#we're doing this again babes

[inkskinned]

im gonna start a fight; and, at the same time, i need you to take this in the most good-faith way possible, but:

videos that involve body-checking and intentionally (and uncritically) show a mealplan of an unhealthy number of calories are just a revamped version of pro-ana food diaries.

and yeah, i know there's arguments. i address some of them under the cut. but at the end of the day, we're just coming back to romanticizing mental illness; we've just found a better platform for it.

this is already something we've done. we knew it was wrong and tried to stop it. and tbh. it just wasn't enough.

there are people who argue "well, what if you have an eating disorder, you can't help it if you don't eat!" except that as someone with an ED; we are not infants. we know what we're doing. part of having an ED is that you are like, maybe too self-aware. even if we can't help our own food choices, we don't need to fucking romanticize the disorder - something we've been warning you about since 2013. there are hours of setup, filming, and editing that go into these videos. they do not happen to fall into place randomly. there is a reason they are pieced together to be beautiful, bright, inspiring.

there's this woman who pretty much only posts daily plans under a normal amount of calories, and everyone defends her saying but it's better than nothing! and i'm like. except she opens those with images of her showing off her body and provides no context in the video or caption that suggests that she believes what she's doing is unhealthy. she has hundreds of thousands of followers on a platform designed for young kids and teens. i refuse to believe that by accident her content just happens to be cheery advice on "healthy" versions of starving.

for any other symptom of mental illness, we would be incredibly enraged by this kind of placid acceptance of a "tips and tricks" fast-start guide. imagine if people posted pink & pretty videos saying "best places to cut yourself" as if it was a fucking storytime. we, as a society, are so fucking fatphobic that we would rather accept blatantly harmful displays of self harm than admit that we are obsessed with a hyper-thin body type.

i am not suggesting someone never talks about their disorder. i talk about mine. actually, it's a plot point in my book.

here's the difference: i recognize it's a fucking mental illness. i am very careful to never mention a specific weight, eating pattern, or calorie plan. i always make sure to position it as something that ruined my fucking life. i do not put cheery music in the background and hearts and sparkles over my worst moments. i do not film it in bright light. i do not start each passage with an image of a thin body followed by "here's how to look like her."

eating disorders should not be framed as aspirational. and the problem is that society worships the "after" image, so long as you don't get too sick. there is a reason so many people who quit being "influencers" will later admit - i wasn't eating well that whole time; an obsession with food was completely destroying my life.

we let any uncredited, uncertified person write the most backwards, fucked up shit about how to get the body you desire! because the underlying, secret belief is: well, at least they're thin! and the real thing that fucking gets me each time - they make fucking money off of it. their irresponsibility and societal harm literally pays off for them.

"why do you care so much." "don't like it don't look." "so what if people experiment with new ways of thinking of food?"

thank you for asking. we're about to get extremely personal. it's because when i was 18 i discovered "thinspiration"/"thinspo." and it absolutely influenced, shaped, and codified my pre-existing eating disorder. i went from having some troubling habits and traits to being incredibly unwell within what felt like a matter of days. there were actual pages designed to train me on how to have an ED correctly. it was all so suddenly easy. i was sick; and the nature of the illness meant - i wanted to be sicker.

it takes an average of 7 years for a person to fully recover. i know this personally - even now, 10 years from the worst of it, i still fucking struggle. i am so much happier now and i eat what i want and i literally don't think about food at all (19 year old me would shudder) and yet - i still fucking know the calories of plain toast with butter.

an eating disorder is one of the deadliest types of mental illness. over 1 in 4 people with an ED will attempt suicide.

and i'm sorry. i just do not see the exchange rate of "high rate of engagement" versus "the value of a human life."

