#what if ed was transfemme???

[sad-sad-gay]

sometimes the gender fuckery overcomes you and you have to draw blackbeard as one of the models on your 1950s dress pattern

#this is predominantly traced from the pattern i am not that good at drawing #the amount of gender envy i get from the full blackbeard one is ungodly #our flag means death season 2 #our flag means death #our flag means death art #ed teach #edward teach #blackbeard #ofmd #taika waititi #gender fuckery #gender bending #what if ed was transfemme??? #fan art #he's so baby girl #(he's committed a multitude of atrocities)

[anti-terf-posts]

Srry this might get into rant territory but I've been going through the blogs of terfs who comment on your posts to compile a blocklist and it's honestly crazy to me how unwilling some people are to understand the fact that the trans community is. yk. a community of people? Like I see so many ppl on radblr talking like transfemmes are these evil masterminds forcing the poor little uwu transmascs to do their bidding because they see trans men speaking out about transmisogyny. Which, (Aside from the obvious sexism of thinking afab people are helpless little goo-goo brained victims who can't think for themselves and amab people are all genius evil dictators do we not see the hypocrisy here guys.) as both a punk who is outspoken about shit that matters to me and as a trans guy pisses me tf off. Is it so crazy to think that trans people are human beings who can care about each other? Like so many people genuinely don't seem to understand that we're just normal people. They talk like we're sitting here plotting to take over the world or something but like. I went to high school with other trans people. I ran laps in the sun with a trans girl while the burly phys ed teacher yelled at us to keep up I caught the bus with enbies I sat on the grimy public school floors while I helped a trans boy tune his violin. My transfem friends and I usually just talk about video games. I talk to other trans people all the time about the most boring shit imaginable. I don't need an ulterior motive to look out for my trans siblings its just common decency because we're normal fucking people who are just trying to live our lives. What about that is so incomprehensible? It's just so apparent when I see trans positivity posts on blogs like this and the notes r full of terfs making it out to be part of some elaborate scheme instead of. You know. Good old fashioned human compassion?? Good lord. Anyway man keep doin ur thing and take care of your mental health running this blog has gotta be exhausting. peace and love on planet earth

yeah as a trans guy, I stick up for trans girls not because they force me to, but because I know it's the right thing to do? I'm not quite sure what terfs are missing here.

anyways, this was well written out, kind of reminded me of a poem ❤️

#asks #anon

[kndrules]

HIII I'M VERY CURIOUS AS TO WHAT DISABILITIES MENTAL AND PHYSICAL EVERYONE IN SECTOR V HAS AS ADULTS EVEN IF UNDIAGNOSED??? If they have anything specific... I've seen you guys post about it but it was awhile ago and headcanons can change over time

And while we're at it - what's the updated LGBTQ+ headcanons?

That's a big question! I love big questions

After thinking about it, I have less disability headcanons than I realized I did. I feel certain everyone's got more health stuff going on, especially later in life, than I'm accounting for here. This is just what I actively think about

Disability Headcanons

Everyone is Sector V is autistic, but it looks completely different for all of them. Wally and Kuki have the highest support needs of the group, and they're the only two who were in special education classes growing up (a situation where some of their school day is spent in gen ed and some is spent in special ed). Hoagie and Abby are particularly double gifted.

Nigel- Undefined chronic pain that develops in his young adulthood. He starts using mobility aids after he gets out of prison. It's largely joint and back related. He probably also has some long term problems from concussions. Also OCD and PTSD.

Hoagie- this question made me realize I don't have much for hoagie! I like your headcanons, though. I think they start to develop memory problems in their late 30s, and their eyesight is JUST bad enough to disqualify them from becoming a pilot, which is why being a KND pilot is especially important to them

Kuki and Wally- I'm putting them together cuz I think they're similar in a lot of ways. They both also have ADHD and learning disabilities. Wally has dyslexia and dyscalcula

Abby- Another character that I don't have much for, but I like your headcanons! She definitely has PTSD

LGBT Headcanons

Nigel- Nonbinary bisexual, he/she pronouns

Hoagie- Nonbinary transfemme bisexual, they/she pronouns

Kuki- Trans woman pansexual and polyamorous, she/her

Wally- Trans man bisexual, he/him

Abby- Nonbinary lesbian, any pronouns

[illgetthe]

Hello Illgetthe today I am having paranatural thoughts and your inbox shall be my parchment. ☆☆

Isaac O'Connor is soooooo transfemme to me like. She strikes me as an uncracked egg the same way barbed wire on a baseball bat would strike a face in a zombie movie.

Shes someone who feels profoundly isolated and other'ed from her peers and doesnt know that this feeling is a feeling that other people have- she just thinks its another thing that makes her alone. I think she gets sooo much gender envy from the anime girls she watches and just thinks its a crush. I think she has giant posters of Sailor Moon on the wall for completely cisgener reasons. She thinks Lisa (also gendersomething) is soooooo cool but doesnt know why, again maybe just assuming its a crush. "Why do you like the pink power ranger so much" "uhmmmm because shes cool". Anyways

[Playing animal jam]

Suzy: Hey Isaac why is your avatar a girl? :?

