#what were we expecting anyway yeah?

[faunandfloraas]

It is kinda funny seeing people talk about Seungmin lately because he definitely has gotten more bold and confident for sure. He's also just getting opportunities to be perceived as an individual on his own as well for the first time in a while but it's still jarring to see people be like Aw he was always such a quiet goodie two shoes little nerd and it's like...... he was the one to leave and seek out his own vocal coach and blatantly talk about it, which of course lead to I.N and Lee Know also doing the same, he was the one to go on bubble and tell off sasaengs who used to camp outside their old dorm for invading members privacy but also because it effected other residents and staff at the complex, something that i'm certain upper management wouldnt have been happy about, and he wasn't curt or nice about it either. like he's never actually been a wallflower, he's always had a pretty strong backbone and seems to stick to his principals, its not really new.

#even silly shit like bringing up drinking even tho staff has clearly told him not too #like yeah its silly but its still sticking to his guns of being like we arent actually children anymore thanks #the food thing too like in an old 2 kids room he said something about not being able to eat on his bday bc they were filming so evidently #there was a moment in time when he caved to the shitty diet obsession kpop had but ever since hes never really said anything like it again #instead hes telling everyone to eat well and reminding people to have dinner or lunch every other day #even the comment about growing his hair out but then being like lol the stylist probably wont like me saying that or whatever #and like the yeah im going to the gym but im not lifting. dont expect me to bulk up. im doing it for stamina<< that made me cackle #bc i did see people on twt being like but what if seungmin got buff tho omg hed be so hot 🥺 Well him bein buff isnt what this is about #so he went and made sure people were realistic. not everyone needs to be noticeably cut yk #idk maybe bc i watched most all the skz content all the way through #and now i go back and gif stuff i notice patterns more easily than if youve been here for longer and havent watched older stuff #for a while- maybe? idk its just funny but i also see takes a lot and have to stop myself from going No <3 #anyway this is my obligatory insane ksm tangent of the week. see you in 5 minutes. #🐶

[the-acid-pear]

Yesterday I was replaying Deltarune and I was going really insane about it picking up on things I missed on my first playthrough and something that fucked me up hard was this line here

The little ellipsis at the end, almost like you can hear the regret on their voice. Voice of an ad who is realizing maybe they fucked up on this one. But it also made me think of... The possibility of this being a reaction to Spamton's actions.

Because I don't think this was an automatic thing, I feel like their drifting off was gradual. Sure, their jealousy had won them over (I'd have killed the guy or myself if I was them so I don't even blame them) but Spamton was too getting busier and busier the more famous he got, and as they say, that never stopped. He only kept getting bigger, until it all came crashing down. And when it did it was one of them who tried to go find him, after all that.

But I digress, let's focus on the original quote from my favorite sigma enby themselves, Pink Addison. There's obviously not only the regret to it, but feeling like they were abandoned too. Both parties lost a lot and the real tragedy is just how easily it could've have been avoided! Or rather, how beyond their control it was...

But I'll get off topic if I keep speaking so I'll leave it at that. The sheer tragedy that there is to everyone involved just makes me insane. Like I said in a post previous to this; you cannot trace down a good guy or a bad guy in this tale, it's just desperate people taking awful decisions and living to regret their actions.

#luly talks #makes you wonder too like #THIS IS GOING ON THE TAGS BC IM JUMPING THE GUN TOO HARD #but after Pink says rhat they follw by saying ''even so he only got more and more successful'' and its making me FEEL something alright #that EVEN SO. like. were they expecting for him to... stop? to slow down? to give up his overwhelming fame to get them back? #there's so many things i just can't say because we know very little of the addisons and big shot era spamton #we dont even know if they were aware this is how he ended. we dont even know if Spamton tried to go back to them or if he totally refused to #it makes me sick it makes me insane i want to grab these colorful things and squish then on my palm #there's a lot of What Ifs but i think the answer wouldn't even matter because nothing could change anymore #its sososososososoooooo sad #like i see fandom woobify Spamton a lot and i HATE that sure he went thru a lot but he's a grown ass desperate man #he's not a poor uwu cinnamon roll he's insane and he's an asshole and he's a nuanced tragic character #and so are these motherfuckers!!!!!! #btw i originally had a paragraph about how mad I'd have been if i was an Addison but i ended up rewriting the whole post LMAO #anyway. yeah. it just makes me insane. #deltarune #Spamton #addisons

