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ohprettyweeper-moved · 5 years

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Have Faith in Me

Summary: After horrible rumors end your relationship with Tyler, it will take a grand gesture and a leap of faith to fix things. Pairing: Tyler x Reader Word Count: 2735 (without lyrics) Warnings: Few curse words, angst, implications of alcoholism. Request: I always love a good fic where a rumor appears that the boy is having a relationship with someone else (despite the fact that he is very public with his relationship with the reader), reader thinks he’s cheating, boy does grand romantic gesture or is just super affectionate to show the reader he loves them and only them. Super cliche, but still has lots of flangst potential! Your choice of boy! Thank you very much in advance :) - @takenvysleep It’s been a while, I think, since I’ve written a one-shot of this length! I hope it doesn’t disappoint! Song in the Fic: Have Faith in Me - A Day to Remember

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The smile on your face wouldn’t stop. Tyler had indulged you in an iPhone photo session of the two of you the previous night, before he had to re-join the current leg of touring, and now you were trying to decide which ones to post on social media. You finally decided on one of the two of you smiling together, and one of the two of you kissing, tops of your cheeks scrunched with smiles as you pressed your lips together.

“Those are so cute!” your best friend, Ava, assured, double-tapping the post as she scrolled through her Instagram feed. “I really thought Josh and I were the cutest, but you guys give us a run for our money.”

You simply smiled and kept your eyes on the road. There wasn’t much you could say without sounding overly-confident or biased, although you were one-hundred-and-ten percent certain that you and Tyler were, in fact, the cutest couple.

Ava continued scrolling on her phone screen as you navigated the way towards your apartment. The two of you had a lazy afternoon planned, complete with junk food, movies. There was a good chance naps would be involved, too.

“Uh-oh,” Ava muttered after a few minutes, her brow pulling into a worried frown.

“What’s wrong?”

Quickly, Ava stowed her phone in her pocket. “Just keep driving. I’ll show you back at your apartment.”

“Ava! How am I supposed to concentrate on the road when you clearly have bad news for me?”

“Nobody is dead or dying.”

You huffed. Clearly you weren’t going to get any more than that out of her, so you did your best to concentrate on the road and not speed.

Back at your apartment, the two of you hauled up the snacks you had gone out to purchase, settled on the couch, and Ava turned on the TV.

“Oh no you don’t,” you warned, snagging the remote from her hand and muting the sound. “That ‘uh-oh’ in the car wasn’t innocent, A. Tell me what’s up.”

The pleading look she sent your way told you she would rather swim with hungry sharks than show you whatever she had seen on her phone. Still, she handed it over to you, and you looked at the new article on the screen.

“Tyler Joseph’s girlfriend, Y/N, posts cozy pictures shortly after new pics of the frontman and ex-girlfriend-slash-actress Alexis Richmond are released,” you read aloud. Scrolling down quickly, you saw copies of your recently posted pictures alongside pictures of Tyler with his girlfriend. They didn’t look as cozy as the two of you, but with his arm around her in that protective way, they certainly didn’t look like exes. “What the hell? When would he have even seen Alexis? Maybe this is an old picture.”

“I hate to be the one to point this out, but check out his tattoos, Y/N. A couple of those he’s gotten since you two have been together.”

Shaking your head in disbelief, you tried to justify what you were seeing. “Tyler is super open about his relationship with me. He posts about us, talks about us in interviews. He wrote a song for me and put it on his damn album!”

Ava held her hand out to slow you down. “I know, I know. This is the industry, okay? Lord knows Josh and I have been here more than once. The first time is always the most difficult. There’s probably a perfectly good explanation. Call Tyler.”

But you were too entranced by the picture of Tyler and Alexis. When did he even have time to see her? Between touring and interviews and sleeping when he could, the two of you had some days when you didn’t even have time for a phone call. But he had time for his ex-girlfriend. Yeah. That made sense.

“What are you going to do?” Ava asked just above a whisper.

Swallowing down the lump in your throat, you turned to her with as much of a smile as you could muster. “I’m going to do exactly what I planned and spend the afternoon with my best friend. When Tyler calls later — if he calls — I’ll deal with all of this. I’m sure it’s just some crazy media thing anyway.”

Ava didn’t look convinced, and you had to admit, you weren’t doing a very good job of convincing yourself that you believed any of what you had just told her.

Tyler wasn’t able to call until a couple of days later. You kept things light until then, not willing to hash out the whole thing in a text thread. You needed to hear his voice and see his face to know whether or not he was lying to you.

“Hey, beautiful,” Tyler greeted when you answered. The bags under his eyes told you he was tired, but you couldn’t let that stop you. You needed to know.

“Hey,” you returned. “How’s tour?”

Tyler yawned. “Busy. Shows are going great, but I’m looking forward to being back home with you. I really miss you, Y/N.”

For whatever reason, all rational thought fled your mind with that statement. Instead of feeling insecure and nervous, you were now angry and confused.

“Right,” you scoffed. “You missed me so much you went to Alexis to fix it.”

“What?”

You rolled your eyes. “I saw the article, Tyler. Ava found it right after I posted those pictures of us from when you were home last. Said I posted those pictures right as the pictures of you and Alexis came out. Not only have you been lying to me, obviously, but you made me look like an idiot! Like I was posting the pictures of us as some insecure girlfriend who needed to defend our relationship!”

“That sure as hell is what you’re acting like right now!” Tyler snapped back.

You nodded. “Okay. So you didn’t see Alexis? Those are old pictures or what?”

He rubbed the back of his neck with the hand not holding the phone. “I did see Alexis, when we were in New York. But it’s not —”

“Not what I think it is, right?” you interrupted. “I cannot fucking believe you! You saw your ex-girlfriend, got cozy with her, and I had to find out like some nobody. I’m your girlfriend! We’ve been planning for a future and now — you know what. Forget it. I don’t matter enough for you to tell me what’s going on when it’s happening, then you’re not worth the effort to hear what I have to say.”

You hit the red circle with the little white x in the middle, effectively ending the conversation. You texted Ava, asking her to come over, then set up all of Tyler’s calls to go to voicemail and all of his message alerts to stay hidden. You needed to cry and maybe drink, and definitely to never think about Tyler Joseph again.

