#u can see this as any quadrant honestly

[serfuzzypushover]

he had to have picked up the B to 8 from SOMEWHERE 🤨

#ik its prob a reference to mindfang and dualscar #but hear me out #they made out once and cronus has bpd and got attached #while aranea does not care for him at all #u can see this as any quadrant honestly #i see it as none lol #homestuck #cronus ampora #aranea serket #cronus x aranea #art tag

[millimononym]

TAG GAME!!!

tagged by @cerisia76 thank u 4 the tag!! I didn't know who i should tag so I'm just gonna be answering this one

3 ships:

this is gonna be hard I'm in so many fandoms lol I'm gonna try to be diverse. Also this is super long

1. Eritav (Homestuck)

OUGHHH where do i start with these 2. Ok so tavros is my fave troll so naturally during the period i was reading Homestuck a lot i stared having dreams about him. And for some reason one time Eridan was also there so i was intrigued and looked into their ship tag on AO3 and found the best fic ever with like the best characterization, writing etc... Before i literally didn't give 2 shits about eridan but it made me love his character as well. It's called "Black sails, Black romance" by mtjester and it's about Tavros and Eridan developing a kismesissitude(which is basically hate love, for those that don't read hs). The reason i put a pic of them down there as moirails is because i can honestly see them in any quadrant, despite them never talking in canon.

For moirallegiance, i feel like it would start out rocky but eventually develop into something better. Tavros would actually be allowed to speak his mind and develop more confidence since i dont think Eridan would shut him down constantly like Vriska, as Eridan is desperate for his quadrants to actually work. And Eridan would obviously benefit from having someone to keep his ass in line.

I can see them developing into matesprits later from that as well.

And as for kismesissitude, well it's already getting too long and i already gave a fic rec for it.

image by urfavsarequadranted

2. Toxic4Toxic/Socket/Rocket x Sinedd whatever they're called (Galactik football)

Must i say anything. They give each other undiscovered mental illnesses and are horrible for each other and i love that for them. Rocket is my favorite character and so his arc in season 2 was most interesting to me, which includes his relationship with Sinedd. I feel like they could have done more with them in s2, but i already made a post about that.

3. Hinadam (Super Danganronpa 2)

AHHHH THEM. Contender for fave rarepair of all time and fave Danganronpa ship overall. Best fics on ao3. 0 fandom toxicity surrounding them. Should be shipped more than k0mahina. Is more canon than k0mahina(I'm gonna get torn apart for this opinion but idc!!!)

like the entire freetime events with Gundham ends with him letting Hajime hold his hand, which he never let ANYONE do due to his touch aversion. He never develops a relationship this strong with anyone, not even Sonia who is his friend in the game. Hajime is the only person he feels safe and comfortable letting down his walls with due to Hajime's genuine effort to understand him better and be his friend. It's genuinely touching to me idkk i think i cried a bit first time i saw it. I'm not going to go into spoilers but good god man...the chapter ....if you know you know

and also in the island mode ending, Gundham asks Hajime if he wants to live a quiet life with himself and his animals. How is this not shipped more they're literally so in love it's not even funny

And NO i do not ship it because gundham is the best character and Hajime is the character i relate to most. but that could be part of it

IDK who made this artwork I'm sorry

Last song:

Okay it's technically not these ones but its the ones i remember listening to most lately. It's rainbow factory and Terrible Things. Fun fact a childhood song of mine called Erase The Underground (undertale fansong) just. Straight up used rainboe factory's music and i never knew so when i listened to RF i got the biggest jumpscare of my LIFE

Last movie:

The last movie i remember watching fully was Howl's moving Castle bcz my sister forced me and i enjoyed it even though it's not one of my favorite ghibli movies or anything. It was cool

Currently reading:

Still reading Watership down! (I have no time for anything lately otherwise i would have finished it) and if Manga counts I've also started reading NANA !! and i love it tbh my favorite thing is the fashion i could feel myself getting more cultured while reading it i think

Currently watching:

There's nothing im really focused on atm but i have a list on my pinned. The big ones i would say are Adventure Time and MAR (for nostalgia purposes). I'm also watching the justice league cartoon but tbh I don't really enjoy it that much despite people saying it's great. It just doesn't hit the same heights as BTAS or have as enjoyable of a superhero team as LOSH 2006. To me. But idk maybe it gets better later

Currently drinking: waterrrrrr baby

Currently craving: school to end to end tbhhhh

#Tag game #homestuck #galactik football #sdr2 #danganronpa #Eritav #toxic4toxic #Hinadam #Rarepair #shipping #Long post #milli's monologuing #gif

[that-queer-platonic-blog]

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NAVIGATION

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Hello!!

I am Nesquik! Though u can call me Nes. I made this blog because I see too many romantic x reader and self insert blogs and I want to spice things up a little, add in some queer platonic relationships (along w more strictly platonic, familiar, ect!)

Masterlists [I'll link it when it's actually made n started]

My account will use the Quadrant System in fanfiction. If you wish to use a specific Quadrant, just ask [although I may be a lil unsteady writin kismesis, I'll adjust to it]!! I'll also use it in my tagging system. Queer Platonic Relationships will go into the Moirail tag [ ♦️quik ], and Romantic Relationships will go into the Matesprit tag [ ♥️quik ]. Rivals will be in the Kismesis [ ♠️quik ] while the Auspistice [ ♣️quik ] will be its own category uncorrelated with anything.

Short Fics: Open

Headcanons: Open

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Some fandoms I write for include:

Genshin

Ouran High School Host Club

Danganronpa

South Park

Miraculous Ladybug [though I'm behind a few seasons, I do have a good understanding of the characters!]

Homestuck

Fandoms I hope to soon write for (once I get more acquainted to the characters and practice writing them privately) are:

BNHA

Black Butler

SGT Frog (Keroro Gunso)

Pokemon

Chainsaw Man

Sonic The Hedgehog

Ace Attorney

Undertale

Evangelion

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~~RULES~~

I'm willing to write romantic relationships every now and then, but I'm hoping to focus this blog on Queer Platonic Relationships! Other types, as mentioned before [platonic, familial] will also be focused on here!

No NSFW. I've realized my mistake.

I'll do any pronouns if you ask, though if you don't I will automatically use they/them.

What I Won't Write:

Pedophilia

DD/LG

Extreme Kinks [I got a kink blog for a reason. Will I share it? No.]

Incest [if it's a part of a backstory I will include it if it's like a trauma hurt/comfort fic (cough cough Danganronpa) but otherwise will not write it in any case of main plot]

EXTREME Gore [I'm willing to do some stuff for angst. But, like, will I go to extreme details? No. Might accidentally tho but I'mma try and keep things PG-13 or whatevs here.]

No Character x Character [unless it's a poly w reader or background thing like "reader is friends w (ship)" or "reader is in qpr w (character) while they are dating (character)]

No OC x Character [I may write stuff for my OCS, and you can get overly specific within ur asks by all means, I just won't say the name of ur OC]

[TO BE ADDED]

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Most of my banners / dividers on this blog are used from this website from like 2009 and honestly it's a nostalgia trip I high-key recommend checking it if you want a blast from the internet past lolol

#self insert #x reader #♥️quik #♦️quik #♣️quik #♠️quik #🍫🥛talks #genshin imagines #danganronpa imagines #miraculous imagines #homestuck imagines #genshin impact x reader #danganronpa x reader #homestuck x reader #miraculous x reader #ouran high school host club imagines #ohshc imagines #ohshc x reader

[halfhappyhooligan]

Hi!! For the ask game, (hmestuck characters because I am cringe but I'm free!) Strilondes and Nepeta please? :))

anon idk who u are but i do know what you are /j ty for the ask ily also also long post ahead!

okie starting with roxy bc they mean the world to me <3

Sexuality Headcanon: aroace lesbian!

Gender Headcanon: genderfluid + uses all pronouns!

A ship I have with said character: not too passionate about any, i can't help but enjoy a lovely roxy/aradia :>

A BROTP I have with said character: ROXYGEN MY BELOVED!!!

A NOTP I have with said character: i dont see it as often anymore but the existence of ppl liking a romance between he and jake makes me..hmm...Unhappy !!

A random headcanon: she is a connoisseur of Marina, Paramore, and the Scary Jokes!!!

General Opinion over said character: THE CHARACTER EVER <33 LOVE OF MY LIFE and also i kin them so bad.f......but we dont talk about it<333

rose!

Sexuality Headcanon: lesbian!

Gender Headcanon: mtf gal + she/they pronouns

A ship I have with said character: rosemary is and always will be my otp for rose and kan <3

A BROTP I have with said character: ROSE AND JADE!!! i know these answers r so basic but theyre so beloved :<

A NOTP I have with said character: anything romantic with a boy!! why!!! i dont understand!

A random headcanon: consistently one of the biggest donors for AO3

General Opinion over said character: dearest more beloved <3 i love her to death

dave

Sexuality Headcanon: gay! and also on the aroace spectrum but he isn't really interested in figuring that out

Gender Headcanon: ftm + he/him

A ship I have with said character: davekat. literally whatever quadrant. any way u put it. davekat.

A BROTP I have with said character: dave and sollux + aradia !!! underrated tbh!!!

A NOTP I have with said character: honestly none, i like to think everyone overall gets along with him/has a good impression of him. of course, not including the obvious bro shit

A random headcanon: okay this is a bit anecdotal, but i once pondered neo pronouns for dave specifically.....swagself and for a good yr i rly enjoyed using that for him, and i forgot why i stopped i just remember suddenly Not Doing That anymore, so i internalized this as Dave Used Swagself Neopronouns for a year or two then decided they just werent for him for whatever reason

General Opinion over said character: THE SILLY!! i love him sm<333

dirk

Sexuality Headcanon: gay gay homosexual gay

Gender Headcanon: ftm + any pronouns with a preference to he/she

A ship I have with said character: dirkuu, started enjoying it for the funnies but then accidentally started genuinely enjoying their dynamic (lmfao)

A BROTP I have with said character: dirk and dave .....LISTEN i know its taking "brotp" literally but i love their friendship and how they know n care for each other :')

A NOTP I have with said character:

A random headcanon:

General Opinion over said character:

nepeta!

Sexuality Headcanon: bi

Gender Headcanon: cis + she/her and kittyself neos

A ship I have with said character: nep being pale with equius can mean so much to a gal.. :')

A BROTP I have with said character: nep and roxy r besties in my heart!

A NOTP I have with said character: i dont understand the appeal of nep and karkat! romantically ofc, platonically they are my beloveds

A random headcanon: she makes hella kandi and her friends support her craft sm <3

General Opinion over said character: i love her lots! (her sprites are also so dear to me)

#inbox 💌 #ask game #homestuck #roxy lalonde #rose lolande #dave strider #dirk strider #nepeta leijon

[ceabu]

Yeah, that's Miracle Child. Did you know it actually updated pretty recently? And honestly Karkat's actually pretty quick to trust and accept Gamzee being sober after the initial terror (which is understandable, as it's not clear if Karkat knew about Lil Cal). Other than that, yeah, I can see why same-caste quadrants might be a little off putting. And you're not under any obligation to reread the fic, I just really really like it and will take any opportunity I can to ramble about it.

yeah yeah i think im subscribed to the fic n saw when it updated lol

i read it like 2 years ago so im glad it got picked up again!

and i completely understand the need to ramble about the fics u love anon, trust me lol

#ceabu's asks #tbh ive read a lot of fics that i didnt really like all that much just because they had a gamzee/karkat tag lmao #i like could endure anything if only i can get a little crumb of gamkar aosidhaisodhg #i read one that was tavros/dirk and i didnt even know that was a ship lol #it was actually really good #and the gamkar in it was lovely too even if it was a little bit #but ya #ive read others that.........left me fucking 😬😬😬

[skeletorific]

YES! Marvus 6, 12, and/or 27 and Marsti 1, 8, and/or 9? I know that's a lot so u can just choose your faves if you want!