[oatbugs]

pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me! #LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️ #but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

[flashhwing]

the fuck you mean Megan Thee Stallion is the same age as me

#genuinely unsure if I expected her to be older or younger #but I saw a post about old tweets of hers so i was like oh I want some context like how old was she at the time. what grade #‘oh she’s 28 yeah that makes sense. wait. wait a second’ #I think I thought she’d be younger #anyway it’s really interesting living in a time where we can see celebrity’s tweets from before they were famous #like yeah this superstar was once just some kid tweeting behind her teacher’s back. complaining about customers on the internet #really cool imo #the technological age isn’t all horrors #this has been a post

[asparklethatisblue]

kinda cute to be raised on “only your family will truly love and support you, and they will show their love via money. Physical and emotional abuse means nothing because at least you will never want for anything!”

and then have your parents randomly and smugly tell you to never ask them for anything ever cause you have a job

#i asked for the equivalent of a Christmas present which I didn’t get last year fyi #and now they keep reminding me to not expect anything from them #and the thing is? I don’t NEED anything #but what about emotional support cause my rent is increasing? I just want to be told it’ll be ok I don’t want money #but i can’t even bring up money anxiety cause they WILL be cruel about it #or tell me to move back home which yeah ok I’d live there for free but I’d also kill myself so haha #anyway when you were taught to measure parental love via money… #Not to MENTION that we were poor when I was little and my baby brother gets??? So many fucking expensive toys now??

[pinktinselmonstrosity]

alright i have a mild dilemna that i need advice on

on my course we have to post these weekly self-reflection things responding to the themes of the week's class and some questions about it. i posted last week's and yesterday the course convenor replied to it in a way that implies i was wrong (in my SELF reflection) and just generally misunderstands my point/takes it in bad faith. i've shown these posts to others on the course and they agree that my original post adressed the things her reply asks about and that she has misinterpreted me, in quite a "cheeky" way

my issue now is: do i reply and try to explain myself better? or is it better to just let it go?

i don't want to dig myself in deeper if she's really opposed to my viewpoint, but at the same time i do feel like i answered the questions thoroughly in the first place and the things she's accusing me of aren't fair

#to be clear we were working on issues of identity this week #and we visited a specific gallery in the national museum of scotland and in our reflection we had to talk about how it reflected identity #and i talked about how all of my scottish friends loved it and it was really effective in provoking nostalgia in them #but that as a non-scottish person i wasn't able to access a lot of the exhibits because they assumed prior knowledge #and i said (or at least i thought i made clear) that i think it's good to have a gallery focusing on scottish identity #but that for a museum which aims to ''show scotland to the world'' this gallery doesn't do a very good job #and i finished by saying that i understand issues of identity are difficult and i don't have an answer for how they should be negotiated #these were just MY observations and feelings (which. again. is what i thought the SELF reflection was for) #and one of the other non-scottish students (a chinese girl) replied and said that she agreed #and that she even tried going on a guided tour of the gallery but she still couldn't really learn anything from it #and the course convenor (who btw is not scottish either so. take from that what u will) replies saying that #the gallery actually isn't MEANT for international visitors it's only meant for scottish people #and ''why can't scottish people have somewhere to express their identity in THEIR national museum?'' #which. first of all were all points i made in my post #and second of all - if that gallery isn't meant for international visitors to be able to understand then WHY DID YOU ASK US TO GO THERE #WHAT DID YOU EXPECT US TO SAY??? bear in mind i'd say at least 60% of people on the course aren't scottish #anyway yeah. i wasn't trying to say that scottish people shouldn't be able to express their identity #and i thought i made that clear in the post but obviously not? #but the people i asked about it are all scottish and they all said they thought what i said was fine #and in fact they agreed with a lot of my points!! #ugh i just don't know what to do #bc my instinct is to defend myself and that if i just re-explain then she'll get what i'm saying #but maybe that's not sensible? especially bc i was pretty clear the first time #🧃