Two months passed. You kept up with your day to day schedule, went to work, put on a happy face. No one from the outside looking in would have known that you had broken up with the love of your life just eight or so weeks before.

Ava could see it, though. She saw it in your weight dwindling just enough to make the change in your figure noticeable. She saw it in the quiet nights you two spent in your apartment, not talking, just being silent in the same place while you stared at the television or your laptop, pretending to be occupied by anything except how much your heart hurt.

As the tour came to an end, the boys inevitably circled back around to Columbus. Through Josh, Ava of course had tickets and passes for the two of you. She promised that Tyler was just as much of a mess as you were, but you refused to believe it.

“Just come with me,” she pleaded. “Hear him out.”

But you shook your head. You didn’t want to see Tyler; it would be like ripping the bandaid off of a bullet-wound. Too little help to begin with, but still missed when it’s gone.

“Fine. I’ll leave your ticket and pass here, then.” She dropped the items on the coffee table in the living room. “I really hope you change your mind, Y/N.”

After Ava left, you slumped onto the couch. The remote was in your hand, but you didn’t want to do anything with it. You held onto it because, at that moment, you needed to something to hold onto. You wanted to stop dwelling, desperately wanted that, but your heart was hurting so much, you didn’t know how to let go of the pain.

“Maybe going to the concert will give me closure.”

You tested the thought out loud, to see how you felt about it. There was some hesitation, some nerves. Some emotion resembling fear. Finally, you shook your head.

“This is ridiculous. I’m just going to go. If it’s really that bad, I can always leave.”

With a new determination — and, if you were honest with yourself, a deeply buried desire to see Tyler at least once more — you got up from the couch and rushed through a shower. You didn’t need to look perfect, so you kept your appearance casual but cute, shoved the ticket in your pocket and slipped the lanyard with the pass over your neck.

“Keys, phone, wallet … I think that’s everything,” you mumbled to yourself as you headed for the front door. You swung it open, taking one last look around the apartment to see if you had forgotten anything, and when you turned back around, Alexis Richmond was standing in the hall outside of your apartment. Immediately, you were on the offensive. “What are you doing here?”

Alexis held her hands up. “I’m not here to — I just want to talk to you, Y/N. On Tyler’s behalf.”

“I’m going to see Tyler right now, actually. Whatever he needs to say to me, I’ll hear it from him.”

You tried to push past her, but she stepped in your path. “Please. I really want you to hear this from me. Those pictures were my fault to begin with.”

You really didn’t want to hear anything from her, but maybe you could give her a couple minutes to explain.

“But only a couple,” you warned, motioning for her to join you. You stood by the door, arms crossed of your chest. “So?”

Alexis nodded and took a deep breath. “Tyler and I were friends first, Y/N, same as you and Tyler. When we were together — he left me because of my drinking problem.”

“He may have mentioned that once,” you admitted. “Go on.”

She chewed on her bottom lip for several seconds before working up the courage to continue. “I finally decided to go to rehab. I had no one left. My parents and my sister cut off contact with me after I made a drunken idiot of myself at the last family event I was invited to attend. All of my friends are in the industry, and they certainly don’t want to be associated with anyone who has to be admitted to a facility. When Tyler left, he told me that when I was ready to get better, I could call him. So I did. Those picture you saw, Y/N, that wasn’t Tyler and I being cozy. That was a million paparazzi trying to follow us, get exactly the story you saw, and Tyler trying to stop them from following us all the way to the detox center. I’m trying to keep my stint as under wraps as possible, and he was just trying to protect an old friend. I’m ninety-two days sober, and I swear, there’s nothing left between me and Tyler. There hasn’t been, for a long time.”

So it really hadn’t been what you thought, but you had let your emotions and fears get the best of you. Your insecurities had taken over and caused you to push Tyler away.

“I should have heard him out when he first tried to explain. It was easier to push him away than have my insecurities be confirmed — that someone out there was better for him than I am.”

Alexis shook her head adamantly. “That’s not true, at all. Tyler talked about you the whole time he was helping me — which was only a few hours, by the way. He came in to New York, got me to the facility, and went to do his shows. He checked on me once, that was it. That was when I found out what had happened with the two of you. I promised that as soon as I was okay to leave rehab, I would come talk to you. I’m going back because being in the real world has shown me maybe I’m not as ready to leave as I thought, but I had to come talk to you first.”

Once again unable to control your emotions, you crossed the room and hugged Alexis Richmond. “Thank you. This means a lot.”

“Tyler’s a good man. He deserves someone good like you,” she returned. “Now. I should let you get going. You’re going to be late.”

You couldn’t help but chuckle at that. The two of you walked down to the parking lot where Alexis caught a cab to take her back to the airport. You got in your own car, prepared to fight traffic all the way to the venue.

The show was half over before you joined Ava in the usual spot towards the side of the stage where the two of you stood to watch your boys play. She hugged you tightly.

“I’m really glad you came!” she shouted into your ear over the music.

You nodded. “I was going to come anyway, but Alexis came and talked to me. That kind of sealed the deal!”

Ava smiled. You suspected she had known the whole story for a while, but she was always one to mind her own business. Anxious to enjoy being in Tyler’s presence now that you were aware of what had happened and that the misunderstanding had been all your own, you turned toward the stage to enjoy the music.

When the portion of the show came for the boys to do covers, the opening band didn’t come out as usual. You frowned and looked to Ava, who simply shrugged, despite the knowing smile tugging at her lips.

“I’ve got someone special here tonight,” Tyler spoke into the microphone. “I wasn’t sure she would show, but I’m glad she did. This one’s for her.”

Josh’s sticks rolled over the drums in a rhythm you recognized in a song that had to be at least ten years old. You still knew every word, though coming from Tyler, and with the situation at hand, they meant something different, something more, now.

Have faith in me ‘Cause there are things that I’ve seen I don’t believe So cling to what you know And never let go You should know things aren’t always what they seem

I said I’d never let you go and I never did I said I’d never let you fall and I always meant it If you didn’t have this chance, then I never did You’ll always find me right there, again

By the end of the chorus, you were, inevitably, crying happy tears. Despite the really dumb thing you had done and allowed to drag on, all Tyler was asking was for you to have some faith in him.