UGH YES MARSTI WRITING MUSCLES FUCKING ACTIVATE. Also I could use some meatier asks anyways (trying to recover fro castlevania s3 lmao) so I’ll do em all

Marvus Xoloto

9. What is their biggest regret?

I don’t see Marvus as being built for regret, honestly. Based on his entire speech on extra-canonicity he seems to view every failed choice as simply one more stepping stone into who you eventually become, for better or for worse. He’s done shit that, all told, he probably wouldn’t do again. No one gets out of Alternia without committing at least a few atrocities, least of all clowns. But he can’t change that. What happens is, usually, exactly what had to happen, and while he probably internalize at least a little guilt he doesn’t really see the need to make a Thing of it. Just take it, and do better next time. Call it the Seer instincts.12. Do they prefer to be asked on a date, or would they rather do the asking?

Its tricky. Marvus enjoys being chased, being desired, but he’s also very used to fielding requests with less than honest intentions. If you ask first, even if you were friends beforehand, there’s always going to be a part of him that wonders if you just got to know him for the clout. Which hey, he’s not about to shame anyone for doing what they gotta to get those $$$, but he’d just rather not mix quadrants and work.

In general I think he prefers to ask for the first date, just to dodge that particular brew of trust issues. For subsequent dates he tends to prefer being asked, though. Bonus points if you coordinate with his schedule before asking because nothing sucks the romance out of it for him like an 80 message long text chain of “I’m off this day but only for ten minutes but the day after I’m in a literal different continent and-”

27. Being alone hc

He’s a chronic extrovert, and gets cabin fever like you would not believe. Still after getting knocked out cold by a pretty severe fever/breakdown after his first tour he learned his lesson about setting aside alone time. He tries to reserve at least one weekend every two months where he is just unavailable. Doesn’t answer his phone, doesn’t check venues, doesn’t do interviews, nada. Might occasionally get someone over during those days but no one involved in his tour is allowed near his hive or whatever hotel room he’s holed up in because its gonna shift him into work mode. Its just him, a couch, some absolutely godforsaken clothes, and some shitty tv. His one exception is he does let himself write, given his tendency to absolutely forget lyrics if he doesn’t write them down right away. Still, after a couple of days he’s usually desperate to get out.

Marsti Houtek

1. What are they like at their worst?Look, complete and total alienation from your own desires isn’t exactly healthy for anybody, but Marsti strikes me as someone who has had points where she is infinitely worse. There was a time when she committed hard to that subservient lowblood role. Not only was she cleaning, but she was quiet and apologetic to any highblood looking to pick a fight. That would usually only provoke other lowbloods to get into it with her, mocking her for just caving, which would also make her apologetic. Once she got older though, I think eventually she got sick of it. She’s not breaking through of this social role any time soon: not like she’s looking to get culled for being stupid. But that doesn’t mean she has to take shit lying down. She  discovered there was a certain power in not giving a shit. The truth is most highbloods won’t consider you worth the energy to kill if you’re just lippy. Not to mention, she’s not interested in hearing it from other lowbloods who haven’t figured out what she’s always known: there’s no way out, like it or lump it. So, Marsti, at her worst? Its her giving a shit what anyone thinks. Giving that up gave her the largest fraction of power a lowblood with no psiionics and no prospects can have on Alternia.

8. Do they consider themselves dangerous?

She knows her own abilities well enough to know, she’s fucked if she ever ends up in an out and out brawl. She’s not particularly strong, has no psychic ability. Still, she doesn’t underrate herself either. She’s intelligent, adaptable, and nihilistic enough to be functionally fearless. So, while she doesn’t see herself as dangerous, she knows she’s not defenseless, which is ultimately what’s important to her.

9. What is their biggest regret?

Like Marvus, Marsti doesn’t really give herself a lot of space for regret. Doesn’t see the point to it. If she had to name one, though, probably for not studying more into medicine when she was younger. Don’t get her wrong, there was never a circumstance under which she would be able to pursue it in any meaningful way. Still, being young and naive and tearing through every book she could find on troll anatomy and disease....it was some of the best times she’s ever had, and she sometimes wishes she had indulged in it for longer before that inevitable maturity known as a “reality check” set in.

#marvus xoloto #marsti houtek #ask game #headcanon #hiveswap #hiveswap friendsim #clusband

[summahsunlight]

This Way Became My Journey, CH. 15

Two weeks after Voyager is taken from the Alpha Quadrant...

Tom Paris stumbled on his way out of the holodeck thanks to a horribly placed vending cart in Rome circa 1920. Things hadn't gone according to plan, hell they never seemed to go according to plan for him. Perhaps he should have told Harry the truth from the beginning, but Harry wouldn't have ventured down to the holodeck if he had told him the truth. So he had told a little white lie, what was the harm in that?

Apparently a lot because Harry was stalking off down the corridor to the turbolift. "Harry, wait up!"

Harry Kim shook his head. "No way, Tom. "

"Aw, come on Harry, I've been smoothing out the details for this date for days now! You can't leave me in the dust like this!"

"Oh yes I can," Harry snapped, pressing the button to call for the lift.

Tom caught up with him as the lift opened and pressed the button to send it on its way before Harry could step inside. His friend turned to glare at him. "It's the Delaney sisters, Harry, they come as a package. It's a double date or no date, Harry."

"I never agreed to a date of any kind."

"Sure you did," Tom replied. "Last night."

A blank expression passed over Harry's face. He couldn't recall ever have such a conversation. Of course, he was so tired last night he probably would have agreed to jumping out of an airlock. "I never agreed to any date last night. We ate dinner with Lieutenant Barrett, who told me to enjoy some recreational time while she was away to quell my homesickness. There was never anything about a date in that conversation Tom."

Tom grinned mercelessly. "Well, dates are recreational. You're following counselor's orders."

"She didn't order me. She suggested recreational activities," Harry fumed. "Why am I arguing with you on this? I have a girlfriend back home, I don't need to go on any dates."

"Harry, Harry, Harry, you honestly think she's going to wait for you?"

"Yes!" He exclaimed quickly.

"That's rather selfish of you, don't you think?"

"Look who's telling me about being selfish," Harry hissed. "It was rather selfish of you to think I'd go on this date so you can get with Meghan Delaney."

Tom shrugged his shoulders. "Alright, it was rather selfish of me, but you are my best friend Harry, who else would I ask to go on a double date with me?" He looked innocently at his friend. Harry rolled his eyes doing his best imitation of Sarah Barrett when Tom got this way. "Can I help it if I thought I was helping my best friend out?"

Harry grunted. "Helping me out with what?"

"Moving on!"

"Tom, we've only been out here two weeks, you think Libby's moved on that quickly?"

"Well of course not," Tom retorted, "but she's going to, eventually, Harry. You know it."

He did know it but he didn't want to acknowledge it. He wasn't ready to accept that Libby was going to move on without him, that she was going to think that he was dead. It seemed rather unfair to be so far away from home and going out on a double date with Tom when Libby was probably grieving for his loss back on Earth. Why should he be happy when he knew that his loved ones were not? Tom on the other hand didn't have this dilemma. He could care less about his family and had no girlfriend back home. Girlfriends just weren't Tom Paris' style. Harry wondered how long the chase of the Delaney sister's was going to last. He opened his mouth to speak, but no word came out.

Tom grabbed him by the arm. "Now come on, they're waiting for us and I only have forty five minutes left of holodeck time saved up."

Harry allowed Tom to pull him all the way back to holodeck, the whole time awestruck that he had every intent on not going back there but Paris found some way to drag him along. Every time, he thought as they entered the holodeck, he gets me every time with the moving on and selfish of me to think she'll wait bit. But even as he was dragged towards the candlelit table, with a very smiling Jenny Delaney, he wondered just how much trouble Tom had really gotten him into. It's going to be a long night.

The constant thrumming of the engines was soothing to him as the tiny shuttlecraft cruised along to the home world of the Karvaians. Voyager had made first contact with one of their scout ships two days before and the Captain wanted to immediately send out a diplomatic party to speak with them. The first officer had been given the mission, taken a shuttle, and departed from Voyager. Chakotay had always found that piloting a ship manually was a good source of therapy and relaxation, better than sitting in a chair and talking to a psychologist for hours on end. Maybe that was why he was having trouble getting to know Sarah Barrett.

It wasn't that he didn't like her; she was a bright young woman with a strong personality. However, she was a psychologist and whenever he opened his mouth to speak he wondered if she was taking silent notes about his mental state. It was this reason, that he was uncomfortable around her, that he believed Captain Janeway had sent them on the mission together. She was hoping that the time alone would help them work up a little bit of a rapport aside from the first officer/counselor relationship. Well, it was proving to be hard to do just that since Barrett was barely speaking to him. She had helped him with preflight and everything else that Starfleet protocol demanded of her, but once they were well on their way she had barricaded her self so to speak in the aft cabin of the shuttle, reading over PADDs.

Her eyes were narrowed, reading over the material vigorously, as if she felt that she didn't have enough time to read through it all. He recalled her concern for Neelix not being allowed on this mission, but Janeway had not felt comfortable allowing the Talaxian on another away mission just yet, not after what had happened on Ocampa with Neelix deceiving them to help rescue Kes. So, instead, Sarah had been handed stacks of PADDs on the data that Neelix had on the Karvaians right before they left.

He had been trying to get her to talk about what she was working on, to break the ice, but she had responded coldly that once she had a better grasp on Karvarian culture she would let him know, and the discussion had ended there.

But despite the lack of communication on this trip, he could see why Janeway liked the young woman so much. She could switch from hard and calculating, to soft and caring when the situation presented itself. And, he admitted, she had a wry sense of humor. But other than her personality, he didn't know much about her, except what her service record had indicated, and even then that didn't go into depth. He did know that she had a dark past, one that she was trying to turn her life around from. Like so many other people on this journey, he thought with sudden realization, as he made a course correction.

He had also tried asking her about her time at the Academy, perhaps make a connection between the two of them there. She had remarked, perhaps another time.

Looking at his panel he concluded that had been over two hours ago, just after they had cleared Voyager and been on their way to Karva. They would be reaching the planet in about thirty minutes. "Captain Janeway tells me you were a part of a team that studied the Borg," he spoke up, hoping to get something from her. It seemed that if they didn't have the integration of the Maquis into Voyager's crew to talk about, then they had nothing to talk about. And he didn't know why, but that bothered him.

"I was the head psychologist on a research vessel that composed of some of Starfleet's top engineers, science officers, and doctors," came her subdued reply. "Our mission was to collect as much information about the Borg as we could, such as their psyche and their technology and bring it back to Starfleet in the hopes that a better defense against the Borg could be made and spare us from another disaster like Wolf 359."

"Really? What made you want to study the Borg?" Chakotay asked her, brown eyes peering up for only a few seconds. "They aren't exactly the warmest species in the galaxy to be hanging around with."

"My mother was killed at Wolf 359," Barrett replied, a bit of pain etched in her voice. "I guess I wanted to justify the reason they had killed her."

Her answer had deadpanned the conversation, just when he felt like he was getting somewhere with her. The console blared suddenly and the ship lurched to the left. Perplexed, Chakotay corrected their course thinking that they had run into some form of spatial distortion; another blare and an even more violent lurch.

"A ship just appeared off of our port nacelle. They're firing on us," Barrett announced. She had jumped up from her seat in the aft cabin and into the one besides Chakotay. Her fingers were running over the console. "I don't understand why sensors didn't pick them up coming in!"

"I've never seen this type of ship before, it's not Karvaian," Chakotay said. "I'm going to try out running them. Try hailing them on all frequencies."

"No response," Sarah replied as the shuttle was hit again, this time causing sparks to emit from the conduits.

The shuttle craft in reality was no match for the alien ship. The readings were showing them that they were up against a ship that had vast technological advances, superior to their own, but perhaps, if they could get in communications range of Karva, their new friends could assist them. But with the next hit, the port nacelle caught fire, sending the shuttle into a downward spiral. Chakotay tried to right the shuttle with the only engine he had, as smoke filled the cabin. Barrett was screaming that the aliens were trying to take out their engines, causing the hull to breach around the nacelle, in affect, ripping it off the tiny ship. They were hurtling towards the surface of a small planetoid.

