I should try writing something to evoke the very specific atmosphere I experience when I play too much first person 3D video game and then have mental illness symptoms. it's extremely singular. worth attempting to portray
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i'm a weaver my time is spent sitting at looms and spinning wheels and sewing machines and dye pots, and my ability to make any money at all comes from the fact that my work can't be truly reproduced by machine and speaks to my own and others' desire to reconnect with acts of making and living that are slower and emphasize the physicality of our lives, that we are present in our bodies in a physical world and we are sensorial creatures who relate to each other and the world through tactile means. it serves as a reminder that there is a lot we can do away from screens, that there is joy and meaning to be found in creating something with your hands, and that through this we can find channels to address and learn to live with grief and loss without running from the fact that we are living animals with meatbodies and a finite amount of time.
i think it would be very easy for me to fall into a trap where all modern technology is bad and we need to escape it at all costs and to take a luddite approach to technology - literally a luddite approach, because the phrase "luddite" comes from workers in england during the industrial revolution who destroyed machinery in cotton and wool mills to protest the introduction of that machinery as cost saving measures by the capitalists. but the problem in that situation wasn't inherently the machinery that processed cotton and wool more efficiently, it was that the people who owned the factories used that technology as an excuse to pay fewer workers and maximize profit while creating more unsafe working conditions for the workers that remained. in a situation where the workers owned the factory and the machinery, the introduction of this machinery wouldn't have necessarily been harmful but rather potentially helpful to the workers, for whom more free time wouldn't be a death sentence and proper precautions in the use of the machinery to protect human life could be prioritized
i don't want to make the mistake of confusing technology or some other boogeyman as my enemy. the enemy is capitalism, and i choose to prioritize class consciousness over my private existential worries about new technological developments. all the tech we use is made by humans, just like this economic system we live in. we have the capacity to dismantle economic systems and build new ones, just as we have the capacity to use the tech we make in ways that benefit rather than harm us and the world we live in. my gut tendency is to be distrustful of new tech but i have to remind myself that it isn't helpful and it obfuscates what's actually going on.
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time for me to review The Whole Bible. ready? ok. to be honest my favorite part of the gospels is Mark 8.22-26, when Jesus spits in some nice blind man's eyeballs and accidentally gives him cosmic consciousness. guy's just like "may i have a teaspoon of visual response to stimulus" and jesus is like "oh sure" and gives him God Vision. fuckin...ayahuasca sight that perceives the interconnectedness of all life. "oh is that not normal? does everyone not have that? nuts. ok try these eyes. are those more regular? great. maybe lie down by yourself for a while and please don't mention this to anyone"
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mike accepting, loving, and celebrating will's otherness while rejecting his own is so . it's literally Soooooo like i can't see through my tears rn jgenuinely . he's so......... i can 't do this icant finish the post he's so . MICHAEL.............
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some quick Sterling stuff I've been procastinating on posting
(reblogs very appreciated!)
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the way you can just see where i taped the nail picks orz....... (other hand's thumb for comparison)
li come kiss it better ;<
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i'm cry laughing some people on twitter are now saying "izzy bashing" needs to be tagged in fics. how did these people ever survive watching this show where izzy is the CANON ANTAGONIST i'll never know
benefit of the doubt but i think most of them have gotten to this point gradually. when they first watched the show they were not attached to izzy the way they are now. i know for a lot of people it was blorbo at first sight with izzy but i've also seen izzy enjoyers say they didn't like him at first, and then fandom made them care about him.
like i'm pretty sure for a lot of ppl it started off with isolating themselves from ppl who made posts that they didnt like, like ppl who criticized ofmd for being based on two real people with direct connections to actual real-world slave trade (which is an incredibly valid thing to criticize abt ofmd).
another one that i think funneled a lot of fans towards being so delusionally attached to izzy was people pointing out or complaining about the disproportionate amount of fan content for izzy compared to prominent characters of color—which is a consistent issue in fandom no matter what the media, and is also a very easy one for people to be uncomfortable with whenever they see it get pointed out. people venting that "fans care too much abt this white man" often make fans who care abt that white man very defensive right off the bat, and then rather than engage with why they feel defensive or question if maybe their enjoyment of this character is fueled by implicit bias (which it might not be, to be clear! im not saying—and i have never said—that everyone who enjoyes izzy likes him for racist reasons), they stop listening to the conversation abt white favoritism and continue blorboposting as much as they want. it's incredibly easy for fans to brush off this convo as "just starting drama" and avoid the topic altogether because "fandom is for fun!" and they dont want to think abt difficult topics like racism and implicit bias, they just want to enjoy their blorbos in peace.