[lesbiansanemi]

Do you think if I wish hard enough my mom will get electrocuted by a string of Christmas lights and just go up in a cloud of smoke. It’d be a Christmas miracle

#I’m not even DOWN THERE YET and I want to fucking KILL HER #I have to work Christmas Eve and the day after Christmas. I live four hours away from my family #I told her this MANY TIMES I said I’ll drive down after work on Christmas Eve be there Christmas morning but I need to leave by 3-4 to get #home at a reasonable hour so I can have time to unpack/catch up on a couple days of chores/get plenty of sleep #she called me last night and told me she didn’t schedule Christmas stuff until SIX PM #and when I said why tf did you do that I’m not staying that late #she got mad and upset and was like ‘it’s the only time everyone is free :(‘ #BUT THEN proceeded to tell me we were having lunch with her HUSBAND’S family at noon #(ppl I am not close with never have been literally don’t talk to) #and everyone I know is like ‘just leave when you said you were going to anyways’ #and like yeah I could but then my family is gonna be ENRAGED that I didn’t do Christmas stuff with them #and they’re like ‘well explain that your mom didnt listen to when you said you needed to leave’ #but the thing is. no matter what. they’re going to take her side #I should sacrifice my time and comfort to spend time with them because they’re FAMILY #never mind that literally not a SINGLE ONE OF THEM has EVER come up to visit me #IM always expected to drive down there. but that sacrifice doesn’t count it’s not good enough #but if I stay that late I won’t be getting home until AT LEAST midnight or later #cuz my family has no fucking concept of time so if it starts at six that means it doesn’t ACTUALLY start until 7 so most of them might be #there by 8 so I’ll be expected to stay until at least 10 to sufficiently catch up with all of them #I’m going to scream I’m going to cry #if I leave early I’m the awful ungrateful terrible bitch who never comes to see any of them #but none of them could adjust their days by just a few hours to see me before I needed to leave #FOR MY FUCKING JOB !!!!!!!! SOMETHING COMPLETELY OUT OF MY CONTROL #and like the thing is. my piece of shit manipulative bitch mother #I KNOW she did this on purpose #I know she didn’t plan this until six to FORCE me to stay longer because she was mad I wasn’t staying long #(again… because of work… something I can’t control) #so she’s orchestrated this to put me in this position #where I have to suck it up and stay and be exhausted and have tired migraines for a week cuz I get only a couple hours of sleep and then #or leave and make everyone pissed. I hate her so FUCKING much

[vero-niche]

a fellow english major, really happy to see someone who's proud of their degree <3

you know that "no love, no matter how brief, is wasted" line? i think the same applies for knowledge too - no matter how useless it may seem, knowledge acquired is never in vain.

#honestly like. idk what your age is but when i was attending uni i kept getting told that i shouldve gone for IT. because the future #- and the money - is there. #now look at the IT companies. the whole thing is crumbling #not to mention the arrogance. that IT degree didnt make you immune to the same old scam tactics did it. how are your nfts doing btw #honestly i never really expected it myself that a humanities degree would prove useful in a daily life type of way #like. sure i knew it wasnt useless but still. its entirely different to experience it in real time yknow #and the whole new wave ''it isnt that deep'' trend is honestly pretty dangerous bc there usually IS something deeper. #a narrative an agenda a propaganda etc.... or simply just capitalist greed #so its needed to read between the lines and see what the point/intention really is #- and thats what literary and other art analysis is making you do! it makes you stop and think #this is all not even mentioning all the political historical and cultural stuff we learned about all the anglo-saxon countries #which all prove to be pretty useful in light of recent events...... #so yeah. anyway. dont listen to all those who say its useless (and theres a lot of those even among the ones who chose this major too) #its clearly not. but even if it were it wouldnt matter ehat they think #(i do wish tho that i couldve attended it already on the right meds bc i feel like i forgot A Lot bc of my mental state at the time #but oh well. what can you do) #thank you for the ask it was really nice of you 💞💞💞 #ask #anon

[moonsidesong]

played the fangame danganronpa another with a friend and i didn't really like the ending but i very much enjoyed mekaru bc she's just woman byakuya togami. i'm going to talk a lot in the tags now