"Can we land?" Chakotay asked her.

"Land?" Barrett repeated. "We're going to crash before we do that!"

"Is the atmosphere compatible for us?"

"It's a Class L atmosphere," Barrett replied, sapphire eyes roaming the readings the computer was giving her. "The surface consists mostly of mountains and rock, not a lot of water; high concentrations of carbon dioxide. Can we survive down there? Yes, but that's only if we survive the crash first."

Chakotay shook his head, looking at the controls determinedly. "We're not going to crash."

Sarah looked up him skeptically. "How can you say that?" Her body lurched about violently as the tiny ship entered the atmosphere. "We only have one engine and those aliens are doing everything they can to take the other one out! Commander, if we hit the rock at this speed it will tear the ship apart and us with it!"

"Not if I can help it!"

"Commander! Even if we survive the crash or landing as you put it, we don't know if those aliens will come after us," Barrett pointed out. They had only been in this part of space for a couple of weeks, but already they had learned that most of the species in this quadrant weren't friendly, the Kazon, for example, were not to be trifled with and they hadn't gotten off on the best of terms with them.

"We're going to make it look like we've been destroyed. On my command I want you to vent the plasma," Chakotay instructed her, eyes running over his console, trying to find a good place to put the shuttle down. They were coming in fast towards a very rocky region. It was not going to be a smooth landing. "Hang on!" he cried out as the aliens fired across their bow. Sparks emitted from the aft cabin and he could see Barrett gripping the console, however she held a calm expression. No doubt it was something that she had learned while studying the Borg. Who knew that experience was going to come in handy now?

"Chakotay, we're going in too fast," the Counselor rasped out, anxiously.

"Unidentified ship, surrender."

Chakotay slapped at the comline. He didn't want to hear them implore surrender. They weren't out of tricks just yet. If they were lucky the alien ship wouldn't follow them into the atmosphere. The shuttle began to quake violently as it entered the upper atmosphere. "Vent the plasma, Sarah, and target phasers on it. Fire when I tell you too."

"But that would ignite the plasma," Sarah said, even as she followed through with his orders.

"I know, I want them to believe that we've burnt up in the atmosphere."

"I hope you know what you're doing," Sarah replied.

Me too, Chakotay thought as the shuttle hurtled faster and faster towards the surface. "Fire now!"

Phasers burst forth from the shuttle craft, igniting the plasma into a fireball behind them. The alien ship backed off, whether or not they believed that the shuttle had indeed exploded and were avoiding exploding themselves, the two officers couldn't be sure. They had other problems. Chakotay noticed on his fading sensors that the alien ship was reversing course. For the time being the threat had been eliminated, but now they were spiraling out of control towards a rocky planet. "Dispatch an automated distress signal to Voyager!"

Sarah moved about so she could record a message and send it to Voyager. It was brief, seeing how they didn't have much time before the ship hit the surface, but she hoped that it was effective. Turning back towards the Commander she only had a few moments to grip the console as he cried out to brace for impact.

Despite Chakotay's best efforts, and even though he managed to slow the ship's descent, the shuttle hit the rocky soil hard and both officers felt their bodies being thrown about against the panels and controls as the shuttle tore a path through the rock. It swayed back and forth, first the port nacelle was sheared off, and then the starboard nacelle came ripping off as well, exploding in a ball of flame that sent both Chakotay and Sarah flying from their seats as the shuttle slammed into a solid rock wall. In a blinding flash of light, both officers were knocked unconscious, the shuttle coming finally to a stop, crumpled against a mountain side.

He awoke with the taste of blood in his mouth and smoke in his eyes. Chakotay blinked, trying to take in his surroundings. The lights were flickering on and off, the consoles as well, and the memories began to return to his jostled mind. Rising up on to his elbows he peered out the view port. The shuttle was in shambles, but lucky for them, the shields had held long enough to protect them from the fires and explosions of the nacelles. Now, they were rested against a solid bed of rock. It hadn't been his best landing, but at least they had managed to get down in one piece.

They. He suddenly realized that he had no idea where Sarah was. Turning about, which sent a shooting pain up his right leg, he tried to locate her. She was a few feet from him, plasma burns covering a part of her face and hands. There was a huge gash across her cheek and she did not appear to be breathing. Grabbing the emergency medical kit he pulled out the tricorder and ran the hand scanner over her body. She was breathing and alive, but she had not faired as well as he had when it came to the crash landing.

She had several broken ribs, one had punctured a lung. The burns on her face and hands were second degree plasma burns that he could easily treat with a deremial regenerator, but that was the least of his concerns, she had suffered massive internal bleeding as well. If Voyager did not find them and find them soon, the young woman was going to die. Her eyes opened then and she looked at him, confused.

"We made it?"

"We made it," Chakotay replied, helping her sit up slightly. She winced in pain. "You were injured in the crash."

"How bad?" Sarah asked, trying to grit her teeth and bear the pain.

"Nothing too serious," he lied to her, reaching in the medical kit for a hypospray.

"You're a terrible liar; didn't they teach how to lie with the Maquis?"

He laughed, giving her a warm smile. "Should have known I couldn't fool you," he whispered, pressing the hypospray to her neck. "Here this will help with the pain. I'm afraid that's all I can do for now, besides treat your burns. You need surgery."

She nodded her head as the pain began to dull. "What about Voyager?"

Chakotay shook his head. "I'm not sure our message was received and I'm not sure I can send another one. It looks like our systems took heavy damage." He wiped some sweat from his brow and glanced around the cabin. He wasn't sure how they were going to get out of this one. Pulling himself up to his feet he moved towards the communication panel and saw that it was burnt out, probably where Sarah had received the burns from. So much for trying to send another message out to Voyager; he realized that even if he were able to get another message out, the aliens that had attacked them may pick the transmission up and come back to finish them off. Then they'd be in more trouble then they were now.

It was best to try and survive on this planet and wait for Voyager to find them. Glancing at Sarah he wondered how much time she could hold out. He wasn't a doctor, knew some basic first aid, but even he knew that she didn't have time on her side. One thing was for sure, they were going to need something to keep them warm and water. They had enough emergency rations to last them a few days, but a quick glance at the systems told him that the replicator was down and so weren't environmental controls. Once they lost the sunlight, it was going to get cold in that tiny shuttle. He grabbed a tricorder and a phaser. "I'm going to go look for water and something to start a fire with."

"You really think we'll be here that long?"

"There's no telling how long we'll be here," Chakotay responded, opening the hatch. Before he left he turned about and offered her a smile. "Don't go anywhere while I'm away."

A small, pain filled smile spread across her face. "Don't worry, Commander, I won't."

#star trek voyager #star trek voyager fanfiction #kathryn janeway #chakotay #tom paris #sarah barrett (oc) #tuvok #harry kim #b'elanna torres #kes #neelix #the doctor (emh) #janeway x chakotay #tom paris x ofc #this way became my journey

[oneirictrolls]

I can't send symbols on phone but heart spade diamond for jarvis and zero. >>

jarvis

❤️- mmmm im not too sure on this one first of all there’s gotta be a lotta trust involved. jarvis already doesn’t take too kindly if you’re not from around the forest areas esp if you’re someone to do harm in said area. he’s also difficult to get into his softer side cuz he really is a sweetheart ! just got a cold shell that’s just cause since he was a wriggler he’s always been the type to keep his guard up. also i guess being that he’s always outside, be a nature kind of person? and be confident with yourself, don’t be a quitter show that you got a spine. dont’ be afraid to put your foot down even if he’s in the wrong. be passionate about your interests, don’t fake being into something just to impress him. he likes honesty and seeing the person as themselves. also be okay w him sleeping on u lol smh

♦️ - gotta be someone that can soothe him and keep his anger on the low. he’s got a tendency to get a lil crazy sometimes esp when he shifts into full werewolf mode... tell him things are okay from time to time he can get kind of unnerved which he hates bc he’s always grown to understand being weak is bad and can get you killed he’s had an abusive lusus so. also do stuff with him! he does a lotta errands and chores so even if its just you accompanying him he’ll enjoy having someone to talk to while he works. even cooking together he enjoys!

♠️ - omg honestly just be the most annoying person u can be. but also someone that can challenge him n butt heads often cuz if you’re just a twig man thats just death for you. get into arguments with him, like back n forth kind of shit lol esp when you’re calling him wrong in a problem when he’s giving a solution he’s gonna be dumbfounded and be like wym. also helps more if you’re from the city LOL he already dislikes u

zero

❤️ - in all honesly zero’s quads are unavailable unless there is some way we can make things work. especially that zero is artificially made through DNA splicing and built to kill that’s how it’s gonna end with the other person. zero can’t really experience any other or genuine feelings for another person. unless you were someone made in the same facility being able to endure their chaotic tendencies then idk! but being that they have special restraints on them that keep them from doing more harm than they’re capable of i guess............... u can still try? i imagine their red quad wouldn’t act as it normally would. it’d be more like you’re a favorite type of thing. they like you more than other so they bother you more often than others. and it’s not a haha cute thing it’s more disturbing since....... zero’s natural aura is being scawy.

♦️ - i really don’t know what else to type for the other quads cuz it all applies the same. i’m not even sure if zero understands the concept of quadrants tbh !

♠️ - u just die

#dilftrolls

[shiny-armin]

3803 doesn’t look like she’s gonna do something anytime soon. NEUTROPHIL, SIR WAKE UP! -No probs I like your responses a lot too! I think the issue is that the two have a different pic on their dybamic, maybe? When you get too it, 1146 probably feels closer to 3803 on a emotional level then 3803 does to him. 3803 isn't privy to 1146's life as he is to hers. A lot if this has to do with the fact 1146 stalks and spies on her w/o her knowledge. XD He saw her struggles with her job and mentoring.-

2. unbeknownst to her, he's helped her grow and conquer her hurdles. He's seen her sad but also strong. 1146 has had a lot of opportunity to become really invested in her life as he studies her struggles and witnesses her victories. On the other hand, 3803 hasn't ever let 1146 in to these private matters. Also 1146 doesn't share any of his life with her. Not the deeper stuff like his worries over Cancer or the stress 4989 worries about over him. I think 3803 is naturally a private person too.-

3. She's pretty independent and likes keeping her deeper concerns to herself. But I also think she senses a distance between her and 1146 in this area. Since he never tells her anything about himself so she's content this is their relationship. Which brings us back to 1146 who probably feels way more emotionally connected to her then she does him. That's why he has the big crush on her while she's clueless/more mysterious. Might be why I think 1146 needs to be the one who makes them closer.

4. Lol yeah. I can see 1146 finally figuring out what 3803 would be comfortable with (I hc she'd be comfy with him being as handsy as he wanted since she trusts/likes him so much). Then one day he launches himself at her with the same gusto he goes after germs and makes out with her just such intensity she's blown away in silent amazement. He's so affection needy I think he'd love kissing her constantly (in privacy). Probably even tease her back by kissing he midsentence when she's pouty w/him.

5.  I think 1146 would be usually submissive around her- Totally this too. He's already whipped when it comes to her. That or this lovesick puppy who trots after her. Anyone who knows them knows 3803 is the assertive one. 1146 likes getting assertive in privacy when it comes to affection. But he likes her taking the lead unless he starts thinking he need to (he hates thinking 3803 might think she's doing all the work in the relationship).

6. 3803 doesn’t look like she’s gonna do something anytime soon. NEUTROPHIL, SIR WAKE UP!- Lol makes me wonder if the trigger for him will be jealously? Maybe she'll start getting shop teased w/some one else. If not, he starts to see her acting far closer/open w/a new friend and that makes him start revaluating his own friendship with her. Is he happy w/things as they are or does he want them to become closer. How does he bridge their gap and does he want to burden her w/his private thoughts?

