#vent sesh

[jaegexy]

I’m experiencing some serious mental change right now.. I upped my meds.. I’m switching from night shift to day shift.. paycheck will suck.. I have been antisocial for a while.. depression is creeping in hard and it’s becoming unmanageable to maintain a positive mindset..

I feel like the world is falling apart just because of these things. I guess that’s what it’s like when you have BPD. The whole weight of the world on top of me. I’m drowning in silence. I write, I journal, I art.. I don’t feel any better. Maybe upping my meds is what’s causing this. Gotta wait it out until my body accumulates to the new dosage. But also things aren’t really relaxed right now in my life. There’s a drastic change I gotta get use to staying up during the day and sleeping at night again. That’s gonna suck. Im gonna have to cut back on financials and save up because I’ll lose pay switching to day shift. I won’t get to see my girlfriend much because she works night shift. We even live together.. and when I leave for work she will be getting ready to leave work giving report to the day shift and so we won’t even get to see each other in passing..

Ugh

Source: poeticecstasy

#journal entry #dear diary #diary entry #venting #vent sesh

[percythepogue]

I hate the feeling of expecting to come home to a quiet, empty house to just get in PJs, make some dinner, and watch a movie in the aloneness and instead everyone’s home watching TV and taking up the entire kitchen…I know y’all live here too but I was looking forward to the me time😣

EDIT: And they used up all the hot water😫😫😫

#vent sesh

[breakyoselffool]

Lol no Lana Del Rey but I just really need someone to be nice to me!!!!!

#why is everything about California so fucking difficult I hate it!!! #I didn’t pack my journal so #vent sesh

[therozpoz]

Ugh I am like creatively frustrated right now. All last night I was trying to draw and struggled. So I tried to write and struggled.

I’m coming out of a three year long art block and my drawing skills have understandably suffered from not drawing for so long so I really should be nicer to myself when im struggling to draw.

#vent sesh #art block sucks!!

[omgitsren]

Hi Sunshine 🌞 💜

#morning smoke #smoke sesh #me #selfie #send asks #send anons #personal #good morning 💜 #you are my sunshine #stoner #420stoner #pansexual #dm me if you want #my pic #venting #have the best day #might regret posting this later #hitting my manic phase #😅 #bipolar

[feralbeeast]

Not sure if anyone really noticed or cared, but I took a mini break from tumblr [and might continue it tbh] due to my brain, body, and universe all deciding to beat the shit out of me at once :b

Anyways, thought I'd pop by, say hi, I'm still alive for now 🖤 love y'all, stay safe and gay

They/Them pronouns

#im ready to dissappear in a fog of smoke #feralbeeast ramble #small vent #pansexual #nonbinary #if you like my content nows a great time to show it / tell me #depressed stoner #my pics #alt babe #self h@te #purple aesthetic #purple goth #goth punk #cripple punk #queer #lgbtqia #bpd #mental breakdown #mentally ill #420 #dms and asks are open 🖤 #smoke sesh #bpd split #weed pls help me #weed intox #aesthetic #stoner

[cheriedarliingz]

having bpd is one of the most exhausting things ever for so many reasons but mostly the idealization and the constant need for reassurance even from friends and new people. my emotional permanence goes fucking through the roof once i think someone may be avoiding me or trying to ghost me and it either causes me to push that person away by being way more sociable than usual or abandon them before they can do it for me. i am so thankful that i have friends who don't let me push them away and reel me back down to earth when it's needed but most times i am in my own head and i can't ever escape and it fucking sucks.