#and there's something else in there about like .... #tbh once i got over something like 1k followers #i stopped being specific about my ED for a REASON. #yes on ur personal locked blog that u use like a diary go ahead etc #but we are OBVIOUSLY not talking about that. we're talking about the sheer NUMBER of people i could be talking about #in that one paragraph. that you and i probably were thinking about 2 different influencers #bc they get to say that they're just posting FITNESS and if it's FITNESS it's OKAY and im like #jesus christ lord almighty #every person in recovery from an ED: this is incredibly dangerous holy shit do you know how much this would have triggered me #each of these ppl: how dare you!!!!!!!!! i am only harming those who WANT to engage with my content!!!!! #their followers: leave them alone !!! they can't help that they make an hours-long choice to frame their disorder as if it was #fucking cottagecore !!!! #like girlie this person needs THERAPY #again! i didn't even have that large of a following before i IMMEDIATELY deleted any specific mention of calories food etc #bc i recognize responsibility and i didnt EVER want to even ACCIDENTALLY encourage this #and im not even GETTING PAID FOR THIS!!! #aND THEY ARE!!! #something something something they know this content makes them money #they don't give a SHIT about u babe

[hellomagicalsouls]

i had a dream about Klaus and Five fighting then five brought up Klaus being a junkie and thennnnn

Klaus brought up how Five is the reason every bad thing has happened to him. five LITERALLY did it to himself.

nobody pushed him out the door to go attempt to jump into the future infact everyone tried to stop him because they called after him.

five literally made his life the way it is because he's a stubborn bitch who thought he knew better

i woke up @ 4am after this dream and haven't slept since

also he called Klaus a junkie who has no idea what it's like being alone but Klaus literally was on the streets for like 12 years so he probably understands better than anyone

cause five and Klaus both probably had no food and had to eat out of dumpsters and do things they absolutely didn't want to do in order to survive

dream verse has it out for me honestly

#the umbrella academy #umbrella academy #tua #klaus hargreeves #five hargreeves #why do i actually do this to myself #ive been awake for 18 hours over this #im gonna fail uni at this point #my brain needs to stop cause its getting personal now #like slow down babe wait til we're awake to hurt #we're adults its what we do #five and Klaus love eachother #because they are eachother #both addicted to something that's gonna kill them if they dont stop it #im doing it again #okay bye love you #the scene where five called klaus a junkie hurt me lots incase you couldn't tell #its the word junkie its so harsh makes me sad #umbrella academy klaus #tua klaus #umbrella academy five #tua five

[stop-breaking-my-heart-telltale]

if dorian didn't show up, do you think louis would have shot minnie?

I do. I know some people think either he wouldn't have or he would've missed so that's why the writers had him shoot Dorian instead, but mmmmmm no, I don't personally think so. I like to think that if he had taken the shot, his shaky hands would've caused him to shoot her fatally.

Mostly because I'm already so normal about the fact that of the Ericson crew, Marlon and Louis are the only ones with a body count. Well, that we know of, but shown to us in the game, at least. Plus, we know it's Louis' first kill.

Like yeah, Clementine and AJ become part of the crew and they have bigger body counts, and if we're counting indirect kills caused by actions, then Tenn has a count... and I guess everyone has blood on their hands for blowing up the boat... but I'm talking about killed directly with a weapon like....... I lied, I'm not normal about that at all, Louis and Marlon are the ones who have killed someone in Louis' route. I'm also not normal about the fact that Louis kills Dorian and then even as he's clearly in shock, he tries to go with Clementine to get AJ, and then later on when they talk about it, he says it feels like bile but not quite and he's glad he has it in him to do it.... listen, listen, listen... I'm obsessed with that.

Anyway, so if Louis shot Minerva, I think he would've accidentally killed her and can you imagine? He's already enough of a mess after killing the woman who pinned him down and tried to cut his finger off [or succeeded] but he knew Minerva, they were friends before the twins were taken. Even Violet couldn't kill her even though that would've been the smarter thing to do, and we know thanks to meta knowledge that killing her would've saved lives, but Violet couldn't, and I don't think Louis would intentionally either.

Speaking of Violet, if Louis killed Minerva, I hate to think about what that would've done to Vi. I think she might've actually left at that point, like what was planned before it got changed to her being burned. I don't think she would've attacked Louis over it, though, like yeah she attacked Clementine in the cell but Louis? I don't know, but I don't think so just because it's Louis and he'd be a mess about it anyway.