7.  I mean, she gets his aloof boyfriend becoming a clingy mess out of the blue,- 1146 would be the biggest cuddle bug ever. No one else would believe it, but he'd be that type that'd cling to 3803 like a octopus and give her over the top cuddles. He'd be sooo clingy. If sitting in his lap like a princess or encaged in his arms while he smooches her is how he wants to spend his evening, she's alright with that (after some rough days sometimes he'd rather just snuggle). X)

Hi! Yeah, they both have a different insight on their relationship. 3803 feels a bit more dettached since he keeps a lid on his private affairs, I think. Again, due to lack of communication /sighs/, and of course, without 1146′s spying skills he wouldn’t know half of what he actually knows about her lol.

Talking about that, I discussed with a friend why would he help her from the shadows without any apparent reason, and we realized he may have been doing it so he could ‘return’ the favor he owed her, since she beckoned all the immune cells to the cancer battle in the previous episode. Maybe that’s the reason behind all that stalking, or maybe he did it out of mere concern/curiosity.

But I also think she senses a distance between her and 1146 in this area. Since he never tells her anything about himself so she's content this is their relationship. You said it, anon. It’s like he peeked into her chamber of secrets furtively, and he keeps his own locked up. So in order to get things moving, he has to give in and let her get closer.

Oooh about all that cuddling topic, I’ve tried to mentally fill a ‘my ship in 5 minutes’ template for them (I can’t add images, if you search for it in google it’ll show up) and I’m not really sure about some answers. In the ‘how it happens’ chart, where do you think 3803 would go? I’d put her somewhere between unintentionally and falls in love slowly, but at first sight also makes some sense??? send help. 1146 would be 100%  in the corner between falls in love slowly and tries to get closer. Also, do u think 3803 would be quick or slow when forgiving? I can see her on both sides depending on the situation, maybe a bit more on the needs time side. I think 1146 would be the one to forgive easily, but still I’m unsure. In the attachment chart, 1146 would fall on over-protective/separation anxiety quadrant lol, it just screams his personality.

Lol makes me wonder if the trigger for him will be jealously? Honestly I can see him getting jelly. I don’t think it’d be the best way to encourage him, since he could start acting over-protective and call it a day. But yeah, maybe it’d cause him to mull things over in his head and get things straight.

Why would 3803 ever need a pillow when she has her own giant teddy bear? I think 1146′s extreme clinginess would be their little secret, literally will beg her to not tell his friends or he would be prodded to death. It’s become his fav plan to spend off-duty evenings c:

#caw #answered #fawn talks

[huahsu]

YEAR OF THE BUTTERFLY

previous years: A SONG THAT DEGRADES EACH TIME YOU PLAY IT :: 2018 A CHURCH AND JOHN LENNON’S “IMAGINE” :: 2017 SIKH DEVOTIONAL MUSIC :: 2016 SPOOKY BLACK :: 2015 this year: I’ve spent the past few months working on a book that I’ve always wanted to write but never figured I’d make the time for. At a really basic level, it’s about listening to music with friends. A couple weeks ago, I devoted a few days to reading a stack of books and articles about the emotional experience of music. They were written by philosophers, critics, cognitive scientists, historians. I took from them two overarching questions. First, what does it mean to assign a piece of music a feeling, like “happy” or “sad?” Is the song itself “sad,” or does it just model a kind of sadness proximate to how we feel? What elements of a song do this? The fraying of a voice? Minor keys? Tempo? Is it all a trick of memory? None of the answers really satisfied me, since music is such an intimate thing. A song makes us feel a way for reasons that are often either blindingly obvious or remote and mysterious. An expert can tell you that humans are wired to feel joy when a certain configuration of notes are struck in tandem, but maybe it just reminds you of looking at the front door.

The other question was whether music itself facilitates any unique emotional possibilities--a mode of feeling that we can’t get anywhere else. Music doesn’t mimic the real world, it doesn’t make arguments. One writer suggested that the thrill of music was its capacity to remind you, foremost, that music can thrill you. In essence, each time we hear something new and feel something, we are being reminded of all the times we’ve felt this way before. We’re living in the echo of a former enchantment. Maybe you’ll hear it again, process it, assign it a genre or context, and the mystique evaporates. But music is one of those things that doesn’t happen on our time. We don’t stand in front of it and train our gaze on this quadrant or that. We don’t flip back to make sure we didn’t miss something. You can’t slow it down as it is happening, you merely let it happen. 

In the spring, the Museum of Chinese in America in Manhattan showed “The Moon Represents My Heart,” an exhibition I worked on with MOCA’s curators, Herb and Andrew. The basic idea was to look at all the ways music had enriched immigrant life, from early opera troupes touring America’s Chinatowns to karaoke bars, church choirs, and after-school violin lessons, fifties doo-wop trios to garage punks and self-taught dance music producers. There’s no legible tradition of Chinese American music so we just wanted to present it as a textured and everyday thing--the experience of the fan could be as legitimate as that of a Mando-pop superstar. While working on the show, people would often ask me for a playlist, but I didn’t really have any to share. It wasn’t really about the music itself, which could sound derivative or amateur to some. It was about the fact that they sought to express themselves through music, in contexts that made them outliers and oddballs. I came to love all the music in our show because of that second-hand thrill--that sense that these moments had been deeply meaningful to everyone in the room. 

You can hear it in the voice of Stephen Cheng, who ended up being the show’s most memorable star. He put out a rocksteady gem in the sixties and then spent the next decade in New York trying to get the Dragon Seeds, his Chinese “folk-rock” band, off the ground. Cheng died years ago, but Andrew found his children, who brought some reels of unreleased music to the museum. I remember staring at them, wondering what was on them. It was a kind of anticipation and wonder that I often miss, when the operative feeling I associate with music-listening on the internet is the frenzy of opening and closing windows, clicking links, proving my humanity to a captcha.

Stephen’s singing wasn’t great, but it was perfect. His version of “Yesterday,” all warbly and over-the-top, has now supplanted the original for me. Somehow, we played some of Stephen’s songs on the radio, including one about butterflies and love. Somehow, one of the people listening was a butterfly expert, and he was about to marry another butterfly expert. Who knew such a song was possible, the groom-to-be told me. Stephen was too obscure to be properly forgotten. Or maybe his song was just dormant all these years. It awaited just the right listener, and now, over forty years later, he would get his propers, sandwiched somewhere between the vows and Kool and the Gang, a couple minutes of people scratching their heads, searching for the right smile, saying Can you believe this? to one another.

### TEENAGE DREAM

Warren Defever/His Name is Alive, All the Mirrors in the House

EXCELLENT USE OF “P.S.K.” Kindness feat. Robyn, “Warning” EXCELLENT USE OF A TELEPHONE Mavi, “Guernica” TECHNICALLY 2018, BUT TAIWAN’S ANSWER TO COIL, JOY DIVISION, ETC SEN, “The Cicada” SAME (2018) BUT TAIWANESE DREAMBOAT VIBES Linion, “Can’t Find” ANOTHER, KINDA BILLY BRAGG-Y Wayne’s So Sad, “Wanderer’s Guide to Taipei” SUMMER IN TAIWAN, AND SO I BOUGHT A LOT OF CDs, INCLUDING THE LIMITED EDITION SIGNED 9M88 DEBUT 9m88, “Love Rain” THEY ARE VERY INTO THE “FUTURE SOUL” THING Andrea, “You Better Kiss Me” THIS GUY HAS THE SAME NAME AS MY COUSIN Yo Lee demos LOTS OF BACKPACKS Hsien, Lately AMAZED TO SEE LIM GIONG REISSUES THERE, THIS IS THE DANCE ALBUM HE RECORDED IN 1994 IN THE UK BEFORE BRINGING RAVE CULTURE BACK TO TAIWAN Lim Giong, Entertainment World (IF YOU ARE UNFAMILIAR WITH LIM GIONG, THIS IS THE GREATEST SONG EVER Lim Giong, “A Pure Person) AND HERE’S 9m88 COVERING “PLASTIC LOVE” 9m88, “Plastic Love” AIR SUPPLYERS Oso Leone, Gallery Love Sunset Rollercoaster, Vanilla Villa I ENJOYED THIS WHEN IT CAME OUT BUT HONESTLY FORGOT IT CAME OUT THIS YEAR, OR THAT I ENJOYED, BUT FOR THE LONGEST TIME MY “2019″ EMAIL DRAFT JUST READ “CHIEF KEEF HNIA KAIL MALONE (sic)” Chief Keef and Zaytoven, GloToven

ANOTHER DEVASTATING DUO Pink Siifu and Akai Solo, Black Sand

MYSTIC CHORDS OF MEMORY Kali Malone, The Sacrificial Code Clarice Jensen, Drone Studies I AM A SLOW WALKER, BUT I NEVER WALK BACKWARDS Michael Vincent Waller, Moments ana roxane - ~~~ A THOUSAND POINTS OF LIGHT Caleb Giles, Under the Shade Medhane, Own Pace WE ARE THE ONES WE HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR Angel Bat Dawid, The Oracle Art Ensemble of Chicago, We are on the Edge READ JOSEPH JARMAN Joseph Jarman, Black Case I and II RESPECT YOURSELF Helado Negro, This is How You Smile Deb Never, “Swimming” LET’S DO IT AGAIN Tommy Holohan & Casper Hastings- RVE001 Eris Drew, Raving Disco Breaks LET’S DO IT AGAIN AGAIN, BUT SMEARED Burial, Tunes 2011-2019 OR PERHAPS YOU WERE THERE Callisto, Guidance is Eternal, Part I PERHAPS YOU WERE THERE FOR MICROHOUSE AND PEAK MEGO AND BLOGS Barker, Debiasing AT A WAREHOUSE PARTY, ABLE TO HEAR TOO MANY FLOORS, ROOMS, SOUNDS AT ONCE, IN A GOOD WAY Dies Smely, “Neptune Rises” AT A WAREHOUSE PARTY, BUT THINKING ABOUT PLUNDER, THE TRAIL OF TEARS, THE SANCTITY OF EARTH Kelman Duran, 13 Month A KIND OF BLUE Steve Hiett, Down on the Road by the Beach POSSIBLY MY MOST PLAYED ALBUM, 2019 Galcher Lustwerk, Information R.I.P. PRINCE, FOREVER AND ALWAYS Serpente, Parada Moodymann, Sinner Nelson Bandela, Purprain THE OPPOSITE OF “I AM A GOD” Nelson Bandela - “i'm mortal” YOU GOT ME Shane Eagle feat. Santi and Bas, “Vanya” HARD TO BELIEVE JAZMINE SULLIVAN REMAINS SO OVERLOOKED Kindness feat Jazmine Sullivan, “Hard to Believe” WATCH FOR THE HOOK Quando Rondo, “Gun Powder”

ANTE UP Polo G feat Lil Tjay, “Pop Out” “PANTS GON BE SAGGIN TIL I’M FORTY” Freddie Gibbs and Madlib, “Thuggin”

“WHY THEY LET THE TERMINATOR WIN THE ELECTION?” Sault, “Why Why Why Why Why”

HOLLOW BONES Showbiz and Milano, “Guillotine” LADI LUV, “GOOD TO THE LAST DUB” City Girls, “Act Up” MONEY BOSS PLAYERS Benny the Butcher feat 38 Spesh and Jadakiss, “Sunday School” Roc Marciano, “Richard Gear” WARP 30 (1989-2019) Droop-E, “The Droop-E Way” INTERSTELLAR SPACE, PROBABLY KILLER LIVE Blacks’ Myths, Blacks Myths II ALICE NEVER WENT ANYWHERE Sam Wilkes, “Sivaya” Alice Coltrane, Live at the Berkeley Community Theater 1972 RIYL: LYRICHORD, EFFECTS PEDALS Seungmin Cha, Nuunmuun RIYL: EFFICIENCY, INTERLUDES Solange, “Binz” “WHO HERE IS STILL LISTENING TO JOHNNY MAY CASH’S “DRUGS” IN 2019?” Playboi Carti, “Molly” “MOLLY” CZ Wang and Neo Image, “Just Off Wave”

YOU’VE SUBSCRIBED TO “UK STREETSOUL YOUTUBE PLAYLIST” Apiento feat Harriet Brown, “Down That Road” WHERE WERE U IN 2092? Jai Paul, “He”

LIL B, INNIT Voldy Moyo, Paper World SCREAMADELICA Vampire Weekend, “Harmony Hall” Humeysha, Nusrat on the Beach FOLKTRONICA Aldous Harding, “The Barrel” TOO PURE Springfields, Singles 1986-1991 MY AQUARIUM Rod Modell, Captagon ANOTHER WORLD IS POSSIBLE Vagabon, Vagabon 4-TRACK TWEE BEDROOM COVERS OF BLINK-182′S DUDE RANCH Colleen Green, Blink-182′s “Dude Ranch” as Played by Colleen Green

KINDA AS THOUGH A PART OF MY 2016-19 LP PURCHASES FORMED THEIR OWN BANDS Anunaku, Whities 024 75 Dollar Bill, I Was Real Joshua Abrams and Natural Information Society, Mandatory Reality

JUST 30 OR SO GECS Cool Fang, Sparring I’M A DEADHEAD BUT FOR STANDING ON THE CORNER SOTC Art Ensemble, SOTC Double Bass Ensemble * Merciful Allah Black Hole Theater * 4/24/19 SOTC Art Ensemble, Variation 9 * Merciful Allah Black Hole Theater * 4/27/19

SONG OF THE SPRING, SUMMER, WINTER, YEAR, STILL UNDEFEATED

[theboardedbird]

Jaipur Diaries: My solo experience in the “Pink City”

I was a bit scared, was on a long solo trip for the first time, there was a mix of excitement and helplessness. The Jaipur station was big, people were flowing like a river, some excited, some tensed, and I was just someone observing them.

