#why cant they talk to each other

[thechatteringshrike]

Kristen Applebees was so right when she said the eldest daughter is a shield.

#vent #i love my family #which makes things harder #but youre still a sheild #arguably more a sheild #when they will cower behind you when they dont want to talk like human beings #im so tired #why cant they talk to each other #my mother shouldnt be hiding in my neck because my father said one thing that wasnt even scary or aggressive #he is allowed to set boundaries #even if hes not great at communicating or being observant of your feelings #i wish he was more so but i cant and shouldnt have to sub in for your spouse #you promised you wouldnt put me between you anymore #or do promises you make to me not matter after a year #i didnt realize my boundaries had an expiring warrantee

[starry-bi-sky]

I am loudly pushing the batdad agenda i am loudly pushing the— DPxDC Prompt

“Woah. You look like shit."

Granted, that’s probably not the first thing Danny should be saying to the guy that just bit the curb, but in his defense; he’s not running on 100% right now either.

The man -- tall, towering, and broader than Danny is tall -- whips around on his heel, black frayed cape flaring out impressively. Danny would've whistled in appreciation, but he takes the time instead to wipe the back of his hand across his mouth, smearing the blood running from his nose across his cheek.

"Sorry." He blinks widely, not even flinching as the man with the horns zeroes in on him. "That was rude of me. I have a really bad brain-to-mouth filter; Sam says its what always gets me into trouble."

And she's not wrong either, per say. His smart mouth is what landed him in this situation -- with blood blossom extract running through his veins and cannibalizing the ectoplasm in his bloodstream. Thanks Vlad.

The man grunts at him; a short, curt "hm" that shouldn't make Danny smile, but he does because he's somewhat delirious and probably concussed. The man keeps some kind of distance, sinking towards the shadows of Gotham's alleyway like he dares to melt right into it.

If it's supposed to scare Danny, it doesn't work. Danny's never been afraid of the dark; he's always been able to hide himself in it. He blinks slowly at the mass of shadows.

"You look hurt." The shadows says, blurring together around the edges. Danny squints, and licks his lips to get the blood dripping down his chin off. Ugh, he hates the taste of blood.

"I am." He says, "My godfather poisoned me. M'dying." The agony of the blood blossom eating him from the inside out looped back around to numbing a while ago, so all he feels is half-awake and dazed.

"Hey," Danny stumbles forward towards the man, a bloodied hand reaching out to him. "You-- you're a hero, right? You're not attacking me; which is more than I can say for most costumed people I've met." Maybe it's a poor bar to judge someone at, but he's already established that Danny's not in his right mind.

The man makes no change in expression, but Danny realizes blearily that it's hard to tell with the shadows on his face. He stays still long enough for Danny to latch onto the cape -- stretchy, but almost soft under his fingers.

He looks up blearily into the whites of the man's eyes. "Can you help me? I don't-- I don't wanna die." Again. He doesn't wanna die again. He blinks slow and lizard-like. "I mean- I'll probably get to see mom and dad again, but I told them I'd at least try and make it to adulthood."

There's a clatter down the street, and Danny's ghost sense chills up his spine and leaves a bitter, ashy taste in his mouth. He immediately knows who it belongs to even before the deceptively gentle; "Daniel?" echoes down the way.

"Daniel? Quit your games, badger, Gotham is dangerous for children."

Danny's mouth pulls back, and blood spills against his tongue. "Please." He rasps, and grabs onto the shadow's cape with both hands. "Please. He's going to kill me. Please--"

"Daniel? Is that you?"

His lips part, dragging in air to plead with the darkness again. He doesn't need to, the whites of his eyes narrow, and the cape whirls around him before Danny can blink. Soon swaddled in shadows, the Night lifts him up, and steals him away.

