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futureless · 2 years

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honestly bro i have no fucking clue what to do w my life & it’s so weird but growing up suicidal i always just had this idea that one day i’d finally succeed & end it all so i didn’t really plan for a future & now i’m 24 & still have no desire to do this shit & i feel like im just existing in a world where nobody understands me & i always get the shit end of every stick & always end up with the broken parts of people that i didn’t break & i never even planned or wanted to be here …

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jasontoddenthusiastt · 8 months

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Batman Annual #25

Before Talia took him in, before he was dunked in the pit to have his memories restored, even when operating purely on survival instinct, he always split a meal with the other homeless people. It may not have been essential to his survival, but caring about and helping other people when he couldn’t even help himself was just always such an intrinsic part of Jason’s core.

#so much so that it prevailed over basic self-preservation #my guy lost 90% of his cognitive function and he’s still out here helping people in any way he can #my post #new headcanon: that’s why he stole all 4 tires. because he wasn’t just feeding himself in crime alley.#or at least he was planning to expand his work now that he had more confidence in his ability to feed and care for himself #I mean he also isn’t the type to brag about his good deeds yk? we all know he was putting up a tough guy façade when Bruce found him #a mutual asked abt Jason’s white streak so I directed them to hush which ofc reminded me of this book #rather than it being exclusively a pit thing imo it makes more sense for it to be a combination of actual health related issues #like the chronic prolonged mental and physical stress he had to endure coupled with the fact that superboy’s punch kickstarted his body #in ways that are unknown to modern science #and then the pit also had a hand in it (probably??)#(imo). like Talia doesn’t have it. neither do Damian or Ra’s or anyone else who’s been in the pit.#jason todd #dc #batman annual 25 #comic panels

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fumifooms · 4 months

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I think some inherent comfort of the party’s relationship, of why they’re so tightly knit and wholesome, is that it’s kinda the embodiment of "people that care for each other unconditionally, so much so that you could be the biggest freak on Earth and they would still not turn their back to you". Like, Laios’ whole character arc is that he was scared of others and their judgement, that he should hide a big part of himself and his interests to be tolerated if not accepted… But showing himself to others was the road through which the party bonded and got closer, and by the end of the story Laios literally turns into his monster because it was his biggest wish and everyone sees it and also he eats his human body a lot. After that he runs to the woods and is so scared of everyone not wanting to see him again, but y’know what. It’s fine his party still loves him, and aghhhh ouch my heart

I think also, Izutsumi was central to the party having a found family feel. The party was mostly made of work colleagues acquaintances, but adopting a stray/teenager that has no one on the way in your grand adventure really makes the whole family vibe skyrocket.

#Laios is kinda that “be so authentically yourself that it inspires others” thing #Dungeon meshi manga spoilers #SPOILERS #Dungeon meshi #The new year drafts purge #But yeah like. Be a little too ready to do necromancy? Y’know we don’t LIKE it but. It’s okay we’ll stick by ya.#Bro you CHEATED on your wife?? I am giving you the death stare forevermore but like I still care about you I’ll be worried if a horse break #Your arm. Oh you lied bc not knowing why she left you makes you feel foolish? HUH. Anyways I’m going to shower you in optimism #Sorry marchil possessed me again #If you’re a nasty cat teen who introduced yourself to everyone by threatening murder with a knife and doesn’t respect anyone or anything #… Sigh ok you can still snuggle with me in bed.#The ‘I will not eat any monster no I refuse’ to ‘asking a kingdom’s worth of people to indirectly eat your friend’s sister’ pipeline real #The pipeline is understanding and good faith and unity and love #meta

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alangdorf · 3 months

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(sorry for leaving y’all in suspense I was grocery shopping) Surprise!! I accidentally got into Len’en like two weeks ago. Whoops! I got ideas for cool drawings to do with each of the BPoHC shrine team members (and you-know-who, ofc, but that one might be… weird lol), but Tsubakura gets to go first cause theirs is the simplest; just greyscale + red color scheme with a split background and the pose is mostly random (maybe they’re squishing Tsurubami’s little eye thing? Idk). Very pleased with how everything worked out; the line for the eye is exactly where the dividing line for the background was and the way I managed to make the vest corseted while not changing the ribbon placement is just perfect. Although I did make their hat smaller out of the aforementioned cowardice also that thing is hard to draw

