#what relatable fears

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

i am thinking how much poorer, how much less colorful the world would be if art was only made by "professionals." if all the music, all the stories, all the sketches & paintings & craftwork of the world was created only by the small category of people able to make a decent living from their art. imagine if the only people allowed to create were the experts & the renowned & those aspiring to the top. what a grey world that would be. how much joy would be bleached away! i love you people who create for the sake of creating, i love you artists who do art for tiny audiences, i love you people who make things even just for one person, even just for themselves, even if no one's watching, thank you thank you thank you for decorating the world in which we all exist

#not a shitpost #related: the most powerful crafters alive are crocheters who spend 7+ years making an intricate table cloth no one is allowed to eat on #all that arcane magic into making a display object primarily for their own enjoyment #and that of the blessed few lucky enough to be invited into their home to behold what is by rights a sacred object #if you spend a certain number of hours crafting something u have the right to have it put in a shrine or museum of your choosing i think #you have imbued it with your Life Essence by sheer force of concentration and obsession it is Holy now #anyways. old ladies who knit/crochet/embroider etc are a thousands times more powerful and intimidating #than old white dudes who are obsessed with war memorabilia or whatever #i have nothing but respect awe and appropriate amounts of fear towards crafters. my liege

[specialagentartemis]

I wish Sam and Tucker got to be characters more often. Thinking about how they also have a significant part of their lives they have to hide from their parents because they're also out ghost hunting with Danny all the time. And they have the capacity to walk away from it in a way that Danny doesn't. But they don't. This has got to be a strain on them too, this upended their lives too, and they don't even have any ghost powers to deal with it.

Sam already isn't on good terms with her parents; she could probably tell them upfront exactly how much time she spends hunting ghosts and if she said it in a bitter and sarcastic tone of voice they would probably just frown at her and tsk for her being so morbid and dramatic. I can't imagine she's the kind of kid who talks honestly to her parents about anything anyway. We barely ever see Tucker's parents but the few times we do they seem generically nice and normal. Do they worry about him, suddenly out all the time and coming home harried and beat up and found at the scene of rampant property destruction? Is he lying to them for the first time in his life? Does Danny ever ask them about this or is he too wrapped up in his own Family Angst?

#thinking about the Fright Knight fanfic I wanna write about them all confronting their Worst Fears #and realizing I'm giving them all parental related anxieties #that's just what being 14 is like #Danny Phantom

[clownsuu]

Small detour of what I usually post, but I absolutely wish (other) clown the best of luck during these confusing and almost hopeless times- nobody knows how to deal with such amount of attention in such short amount of time- a blessing and a curse to behold

#Seeing their posts absolutely shattered me #I may never be able to relate to how he’s going through rn but at least I can relate to the fear of living in absolute fear #the fear of unable to be yourself in your own home with creative and personal freedom #The fear of being terrified that the thing that gives you the most innocent happiness will be heavily demonized and threatened #The fear of getting caught doing something you love and being yourself with your found identity #The fear of destruction #I relate heavily to this and to feel you are going to be caught doing anything that isn’t a crime hurts #I wish him safety and love during these stressful days #He’s brought so much joy to my life that I must keep private irl too #Whatever he decides for the fandom I will fully support it #I will still continue posting of course unless he wishes otherwise #If he sees this (which I doubt) hey other clown lmao- you are loved and not alone #It may be scary but you are not alone- you will never be alone #There will always be people out there who love you and there will always be those who are not even worth giving time of day #The internet is both a blessing and a cruel cruel unforgiving place #I hope it doesn’t deter you from doing what you love and hold dear #I hope you have anyone you can be with online or in irl that can give you the comfort you need #You deserve peace and security #Do what you feel is best #Welcome home

[lesbiamano]

when the gay thoughts catch up to you

#fear and hunger #d'arce fear and hunger #d'arce cataliss #d'arce and her ghost girlfriends <3 #this is what repressed homosexuality looks like #live your lesbian dreams girl #being a religious gay is so hard shes so relatable #i was gonna post this later but erm

[phanrenaissance]

tell me what the video Basically, I’m Gay means to you?

daniel howell why did you send this ask to every phannie tumblr account you could find .