Isaac, defensive: Because girls are prettier okay? They have cooler outfits and cooler clothes boy clothes are so boring so ofc I made her a girl so she can look more interesting

Colin: ...... >_>

Dimitri:....... <_<

Suzy: ...... <_<

Colin: .... Mines a girl too Isaac dw about it

YES QHAQHAHA let's dig in

Isaac is definitely SOMETHING to me. she/her or she/he agenda... the interaction u wrote is HILARIOUS bc ohh my gosh so right but so wrong... I feel like another factor could be ed coming out as whatever nonbinary bastard ed is only to get poor isaac confused bc like....? You can't do that. And she wouldn't mean like you can't as in like, doesn't know what trans is, or transphobic (although i feel like she would be mistaken as so bc 1. Its a lil funny and 2. Isaac SEEMS so bamboozled by it or just condescending when really it's just confusion) but like as in YOU can't. As in it being someone that close in her bubble not necessarily being gender funky right off the bat like Lisa but later DISCOVERING IT? As in sometimes people don't KNOW? Ofc ed is like yes I can....when collin/someone else pulls the same stunt it's like a double blast Biden beam was shot into his/her she/her heart. ANYWAYSZ THANK you for writing on my scroll....fem isaac outfits time. He would wear miku binder we can’t ever pretend he wouldn’t

#isaac goku o’connor. #pnat isaac #paranatural isaac #isaac o'connor #Paranatural

[celluloidbroomcloset]

what do you think of the hc/scenario some people have of transfemme ed or genderfluid ed with a stede who still identifies as gay but loves ed? sorry if that's worded strangely, but i am curious for your thoughts

I'm gonna start with the caveats that 1) I am a cis woman and so my insights into this are limited, and 2) the way I approach headcanons is not necessarily the way that others do. I tend to want headcanons to be based in some kind of canonical evidence from which we can extrapolate the headcanon—so, for instance, the idea that Ed has never been in love until Stede, based in what we know of his past relationships, his current personality, etc. This is not how a lot of people do headcanons, which is fine. Personally I think you should headcanon anything as long as it's not something like attempting to make a character who is abusive in canon magically not abusive (Izzy and Jack).

I personally see both Ed and Stede as cis men, and I think there's ample evidence in canon for that view. However, I don't see anything wrong with headcanoning them as trans or genderfluid; there's nothing to contraindicate that. We do definitely see both of them as nonconforming, especially to the masculine standards of the time, and part of the arcs in Season 1 are about first Stede and then Ed "doing masculinity wrong" in the eyes of patriarchal characters, both in their emotional expression and in their physical attributes. In Season 2, we see Ed imagining himself as a bride—there are a lot of ways they could've shown his fantasies about marriage, but they very deliberately had him painting the bride cake topper to look like himself.

Within canon, Ed's trajectory can undoubtedly be read as a trans allegory. His struggles with identity, in terms of gender presentation, sexual desires, naming, and who he is inside vs. who he has been forced to present himself as, all very much contribute to a trans reading. (We need to note that "trans allegory" does not mean "Ed is trans in canon," though, and the allegory can apply to other identity issues as well, which is what makes it so strong and complex.)

Within canon, I think there's plenty of evidence that Ed and Stede would love each other regardless of gender identity or presentation.

#reply #ofmd #queer #lgtqia #ofmd meta #stede bonnet #edward teach

[trashthedragonreal]

Ditchers get stitches

Notes before you read: this contains transfemme Steve so if you don’t like it don’t read, i myself am trans and this was co-written by our trans Steve alter so don’t go crying wolf.

Pairing: Andreth (Andy & Gareth)

Summary: Jock on Jock violence but not the expected kind.

Tagged people: @isadenari7

Have fun!

So here he was, nervously avoiding his teammates (especially Jason) in the hallway and scurrying away to his car in the parking lot by the gym. He quickly got in and drove off to the Hideout. He promised a certain pretty blonde boy he wasn't gonna miss their first show in over a month and he intended to keep that promise.

The door to the band area was left ajar by a beer bottle, and he slipped his head inside, spotting Gareth immediately and stepped inside causing the door to creak, Gareth turned to the sound and sighed in relief seeing his beloved by the door. He rushed over and jumped into Andy’s arms “You made it!”

“Of course I did, baby, had to ditch practice but totally worth it to see you.”

Gareth gave him a bunch of kisses all over his face for that, Jeff snickered from somewhere in the room and Eddie was preoccupied in the bathroom, but judging from the fits of laughter, was not alone.

“Leave it to Jeffrey Rivera to be the only guy without a partner in Corroded Coffin,” he said and chuckled, shaking his head at the two couples in the vicinity.

—

Jason kept watching the clock and the locker room door, expecting Andy any minute now. Any minute. Now.

He waited the entire time before practice actually started, Andy usually came a little late but not so late that he was worried, he’d gotten used to it. This, was not like usual times though. Both bells indicating ‘go to class’ and ‘GO TO CLASS’ had rung, but nothing. Andy still wasn’t there. Jason listened carefully then, and heard through the door some pieces of a conversation from what he could only assume to be Patrick and Chance, about somewhere called the Hideout, someone named Gareth, and Eddie Munson. His blood boiled and as the two came into the locker room, he pushed past them and didn’t look back.

—

The show was great. Intense and yeah a few mishaps happened but it was good for the boys to get back on stage, of course, the loudest cheers came from Eddie and Gareth's significant others. Stevie and Andy.

Eddie came right off stage after putting his guitar up in the back and collapsed into his girlfriend's arms. She giggled at his behaviour before complaining “Ew, Eds you're covered in sweat! You're gonna ruin the clothes Nance gave me,” she huffed.

“If her majesty so desires, I will release her of my grossness.” Eddie reluctantly got up and waved cheekily at her as he went back behind the stage. “Wanna go meet them by the cars?” Andy asked, Stevie nodded and they left together, platonically holding hands.

Once by the van though, trouble arose.

Andy suddenly got a gut feeling that someone was watching them, and to his horror, as he turned to look at the road above. He was right.

Gareth wandered over to his boyfriend and snuggled into his letterman, despite the awkward position, he found it adorable and it let the knowledge of Jason Carver being not more than 20 feet behind him slip his mind for a moment.

Footsteps coming from behind reminded him.

However before he could react, he watched Stevie disappear and heard a few grunts from behind him.

He and Gareth turned together to the sight of Stevie with her hands balled into fists, sleeves of her cardigan pulled up and Jason on the ground clutching his nose and stomach.

Eddie whooped from behind them, “That’s my girl!”

Quickly after that, they all clambered into the van, abandoning Stevie and Andy’s vehicles there and headed to Gareth's place to cool down.