#art #digital #len’en #tsubakura enraku #for those not in the know: Len’en is a game series inspired by Touhou but there’s a number of things different about it and it is rapidly #spiraling off into a very complicated story and also other game genres; also every character’s gender is officially ‘whatever’#This character (Tsubakura) plays like Marisa but is also a shrine maiden (priest) along with the Reimu type character #Nonbinary (to me) mad scientist.#Replaces soy sauce with calligraphy ink in every culinary application.#Made a nuclear bomb once supposedly on accident.#Locked in a blood feud with their 3(ish) absurdly powerful ex-girlfriends and this has led to at least one actual war. so far #(hello high brightness users! :D)#Apparently mastered genetic engineering and mostly uses it for stuff like making it so they can put ink in their coffee and not die from it #what’s not to love #oh ya I doubt anyone cares much since this was in the tags but I got some stuff wrong due to misunderstanding & exaggeration for comedy sryy #nuclear bomb was definitely an accident cause they got really sad about it after which is soooooo funny #they do eat ink and also soap but it’s not really explained why it doesn’t kill them of why they like it #also they made an artificial human (+ several androids) who’s supposed to be an assassin and used to be an even more blatant mega reference #hasn’t actually killed anyone yet cause their first target is Tsubakura lol #and I’m barely exaggerating abt the ex girlfriend thing; they haven’t been confirmed to have dated in canon but they were quote #‘close enough to want to murder each other’#and one of them is very homoerotic about it all the time so like rlly not that out of pocket #admittedly the one I’m drawing somewhat homoerotic art of with Tsubakura atm is probably one of the other two but whateverrrr #it still fits Arde well enough #*mgs reference

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scrimple · 2 months

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I can regulate my emotions just fine as long as I can cut myself :3

#bunny talks #988blr #988twt #styr0twt #styr0blr #i’m ok just venting #block don’t report #Playing a game called lets see how long it’ll take me to attempt suicide while I’m off my meds #Why is being self-destructive so bad for me anyways?#My self-harm only affects me physically #It doesn’t affect anyone else. Just me and my body #So Why do therapists want me to stop so badly? Hey at least I’m not killing myself! Shouldn’t you be happy for me?#Be happy for me just as happy as cutting makes me feel #I’m so happy #So happy so calm #‘it affects those who care about you’ just stop caring about me. I am not worth positive emotions #Pretend I don’t exist #Pretend I’ve died already #Pretend you never met me #I don’t deserve anyone’s kindness or care #I’m so sorry for convincing everyone that I’m a good person #Please believe me when I say I’m the worst #Please. I don’t want to hurt anyone else #This is all I have please just let me have this #I only post about it here so I can keep track of when I relapse please I swear I’m not attention seeking please don’t look at me #Don’t look at me don’t perceive me don’t please don’t #I am not here. I never was

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aconstantstateofbladerunner · 1 year

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Another unforeseen frustration in my quest to find a romance novel I actually like: a huge chunk of college romances are written by people who have clearly never been to college.

#i can’t take this shit seriously #colleges don’t have clicks #no one cares of you are a virgin #no one cares how you dress #i took every single exam in pajamas #the real weirdos skateboard down the quad with a canoe oar #posers who think they are weird for liking books don’t get invited places #i’ve gotten more pressure to drink at a single one of my mom’s book club meetings #that my entire four years of college #when are you doing class work?#have you ever had to write even an undergraduate essay?#Do you know how long those take?#why are classes just called ‘english’#and not something like ‘Literature of the Great Depression’#Why is the professor asking the class if they predicted the two leads falling in love?#and not i don’t know any actual analysis!?#and why doesn’t anyone talk about their classes outside of them?#me and my friends loved discussing our lessons #both those from my department and from other majors #no talking out a project you’re having trouble with?#no struggling with the transition from high school essay writing to college level?#No stories about your favorite professors?#no gaining perspectives from a different major?#clubs? hangouts? soccer on the tennis courts at 3am?#i thought i would like these because i loved college and miss it #but these are all just high school without a bell #plus they’re mostly just bad in other ways too #i think I’m done with this genre #booklr

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moderndaymadscientist · 4 months

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i don’t think i’m a good person anymore

#i think they care more about the work i’m not doing than me as a person #either that or i’m just being stupid and emotional and crying on the cold floor again #i wish i could be anyone else #i really fucking hate myself #so why doesn’t everyone else #i don’t deserve this #vent tw

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quietwingsinthesky · 3 months

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funniest part of spn fandom is when people go “ugh i can’t STAND sam (or dean) because he’s so self-righteous and annoying and selfish and mean to his brother-” as if these are not traits that apply to them both equally. putting aside that yes, sometimes characters will be characters and have aspects of them that bring them into conflict with other characters, (even characters you might like! scary!) the show’s been off the air for like four years now, can we not all just admit at this point that 99% of brother favoritism isn’t about who they are as characters and is more about which one you find hot or which one’s daddy issues you were able to relate to more.