#that was my funny answer #the serious answer: i stopped watching dnp at that point and only started again after BIG #and. i related to. A LOTTT of what Dan was putting out there in that video #funnily enough not because im bi but because im trans. like. the not fitting. the finding other queer label bc i couldn't accept what i- #-actually was #the constant fear. hard growing up feeling different. etc etc. #anyway #i think he's been watching a bit too much contrapoints b4 making it. but i rly loved it. in a strange way it was very comforting #and very reassuring #bc i was always drawn to dnp as a neurodivergent & queer person and was felt. for lack of better word. #stupid for it. or mocked. #and in BIG i had this. self recognition thru other moment yknow #own post #ask #dan and phil #daniel howell #phan #dnp #dip and pip

[haunted-xander]

So. Fatebreaker, right? Ryne's biggest fears made manifest, daddy issues personified, yes?

He's an amalgamation of Thancred and Ran'jit, his face, his voice and his weapon is Thancred's, but his body, his fighting style and his words are Ran'jit's.

Throughout the fight Fatebreaker constantly makes comments about how only he can protect Ryne, only he can provide for her, only he has even the right to so much as stand beside her, to be in her general presence. He's possessive and obsessive, repeatedly asserting that she is HIS and his only. Which is exactly what Ran'jit says basically every time we encounter him.

But this time it's in Thancred's voice. This time it's with the voice and face of a man she actually cares about.

Ryne isn't scared of Thancred, she never has been. Even when she first met him she was barely even nervous (as clearly shown in Thancred's short story). There's a lot of different feelings happening between those two, but fear has never been one of them.

But now, after things have gotten so much better, she is scared of Thancred becoming like Ran'jit. Because if Thancred was just a little further gone, if he was just a little less compassionate, he would've. It wouldn't be hard for him to go down the same path as Ran'jit did, to be incapable of letting go of the ghost of that girl he loved so so much to the point he'd stubbornly grip anything close to her he could. He didn't, but the fact he could've is terrifying.

It makes his final words, words that are Thancred's, so very important. This is her deepest fears made manifest, but he still says he wants her to be happy. Her happiness not only matters, but is important to him.

#Now we -the audience- ofc knew Thancred was unlikely to go down that path #bc if theres one thing hes been consistent in even in his darkest moments its living up to his loved ones' wishes and legacies #the only time he even speaks against it is his conversation w minfilia in amh araeng #and thats more a case of all his (poorly) repressed grief and stress exploding than him actually meaning what he says #and trying to control rynes life after minfilia literally told him to just let her live her life goes directly against that #i think about fatebreaker a lot. as i do all things related to ryne & thancred #and to me its so important to note that hes more or less ran'jit with just enough thancred in him to be *too* thancred for comfort #its so. her greatest fear isnt even the thing thats been haunting her her whole life (being forced to fill in for minfilia) #its having her free will taken from her by the person she cares about the most (thancred) #and for him to be trapped in endless suffering because he cant move on #just like ran'jit did and was #its not even necessarily that shes all that scared of ran'jit himself #what shes scared about is caring about someone like that #because then she wont say no or try to be anyone but minfilia #(thats also why this fear appears specifically after things get better) #(because she was already ready to forsake herself if it eased thancred suffering) #okay im gonna stop now i need to sleep gnight everyone #ryne waters #thancred waters #ran'jit #final fantasy #final fantasy 14 #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #ffxiv #xander rambles #at this point i should make a tag for ryne ramble posts i make so many of them #tomorrow. maybe. if i remember #edit: i made it #xander being insane about ryne

