#which makes things harder

[thechatteringshrike]

Kristen Applebees was so right when she said the eldest daughter is a shield.

#vent #i love my family #which makes things harder #but youre still a sheild #arguably more a sheild #when they will cower behind you when they dont want to talk like human beings #im so tired #why cant they talk to each other #my mother shouldnt be hiding in my neck because my father said one thing that wasnt even scary or aggressive #he is allowed to set boundaries #even if hes not great at communicating or being observant of your feelings #i wish he was more so but i cant and shouldnt have to sub in for your spouse #you promised you wouldnt put me between you anymore #or do promises you make to me not matter after a year #i didnt realize my boundaries had an expiring warrantee

[soryualeksi]

I've just been thinking about how exhausting it is to go back into a class situation once again for today and how I'm NOT as entirely drained and sad and tired after a day of work just one-on-one teamwork (depends on the team partner of course lmao) and it's just.

A team partner I know already gets how I'm vibing OR usually understands in a few lines.

In a godawful "we're a class being taught some shit" setting, I gotta repeat AD NAUSEUM the fucking disclaimer "I'm literally asking this question in order to gain specific information, NOT for a secret and very complicated plan of steering other people's social relations or to influence the local hierarchy or to offend anyone."

And I gotta give this disclaimer in a way that is worded so it is ALSO not understood as "there is a secret and very complicated plan behind the act of asking for clarification".

#i don't out myself as autistic bc people are ableist #but i give disclaimers usually how I'm gonna go about an issue so people don't immediately think I'm out to offend everybody #but it's useless in a group setting AND I'm also locked in with at least 15 of them being certified man babies #which makes things harder #i think everyone all around society would be WAY less miserable if they stopped wondering what the nefarious secret meaning behind words is #neurotypicals are always like 'isn't everyone a little autistic :D' and then can't take the simplest words at face value i swear #exhausted #meeeh #soryuchan's personal issuss #i would much rather carry a 90 kilo lady up to fucking stairs again while she lies she weights like 70 #lol

[meatlessmcmuffin]

stop thinking so hard about it dude ur gnna get a headache

#breath of the wild #loz #tloz #link #zelda #in general i dont think of botws story so much as others but i also have this idea in my head of link regaining his memories but never #never quite being able to remember her face or even who exactly she was to him . like he sees how they interact in his memory but #he cant remember his own feelings. and maybe he remembers at the end when he sees her but maybe its more complicated than that #like in botw you can make the most of a wartorn world and have all kind of adventures and sidequests and build a home and a town and meet #new people and you cant do all of that on top of the 100 year sleep without coming out of it a different person. #which isnt bad. but i just imagine some things could get harder and harder to remember #' i dont think of botw's story as much as others ' maybe i do actually #meat art

[shevr]

stuck lid hack

#my lines #shevr #this rat has no name idk. #one my my main weaknesses in full display of : i'm just crap at characters #either coming up with or writing or developping or keeping em #which obviously just will lead to a big lack of characterization. #harder to make lines endearing when the characters just go right back to the void #things to work on things to work on #anyway silly doodle

[marlynnofmany]

It occurred to me that it would be fun in some fantasy story to have squirrels with wings, but then I remembered that their tails are so fluffy as a way to slow them down when they jump from branch to branch (and occasionally fall out of trees).

A squirrel trying to flap enough to move forward with that kind of drag would be a sad thing to see. Flying with the brakes on.

And well, there's always magic in fantasyland to make things easier, but that's just cheating.

#I know they wouldn't be shaped right for flight anyway #but that's hardly the point #fantasyland creatures can have wings #as a treat #but some will have a harder time with them than others #maybe wing-squirrels just have really beefy flight muscles #which in turn would make them heavier etc etc #this is probably the kind of thing that keeps wizard students up at night #trying to figure out how to make their Masterwork Project succeed #while their friends try to convince them to try something easier #writing prompts #squirrels #wings #in fantasyland

[sunderwight]

I keep seeing people argue that Aziraphale is "intelligent" or "not a fool" and that this means he can't possibly have fallen for the Metatron's blatant manipulation tactics or still genuinely believe in Heaven's righteousness.