Out of the station, I got a 3 wheeler in sharing to “Rawat Bhandaar”. Don’t judge me, it was 10 AM in the morning and I didn’t have breakfast! The Rajasthani dialect was already tickling in my ears- “Khamma Ghani Bhaisaa, udhar koni jaara”. Apparently the 3-wheeler drivers have more attitude than most of the girls -_-

“Ahhhh” is the next sound I remember.

The “Piyaz Kachori”, crusty from the outside and squishy at heart, topped with a characteristic and powerful taste, was much tastier than all the admiration I heard of.

Piyaz Kachori: Rawat Bhandaar

And here I was standing again on the road, stomach-full, sleepless, carrying 7 kgs of weight in an Adibas(Read again) bag that was apparently a “Rucksack” in my castle of thoughts. I started off towards Nahargarh fort, taking multiple commutes, and ultimately reaching on a foothill that was not-so-surprisingly the farthest from the peak. Only 2 wheelers were allowed further because of the steepness and narrowness of the path. The result- I was supposed to climb ~4 KMs uphill, with my lovely 7 kgs Rucksack, a laptop backpack, and a mind full of confidence from out-of-nowhere, you know the 56 inches chest.

Go Go Go!

I went uppp upp up u…… 1 km and I was exhausted -_- Damn Adibas! The locals were at par in competition with girls and 3 wheeler drivers, or maybe they considered me a statue giving them thumbs up on the way.

A few moments under the sun later…

I found a “Dev Manush”, the savior, god’s messenger, a guy with scooty who accepted my request! Surprisingly, he was an employee at Amazon, an IIM Bangalore pass out, on a trip with his colleagues. We had discussions on various topics along the way until it reached to the awkward “Umm….Yeah”s.

Inside View of Nahargarh Fort

Nahargarh fort holds a scenic view, with old-looking but managed architecture, but not managed enough to prevent potheads in the shady areas -_- One can see the bird’s view of Jaipur from the top of the fort, including the shades of pink it is famous for.

Scenic View from Nahargarh fort

But, for me it was like a gangster’s house, I didn’t know how will I manage to go back. Taking the alternate route would mean a private taxi. But the solo, independent animal inside me was still alive. I took a lift from a Gujrati family, down the hill there wasn’t even a single minute in which I didn’t speak. We didn’t talk much, but my job as a Gujrati to Hindi translator kept me engaged. They even offered me a PPO!

Bus Karo!

What does a bus-stop do? Provides a platform for buses to stop and exchange the passengers, right? In Jaipur, like many other cities, the definition is limited to exchanging the passengers only! It took me ~45 minutes to board a bus that I could have boarded within 5 minutes if I knew the Jaipuri definition.

Disclaimer: There was no wind!

Entering the Hawa Mahal was like exploring a movie set. There was nothing much behind the scenes. This view looks good-

Inside View of Hawa Mahal

But this is the only view that looks good except the CCD inside. Everything else was just like any other old house in Rajasthan. But still, the feel, with shades of trees was good enough to read a chapter or two.

The Natural Clock

After roaming in each and every corner of City Palace, I found out that I am unable to pass my time effectively. What if somehow my telecom’s time is stuck? To clarify this, I went to “Jantar Mantar”, the place where we can calculate the current time from the position of shades of some special sculptures. There were multiple yantras or sculptures, whose shadows helps up calculate other astronomical positions apart from time too. I gave it a try, after Googling the process obviously, but- ” The shadow of the triangular wall of the yantra, which is positioned in the north-south direction with an angle identical to the latitude of this location, travels equal distances in equal intervals of time, on the eastern and western quadrants. ”

And just beside the Yantra, I found a British old man, generous enough to tell me the time in his watch-_-

Chillaxing at Jantar Mantar

The place was really beautiful, I found a comfortable space under a tree, in an attempt to start reading. While buying a coffee, I came across an American guy next to me on the cafeteria’s counter, who was careless enough to not even check how much money he is giving to the greedy receptionist. I know there might be a possibility that considering my coolness, he has given me a 90% discount, but remember! These are my own experiences and not some loony toons.

Khichdi, Sabudaane ki!

Faalahar | Falaahar | Falahaar- it was either one of these I am sure.

A small chain of roadside-shop, that served hygenic traditional food. I tried this “Sabudaana Khichdi”, and no, it wasn’t at all a for-sick-people dish. Sabudaana was a common ingredient in many of their dishes, including sabudaana vada(Yumm..), etc. For the sake of sweets, I had Shrikhand, an interesting dish made up of strained curd.

Thanks to my 7 kgs Abidas rucksack, I was damn tired, but my train was a couple of hours later. I didn’t know where to go! So asked one of my oldest and most loyal friend- Google, and she/it directed me to the nearest Albert Hall Museum. Well, till the time I reached the point where the museum was “just visible”, I found out that it was closed that day due to some maintenance process.

Albert Hall Museum

The view that I witnessed on the way was nothing less than heaven for a person in that situation. I paused there for a moment, peacefully observed the flow of traffic before heading towards the railway station.

Bye Bye Jaipur!

I never thought I’d cite a Tuktuk co-passenger story. But yeah, the uncle sounded very intellectual and we had a decent talk. He was a Jaipuri, and to my surprise(actually not), his son was also preparing for JEE. Due to this fact, it boiled down to just another consulting session. But honestly saying, I love those. Ahh, the respect you get! Sometimes so much that your co-passenger end up paying your travel expense even after a lot of persuasions. I now I should have accepted it as it was out of courtesy, but at that time I felt like I am charging for the little chit-chat we had during the ride.

And finally, it was time to give a rest to my Abidas and get down into my dreams. But, remember, I was travelling in Indian Railways! And just like most of the sleeper berths, my berth’s windowpane was also broken.

It’s an experience I’ll always remember, Being one of the Indian Railway’s passenger. On cold night in the month of December, Trying to sleep with a body that’s tender.

I decided to wrap myself in a ‘Loyi’, Repelling myslef away from the cold alloy. Lying there like a compact troy, Waiting for Udaipur to meet my boi

My Udaipur Experiences

Checkout the blog post on my experiences at the next stop- Udaipur! . .

I have also written my Udaipur experiences > here < I know you also wish to someday go there Don’t worry I won’t forget to do the prayer On your part, it’d lovely if you can do a simple share. Adios! I am gonna plan again to go somewhere.

P.S.: I have also written a detailed travel guide on Jaipur. Checkout >here<

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[mallek-adalover]

Hey what are your psychic Mallek thoughts

SO

I love the idea of him HAVING psychic mind controling shit but not using UNLESS he’s in danger and he does without noticing (IDK Someone attacking him and he use it accidentally to them stop enough for him to either figure out he doing and using time at his side with this to escape)

If a S/O in any of his quadrants insists a lot for him to use (taking kissmesis out of equation, this one he MIGHT put on this on his own but prolly after he got any kind of confirmation that it isnt a bad thing for them)

Mostly bcs he feels quite morally wrong on using them, like if he ever saw Ardata on internet (Big probably) He knows what these stuff can do, he is capable of doing this but its a bit horrifying the idea. (I mean if you see Ardata yeah thats a pretty big nope in your life) SO HE DOESNT USE MUCH

I COULD put this in a other side in which he might use mind control for things that he think he knows better for his either friends s/o wtvr. Like forcing you to sleep bcs damn its late and u gotta go.

Things that he might have good intentions but its manipulative as hell and uh, abusive too? So yeah after having this big fight with him he’ll get that okay, he might not be using for like literal torture or enslaving people. BUT Its not okay at all and it takes the choice out no matter how good he might think it is! 

So with the talks and explaining he wouldnt do this shit again!

Its two takes we get from here but I’m for drama and learning from mistakes and to better yourself! I like both of ‘em honestly but you can take which one you can take best.

One being him refusing to use this unless incredibly lots of talk and trust or danger he gotta go

ooor

He using it in a way that make you guys have intimate talk about bondaries, maybe a lil fight till he get that it aint cool, he apologize a lot be way tip toe and yall get better and in a better relationship!

#mallek adalov #mallek friendsim #mallek hiveswap #hiveswap mallek #hiveswap #friendsim #imagines #ask #anonymous #my posts #dont get me wrong it is awful idea and not that fluff he doing that shit on second take #but i like because of reconciliation and to be better after listening #which HE FUCKING DOES #IS GREAT MAN #hmmm might do one with alba #been thinking these days the route this blog will take #bcs im in my fucking tip toes on posting more ocs interacting with trolls that aint mallek #and thoght of maybe making this a hs general blog #but still thinking abt it #me: CRINGE CULTURE IS DEAD #also me: Is it too much if I start posting a bunch of ocs with canon characters????????

[ask-the-jester-buds]

So what's everyone going to do on valentine's day?

I wAntEd tO spEnd thE dAy wIth dyOnIs… bUt  hOnEstly dOn’t fEEl lIkE gOIng OUt thAt dAy… sO I’m stAyIng hOmE wIth gIgI And hAvE A mOIrAIl dAy. 

I prOmIsEd dyO I wOUld tAkE hIm OUt On A dAtE lAtEr An pAy fOr hIs drInks. 

I’M spending the day With My Risi~ With both need soMe paMpering, so that day Will be a day just for us! I’ll get her Whatever she Wants to eat, and We’ll stack up With chocolate and icecreaM. Have a hoMe spa day, fluffy pjs, roMcoMs and other fluffy Movies. Just a WholesoMe day.

I Go† DibS ON †hE CowboY. 

Don† †elL HiM Any†hinG. Bu† I DO HavE A Li††lE SuprisE Nigh† FoR HiM.

Am spEndin’ tHE dAy WitH K. knoWin’ ‘Em, tHEY Wont lEt mE go All nigHt. 

But, AH mAnAgEd to convincE ‘Em to lEt mE go sEE bElsHn for A couplE of Hours. AH WAntEd to givE ‘im somEtHin’.

|| Not |ike we need something trivia| |ike quadrat appreciation day to have a specia| day. But Venter insisted in having some red ve|vet, so how can I deny them? ||

Well DriguZ did Said he had somethi~g pla~~ed for me So I gueSS that’S what I’ll be doi~g that day. & Si~ce I have a free day, it’S o~ly ~atural my clow~S have o~e too. 

I’m gonna ssspend the day with my babe Plasska. Jusst him and me and nothin’ to worry about. 

Y fukyng Hate Quadrant apprecyatyon day!