I’m going crazy ‘Cause there are things in the streets I just don’t believe So we’ll pretend it’s all right Stay in for the night What a world I’ll keep you safe here with me

I said I’d never let you go and I never did I said I’d never let you fall and I always meant it If you didn’t have this chance, then I never did You’ll always find me right there, again

When the song wrapped up, Tyler came to the edge of the stage and reached down for your hand. You reached up to grip his hand, and he pulled you on to the stage with him, near the piano.

“I’m so sorry,” you said, hoping he could at least read your lips over the sound of the crowd. He leaned in so you could hear him more clearly.

“I never meant to do anything for you to think I would hurt you,” Tyler returned. “Can we go back?”

You shook your head. “No going back, only forward. I just wanna go forward with you.”

Tyler grinned, cupped your face with one hand, and kissed you. The fans went even more wild; you couldn’t help but giggle. After a few more kisses, Tyler pulled back to look at you again.

“Obviously, I need to finish this show, but will you wait for me?”

You nodded before hopping down from the stage. Ava put an arm around your shoulders and squeezed. Your heart was racing from the events of the evening, but that didn’t stop you from dancing along to every song for the rest of the show.

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beatrice-otter · 4 years

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Yet more recs, mostly longfic

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Jack thought his first year in the NHL would be 100% about hockey, but the reality is so much more complicated. (AU where the Goodbye for the Summer comics didn’t happen, because I had already written 80K words of this. But just because it’s canon doesn’t mean we can’t still enjoy long, angsty, get-together stories, amirite?)

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With some Clint/Natasha, Bucky/Natasha, Steve/Sam pining, a whole bunch of friendship dynamics, gratuitous pop culture references (Bucky is obsessed with pop music, as a coping strategy), slash, het, and a lot of cussing.

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Summary: The stray picks up a stray.

Orbit (35580 words) by Primarybufferpanel Chapters: 22/22 Fandom:Mad Max Series (Movies),Mad Max: Fury Road Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Furiosa/Max Rockatansky, Furiosa & Max Rockatansky Characters: Max Rockatansky, Furiosa (Mad Max), Cheedo the Fragile, Toast the Knowing, The Dag (Mad Max), Capable (Mad Max), The Vuvalini, The Ace (Mad Max), Keeper of the Seeds (Mad Max), Bolt the three-legged dog, Miss Giddy (Mad Max)

Additional Tags: Post-Movie(s), Max is not good at having Feels, Slow Burn, Boltcutters are the new symbol of the Citadel, Recovery, Healing, Past Rape/Non-con, Sexual Content, Miss Giddy is the tattoo artist of the Citadel, Keeper of the Seeds is Max's newest ghost, Worldbuilding, Forehead Touching

Summary: Max thought he'd never want to see the Citadel again. And yet here he is and he isn't sure why. Furiosa greets him like this was always the plan, like he is one of her scouts. She looks strong and healthy again, recovered from her wound. Perhaps that is what he came to see?

He tells himself: 'One day. Supplies and water and food'. And then 'Maybe a night rest'.

Three days later he drives away, determined not to return.

(Three months later the Citadel comes into sight again)

Wizardry By Consent (61991 words) by Sixthlight Chapters: 5/5 Fandom:Rivers of London - Ben Aaronovitch Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Peter Grant/Thomas Nightingale Characters: Peter Grant, Thomas Nightingale, Cecelia Tyburn Thames, Abigail Kamara, Original Characters Additional Tags: Future Fic, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, the Senior Officer Peter AU, also featuring, Lesley May - Freeform, Beverley Brook - Freeform, Molly - Freeform, and the rest of the Usual Suspects Series: Part 1 of The Senior Officer Peter AU

Summary: Fifteen years after a headless body was discovered in Covent Garden, Thomas Nightingale is still the last wizard in Britain, and Peter Grant, newly appointed Commander for Community Engagement in the Metropolitan Police Service, has just learned the truth about the existence of the Folly.

He has one or two questions.

Like Ephraim and Menasheh (2921 words) by Starlightify Chapters: 1/1 Fandom:DCU Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Jonathan Kent/Martha Kent Characters: Jonathan Kent, Martha Kent, Clark Kent Additional Tags: Alien Biology, Trans Character, Autism, Disabled Character, neurodivergent character, Parent-Child Relationship, Jewish Character, martha and jonathan kent's adventures in raising a space baby Series: Part 1 of repairing the world

Summary: There's not exactly a manual on how to raise a space baby. Martha and Jonathan do the best they can.

All the Roofs of Uncertainty (70065 words) by Kieron_ODuibhir Chapters: 12/12 Fandom:Batman (Comics),Batman - All Media Types,DCU Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Dick Grayson & Jason Todd, Jason Todd & Leslie Thompkins, Jason Todd & Bruce Wayne Characters: Jason Todd, Dick Grayson, Wally West, Leslie Thompkins, Tim Drake, Damian Wayne, Bruce Wayne, Stephanie Brown, Cassandra Cain, Sasha | Scarlet

Additional Tags: Brothers, Blood, Reconciliation, Red Hood - Freeform, Nightwing - Freeform, Hurt/Comfort, You were always the Golden Boy, appearances by Superman and Impulse II, cameos by Static and Bulleteer, Everybody loves Dick Grayson, Angst, Rage, you made a choice, parenting, Wally West is the worst combat therapist, also featuring cameo by Shazam!, Families of Choice, Alfred and Leslie taught Bruce how to be a parent, which might explain a lot, gratuitous canon, Now with added Batman, now with possibly too much Batman, what even is an antihero anyway?, insufferable big brother jason todd, the girls are sadly only in the epilogue

Summary: For all the blood on his hands, Red Hood was never just a villain. And Nightwing never gives up on family, not for good.

(Or: The one where Dick bleeds a lot and Jason argues with everybody.)

In all your wanderings (16073 words) by MirandaTam Chapters: 11/11 Fandom: Star Wars - All Media Types,Star Wars Prequel Trilogy Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Shmi Skywalker, Anakin Skywalker, Qui-Gon Jinn, Padmé Amidala, Obi-Wan Kenobi, Yoda, Mace Windu, Darth Maul, Dooku (Star Wars) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Slavery, Jedi Shmi, Alternate Universe - Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies, that's the plan at least, Shmi is the best jedi tbh Series: Part 1 of Jedi Shmi AU

Summary: Passion, yet serenity.