Setting aside the validity of various theories (most of which I at least find interesting, if not outright compelling!) I think there's an issue here, which is that intelligence doesn't protect you from cult-like thinking. Especially not when you've been more or less born and raised in the environment.

In fact, what intelligence tends to do to people who have been indoctrinated into cults (and a cult is exactly what GO Heaven operates like) is give you even more tools for justifying or thinking your way around the contradictions of the cults actions vs message.

We even see Aziraphale do this, several times!

In fact, at the end of S1 doing this is part of what helps save the day. When he points out that Heaven can't know that they aren't defying God's ineffable plan while trying to follow the Great Plan, he's not just talking them into standing down, he's giving them an out. Because the whole Armageddon thing has already gone to shit and cannot proceed without Adam's cooperation, what they're really dealing with at that point is getting Heaven and Hell to accept that without retaliating. Even when Satan shows up it's because he's pissed, not because doomsday is still on.

Aziraphale uses the cult's own logic to give Heaven (and Hell) a plausible reason to back down without completely losing face. They don't have to admit that they were wrong, they can just file everything under "ineffability". Aziraphale pulls this off so well in part because he's been doing this to himself for millennia.

When he doesn't understand or really approve of the Flood, he files it under "ineffability". God has a plan but it's too complex and beyond even angelic comprehension to understand, so there must be a good reason for the Flood, it's just that Aziraphale can't see it. When he sees Heaven being complicit in Job's suffering and the potential murder of his children, he reconciles it by deciding that what God really wants is for him and Bildad to secretly stop it. But he flounders on that later, because to some extent I think he knows that this reasoning is self-serving.

(Knowing it's self-serving doesn't refute it, though, it just means that he worries about that until he talks himself into a bunch of reasons why it's still probably true.)

In S1, when Crowley broaches the subject of the apocalypse, Aziraphale's initial response is to recite the propaganda. It's all going to go according to plan, and it will all be great! When that doesn't work (because of course it won't be great, he's going to end up losing his true home and the person he loves most if this all goes down no matter who wins), he lets Crowley help talk him into how he could thwart the plan without "really" betraying his concept of God.

Basically, if Aziraphale's values come into conflict with Heaven, he decides that God secretly agrees with him. It's very like people who find their values coming into conflict with the institution of their church or temple, and so decide that there's nothing wrong with their actual religion, it's all just normal human corruption (or in GO's case, angelic corruption) muddying the waters of an otherwise purely good thing.

Now in real life of course this gets to be a thorny issue, but keeping it simple there isn't really a total separation between a faith and its institutions. You can't claim that there's nothing in the religion that lends itself to bad takes, just like you also can't claim that any ideology or belief system is invulnerable to corruption. Likewise, even if every bad thing in GO were to turn out to be the fault of Heaven and Hell and not God, God would still be accountable for a lot of the situation because God still set the stage.

But what matters for Good Omens and Aziraphale and this post is that, Aziraphale has put considerable mental energy into justifying how God and Heaven can still be Good and Right even as both of them do things he finds intolerable. Whether it's "God secretly wants me to do what I think is right instead of what I'm being told" or "Heaven has earnestly misinterpreted the will of God due to not knowing as much as I do", he puts his intelligence to use in protecting himself from the kind of revelation that would uproot his worldview.

The only kind of knowledge that actually protects people from cults is the knowledge of how they operate, and awareness that you're dealing with a cult. Aziraphale has a terrible disadvantage on both fronts because even though he's spent years watching humanity get into hot water with this stuff, he does so with the firm perspective that things are different for angels. He can't necessarily apply what works for humans to himself, because he knows he's a different kind of being (and unlike with IRL cults, it's actually true in his case, though I think demons and angels are both less different from humans than they believe).