#asteria's shit talking sesh🎀 #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #bpd #bpd vent #bpd safe #bpd stuff #bpd shit #borderline personality disorder #actually borderline #borderline pd

[anaalnathrakhs]

getting out of my bed is ALWAYS a mistake <3

#give them an inch they'll take a mile #they always have to ruin everything #i just have to start the topic of ''uh so about dinner...'' and instead of perhaps. supposing. #that their kid struggling w various eating disorders might be already kinda stressed about the whole thing #they just go ooooooh yeah why not dine out tonight #FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU #why have you completely stopped giving a single flying shit about what might be difficult for me #the very second i started being able to control the VISIBLE UNSTOPPABLE PANIC #why does something have to be litterally the end of the world for me for you to fucking care for once #why is this the only way to have quality time with my own goddamn parents. mandated enabled binge sesh. #I KNOW IM THE PROBLEM #TRUST ME I CANNOT WAIT UNTIL WE GET OUT OF EACH OTHERS LIVES EITHER #BUT IN THE MEANTIME YOU COULD FUCKING TRY TO NOT TRAP ME INTO IMPROMPTU TORTURE SESSIONS #LESS THAN SIX MONTHS BEFORE IM OUT OF YOUR HAIR FOREVER HOPEFULLY #YOU SIGNED UP TO MAKE SOME SACRIFICES WHEN YOU HAD A KID CMON DONT GIVE UP NOW #im. god. i know i shouldnt hate them for that. they do make sacrifices and efforts. #just entierly the wrong sacrifices and efforts that don't ever fucking help #they're full of love but goddamn are they awful at raising a child #broadcasting my misery #vent

[arielsvent]

is there a version of my life where it doesn't come crashing down at age 11

#vent #ventcore #vent post #vent tag #tw self destruction #trauma coping #tw abuse #abuse victim #trauma #trauma vent #trauma victim #mentally fucked #selfharn #tw sh #sh #sh vent #ed vent #depression #depress sesh #personal vent #cw vent #vent blog

[ellzilla]

Maturity tag bc. The Words. Recreation of tonight's mood

#ruined a perfectly good day remembering that anon #my mfing scp dnd players made this months sesh so funny and then The Peace hits #only to be disturbed by memories #lizard's art #vent #ventish

[jjsanguine]

Chan: this guy keeps refusing my help talking about ""his dead niece would be ashamed of him"" — He's too optimistic.

Rose: maybe that mindset is what he needs to squeeze what happiness he can put of life.

Chan: darling, that's fake happiness. Real happiness is the notification ding of money entering your bank account.

Rose: if you're so happy, why are you angry?

Chan: because of that fool. He and his are just going to end up crushed. I'll be doing him a favour by waking him up to life's cruelty.

Rose: ...so you care about him.

Chan: :///

#Rose: ooh you like like him #chan who is literally in the middle of a tinn vent sesh with his girl best friend: 1st of all: no. 2nd of all: how dare—! #laws of attraction the series #laws of attaction #chan #rose

[yoncevevo]

!

