#which would suck but oh well

[bunnieswithknives]

WORKING MOVING CAR IN MINECRAFT I AM SO FUKCING SMART!!!

#minecraft #minecraft command blocks #minecraft creation #command block are hard man #minecraft commands #minecraft community #dhmis #don't hug me i'm scared #this took me forever #obviously the final version wont force you to input a command for every block you wanna move #but I was too excited not to share #currently theres a problem where if you try to sit down while the car is moving you fall through the floor and get stuck lol #so ill have to see if I can fix that lol #if not then the sitting function might have to be axed #which would suck but oh well

[scaredgirlhorny]

favorite part of your body for your owners to hit?

well i dont have any owners but if i did idk i guess face?? or ass. i dont really enjoy full on punching or like beating much like thats too much for me but slapping and like hurting other ways is really hot so like. yeah ig face. i just love the idea of being slapped around and like having my hair pulled so i look at them 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

#ask #which sucks cause i hate bratting and i also hate when people are like too mean #so idk how i would get that but oh well >w<

[liverpool-enjoyer]

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#for the first time im genuinely considering changing my major #n by considering i mean 'rlly want to but know deep down i cant' #cause like... i have NO IDEA what else i would do #like not a damn clue #so its either my current career path (which i have reason to believe im genuinely not cut out for) or... idk nothing??? #well i'd hafta do something #but idk what #its jus that after a LOT of thought ive come to the conclusion that me being a nurse will do so much more harm than good for other ppl #i made the most careless mistake last week that cost me a rlly valuable clinical experience at a SUPER reputable hospital #im the only one in my class who made that mistake #the only one stupid enough #like... gosh what am i DOING here? #im literally the least qualified person to be a nurse #im cold #im standoffish #i HATE being around people #when i told my friends n family i was going to nursing school they were shocked n WHY SHOULDNT THEY HAVE BEEN? #when you think of a nurse you think a someone whos kind. whos reliable. whos hardworking... im not any a those things #n its not even me being self depracating its an honest to gosh fact #oh also my grades fuckin suck lmao #like i literally know for a fact i got lower grades than every single other nursing major last semester #plus i was never going into nursing to help ppl #i went into it so i could sleep at night knowing ive done a 'good thing' #so yeah #ive put myself on a career path im not in any way cut out for #n i cant quit cause i have literally no plan b!!! #yay #idk what i was made for but its not this

[lord-squiggletits]

I need to reread the comics again to have specific arguments/evidence for this, but like

I feel a bit like I could've been sympathetic to the way other Cybertronian colonies view Cybertron, if it weren't for the fact that at least several of them (as in, ones that get notable dialogue/screen time) are so low-key self-righteous?

Like, idk... there's a lot of criticism of Cybertronians because they're so "warlike" and how their obsession with violence and vengeance is just dragging the whole galaxy down with them, but uh. The Autobot-Decepticon war was basically a product of societal ills bubbling over for like 6 million years beforehand and then finally boiling over into a 4 million year war that lasted as long as it did because the people involved had immense social/psychological trauma from being "raised" in an oppressive society.

So when the colonists come in being all 'omg you people are so violent and uncivilized why don't you just like, stop fighting' it kind of pissed me off a little bit as a reader/person like. Idk the colonists really came into this society of people full of massive amounts of trauma where even before the war society was super oppressive and no one has any experience of living "normal" lives unaffected by violence and bigotry. And the colonists were like "ummm wow why don't you guys just??? stop fighting???." Like idk it wasn't EVERY SINGLE MOMENT, in fact I think that when it was played for laughs it's quite a funny "fridge horror" type element. It was just annoying because like.... IDK???? It's just really annoying to watch a bunch of people who lived relatively sheltered lives on their own planets come to a different planet full of traumatized people and be like "omg why are you people so fucked up" IDK BRO MAYBE BECAUSE THEIR SOCIETY WAS OPPRESSIVE AND THEY LIVED THROUGH A LIFELONG WAR???