Shmi leaves Tatooine with Anakin and goes to the Jedi Temple.

Hindsight is Not Perfect (61864 words) by DAsObiQuiet Chapters: 13/13 Fandom: Star Wars - All Media Types,Star Wars Prequel Trilogy,Star Wars Original Trilogy Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Padmé Amidala/Anakin Skywalker, onesided - Relationship Characters: Anakin Skywalker | Darth Vader, Luke Skywalker, Obi-Wan Kenobi, Shmi Skywalker, Watto (Star Wars), Qui-Gon Jinn, Padmé Amidala, Yoda, Siri Tachi, Palpatine | Darth Sidious, Finis Valorum, Panaka (Star Wars), Mace Windu

Additional Tags: Time Travel, Fix-It of Sorts, Time Travel Fix-It, Redemption, Well he tries Series: Part 1 of Force of Many Sights

Summary: Paved with good intentions or not, the road back from Hell is a difficult, slippery slope for those who choose to walk it as Anakin has. Now he has to face the consequences of his choices, avoid suspicion of everyone from the Jedi Council to Palpatine and try to prevent the future from turning out as badly Before all while somehow finding a way to balance the Force... again!

have you heard (42166 words) by peradi Chapters: 8/8 Fandom:Star Wars - All Media Types,Star Wars Episode VII: The Force Awakens (2015) Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Poe Dameron/Finn, Poe Dameron/Finn/Rey Characters: Poe Dameron, Finn, Phasma, Hux, Kylo Ren, Stormtroopers, Luke Skywalker, Leia Organa, Rey, Han Solo, Snoke Additional Tags: stories, Revolution, The First Order Sucks, stormtroopers - Freeform, Propaganda, finn is the patron saint of revolution, fn-2187 was a storm trooper Series: Part 1 of once there was Summary: "I heard FN-2187 was a Stormtrooper."

Finn sparks a revolution.

Fundamental Force Carriers (87796 words) by tanarill Chapters: 13/13 Fandom: Star Wars - All Media Types,Star Wars Prequel Trilogy,Star Wars: The Clone Wars (2008) - All Media Types,Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of the Sith Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Padmé Amidala/Anakin Skywalker, Anakin Skywalker & Ahsoka Tano, Obi-Wan Kenobi & Anakin Skywalker, Anakin Skywalker & Yoda

Characters: Anakin Skywalker | Darth Vader, Ahsoka Tano, Obi-Wan Kenobi, The Son (Clone Wars), The Father (Clone Wars), Yoda, Mace Windu, Sheev Palpatine | Darth Sidious, Padmé Amidala, CT-7567 | Rex, CT-5597 | Jesse, CT-6116 | Kix, Aang (Star Wars), OMC, OFC, Jocasta Nu, Quinlan Vos, Asajj Ventress, Pong Krell, Ki-Adi-Mundi, Plo Koon, R2-D2, Dooku | Darth Tyranus, Grievous | Qymaen jai Sheelal, CC-2224 | Cody, Saesee Tiin, Oppo Rancisis, Adi Gallia, Even Piell, Han Solo, Kit Fisto, Agen Kolar, Shaak Ti

Additional Tags: Time Travel, Alternate Universe - Time Travel, Fix-It, Time Travel Fix-It, Lightsabers, Meditation, Feels, Training, Jedi Training, Lightsaber Battles, The Force, The Dark Side of the Force, BAMF!Anakin, Clones, News Media, Mental Health Issues, Therapy, Mathematics, Quantum Mechanics

Series: Part 1 of Probability Matrices

Summary: The Sith Lord Darth Vader lived his life. He probably didn't live it well, but he lived it as well as he knew how. At the end there, he'd even managed to woman up and kill Sidious. But he was dying, and at peace with the past.

The past wasn't at peace with him.

Brooklyn Boys (8332 words) by SleepsWithCoyotes Chapters: 1/1 Fandom:Marvel Cinematic Universe,Captain America (Movies),The Avengers (Marvel Movies) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes, Jotunheim Beast, Steve Rogers, Tony Stark, Sam Wilson (Marvel), Thor (Marvel), Friday (Marvel) Additional Tags: Gen or Pre-Slash, Not Captain America: Civil War (Movie) Compliant

Summary: The stray picks up a stray.

4 Minute Window (24127 words) by Speranza Chapters: 1/1 Fandom:Captain America (Movies),Marvel Cinematic Universe Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers Characters: Natasha Romanov, Clint Barton, Tony Stark, Pepper Potts, Sam Wilson (Marvel), Peggy Carter Additional Tags: Surveillance, It's Like Grand Central Station In Here, Brooklyn Boys, Power Couple, People Are Sick of Conceptual Art Series: Part 1 of 4 Minute Window

Summary: "Look, if they catch me," Bucky muttered, "they're either going to kill me or they're going to put me in a box with a little window and—Steve, I can't."

This, You Protect (64326 words) by owlet Chapters: 33/33 Fandom:Captain America (Movies),Marvel Cinematic Universe Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes & Steve Rogers Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes, Steve Rogers, Sam Wilson (Marvel), Natasha Romanov, Tony Stark, Jarvis (Iron Man movies), Pepper Potts, Clint Barton Additional Tags: Humor, I hope humor anyway, cursing, Protection, Strong feelings about coffee, slightly off-canon, Steve is sassy, sam is sassy, Bucky is sassy, Everyone has their sassy pants on, just accept that grilled cheese is the perfect food, old people are Team Bucky Series: Part 1 of Infinite Coffee and Protection Detail

Summary: The mission resets abruptly, from objective: kill to objective: protect

Ain't No Grave (Can Keep My Body Down) (107076 words) by spitandvinegar Chapters: 10/10 Fandom:Captain America - All Media Types,Marvel Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers Characters: Steve Rogers, James "Bucky" Barnes, Sam Wilson (Marvel), Natasha Romanov, Tony Stark, Clint Barton, Phil Coulson, Original Characters, Pepper Potts, Matt Murdock, Franklin "Foggy" Nelson, Claire Temple

Additional Tags: Post-Captain America: The Winter Soldier, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Drug Abuse, Homelessness, Jewish Bucky Barnes, Catholic Steve Rogers, Religious Imagery & Symbolism, Artist Steve Rogers, Identity Issues, POV Alternating, Not Avengers: Age of Ultron (Movie) Compliant, because I am a desert pony that runs as wild and free as the wind, Period Typical Attitudes, Masturbation, Past Peggy Carter/Steve Rogers, original kid characters, a coupla goddamn kids, Pinkberry, Past Rape/Non-con

Series: Part 2 of Ain't No Grave

Summary: It's six in the morning, and Steve is heading out on a run when he nearly trips over a bouquet of sunflowers on the front steps of his brownstone.

