#why tf we sad

[rustywoodz]

Suppossed to go to fucking sleep but rn i want to just fucking go.

Put on my boots and go out.

Go see stars.

Go home. I am not home.

This doesn't feel like home.

I am sad sad sad.

#fucken shit #i just #wanna be home. #I don't feel like i am rn #though this is the place i have been living in for years #i hate this feeling #what do u even want from me #why tf we sad #why.

[jdkyang]

after qualifying

#i desperately need some cute carlando cuz max got p2 #i felt like lando was kinda sad when he got p3 #carlos got p11 WTF!?!?! #we will die like man #absolutely no predictions for tomorrow`s race #blush? #lando norris #carlando #carlos sainz jr #hungarian gp 2023 #f1 #f1 fanart #why tf have i done carlos look like Pecco Bagnaia?!

[baluciarz]

Day 3 - 19th century

Apparently, polish women in the 19th century wore black mourning clothes as an act of resistance against partitioners

@polpruweek

#i always wondered why tf they looked so sad and colorless like #maybe they were just polish we look like that #my art #hetalia #polpruweek2023 #aph poland #hws poland #aph prussia #hws prussia

[istherewifiinhell]

This unique character in a scifi has a transfigured and uncanny appearence and the story hinges on the tradegy that unfolds when only two people on opposite sides of a conflict can actually treat it with any kindness and respect.

But well.... we decided that was kinda ableist cause the ables were being meannnnn and the character is UGLY and CHILDLIKE so instead when we revisted it we made HER pretty and she had just like scifi autism [which ONLY presents socially it would NEVER effect someones appearence or GAIT]

You understand im killing you with knives yes?

#some shit #its not called cisformers #why is..... every tf comics thing i learn about like. welllll we thought it was bad rep so we did [something worse] #okay. this isnt techincally 'worse'in the same way the gender one is. which. is just categorically worse. #but like. you understand that THATS. not the. like okay it dies its a sad story. #an episode from the fucking. late nineties that probably wasnt even TRYING to be. disablity allegory. like. #BUT OKAY. u WANT to make it disability allegory. AND YET U ARE AFRAID. OF THE KIND OF DISABILITY. THIS CHARACTER COULD BE ALLEGORED TO HAVE #im KILLING YOU. WITH KNIVES. #the character is also my beloved transmutate so U_U. kill.

[widevibratobitch]

i hate my uni sm lol i dont want to be heeeeere let me out let me out

#motherfucking dance classes. we have the exam in two weeks and the choreography's not ready. #we gotta meet up in our own free time without the professor and practise on our own and try out if something works or doesnt. on. our. own. #bitch like what are you getting paid for lol #i hate it here so much i didnt come here to dance #and i leave every rehearsal on the verge of a panic attack and with red welts down my arms from scratching myself to calm tf down lol #(ask me again why i became obsessed with the white haired beautiful princess with a disorder in record time lol I GET HIM) #its fucking mental torture to me lol #anyway now im getting passive aggressive comments in the groupchat because they suddenly decided that we need to meet #for another rehearsal. today in two hours. like bitch????? sorry that i have earlier plans?????? #i gently suggested that we should try to set the rehearsal plans earlier #and i even put a sad emoji at the end to show that im not trying to be a bitch lol #and now a girl im like actually friends with goes all 'thank you for your input jagoda im waiting for you to suggest something better' like #girl?????????? lol #but like it's whatever. apologised immediately ofc like why bother #anyway BASTA

[seventh-district]