#I AM LOUDLY PUSHING THE BATDAD AGENDA #anyways— add ons are encouraged i wanna talk more dpxdc with folks i just cant find any aus i really like enough to engage with #which is nobody's fault and its why im making my own content in order to reach more people #danny fenton is not the ghost king #dpxdc #dp x dc #dpxdc crossover #dp x dc crossover #dpdc #dc x dp #dpxdc prompts #i took a ‘which batfam member are you (except its personal)’ quiz a few days ago #and got bruce wayne. and then was promptly read to filth why im most like him and it rudely but accurately explained why im the most like #him. it also consequently explained to me why i like him so much. whenever i see him in his kindest form i see a mirror looking back #anyways lots of ‘danny rejecting bruce as a parent’ aus. may i present: bruce and danny finding family in each other aus. batdad aus pls. #dpxdc prompt #dcxdp #this prompt can take place at any point of Batkid accumulation but personally i was imagining this as before Bruce has any of his kids yet #eldest brother danny supremacy and also just that one on one bonding #danny being someone who was never afraid of the dark as a kid and even less so as he got older. taking solace in it as a ghost because you #cant hide in the dark when you glow. his enemies can't jump out at him. but he can jump out at them. how can he be afraid of the dark when #the dark is where the stars like to live? there's a comfort in the shadows. there might be something hiding in it. but he's hiding in it to #blood blossoms eat ghosts headcanon #wasn't sure where i was gonna go with this at the beginning and then i caught steam. #batman casually kidnaps an orphan upon kid's request. also the kid was Actively Dying Of Poison. What was he gonna do?? NOT help him? #mister 'keeps candy in his utility belt specifically for scared children'??? no way.

[milkweedman]

Knitting a freehand bag and started wondering how often people even use patterns, anyway. So--how often do you use a pattern when you make things ? This include knitting/crochet/sewing/weaving/nalbinding/bobbin lace/tatting/etc but also things like woodworking, cooking, and baking. If you want to just pick the thing you do most often that's fine.

I personally do not use patterns as I find them far more confusing than just figuring out the construction of an item and simply making it. I do very occasionally browse ravelry for inspiration but have downloaded maybe 2. In the 5 or so years since I joined. And have followed exactly 1, which I modified every single aspect of. In my defense, dyslexia.

#poll #knitting #crochet #weaving #tatting #sewing #quilting #nalbinding #bobbin lace #cooking #baking #theres just SO MANY patterns out there and i kind of dont understand why... who is using them ??? #they are so hard to follow even when written well #i get that thats dyslexia talking and not true for most people but it still baffles me #i also dont follow cooking/baking recipes but in a different way #the issue for crafting patterns is that i cant read and so i cant figure out what the hell im supposed to do #but recipes are usually lists and dont have tons of abbreviations and dozens of steps #so i can kind of read recipes but i just like doing my own thing and also have been burned by recipes before #so even if i try following the recipe as hard as possible i will inevitably change some things #like what about the whimsy. also i will use a butter wash after taking this out of the oven i dont care that it says eggs #and while i dont do legos anymore i was the same with that too. we got a kit once and my sister loved following each step #oh my god. the worst. i would covertly make other things with the remaining pieces while she assembled the thing #i do think that were i not dyslexic i would still not follow patterns #like i said i just prefer to do my own thing most of the time

[onthemerits]

no one told me that the simone-karl plot from why women kill would rip my heart out and stomp it into little itty bitty pieces

#why women kill #im so late to this #but they mean so much to me #people talk about the beth ann plot being the best but like... #"please youre my best friend”... “its not enough” #turning into #“i want only you here”... “you're the love of my life” #but still in a plaTONIC WAY #where simone accepts the reality of their love and puts aside her pride and chooses to show up for karl #because hes her favorite person in the whole wide world even if they dont love each other romantically #and she cant imagine life without him #and then ends up... #and her devoting her life to... #bahhhhh im dead #literally deceased #~~like karl~~

[itsdefinitely]

do girl jeri and boy jerry exist explicitly to torment me

#boy jerry #girl jeri #abstinence camp #just reread my favorite jeri/ry fic im not okay #what the fuck is wrong with them why are they like that. never change 👍 #i need to stop provoking jeri/ry thoughts after i'm supposed to be alseep how am i meant to go to bed #when there are fictional characters who are doomed to be apart no matter how much they want to be together. no matter #how inseperable they are #no matter how much they love each other unconditionally. even after they each broke their number one rule #no matter how much theyve forgiven each other (but not really. theres some deep seeded part of them that cant be forgiven) #no matter how close they are to each other. they can only be friends. very close friends #hi have you ever thought about 'the little death' in reference to 'til death do us part'? because i do. i do. #definite's ted talks

[mydogtypedthis]

oh my god you guys they invented this planet full of beautiful women everywhere all the time and guess what it's called EARTH!!! you suckers are always complaining WHY ?