Though, interestingly, he's closer to a accepting the truth when it comes to the differences between angels and demons. In S1 he is fully confident that he could possess someone, because even though angels don't do that, demons can. Whether he admits it or not, Aziraphale really does believe that Crowley is not meaningfully different from himself in terms of personhood or ability. If he can make the leap to the idea that angels and demons are not exempt from human-oriented concepts of self-determination and free will and unfair treatment by authority, and reconcile it with his own intense distress at challenging a core belief, then the fact that he's quick on the uptake will really start to work in his favor.

#good omens #i mean yes aziraphale is smart #yes it's also still entirely possible he's being manipulated and is making a terrible decision here #being smart on its own doesn't protect anyone from high control groups #you have to be willing to entertain the idea that the group is a bad thing at bare minimum #and aziraphale was basically born into it which makes it even harder for him

[mishapen-dear]

uhhhh i think they were kinda fucked

#hlvrai #benrey #this was Such a Challenge #and it's still not how i want it smh smh but i've learned a bunch and ive already spent so much time on it #so that means i've won at art #i opened up my program and looked at it and went 'huh! :} ' rather than the previous reactions of 'huh >:/ ' #which is truly the Best indicator that ive succeeded at an art #maybe ill repaint this one day and work harder to make the green = top layer and red = bottom a stronger distinction #i think that's what's throwing me off #but i def need some more practice drawing liquid before i do that #i do like how fuckin dead benrey looks tho that's fun #get owned idiot #mishapen draws #i hope the colours arent ass ugly on other screens <.< the greatest curse of doing weird things with colours is that not everyone's screens #show the same and it kills me every time something looks so much different on my phone compared to my comp

[mysteriouslybluepirate]

Also. I needed Stede and Izzy to make out in that fucking bar in ep 7.

Izzy. Stop softly smiling at Stede... STOP. Stede making the 'horsey leg' comment, only for Izzy to not take up the fight. To admit that Stede and Ed are good. That they should be together. That Izzy was blind to their happiness. They both have the 'he's a complicated man but we both love him and are here for him', LOOK.

Izzy just...having a really good grip on Stede's inner thigh when we cut to them talking after Olu/Zheng??? Izzy telling Stede he's needed???

THEN Izzy genuinely being worried for Stede in the bar?

WHAT ELSE AM I SUPPOSED TO THINK?

#on a list of things that will never be canon #GOD I didn't even include the opening of ep 7 #or the 'making your boyfriend blush' line #stizzy #izzy hands #ofmd s2 #ofmd season 2 #ofmd #I ship them and steddyhands even harder now #which is a SHOCK given everything #ofmd s2ep7 #gentlehands

[fagitsukareita]

thinking about how in the manga aiura says she also saw teruhashi when she asked her crystal ball to show her her soulmate and was scared to learn that teruhashi would be her rival for saiki's love like... What if she mixed saiki and teruhashi up and misinterpreted. wouldn't that be so tragic? aiura also mentions that she can't predict lottery numbers because the karmic balance will strike back twice as hard. what if that's her punishment for using her powers in a self-interested manner by trying to find her soulmate? doomed to a life where no matter how much she may yearn for kokomi, she will always deny herself because of her ultimate belief in the truth of her own predictions?

#something something powers always making life harder #tori can see ghosts but he cant help them move on or help them help the living. living a life surrounded by spectors of what once was #saiki's powers too. can see through things but cant NOT see through them. can hear too many thoughts all the time. #and so for aiura her power is dangerous in 2 main ways outlined in canon #either the human threat which saiki articulates in the chapter where aiura gets attacked by gangsters #or the inevitable downside. she uses her powers to win free ice cream and is hit by a car. #and isn't searching for your soulmate the same as using your powers for your own gain? #idk i think it would be fun i think it would be tasty #aiura mikoto #saiki k #the disastrous life of saiki k #mikoteru

[starry-bi-sky]

Danyal Phantom Doodles uhhh i’ve got a handful of Danyal Al Ghul drawings that I like enough to share.