#steddie #stranger things #eddie munson #steve harrington #eddie x steve #andy stranger things #andy mulligan #andy x gareth #gareth emerson #gareth stranger things #andreth

[erinthesails]

Blackbeard, The Kraken, and Ed: A Gendered Reading

(inspired by this article and condensed into one post for readability)

The Kraken as the Divine Feminine is sending me into the stratosphere oh my god

like...the layers here. the distinctions between ed and blackbeard and the kraken as intrinsically gendered identities, all three distinct from the other.

to Ed, the masculine and the feminine have been guises to wear, protective facades in various contexts. but Ed has never actually had the opportunity to navigate an experience of gender that feels TRUE, only ones that have been NECESSARY for survival. the feminine divine of The Kraken is what killed Ed's father, protected Ed's mother, helped Ed escape from a life of servitude and degradation. The masculine persona of Blackbeard allowed Ed to navigate the space of piracy safely, allowed Ed to project authority and competency. but neither of these personas are ED. Ed has only ever used gender as a facade, a weapon, a shield against painful, threatening things, and never actually experienced gender fully for their own pleasure and self-actualization

this reading also kind of recontextualizes the popular interpretation of Ed at the end of episode 10, NOT as being in just Kraken-mode or Blackbeard-mode, but as perhaps reviving both Blackbeard and the Kraken at once. These two ferociously gendered identities who have protected Ed at various times, that drown out everything else in the search for survival, and leave no room for Ed as a person. It lends itself to a much more complex reading of Ed's gender. If the Kraken (the feminine) is the part of them that Ed's afraid of and Blackbeard (the masculine) is the part that Ed doesn't know how to escape, are either of these things what Ed really wants? both have been necessary, and both are important in various ways, but are either of them goals to strive for? in the aftermath of the simultaneous revival of these violently gendered identities, I hope Ed gets the chance to really think about who "Ed" can be, and that maybe there's a path forward that doesn't necessitate clear identification with either

but then here's the thing: these gendered identities are not equivalent, despite neither being fully "true" for Ed

they're both adaptive to Ed's environment and they both came out of danger and trauma. but Blackbeard is an identity imposed from the outside. it's a persona designed to fill some of the functions of masking--Blackbeard is all the "correct" things that Ed is "supposed" to be as a pirate, as a man, and specifically as a man of color. Blackbeard is a way of relating to the world through a normative lens that only way he can

The Kraken, on the other hand, is a subversive and subverting persona. The Kraken was never supposed to exist, in Ed's world or any other. It's something powerful, an affront to the god Ed was raised to believe in. it's a new god, a protective, feminine pathway toward safety that uses violence and power to assert control over the things Ed was always told were "fate" or "God's will." The Kraken isn't what Ed's supposed to be, it's what she needed to be to survive.

there's an empowering quality to the Kraken that isn't necessarily true of Blackbeard. She asserts, while He hides. She challenges, while He accepts. She is a way of being in the world that Ed was never "supposed" to find, but that Ed found their way to anyway.

I think this distinction for me is the difference between reading Ed as a trans woman versus reading Ed as nonbinary or transfemme. there's a power to the feminine that Ed has needed and drawn on for survival, but that threatens to subsume all the complexity of who Ed is if left unchecked.

The two identities have both been essential, both been repressive, but they're not created equal in terms of how they function for Ed

#ofmd #our flag means death #our flag means death meta #transfemme Ed truthing #Ed is Not Cis and that's just true #ofmd analysis

[thetragicallynerdy]

Ao3 wrapped— 15?

Hello hello!!

15) What WIP are you taking into next year with you?

LMAO SO MANY. The big ones are:

the long sad Jim/Ed (an alt S2 fic, where Jim/Ed become each other's enemy rebounds on the krakens crew) (155K ish right now)

the modern au/flower shop tattoo fic (Jim/Ed, an au where Jim never met Olu, and Ed and Stede divorce, and Jim/Ed find each other) (55K ish)

approximately 3 shifter AU fics (Jim/Ed, where they are part of a modern shifter pack, feat coyote Jim and transfemme wolf Ed)

a few Remington Steele au fics (also Jim/Ed, goddamn I have so many Jim/Ed fics)

At least Two Belated Kinktober Fics (one Jim/Lucius, the other a Jim/entire crew gangbang fic)

And We Will Build A Home From The Wreckage - Jim/Olu cowboy fic, I realllly need to write the next chapter (20K-ish posted already)

every bit as feral - UnDeadwood de-aged Clayton fic, I really need to return to this one and finish it up (80K posted already)

"A contemplation on Jim's acceptance of death as an inevitability" - Jim S2-focused character study of sorts

I think those are the main ones that I'm really hoping to write? I have a couple other ideas I'm noodling around with, but don't feel any internal pressure to finish, if that makes sense. The main take-away is: I have a lot, and most are OFMD Jim/Ed focused lmao.

Thanks for the ask!!

Ao3 wrapped ask game can be found here for the curious!

#ask game #ao3 wrapped ask game #asks #thanks buddy!

[notfromcold]

Transfemme flapper and detective Ed Teach awakened in the night by a mysterious noise. She had just enough time to grab a pistol and her silk dressing gown... what could it be?

@eluciferate

#ofmd #miss fisher au #transfemme ed teach #my art #it has been A LONG TIME since ive drawn a human person

[our-flag-means-death-ao3feed]

love me by the hour

by getmean

Lucius’ eyes narrow. “You know, he’s not that smart. Maybe you should just tell him what you want.” Both of their eyes turn to Stede, who is studiously not looking their way. Ed scratches at her belly; makes a considering noise.

“Oh, he knows. I’m just playing with my food.”