It also doesn't help that the colonies were literally founded based on imperialism and conquest so like, it's fucking rich to hear colonists scolding Cybertronians for their violence ruining the whole galaxy while literally sitting on planets that their Primes colonized from others. The hypocrisy of this is briefly mentioned in Unicron (literally the FINAL STORY OF THE SERIES) but like, that's basically the only time Cybertronian characters are given a reprieve of sympathy from other characters in universe and it's so tiresome.

I've talked to other people who didn't like the colonists and thought they basically (narratively speaking) existed just to shit on the existing characters, and it's actually really easy for me to sympathize with/outright agree with that assessment of the story considering how much of exRID/OP seems to be preoccupied with "Cybertron/the Primes/Optimus sucks" with very few reprieves for anything positive happening and even fewer chances for characters to get to explain themselves and experience a little bit of justice? Like, as the audience, it's just very frustrating to see the characters you spent hundreds of issues keeping up with get shit on by a bunch of "literally-who"s and then not really get a chance to ever defend themselves, either by literally defending themselves in conversation or having some sort of narrative thing happening that vindicates them at least symbolically

#squiggposting #paused work to muse about this which i prolly shouldn't have lol #oh well i'll still get stuff done #like idk an example of this is how pyra criticized OP for using religion to manipulate people #(lets just ignore how she said she would teach OP but never actually did) #but in the story there's never any sort of confrontation where pyra learns about history or talks with OP #and OP gets to be like. yeah on my planet primes fucking sucked and i'm the only one trying to redeem their image #also ive been fighting an endless war that lasted 4 mil years in which me being a shining figurehead was basically #the sole motivating force keeping my army from just collectively succumbing to endless despair #and i also had to use this shining figurehead image i had to keep the opposing army from genociding a bunch of organics #like not once does OP get to express his side of things he's basically just shit upon endlessly by other characters as he keeps doing plot #i feel like i had another example but i can't recall who/what was involved lmao #like idk it's not just that barber's writing is depressing and dark and edgy. i LIKE stories that do that kind of thing #it's just that it feels a bit as if the story is ENDLESSLY depressing and dark and edgy with almost no reprieve #as if it's mostly presenting the flaws of the characters with no chance for them to justify or redeem themselves #idk i feel like there was another better point/example i was gonna make but i can't remember it #like idk i guess a dark depressing story would've been better if the characters at least got to defend themselves #bc as is it basically feels like they (esp OP) get shit on endlessly and never once get to express anything about it #so like. they get shit on in universe. but also as the reader since there's never a contradicting viewpoint or the character defending them #it's as if you're supposed to take this one-sided criticism of them at face value and it just doesn't seem fair AS THE READER #if i read about OP getting shit on by some people and defended by others and also him expressing his opinion on himself #then that just feels like a normal fair narrative where i get to take sides #but if it's just OP being shit on and he hardly expresses much about it #then it feels like i as the reader am expected to agree with the portrayal being shown? #but in reality the portrayal just feels negative and unfair and one sided to me #and why the fuck do i want to read a story that's just the characters i know and like on an endless shame parade #also shout out to 'literally who' aka slide calling OP 'literally fascist' lmao #one of the most cringe moments of the entire comic. wait no. i can think of a more cringe Slide Moment #when unicron is about to destroy the planet and trypticon is getting shot and dying(?) in the background #and the story decides to pause and focus on Slide so she can monologue about how evil and tyrannical OP is

[sherlock-is-ace]