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#it is 5 hrs past my bedtime and i am awake listening to Two Hearts by Dermot Kennedy on loop and crying over Rotating Shifts. again. #i couldn’t resist the urge to read the latest chapter any longer but i knew when i did i’d get like this #so Why did i wait for my period to roll around. i have made. a silly decision lmaooo #i’ve complained abt it before but i’m conflicted about how much more sensitive it makes me #my nightmares usually don’t make me cry but oh i was a Wreck this morning #so why i picked tonight to read the fic that always makes me cry is beyond me #i have never met a fic before that had me in such an intense emotional grip #and it’s fucking hilarious bc it’s not that intense of a story!! like yeah there’s been devastating parts but i’m out here having to- #-take a break every single chapter bc i’ll read one line that hits my inner child like a truck and i have to take a minute to recover #but the whiplash this fic gives me is so fucking funny and the range in the storytelling from comedy to tragedy is just.. *scream-cries* #it has my favorite characterization of Sun and Moon that i have ever seen #this chapter wasn’t even that sad i’m just Making myself sad about it #but on another level it also makes me sad in the sense that i don’t think i’ll ever be able to write something that good.. #all that i want out of my writing endeavors is to make one (1) person feel as strongly and as much as RS makes me feel #and i don’t know if i can do that. i don’t know if my writing has what it takes bc i can’t even describe exactly what it is #i don’t think it’s a science that can be replicated. things either connect with someone or they don’t #the way Sun goes from worryingly innocent ‘wdym we can’t invite strangers to live with us?’ ‘wdym we can’t adopt an adult that needs help?’ #to fucking. tearing an animatronic in half in a fit of protective rage and blocking access to all dating apps to prevent you from- #-finding anyone else bc he’s your Special Friend and he can’t have his Daydream falling for anyone else!! no no!! #it’s not a new concept but i eat it tf up when Sun is actually the one you should fear the most #like no i don’t think he’d hurt Reader but i dread to think of the things he would do For them #the back and forth between childlike innocence and terrifying intelligence possessiveness and physical capability is just mmmmm 100/10 #and don’t even get me started on Moon. or i Will start crying again #he’s ​like yeah dumbass of course i’m gonna save you every time some POS man tries to **** you. of course i will you fucking crater-head #but i will complain at you about it the Entire way home and then i will steal your fucking toilet paper and pack you a raw egg for lunch #because i hate you 🖤 but Sun loves you and we would both kill for you 🖤 also i drank all of your chocolate milk 🖤 also i hate you :) #anyways i am paraphrasing obviously and dear god i hope no one who actually reads RS sees this bc i do not want my 2am ramblings taken as- #-any kind of Official Thoughtful Analysis of the story ok pls pls pls let me be insane abt my favorite fic without having to be articulate #i just have so many fucking FEELINGS about them. i am unwell. #i’m not even tagging this i’m just hitting post and going to sleep goodnight

[da-proti-toku-grem]

feeling like a total asshole today 👍

#an aunt's mom passed away yesterday night #i didn't really know her that much just spoke to her a few times for the typical merry christmas & happy new year you know #so when my mom told me i felt bad for my aunt bc i knew they were really close but i don't feel SAD #but my parents seemed to be like so shocked and sad and my little brother even started crying #and i felt absolutely nothing #idek what my mom saw in my face but she went like 'don't you feel anything?' and like wtf am i supposed to feel #like. i'm sorry for my aunt and everything but i just????? #that already made me feel like an absolute asshole but now we have to go there (like 2hours away by car) #and because i am an adult now i *have* to go to the funeral home (?) today and to the funeral tomorrow #and i REALLY don't want to and thought it's making me so fucking anxious bc i haven't been there since my grandma passed away 2 years ago #i really don't want that feeling that i felt back then to come back #not right now #not when i've been starting to feel a bit better this past week #but i'm already failing at that because they started to come back the moment i was told i have to go #and i feel like a fucking asshole because my aunt's mom literally passed away and she (and her whole family) must be heartbroken right now #and all i can think about is that i'm anxious #i'm anxious to go back there. i'm anxious just thinking that i'll have to express my condolences to people that i don't even know #i'm anxious because i'll have to TALK to people and at least try to look a bit SAD but i can't just fake it #bc if i don't look sad my brain tells me that i'm an asshole that doesn't have feelings like apparently everyone around me has #but if i fake it my brain tells me that i'm an asshole bc why tf do i have to fake my fucking personality #why can't i just express my fucking feelings like normal people do and the only thing that i know how to do is fucking complain #like. i know i rant a lot here but it's literally the only place where i talk about my feelings #i NEVER talk about my feelings with anyone because idk HOW to do it #i have like a million things in my mind that i want to tell my mom or my therapy for example but when i finally convince myself to do it #i just CAN'T. the thoughts won't leave my mouth because i don't know how to phrase them properly #so nothing ever leaves my mind unless i make a post here bc apparently writing my thoughts in english (my 2nd language) #is easier than talking in spanish #and at least if i write them here they don't just stay bottled up in my mind #but i'm too tired of myself and my stupid brain that tells me that i do everything wrong :/ #i'm gonna shut up now bc i once again reached the tag limit

[lateseptemberdawn]

No but seriously. Why couldn't it be anything other than blood. Like slick?? The white discharge?? That couldn't be an option??? Even w/o the heat concept discharge in place of period blood should work fine!!!

