#why was i born

[jxydentired]

I got bored

#raaaaa #ride the cyclone #rtc musical #why was i born #to like subscribe and hit that hell #them #so real #mischa bachinski #jane doe ride the cyclone

[poetryofmuses]

"born in the wrong generation" more like why was i even born???

#literature #dark academia #dark acadamia aesthetic #darcy #dorian gray #jane austen #light academia #aesthetic poetry #art journal #dark academia aesthetic #academic #highschool #love #why was i born #birthday #june #2023 #rebirth #manifest #yearning #Romance #poetry #books #bookshop

[transgenderturnip]

you know after tossing and turning and trying to remember the events of my life and realizing my brain is goo due to trauma and head trauma and over prescribed medicine from the ripe age of like twelve I think maybe looking at my phone isn't the problem because instead of mindlessly scrolling 196 memes and eventually falling asleep I'm sweating and delusional and upset and it's been an hour and a half anyway. wtf. therapy does nothing (disclaimer, joke)

#well not really #but it helps other people so #you know i think five year old me had it right #im just going to be like this #man ive just been a fucking problem and burden with no place my entire existence #it really doesn't matter what i do #i mean if i do anything to try to do things right #or take care of myself #or reconcile things I've done wrong #it's always wrong #it's always the wrong thing #im never perceiving the actual problem i pose #I'm not improving #i feel like a fucking demon #why was i born #anyway whatever #vent #I'm going to have such a shit day at work #ughhh i just wanted to get to bed at a decent time #nope #brain said yeah I'm gonna make this feeling one million times worse with each passing minute actually #what the fuck do i even do

[d1gitalr0t]

hmmmm so i was rly just put here to suffer?

#why was i born #bpd

[iloveyouemanuelmarco]

Cringe storytime: When I was younger I was sort of a huge crybaby or atleast very sensitive over little moments and my family and friend's found it annoying or something maybe just my mom did tho but I don't know yet since it's been so long and I can't remember due to issues but anyways. So when I was like in the grade when I would have been 10-11 or something I was getting into anime and manga(including Yandere Simulator but Alex Mahan sucks lmao), I attempted to copy Ayano in an attempt to be less sensitive so I didn't show emotion for 7-8 weeks until my best friend at that grade got concerned until I finally broke out of it. I needed to be bullied more. Lmfao!!

#Childhood Stories #Childhood Memory #Childhood Memories #Storytime #Childhood Stuff #YanSim #Yandere Sim #Yandere Simulator #Yan Sim #Memories #Random Memories #I Was A Dumb Kid #Lmfao #Anime And Manga #Anime #Manga #Childhood Obsessions #I Am So Sad #I Am Shaking #I Am A Bad Person #Please Help Me #God Save Me #I Can't Do It Anymore #Why Was I Born #Why Am i Like This #LGBTQIA+ #Autistic #ADHD #Neurodivergent #AuDHDer

[helalokithor]

when you are feeling on top of the world, looking and feeling absolutely beautiful, like breathtakingly beautiful and then your parents starts talking and you realise you are the most hideous human being on the planet and then you feel guilty taking grp pics because you always ruin them by being ugly and you start to hate yourself more and more and more and you start feeling suicidal and the only thing keeps you going are your brother who you sometimes hate, the sadness your family will go through, music and Guruji and Kanha

#eldest daughter #i hate my self #why was i born #i love my parents but why don't they understand that I don't like getting yelled at all the damn time #i developed anxiety because of this and the pressure to do good if not the best in school #im scared to even post this because of the fear of getting ridiculed #ugly #desiblr #studyblr #student life #anxienty #anxi4ty #anxitey #anxeity #self hate

[virtualbirdanchor]

Lonely

Words can’t describe how lonely I am. I thought I was getting better but I was only distracted from my true self.

#lonely. #depressing shit #losing myself #no friends #lowest #stuck in my head #i don’t have a life #why was i born #i got distracted #no social life #social anxiety #im so scared #no motivation #i don’t care anymore

[ryan-taylorsversion]

i wish i wasn’t hard to love, my mom once told me that i was, and since then i have noticed that everyone around me sees me that way.

i wish i didn’t have to live as me. i would chose not to live at all if it meant i didn’t have to exist in my head, thinking my thoughts.

#poetry #mommy issues #self esteem #why was i born #unlovable #not in a self deprecating way but in a psychological way #really unlikeable #because people love me but they don’t like me #i desperately wish people liked me #self written #my own words

[bandomgay]

Never beating the dizzy + light headed+ fuzzy vision+ spinning room + tired allegations

#why was i born

[penguins28]

today my mom also was trying to get me to pray with her since i don’t think i have a place here and i dont think i shouldn’t been born and she was talking about all this stuff. then she was in my face telling me prayers and i told her to get out my face and she brung up how i let a boy touch me. she’s so fucking annoying shut up we get it your 14 year old daughter has had sex omg tf you want me to do kms!? i already don’t wanna be here idk what she thinks bringing that up does. i had trich back in september so she knows i’m not a virgin. i lost my virginity back in july to a 22 year old man(i met him off tinder he clearly didn’t know i was 14 and i did it with him raw 3 times). my mom doesn’t know i did it with a grown man ofc but it’s just sooooo draining and annoying how everyday she keeps bringing it up she brings this up wayyyy more than she did when she found out i sh. i hate her and i rly hate how she tries to fix our relationship all of a sudden deep down she’s still that verbal and physical abusing woman ugh i’m sooo jealous of the girls who have a mom who treat them well. i also hate having depression and anxiety it’s horrible literally makes me feel bad for living.

#mommy issues #i hate everything #selfharn #hate living #hate life #why was i born

[brobloxx]

#roblox #robloxians gone wild #why was i born #sus #doll #misfits high

[foreveranevilregal]

Things I enjoy doing: writing, singing

Things I haven’t been able to do lately: write, sing

#personal #tbd #I feel like my voice is gone #both physically and metaphorically #I have nothing to say #there’s nothing original about me #I’m a derivative of a derivative #if kitsch were a person it would be me #why was I born

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[jesusdownfall]

just binged. i wish i could be brave enough to kms because i cannot stand the feeling of being full and have food in my stomach. feeling useless, gross, like vomit. i’m not living the life i promised myself at 12, i’m not doing better and god is covering his ears whenever i cry for help, when i don’t want the next morning to come. there’s no hope for me.

#god i hate being this sensitive over food #i should go to sleep #why was i born #mentally exhausted

[herlocusts]

#why was i born

[sharkys-serious-stuff]

Gonna cry what the fuck...

I love being yelled at by my parents and then when I tried to get away from it because I don't wanna cry infront of them I overheard "Did I raise heathens?" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA (sarcasm) I'm so fucking sorry you had to raise somebody as stupid and worthless and me you couldn't even get a "normal" daughter instead you had to get a son that's so fucking awful I'm so so sorry why did I have to be born I fucking ruined everything for everyone I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry

#i am slowly going insane #vent #im slowly going insane #mental health #help #anyways #im actually crying #i hate fundraisers #my parents suck #why am i like this #why was i born #im sorry #im sorry im sorry #im sorry im like this