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#oh wow... #i just had an oh shit fuck moment #wow #i usually complain about the one therapist i had in my entire life and how she wouldn't just listen to what i was saying #if it didn't fit her textbook definition of whatever she was thinking at the time #and how i talked to her about my anxiety and how that made me feel and she would only focus on how i acted #so the example i gave her was the one time i went into a shop to buy something by myself #because my mom didn't want to go in for me and arguing with my mom in front of the shop in public and then inevitably have to #go in myself either way was way worse to me #because of the embarrassement of arguing in public. the fact that my mom was gonna spend the entire walk home telling me how i have to #''just suck it up and learn and just overcome my anxiety because i don't have a problem'' or whatever #and then having to go into the shop where the lady had been watching me from inside the entire time how i clearly didn't want to go in #and possibly be even more awkward with teary eyes because of the anxiety and awkwardness i already bring to the table any day... #all of those things that were going inside my head were trumped by the fact that i did go in and did buy what i needed #although my heart was coming out of my chest the entire time... all that didn't matter to my therapist because in her words: #''if you had anxiety. you simply wouldn't have gone in'' #which is ridiculous #but anyways... i just had an epiphany... that was masking wasn't it? #forcing myself to do something that brings me major discomfort to make my mother and the shop lady not judge me? #pretend i'm a normal human being just doing normal things instead of someone who's about to have a heart attack buying embroidery thread? #panicking the entire time because i wasn't prepeared and hadn't scripted the entire transaction in my head? #yet still going in and putting on my ''normal person'' mask to try to seem like i wasn't just dying seconds ago (and still was)? #isn't that literally what masking is?! #and the ''autism specialist'' ass therapist was like ''if you did it then you don't have a problem'' #when i'm literally telling her how much of a problem it actually WAS?! #you know what's the best part about all this #that when i told my mom after i left that therapist that she didn't listen to me because [insert everything above] #my mom's response was ''well sometimes therapist will say things that you don't want to hear but you have to accept them''.... #same woman who's always saying how much she hates therapists because they ''will say whatever and pretend they know shit'' #ok so it's only The Truth when I tell you it isn't...

[dawnthefluffyduck]

Wanted to draw but didn't wanna mess with anything that had pen pressure in it just yet, so here's some ms paint doodles done while I watched a manchild play lethal company

#i know the portrait is off but it was just a doodle #going in and fixing it would require more hand movement than i need to be doing right now so loose sketch it shall be #his hair was weird and it made the whole thing visually lean to the right which sucked but oh well lmao #i made ralsei's eyes all Θ_Θ but his glasses covered it up :') #i must do another to remedy this #see i actually drew a really good picture of the girl in the top right #and right as soon as i got close to being done #my computer completely froze up and nothing worked and the speaker got stuck so it sounded really scary and i panic-hard shut down my lapto #aaaaaaaand lost all of my work #they say art is temporary but damn haha #i ran a virus scan and everything is a-okay so the next reasonable step is to exorcize my laptop #/j #i have a funny as hell story to tell here about my relationship to computers #maybe I'll make that a comic one day lol #short version is i hate them because I'm scared of them and it's a monkey's fault #alright tag babble over night night y'all #doodles #ralsei #ducks #original character #odette

[breezypunk]

But are they cool enough to take on brain eating monsters?

You bet your ass they aren't.

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"If you see one, just.. I don't know, wack it's head off."

"V.. Do you see this axe? It weighs more than you do. I can barely lift it."

"For fuck sake Goro, didn't you read how to kill zombies for dummies? I bought that book for a reason.."

"Oh.. I thought you bought that for yourself."

"Now's not the time to insult me! If you can't wack it, than we'll have to run."

"Speak for yourself, V. I am but half a man, I cannot get infected like you."

"Would you just leave me to die than?"

"... Why don't I take a look at that book, hmm?"

#cyberpunk 2077 #goro takemura #oc: vaughn leblanc #otp: golden hues #male v #takemura x v #nomad v #nomad goro #au: fallout 2077 #my screenshots #queue mean the world to me #- #I HAD to make gifs for this even though it hurt me lmao #I suck at it but oh well #I had an idea I needed to see it through #Lar inspired me to do this au which I put off but here we are thanks love #than the jacket came out and yep it's arrived #I love them they are dorks who would die 2 days into a zombie apoc.