For a second paranoia takes over, and he kicks the flowers a little, waiting for them to explode. They don't. They also came with a card, which he picks up. The front of the card has a tasteful picture of the Brooklyn bridge at sunset. It's very nice and sedate, like the kind of card you would buy to give to your boss. On the inside someone has written a short message in big, shaky block letters.

I AM SORRY FOR SHOOTING YOU.

Steve sits down hard on the steps.

Don't Stop Believing (205901 words) by kianspo Chapters: 11/11 Fandom:Star Trek (2009),Star Trek: Alternate Original Series (Movies) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: James T. Kirk/Spock, Christopher Pike/Spock, Spock/Nyota Uhura Additional Tags: Action/Adventure, First Time, Angst, Drama, Ensemble Cast, Slow Burn, Enemies to Friends to Lovers Series: Part 2 of Don't Stop Believing

Summary: The story follows Spock from his own days as a cadet at Starfleet Academy to the ‘present day’ when he’s Kirk’s first officer and the Enterprise is on its five-year mission. Essentially, the story of Spock’s first real love followed by the story of him finding the love of his life. Ad astra per aspera.

Kal'i'farr heh T'naehm (11198 words) by sixbeforelunch Chapters: 1/1 Fandom:Star Trek, Star Trek: Deep Space Nine Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Original Female Character/Original Male Character Characters: Original Vulcan Character(s) Additional Tags: Vulcan, Vulcan Culture, Alien Culture, Pon Farr, Marriage, The Dominion War - Freeform, world building, action takes place over a single day, tight focus, tight 3rd person POV, Ordinary People, Little Brothers, Big Sisters, architecture nerds, linguistics nerds, Sherlock Holmes fans, Clans, alien ceremonies, Arranged Marriage, Alien Food, Food, Cooking, Telepathy, Mental bonds, Telepathic Bonds, Parents and Children, Communication, no canon characters Series: Part 1 of Pi'maat Summary: A meditation on marriage and war, from a Vulcan perspective, on the eve of the Dominion War.

Stubborn Mouths: Humans In Translation (62940 words) by Hannah Chapters: 23/23 Fandom: Star Trek: Deep Space Nine Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Julian Bashir/Elim Garak Characters: Julian Bashir, Elim Garak, Jadzia Dax, Odo (Star Trek), Kira Nerys, Quark (Star Trek), Miles O'Brien, Keiko O'Brien, Benjamin Sisko, Minor Characters

Additional Tags: Disability, Disabled Character of Color, Autism, Canon Character of Color, Neurodiversity, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Alien Cultural Differences, Judaism, Jews In Space, exploring replicator limitations, Literary References & Allusions, Neko Case - Freeform, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Autistic Character

Summary: If you’re sending yourself out to the edge of civilization, people expect it to be done for fame and glory – but then, Julian Bashir has never been what’s expected of him. He’s quite happy to agree with the reasons other people provide, because he isn’t sharing the private whys and wherefores when people are more than happy to fill in the gaps themselves. There are other, better things to worry about, work to be done and friends to be made – possibly even a lover, if he’s lucky…

...all while fighting to maintain his worth, and remain exactly who he’s always been.

A Bit Too Much Good Work (96074 words) by a_t_rain Chapters: 25/25 Fandom: Vorkosigan Saga - Lois McMaster Bujold Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Rish/Byerly Vorrutyer Characters: Byerly Vorrutyer, Rish, Ivan Vorpatril, Alys Vorpatril, Tej Arqua Vorpatril, Donna Vorrutyer | Dono Vorrutyer Additional Tags: Politics, Case Fic, Class Issues, Book: Captain Vorpatril's Alliance, Imperial Security, Spies & Secret Agents, Cultural Differences

Summary: Behind the scenes of Captain Vorpatril's Alliance, Byerly grapples with bomb threats, Council of Counts politics, fallout from a previous case, and the difficulty of maintaining a romance when one's profession blurs the lines between lovers, colleagues, witnesses, and suspects.

Rise Up (2711 words) by hollimichele Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Sleepy Hollow (TV), Hamilton - Miranda Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Ichabod Crane, Abbie Mills (Sleepy Hollow), Alexander Hamilton Additional Tags: RPF, sort of? technically? Series: Part 1 of Don't Be Shocked When Your Hist'ry Book Mentions Me Summary: “I call bullshit,” Abbie said, ten steps into the secret crypt beneath Trinity Church.

Honor Among Thieves (225021 words) by Bracketyjack Chapters: 8/8 Fandom:Honor Harrington Series - David Weber Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Additional Tags: Alternative Universe - Canon Divergence Summary: An Alternative Honorverse Novel.

I know the extended story-arc is one of the great glories of the Honorverse, but haven't you ever, ploughing through the latest best-selling doorstop, wanted radically to short-circuit the whole thing, and see those morally defective, small-souled Manticoran aristocrats taken down hard? And all Detweilers and Kolokoltsovs whatsoever fed to a vengeful passel of treecats, with BBQ sauce? I know I have ...

Going Native (151814 words) by Rap541 Chapters: 67/67 Fandom:Battlestar Galactica (2003),Star Trek: The Next Generation Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Characters: Felix Gaeta, Kara "Starbuck" Thrace, Lee "Apollo" Adama, Anastasia "Dee" Dualla, William Adama, Laura Roslin, Jean-Luc Picard, Saul Tigh, William Riker, Beverly Crusher, Worf (Star Trek:TNG/DS9), Reginald Barclay Additional Tags: Crossover, Fix-It Summary: What do you do when you're a lost Starfleet officer in the Beta Quadrant? You blend in and hope for the best.