Words: 4181, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: Our Flag Means Death (TV)

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: F/M

Relationships: Blackbeard | Edward Teach/Stede Bonnet

Additional Tags: Transfemme Edward Teach, Nonbinary Character, Post-Canon, Porn With Plot, Body Hair Kink, historically inaccurate hrt, sorry once again writing stede as a sex pest absolutely obsessed with his beautiful wife, and ed as that beautiful wife absolutely obsessed with indulging and torturing stede

source https://archiveofourown.org/works/39925347

#Our flag means death #ofmd

[kaleidoscopic-quiddity]

Okay I probably should've articulated myself better but tbh I was not expecting my original post to get as much attention as it did.

Anyways: yes the epilogues and hs^2 are dubiously canon and ignored by a vast majority of the fandom, including myself. This is why I don't think that every single depiction ever of Roxy should be transmasc, because that version of Roxy is only 'canon' to the meat timeline and even then, the 'canon-ness' of the epilogues and hs^s vs the original homestuck is negligible at best.

However: as for June, the only degree of 'canon-ness' is the Toblerone arg, regardless of whether June was stated to be canon vs just-epilogues-and-hs^2-canon we all know that that's a fast and lose term in regards to homestuck and the fandom are actively encouraged to not take the comments of Hussie or anyone else who's worked on official homestuck content as word of god. To clarify, I am NOT saying I dislike the June headcanon/au/interpretation, it has a solid basis and even if it didn't it'd still be a fun and interesting take on Egbert's character. I also don't think that depicting Egbert as John is bad, provided the people who do so aren't being transmisogynistic about it. Again, if we're going by 'canon-ness' here as reasons for portraying characters as trans vs just personal enjoyment and headcanons, then June's transfemme-ness is just as equally debatable/non-canon as Roxy's transmasc-ness.

Also: I am aware that there is a complicated history in regards to Roxy and transness in the fandom. Many, many people headcanon(ed) Roxy as transfeminine, including myself, and it was upsetting for many people, especially transfemme people who really saw themselves in Roxy, to have that headcanon/fanon utterly disregarded. Additionally, as a transmasc person, I feel the execution of Roxy's 'gender arc' was stereotypical, distasteful, and poorly executed at best, especially the inclusion of Dirk, who much of the fandom headcanoned as transmasc and who a lot of transmasc homestucks, myself included, really saw themselves in, as horribly transphobic to Roxy (and Calliope) for no good reason.

So ultimately: I don't have an issue if people want to portray Roxy as transfemme or even just as a cis girl, either because they don't feel that the epilogues and hs^2 are canon (I certainly don't feel that they are), or purely because of personal preference. Where I do have an issue is that some people, especially on twitter from what I've noticed, will argue that June is indisputably 100% canon across all of homestuck because of the Toblerone ARG and comments from Hussie + other homestuck writers and that any depiction of Egbert as anything but transfemme is inherently transmisogynistic (which it can be, don't get me wrong! But it isn't always) but then turn around and depict Roxy as transfemme or cis female in their fancontent as well and make the argument of 'the epilogues and hs^2 aren't canon' when you point out this double standard.

Again: I don't think there is inherently an issue with people having both June and female Roxy coexist in their fancontent, my issue is that people will act like June is an indisputable truth of Egbert's character, but then act as if Roxy's transmasc-ness can be ignored when when it is arguably, if not more canon than June, if we're deciding to acknowledge the epilogues, hs^2, and other non-original comic official content.

And the worst thing is I'm still going to get labelled a transmisogynist for pointing all this out even though I'm just as upset as anyone else over both the completely insensitive decision to make Roxy transmasc (which hurt both transfemme and transmasc fans) and the complete lack of progress on including June as June in hs^2 or any other official content. I honestly just wish homestuck had left every character's gender as open to interpretation, which I know isn't great representation wise, but at least would've avoided all this discourse and hurt and anger.

#homestuck #roxy lalonde #june egbert #john egbert #og post // #leo answers #hi anon

[reesiereads]

hihi ! 🏳️‍🌈 (headcanons) for any characters u feel like talkin abt :]]

!!! We'll go by character because that's easiest

This also went on way longer then I thought so I'll put a read more, sorry about that! Be warned for a couple mentions of sh, malnutrition/ed, and general depression/anxiety. It's not very detailed but it's worth mentioning.

Sunny

As far as lgbt hcs go I see Sunny as panromantic/asexual for no other reason then I fucking can. Honestly he's one of those characters that I feel deep in my soul is trans but can't decide if it's transmasc or transfem.

I personally believe that he was originally going to be much taller but the severe lack of food during most of his teenage years caused his growth to stunt a bit so he's now the shortest out of the main group.

The way I write Sunny in terms of talking is that I think he switches between sign and speaking pretty often around people he's comfortable with and then strictly signs around people he doesn't know very well. I don't see stress having much of a factor it's more just how comfortable he is with the people in his general vicinity.

I really like the idea of Sunny turning to crafting after he gets out of the hospital. I think he's artsy in general but I don't see him permanently going back to playing music and while I could see him drawing I think I like the idea of him doing more physical art more as a way of grounding. I see him knitting a lot or having Basil show him how to weave a flower crown. I can also see him sewing and using that to add things to his eyepatches.

After the hospital I think Sunny would gradually start to incorporate color back into his wardrobe. Whether it be by stealing his friends/partners (since I ship solar system) clothes or just getting some of his own. I still think he'd mostly wear monochrome stuff but I think as he starts to heal and move on he'll begin to explore a bit more with his style.

I think Sunny would really like having his nails painted or doing them himself. It's a repetitive action that's a bit artsy and I feel like he'd find it relaxing like I do.

I have always imagined Sunny to have the same sort of teasing nature and humor as Mari just like ten times more deadpan. So he'll purposely fluster his friends by giving them compliments but do it with a completely flat expression (and monotone voice if he's speaking).

I don't think Sunny ever deliberately self harms or has an ed of any kind but I see him as the type who struggles a lot with taking care of himself and will deprive himself of simple things like water or food because he doesn't 'deserve' it.