F3li’S going to n33d a buddy that day… Sh3 g3tS v3ry 3motional about quadrant Stuff and I do want to mak3 Sur3 Sh3 iS Saf3 and happy, So I’m Sp3nding th3 day with h3r. hav3 a “fuck quadrant appr3ciation day” party and juSt r3lax tog3th3r. Sh3 lik3s to cook so, mayb3 w3 can cook Som3thing Sh3 lik3S and watch Som3 of h3r favorit3 movi3S with Som3 ic3cr3am. l3t her cry her feelingS out and tak3 car3 of h3r. Nothing would b3 b3tt3r for m3. 

°♡… My dear Kapris is taking me t♡ ♡ne ♡f the m♡st expensive restaurants in t♡wn. I’m quite impresed h♡nestly …♡°

°♡… s♡~ I managed t♡ get tw♡ special ♡utfits, ♡ne f♡r the date and ♡ne f♡r later in the evening~…. ♡°

°♡… Y♡u kn♡w… A little treat f♡r him~…♡°

—- O-of course I have money to pay for the restaurant hahaha —-

—- Someone like Lutkaa deserves only the best money can buy! —-

—- I also got them some really expensive jewelry that I of course can afford —-

—- I’ll have them swooning all evening~ —-

♛~ Zauloz and I are going to take the day off from our respective works and just have a nice date. 

♛~ We are going shopping, and having a nice dinner and then head home for some sweet, sweet chocolate~

✧✦✧ Nothing too complicated, just her, me and an insane amount of chocolate…✧✦✧

I’M  SPENDING  THE  DAY  WITH  MY  TWO  FAVORITE  PEOPLE  SO  IT’S  GOING  TO  BE  GREAT!

I-I  MEAN  NOTHING  ROMANTIC  OR  ANYTHING  BUT  QUADRANT  DAY  IS  A  DAY  TO  SPEND  WITH  PEOPLE  YOU  CARE  A  LOT  ABOUT  SO…

Yep, we g✸nna spend the day t✸gether. Pennie is a ri✸t s✸ it’ll be fun t✸ have ‘im ar✸und. We’ll stay at Larkra’s place t✸ watch m✸vies and ✸rder insane am✸unts ✸f f✸✸d.

But Ah kn✸w my br✸ will like s✸me private time with Pennie, s✸ ah’ll be the g✸✸d br✸ and ah’ll leave the party early. Ah g✸t c✸mpany waitin’ f✸r me at h✸me anyway.

#risata #gicomo #koresh #rodmeo #venter #pygmlo #elymaz #zuluet #felizt #mazilo #polima #zauloz #tybelt #larkra #lutkaa #kapris #Anonymous

[darkballsofsight]

Don't look a gift horse in the mouth

Feferi 02/16/2019

You're name is Feferi Piexes and as usual, once your lusus heard someone new had moved in she took it upon herself and you to make him a super special gift basket. You consult who ever is in charge of keeping track of who is where in the hotel and then little winged whale beside you as you carry the basket, you head to Darkleer's room and knock on the door.

Darkleer 02/16/2019

Your most preferred name is just Darkleer and after the stress of the move and all new encounters you feel like you need at least a year to recover. But no such luck. Soon after getting about as comfy in your new quarters as you will get, there's knocks on the door. Hnn. The downside of living in close proximity to other people now. You mentally prepare yourself for any encounter you might get and then go to answer the door. Hopefully Redglare. Maybe someone new? You have yet to meet your other superiors. But no, it's her, the small Fuchsia. Not sure if that is better or worse than a new face. "Peixes. ...Ms. .. Peixes.. Officer. Hello."

Feferi 02/16/2019

You smile a friendly smile as you say, "Hi! sorry to bother you Mr. Zahhak but my lusus and I," you gesture to the white winged whale beside you and she trills a greeting and waves her flukes to him before you continue, "We made you a welcome gift!" You hold out the basket which is filled with many tasty baked goods both sweet and savory along with some pretty blue towels you thought he might like and would be useful.

Darkleer 02/16/2019

You'd love to say she's not a bother, but uh. That wouldn't be quite true. You're incredibly bothered. Not her fault. She only wants to be nice. Hn. You glance up at the whale lusus and give her a greeting nod. Despite your age, you're not too familiar with the etiquette of dealing with another's lusus. They were... private companions for a troll's wigglerhood and life, to prepare them and make up for the massive lack of positive social interactions a troll experiences on Alternia. Any lusus outside of a troll's hive would most likely end up dead (LOOKING AT YOU, ORPHANER). Apparently here on Derse it is normal that a lusus will visit other trolls and take care of them. "You didn't need to- Hn. Thanks. Thank you, uh. Both of you." You accept the basket, of course. How useful they will be is yet to be seen. You don't have much need for anything, but you recognize that it's an incredibly friendly gesture, even if the thought of a Fuchsia making something and bringing it to you is... still wild to you. Now you stand there in the doorframe, awkwardly holding a basket of presents. Should you ask her in? You don't really want to.... but you also don't want to be rude. If she'd like to come in, who are you to deny it..

Feferi 02/16/2019

"Whale if you're busy we'll leave you to enjoy your peace and quiet," you say sweetly then offer, "If you want a tour of town and good shops in the area I'd be happy to be your guide. I was hatched and raised here so i know my way about pretty whale." Your lusus nods and makes that long whale song sound in agreement.

Darkleer 02/17/2019

Right, that's... probably a thing you should do. Getting familiar with your surroundings. You had hoped to do it on your own time and terms at some point. But then again, you're dying at the mere thought of having to ask anyone about the location of a certain thing. And she's already offering... "Do you mean... now?" You're about to ask her to do it later, maybe some other day, but you realize you got very little to keep busy, especially now after you just set up, and you'd just spend the hours sitting around and growing more anxious about it. Hn. "Give me a moment... to get ready. Please."

Feferi 02/17/2019

He wants to go now? Oh well if he wants to you have time. "Sure! No problem!" you say cheerfully and step back to wait.

Darkleer 02/17/2019

Oh, that wasn't the wrong thing to say, was it? Well, too late either way. And she seems honestly excited so... okay. "Okay." You linger awkwardly in the doorway for a moment, then turn around and head back inside. And uh. What now? Right, put down the basket somewhere convenient. Besides that you don't have much to get ready besides... yourself. Which means mostly mentally preparing yourself for it. You find your jacket because, while you're mostly impervious to temperature, it is fairly cold outside. Then you check in a mirror (or whatever the next sufficiently reflective surface) if you look presentable enough (which is hard to tell after so many years of voluntary isolation). The only thing left is to remind yourself that she is not a superior by blood caste alone here, but merely a fellow officer and this is just a polite and casual (barely a word you know) excursion. No royalty, no expectations, no  p r e s s u r e. You return to her, fully intent on returning her friendly smile, but at this point your face is probably so hardened it's not physically capable of it anymore. So that's not happening. But you give her a nod. "So. After you. If you please.."

Feferi 02/17/2019

"Shore fin!" you say. You lead him to the exit and your lusus waves you off as she does not like the winter one bit. "So what sorts of places do you like to go?" you ask as you look up... and up some more at him. Wow he was tall. Maybe as tall as Dualscar?

Darkleer 02/17/2019

Not quite as tall as the old fish, though your horns surely are. You definitely keep having to duck down on every doorway you come across, lest you want to risk property damage and a headache. "I will probably need.. some supplies and materials soon. And make some shelves for everything." Mostly to keep the room presentable for anyone else. You don't care much anymore, but you're very conscious of the fact that other people can and will see your living quarters now. Now, a tool shop may not be all that exciting, but you honestly can't think of another place you would need, let alone want to go. Maybe a grocery store?

Feferi 02/17/2019

"Gotcha! There's plenty of hardware stores that should be able to help with that!" you tell him as you walk. "So what brought you to Derse?" you ask with a curious smile.

Darkleer 02/17/2019

You follow along, carefully measuring your steps to keep her pace. "The Neophyte- Uh. Chief. Redglare. She asked me to come..." She literally brought you here.

Feferi 02/17/2019

Oh? That was the only reason? "You are the chief are close?" You can't deny you are as curious about the chief as you are about him.

Darkleer 02/18/2019

Your personal relationship with people and how they rank is frankly not a thing you spend a lot of time on. Especially since it would only make you realize how little there is. "I... suppose. I have known her for a long time. One of the.. STRONGEST bonds I had in the time I served.. Altenia. As close as one could be without engaging in a quadrant. But compared to.. what may be common around here, I premuse it's not very remarkable." Are you oversharing? You're definitely oversharing. "Hng. Sorry."

Feferi 02/18/2019

"I gotcha! You're friends," you smile. Served Alternia? You are unable to stop the question before it jumps from your lips. "You were in the Alternian military?"

Darkleer 02/18/2019

She hasn't heard anything about you yet, has she? That should give you some relief, but it's also very disconcerting, especially with her follow-up question. "Yes.." She's probably just curious and wants to do some friendly small-talk, so you don't want to be rude, but that is not a topic you're very enthusiastic about.

Feferi 02/18/2019

Huh well you wonder if he'll have issues with Mr. Kai. Hopefully not! "I see! Oh! That store right there is one of my favorite grocery stores, Marley's. They have a pretty good selection," you tell him as you point the place out. "I've got a friend there who lets me know when they get fresh fish!" "Got any hobbies, Mr. Zahhak?" you ask him, not wanting to press the other subject since he seems extra uncomfortable.

Darkleer 02/18/2019

You quietly acknowledge the store and memorize its location, as well as the nearby shops and businesses. "I, uh... build and repair things. Machines, mostly. All kinds." You wouldn't call that a hobby as much as just.. the one thing you're good at (that doesn't directly kill people.)

Feferi 02/18/2019

"That's cool!" you chirp. "My hobby isn't reely useful at all. I've been thinking maybe I should get into something that has more working with my hands. When I was younger I tried arts and crafts with shell art but I was super bad at it," you say, laughing a little. "I spent too much money I shouldn't have on those damn shells."

Darkleer 02/18/2019

"Ah. ? What hobby is that?" you ask. Arts aren't really your wheelhouse, but from what you've seen, even a lot of highly acclaimed art seemed just... bad. "A hobby... doesn't need to be useful, right? As long as it makes you feel better.." Look at you, what a MASSIVE hypocrite. To be fair, hobbies and leasure time weren't really concepts you had back on Alternia. Just things you were good at and things you could do for the Empire.

Feferi 02/18/2019

You tap your chin. "I suppose not... Arts and crafts can arts and crafts can be reely fun even if the outcome is a little ugly and not useful," you giggle. "I took some pictures of a few that I had to let go of during the move to the hotel if you'd liked to see them."

Darkleer 02/18/2019

"Uh. Sure.." Despite the hesitant tone, you actually manage something akin to a smile. Conversations actually aren't so bad when the focus isn't on you.

Feferi 02/18/2019

You pull out your phone and scroll through many photos of Eridan expressions which are your prized collection before finally reaching your goal. "Ah! Here we are!" you say chipperly and hand your phone to him.

Darkleer 02/19/2019

You take the phone, carefully cupping it in your large hand to not drop it or squeeze it too much, and take a close look at the photo. "You call that bad? It has a STRONG resemblance to the earthen hootbeasts despite the medium's limits on detail and the evenness of the pattern on the chest shows great dexterity and patience." You hope she doesn't think you're only saying that because she is a highblood. That is.. only part of your motivation. You really do appreciate the skill that must have gone into that (since that is the only thing you know how to measure art by). Ah.. you shouldn't hog her phone any longer than necessary, you realize, and hold it back out to her. "Thank you for sharing your work.."

Feferi 02/19/2019

You take your phone back blushing. "Oh wow. Heh, no one's ever said such nice things about them. Of course I don't show them much since I guess I'm not confident in them," you admit, really surprised by his words. You do have the niggling worry that he's being nice cause of your blood color, but if you constantly worry about that with no evidence that it's even true in every case. You can't let that insecurity eat you and your relationships.