so they kept narrowing the takes they were seeing until they were in an echo chamber that kept moving more and more towards complete woobification of izzy hands. these people are now looking at the show entirely through izzy's pov, making posts abt how sad it is that none of the other characters are ever nice to him, how frustrating the show is from his perspective, how it feels to be deeply in love with someone who doesn't love you back. they've stared at gifs of con's micro-expressions and read angsty fanfiction and looked at endless izzy fanart and their entire ofmd fandom experience revolves around empathizing with this one character even tho the show itself continually makes him the butt of the joke.
at this point, telling these people to rewatch the show doesn't even matter. they've spent so much time over-analyzing every single one of izzy's scenes to the point where the emotional responses they get from these scenes are not the emotional responses anyone would have watching the show for the first time. they've warped the entire first season to fit their version of the show and are forgetting how often the show itself bashes izzy.
and the icing on the cake is the trolling. there's like, one or two people on here who go around sending anon hate and leaving nasty comments on instagram posts and harassing people on twitter for... like, i would say "for liking izzy" or even "for saying positive things about izzy" but like. i've gotten these messages, and the most sympathetic i've ever been to izzy was the post i made like "maybe he's mean bc he has chronic IBS. i'd actually understand him more if that were the case." so when i get these messages it's easier for me to just laugh them off bc it's so obviously just someone trying to make me upset, but people who do care about izzy (a lot of them being the same people who avoided engaging with the "why does fandom care so much abt white characters" convo) get these absolutely horrible messages about how they deserve to get hate crimed and they should kill themselves. and these fans who didn't want to even see vaguely negative posts abt izzy bc they just want to enjoy fandom in peace are now like "im targeted for just liking a character!"
so that's how we get to people saying that "izzy bashing" needs to be tagged. never mind that their definition of "bashing" almost certainly includes things that are not bashing but are just things that contradict the way they headcannnon him.
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find the vibe tag XI
Big thank you to @indecentpause for the ancient tag to look for “You have no idea how long I’ve been wanting you to say that.” Here's a bit of Invisible Girl shenanigans 😁
“I’d like to offer you a job,” Antonio said very quickly. “It’s all perfectly ethical, even though I get the sense you wouldn’t care. As one of my assistants, you would travel with me to all my meetings and conferences, and if you happened to overhear the mood in the room or any other tidbits that might be useful, well, that’s on them for speaking carelessly while you’re nearby.”
Velia felt a slow smile steal over her face without her permission.
“I also need a secretary, but I thought you’d be awful at that job, but rest assured when I find the right person, they will be sworn to secrecy and told all about you.”
“One of the others could do it.”
Antonio sighed laboriously, and pretended to scribble something down for the driver’s sake. “Believe it or not, they all already turned me down. Something about taking initiative for themselves, or liking their jobs. Utter rubbish. But we’ll wear them down eventually, you and I.”
Above their heads, birds sang. The carriage rocked them gently. “I accept,” Velia said.
“Oh splendid,” Antonio sang, as though he’d been waiting for just that. “I’m going to start you on wages today, and you get a room in my father’s house all to you, if you want—second floor, I think, which is optimal for sneaking out of.”
I'll pass it on to @eccaiia @blind-the-winds @moonscribbler @sleepyowlwrites @sarandipitywrites @lyssentome @kaiusvnoir @toribookworm22 and anyone else who'd like to join and look for the vibe "Oh HELL no." 😉🥂
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precious boy
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I swear there's no heterosexual explanation to 55 Minutes
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This fucking thing. You have no idea.
About two months ago, I took this thing into work. When I was done with it, I brought it back home and put it away… kind of.
See, "taking it to work" involved:
remembering I owned it in the first place
remembering I needed it at work once I was back home
remembering to put it in my bag to bring to work
remembering to bring it out of the bag to use at work
actually using the damn thing
remembering to put it back in my bag to bring home
remembering to take it out of my bag once I got home, and
putting it back where it belonged
Where it belongs is in a tool bag on a shelf above our dryer. The shelf is slightly above eye level, and the tool bag sits near the back where I need to reach a bit to get it. The tool bag location makes sense, because it’s something I use often enough that I want it visible, but not so often that I want it in the way of other things. That, of course, means that it's mildly annoying to get to.
So over the course of about a week I managed to get through steps 1-7, but when it came to step 8 (putting it away properly), well… I was tired. I had a lot of other things on my mind. So I put it on the shelf near the tool bag, because taking the tool bag out added five more steps to the process (take bag, place on surface, unzip bag, place screwdriver in bag, zip bag up, return bag to shelf vs put screwdriver on shelf) and I just couldn’t right then.