#hello yes its me again #period talk #bc im on my period #and i just #dont want to be #but i need to he #bc uterus #and also a uterus actually #just dont like suffering bc of it #which literally happens even if you breathe #if you dont breathe then too obv #but like #if nature/god/evolution/whoever-tf-decided-you-had-to-bleed-in-order-to-give-birth had consulted me we could've gotten to a nice conclusion #and everyone would be happy #or less sad #at the very least #big L on god/nature/entity/evolution #and also then by relation for US TOO #URGH #why

[cyberstabbing]

i'm going to fully lean into my parasocial wired neural pathways and create the most self indulgent and regressive 4d chess move everrr... a video edit of my crush for me to view in private when my bones ache for her a little too much

#we still talk and have a playlist for each other and ft #but i miss her so fucking much and i might never see her again or for years and i'm mad sad #mine #and i have so many pretty pictures and videos of her so why tf not #and i will never in a million years tell her or anyone else #she'd think it was hilarious though and probably post it on her story lol

[averagelonelypotato]

i have no idea why my french teacher kept on saying I look sad today in class, I was just tired 🧍🏽‍♀️

#bro kept on asking if i'm sad like HuH #i mean yeah cause i'm not passing this class but other than that i'm just tired man #like bro asked like 3-4 times in class today it just started to feel weird cause i swear people were just looking at me weird tryna see what #he was seeing #like ????? #anyway #the summer camp job i did last year that i didn't have a fun time in the second session #anyway people keep on asking be about the job #like i'll smile and nod and encourage them to apply but i'm just tired of people asking me about it #like it's just these people coming up to me only to talk about the job #like i mean yeah people only talk to me when they want something ig #rip #but the girl in my class is going to be the head person in charge of the camp this year #idk why tf people are asking me about it when she's right there #like i'm not the one recommending it she is #stop asking me #and i can't even talk about my experience cause yeah i had an amazing time working there #it's just in the second half of it there was so much miscommunication from the people in charge it got so annoying #like i didn't not have a fun time cause of this girl because she didn't even do her job properly #but it's hard to explain cause we all had different experieces working there #zhgsdslagsdklbj

[xkatchy]

Send help. Cheese (for me). And wine (for @kueble ). We are inside that monstrosity. With 2 feral boys. If we weather the storm... will any of us be the same?

#katchy says #snowvember two point oh #literally 8 years later #lake erie why you do #still rather have snow than hurricanes #WE GOT JIM CANTORE THO BETCHES #my mom was so sad she wanted to go meet him #she calls him Weather Rambo #Cantore shows up you know youre fucked #edging on day 2 of driving ban #where tf am i gonna go im over here wasting away from long covid #remember me fondly #or at least dont talk shit about me my ghost will cry

[lesbianuhaulindustrialcomplex]

today all im gonna be able to think about is how WEIRD it is that i have a cousin out there that i just. don't know. never met her never will. bc the state decided my aunt couldn't possibly care for more than 2 of her sister's kids and placed her with another, unrelated, family. btw the state gave my aunt the next 2 kids her sister had, and one was born like. 10 months after they placed my cousin elsewhere.

#dont reblog this please #also #we basically know she was placed with a friend of her caseworker too which makes me sad #why tf is foster care a 'if you got a friend' kind of thing i thought the state was supposed to prioritize keeping the kid in the family??? #the state rly was like 'oh you couldn't possibly handle 3 under 3' #the state 10 months later: 'we know the oldest is only barely 4 years old but here's another newborn bye'