Darkleer 02/19/2019

If anything, you're nice to her despite her blood color, and... apparent ancestry. You wonder if she knows... or if you should tell her. Hn. Things to worry about later. Maybe. "I'm.. I'm sure someone else would find better words."

Feferi 02/19/2019

"Whale I think your words are very nice, Mr. Zahhak. Thank you," you say then point out a hardware store  for him. "So, what kind of things do you like to eat?" you ask, thinking you might treat him to something.

Darkleer 02/19/2019

You just not in response to both her answer and the store. Speaking of thanks, you ought to thank her for taking her time and show you around, right? Which means you need to think about what would be appropriate. How tedious. Oh uh, eating. "I don't eat much.. " You're socially aware enough to know that 'plant oil' would probably be a very odd statement. "Salad is good."

Feferi 02/19/2019

Salad! Not your favorite but you now a place that's pretty good and start leading that way. "Nice! Fresh produce can be a lil pricey here but with the Prospitian population veggies and the like are guaranteed to be in demand. If you like pumpkins you'll probably find there's a lot of pumpkin dishes to try," you chatter away.

Darkleer 02/19/2019

So much information... You appreciate it, really. It's good to get as many details about the planet you newly moved to as possible, but you don't really know how to keep up with small talk stuff. "Derse doesn't have many farms, does it..?" How inconvenient for creatures that rely on it.

Feferi 02/19/2019

"Oh well there are farms. It's just not easy, ya know? Especially this time of year," you tell him. You see the place and grin. "Hmm. I could go for some lunch. Hey, are you hungry?" you ask him. You are trying to be clever and be the first to say you want food so he won't feel weird if he is hungry.

Darkleer Last Wednesday at 9:48 AM

"Ah yes. I can see that." Despite her previous question, you didn't quite catch on to her ploy yet. Probably for the better. You're feeling awkward enough already. "Not really. But.. Do not let me keep you from getting a meal. I can find my way back."

Feferi Last Wednesday at 11:42 AM

Well it was a nice thought. "It's not far back," you tell him, "I took us on a lil bit of a loop so we'd see the general area." You point out a few more shops of note and resume chatting hoping to eventually put him at relative ease. "Winter around here can be really harsh so I like to value days like this where it's cold but still nice."

Darkleer Last Wednesday at 6:38 PM

"I am used to harsh winters... but it is a nice day indeed. I, uh. Appreciate you showing me around." Look at you trying. You're almost managing a real conversation. She points out more places and you listen closely. But as she continues...  you really hope you didn't keep her from getting food.

Feferi Last Wednesday at 6:51 PM

"When I was younger I used to try to build a huge fish out of snow. Every year it would get a little and some years I got a friend of mine to help me so it was even bigger," you chatter on happily thinking of when you and Eridan were young. "We'd get into snowball fights with other kids. We usually won. Hee hee!" "I kinda miss snowball fights," you say quietly with a smile.

Darkleer Last Thursday at 1:01 AM

"Snowball fights... I never tried that.." You've certainly seen them on Earth tv so you get the idea (and you assume you'd be excellent at it since aiming with absolute precision is one of your core strengths). But on Alternia you never had enough snow to engage in such practices, and during your time on earth, well, your situation didn't really allow for it either for so many reasons. It sounds intriguing though...

Feferi Last Thursday at 1:05 AM

You grin excitedly, "Hey maybe we should see if folks want to have one sometime we're off! It's a lot of fun! We could build forts and stuff. Hey we could even call it an excise in tactics!" Fun mixed with something that would sharpen everyone's skills sounds like a great idea in your mind!

Darkleer Last Thursday at 9:17 AM

"An interesting idea.. Do you partake in playful exercises like this often?" What a strange place. Strange but nice. On Alternia, any tactical exercise would actually have your life on the line, motivation and all that.

Feferi Last Thursday at 4:44 PM

"I don't know about everyone else in the department, but I figure if I find joy and fun in my work it'll help me be better for everyone," you smile your optimistic smile to him.

February 22, 2019

Darkleer Last Friday at 9:26 AM

"That is. An admirable attitude to have." Finding joy in your work? What a wild concept.

Feferi Last Friday at 5:16 PM

You beam happily. "thanks!" you chirp. You look ahead and it seems you're not too far from where you began. "Whale we can head back now if you like or walk around a bit more and enjoy the good weather, waterever you'd like!" you tell him, leaving options so he won't feel like he has too one way or another.

Darkleer Last Friday at 5:30 PM

Oh, you're almost back, huh? Well that wasn't nearly as awful as you expected. It was still a lot to take in, and the thought of continuing is overwhelming. "Heading back sounds agreeable. We could. Continue the walk some other day."

Feferi Last Friday at 5:41 PM

You nod in agreement, "Shore fin! We definitely should!" You turn the way to head back and look up at him, "If you need anyfin you can always ask me. I'm happy to help how I can, Mr. Zahhak."

Darkleer Last Friday at 5:46 PM

"Ah. Hmm. Thank you. I will." Such a polite and friendly young lady. So different from... her. That is honestly refreshing, as surreal as the situation may feel.

Feferi Last Friday at 6:01 PM

Another beaming smile and a little more idea chatter and you reach the doors of the hotel. You then realize if he's going to be able to ask you for help, he'll probably need your contact info. "Do you have your own phone?" you ask him as pull the door open.

Darkleer Last Friday at 6:26 PM

"Ah. Yes. Red.. The Chief. Told me to get one." You carefully pull out your phone and an even smaller stylus. This technology was not made with giant metallic troll guys in mind. "Go ahead. Please."

Feferi Last Friday at 6:30 PM

You give in your number. "Feel free to call or text whenever, whatever is most comfortable for you," you  say. "Also, if my lusus stops by with more food for you, feel free to only eat what you want. She's got a bad habit of loading people, myself included, with lots of food and baked goods ehehe. She'll try to figure out what you like best at least, though."

Darkleer Last Friday at 6:42 PM

"Ah.. I see. Thank you for the, uh. Warning. And help." You type in her number, then weight the necessity of being polite and offering yours in return against your need for not having your personal space disturbed. Hn. It would probably helpful for her to have your contact info for emergencies, solely on the base of being co-workers. So you end up pulling up your own number on your phone and hold it out to her. "If you.. need to add mine as well.."

Feferi Last Friday at 6:45 PM

Taking the phone with a smile, you quickly enter the number into your own. "Thanks! If you want I can text you lusus incoming warnings when I know she's on the move," you say with a playful wink.

Darkleer Last Friday at 8:59 PM

"Yes, that.. would be preferable. Thank you." You're still trying to figure out how to parse her demeanor. A little intense, but she seemed genuinely friendly and helpful.

Feferi Last Friday at 9:05 PM

He seems like a quiet sort, you think of how he mentioned having been with the military s you are unable to help adding, "Hey, can I ask, are you combat trained? Like close combat and the like?"

Darkleer Last Saturday at 12:28 AM

Well, that is a change of topic. Huh. "I, uh. Am mare specialized in ranged combat. But I know how to handle myself in meelee." Being able to overpower most enemies with sheer size and strength definitely helps though.

Feferi Last Saturday at 12:36 AM

You smile, "That's great! I've been wanting to learn more about how to deal with hand to hand combat myself and whale, if you have any suggestions on how I should start or tips I'd appreciate them a lot!" It would also be great to not rely on people who are probably gang associated for you education.

Darkleer Last Saturday at 12:43 AM

"That is.. a topic hardly suited for words alone. It depends a lot on physical fitness and practicing techniques so your muscle memory is STRONG enough to react when it is required. A good suggestion would be to find a good trainer or.. at least a reliable partner for training."

Feferi Last Saturday at 12:45 AM

Aw drat. A training partner... Where would you get one? You nod with quiet thoughtfulness. "Okay... I'll look into that. I work out at the gym but I mostly got training on a handgun," you admit.

Darkleer Last Saturday at 1:07 AM

"I wish you the best of luck with that." You find her efforts to be more prepared and suitable for the job admirable. Seadwellers are strong by nature, you're very well aware, but to be able to use that thoughtfully is a skill to be learned.

Feferi Last Saturday at 1:09 AM

"Thanks!" you say brightly.  "Whale I won't keep you any longer. Take care and I'll see you later some time!"

Darkleer Last Sunday at 8:13 PM

You nod. "Uh. Thank you again. For your help. I'm certain working with you will be a pleasure.."

Feferi Last Sunday at 8:19 PM

Aw he's so nice! You beam one more smile before waving and heading off. You think you'll enjoy working with the newest Zahhak quite well. As soon as you're off desk duty that is.

February 25, 2019

Darkleer Yesterday at 9:56 PM

There she goes. You linger where you are for a little bit, undecided about what to do next. You could shop around but.. you didn't even prepare for what you may need. Including the proper finances. But a giant troll standing around in the middle of nowhere for too long seems highly in appropriate, so you decide to head back too, although a couple minutes later and with moderate pace to not risk having an awkard run-in with the little Peixes on the way back.

#logs

[tamsythepansy]

VOY: “Workforce”, the transest Star Trek episode ever

So. There’s a two-part episode of Star Trek: Voyager (“Workforce”) in which the crew all find themselves living out new lives as vaguely Fordist industrial workers on a planet called Quarra, all memory of their real lives having been artificially suppressed.

Imagine my surprise when, rewatching it years later, the bogus diagnosis they’re given as their memories start to resurface is...

...which also happens to be exactly what my partners have been reminding me for the last two months (bless them). I giggled.

Lo and behold, it happens to Tuvok as well:

Now, I get that it was the turn of the millennium and this hadn’t really entered the lexicon yet, but... this is just the tip of the iceberg. Watch along with me and see how it all plays out:

Tuvok, of course, is the first to experience memories of his real life breaking through the facade, has a panic attack, and is hospitalized:

Well, if this isn’t relatable to multitudes of trans and non-binary Star Trek fans, I don’t know what is. 🤷🏻‍♀️

Of course, the ‘treatment’ for Dysphoria Syndrome involves suppressing the offending memory engrams, so the patient can peacefully return to being a cog in the cisheteronormative machine Quarran power distribution facility (read what you will into that). As the expert on Dysphoria Syndrome himself later puts it:

Sounds like an allegory for LGBTQ conversion therapy to me, I mean, what?

Anyway, Seven realizes that Tuvok might be on to something, and heads to the mental health clinic to get a gender assessment investigate:

Stepping into the realm of the purely serious for a moment, I *have* sort of read Seven’s character arc as a plausible trans allegory, and it’s pretty compelling: having her true identity suppressed at an early age, and finally being forced to confront it in adulthood; processing layers upon layers of trauma just to function as an individual; being rehabilitated by a circle of strong, compassionate women, each with their own identity issues (plus the medical wizardry, overeager cisheteronormative life coaching, and starry-eyed / vaguely inappropriate crushing of The Doctor, I guess, so yeah); struggling to reclaim her human (/feminine) sense of self even while the effects of her Borg (/patriarchal) upbringing have thoroughly warped her thoughts (even as they continue to give her superhuman resilience and insight). I’m sure there’s even a comparison to be drawn to transfeminine desirability politics — Seven is continually presented both as an extremely conventionally attractive human *and* as a mysterious cyborg whose embodiment and manner communicates an often-threatening sense of Otherness — but I’ll leave that for a future discourse. I’m honestly spitballing a bit with all of this, but to see it so explicitly referenced, intentionally or not, is quite something.

So, Seven asks the obvious question, and it turns out that, while being trans is undoubtedly a Real Thing, the specifics are... inconclusive:

Let’s take a moment to celebrate the fact that we’re finally starting to see gender doctors who actually understand us in all our nuance, because...

...we already know this is bad news. (Paging Dr. Harry Benjamin.)

Anyway, the compassionate gender doctor goes to the conversion therapy doctor to see what’s up, because clearly something over at the power plant is turning people trans:

One important takeaway from this story is “never walk away and leave your work computer unlocked”:

I get it, though! On a planet ostensibly without Tumblr or OKCupid, trans community is just really, really hard to find. 🤷🏻‍♀️

The compassionate gender doctor soon notices a pattern:

...mm hmm, it all started when a genderqueer person sneezed in the employee locker room, and somehow the conversion therapy doctor wound up with his hands full as everybody in the office came down with a bad case of The Trans.