I just woke up from one of the sweetest dreams I’ve ever had. In it, I saw one of the most lovely women I’ve ever met to date! There was also a portion of the dream where I met a really nice Samoan boy from where I’m from back in Compton. He was cute, funny and very concerned with my well being. It was a really sweet dream, but now I’m left feeling a certain type of way. I’ve recently adopted this mindset that we fight to find things that make our lives make sense because we were born with so many opposites against our natural soul’s rhythm. To explain this further, I believe I was supposed to be born a girl. That doesn’t mean I’m not supposed to be a feminine boy in this life, but I think I would’ve been more comfortable with the attention I get, the feelings I have for the same (opposite in this case) sex and just so much more if I was a girl. I remember at the early age of 4 or 5 when my Mom flat out asked if I wanted to be a girl and I said “yes!” Recent events have shown that she’s never forgotten that day and has even been secretly rooting for me to start transitioning, but that’s not what I meant back then. What I meant at that age wasn’t that I was uncomfortable in the body I was born in and wanted to dress like a girl, what I meant was I wanted to be *respected* like a girl in my daily life. My desire to be treated like a girl was never fueled by self-hate or gender confusion (no matter how the other kids and adults made it seem), but rather the desire to change society’s embedded expectations on gender itself. “If you want to be treated like a girl, look like one!” That’s what I’d expect to hear from someone I’d try explaining this to but even that proves a dangerous point. If I transitioned, that wouldn’t make me a girl, that would make me a boy who got surgery to pass in society as a girl and that within itself says a lot of things that I simply do not stand for. There’s definitely a term in before the stage of trans-ness which in my case, happens to be feminine male. I think this label needs to be respected for what it is because I’ve fought for too long and too loud to be heard with this voice (high, soft AND GIRLY AS FUCK) and strutted too fucking hard in this body to not be respected as a human being (a FEMININE-MALE Human Being) with emotions. In recent years, The World’s outcry to people who *”struggle”* to accept their identity, not because they’re uncomfortable within themselves, but uncomfortable with the parameters society has set to be recognized for what you know in your soul to be your truth.*TO ME*, transitioning will always be code for: go through a bunch of surgeries (excessive pain) to prove to the world why you, a Man, deserves to be recognized as a She in public. Instead of this gender-redefining moment that’s meant to be celebrated while the world secretly covets the fact that it made you confirm something that is already confirmed by the Law of Nature WITHOUT harmful surgery. This is also assuming that the people who would be calling you She believe in all good things for everyone ever which simply is never the case, so the pronouns people call me don’t really matter any fucking way. At my default position, I’m going to be defensive in all matter when it comes to stuff like this because I feel like I’m one of the only ones who can see something like this coming, ONLY because of my personal experiences in life. So I’m always gonna be defensive of my gay children, boys OR girls! Anyway, in closing, gender, sexuality are all personal, private matters that shouldn’t always be in everyday conversation. Especially when the people around you are incapable of receiving what’s on your heart about it because they have never and will never know this everyday battle 😄🙂

#a biiiig vent sesh! #I’m sharing a lot of things that are on my heart so please don’t call me some dumb shit like a transphobe 😑

[angelnovus]

sit around and talk for five hours parties my beloved

#i just did a giant vent sesh with four other writers it was lovely and i havent done anything like it in a while #taron.txt

[feralbeeast]

It's been one of those days💀toke extra 4 me

I'm not confident enough to really post what I've been taking so have this before I get too anxious about it

They/Them pronouns 💜🔪

#feralbeeast ramble #enby #my pics #queer #pan #polyam #stoner #nsft #alternative #asks and dms are open #they/them #me irl #t4t #wiccan #switch #thicc #androgynous #purple goth #smoke sesh #its always 420 on my blog #purple aesthetic #self conscious #🥲 body dismorphia fighting hard today #depressed stoner #mentally ill #i hate myself #vent #bpd #anxiety

[obi-wann-cannoli]

….for the record if you yell at a customer service person for 15 minutes (deserved by the company or not) you can safely assume you’ve lost any good will that customer service person had for you.

#nina has thoughts #yeah I got yelled at for 15 minutes #yeah two of our people did in fact make a mistake and not mention sales tax change #was it worth a 15 minute vent sesh at me? NO! #if he had kept it under 10 min I’d be inclined to help a bit more (his wedding is in a week so I imagine there’s stress) #but he went on for 15 minutes about a thing I cannot change. it’s sales tax. you change the shipping the sales tax changes #so ya know what sure I’ll ask they’re gonna say no are you crazy and then he’s gonna cancel #wish he would’ve cancelled on the call tbh saved us all some time #silver lining is I handled it not a more delicate member of the team #at the end of all that he says ‘hope you have a good weekend and don’t have any more crazies like me! groomzillas ya know 🤪 #took all I had not to say I hope your weekend sucks and you get gravel stuck in your shoes #I did say that when I was off the phone tho #sending bad vibes your way sir

[ariesbilly]

god bless anyone who thinks any of the wheelers are queer

i would sooner accept ted wheeler grand marshaling indiana gay pride 1988 than believe nancy is out here eating pussy. its not realistic

#briana answers things #people literally just want nancy to be gay because they hate jonathan TELL ME IM WRONG #im not. is the thing #and steve of course is everyones soft uwu waif boy #so of course hes gotta get dicked down by literally any man in the cast (but not billy oh no thats crossing the line) #anyway i guess im choosing today to have my monthly 'i hate the stranger things fandom' vent sesh lmao