Digging for the Bones by Paganaidd (203178 words) by Paganaidd Chapters: 62/62 Fandom:Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death Characters: Severus Snape, Harry Potter Additional Tags: Severitus, Suicidal Thoughts, Suicide Attempt, Panic Attack, Depression

Summary: Rather than allowing Harry to stay at Diagon Alley after he blew up Aunt Marge, the Ministry sends Harry back to the Dursleys. Harry returns to school after a terrible summer, to find that he's not the only one with this kind of secret. A student has been killed by his family. New screening measures are put into place by the Ministry: Every student must be given a medical exam and interview to look for child abuse. With Dumbledore facing an inquiry, Snape is entrusted with the task of making sure EVERYONE receives one.

The first chapter contains a character death and the whole story is quite dark. It begins at the beginning of Prisoner of Azkaban and is AU thereafter. Also note: this story is a "Snape is Harry's biological dad" story. This is not supposed to be the central theme of the story, but people have gotten annoyed that I didn't tell them at the beginning. D.S.S. Requirement by esama (30k) Harry Potter AU/Stargate The Dumbledore's Army use the Room of the Requirement to get themselves a spaceship.

The Best Revenge (and it's sequel) by Arsinoe de Blassenville, 213k and 108k Harry Potter AU. Yes, the old Snape retrieves Harry from the Dursleys formula. I just had to write one. Everything changes, because the best revenge is living well. T for Mentor Snape's occasional naughty language. Supportive Minerva.

There was an Old Woman Who Lived in a Shoe (77571 words) by Shoshanah-ben-hohim Chapters: 5/5 Fandom: Hockey RPF Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Sidney Crosby/Evgeni Malkin Characters: Evgeni Malkin, Sidney Crosby, Mario Lemieux, Sergei Gonchar Additional Tags: Ensemble Cast, Kid Fic, Original Character(s), Pittsburgh Penguins, Washington Capitals, St. Louis Blues, New York Rangers, Columbus Blue Jackets, 2018 Winter Olympics, Homophobia, Xenophobia, Child Neglect, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Mutual Pining Series: Part 1 of There was an Old Woman Who Lived in a Shoe

Summary: Amidst rising political tensions between Russia and NATO countries, the KHL and NHL failed to renew their labor agreement this summer. Due to the failed agreement and intense political pressure at home, the Russian NHL players do not return to the NHL.

By March, Geno has played almost a season in Russia, and accepts this is his new reality, no matter how much he misses Sid – until he finds the first child. This sets him and everyone he involves down a dangerous path of international intrigue. Flightless Birds by RedandGreen, 94k words Hockey RPF genderbender Sid's hair is a thing. It's her thing, and she's always a girl even when she's a hockey player. (tw: sexual assault)

Fastening One Heart to Every Falling Thing (51519 words) by thefourthvine Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Hockey RPF Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Sidney Crosby/Evgeni Malkin, Evgeni Malkin/Alexander Ovechkin Additional Tags: Alternate Universe, Alternate Universe - Soulbond, Trope Subversion/Inversion, Spacetoaster, Podfic Available, No Miracle Cure

Summary: Geno can't. Sidney won't.

To Bear is to Conquer Our Fate (106365 words) by Shem Chapters: 34/34 Fandom:Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen ating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Kitty Bennet/Fitzwilliam Darcy Characters: Kitty Bennet, Fitzwilliam Darcy Summary: The day after the Netherfield Ball, a simple walk through the countryside has wide reaching consequences for Mr Darcy and a certain young lady from Longbourn.

The Brighton Effect (74644 words) by Shem Chapters: 29/29 Fandom: Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen ating: General Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Catherine Bennet/Other(s), Elizabeth Bennet/Fitzwilliam Darcy, Jane Bennet/Charles Bingley Series: Part 1 of The Effect Summary: Kitty's chance to go to Brighton with Lydia may just change everyone's fate

Fair Winds and Homeward Sail (49011 words) by Ione Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Persuasion - Jane Austen Rating: Not Rated Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Admiral Croft/Sophia Croft, Anne Elliot/Frederick Wentworth Characters: Sophia Croft, Anne Elliot, Admiral Croft, Frederick Wentworth, Louisa Musgrove, Lady Russell, Mary Musgrove, Charles Musgrove, Captain Harville Additional Tags: The Royal Navy, References to Jane Austen, Regency Summary: Sophia Wentworth was devoted to her brothers before she found happiness. Then she wanted the same for Frederick . . .

Lydia, still (2719 words) by tree Chapters: 4/4 Fandom: Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen, Star Trek: The Next Generation Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Lydia Bennet, Data (Star Trek), Jean-Luc Picard Additional Tags: Crossovers & Fandom Fusions, Epistolary, Holodecks/Holosuites, I Don't Even Know Summary: Rocks fall. Everyone dies.

Except Lydia.

Square Peg in a Round Hole, or Junior Year of High School, Revised, A Clones Tale (42497 words) by MarbleGlove Chapters: 13/13 Fandom:Highlander: The Series,Stargate SG-1 Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Methos, Clone Jack O'Neill, Daniel Jackson, Teal'c, General Hammond, Jack O'Neill Additional Tags: post Fragile Balance, Crossover Series: Part 1 of A Square Peg in a Round Hole Summary: Methos was just spending a year as a high school teacher; Jake O'Neil was just trying to be someone other than Jack O'Neill; neither are simple individuals.

Change Is Only The Beginning (78449 words) by ivorygates Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Stargate SG-1 Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Jack O'Neill/Danielle Jackson Characters: Jack O'Neill, Danielle Jackson, Charlie Kawalsky, Ra (SG-1), Skaara (SG-1), Sha're (SG-1), Catherine Langford Additional Tags: Stargate the Movie AU, Girl!Daniel Summary: The One Where: Catherine Langford hired the wrong archaeologist for Project Giza, Dani Jackson joins a lesbian rock band, Jack isn't quite sure what he wants, and Gary Meyers gets a makeover.

AKA: Ivory Writes A Harlequin Romance...

Warning: incipient babies.

Said the Joker to the Thief (41898 words) by ivorygates, greenbirds Chapters: 1/1 Fandom:Stargate SG-1,NCIS ating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Series: Part 1 of Joker'verse Summary: If this isn't the absolute worst Monday Gibbs has ever experienced, it's certainly in the top ten.

