving Rose her own projects to work on, but quickly rolls his eyes and groans when he remember that Salvatore was the one responsible for her education up until this point, the mere thought of having to give compliments to that “moronic freak” for giving Rose such a good educational foundation makes him want to vomit despite how secretly impressed he is. Overall, Rose’s time with Heisenberg starts out shaky, very shaky even, but after a bit of disaster and some swallowing of the pride on Karl’s part, they end up growing quite close and have a nice fun Uncle and martass Neice dynamic. They make a good team and Karl does genuinely enjoy having a little assistant around to help him with his projects, even if Rose can sound a bit too much like Alcina on some days for his liking.

5. 3 more years come and go and now Rose is a strong and healthy 12 years old, perhaps riddled with a few more scars and smearings of ash and motor oil across her skin than when she first arrived but still strong and capable nonetheless. Going back to that first statement however, this of course means that it’s time for the other 3 lords to come banging on Karl’s door for a change, all but demanding that Rose be handed back over to them. Karl of course refuses, telling them all to fuck off and that Rose didn’t want a leave the factory, so upon realization that all 4 lords were gathered here with the intention of taking Rose back to live with them indefinitely, a fight immediately breaks out between the 4 siblings, as each one makes their case as to why Rose should be returned to them and not the other 3, which of course none of the 4 lords can come to an agreement about because they ALL want Rose to stay with them. So after another long and pointlessly arduous argument, Alcina finally breaks, proclaiming that they’d be here for all eternity of they didn’t make a decision now, and that, like the first time the 4 siblings argued over whether Rose should go with Heisenberg or return to one of the previous lords, Rose would be the one to decide which of her four caretakers she would return to. The agreement is made reluctantly, mostly on the part of Salvatore, Donna, and Heisenberg, but there was seemingly no other way for them to come to a decision, so it would unfortunately have to be up to Rose to decide which of her 4 caretakers she wants to stay with permanently. Rose is quickly brought before the 4 lords and explained the situation, before being given some time to herself to think and make her final decision. A tense and uneasy silence falls over the 4 lords as they wait for the little girl, who they had shown an uncharacteristic amount of mercy and time and devotion and love in the 12 years since Mother Miranda had brought her to the village with the intention of using her to revive an already lost and long-gone baby that she never would have gotten back no matter how hard she tried. Although they refused to admit it to one another, the lords all secretly knew that Rose had wormed her way into each of their cold, dead hearts, reviving an aspect of their humanity that they’d all thought had been lost ages ago. Rose came to the village bringing with her a wave of death and destruction, and yet throughout her childhood she has brought them nothing but light and life, illuminating their previously dark and desolate existences. The 4 lords loved their Rose very dearly and desperately wanted her to be happy, yet each of them possesses a dark and selfish desire to have Rose pick them over the other 3, to come and live with them forever and fill the hole deep inside them that they never knew needed filling. After a short while, Rose comes back out and stands before her 4 beloved caretakers, looking around nervously as she picks at her fingernails. The silence is thick and heavy as the 4 lords stare at the young girl, waiting with bated breaths for her to give her final verdict. Rose continues to say nothing as tears begin to flow from her eyes, sliding down her cheeks in thick streams as the girl begins to sob, dropping her head and clenching her dress. The 4 lords look between one another in confusion, unsure of what to do with this sudden burst of tears. Rose tearfully admits that she can’t and doesn’t want to choose which of the 4 lords she wants to live with permanently because she loves them all very much and wants to be able to see and live with all of them, like they’ve done thus far. Although the lords detest the idea of having to share Rose with anyone, they reluctantly come to an agreement for the girl’s sake, deciding that they would continue with the arrangement they’ve had thus far, only that Rose would switch between caretakers every 3 months instead of every 3 years, giving rose plenty of opportunities to see each of her caretakers just like she wanted. From then on, Rose continues to live her life

5, cont. growing up and learning more and more from each of her beloved caretakers. Although Rose would likely never know what a normal life looks like, living with 4 criminally insane monsters in the remote mountain village in Romania, it would be impossible to say that she wouldn’t have a happy life despite that. Perhaps its because the girl simply doesn’t know any better, so she doesn’t have the ability to see just how messed up her life and her 4 caretakers really are, but i imagine that Rose probably wouldn’t care very much to learn even if she had the opportunity. She’s a happy little girl living a strange but enjoyable life with the only family she’ll ever need. What more could she possibly ask for?

6. As for how Mother Miranda would play into this whole scenario I’ve just drunkenly spat out, im honestly not 100% sure. Ive seen some people suggesting that MM just kinda chills and lets the lords do what they want with Rose, but tbh I honestly don’t see that happening in this universe. MM would still have been just as crazy and driven to get Eva back as she was in canon, so i doubt she’d willingly standby and let her “false children” take away her one shot of getting her real child back simply because they didn’t want to hurt her, i just don’t personally see that happening. The two most likely scenarios i can come up with is that the Lords either banded together and look Miranda on together, their combined forces being enough to take her down and kill her, OR, Ethan is the one to take down MM like he did in canon but he passes out before he can get to rose, giving the lords (who he hadn’t ended up killing but just escaping from i guess) the opportunity to slide in, grab rose, and hightail it out of there, leaving Ethan’s body to be retrieved by Chris, who, due to not seeing or hearing Rose anywhere, believes that Rose must have been accidentally killed along with MM, which he later tells to Ethan and Mia. Regardless of how MM gets taken out of the picture (or if she’s given room to potentially come back later), the 4 lords retreat with Rose and begin the whole cycle I explained up above, but i did want to briefly address how I saw MM fitting into all of this since she is a vital part of the original story and the biggest obstacle to the lords having anything to do with Rose.

Anyways, that was so much longer than I intended it to be but I had so much fun with it just because it gave me the opportunity to spit some fun ideas and potential plot points out about this cool AU that I like and hope someone does SOMETHING with, please god someone do it, I’d do it myself but i have enough projects at the moment unfortunately. If you managed to make it all the way to the bottom, thank you for reading all of that, I appreciate it, and I hope you enjoyed at least some parts of this, and maybe even agree with some of the things I said. Feel free to leave your own ideas in the comments, I’d love to read them and hopefully if enough people like this maybe i will actually do something with it. Who knows? I certainly dont. Anyways thank you for reading all this, i hope you have a great day, and maybe ill see you around in another post. Bye!!! <3

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