#this is about me just realising all my friends ever talk to each other for is to complainnnn why are we so baby pilled whine maxxers #there's literally a sun and grass and you can block celebrities on all social media if you want #they cant even stop you

[sarioh]

i think a fundamental difference between ethubs in last life and bdubs and impulse in double life isn’t really that etho didn’t know how to love bdubs, because he did, evidently. he killed for bdubs twice, stole for him, broke the rules for him, and he said it at the end, from the afterlife, when no one was around to hear. bdubs knew as well, as he proudly asserted to the other reds on the snow fort. it’s more that love was very much equated to violence in last life. you don’t prove it through words, you prove it by killing for each other, by showing that you’d die for each other--death itself was the currency for love. but that’s not really the case now, since your life is tied to your partner. you can’t die for them. so how can bdubs possibly prove his devotion to impulse, if he can’t show it the only way he knows how to? how can he ever be sure that impulse is devoted to him in the same way he was sure that etho was? 

bdubs makes up for this deficit by stealing, by looting, taking the gold from someone’s chest to make the clock, hurting others to appease impulse. all the while impulse was in the mines, collecting the gold through his own hard work, the only sacrifice he made being his own time.

what impulse knows that bdubs doesn’t is that love doesn’t have to be sacrifice or bloodshed. it can be unconditional and it can be pure. it can be kindness, and sincerity, and simple gestures. it can be putting your bed next to someone, building a house with them, getting old with them. love doesn’t have to be death--it can be life, instead.

#double life smp #impulsesv #bdoubleo100 #ethubs #impdubs #??? #SORRY. SORRY im just seeing some ppl talk about how bdubs was let down by etho and thats why he doesnt know how to devote himself to impuls #but i dont really think thats the case. i think that its just that the type of love expected of him has changed and he cant deal with it #i dont like the idea of minimizing the devotion and loyalty between bdubs and etho #maybe its cuz im so attached to ethubs but. I do think that etho and bdubs loved each other. i think they knew that they did #but they arent USED to a more Pure type of love. it has to be proven through violence and betrayal #rio posts #meta

[skunkes]

#prefacing this with I Know Spanish. i cant not know spanish‚ my parents don't speak english #but im the only one of my siblings that didnt get to go to school over there 🇲🇽 (just pre school) #adn the thing is like. my siblings wld talk to me in eng of course #(if they talked to me at all! what do u say to a baby when you're 9 12 and 15 yrs older.) #and my parents wld similarly jst not talk to me? i did not have conversations with them from birth to now lol. #thjere is something about how like. my sisters kids are also learning the languages at the same time #but when they mess up in spanish theyre corrected‚ by my sister (their mom)‚ my other sister‚ my parents #why not Me. why wasnt that extended to Me as a child... #the same reason I have the least amount of baby pictures while my siblings all have one full book each i bet #the same reason why my and my eldest sister are 15 yrs apart LOL #igts so crazy to me. i hate mentioning this bc people assume #im one of those ppl who isnt fluent bc their parents speak english and spanish and never taught them #my parents dont speak english❗❗❗❗ #my nephew thats older than me who is my fave family member and also only speaks spanish #is coming up on sunday idk that i can fully carry convo with him! #pure spanglish bc i didnt grow up having convos in it writing it reading it #thats why im so desperate to read books in spanish now. im so deeply ashamed #igts so crazy. i hate it. #saw a comment on smthng the other day thats like ''idk how u can have parents that only speak spanish and not know it lol'' #well can you take a guess. can u take a guess as to how that would happen via interactions. lack thereof. #idk why but its even more embarrassing this way. genuinely how cld u not know...? #its like i was born to feel isolated from my family in every single way...youngest by so many years #the language thing. the Hates Eating thing. the trans thing. most severe failure to launch #im so embarrassed to be alive....! #and i dont belong anywhere. and i am Alone wherever I am. #abandoned by direct and distant relatives. ancestors.