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#theres a quote somewhere abt an adviser of a religious leader in... maybe the middle ages? where the adviser is like: we need to convert X #group of people gently. if we force our beliefs down their throats they may just expell it back up #and im thinking abt it bc thats how my brain engages with things. like: oh i like a thing. i must consume as much info abt it as possible #right this very fucking second. and then suddenly its very stressful and my brain tries to reject it #but i cant bc the fucking metaphorical evangelical in my brain is like: no. u fucking listen to me #and im just like 😵‍💫 #which is to say that i didnt sleep much last night and overdosed on 0ne piece. which was not a good move bc now i just feel terrible #which i knew would happen bc i was like hm reading this fic sounds like a bad choice. lets fucking gooooo #and then i fucking trigger myself lmao. partly bc of the material in the fic and partially bc the last time i was reading 0ne piece fics i #was a lot more fucked in terms of my lack of self awareness. so it kinda inherently makes me think of back then and im like oh yea i used #to do X bad thing. i should go back to doing that lol. and its like No. stop. fucking. no #make better choices for the love of god. ugh fuck ive got too much i didnt sleep enough energy #im sure ill burn out way hard by the end of the day. channel that energy. channel that energy into finding an apartment in a fucking city #with a fucking housing shortage 😭 i dont wanna go back to having roommates. nooooooooo 😭😭😭 #bleh. im procrastinating going to work. work that i am voluntarily doing for no fucking reason except thst i have issues with #compulsive behavior lol. not lol. sad face 😭 hhhh im vibrating. i wanna run around in circles. why cant i be like this when i actually go #for runs >:-[ im always to fucking brain saturated by then and its a ll static and bees in my head #whatever. time to get tf up and take measurements #unrelated #lmao y did i start this with allusions to a religious quote i dont fucking remember hahahaha #ah its bc i find the contrast of serious academic and philosophical topics funny when i go from thinking abt them to fucking anime and #my petty bullshit. idk i habe a weird sense of humor maybe

[lostmykeysie]

i keep seeing (on tiktok) that the sequel to the horcrux hunt is gonna have jegulus, is that true?

(obviously do not feel pressured to answer this if you dont want to!!!)

babe. babes. all you have to do is tell me you saw something THH related on tik tok and i'll run to you. i'll scramble. i'll let my cheese on toast burn. i'll let my tea oversteep (the worst of crimes #british). i don't know why it makes me giggle so much but i think it's something to do with my assumption that tumblr and ao3 only exist alone in the depths of hell and the idea that the concept of THH is present outside of this really just bamboozles me. incred. anyway

YES DARLING!!!! the sequel is gonna be get together jegulus and wolfstar working their shit out. most people seem happy about this (jeg) but a few not which is totes fine and it's why i split the story into two parts!!!

#someone asked me a q #lovely wonderful anon #the horcrux hunt #chimaera & the wolf #THH sequel #which HAS A NAME YALL #and it ALSO HAS A BANNER OMG #so excited honestly #also i'm in the countryside now (finally moved) (not my stuff though LOL) (i am sleeping on a mattress on the floor) #(i literally grabbed the kettle on my way out it is essential) #(we brought three chairs with us and they're just sitting all sad and alone in this big open plan echoey room) #(we have one bowl) #(and someone brought a back scratcher) #(why tf is that a higher priority than the toaster) #anyway i'm in the countryside now and omg i already feel inspired #walked outside and i felt like taylor swift #THH and THH sequel is gonna be my folklore/evermore

[jimkirkachu]

So... in 90-something-degree (F) weather with a hundred-something-degree heat index, there's a group of about 15 people Running. from, like... point A to point B all the way across town to raise money for X/Y/Z charity. (Led by a slow-moving ambulance which is ostensibly there as an escort but which I REALLY hope is equipped to help in case any of the runners pass out from heat stroke, sun stroke, exhaustion, dehydration, etc.)

Yet all I can think as they pass by is, "Why in the world is This the way we humans raise money for charities??" These people are out RUNNING in one of the most lethal heat waves in recorded human history?? And that's really the best way to get other people to either contribute to a cause or become aware of a cause??

(I mean, mad respect to these folks for Caring that much about something. And yes, I do know about crowdfunding. And I think it's great, although I hate that it's gotten to be—in the US, anyway—essentially an emergency support-network substitute for health insurance/social security for so many people because our healthcare system is so f***ed up, but I digress.)

I just... *keysmash* I'm a cynic through and through, I consider myself to be professionally depressed—but even I refuse to believe that a dozen people putting their health and possibly their lives on the scorching pavement like this is truly the most efficient means of fundraising or spreading awareness for a charity, because honestly... how broken is our society that this is what charitable organizations have come to? It just seems like utter brutality to me.