#dp x dc #dpxdc #danny fenton is not the ghost king #dpxdc crossover #dp x dc crossover #mediocre starry art #danyal al ghul au #danyal al ghul #dpxdc art #jumpscare appearance of shoddily done digital version of phantom done from mobile pocket procreate #he's looking at vlad fyi. that's why he looks like he's .5 seconds from committing a violence #second row middle is that one popular screencap of danny looking at lancer and iirc kwan. the fourth row middle is from a scene #where valerie as huntress tells phantom 'you're not the boss of me!' and he without saying a word. yanks off her mask right in front of #her dad. revealing her identity. before smugly sing-songing “no. but HE is~” and it was so funny i had to attempt to redraw it with Danyal #phantom was doing the soldier 'arms behind back' pose too which is like. somehow makes it funnier #those first four are recent. i drew all but the second one today. same with drawing 6. the rest are weeks old #anatomy practice is helpful but ANNOYING. wdym drawing the back profile is HARDER. why is it harder #also drawing front profiles my beloathed. how do i stop drawing you Prepubescent #out of all things Vlad was expecting from Jack's adoptive son. a sword was not one of them #shot myself in the foot with digi phantom by not doing lineart. but i guess him being hard to see is. Kinda The Whole Point LMAO. his suit #IS. after all. mimicking his dad + the whole assassin shtick. #its the brat himself. the bastard. he likes to climb things over flying.

[uncanny-tranny]

Definitely don't knock your device's accessibility options. I was looking through my phone's accessibility settings last night, and wow, it feels like technology has really advanced since I first got a smartphone.

I've even found a setting that raises certain sounds I apparently have trouble hearing, and it feels like I'm experiencing the music I love with a completely different perspective. It's honestly wild because my first smartphone had like... mono audio, and that was as close as you could get to accessibility

#disability #disability advice #like i'm not HoH as far as i know but i do have some differences with hearing #honestly my biggest issue is. i can barely differentiate where sound is coming from. i usually guess when i can't see a sound's origin lmao #which i don't think disables me but it is harder when i'm driving i've found #there have been a few times where i HEAR an ambulance but i have no clue where it's coming from. like none. #and like... you don't even have to be disabled to use those features on *your* device... #...it's just that for many disabled people they will be heavily invested in making their things accessible #so while i'm not unable to use my phone if that hearing booster wasn't in use it still enhances my experience 👍 #also live transcription???? that would NEVER have been an option with my first phone #i feel OLD (ish)

[captainofthetidesbreath]

I've always been like this, but latest developments really have me against literally everyone in and out of universe like

Jonas truly in his poor meow meow era

#I will protect u Jonas from everyone in the cosmos and the few people who are still mean to you in the fandom #ETA 1: the season two Tumblr AMA has said he's only about 30ish so this applies even harder now #ETA 2: I've changed the wording from “latest episode” (which was Compensation) to “latest developments” to make this more evergreen #ETA 3: dropped 'Fleit' and 'the Trust' to broaden bc Jonas is not having a good time ever from literally everyone (h/t to 3.03: Change) #Jonas Spahr #Midst #Midst podcast #Midst things #Midst spoilers

[somegrumpynerd]

What kinda style do you think Nightmare would paint in? Like do you think he'd have something more classical? Maybe realism? old timey stuff? Or impressionism maybe, I feel like he'd enjoy painting outside

I wanna hear your thoughts on this!

Hm yes yes, I definitely have thoughts about this (<- failed their art exam and very quickly googled painting styles lol)

If I'm understanding what I've read right, I think he'd be into realism or impressionism, I can see him spending ages on lots of little details in a picture. I could definitely see him painting outside though! It's easier to just set up in a secluded area than get anyone to look normal while the king of negativity stares at them for a few hours lol

It kind of goes hand in hand with the idea that he documents aus as a hobby as well I guess, like maybe he tries to paint little scenes of certain aus that stick out to him or just to keep as reference in case anything happens to them. Maybe Horror has a little painting in his room of his snowdin to help when he gets homesick?