[s0fter-sin]

sometimes i think about how wild a mw2 movie would be if they just dropped soapghost right in the middle with no warning or marketing. like imagine it being beat for beat the exact same, it’s your typical military action movie, promoted as just another military action movie then after they get to the safe house, ghost has to patch up soap and he’s still out of it, overwhelmed by the betrayal and everything he’s seen and ghost needs to ground him and keep him in the present, to remind him that he’s alive and safe so he kisses him and they have sex. the tantrums and the rants and the “ReAl sOLdiErS aRen’t liKe ThAt”, god i can taste it and it’s delicious

#theres never any talk of a relationship or sexuality crisis its just this moment of humanity and comfort to bring soap back to himself #real any time you need me by thirteenbullets vibes #theyre not the type of men to have something as normal as a relationship #theyre just everything to each other they know that and its enough #ghost can be such a complex character if you let him #this guy whos rejected his humanity has buried himself and become a ghost #willingly digging himself out of the grave to stop soap from digging his own #like how are there not more explicitly homoerotic military movies that actually pull the trigger (heh) on the homo part of the eroticism #you know how if movies have even a hint of queerness they wring it out for every drop of respresentation they can get #theres a hundred articles and its mentioned in every interview and it all journalists ask those actors #imagine it being a complete secret and everyone expects just a typical action movie #then boom battle buddy gay sex #like if it were a male and fenale character you would see that scene coming a mile away so why cant it happen with two guys #just doing it is the only way of normalising it #i still see men saying they act like brothers which is denial so strong even egypt is impressed #but imagine the general public expecting this manly man military movie then getting hit with the alone mission flirting and denying it #then getting smacked in the face with tender wound care and grounding love making initiated by the edgelord they were using as a self inser #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #soapghost #ghostsoap #ghoap #john soap mactavish #soap cod #simon ghost riley #ghost cod #cod mw2 #we’re a team. ghost team

[puppyeared]

ive made myself more wet and pathetic

#new icon because im SUFFERING. im in HELL #its so bad. i had to sign out of discord so now im both lonely and stressed #because i KNOW im still gonna get dstracted. i just did making this URGH #how good are brains at working around things. i once set a 7AM alarm on my phone with snooze cause i was so sure my brain would #be too lazy and keep snoozing instead of actually turning it off. but nay it either kept sleeping through the alarms and snoozing #or actually managed to turn off the alarm half awake that i barely remembered it and then waking up late #i actually have a track record of climbing out of bed and turning my alarm off without remembering. which is impressive bc i have a loftbed #the other thing is setting fake deadlines so make myself panic into doing things ahead of time. but unfortunately that doesnt work either #because if theres one thing my brain will put all its energy into remembering its self assurance. meaning i WILL be able to remember #the real deadline even if i try to trick myself. cant ask someone to give me a fake deadline either #the only things keeping me going rn is that i have deadlines due at least 1 day between each other and excitement being able to talk with #crow after break. but you can see how well thats going <- ignores long term rewards in favor of short term pleasure #BTW CROW IF YOURE READING THIS IM SO SORRY TURNING OFF MY DISCORD WITH BARELY ANY EXPLANATION #im a huge fucking dumbass and i had barely enough impulse control not to block everyone in my dms because i realized that would send a real #really bad msg. youre not distracting me im distracting myself and i promise youre not annoying me i just really like talking to you and #thats why im just barely stopping myself from signing in. I WANT TO TALK TO U LOTS BUT AT THE SAME TIME IM KICKING MYSELF FOR DOING IT #you can be a little mad at me btw cause i definitely could have done that better but i was all over the place abt how to do it without #making u think im ignoring you. IF THAT MAKES SENSE. SORRY #yapping #doodles #puppysona #edit but last week i tried to schedule and give myself work periods and break periods using my class schedule #and reminders on my phone to tell me when to start and stop. can you guess what happened

[balladofthe101st]

you hate each other but there's only one foxhole?!?!