Though if he did kill her, it would be a neat parallel to draw... y'know, because Louis forgave AJ for killing Marlon even though he was pissed and heartbroken, and Violet was annoyed with him the entire time... but could she ever forgive Louis for killing Minerva? Y'know? We already have a similar parallel with AJ shooting Tenn, but still.

If Clementine killed Minerva in that moment, though, then I could see Violet attacking her since in her eyes, Clem proved her right.

So yeah, I get why they added the Dorian kill to his route. It adds another compelling element to Louis as a character, but we also need Minerva alive for episode 4; Louis can't kill her, he can't miss, and he's not going to stay with her because we need Violet to stay on the boat and him to be on shore for all routes.

#asks #twdg louis #twdg minerva #twdg clementine #twdg violet #twdg marlon #twdg tenn #honestly whenever i see someone say louis is the boring option i'm just like '.......that's your opinion but also how can you say that??' #then again i'm sure other people look at me saying violentine just isn't for me and they say the same thing so y'know... i can't talk haha #also time is such a weird thing because i look at the entire cell scene in louis' route and like... i'm not even mad about violet anymore #like yeah i still don't believe she was brainwashed like i'm sorry y'all only believe that because kent said something about it #not because there's all this evidence toward it in game like vi being pissed at clementine makes sense she doesn't need to be brainwashed #for it to work like her being vulnerable and easily manipulated into submission makes perfect sense especially with minerva there #it's like everyone was pissed that she attacked clementine and people needed a way to excuse it so it's not violet's fault when like... #that's literally what makes it interesting like calm down it's okay if violet is pissed and scared and behaves accordingly #also my controversial opinion of the day that i'll hide here in the tags so maybe people won't find it sksksk but #I personally find the concept of vinerva and the doomed tragedy of it more compelling than anything violentine did #like i'll defend violentine and i do believe it's an important and good ship it's just not my personal favorite #anyway but then the whole thing with lilly and minerva is so good and louis screaming FUCK YOU at minerva?? amazing love it so good #i love when the soft character who never chooses violence is so pissed off that all that anger they have boils to the surface and it's raw #like... he's SO mad he's SO furious he's SOOO UPSET like he wasn't even like this when marlon died or anything like he hit his limit #and then shooting dorian through the mouth while an accident is just well done i love it and i love his reaction of mortification #and apologizing and YET he still tries to go with clementine he's trembling and can barely string together a sentence but he wants to go #he wants to help her he wants to save aj THAT is the gut reaction he has after everything that just went down #'louis isn't loyal or good for clem because of the vote' babe tell me you don't understand any nuance of louis' character without telling m #it's fine IT'S FINE you don't have to agree and i just have to remind myself that it's fine not everyone likes louis we're okay #this drives me crazy in the best way like y'know what? i love the cells scene in louis' route all of it even the stuff i used to rant about #even the stuff that used to piss me off now i'm just like 'no wait past cj was dumb she wasn't looking at it this way aaaaaaaa' sksksks #that was my tag ted talk about the cell scene thank you

[rashkah]

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[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

every so often I'm reminded of things I can't cope with that Normal People Can. (like the way the music I'm listening to splits between headphones in stereo, I can't deal with listening to it other than through computer speakers.) I cannot and likely never will be able to cope with a great many things. rightly or wrongly, when I remember these things it's easier to rationalise to myself why I should die.

#personal #tw suicide #puddleglum hours #internalised ableism? absolutely. good? no. fact? yes #am i sadposting more bc this burn hurts like the very devil tonight despite it being nine days since i did it? why yes #have i been consciously keeping the sadposting off here recently because i don't want people to overreact and call the police on me again? #also yes! #we're doing brilliantly babes <3

[castielfucks]

i love that we are discovering our boundaries and saying No, but there comes a point where you can't cancel on your friends anymore. you have to say yes eventually and actually be there. if you like being invited you have to show up at least once. like listen to your body and energy, obviously. but there will come a time where your friends will start hurting and think you're avoiding them or don't like them or don't want to hang out, because every single time you had the opportunity you said no or you canceled last minute.