The same goes for when he's feeling down. I really don't see him as the type who would go to other people when he's upset. At least not at first, I think he'd probably get better about it over time after the events of the game.

Because I'm a sucker for piercings I think Sunny would get a double helix (two hoops on the top of one of his ear lobes, I think that's what they're called). I could also see him with a hoop on the side of his nose or studs.

Aubrey

Lgbt wise I see her as bi with a masc lean. She's another character I seriously can't decide if I see as transmasc or transfemme but she's not cis.

I actually see her as extremely tall? Like not Kel tall but she's maybe only a few inches shorter then Hero and absolutely towers over Basil and Sunny. I think she also wears platforms a lot just to get that much taller (she never reaches Kel though and it drives her nuts).

I know in the game her hair is really straight but I personally see it as really curly. Like not ringlets or anything but I guess big princess curls? Just a lot of fkin hair. I think she would really like having people mess with it too, like having Mari braid it when they were younger or having Basil runs his hands through it when he's anxious.

She cusses. So much. It's the sort of thing she knows how to switch out of though, so she can every easily go from cussing someone the fuck out to speaking without a single swear if she really wants with no issue. Usually though, she doesn't care enough to filter herself.

I actually see Aubrey as pretty competent? Like I think she had to grow up taking care of herself for the most part so I figure she probably knows how to do most chores and can at least cook basic things. I figure if she can put that stuff off though she will because I think it makes her upset knowing she has to do those things herself and has no one to help her.

She is absolutely the kind to give affectionate nicknames that should be insulting but sound sweet coming from her. Like it sounds like she's being mean to an outside perspective but the people who know her understand that she is just like that and I think she really appreciates the people who understand that about her.

I see her as the kind who likes to go thrift shopping and buy a bunch of old clothes and then diy them to hell and back. Whether it be cutting them, drawing on them with fabric markers, or just using them as extra fabric to make something completely new. I also thinks she's the kind to draw on the cuffs of her jeans or sneakers (nothing super detailed, more doodles. Like little stars or x's, probably a tic-tac toe game somewhere).

As far as piercings go I actually can't see Aubrey with very many. I'm not exactly sure why but something about it just doesn't suit her very much. I see her more interested in the tattoo side of body modification than piercings side honestly (though an eyebrow piercing might suit her).

Basil

I see Basil as pan. I also see him as transmasc or even nonbinary? I'm leaning to demiboy but I'm not certain. Either way, not cis.

In terms of height he's the second shortest but I still think he's at least half a head taller than Sunny. I think he likes being short though.

Basil gives me heavy ND vibes. I'm not certain whether it's autism or ADHD but I'm certain he's one of the two (I'm leaning to autism).

Whether he is or not though I think he likes info dumping a lot and just generally gets very passionate about what he's interested in and I see him stimming a lot when he does (rocking on his heels, shaking his hands out, pulling on his fingers).

I think Basil (like Sunny) finds more physical projects grounding. So when he's upset he'll garden or go outside with his camera or scrapbook until his head has cleared a bit.

Related to the above and less a hc then an observation but I think Basil is the kind who gets aggressive when he's anxious rather than flighty (unlike Sunny). I can see him saying hurtful things he doesn't mean or just generally lashing out and so he'll usually leave to clear his head before that happens (I don't think it would ever get as bad as it did with the whole eye thing in the game).

I think Basil would be really interested in things like crystals or tarot. Not to the point it's a large aspect of his life but it's something he knows quite a bit about and finds interesting.

I think Basil would have a lot of freckles. I'm not really sure why but this is a thing I really love giving characters so yeah, Basil has freckles.

I also see Basil's hair as wavy instead of straight? Like not severely so, more like beach waves. I also think he'd have Aubrey help him dye it teal/green at the ends at some point.

I think Basil would always have some kind of dirt on him. Like soil or bits of flowers steams. I also think his hands would actually be rather calloused and covered in little knicks from working with plants so often.

I think Basil would do the same thing I do where sometimes he'll just grab someone's hands and mess with the fingers or draw lines over their palm lines and knuckles. It's soothing for him.

I see Basil as the one who wears a lot of jewelry. Like necklaces and rings and bracelets. I think it'd be more simple stuff but he'd wear a lot of it at once. I also see him wearing a lot of piercings, like studs or maybe even small gages alongside a septum. I think he could even have one of those one that's like a stick that goes through the top of the lob (not positive what that one is called sorry).

Kel

Lgbt wise I think Kel is pan. Out of the whole group I see him as the most likely to be cis but he also gives me a bit of transmasc energy so I could go either way.

Tallest. Tall ass boi. He is a whole head taller then Aubrey who is the third tallest and at least half a head taller then Hero. He absolutely lords this over everybody (particularly Hero). Sunny literally comes up to his shoulder.

I think out of the whole group Kel is the most emotionally intelligent (Hero is very similar but I think Kel is just slightly more attuned to it). I see him as the one who can just tell what a person needs without them really needing to say and is good at pushing people to take care of themselves without upsetting them.

I also think Kel is really observant when it comes to the people he cares about. He always can tell when they're upset and I think he's the kind to remember their favorite animal and drink and color. It's the little things with him.

While emotionally intune with others I don't think Kel is very aware of his own emotions. He can tell what he's generally feeling obviously but I think he brushes it off a lot and so when he does feel strongly it catches him off guard. I think Sunny and him are similar in the fact that both of them bottle their emotions so much that when they do feel them, even if it's something like happiness or joy, it makes them feel a little sick because it's so intense.

Kel is really, really easy going. I think he's the kind of person who just doesn't like spending a lot of time alone and so he's always willing to go and do whatever his friends want to do so long as he gets to hang out with them.

I think Kel would probably end up growing his hair out long enough to wear it in a ponytail. I think generally he just like having longer hair but he also does it so he can practice hairstyles for when Sally gets older (I can see him practicing on Aubrey and Sunny (if we're talking transfemme Sunny) too.