[carcarrot]

i love my job that's like if you asked someone to design a place specifically meant to frustrate, torture and overstimulate an anxious person

#i cant do this anymore. i obviously will but like i cant do this anymore #you might think college-eduated professional people in a fancy office building would have some understanding of personal space and manners #but you'd be wrong! #i am staying in this job for everything aside from the actual job itself which i hate #im just here for the pay the insurance and the time off #and the fact that i can carve out important goofing off time during work hours. which just means i can be on my phone lmao #that being said i do sometimes miss my cafe job #i was more my own boss there and often worked completely alone (yay) #whereas here even though im kinda the boss of my own floor. i still have to deal w my dumb supervisor and coworkers and manager #plus at the cafe i had sole control of the music that played there. very important. lots of steely dan #sometimes when the work got really busy it sucked and was overwhelming but it would stil calm down eventually #and ill always hate dealing with annoying customers. but at least there they LEFT #here its the same assortment of idiots every goddamn day. and theyre always around #like yeah the cafe job had annoying things (taking out the trash from the basement. up stairs) #but it did have its fun moments #it just didnt pay nearly as good as this job and had no insurance or paid time off. oh well #this has me thinking abt what if i owned my own place. but i don't wanna

[witchofinterest]

anxiety has taken some of my favorite activities from me but i think the one im saddest about is being able to draw on myself

#leaf speaks #ability = mental ability be #btw* #like yeha i could but it would stress me out so badly it’s not worth it #which sucks bc that was a fave of mine #oh well at least i can get a a tattoo #anxiety tw #anxiety mention tw #why am i so scared of pen ink? #drawing on myself was my fave hobby in middle school to the chagrin of everyone

[misspickman]

I dont think kon should ever be superman, that doesn't feel like the positive progression of his story, but there is something morbidly compelling to me about a world where he is the only choice for it and fills that role out of that deep sense of loyalty. Bc yeah its the purpose he was made for and now hes doing it! Wasnt that what he strived for all along! And yes he would be good at it, its been his whole life and hes super competent and powerful bc ttk is insane. And he would never feel good enough, would never be confident that hes doing as well as clark had, and years down the line he'd still feel like a 16yo kid with too big shoes to fill

#Dont come at me with 'oh x could be superman instead' its a hypothetical scenario #I just think its fun when characters get to reach a goal theyve been working towards for so long and then it sucks #And has kon ever really wanted to be superman entirely out of his own volition or just because it was the one thing he could imagine being #Obviously hes going to be superman. Its the one thing he can do #And i think this fizzles out as hes older which would make him having to be superman even more fun #He doesn't even want it anymore but he is made to do it #And hes going to do it well and hes never going to see that #txt

[apotelesmaa]

My initial off the top of my head wxs Pokémon partners match up would be

Nene - primarina/rotom/hatterene. Primarina is self explanatory, the rotom was originally rui’s but it possesses robonene so it’s hers now, and hatterene…

Emu - bewear/mr. mime/togekiss. Bewear is funny (& similar to the mascot bodyguard), Mr. Mime is self explanatory, togekiss is self explanatory wrt Pokédex entries.

Rui - porygon z/mimikyu/silvaly. I feel like all of these are pretty self explanatory.

Tsukasa - dragonite/sylveon/rapidash. Dragonite is a wxs world link reference, sylveon just fits, rapidash because there is no Pegasus pokemon.

#debated giving rui an absol (misinterpreted by humans leading to stigma) but mimikyuu fits him way better & I like porygon #i dislike giving random characters legendaries/mythicals but. silvaly fits too well. #originally had togekiss and sylveon swapped but I think togekiss fits emu better & tsukasa would have a sylveon. you know this in ur heart. #middle school tsukasa: I hope my eevee evolves into a super cool umbreon (it does not) #but sylveon does remind him of saki so he is fine with this. #debated giving him a Galarian rapidash but I honestly think regular rapidash works better #& the team aesthetic was leaning too heavily on the cute fairy side which there’s nothing wrong w but it’s not his vibe #primarina just fits nene absurdly well and I think giving her a hatterene is the funniest possible choice I could make #it fuckin hates tsukasa. wants him dead. #rotom/robonene (rotomnene?) also Just Works… it comes out of the robot occasionally but it likes the cool functions it gets as a robot #togekiss’s whole thing is it wants to be surrounded by nice kind people and it evolves w friendship. i think it fits emu. #& bewear gives spine breaking hugs canonically which is very emu #what else. uhh rui would 100% make the mimikyu cute little costumes & the dragonite is a world link reference #bc the dragonite embodiment of the sea guides ships thing. etc. #‘off the top of my head’ me when I lie. originally it was and then I got sucked into bulbapedia. sad. oh well. #if I was to give other characters mythical/legendary pkmn nene would get meloetta or manaphy/emu would get diancie or moltres #and Tsukasa would get jirachi or moltres. or maybe victini. who’s to say. #someone did give tsukasa a keldeo that could also work… #thank you for coming to my Ted talk. i have not played Pokémon since legends arceus. #project sekai