#the translation was kinda weird and bad but you get used to it after a while #i do plan on playing the sequel just cause me and my friends enjoy playing murder mysteries #oh uh spoilers beyond this point i'm gonna give some hot takes for. the 3 followers that care about dangit grandpa #anyway uh. ending. yeah i'm definitely biased bc i don't really like sad endings for the most part #but i didn't really. like it. #i'm not really opposed to the idea necessarily of the protagonist NOT being a survivor it's definitely interesting #but given that this game's take on hope vs despair is that 'hope is created not found' #i thought it kinda sucked that they just left maeda/utsuro to die despite obviously being the one suffering the most #also i didnt. like. kisaragi much. him/his alter ego being the epic savior in the end sucked bad not gonna lie #i thought he was really interesting in his initial appearance bc he was someone who Knew what was happening #but was rendered unable to communicate any of it bc of his brain damage #but then he dies (which was expected wasn't really upset about it) and from there you only have flashbacks to go off of #and then he's just kinda boring #it'd be one thing if he was a heroic reliable person we knew from the start but he's just this. guy that shows up in chapter 5 #and we get told he's like the best we should trust him and believe in him but. like. idk this guy! it didn't feel earned #anyway kinjou was. a character. for sure. #i liked his arc and all but when they revealed in the ending that Oh actually his beliefs on crime haven't changed at all lol<3 #he still only thinks in extremes even after all that mess about recognizing the murders were done in gray area circumstances #so like what was that all FOR #also. like. Goddddd. GODDDD. AKANE TAIRA. UGH #when she gets revealed as the mastermind and she's like going crazy off the walls sillygoofy despair lady I thought she was really fun!!! #i enjoyed her quite a lot!!!! #but then utsuro gets involved and she's just immediately extremely pathetic #she just immediately loses all presence bc she just stops taking any authority as the mastermind and is like ouwuoiuuh utsuro samaaaa #i thought her being a maid but actually is a girlboss would be a FUN SUBVERSION but nah we just have peko pekoyama 2: evil this time #like when are we gonna be done with the trope of Woman is cool and powerful until Man shes subservient to is involved and then she's a wuss #it sucks it SUUUUCKS #utsuro himself is. fine. he's basically just bootleg izuru but i didn't really mind that i thought his origins were kinda interesting #anyway i'm out of tags so i guess that's the end of my hot takes #i liked the individual cases! i liked mekaru! ending was kinda bad. goofbye

[mainfaggot]

another shit fucking day but in the most casual way possible bc all i did was sulk study cry study sulk and finally, sulk in the shower. chai next and then bed . fuck my stupid baka life forrealsies

#i almost had an argument w my mother over nothing at one point bc i was so anxious about nothing and everything at once and well #i keep thinking. idk what im doing anything for anymore #like when we were arguing i was like wait what if she brings up how shes giving me a ride to uni multiple times this week #and then i was like wait if she says that. I'll just tell her not to. and then ill skip class. and then ill drop my classes and get a refund #and then ill drop out of uni. and then ill kill myself! #mind you i was thinking about all of this and the argument didnt even go in that direction in the end bc it was over very quickly #ljke. what ks wrong with me #i keep thinking that if my parents get pissed at me for being good for nothing despite me trying my hardest not to be #i really will end it all finally like Actually #bc i dont understand anymore. why are they paying for my stupid medication and tuition #theyre too nice to me #i know they expect me to send them money in their ideal imagined scenario in which i get a good job after getting a masters degree #and i know they expect that I'll take care of them when theyre old bc in their ideal. imagined. scenario. i 1) dont off myself in the next #few years 2) am not a lesbian who ruins the whole family dynamic by coming out and 3) get a well paying job and a husband #so. so yeah #but right NOW theyre nice to me and they take care of me but also i think everything is pointless but i try anyway because they take care #of me and they want me to be well but how am i supposed to be Get Well if i don't believe in myself #like i dont think thats possible really. #maybe a tiny bit? like maybe i won't be Well but i can be better. yeah i can do that #so i guess thats why im still trying #but then it's like. being Better is so. marginally different from being at rock bottom in a way #like yeah its significant improvement clinically but to me it's still casually miserable in its own unique way bc it's better but its still #very much present lingering choking me etc #so that brings me to the following: #im trying so hard but for what exactly? 'just keep going!' but at what cost? but why when im still like this? #z.post

[atwas-gaming]

Wow. I have got to figure out how to run old games on my shiny, modern gaming PC, because the new Carnivores remake. SUCKS.