[paellegere]

there is interesting johndean subtext and insinuations across kripke era, usually through an antagonist insinuating parent-child sexual violence in order to exert dominance over dean. this type of mockery exploits that ambiguous relationship between john and dean and reminds dean that he never had a normal relationship with his father, and that makes him gross and wrong. it doesn't actually matter in the end whether john was sexually abusive to dean. the core of their relationship was damning enough: dean was made to take the place of john's wife—to comfort john and raise sam—while simultaneously being his son. the codependent nature of their relationship implies the incest that underscores their dynamic. again, this is regardless of what literally occurred between dean and john because there is enough doubt toward the nature of their relationship that multiple antagonists can use it against them.

sonwife, brotherhusband—dean is stuck in a liminal space between family and lover and is unable to put his feet firmly on just one side and instead has to accept both together or abandon both together. he doesn't get to have a relationship with his family without it being simultaneously incestuous. he plays the role of wife to john and mother to sam as mary's replacement; he therefore becomes more than a son and transcends the boundaries of the familial into the incestuous. it's baked into the dynamic and he can't hope to escape the liminality in which he's stuck without abandoning his entire family altogether.

this ambiguous relationship is further acted out with sam, where people perceive them as lovers rather than brothers; where their mutual devotion trumps, neglects, and disallows any other close relationship outside each other; where their physical closeness is viewed through an unusually sexual lens despite no literal sex acts between them taking place on screen. once again dean is stuck in a liminal space, paralleling the ambiguous and uncertain relationship he had with john.

in the end, sex (and sexual violence) is just a symbol of this codependency and uncertainly incestuous dynamic. sex acts in kripke era end up being symbolic: misinterpretations of sam and dean's relationship; accusations of sexual violence; literal, on-screen sexual moments between the brothers and someone else. it's a literary device that highlights the incestuous themes of the show. dean hand-picks women for sam to fuck because it allows dean to be symbolically part of sam's sex life. henricksen accuses john of raping dean because it is a symbol of the unhealthy, codependent relationship dean had with his father. the samulet stays on during sex because sam is symbolically integral to dean's sexual gratification (seen too in the way both dean and cassie in 1.13 appear to kiss the amulet at least once in the dark room). sex is used to signify more than what's literally on the screen, and the connections between the literal sex acts and the blurred lines of dean's familial relationships allow for a reading of incest between both john and dean and sam and dean.

it never mattered whether johndean or samdean had a sexual relationship in the canon because that was never the point. the point is the liminality that permeates the narrative. sam, dean, and john all stand upon a threshold between acceptable and taboo. the point of it all is the doubt and anxiety, the are-they-aren't-they that is never answered. the absence of incest within the text invites the understanding that the incest was, in fact, always there.

#supernatural #wincest #samdean #johndean #i've been thinking about this yesterday since i talked about it with mac #figured i could share it here too and hopefully move on lol #i tried so hard to make this easy to understand but i fear that i will be misinterpreted nonetheless #i suppose that's what happens when your topic of choice is literally Doubt Uncertainty and Liminality #i focused this on dean's relation to the liminal incest of the narrative only because he's the common thread between johndean and samdean #obviously sam dean and john all equally occupy the liminal space here #dean simply worked as a good focal point through which i could make the argument #.txt #spn posting

[thepoisonroom]

'I flirted with the idea that instead of being trans that I was just a cross-dresser (a quirk, I thought, that could be quietly folded into an otherwise average life) and that my dysphoria was sexual in nature, and sexual only. And if my feelings were only sexual, then, I wondered, perhaps I wasn’t actually trans.

I had read about a book called The Man Who Would Be Queen, by a Northwestern University professor who believed that transwomen who were attracted to women were really confused fetishists, they wanted to be women to satisfy an autogynephilia. And though I first read about this book in the context of its debunkment and disparagement, I thought about the electricity of slipping on those tights, zipping up those boots, and a stream of guilt followed. Maybe this professor was right, and maybe I was only a fetishist. Not trans, just a misguided boy.