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#im just gonna complain abt it here bc i just have to accept that i can't irl bc no one else gets it #its hard to b a dyslexic grad student. u have to read so much. and its good. lots of reading is good. u just have to contend with a soul #crushing amout of discouragement at the fact u just kinda cant read while ur peers r like sure i can read this in class and have things to #say abt it. if u make me read in my head in class i literally cannot fucking tell u what i just read. not a god damn thing and if i try to #let my computer read to me i cant fucking pay attention for long enough so i just have to accept that from here on out ill have to #physically read papers aloud which i hate so much. its the only way i can fucking understand things and it still makes me feel dumb bc ill #somehow still space out while reading and have to reread like 4 times before i understand wtf is being said. it takes forever and it takes #energy and i dont like talking very much and it also restricts me to only being able to read at home which is frustrating #and im like i need to stop my brain from distracting myself with things that dont matter and my counselor is like: ur ocd is trying to make #work ur whole life and im like yeah thats how i got it. its the only way i can keep swimming with the non dyslexics #so its like wtf do i do? i kinda have to take the hit and make work my whole life rn. morn the loss of other things for a while #i dunno im still a bummer rn. like im probably coming off as more an asocial freak than normal bc its hard to talk ans maintain conversation #rn. but whatever. sometimes things just suck and theres nothing u can do abt it but accept it and move on. ill learn lots of things with all #the reading i have to do and that's never a bad thing ...no matter how much i dont give a fuck abt animals #like jesus. i could not even begin to give a fuck about like 95% of mammals. fish r cool tho. plants too #but microbes is where its at. i dont understand y ppl dont understand how cool they r. oh well ill just have to tell them #if i can find my fucking enthusiasm. ugh i have to make one of my classes read a paper and i have to work with someone abt find it. she #works with like rabbits. i refuse to assign a mammal paper. i fucking refuse. we will do plants or microbes or fucking paleontology #i will fight her on this. ugh. light filtering or orchid speciation would b perfect. annoying #at least i get to work with some culturs this week #unrelated

[ambersky0319]

Don't get me wrong I love learning ASL (way more than I did learning any other language) and I really like my professor however

I sincerely hope my class next semester is a normal one, not one that's twice a week and almost 2 hours in the evening/night

#id actually LIKE to join the asl club or go to the asl socials my uni has #BUT ALL THE MEETINGS HAPPEN WHILE IM IN CLASS 😭 #my professor has literally been like 'you guys should go to these socials!' but then seems to not realize they go from 6-9pm #and we're in class from 6-7:50pm #and SOME OF US (ie ME) would rather go home bc theyve already been out of the house for 14 hours straight #anyways! #enrolling in classes for next semester on monday! im pretty excited #there is one class i wanted to take but probably wont be able to which sucks a bit but oh well #i can just take it a different semester #and im setting a reminder for myself to finish the fucking fafsa this weekend #well. my part anyway #ill be sure to keep an eye out for my grandpa's part and sit down w him to fill out whatever he needs #amber's shit you can ignore

[bejeweledmp3]

computer how do i stop feeling insecure on my writting so that can i write. computer please