#this post is brought to you by My Friend Invited Out 6 People Including Me and I was Literally the ONLY Person that Didnt Cancel #his heart was broken #like 3 of then straight up waited until the very last minute to cancel #youre not fooling your friends when you do that. it does hurt their feelings. and they can only take it so many times before giving up #and when they do it wont be their fault because they reached out already multiple times #when does Haha Canceling on My Friend go from protecting your energy to isolation #for both of you #it just hurt to see my friend hurt #because they all initially said yes too #5 people pulling out we had a whole gamenight planned that turned into a 2 person dinner #smdh wake up out of main character syndrome babe we're learning how to be A Good Friend again #being a friend comes with responsibilities btw like there are things you have to do to maintain your friendship #im not talking out of my ass on this one either #do you have any idea the dbt and workbooking ive done to relearn how to connect with people #and notice the damage my isolation and agoraphobia was having on my deteriorating friendships

[fazcinatingblog]

Wait since when does James wear a glove

#James aish #beautiful boy #Carlton were mean to you Jimmy #i want to say he's copying Nat but no it was an elbow sleeve that Nat wore #nat drives James' car and finds a glove in the glove compartment and thinks he's having an affair with Travis Cloke #'jim when did you join Collingwood?' #'oh ah would've been around 2016' *nat does the maths* 'so you knew Travis cloke!' #'um yeah Nat everyone knows Travis Cloke he's---' 'a well respected member of the gay community?????' #nat starts fuming and worries he's losing his boyfriend to Travis cloke #'what does that big oaf have that i don't????' nat fumes #james comes home and there's several horses and donkeys in the kitchen #'nat??? did you leave the back door open again?' James calls out warily looking at the animals in his kitchen #nat comes running in to the kitchen 'oh i forgot to stir the soup' and #'babe there's donkeys in here' James says slowly and Nat flashes a grin 'yeah aren't they great we're having pumpkin soup your favourite' #'i haven't had pumpkin soup since Brisbane days when i was depressed eating cup a soups-- wait did you find my pocket profile from 2014???' #nat blushes and quickly throws a tea towels over his scrapbook of James Aish mementos #James starts leading the donkeys out of the kitchen and Nat's like 'wait Jim i thought you were into this thing' #'no definitely not' James retorts and takes the animals outside #he comes back and Nat's like 'babe i can't pack mark between three opponents any more I'm sorry' #James blinking confusedly 'i don't want you to do that you might get hurt' #'but...' nat says frowning 'what is it about Travis that you're into I've been racking my brain all day---' #'Travis?????' James said 'you mean coyler that tea drinking weasel who---' #Nat quickly pushes his cup of jasmine tea across the bench #'no babe i love you and your tea drinking i didn't mean it's just that Colyer-- he microwaves his tea' #'oh okay' Nat said 'yeah totally ok now back to Travis Cloke' #'Travis Cloke?????' james cries 'i haven't thought about him since i found that guernsey in your wardrobe signed by David---' #'i grew up a tigs fan Jim' #'oh phew i thought you were cheating on me with David' #'is that why you tried to grow a moustache that week?'

[xiaohuayaos]

i really love your lbfad posts, You really Get the characters. I'm so fond of the mortal arc in particular because it shows the characters being able to goof off and have some silly fun. It's wild but I once saw someone get through the entire mortal arc of the show and somehow come to the conclusion dfqc is just awful and abusive? Truly bizzare takes on the wider internet.

Aw, I'm glad you enjoy my posts- I appreciate knowing 💗 but yeah the wider internet can be Very interesting.... I think one of the first things I saw outside tumblr about the show was a decent review that I was enjoying reading up until the point when the author just started in on how terrible and annoying Xiao Lanhua was and how she only watched the show in spite of her and I was just ??????? like at the end of the day we are all entitled to our own opinions and feelings but there's a lot of opinions and feelings I do not agree with <3 to put it nicely <3