Kel wears a lot of oversized clothes. I don't think he likes restrictive things so I'd imagine he prefers open toed shoes and strictly shorts or sweats and hoodies that are big enough the sleeves fall over his hands (which I typically see his friends/partners stealing a lot).

I don't see Kel wearing much jewelry but if he did I think it'd be really simplistic. Like studs or a necklace or maybe even an anklet.

#reesie rambles #omori #this isn't even half of them honestly #and I meant to do hero and mari but this post is already so long #I rlly want to do solar system/ship hcs as well #so if anybody wants to hear any of those please please please shoot me an ask #also plz keep in mind I've only seen like an hour into the game so far #omori sunny #omori aubrey #omori kel #omori basil

[page-doctor-bekker]

Human Error (transfemme!sarah)

(A/N) this really doesn’t actually have anything to do with sarah being trans, it just takes place in the same universe. this is literally just an event that happened in this au written out so i can write about effects surrounding it without people being confused lol.

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“Reese, we’re slammed, any chance you can take treatment four?” Maggie pointed at Sarah Reese, and then at the fourth treatment room. Sarah looked up from the computer, before grabbing her tablet and heading to the treatment room.

“Hi, Mr. Nearling? I’m Dr. Reese, what seems to be the issue today?” Sarah pushed for hand sanitizer, rubbing her already-dry hands together until the gel had absorbed.

“Trouble breathing…” The man took a few labored breaths, “Cold sweat… I’m shaking, I can’t breathe-”

“Okay, I see, when did this start? Does your chest hurt at all?”

“I… I had a big meeting today and it just happened suddenly. I guess it hurts a little bit.”

“Can I take a listen to your heart?” Sarah asked, already taking her stethoscope off of her neck. The man nodded, and she pressed the drum to his chest. His heart was racing.

He started talking fast, “Are you going to be able to give me a doctor’s note? I’m going to lose my job…” He started breathing faster.

“Has this ever happened before?” Sarah asked, lifting the stethoscope from the man’s chest, “Any history of anxiety or panic disorders?”

“Never like this,” He choked up and coughed a bit, “But, I had social anxiety as a kid.”

“Do you have any family history of cardiovascular disease, diabetes, or high blood pressure? Do you smoke, drink?”

“No, none of that,” The man waved his hands, “I’m a healthy guy. A vegetarian, everything- everything is fine! I’m perfect, I can’t-”

“Mr. Nearling-” He was hyperventilating, and Sarah grabbed one of his hands, “Mr. Nearling, I think you’re having an anxiety attack,” Dr. Reese let go of his hand, and hung her stethoscope back around her neck, and tapped on her iPad, “I’m going to give you something to calm you down, then we can talk about coping strategies and I will refer you to outpatient psychiatry to continue care. April, push 1.5 milligrams of Ativan.”

April pushed the medication through the patient’s IV line, and Dr. Reese pulled up a round, spinning stool to the bed and sat down. April nodded at the doctor, and left the room, pulling the curtain shut.

Mr. Nearling calmed down noticeably, which Dr. Reese took as a success - Panic attack subsided. Dr. Reese smiled, “It’s normal to have some residual physical symptoms, mild tightness, shortness of breath, but as the medication works you’ll calm down more and more. Have you ever had a panic attack before?”

Mr. Nearling shrugged, “Maybe? I’ve never gone to the hospital for it.”

“After a severe panic attack you may have more panic attacks in the coming days or weeks, so I’m going to call in a mild benzodiazepine in case you need a bit of help,” Dr. Reese typed that into the tablet, “When you feel the anxiety and panic start up, you definitely want to try coping mechanisms before you take medication for it. The medication is just for if those coping mechanisms don’t work, which sometimes happens and is to be expected every once in a while.”

Mr. Nearling nodded, taking a deep breath. It was shaky going out, but residual anxiety can do that.

“So, a good first step, whenever you’re having a panic attack, is to recognize that you’re having a panic attack. If it doesn’t work to say it in your head, say it out loud,” Dr. Reese tapped the tablet against her leg with each coming syllable for emphasis, “I am having a panic attack.”

“I am having a panic attack.”

And just like that, it was no longer a panic attack. Mr. Nearling went limp, and the monitors started going crazy. Dr. Reese held two fingers to the man’s neck, and yelled out, “I need a crash cart!”

Everything moved fast after that. Sarah was pushed out of the way by two ED doctors, who started barking out orders.

“He’s in cardiac arrest, page CT. Reese, get on his chest-”

Sarah could feel blood pounding in her ears, and she clasped one hand over the other and started humming. Ah, ha, ha, ha, stayin’ alive. Stayin’ alive. Ah, ha, ha, ha, stayin’ alive, stayin’ alive… No matter how much CPR she performed, she still needed the song to keep her on beat.

“-Milligram of Epi.”

Ah, ha, ha, ha…

“Hold compressions,” Dr. Choi barked, holding two fingers to the man’s neck, “Clear!”

The man’s chest lurched as he was shocked, and Sarah’s heart jumped into her throat. Dr. Choi held his fingers back to the man’s neck, “Another milligram of Epi. Charge to 200.”

Sarah resumed compressions. Ah, ha, ha, ha, stayin’...

“Clear!”

Sarah held her hands up, shaking. This never got easier.

“Asystole,” April sighed out, preparing another milligram of Epi. She knew exactly what Dr. Choi was going to ask for next.

“Another milligram of Epi.”

Sarah reached to resume compressions, but Dr. Choi swatted her hands out of the way and did CPR himself. Dr. Choi did it slightly faster than Sarah did. He knew the man was dead.

Sarah squeezed her clammy hands together, shaking like a leaf.

Dr. Bekker rushed in almost immediately after Dr. Choi stopped compressions, and was floored when Choi called time of death.