#carnivores dinosaur hunter #my opinion #300 frikkin credits just to use the dinosaur calls?!? #THEY WERE 100% FREE IN ALL OF THE FIRST 3 GAMES WHAT KIND OF SADIST DECIDED WE SHOULD HAVE TO PAY FOR THEM NOW!!!??? #and then the dinosaurs do not react instantly and i cannot get used to that #they spot me- or i shoot them- and it's a couple of seconds before they react #or... at least that's how the steg reacts #i dunno maybe it's just cuz stegs have brains the size of a walnut #still... #it's stupid #and then throw in the dino senses being almost as super-sensitive as they were in carnivores 2 #and i swear the player has only like 1 stamina wheel (loz reference XP) #i could swear i used to sprint all the way from one side of an island to another #the graphics are great tho i'll give them that #the textures the lighting the dinosaur behavior... #it all looks great #well... #except that the island's so... sparse #delphaeus hills looks like it suffered a drought #or partial deforestation #it's so barren #the textures are better but it looks so empty #anyway #i played a trial version on xbox 1 and that was enough for me #i needa play my old games again #the one update that i (very ironically) did kinda like was that a steg trampled me in one mission #totally did not expect that #it's still weird to me because why isn't the steg using its spiked tail??? #but yeah i always wondered why a lot of the herbivores didn't AT LEAST trample you #but like...

[fangedtracks]

sorry we've been MIA y'all shit really hit the fan

#chatter #uhhhh long story short i have been deeply unwell and not happy for a bit and #i think i didn't realize it bc i was working so hard but i talked to multiple people about options! #like leaving my group or switching projects or leaving this institution #im going to try switching projects and lasers #((thé laser i work on is probs the most complex and fickle + my project is like ... difficult bc we don't know what to expect)) #R — guy in my group — and i are working together and it's been good getting to know him #he's really nice and answers my questions quite well #and we talked about how i haven't been feeling happy and he validated those feelings but also gave me advice on how to like #work through them? #like oh yeah milo i just ignore when our PI says we should be pulling 18 hour days that's stupid #so . anyways! #were trying so hard to make it through yeehaw

[unproduciblesmackdown]

billions figuring winston shouldn't just also still be there in the end with the guys we accept so he needs to be sent out, which, it's also remarkable to recall like "okay does he still technically, partially work at/for axe global then? it's a 'maybe' but what matters is that he's not There even if so"....the way that even if we infer he did get to finally be sick of waiting on better, we weren't even given so much of an arc of a couple episode's leadup showing him markedly being more frustrated / fed up with The Usual bullshit or anything like that, the way it went with one ep to spare "oh right winston's catchphrases! we all know & loathe them" like don't strain yourselves....that even in giving up on things, winston still has to be further let down by everyone even after quitting, like well that's probably ultimately helpful for him but it was (a) forced on him and (b) not sure i'd give billions the credit for anything sympathetic towards winston versus "well the only thing to be done with winston material is have fun while epic winners shit on him however they want," the wags plotline had no point just like the later one that could've been scrapped & transformed into "how about taylor gets any dialogue this episode"....the way that billions may imagine like hmm what to do with winston? all that can Ultimately happen with him is he has to go away and die, for him it's [out of sight out of mind out of Existence], just as has been the show's approach for the consequences of him being shitted on all th time for years before this: there are none, b/c we're not looking at them, and winston is never not completely [othered] including right now, and if it helps for some reason we'll talk about how we might be fine if he literally dies. and so we're graced with a "who knows or cares, he's just gone, finally. after being kept around b/c it's so fun seeing winners torment him" ending as the only one they find imaginable for winston