#thanks for the ask! #Anonymous #like idk ive curated who i follow to such a degree seeing like the 2000s levels of Ough i hate the girl characters from an adult woman was #wild #i was like wait.... people are still doing that #accidentally curated my online places too well and forget how weird people can be lmaoooo #same though I've seen a few takes about DFQC that again #idk i feel like to watch a show like this you have to have some level of whimsy and not think of it from explicitly real world pov #like in real life poisoning your guys drink 3 times is Bad #but in this show its like yk fairys and devils and circumstances out of this world #and im such a bitch about my male characters if I thought DFQC was really at all Actual Evil to her i wouldnt have enjoyed the show #but thats why its such a funny watch bc he's telling us again and again I Am The Big Bad #and then we're like okay but why did you get on your knees on her level and brush a tear from her cheek babes? why did you continually #go out of your way to try and make her happy even after you had that ring on ya finger and couldn't feel her feelings anymore? lmao #sorry i went off on an tangent #suffice to say thanks for being nice to me 🥺

[heavenknowsffs]

Sorry for another vent post but here goes

#like i'm not looking for a relationship ok ? but i met this guy and we've been hooking yp #but like he is being all sweet and caring and he is great don't get me wrong #he's like eddie munson i'm not gonna lie #but at the same time he doesn't get my jokes and when i make a sarcastic comment or something funny he always thinks i'm being honest #and then he's too sweet if it makes sense in normal convos? BUT if i am ganuinely distressed (which i am a lot you guys know) #he is just not very emotionally intelligent 😬 and like it's all fun and wtv but i feel like he might like me more than i like him #and i called him babe once bc i had this girl friend who calls everyone babe and i spent like 3 days with her so i called him that #and now he always calls me babe and i'm like 😐 pls stop but i can't tell him to stop bc it will seem rude #and yeah my friends that know him are like he's such a cool guy and so sweet and everything and it looks like we're dating #but like we're not man we're not i met him a few weeks ago #anyway i think in reality i'm trying to find bad things about him just so i can justify not liking him and sabotage the whole thing bc + #+ i'm too afraid lmao #i think i'm emotionally unavailable and don't want a relationship or feel ready for it at all #i feel like i'm starting that age most ppl have at 18/19 of exploring and just vibing except i should have gone through that then #but i never got the change bc of abusive relationships and being at home and not having freedom to just exist #and now i do and i feel like if i start dating someone i'll lose my freedom again #which should not even happen in a healthy relationship but that's how i feel #maybe will talk about this to my therapist see what he says #i think i know what he will say like 'you're just afraid don't think about it too much tell him how you feel' #and i HAVE told him generally how i feel and that i don't want to move mad about it and he was like 'no were just getting to know eachother

[currentlyonstandbi]

#look this was probably the most experimental post i've ever done considering i had to make the newspaper article from scratch #and to be entirely honest i uuuh im not happy with it lmao #i should've done an obituary instead of the article but too late ! i have no energy to start again #but whatever .the point is that the article is supposed to allude to alex's death okay so yes obituary would've worked better but too bad #idk i think i just had a massive brain blegh halfway through which sucks because i was thinking about this post all day #but the idea behind the whole concept and the QUOTE in the first place and the stupid article concept #was the idea that nigel wasn't the only one to kill himself at the end of the film #alex did too . just not in the literal sense #alex kills the old version of himself . kills the who he used to be #this did not do that quote or the intention behind the post justice but i'm just gonna dump it here and go #also deep in tags is the best place for me to put the random shit i'm thinking of and i've had the trainyard scene on my mind lately #but i left my thoughts to simmer too long and now it's been reduced into thickness 😞 but anyway #greg may have been too much of a coward to give them the maraclea ending they deserved #but he will never be able to take away the fact that the trainyard scene will always be their version of the myth TO ME and me only probs #okay because that story is supposed to parallel the typical conventions of marriage - the consumation when he lays with the body #and then 9 months later the skull symbolises a birth resulting from their union #that moment at the railway ? where nigel shoots himself with the very gun alex is holding? #that's their consumation babes; their union; their wedding #'pray for me pray for yourself we're one now' may as well be their vows #and what do we get as a result of that union 9 months later? we get jack #jack is the product of these 2 people becoming 1 and just like the skull granted great power to the lord #so too does jack grant power to alex; the power to take control of his life and forge his own path forward #me making this post 🤝 cats : oooooo big stretch #seriously #lowkey glad no one will see this in the tag search lmao #like minds

[asfdhgsdkjhgb]

ex bfs now ex gf asking to just call and chat??