#talking tag; #ok so. story time sure why not #today is my first day of uni and i had classes from 8.30 am to 11:45 which was. fine i was exhasuted but it was fine #and then i had to wait to meet some friends for lunch and i started writting and it just hit me that totp is actually over 50k words #and it's like brooooo i literally wrote a novel length fic (that's still not done btw! not close!) and for whattt who even has the time #to read something like that like why bother. it's not even (directly) about the main characters and i just #i'm afraid that i'm repeating myself i'm afraid that chracters are not being developed like i hoped they would i'm afraid that no one will #care and i'm also afraid that the people that do care won't like it #and then i met with my friends who study cinema and they bumped into people from their classes and i was just. #there listening to their conversations without interacting like what the FUCKKK am i doing here pretending that i fit in with the cool #cretive people and that my prose is any good at all #just. 50 thousand words of fanfiction and i'm worried that none of them are any good #but lately my motto is that i will figure it out so. i will figure it out #i did cry about it (lmao) which i'm counting as progress from the empty nothingness i felt around this time of year a year ago #but yeah man it sucks. totp is my baby but (just like kim lmao) my default is being hard on myself. i just can't not be #i think i'll write on my diary about this and then!!! we move on. oh well #i will finish totp that's a promise but yeah. today just hasn't been great i guess #and i have no one in my life to talk to about this so!!!!!! shouting into the void i guess

[francesderwent]

one of the weirdest things about *waves hands vaguely in the direction of my relationship* this whole experience. is this time around? there really isn’t a Taylor Swift song that captures it for me.

#even the MOST romantic ones? ones that I DO think capture something of the essence of love. none of them are right somehow! #i will still not be elaborating at this time #closest are probably Everything Has Changed (dust off your highest hopes everything HAS changed) #King of My Heart (is this the end of all the endings? my broken bones are mending) #weirdly State of Grace (love is a ruthless game unless you play it good & right! this is the golden age of something good & right & real!) #but there’s no hearing a song everything snapping into place like oh THIS is what it feels like #because none of those songs are about him you know??? the specificity is missing and the specificity is why I love him #Everything Has Changed is wrong because I knew a whole lot more than his name when everything changed!! #King of My Heart is wrong because it’s not QUIET enough. it’s too triumphant not awed enough #State of Grace is wrong because ‘you were never a saint we learn to live with the pain mosaic broken hearts’ just isn’t the vibe! #and neither of us have blue eyes!!! #and if this was a fictional blorbo song none of that would even matter because I can reach across miles to make a blorbo song work #but apparently not this time?? #and the answer might be ‘well cate Taylor has never written a song about falling in love with an old friend’ #(except for Glitch which lowkey sucks and Mary’s Song and INTHAF which go back TOO far; we didn’t grow up together) #but also…..it might be that this time it’s not primarily in my head and so I can’t twist it to fit a song #they say you know when you’re really in love because all the love songs make sense #but maybe that’s sort of the being in love with love stage?? #maybe you know you’re really in love when none of the love songs can fully cross over into the uniqueness of your experience #anyway. ignore me #or send me song recs for friends-to-lovers lol #in which cate tells stories

[sourkitsch]

Two things that are true at once:

I am not nearly as mentally ill as I’ve convinced myself I am

I am far sicker than I’ve convinced my friends that I am

#:( #my friend and I were talking about post grad plans and we were talking about how our friend is gonna move in w them + their partner #and eventually we got onto how I’m not confident on my ability to pay rent on place by myself #and then they were like omg wait we were actually just looking at a place w 3 bedrooms and thinking about who else we would want to live w #and I literally brushed them off by saying ‘oh no I’m a nightmare to live with’ and they were like no omg it would be so great!!!!!! #it would not be great. and I am hoping whatever these plans are fall through so I don’t have to say anything about it #because I cannot have roommates. my friends have only encountered my ptsd twice and I managed it well enough that I’m pretty sure #no one noticed. but it’s because the vast majority of my triggers are domestic. when I sleep over my moms house I sleep in a bedroom #all the way down the hall away from everything because I cannot hear people’s footsteps by my door or I freak the fuck out #and just the idea of people drinking or doing drugs in a place I live makes me feel like I’m gonna throw up #I’ve tried living in a single dorm before and that was bad enough that I had to move off of campus my sophomore year #I just really really really don’t want to be serious and tell them I can’t #because I know it would be unfair to all of us #I hate that I view myself as a punishment for other people but I know it’s because it is. I would be that crazy roommate that’s brought up #for years afterwards. and it sucks because I like this people even if I know not to trust them #it’s also now a pattern that when I bring something up about me not being normal people think it’s a joke. which maybe it’s my fault #I really need to go back to therapy but do not have the bandwidth to go over the incest thing with a new person right now