“Alright, why wasn’t this patient taken to the cath lab as soon as his heart attack was diagnosed?” Ava’s tone was stone cold.

Everyone looked at Sarah.

“He uh… He presented with…” She cleared her throat, “With shortness of breath, mild chest pain, cold sweat, shakiness, and extreme anxiety as well as a positive history for social anxiety. He did not-” She cracked her knuckles, “Um… He also displayed signs of work-related stress and no- Uh, no risk factors for heart attack. I determined he was having a panic attack and ordered 1.5 milligrams of Ativan and started talking about coping strategies with him.”

“Whenever a patient shows up with chest pains they should receive a FULL cardiac workup REGARDLESS of history and risk factors,” Dr. Bekker took a step towards Sarah, and grew louder, “If YOU were in the emergency room with CHEST PAIN, would you be anxious?!”

“I- uh-”

“You did NOTHING you should have. ANXIETY is NOT a contraindication for a heart attack, and now this man is dead. Leaving him to die in the waiting room would be more effective,” She spat out, her tone venomous, “Psych residents, I swear. God, isn’t anyone in this hospital competent?”

Sarah was out of the room before she even knew she was moving. Her feet dragged her away and her heart was practically leaping out of her chest. She felt tears welling up in her eyes and she started chewing on her tongue to avoid letting them go. She clenched her fists as Dr. Charles called her name.

“Dr. Reese! I was paged to the ED, something about you?”

“I need to use the bathroom,” She pushed past him, and he grabbed her arm.

“Sarah,” He whispered, “Go sit in my office when you’re done. I’m going to finish rounds. We’ll talk when I’m done,” He started to walk away, before turning around, “You’re not in trouble, Sarah, I just want to understand what happened.”

Sarah pushed open the swinging door to the women’s bathroom, bolted into the nearest stall and slammed the door shut. She sat down and started sobbing.

I’m in love with her.

She choked on her own snot, and ripped off a piece of toilet paper to blow her nose.

I’m in love with her, and she hates me.

She let out a wail.

i’m in love with her, she hates me, and I failed her.

The bathroom door opened.

“Sarah?”

Sarah held her breath, pulled her knees up to her chest to avoid making any noise.

“I don’t think she’s in here,” Sarah heard April, a gentle voice amongst the madness.

Sarah heard a pager beep.

“Ugh, I have a heart transplant. Whatever, send a note to Dr. Charles and let him know I was looking for her.”

She wants to yell at me some more. She wants to hurt me. She somehow knows about me and I’m going to get fired. I’m going to get fired and be all alone. She knows about me and she’s going to hurt me and I’m going to get fired.

They left, and Sarah let out her breath and let her feet fall to the floor. She blew her nose again, and took a deep, shaking breath. She stood up, and leaned her forehead against the stall door. She took her hair down from it’s low ponytail, and shook it out. She grabbed a piece of her hair and started absentmindedly braiding it - an old anxious habit.

A few minutes and three braids later, she opened the stall door and stared into the mirror in front of her. She wiped away her tears, approached the sink, and splashed water on her face, soaking one of her messy braids in the process. She dried with a thin paper towel, took another shaky, deep breath. She grabbed a helping of hand sanitizer on her way out of the bathroom. Force of habit. Even leaving her bedroom at home she sometimes tries to push the sanitizer button, even though it isn’t there.

Sarah practically ran to Dr. Charles’s office, hurriedly taking her braids out and running her hands through her tangled hair.

She unlocked Dr. Charles’s office door with her key, and closed the door behind her. She did not turn the lights on. Instead, she made a beeline for the couch. There was a throw blanket stored under one of the cushions, and she pulled it over her after grabbing it. She covered her face with a pillow, and screamed into it.

“Sarah?”

She forcefully uncovered her face, before relaxing once she saw it was just Daniel.

“Sarah,” He inquired, sitting down at his desk, “What happened today?”

Sarah sniffled, “I misdiagnosed a heart attack as a panic attack,” She choked out, “Mid-30s male presenting with shortness of breath, mild chest pain, cold sweat, anxiety, healthy weight, vegetarian, panicking with a history of social anxiety, currently experiencing work-related stress, no family history of heart disease, nothing.”

Dr. Charles sighed, “Common mistake. Hardly something to have a-”

“He died, Dr. Charles,” She cried, “He’s dead.”

Dr. Charles’s face hardened, “I see,” He faltered.

“And- And Ava, God, Ava…” She pressed her hand to her forehead, “She yelled at me in the middle of the ED, and she said I was incompetent and-” She choked out a sob, “She hates me.”

“She doesn’t hate you, Sarah,” Dr. Charles’s tone softened, “She’s just… She’s just angry. She won’t be angry forever.”

“I just really messed up today,” Sarah swiped her tears away with trembling hands.

“You did,” Dr. Charles agreed, “You did mess up today, but-”

“I’m going to get sued-”

“Sarah.”

“I’m going to lose my residency and I don’t have a fallback plan, I’m in so much debt and so much trouble-”

“Sarah, you’re not going to lose your residency,” Dr. Charles yelled, and Sarah fell silent. He took a deep breath, “I’m sorry for yelling at you, but you’re not going to lose your residency. Every single doctor has a misdiagnosis in their career, it’s just part of the job.”

“But he died. And it’s my fault.”

“Sarah, you are going to lose patients. And sometimes it’s going to be your fault,” He reasoned, “You’re a good doctor, Sarah, you’re a good doctor who made a mistake. You want to know what happened during my residency? I diagnosed a teenage girl experiencing vomiting and lack of appetite with bulimia,” He raised his eyebrows at Sarah, “She died of malnutrition. Autopsy showed she had ulcers all along her digestive tract,” He shrugged, “She was in too much pain to eat! But all I saw was a sickly thin teenage girl that was vomiting and couldn’t eat.”

Sarah stayed quiet.