About a year later, on the Internet, I come across a transwoman who added a unique message to the crowd refuting this professor. Oh, I wish I remember who this woman was, and I wish even more that I could do better than paraphrase her, but I remember her saying something like this: “Well, of course I feel sexy putting on women’s clothing and having a woman’s body. If you feel comfortable in your body for the first time, won’t that probably mean it’ll be the first time you feel comfortable, too, with delighting in your body as a sexual thing?”'

-Casey Plett, Consciousness

#this quote always moves me almost to tears when i remember it #i'm not a trans woman and i don't share the author's specific experiences with transition #but it really moves me that she frame transition as joyfully giving yourself permission to approach your body #not as something that has to be disciplined and deprived and made small in all these various ways #but as a means for experiencing pleasure and joy and delight and for insisting that our feelings and desires are worth #valuing and exploring and treasuring #i always used to think of prioritizing those things for myself as selfish and irresponsible #but who does it harm to want to experience pleasure in your own body? #it's such a beautifully simple and powerful switch to have flip in your head #and equally why are we forced to deny our own pleasure in transition and anything else related to our bodies in the name of moral rectitude #this is why i get so confused and pissed off when other trans people are fatphobic for example #like why are you so invested in politics of shame and disgust that never had any purpose other than #violently disciplining people as if they've violated moral codes by existing in a body #to say nothing of white people being racist in gay and trans communities #like again this system of violence is foundational to homophobia and transphobia #so why are you acting like it has nothing to do with you #even if you are unmoved by the urgency of other people's suffering which btw you should be moved by #what do you hope to gain by acting a collaborator and handmaiden to those systems #Casey Plett #she really is one of my favorite authors i wish more non-canadians read her #this quote is from a series of columns she did ont transition and every single one is a banger #i love when she talks about the people-pleasing elements of dysphoria and transition denial #she's so sharp about noting how many of us deny our own dysphoria on the grounds that others like and validate our bodies #that's how i always felt during my cis conventionally feminine era #it pleased other people so much and also that reception felt so hollow and joyless to me because i hated it #i get less of that positive feedback but that feels so unimportant next to the joy and pleasure i get to experience #said with the understanding that i'm very privileged in being able to prioritize those things without fear. but it was a switch flip #personal nonsense

[jellyjamheadobb]

#I mean #I can recognize some characters #Like the big(?) guy with the beard #but I have zero (0) #clue what it’s about gang #I want to check it out but I’m like 500 seasons and episodes behind every other thing I want to watch #I literally have a long ass list lmao #Well #whats one more to it🫠 #rey rambles #meme #memes #dumb shit #funny #funny memes #relatable memes #best memes #lol #tumblr memes #dank memes #humor #haha #jokes #fear #dungeon #dungeon meshi #dunmeshi #dunegon meshi

[kjzx-art]

Proud sensei. First association I had when Marina pulled that thing in the Mayor's manor.

#To be honest she was really nice about it she didn't even steal anything #This even made me draw the parallel between what she looks like and Celeste but that's an odd thing to hc relations on #Funger #Funger 2 #Marina Domek #Cahara #Cahara fear and hunger

[waitmyturtles]

Emotionally, 23.5 (episode 10) is like a cheaply made puzzle, where like, the edges are cut roughly, so like, you THINK that you have the right pieces next to each other, but when you smush them in, and they don't fit QUITE smoothly enough, you're like, oh maybe there's another piece, but like, you CAN'T find another piece that works, because like, the piece you have in your hand IS the piece that is the right one for the picture you're making, or like, you THINK it is, so like, you keep smushing the pieces together, and you THINK the puzzle makes sense, but you kinda feel like you have the wrong piece, or worse, you're MISSING A BETTER PIECE, because everything's NOT QUITE JIVING.