#just me rambling again #babe the only times we've ever talked one on one was to discuss me maybe doing ur senior photos #this is strange we're just like. chatting about fast food #guys how do u socialize #how to socialize #why to socialize ?? still confused as to why im here

[anotherpapercut]

god it's fucking wack as hell how literally everyone in your life can be fully aware that you are disabled and still it never comes up in people's consideration of activity planning lmao

#literally one of my friends will NOT stop asking us all to go ice skating with her and ive told her like 5 times that i cant #hopefully my partner will go w her at some point and that will satisfy her but im like babe if i fall i wont be able to walk for 2 weeks #please dont make me say no again. i dont like disappointing people its a real prpblem with me so dont make me do it 50 times!!!!! #also if we're going to be doing something where ill have to walk on uneven ground or up and down hills #AND you absolutely refuse to match my fucking pace so im also going to have to fucking sprint to keep up with you #a little warning would be nice!!! id like to at least be high out of my mind first. it will also make me less likely to kill you

[capinejghafa]

Not to be that person, but looking at the fight between alphonso and diego did not make sense (3.02). at all. because if alphonso powers are revert back everything that happens to him then diego would have fallen at the same time that alphonso fell and he didn’t. like in theory this fight was cool, but logistically doesn’t add up.

also, diego’s powers are trajectory manipulation like that's the one power we know for sure he has... like it made sense that they didn’t land for reggie (alien) and christopher (he’s a fucking cube)... but theoretically, all of the appliances should have hit jayme not just one lol and why didn’t he throw a knife at her either.

the store fight was *check notes* a mess.

#tua negativity #tua #as some who has been trying to defend this season and some of the choices they made with diego #i will just say that maybe the writers forgot how to write his character? or his powers? #i can't defend this mess... like upon doing these rewatches i have defended everything under the sun #but this fight is bad for a number of different reasons #mostly bc the writers forgot what diego's powers were... #anyways 3.02 is interesting bc nothing really happens but so much happens asdasds #i hate to say... again i defended this show from dumb things but your gonna have two characters fight then it has to make sense #if this is an establish character then you have to have them use their powers we're on s3 babes come on #im a diego stan first and a show defender second or sometimes third but even i cant defend this

[bimbokingorodreth]

Pepsi max in my veins!!!!!!

#we're drawing again babeyy we're doing it #every day i open a new blank canvas and then remember i have so many bangers unfinished #perhaps i will finish something today #i want to post something before i go to spain #i said the same thing a month ago when i went to finland lmaoo #one day it'll happen babes #would help if i could decide what each post will contain because i just keep piling things up and never posting anything #because i cant decide what goes with what

[anachronistic-falsehood]

yeah the rest of the cast is really holding this all together. ranbo i'm sorry but your acting and writing are both not great. god i'm sorry jerma's makeup is so distracting did no one shade match this bitch before picking out face prosthetics like it looks yellow on him he's not warm toned get him some foundation and blend it into the prosthetics and his neck PLEASE

#liveblogging #genloss neg #genloss crit #<<have to start tagging that again ig!!!! we're getting into it #the makeup is just me nitpicking. i could not do what they've done with face prosthetics but I Know Foundation. I Can Shade Match #and babe no one shade matched this guy

[lookedlikethebins]

had an idea for a gatty fic based around the (slightly rearranged lol) lyrics of anobrain last night and i swear to god this song has less than 70 words total. this fic will not spiral out to become over 15k i believe in us we can do this...

#gatty #gatty fic #like i need to stop doing this #also by 'we' i mean y'all gotta come to me in like two days and be like BABES where IS IT #don't reinvent the wheel just write some sappy comfort fic then press post asdiakjsdkl #all my other fics are totaling like 60k words right now so... something short in the meantime would be nice!! #working in a vacuum for too long makes me feel too much like it's 1. grad school all over again and 2. gets me in my head too much... #we're just here to post some slightly overwritten fic to un-repress some homosexuality babes #and gd we're gonna do it... Y'ALL HOLD ME TO IT #anyway ANOBRAIN LYRIC FIC BABIES i love it i'm stoked...