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The Ugly Sweater

I am an ugly sweater...

The one who everyone owns,

but doesn’t admit it

unless it’s that time of the year, 

and everyone decides you’re finally good enough.

The one that sits in the closet,

the yarn slowly unravelling, 

fraying at all the edges

but begging to be worn.

I pray for someone to fix me up,

to stitch me back together,

then maybe,

I can come out of the cupboard.

They say stitch yourself back up,

fix yourself, here are the tools.

But when you open the sewing kit,

All they’ve given you is fabric dye

to cover up the problem,

they say,

because there is no cure

for an ugly sweater.

But when you use the dye,

you don’t remember 

what you looked like, before,

but you know,

it’s definitely not this -

Blank space, plain yarn - 

Not an ugly sweater,

but not a nice one, either.

A sweater that’s lost its brightness,

that is stagnant and empty,

but is this really better 

than being ugly and unwanted?

You have so much potential, they say,

there are so many ugly sweaters, like you,

who are beautiful and successful

and are worn all over the world.

But instead,

I sit in darkness ,

in a drawer,

in purgatory.

Not daring to show my true face

for if they see the real me, 

the half that's unrestrained and bright,

they might decide to throw me out,

Or maybe they’ll see the other me - 

The darkness - 

And decide that it's too much. 

Not that I blame them,

it’s too much for me too, sometimes,

I can’t see where one pattern starts,

and the other begins,

its too much and not enough, all at once.

...and I want it to stop...

But the only way to stop,

this irrational ugly mess,

is permanent -

and as much as I want to...

...I’ve not got the courage...

I’m scared to die,

but I’m scared to live, too

and I wish more than anything,

that I was born normal.

Not an ugly sweater...

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Sayu Ogiwara

« All I Want Is Protect her Smile!!

Shout out to boys who do the things that aren’t traditionally feminine but are now perceived as feminine in society

Especially ones that are grouped in with “fangirls” all the time smh bros you are still here and you are just as much of a person that deserves to be seen as anyone else

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I thought "Hey doesnt Jojo Siwa make music" so I put on some songs & now I'm legit sitting here snot-nosed sobbing into my breakfast because it's just so sweet

Hmm I’ve done some thinking. And I think we should fuck 🤤

😊 - I think you are a really friendly person.

😫 - I admire you from the sidelines because you seem cool and I’m just a dork.

GAH! THIS IS SO SWEET! Here, since I’m handing them out, you can also have a picture of a farm I took today!

does anyone else have like ten tabs of different fics open for days at a time tryin to remember to read them but still you never do?

😊 - I think you are a really friendly person.

Awwww thank you so much! Here, enjoy a photo I took today of some farm!

oh to be ballroom dancing with a very beautiful woman, wearing my best dress in a dimly lit courtyard. Oh to be just about to kiss when I feel a deep throbbing in my abdomen, I want to assess the pain but I cant. Oh to slump forward into the beautiful woman's arm, being all to aware that she is using her other arm to pry out the dagger she stabbed me with. Oh to look into her eyes for answers, finding none, but seeing a glimmer of grief and regret in her eyes as she gently lays me down.

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weapon-girl art

hurgie in my burgie and my meat go soft

sword+girl art -2

taking things into my own hands and stopping that dragon from being woken

Boston Manor - Dirty Kitchens

( not my picture, just my edit )

Zombie Land Saga episode 8 so good, wow, we stan Lily, she's so perfect

This episode genuinely made me cry

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