(Disclaimer: I fully understand that I could be 100% wrong. I don't lead or work for a 501(c)3, I'm not an athlete, and I'm definitely not a runner, so maybe these folks actually derive some kind of enjoyment out of these charity runs. 🤷 But... in this kind of heat?? I don't buy it.)

Isn't there some way to fundraise for Good Causes that would be actually conscientious toward all parties involved? Like... I don't know. Have people pledge 50 cents for every piece of litter you pick up on a charity walk, and all the walkers go through a different neighborhood in town, and on their own time, when it's not dangerous to their health or safety to do so (aka not exerting their bodies to the maximum capacity at high noon on a sunny over-100-degree day). Or raise five dollars for every row of soil you till or seed in a community garden or something.

No clue what my point is here, but having a gaggle of already toxically-thinspo-looking people try to jog down the road on one of the hottest days of the year while sweating out what I can only imagine is every possible nutrient left in their bodies just doesn't feel like "the answer." 🤔

#not trek #random thoughts #babbling #jtkchu rambles #confused and frustrated i guess #idk what i'm talking about #phone pledge drives like on public television make more sense to me and i'm one of *The* Most Phone-Phobic People on the Planet #these poor bastards seriously i just stared and felt appalled like #did our crappy society drive you to do this drastic a thing purely to raise money or awareness for a thing?? #or are you doing this because you somehow *enjoy* putting your body through absolutely barbaric conditions like this?? #just grateful the whole thing has an ambulance close at hand because are you *kidding* me? just seems like a recipe for death #social consciousness or something idk #charities and fundraising and the terrible things we apparently make people go through to try and make a difference in the world #brainstorming but really it's more like brainfarting in the literal sense of farting not the 'drawing a blank' sense #i need a nap #apocalyptic heat mention #climate change mention #american units of measure aka wtf do these numbers mean where tf did they come from why tf are they so arbitrary and user-unfriendly?? #not really looking for discourse or anything i just 🤔🤔🤔 #man. seeing folks putting themselves through that hell made my heart sad in a way i don't really know how to explain 😕❤️‍🩹 #anyway #stfu jtkchu

[ask-aph-angel-canada]

I think you should rob a bank

messenger boy, i only will if you help me

#ask aph angel canada #we need the POWER OF FRIENDSHIP to rob every bank we want. #jay kay thats cringe #messenger boy #no #friendship is NOT cringe. #anyways guys #you guys know the ex i spoke abt? #he keeps sending ppl to insult me ONE OF WHICH WAS A FUCKING 12 YEAR OLD LIKE WHAT #HOMIE WE R IN HIGH SCHOOL AND UR SENDJNG 6TH GRADERS TO Harrass me😱 #its ok tho i became their friend and they aren’t super fond of him and he made them cry ljke; i feel sk bad man. #btw i have a banging playlist on spotify so like follow me #its a playlist for my future soulmate cuz when i find them jts OVER for you guys. #nah but fr my ex is fucking obsessed with me. its sad cuz he already has a new partner #them sending ppl to bash on me makes them seem crazy cuz like; why r they still thinking of me? homie u have a new partner 🗿 #i think hes mad cuz i blocked him on everything lollllll #he tried stalking me on this dream smp gacha rp acc he has 💀💀 ITS SO CRINGE OMfg. #IK I HAVE A HETALIA ASK BLOG BUT LIKE MY POSTS R FUNNY #i think they’re silly #nah but fr my ex needs to back off and get off my ass. im so close to dm’ing him asking why tf hes so obsessed with me #he was lying to his friends to make me seem worse via saying i was the one to break things off #i have screenshots; its a clear lie; he jusr wants to be the victim. and he was mad that i held my friends’ hand for a min when he literally #fr got ‘married’ with his ‘friend’ like ???? he had the nerve to say it was platonic and i was overreacting too 💀 like what #and he did shit like that ALL THE TIME and his justification was ‘jealousy looks cute on you’ bro what 💀 #anyways thats a vent abt him cuz hes mad annoying bro. hate him AND I HAVE MORE SHIT ON HIMMM hes awful lol #i will never stoop that low again cuz hot girls like me dont do that 😮‍💨😮‍💨