And so it sat there. For like two months. And every time I saw it I’d think, “Right, I should put that away,” and every time I couldn’t, because Too Much. And now, on top of the task itself, there was the Emotional Context of it sitting there, weighing on me. It had become the Screwdriver of Bad Feelings. Every time I noticed it while doing the laundry, I would feel ever so slightly like shit for not just putting it away already it will literally take fifteen seconds, but it never bothered me enough in the moment to flip the switch in my brain and force me to do something about it.
Until today. Today, I got out a different screwdriver from the tool bag for a different task. When I was done, I :
put away that screwdriver
put the tool bag back
noticed the Screwdriver of Bad Feelings was still there
took the tool bag back down
unzipped it again
put the Bad Feelings screwdriver in the bag,
zipped the bag back up, and
continued on to the next task.
Like it was easy. Like it was nothing. Because today, it was.
What was so special about today? Ritalin. That’s it. That’s all.
Don’t ever let anyone fucking tell you that ADHD isn’t real, that executive dysfunction isn’t a real disability. Because without something extra (high levels of stress, pressure, anxiety… or meds) to make my brain do the thing? I cannot do the thing. I am unable. If that's not the definition of disability, I don't know what is.
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when talented artists like my writing I feel like we’re reaching across the table and shaking hands heartily
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TAG DUMP , pt. 1
‧͙⁺˚・༓☾ ⸻ this right hand bestows thirst. you shall shrivel and die ( crocodile ).
*✭˚・゚✧*・゚* ⸻ sometimes it takes more courage not to fight ( makino ).
‧͙⁺˚・༓☾ ⸻ if i forgo duty for family now ̗ what will become of justice ( monkey d. garp ).
‧͙⁺˚・༓☾ ⸻ i am the man who will become king of the pirates ( monkey d. luffy ).
*✭˚・゚✧*・゚* ⸻ take me out to sea with you ! a desire to live ( nico robin ).
*✭˚・゚✧*・゚* ⸻ primadonna girl ̗ all i ever wanted was the world ( perona ).
‧͙⁺˚・༓☾ ⸻ i am fire itself. you can't even touch me ( portgas d. ace ).
‧͙⁺˚・༓☾ ⸻ a man who has cooked on every sea in the world ( red leg zeff ).
‧͙⁺˚・༓☾ ⸻ looks like it was a little too spicy for you! devil of the blue sea ( sanji ).
‧͙⁺˚・༓☾ ⸻ they call him the dark king ̗ the pirate king's first mate ( silvers rayleigh ).
*✭˚・゚✧*・゚* ⸻ my sword will cut the blindfold from justice's eyes ( tashigi ).
‧͙⁺˚・༓☾ ⸻ i'll become a doctor who can cure any disease. a reliable doctor ( tony-tony chopper ).
‧͙⁺˚・༓☾ ⸻ to become a brave warrior of the sea ( usopp ).
*✭˚・゚✧*・゚* ⸻ passion bleeds red ̗ this eye of mine sees the core of you ( viola ).
*✭˚・゚✧*・゚* ⸻ fate may have paved the way but i will choose to walk it ̗ enacting my will ( clover d. iselda ).
*✭˚・゚✧*・゚* ⸻ pure lucid evil ̗ i'd sleep all right with all that on top of me ( nina liu ).
‧͙⁺˚・༓☾ ⸻ and the sea has a beloved whose name all nightmares know ( otorobashi akai ).
*✭˚・゚✧*・゚* ⸻ let me go mad in my own way. let me live without abandon ( zhi hua ).
*✭˚・゚✧*・゚* ⸻ member of the sogeking fanclub ( ooc ).
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this is not untrue but it is kind of funny coming from someone that freely chose to pitch their book as like neon genesis evangelion meets the hunger games or whatever it was and i dont feel like the practice is a problem (in private query letters sent to agents/publishers) because it's literally just a shortcut to discussing the types of audiences it might be relevant to and proving that people would be interested in it. it can be about like themes or style or whatever as much as like ‘these stories both have robots in’ and also does not mandate that books are marketed in this way. also no one in the history of reading has ever been annoyed at the ‘if you like this you also might like this due to some shared similarity between them’ style of recommendations, i think people just object to like artlessly cobbling together as many gimmicks from popular media as you can without any attempt to replicate the meaningful storytelling elements that made the originals popular so they read your book and get disappointed when they realise you didn’t mean it was in the storytelling tradition of the hunger games or nge you just mean its a sci-fi dystopia with a girlboss in
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