#spn #its just so funny to me how transparent it can be like. ‘sam is so fucking annoying i hate him. also i find him ugly and dean is so hot.’#or ‘why is dean such a piece of shit. i dont think about what he’s going through ever btw because sam had it worse’#this is the stupidest thing in the fandom. guys its the brothers show. you kind of do have to at least understand where both of the brothers #are coming from. else the whole emotional impact of them sacrificing themselves for each other and returning to each other despite how much #they do to hurt each other and in the end that love being what saves and damns the world time and time again. i mean. you miss out on that.#dont you? if all you can think about is that you think sam is a whiny selfish baby and that dean is an asshole who doesn’t care about anyone

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ju-ji · 5 months

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Anyway so glad we’re done with August like it’s been real but it’s time to get off my screen now BYEEEEE 👋👋👋👋

#hate that this is my first exposure to that actor bc now he’s always gonna be August to me 😭😭😭#but. *dropkicks him off the face of the earth*#also bitch the ‘I collapsed and had to go to the hospital’ u sprained your fucking wrist that seems like a skill issue to me :///#I did not buy that excuse and day shouldn’t have either #sweetie ur too easy I love u but he did not sprain his wrist and ‘collapse’#he just doesn’t care about your feelings beloved #last twilight #I’ll put it in the tag this time why not #also if u read this in the tag don’t bother looking at my blog for more there isn’t any it’s just been me depression spiraling for the past #week like really don’t read my blog if I have another post I want anyone to see I’ll put it in the tags lmao

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skhardwarevers1 · 5 months

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I also wanna say that my friend that has been inquiring about whether or not Chonny uses organic hair products doesn’t want to know for any particular reason? She just wants to know? Just to know? It’s been a thing for like three weeks now. She confuses me

#I end up talking about him a lot cuz I keep her updated on all the things I like (which very much includes CJ)#And literally 9 times out of ten she’ll ask that again and she has no actual reason for wanting to know #But we’ve joked that she’d do anything to find out. Like she doesn’t care if he’s using the right stuff or using the same things he does #She just REALLY wants to know #Keep in mind—she’s listened to like four of his songs. Three of which were covers.#she listened to those songs like TWO DAYS AGO????#That’s a really long tag rant whatever. You get my confusion though right??? Has literally anyone ever wondered about this ever???#Irl friend I love you but you concern me. So so much. Why do you need to know this 😭#S.K thinks #Vaguely related to #Chonny Jash

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raplinesmoon · 7 months

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a brief note:

i’m not usually very eloquent with my words, so if this is rough and i say something wrong or offensive, please forgive me, it’s been hard to piece together the right words. if there’s spelling errors, this is not proofread, and I’m sorry.

I’ve always maintained that writing and this blog is a safe space for me, a place to escape from the real world when I need it. but right now, what’s going on in the world isn’t something I can escape from. it’s robbed me of my sleep and my sanity. and honestly, writing and kpop just don’t even seem like valid enough escapes anymore, even though I feel immensely privileged to have these escapes in the first place. I feel numb. but it’s not even about me or this blog or any wips I have.

if you have five minutes to scroll through my blog, or any other kpop blog on Tumblr, I urge you to take another five minutes out of your day and learn about what’s going on in Gaza right now. do your own research, and uplift voices that aren’t being heard.

the beauty of being here is being able to connect with so many people far away, across the country or even across the world. if we can use our energy to celebrate our groups and our faves, we can also do the reverse.

life as we know it is being uprooted for so many people, the least we can do is be cognizant of that, to give some of our energy to mourn their losses and grieve alongside them. even better yet, we can hope alongside them that this reality doesn’t have to endure, that more innocent lives will not be lost.

if you get nothing else from this, I’ll leave you with this — if you’ve also been like me, feeling completely scared and horrified by what’s been unfolding, i see you. i feel your pain, and if you’re grieving, i feel your loss. i ask you to remember those on the other side of this who have a right to be even more scared and even more horrified, and who deserve your attention. the world is a complex and hard to understand place, but at the same time, it’s not. it’s brutal and violent. Please remember, that far beyond and political or religious debates, foreign economic and social policy, etc, when oppressors and bullies square off, and when people are power hungry, innocent lives are always in the middle of it. and that should be something that none of us are willing to be okay with.

if you want to stop reading here, that’s totally okay, otherwise check the tags to listen to me ramble on

#as a healthcare worker I can tell you the public health crisis that is unfolding right now as a result of greed and the desire for power #should be appalling to you #also this is not to meant to be a call out to anyone on my dash - just an explanation as to where my head is and why I can’t think straight #about writing or anything #the queue will continue to run #the fics will be written one day #but right now is not the moment for that #also like I said before I’m not engaging in any discourse on this blog - this isn’t something that benefits from people who are far removed #from the situation sitting thousands of miles away and debating about what ifs #when atrocities are unfolding in real time #like I said before it’s been hard for me and so many others to speak up or find the words to voice what’s been weighing so heavily on us #so in return all anyone asks if your kindness and ability to listen and to care #and it doesn’t even have to be on Tumblr - but I just hope that for energy anyone is giving bts/svt/atz/skz and others you’re also willing #to give that energy to humans irl #which shouldn’t even have to be said #but I said it anyway #personal #isi rambles #free Palestine 🇵🇸🇵🇸🇵🇸

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moonsaurora · 21 days

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everytime louis or harry “denies” larry there are always people who claimed to be for them who leave…and they’re so weak lmao cause if you genuinely believed they were together you would’ve done enough research to know why they deny it and everything. y’all weren’t in the community for the right reasons if you didn’t care about them being free and supporting them