He definitely doesn't have several paintings hidden in a closet somewhere of his own au before the incident, with a big tall apple-filled tree and a little yellow flag around the trunk and two yellow and purple dots nearby that are probably just a mistake didn't mean to add those don't read into that

Also not that I read your tags on that post but imagine him trying to do a family portrait. First problem is none of them will sit still. Okay that's a lie Cross probably would stand completely still for hours he has royal guard training, but the others are definitely not. I give it 10 minutes at most before Killer's annoying Dust into trying to kill him, Horror probably forgets what they're doing after an hour and starts walking off and has to be called back. At the end of it all he miraculously has a painting but immediately gets hit with "hey wait this is just us!! why aren't you in it? D:" as if he was supposed to go stand behind them and paint himself somehow??

About a week after he hangs it up, he finds somebody has drawn a little cartoonish version of him and taped it onto the painting like he was in it too and he pretends it doesn't make him as happy as it does.

#UTDR #UTMV #Ask #Pigeonstab #Sorry if this makes no sense I'm a fake art fan I don't know all the painters #But I think he does landscapes and maybe dramatic scenes #Like maybe he does illustrations of important events from aus for documentation purposes #Also after a truce do you think he would ask Ink about how Cross's au looked so he could try and paint him a picture of it? #Whether he gets it right or not Cross WILL cry #I also hc that he steals nice art and books from aus they're terrorising #Like a dragon but his hoard is all art and literature #It also makes it harder to tell which things he actually painted/ wrote in the castle

[wanukilppari]

#Polls #Safety reflectors #Seriously #Wear them #Especially on parking lots #The street lights only make it harder to see people who are lurking in the shadows #Buut based on the talks with international PhD students #Reflectors are mostly a Nordic & Baltic thing #Which is a bit weird

[simplydnp]

thinking about how dnp said they don't really talk on the phone with each other. but it's followed by the biggest 'anymore' ive ever heard in my life because we Know they used to facetime for hours before they moved in together but now they live together and have for over a decade and im--

#they just. get to talk to each other all the time now cause theyre hardly apart like When would they even need to call #which makes the 'do you wanna ft' right after good morning text hit even HARDER like they are sooo used to just. talking together #and also dans 'there are things to talk about!' in reaction to phil having a fake convo with him when he does use his call phil escape card #bc even in the rare moments when separated. they ALWAYS have something they can talk about #dnp #c.text #dan and phil

[mars-ipan]

they're so GROSSSSSS (<- desperately wants what they have)

alt color under the cut:

#martzipan #komahina #hajime hinata #nagito komaeda #2 final colors bc my brain is allergic to desaturation. i needed to have One Bright One for my sanity #anyways i think they have this thing when they finally get together #where komaeda will just say. Anything basically. in an attempt to fluster hinata #and it does fluster him! but also sometimes he decides to do something about it #which flusters KOMAEDA even harder bc the dumbass forgets that like. affection can happen to him #which makes HINATA flustered again because 'you can say all that but one kiss is overwhelming?!?' #and they do this. all the time. especially early on before they're really used to each other #and they're gross about it. they do this in public. everyone else has to watch them do this like. thrice daily #they're awful. and also i envy them #tried some new things this time. more character interaction practice which is fun #i think this is likee... the third???? kiss i've ever drawn??? good for them #but i care more about the lineart. i tried to think about line weight at least a little bit :] it is Difficult lmao #this one made me realize i need to do a hips study lmao. also a neck study #in other words a girl needs to practice her joints more #there's still smth bugging me abt hinata's face in the 3rd one. but. i don't care it's done i'm not touching it