I hope this post made as much sense as the emotional journey we attempted to take with the script in this last episode. What the FUCK is this script doing to Ongsa? A little more context, some smoother edges, would be really helpful here!

#what the fuck #all of a sudden ongsa's unexplained shit comes back #are we gonna get another i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry for the next episode? #and wave away all the need for more explanation again? #you can't really write this stuff away #we need to know why we need to cheer for these characters hello! #23.5 degrees #23.5 #23.5 degrees the series #23.5 the series #milklove #milk pansa #love pattranite #ongsasun #ongsa x sun #sun x ongsa #i'm gonna fucking say it because it's friday and i know it's not related but #i miss inkpa. #so lame but true to what i'm feeling right now #we got like maybe what 15 minutes of inkpa total? 10 MINUTES? #maybe 20 total including our skyy 2 if we were lucky? #and we got way more a story with inkpa including tons of insight into pa's dumbass parents #come on #by episode 11 we need to know why ongsa would be fearful of being out in front of her family #it's too late in the series to find out about this #because a point of the story would be that we'd go through her journey of confronting her insecurities duh!!! #wow i'm mad

[shit-sorry-fuck-mybad]

Iceman and Maverick (enemies to lovers) and Hollywood and Wolfman (friends to lovers) have the most intense game nights

#this is directly related to that one post I made once upon a time about them running into each other at a gay club #I love the idea of them being friends and bonding over being in love with their fellow navy dude #but like also I think they would tease each other relentlessly #cause they can just be fucking gay and in love without fear because guess what so are the others #so they fight over who’s the best couple #and they keep scores on their game nights and they get very competitive and they scare everyone #gay solidarity #well queer solidarity #top gun #icemav #wolfman x hollywood #tom kazansky #pete mitchell

[readyforthegarden]

aggressive reminder that both Jake and Josh struggle with dyslexia on top of their adhd, Karen has said so herself, and it’s actually not only rude, but incredibly ableist to mock the man’s captions over a grammar error. It’s literally on record that he struggled the most with it.

#the man more than likely has school related trauma of looking stupid and tries his hardest to put together intelligent seeming captions #and y’all do exactly what he fears pointing our mistakes and mocking him #like this one was a simple one but my god

[aengelren]

A person who saught freedom beyond what reality could abide (honestly same)

#reality was too disappointing & he wanted to experience a world where there was nothing to fear anymore #neither titans or humans cruelty #he’s relatable for many in that way #he focused so much in the insufferable truth and cruelty-he missed out on the beauty & the life he could’ve lived #salf destruction at its finest #and when it was too late and he couldn’t run of away from the reality of what he’d done anymore #he wished he’d lived differently so he’d atleast get to 20-get to spend time with those he loved #but it was already too late #so he sent the memories back to kid Eren who woke up thiniing it was a dream #eren jaeger #shingeki no kyojin #attack on titan #</3

[birdb1tch]

“[…] when you realize porter and jace have always been kind of a due at the school” theyre hooking up!

#IM JOKING #only a little tho teehee #what if we both wanted to revive ankarna and also were alone in the teachers lounge #fantasy high junior year spoilers #d20 fantasy high spoilers #dimension 20 spoilers #fantasy high spoilers #fhjy spoilers #jace stardiamond #porter cliffbreaker #actually im not joking #theyre evil husbands #addendum #i keep seeing theories abt them being related because of sunstone to stardiomand and if they end up being true ill have to kms #my worst fear is no longer tbk losing in the end its porter and jace being second cousins

[lesbianspeedy]

"my life is important to me and what i do with it has to mean something. and all i want to do is help people. that's it. i want to help." who has two thumbs and is thinking about this line at all times 👍👍 this guy

#winick cooked here i fear #anyway started thinking about the 'HAS to MEAN something' and how that could relate to a future and what legacy mia leaves behind #both as a hero and a person #and i like kinda went out of my mind #oh the desperation to be more than yourself #to leave behind more than a just a memory #mia dearden