And do my spiriting gently (1478 words) by thinlizzy2 Chapters: 1/1 Fandom:The Tempest - Shakespeare ating: General Audiences Warnings: Major Character Death Characters: Ariel, Prospero, Miranda Summary: All is not as it seems on Prospero's island, but that is no coincidence. The island is Ariel's domain, and zie is the one who shapes the reality there.

World Ain't Ready (185796 words) by idiopathicsmile Chapters: 16/16 Fandom: Les Misérables - All Media Types Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Enjolras/Grantaire, background Courfeyrac/Jean Prouvaire - Relationship Characters: Grantaire (Les Misérables), Enjolras (Les Misérables), Éponine Thénardier, Jean "Jehan" Prouvaire, Courfeyrac (Les Misérables), Bahorel (Les Misérables), Marius Pontmercy, Cosette Fauchelevent, Joly (Les Misérables), Bossuet Laigle, Musichetta (Les Misérables) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Alternate Universe - High School Summary: Enjolras presses his lips together. He already looks pained, and Grantaire hasn't even opened his mouth yet. That's got to be a record, even for them.

"I need a favor," he says at last.

"With what?" says Grantaire. "Ooh, are you forming a cult? Can I join? I'd be awesome at cults, I just know it." He ticks off his qualifications on his fingers. "I love chanting, I look great in robes—"

(High school AU. Grantaire the disaffected stoner is pulled into a cause bigger than himself. Or: in which there are pretend boyfriends for great justice.)

Admit Me, Chorus to This History (35091 words) by Morgyn Leri Chapters: 4/4 Fandom: 15th Century CE RPF,Henry V - Shakespeare Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death Relationships: Henry V of England/Blanche Stretton (OFC) Characters: Henry V of England, Henry IV of England, Thomas Beaufort, Henry Scroop, Katherine of Valois, John of Lancaster: Duke of Bedford, Humphrey of Lancaster: Duke of Gloucester, Blanche Stretton (OFC), James Stretton (OMC), Robert of Stretton (OMC) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe, GFY, Don’t copy to another site Series: Part 1 of Mistress to Queen

Summary: An alternate history or alternate reality, if you will, wherein what some might call a romance is played out between a prince whose passions are power and war and a girl who wants nothing so much as family.

Hail Mary (191627 words) by galaxysoup Chapters: 23/23 Fandom:Supernatural Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Mary Winchester, Castiel, Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Missouri Moseley, Jody Mills, Ephraim (Supernatural), Joshua (Supernatural), Malachi (Supernatural), Theo (Supernatural), Crowley (Supernatural), Ezekiel | Gadreel, Cain (Supernatural), Tara (Supernatural: First Born), Garth Fitzgerald IV, Charlie Bradbury, Dorothy Baum, Muriel (Supernatural), Jim Murphy, Ellen Harvelle, Jo Harvelle, Tamara (Supernatural), Isaac (Supernatural), Kevin Tran, Linda Tran, Rufus Turner, Deanna Campbell, Victor Henriksen, Caleb (Supernatural), Annie Hawkins, Bartholomew (Supernatural), Original Characters, Bela Talbot, Hannah (Supernatural)

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, BAMF Mary Winchester, BAMF Castiel, POV Mary Winchester, Human Castiel, Male-Female Friendship, Post-Episode: s09e03 I'm No Angel, Angst, Action/Adventure, Hurt/Comfort, Hurt Castiel, Canon-Typical Violence, John Winchester's A+ Parenting, Sick Castiel, Minor Character Death, Apocalypse Series: Part 1 of Hail Mary-verse

Summary:Take one newly human ex-angel on the run from Heaven. Combine with one mysteriously resurrected and increasingly pissed off Mary Winchester. Add overtones of Apocalypse. Shake well.

she's gotta be strong to fight them (25476 words) by stars_inthe_sky Chapters: 7/7 Fandom:Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles,Terminator - All Media Types,Terminator (Movies),The Terminator (1984),Terminator 2: Judgment Day (1991) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Graphic Depictions Of Violence Characters: Savannah Weaver, Sarah Connor, Lauren Fields, Sydney Fields, James Ellison, Martin Bedell, Jesse Flores, Original Characters, Original Male Character(s), Original Female Character(s) Additional Tags: Families of Choice, Unconventional Families, Mother-Daughter Relationship, Episode: s02e22 Born to Run, Training, Survival Training, Bechdel Test Pass, Apocalypse, Pre-Apocalypse, Alternate Timelines, Alternate Canon

Series: Part 1 of tell me where your strength lies

Summary: Sarah rises and hugs her so tightly that Savannah’s wet towel soaks through her sweater. “What did you mean, before, I saved your life?” Savannah asks, voice muffled by Sarah’s shoulder. “I didn’t do anything.”

After “Born to Run,” they’re just a kid without a mom and a mom without a kid. But a storm is still coming. (First in a series)

Through An Open Window (75068 words) by LMA Chapters: 34/34 Fandom: Babylon 5 Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Valen (Jeffrey Sinclair)/Catherine Sakai, Sinclair & Delenn Characters: Valen (Jeffrey Sinclair), Catherine Sakai, Delenn, Draal, Zathras, Kosh Summary: Recounts the story of Jeffrey Sinclair's early years as Valen and his reunion with his fiancee Catherine Sakai; Delenn learns what happened to her friend by using the Great Machine. Originally published in 1996.

(The sequel is Summoned) Legend by ShayneT (100k words) Buffy/Star Trek TNG Summary: Trapped by an alien collector, Lieutenant Commander Data discovers an early 21st century android excavated from the ruins of Sunnydale and a capsule containing the frozen body of one of the Eugenic wars most notorious figures...Buffy Summers.

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Cracked, But Far From Broken

Characters: Spencer Reid x Reader, Mr., and Mrs. Olson (OCs), The BAU

Genre: flangst

Word Count: 1,503

Summary: While on a case, a couple has a fight and it triggers a panic attack. Spencer helps you through it

Warnings: panic attack, yelling, fighting, mention of child abductions

A/N: Edited with Grammarly but any and all mistakes are my own and no one is to blame for them but myself.

We are afraid to care too much, for fear that the other person does not care at all.

-Eleanor Roosevelt

Spencer knew that you had a panic disorder and he knew how to help you if a panic attack were to come. This was one of the first things you told him when the two of you started dating. You were afraid he didn't want to be with you anymore after you told him, but he stayed with you and promised he'd always be there should a problem arise.