#uptick in annoyance about it on this day.... #fundamentally at odds w/billions thanks in no small part to a pretty guaranteed inherent [this is a meritocracy] approach #when the cocreators expect us to simply Understand that people on the show have a superior level of Smartness; for one....ruh roh #and where then everything abt being Critical & Questioning is like....abt possible Exceptions or small adjustments to The Rules.... #would not be surprised if winston is such ''proof'' like ''see; someone like him shouldn't be able to be here'' #at least there's the checks & balances of being ignored; dispreferred; bullied; to the point of eventually driving him out! #rian only being ''wrong'' to have made herself his personal bully b/c what would've been more correct would be ignoring him more often #whilest again like can't suppose based on anything that billions asks us to Reflect on winston leaving. it's just good #so too is Corrective(tm) bullying / interpersonal abuse. would've had wendy push aba if they did consider winston to be autistic.... #but instead kept it informal.... #winston billions #billions world: where yeah autistic ppl just have to go away i guess #where they cease to exist b/c they aren't real people like us. just as winston's feelings this whole time never Had to be relevant.... #they barely existed & were surely just incorrect when they did. kind of like him overall #and in the meantime didn't we all enjoy going ''god i wish that were me'' at bullying assaulting abusing the autistic guy #bit charitable of us if anything! guiding them towards the light like that. cue ''wow rian aren't you just Too pityingly nice to him*'' #(*the being more godawful to him than anyone since she showed up; including being just as bad if not as usual worse right now) #anyways like nodding dehumanizing the autistic person start to finish. who must Stop Being Here

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

growing increasingly excited and anxious abt tomorrow

like monday evening a guy (well i thought so lol) from my climbing group texted me on my pfp "if i ever wanted to talk abt anything i could text him" and it's punk lyrics on a rainbow flag and given that he didn't know it was lyrics that's understandable and also really sweet and we at least knew each other from looks personally

so then we got talking and. turns out they're queer but surrounded by homophobic assholes exclusively and long story short me and my friends who are all queer and so so positive are gonna adopt them into our friend group and tomorrow we're meeting up after school for the first time properly so like.

i mean we're just gonna talk a bit ig during lunch break in the city but like. yeah. it's gonna be interesting i hope it goes well (how that looks tho no idea lol)

#well. you gotta say tho idk what i expected from their (singular nb) school #its the one across from my own and it fucking sucks thats where all the snobs go (with a few exceptions) #and our schools have some kind of deep-rooted hate for one another #anyway idk why i was surprised at the Snob School Of Certain Elite People being homophobic as fuck #but yeah were gonna see if we can adopt the guy (gn) they need some positive queer surroundings jeez #also shout out to my social skills tho i set this meeting up within 15 minutes while juggling to separate chats #after texting with someone id never once interacted with #a biscuit's rambles #and also I HATE THIS NEW TAG FORMAT. ITS MOSTLY ORGANIZED A LOT BETTER AND I CAN PROPERLY SEE WHAT I SAY IN THE TAGS #BUT I HATE IT THIS IS WRONG WHY ARE THEY ALL IN BUBBLES AHHHHHH

[nomaishuttle]

on a semi related note there r like 2 specific times i remember expecting one of my safe foods and getting something entirely different and being SO insanely upset abt it even though the thing i got still tasted good

#the first my uncle asked me what i wanted 4 dinner while he was staying with us #and i said cheesy chicken and rice my fav food and he Made cheesy chicken and rice but it was like. a completely different dish than what i #refer to as cheesy chicken and rice and it was good food but i was rly rly rly upset. and i feel bad bc again it was good and my uncles a #great cook but i was expecting my comfort food and got something different #the other big one was i always get the wisconsin six cheese from dominos. and if i dont get the wisconsin six cheese i get the beautiful an #delicious pizza me and my mom named greg . rly funny story actually. but greg is basically. hes got ranch instead of tomato sauce and then #chicken bacon (always at least these 2) and mushrooms if possible for toppings. and hes great #and one time my mom was ordering dominos and asked me what i wanted and i said the wisconsin 6 cheese yk. and it came and it had ranch sauc #and my mom was like oph yeah i thought itd be fun to try the ranch sauce since we like it on greg so i thought id surprise you. and i #literally couldnt eat the pizza and i started crying over it bc i had been rly excited for the 6 cheese #but yes. greg is my goto pizza everywhere except dominos on occasion if they dont let u do rnch as a sauce we do alfredo instead #hes very trustworthy and i love him... we got him umm. the first time we ordered him was when we were doing my sleep study #so we were like waiting outside the hospital and we were like oh we should order something 2 eat since we havent had dinner yet #and we went to order and 4 somereason we couldnt get the 6cheese idk if like one of th cheeses was out of stock or something ??? #but we were like ok lets just make a new pizza lol. and we made him and then dominos was like Ok what do you want to name the pizza #and idk why i think it was late but that question was like. HYSTERICAL to us KJADBJWABD bc we were like what is it a baby #of course now i realize its so you can like. have that pizza saved to easily order it again yk. but we were like idk.. greg??? so yes. and #im ngl to you guys idk if it was just bc it had been a good day and i was happy and like kind of silly since i was at a hospital #but that was literally theeee best pizza ive ever had in my literal entire life. istg they put crack in that pizza it was soo good #sooo yes anyways sry 4 rambling.