#check tags for the cheap army rationed alcohol #i'm talking about buck and nixon #forced to cuddle and share body heat? #giving his blanket to him pretending to be angry why go to war if you cant handle the cold but he's just actually concerned #accidentally brushing lips because of the cramped space #finding out the other isn't at all that bad after spending time with each other #gets jealous when he spends his time in some other's foxhole #buck compton #lewis nixon #band of brothers #bofb #bob #hbo war

[dykedvonte]

It's a shame that Sergeant Bitter-Root and Manny/Boone have never met cause those conversations would be fucking rough

#like it's a sliding scale of what happened at bittersprings for all of them from like BRs violent support of it Boones immense guilt and #desire for repentence and Manny's almost neutral view on it due to not knowing like it was bad but he himself says he cant blame anyone tho #that would def change is he got put in a room with those two BR got to talking about it #like all first reconn and Manny and BR have such like interesting backgrounds that are the opposite of each other and you can see why they #think about the events and the khans the way they do while Boone is just like there as an interesting outside perspective that also has his #own personal ties to it before and after on such a deep level #i want to write my mega NCR analysis posts but at the same time i need my air of whimsy posts #fallout #fallout new vegas #craig boone #manny vargas #sergeant bitter-root

[snixx]

life went forward and the world moved on but I never got over among us (2018)

#but no one:(( will play it:(( with me:(( #i miss amogus with my ex best friend and all her friends #she was just like me fr she loved introducing all her friends to each other its another reason i loved her so much #and why i struggled so much when my high school best friend started making friends outside of me who didnt like me #one of them even gave me this long ass lecture on KAVYA YOU DONT NEED TO BE FRIENDS WITH ALL YOUR FRIENDS' FRIENDS YOU KNOW #oh and you cAnt jUst Ask pEoPle tO bE yOuR fRiEnd (jokes on her we're friends now. kind of ive been ghosting her for a while but not the po #Int 💀) #and look i learned that. sort of. but i still struggle with it sometimes #like at least with my best friends i always wanted to know about and be involved with everyone in their lives you know #which ive realized now is not practical #but im still this hopeless romantic who wants to be friends with all my friends friends and all my friends to be friends #even if i barely have the energy for it anymore. i guess losing her drilled that in #also another thing i realized is. its good to keep your friends separate sometimes because if the chain breaks you dont lose a whole system #which wasnt even a point of consideration for me back then because like i said. hopeless romantic. why would we ever fall out #but yeah it was hard having to accept that sometimes the whole world doesnt want to be friends. and people are allowed to dislike each othe #shocking i know #anyway what am i even talking about how did i get here #girlblogging.pdf

[yea-baiyi]

symptoms of adhd that hua cheng displays:

1. hyperfixation

2. jumping from interest to interest/collecting a lot of random knowledge and skills

3. inability to focus on things that don’t interest him

4. rejection sensitive dysphoria

5. emotional dysregulation - bursts of anger

6. saying/doing things impulsively

7. fidgeting when bored

#hua cheng #my hyperfixation demon #tgcf #adhd #meta stuff #because this doesn’t get talked about as much as autistic xie lian #but he’s soooooo adhd that’s why he is Like This #take extreme adhd and trauma and then give him 700 years to learn all the skills and be the Most about it #gay and neurodivergent that’s why he’s the ghost king obviously #like it’s sooo funny the way he CANNOT write like he just. cant focus on it. cant #even when xie lian is trying to teach him he’s just whining and trying to flirt w xie lian and distracted #but at the same time he knows at least 4 dead languages #anyway i definitely have a post cooking about like. compatible neurodivergence #and things hualian do that affirms each other’s neurodivergence. if that makes sense #i’m sorry i’m on 2 hours sleep and i have a migraine i’m trying not to think too hard rn #lmao

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

[hechiima]

It's already so tragic that Holmes and Watson get separated for three years in the original stories and then dgs was like alright well we're gonna make it ten and make them both single dads. So. I'm sure they're fine.

#at least mikotoba doesnt think sholmes is dead but still???? #they were literally on opposite sides of the world with 19th century tech for communication #convinced this is why sholmes was working on zoom #hmmk 10yg destroys me more than nrmt 7yg tbh #we see how attached sholmes gets and just. ten years of raising iris on his own while trying to unravel the professor mystery. #and then capcoms like they see each other for like a day then mikotoba goes back to Japan???? #absolutely not #they need more time plEasE i am going insane #this is also why i cant richenbach sholmes #he cant lose another three years #PLUS HE HAS A DAUGHTER LIKE #tom talks #im so normal #dgs #dgs2 spoilers #herlock sholmes #yujin mikotoba #homumiko