The team was working on a case in the Upper Peninsula. There were some child abductions in Houghton, Michigan and the BAU was brought in to help get the kids back.

After returning from the Olson's house, you and Spencer came into the Houghton Police Station. The parent's of one of the children were fighting in the bullpen.

"If you had just been watching him a little bit closer then maybe he wouldn't have gotten taken in the first place!" the father yelled.

"He was in the bathroom! I couldn't have gone in there if I wanted to! He had the door locked!"

"Well then maybe you should've gone in there with him!"

The yelling could be heard from outside the building and it seemed even more intense inside. You gripped Spencer's hand and tried to calm your nerves.

Your parents fought often and they usually dragged you into it. They would force you to pick sides and whoseever side you didn't take, that parent would punish you.

"And you!" the mother screamed at you, looking at you directly in the eyes. "Why the hell are you back here when my baby is somewhere out there? You could be out there looking for Tyler but instead, you're here and you're gonna do what? Fill out some paperwork?" She turned back to her husband and continued the yelling.

You had to step away and go into the sheriff's office. You leaned your head against the wall and tried to calm your nerves, but that only sped up your breathing.

The door opened behind you and Spencer came in.

"Hey, hey Y/N," he said quietly. "It's okay. Alright? You're okay. I'm right here, I promise."

"I-I," you rasped between heavy breaths.

"Don't talk, okay? I need you to turn around for me, can you do that?" You turned around to face him and you slid to the floor, unable to keep your balance anymore. "Good, good. Okay, now I want you to breathe in until I count to four, okay? Can you do that?"

You nodded your head and tried to steady your breathing, but you only made it to two before you let out your breath.

"It's okay, you can do it I know you can."

You tried again and this time you made it to four counts.

"Good, now you're going to hold your breath for seven counts, okay?"

You let out your breath early again, but Spencer coached you through it a couple of times and you eventually were able to make it to seven.

"You're doing great, Y/N. Now you're going to let out your breath for eight counts. Do you think you can do that for me."

You nodded your head and let out your breath for the full eight counts on the first try. You repeated what Spencer called 'The 4-7-8 Method' a couple of times before you felt your breath fully even out.

"Thank you," you whispered before pulling your legs up to your chest and leaning your head against your knees.

"It's not a problem at all. Approximately 1 to 2 percent of Americans suffer a panic disorder at some point during the year and about 5 percent experience it at some point in their lives,"* Spencer said as he rubbed your back. "And not everyone who experiences panic attacks has a panic disorder. Sometimes they can just evolve from stress and can come uncued. Despite feeling like no one can understand what it feels like, someone out there does. Panic attacks are different for each individual, however, many people have similar experiences."

Spencer's rambling helped ease your nerves. He knew his voice would help calm you down. He would often go on a tangent if you were feeling anxious because he knew it would help.

"I'm going to go get you some water, okay?" You nodded as Spencer stood up and went out of the room.

"What have you been doing in there for the last twenty minutes?" the husband shouted as he saw Spencer come out of the office. "Discussing theories? Making a plan? Is there maybe anything you would like to share with the class, Doctor?'

"Sir, I'm going to have to ask you to calm down and lower your voice," Spencer said.

"Why should I? While I've been out here worried sick, you and that other Agent have been in that room doing who knows what? If you asked me, I would say the two of you were hooking up in there."

"Mr. Olson, your yelling at the team is doing nothing but slowing down the process of finding Tyler. Now, Agent Y/LN and I did find some valuable information at your house and we were going to share it, however, your fight with your wife and then bringing Y/N into the situation caused her to have a triggered panic attack. Now, if you excuse me, I'm going to go get some water and go back inside that room and we will only come out when Agent Y/LN is ready to."

Spencer finished his speech and went to a vending machine to get the water he had promised you. On his way back, Mr. Olson stopped him.

"Dr. Reid," he said. "I'm really sorry about before. My temper and the stress of trying to find Tyler alive just took over. I'm truly sorry for causing Agent Y/LN to have a panic attack."

"Mr. Olson, what you did is not your fault. There's no way you could have possibly known that fighting in the form of words would be a trigger for Y/N's anxiety. She's doing okay right now, but I would advise that you and your wife stop fighting and certainly stop pointing fingers at the BAU. I understand that you're furious with yourselves and you blame yourselves for Tyler getting taken. I'm also aware that the FBI is an easy scapegoat for your feelings, but you need to realize that we want to find Tyler alive just as much as you do, and we can't do that if you're affecting our work. But please, if you have any information that may seem vital to the case, feel free to tell us. I'm going to go back in with Y/N now. If you have any other questions or comments, please see Agent Jareau."

Spencer got done talking with Mr. Olson and came back into the Sheriff's office and rejoined you on the floor. You were in the same position as you were when he left to go get the water for you.

"How are you doing?"

"I'm okay. Thanks," you said quietly. You reached for the water and let the cool liquid run down your throat.

You let your head rest against Spencer's shoulder as you sat in silence. You didn't want to go and face the rest of the team quite yet, and Spencer was okay with that. He had helped you through another one of these before and he knew it took you a while to recover, but he was willing to stay with you until you were ready.

"I'm sorry," you said after a few minutes. Spencer knew you had a habit of blaming yourself for things like this happening.

"Don't apologize. You can't control it. There's nothing to be sorry for, I promise."

"I know, but I still feel the need to say it."

"I know you do, but I promise you don't need to say anything."

Spencer pressed a gentle kiss to your temple and you sat in silence for a little longer.

A couple of minutes later, you were ready to go back out and help with the case again. Spencer helped you up off the floor and held your hand as the two of you walked out of the room.

The rest of the unit looked at you as you approached them, each of their faces had concern written across them. You gave them a smile and told them what you found at the house.

No one said a word about what happened after that and you were grateful. No one treated you differently. No one treated like you were fragile and vulnerable. If anything, they considered you to be the strongest out of all of them.

The one you were the most grateful for was Spencer. He was there when you were at your most vulnerable and he helped you through it, but he never treated you like you were broken. You loved him even more for that.

Spencer reminded you that you are not broken. You may be cracked, but you are far from broken.

I will not fear, for you are with me and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.

-Thomas Merton

* www.newharbinger.com