[malepresentingleg]

man the wrap effect managed to surprise me by being so good, then had some really bad things along the way and finished in a completely unsatisfying way 😭spoilers ahead:

Firstly, the last episode simply undid everything from the whole series??? what was the point of all these trials if he just ends up "fixing everything" in advance? it doesn't work like that and it made the whole series feel so pointless. (And I can overlook the obvious plotholes of nim not getting pregnant and Alex and Jean not becoming friends with the popular gangs etc, that's. fine.)

Like I don't mind endings that wrap (ha) everything up in a tight little bow, but this just felt hollow.

Especially after the intensity of last episode and how it ended, it felt like we skipped straight to the epilogue without getting actual real resolution for the problems.

And of course, the Jean x Alex of it all.

I mean firstly, I would have been so much happier if she was with Tony (and what was the thing with Kat and Tony that looked like they're going to DATE when Kat is clearly aromantic 😭😭).

But more importantly, ever since we find out Alex raped Jean - I couldn't stand the idea of them being endgame. I LOVED the complexity they handled it with. I loved that, even tho he's (generally, except for some real weird outliers in the writing) a good person, and that what happened wasn't with malice, it doesn't mean it wasn't traumatizing and terrible. I loved that she does like him, but she just still can't forgive him. I kept being afraid she would just give in and be with him and kept being pleasantly surprised she turned him down bc, understandably, she couldn't get passed their past.

Then he undid everything and was good and respectful and I mean, she doesn't even know there was a timeline where it happened but ughhh still! this is what I was scared was gonna happen and it did.

I mean, Jean, my beloved darling sweetheart - for her I wanted that. I WANTED her not to have to live with all this shit, she didn't deserve it. But fuck this is how it is in real life 😭.

And I mean. he could go back to not rape her and then not get with her ....

I hated that his priority during the whole series was to nag her into forgiving him bc he wanted to go back, when she needed him to leave her alone.

I hated that the message (at least how I understood it) was that the whole thing happened because of the evil curse and not because of Alex. Because it was "the wrong time" aka before he's 18, and not because he was mindless to his partner when he should have paid the most attention.

I loved the message from the episode before - YES, you will have to live with this guilt for the rest of your life, just like she has to live with the trauma for the rest of hers!!! Shit is complicated! That's life and it's important to show that, yeah, actions have consequences, and hurting people hurts them!!! And sometimes there's nothing to do but for each of you to move, live your separate lives and try to heal.

But now he's just... off the hook? UGh

#the warp effect #the warp effect spoilers #the warp effect the series #twe #leg is ranting #twe hour #twe ep 12 #i'm just. disappointed ahhh #and i had such low expectations for this series that blew me away!!!! #it def had some issues #army went from being best boy to absolute shit and it was presented as ok? #mollie did and said some shitty things that also were presented as ok #alex of course too #and my dear poor liu wtf they did just completely ignored what she wants (AGAIN) and 'rescued' her. ugh #oh also why didn't we see ice and his gf at the finale!!!! evil!!!! they were my favorite couple! #or maybe jedi and rose idk #anyways #yeah #had to let it out #it's late and i'm tired so i apologize if it's not coherent #rant in tags