“The point is, things happen. Death happens. Sometimes, conditions disguise as one another. Medicine is hardly ever an exact science,” Dr. Charles pointed out, “Human error is expected, you’re not going to get fired, and you’re probably not going to get sued. Mr. Nearling presented with no typical risk factors of a heart attack, and all the typical risk factors and symptoms of a panic attack. Did you purposefully ignore Mr. Nearling’s heart attack?”

Sarah shook her head.

“Boom,” Dr. Charles threw his hands up in front of him, “You had no malicious intent. You made a mistake, a common mistake, on a patient that didn’t present typically, and it had consequences.”

Sarah nodded.

Dr. Charles sighed, and looked at Sarah with a look of sympathy, “And now it will never happen again, right?”

She nodded.

“You’re going to take complaints with these symptoms more seriously?”

She nodded.

“You’re not a bad doctor, Sarah, you’re just a human,” He said, “In med school they always teach you what someone who has a heart attack looks like, just like they taught me what someone who has an eating disorder looks like. You just have to learn to get past that phenotype and look deeper.”

Sarah stayed quiet.

“Look... This is hard. I get it,” Dr. Charles sighed, “Just... go home, Sarah. Take a breather.”

“What?”

“Go home. Come back in a few days. Take a break.”

“Yes sir,” She said, quietly, before standing up to leave.

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(A/N) thanks for reading :) i’m going to build on this at some point and write a follow-up to this one shot. hope you enjoyed! this is a foundation for the parts i want to write, so it doesn’t have too much about sarah’s actual transition. i am so sorry for making ava be mean :(( EDIT: If you liked this, check this out bc I am continuing it!

#chicago med #one shot #chicago med one shot #sarah reese #writing #also my favorite sarah headcanon is that she still has to hum or sing stayin alive to do cpr #she has no natural rhythm without a guide lol #thats okay #transfemme!sarah #my au #angst #mild angst #dr charles #dr charles comforting sarah reese #dr charles is a good father figure #crockettstiddies

[jrnynlove]

“You a boy or girl?” PreK Three year old. My answer: “I’m a human being. That is all that matters.” “If you dress like that, then you’ll look like a woman?” Special Ed kids. My answer: “What I wear and what colors I wear are neither for boys or girls. They’re for people. These clothes are mine. I like them, and that is what matters.” “Is that a boy or girl?” Random 4th/5th grade kids in hall talking right behind me about me. My answer: “You know it’s rude to speak about someone behind their back, especially when they can hear you, right? Next time just ask. And to answer your question: I am a human being and it doesn’t matter if I am a boy or girl.” #gay #latinx #queer #latino #twospirit #gendernonconforming #genderqueer #nonbinary #trans #transfemme #femme #boy #girl #neither #humanbeing #human #whatmatters #me #myself #i #love #beauty #worth #affirmations #substituteteacher #substituteteaching #substitute https://www.instagram.com/p/B3bBbF7BJoJ/?igshid=1q9j500w4e7v0

#gay #latinx #queer #latino #twospirit #gendernonconforming #genderqueer #nonbinary #trans #transfemme #femme #boy #girl #neither #humanbeing #human #whatmatters #me #myself #i #love #beauty #worth #affirmations #substituteteacher #substituteteaching #substitute

[erinthesails]

The thing about transfemme ed is that I do actually get the criticism that men (esp men of color) should be allowed to be feminine without being read as women. I really do get where it's coming from and to a point i agree. but I also think this assumes that people are interpreting ed as a binary trans woman, and that we see Soft Robe Era Ed as his ultimate transfemme moment. which, at least a far as I've seen, is not really the case.

Ed’s transfemininity isn't "this man is delicate and sad and wearing florals so he must not be a man", its "this person feels constrained and trapped by everything they are and everything the world expects of them and Gender is part of that". Its about finding masculinity through the feminine and femininity through the masculine. Its about expectations and who forces you to fulfill them and who allows you to set them aside. It's about beards and silk robes, strength and tenderness, and finding those things both within and beyond gendered markers.

I'm losing my thread here because I love them so much but I think for the most part, transfemme ed truthers are not saying she's not a man or not masculine, but that every part of Ed's story seems to be about reaching for an acceptance of "both AND," in so many parts of life. so imagining space for him to explore feminine masculinity and masculine femininity feels like exactly the kind of freedom of self determination theyve been looking for. Ed is someone who is deeply engaged with identity as a performance, as an interaction between how you present and what others see in you-- so what other performances of gender are possible? And what happens when you don't perform at all? Ed is channeling gender trouble the entire show, it is not all about silk robes and a shaven face!!!

#our flag means death #transfemme ed #i have seen so many hot takes on twitter and ive been swirling these thots around in my brain #microwaving them poking them etc

[sapphic-sex-ed]

I know it's not strictly sex ed, but what's the history of the term "trans lesbian"? Has it always historically meant transfemme lesbians, or can it also mean GNC cis lesbians, or transmasc NB lesbians (I haven't found a non-TERFy source on the later)?

It’s always meant trans women, though the term was ‘transs*xual’ rather than ‘transgender’ at the time we started being recognized again (after the term ‘Invert’ anyway). It was also more common to shorten that word to ‘TS’ than to ‘trans’. We were sometimes called ‘male’ lesbians because Cis People Don’t Understand.

‘Trans lesbian’ and ‘trans woman’ are terms exclusive to those women who were assigned male at birth. While nonbinary women are by definition trans and welcome to the label if they want to use it, these terms have specific connotations that people who were AFAB are not entitled to claim. Labels are complicated and such people have different ways of identifying.

Gender non-conformity is a very Queer thing, but it’s not in the subset of Queer things that are trans, though closeted trans people often express themselves in GNC ways. Gender expression is not gender itself. A GNC lesbian who is cis isn’t trans, nor are Butch women necessarily trans.

-*Mod Star, a known transbian*

#mod star #trans issues #misgendering tw #labels identities #terfs tw #caps #anon