Whenever someone in this one discord server I'm in complains about being neurodivergent and says they "wish they were neurotypical" I have to suppress the strong urge to tell them to unlearn their internalized abelism. Cause like, no, sorry, while being autistic or having ADHD might make it difficult to socialize and maintain friendships with neurotypicals, if you focus on friendships with other neurodivergent people you'll have an easier time. Because they'll grok your ways of being more easily. And some neurotypical folks will still think you're great even if you are bit "odd" to them. Trying to socialize like a neurotypical person is just setting yourself up for failure!
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I am genuinely so terrified of the fact that I have to find a job now. I'm trying to think of or look up a job that's suitable for my mentally ill autistic ass and I just. I don't know. Everything either requires some very specific qualifications that I don't have, or seems at best awfully exhausting, at worst literally putting me in danger. And I'm not even exaggerating, I genuinely think that working in retail, for example, could possibly kill me if I was forced to do that job for long enough. I sometimes get overwhelmed to the point of crying when there's too many other customers while I'm shopping, I can't imagine working in an environment like that. I suppose physical jobs could work, I've been to this blueberry plantation twice last week and mentally I was fine, but it was. So tiring. And you don't even make that much money a day, I don't think I could earn enough even if I did work there everyday, not to mention it's only a seasonal job. Right now it's fine for me to go there every now and then, but if I wanted to move out and become independent I'd have to get an actual day job. And that sounds impossible. The only job that sounds good to me is being an artist, it's not too mentally or physically difficult, and it's something I enjoy. But I'd have to get commissions constantly or start a small business or something like that to actually survive. And I'm not saying it's impossible, I know that people can live by being an artist, but it's so hard to get into that field. I wish I could do it but I dont know if it's possible for me. Makes me wanna cry. I hate this I hate that my brain isn't suited for this world and still I have to participate in all that shit that everyone has to do. My brain isn't made for working like that
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Is me crying over not being able to get a vanilla frosty from wendys a pms thing, the last straw to cause an autistic meltdown, or both!! Take ur votes now folks
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Oh okay so tumblr's tag system and organization is just incomprehensible. Understandable. Not even sure what to do about that tbh LMFAOOO
I WAS finally gonna change the "other's art" tags retroactively since I have a moment I might as well chip away at it. But the two I did change still show up under "other's art", and also looking at "my art" for SOME INEXPLICABLE REASON posts that aren't even tagged with anything relating to the words "art" or "my" (<- I THOUGHT I WAS ONTO SOMETHING HERE I THOUGHT MAYBE THE CONVO TAGS WERE TO BLAME) they. Appear. In that tag. WHY. LIKE. ONE POST THAT'S LITERALLY ONLY TAGGED AS "TAG GAME" IS IN THERE WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
And only I don't even know what to do now. Now my blog organization is ALL fucked up I've been tagging other people's art w "the gallery" and like. Do I change that now???? Do I move on forever forward????? Do I go back to "other's art" as it's more self-explanatory?????? I do like the whimsey of "the gallery" I want every artist who gets tagged that to have a mental image of me framing their work and putting it on display in a museum.
AUGH
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I got an interview for the internship I applied for and on the one hand, exciting!! but on the other hand if I DO get accepted for it now I'll feel bad because my job's been going a lot better and they've actually been really nice to me lately
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