Finally, the compassionate gender doctor is determined to be just a little bit too sympathetic to these gender deviants, and the now-canonically trans but still awesome at passing Seven of Nine comes to the rescue:

As if this weren’t trans enough...

...check out the subplot featuring Jaffen, a co-worker with whom Captain Janeway has an adorable but bittersweet whirlwind relationship. Though Jaffen presents as male and uses he/him pronouns, THIS TOTALLY HAPPENS, and its implications are never made clear:

Though this is set up as the punchline of a “your father” joke, Jaffen isn’t just fucking around here. Tuvok knows what’s up, and proceeds to Vulcan-splain the joke right back to him:

Which begs the question, how do Norvalians procreate, anyway? Are they clones, like the Vorta? Do they deposit their genetic material into pods, like the J’naii? Do they pick up ready-made offspring, like the Kobali? Whatever the intent is, it has serious implications for whatever kind of relationship he and Janeway would have (like, it’s not on the cisheteronormative trajectory of sex and babies, at the very least). So, bear with me for a moment, because this is my honest-to-goodness fan theory: 

(okay, I admit I just had that image lying around, and this seemed like as good a moment as any to use it.)

What if Norvalians reproduce parthenogenetically, leaving the entire need for a biological “father” out of the equation?

This could mean one of two things: as with terrestrial Komodo dragons (I think), parthenogenesis happens but binary sexual reproduction is still an option (which honestly doesn’t seem like the most likely explanation, given the way Jaffen and Tuvok both frame it), *or*, as with terrestrial whiptail lizards, parthenogenesis is the default, and male (i.e., sperm-producing) offspring are extremely rare and/or usually infertile.

So yeah, okay, they reproduce parthenogenetically, Jaffen is a rare male and is probably infertile, and therefore the Jaffen/Janeway relationship is more about companionship and cooperation than sex and babies. I’m fine with that, and I actually find it quite heartwarming.

But, with that in mind, do we need to assume that Jaffen is male, whatever that means for his species? After all, whiptail lizards engage in female/female courtship behaviour, which somehow makes them more fecund — and remember, it’s the Delta Quadrant; we’ve seen enough weird sex shit by Season 7 (cf. “Elogium”, “Favorite Son”, “The Disease”, “Ashes to Ashes”, off the top of my head) that we can reasonably conclude that all bets are off. 

My interpretation? Jaffen is an honest, gallant, leather-waistcoat-rocking, he/him pronoun-using, parthenogenetic Space Butch. Maybe I’ve spent too much time on Sapphic Star Trek Tumblr, or have finally disappeared up my own genderqueer ass, but I’m convinced it’s the simplest explanation that’s congruent with the facts.

[I just spent a bunch of time trying to find the “Captain Janeway is a closet lesbian, change my mind” meme, but no dice.]

Anyway, if you’ve made it this far, it’s time for me to deliver on the non-binary trans lesbian Star Trek shitposting that I’m usually all about. Having been closeted for a long time, I know a thing or two about relationships that seem straight on the surface but are actually hella queer under the hood, so to speak. Just look at these two u-hauling it on the third date (it’s adorable!):

This also seems really gay for some reason:

And, at the end of the day, he’s a good ally:

Watch the whole episode for the obligatory Sad Lesbian Ending.

The icing on this three-tiered Tholian gay wedding cake

...yup.

[Thanks to Em for subtly egging me on (ha) and Bry for putting up with me procrastinating all night. Love you both.]

#star trek shitposting #genderqueer shitposting #original content #original commentary #very long post #cw conversion therapy #cw dysphoria #non-binary lesbian #trans stuff #ember #discourse long and prosper #this got really unintentionally serious #cw transphobia #cw transmisogyny #cw sex mention #cw reproduction #tamsytalk

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Phobos Deimos

Basics

Name ► Phobos Deimos Nickname[s] ► Pho, PD, Cinders (she does not enjoy this one at all) Blood Color ► Yellow Age ► 14 sweeps Voiceclaim ► Angel Coulby D.O.B. ► March 20 Astrological Sign ► Pisces/Aries cusp Alignment ► Chaotic Neutral Gender ► Female Height ► 5’2” Weight ► 142 lbs Body Type ► Pear shaped, toned but still soft Orientation ► Pansexual but good luck getting her to open up romantically Occupation[s] ► Witch and owner of an occult shop, which sells items of varying magical legitimacy and safety Lusus ► Springbok Antelope Abilities Psionics ► Spiritual & Arcane Perception – Phobos is able to pick up on spiritual and arcane activity and energies, the latter of which she’s generally able to identify the type for. She’s also able to see most ghosts. Other Abilities ► Fire, Sand, Light, and Healing/Growth Magic – She’s a witch it’s her MO. Not obscenely powerful, but enough to be on par with a gifted psionic. Flight – She has wings structured like a hummingbird hawk moth’s, which allow her to fly for short amounts of time. Astral Projection – Her soul was jiggled a little loose during her near-death experience, so she’s able to tug it out and let it roam. The further distance she travels, the more it drains her, and while she’s able to perceive things on both ends if she wants to, it works better if she focuses on the projection fully and zones out physically. Strife Specibus ►  x2 Haladiekind – They are mainly her foci for magic, but can also be used for physical attacks. Doubled edged, double bladed daggers with a central grip and knuckle dusters on the outside. Pistolkind – Sometimes it’s better to not be flashy and just shoot a bitch. PC Info Trollian Handle ► reawakenedTheurgist Typing Quirk ► Replaces L’s with £, stutters when upset/scared/flustered/ect Example ► Tends t'speak with a regiona£ accent an' c£ips the endin' off certain words. I-I-If sh-sh-she's u-upset o-or s-s-s-scared sh-she s-s-stutters.

 ▼ Personality ▼ Formerly a very open, trusting, and bubbly individual, the past few sweeps haven’t been kind to the mindset that Phobos once held. She comes across very blunt, only dancing around her genuine opinions of people and what she thinks when she’s around someone she perceives to be a threat. Even then, she’s not above pushing her luck in certain situations, as should things turn violent she has a considerable amount of magic she can rely upon to take care of what faces her. Or, well, a decent amount of what faces her. At the end of the night, Phobos is focused on one thing and one thing only: survival. If she has to run to save her skin, she’ll do so, and unless someone has endeared themselves to her (or she is required to act otherwise), she’ll leave them behind in the dust. However when it comes to the fight vs flight ratio, Phobos is absolutely someone that will throw down first. Combat is something that she’s grown from hating to enjoying a lot, as it allows her not only to exercise but vent her emotions in a…”productive” manner.

That’s not to say she doesn’t care about other people, of course. She’s just very reluctant to allow herself to be open with people, especially considering the very recent mutation she’s had to hide. Anxiety over many of her past relationships failing also hasn’t helped at all, as she sees herself as an irresponsible and unhealthy individual to be quadrants with. Friends are a possibility, but Phobos requires a lot of reassurance and proof that someone is not only patient enough but can emotionally handle all the chaos that comes along with her life. If she doesn’t think the relationship will work out and could potentially hurt someone, she’s quick to say so and warn them of that fact. She struggles with not cutting people off out of fear of hurting them, often dropping contact with nothing but her first warning to go off of.

Should you ever gain her friendship, though, she’s incredibly nurturing and caring, as well as unshakably loyal once you’ve earned her faith. While she’s struggled with following it, Phobos is also fairly good at dispensing advice and can dip into more pale or ashen tendencies if she believes someone needs that. Of course this is paired with her regular amounts of cynicism and sarcasm; it’s recommended not to have too-thin skin around Phobos. She’ll compliment just as much as she’ll playfully rag on you, likely swearing up and down the entire Alternian language the whole way. She has a filter for this when she’s around children, as she was a teacher in her former life, but the moment she catches them swearing casually it’s gone. Her “old demeanor” is still very much present despite what she’d like to think or say, it’s just hidden behind a lot of walls, suspicions, and anxiety.

Most of what other people get to see, though, is the witch behind the counter of an occult shop. She really likes to play up the mystical aspect and spooky vibes of her job. Helps convince people to buy stuff and spreads the word to bring in more customers. Whether or not they believe her magic is real doesn’t matter; it sells when you make it flashy enough.

▼ Strengths VS Weaknesses ▼

Strengths ► Perceptive | Driven | Honest

Weaknesses ► Cynical | Stubborn | Flighty

 ▼ Likes ▼

✔ General “witchy” paraphernalia ✔ Relaxing near fireplaces ✔ Loose, comfy scarves ✔ Libraries ✔ Incense (Dragon’s Blood and Cedar are favorites) ✔ Bird watching ✔ Anything with an autumn aesthetic ✔ Handmade clothes ✔ Walks in the woods ✔ Honey candy ✔ Cats

 ▼ Dislikes ▼

✘ Subjugs ✘ Too much noise ✘ Sudden movements ✘ Being touched without warning ✘ “Unnatural” silence ✘ Uppity trolls ✘ Generally most trolls blue and above on principle ✘ Any kind of religious zealots or evangelists ✘ Dealing with her bosses ✘ Cheap liquor ✘ Centipedes, to the degree that she’ll panic and shoot at them

 ▼ Extra ▼

 ► While she’s far better at using her magic in combat than to heal, she’s recently been practicing to try and get better at it. It’s a skill she let atrophy after moving away from home, which she regrets doing now that she has to relearn what she was once really fucking good at.  ► She’s willing to tolerate most people if it benefits her, but highbloods will have a harder time gaining her trust.  ► She has a very hard time sleeping fully through the day, usually due to her psionics allowing her to see and hear ghosts.  ► Her wings are bound most of the time, though the way they’re structured allows her to lay them flat against her back naturally and prevents the binding from damaging them too much.  ► Flying takes a lot out of her. She’s only had her wings for 4 sweeps and they’ve only been fully grown for 2.  ► She’s more in-shape and toned than you’d expect for a lowblood. One of her old teachers was ex-fleet and made her do basic training exercises nightly, which is a routine she tries to keep up.  ► That being said, she has very little love for the fleet and is suspicious of anyone she finds bearing the emblem.  ► Before everything started to fall apart, she planned to dodge the draft with her ex-moirail and just travel through space with her.  ► Now she’s set up an occult shop and sells minor enchantments and crystals to goth kids and hipsters. Also some cursed items and magical advice. Really anything that’ll sell, honestly. She needs the money.  ► There’s always at least some kind of notebook on her. She’s very diligent about recording information that she feels is important. It also gives her a way to voice her thoughts without talking to anyone.  ► She grew up with very little exposure to modern Alternian technology for the most part, which has driven her to learn as much as she can about it. The prospect of technomancy fascinates her, though she’s not able to perform any herself.

▼ Quadrants ▼

 ► Moirail: N/A  ► Matesprit: N/A  ► Kismesis: N/A  ► Auspistice: N/A

▼ Other Relationships ▼

Eeleth Kuvlew [Pure Hope] ► Your ex-matesprit and the source of a never-ending flood of complicated emotions. You hurt him deeper than anyone ever could or has, which haunts you worse than any ghost. Recently, you spoke with him after a sweep of silence, though had your hands not been tied it would’ve been much sooner. Things are still complicated, and you doubt he’ll respond to any of your letters or online messages, but that won’t keep you from writing him about important things. You don’t want to give up talking to him.

Marcel Bradik [Lowered Humanity] ► Your other ex-matesprit, though one of a much shorter time. You don’t blame him for anything that happened; all of that was on you. He taught you a fair few things while you dated, the most important being how to shoot a gun and to carry one on you at all times. The thought has crossed your mind to try and seek him out, but you’ve decided against it due to the fact that he’s a shadowdropper and prone to having a temper. Best to let sleeping dogs lie.

#Troll Bio #Phobos Deimos #fINALLY SHES DONE AAAAAAAA