#this hurts me so much i fckng love it

[jeannineee]

i don't know if anybody has all ready request you this but here is mine. from the bingo, size kink with rowan fckng whitethorn 🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️

love u and thanks for writing and making us happy (and horny 🫣🧎🏻‍♀️)

Fragile

Rowan Whitethorn x Reader

a/n: I need a Rowan 😞. Bingo found here, requests still open. Love you guys!!

nsfw under the cut (18+, minors go away)

“You’re not going to hurt me,” you told Rowan as you straddled him, running your hands down his bare chest, his abs. “We’ll take it slow.”

Rowan sighed, and gently grabbed your chin, pulling you forward to kiss him. His large hands squeezed your ass, eliciting a whimper from you.

“Rowan…” you pouted, pulling away from the kiss. “I’m serious. I want this.”

Rowan had been apprehensive about having sex with you, for obvious reasons. He’s huge. Compared to him, you were so delicate—fragile, even. He’d gone down on you, fucked you with his fingers—even that was a stretch for you. He never wanted to go further though, for fear of injuring you.

Rowan cupped your face, thumbs grazing your cheekbones. “As long as we go slow.”

You smiled giddily, hands working to undo the laces of his trousers. Rowan help you guide them off, before laying back again.

His cock was much larger than any you’d had before. You were intimidated, but determined.

You straddled him again, guiding his length to your entrance.

Rowan took a shaky breath. “Remember, go slow—oh, fuck,” he choked on his words as your cunt slowly enveloped him.

You braced your hands on his chest, softly panting as you strained to accommodate his size. “F-Fuck, you’re so big,” you sputtered.

Despite the fact that he was worried for you, Rowan couldn’t help but grin at your comment. He kept his hands on your hips, rubbing soothingly at your skin.

“Doing so good for me,” he praised, abs tensing as you sank lower. “You can take it.”

Once he bottomed out, you sighed in relief, giving yourself a few more moments to adjust. The stretch was mildly uncomfortable, but not painful.

You lifted yourself slowly, before sinking back down to the base of his cock again. You repeated the motion a few more times, breathless moans falling from your lips as you grew used to his size.

“So fucking tight,” Rowan grunted, gently guiding your movements. “Such a perfect little cunt.”

His words only encouraged you to ride him faster. Rowan groaned, hands digging into the plush skin of your hips. “Fuck, fuck, if you don’t slow down I’m gonna come,” he said, slight embarrassment in his voice.

Your face flushed at his words, and you felt a sense of pride at them. But you slowed your movements, and Rowan took the opportunity to flip you onto your back.

Rowan’s thrusts were slow and deep. Once he brought his hand down to your clit, you swore you were actually seeing stars.

You felt so full, so completely blissed out that you could barely speak, barely think.

He was being patient; gentle. Part of you wanted him to fuck you into oblivion, but you knew that wouldn’t happen this time.

“‘M so close,” you whined, your cunt fluttering as his thrusts grew more forceful.

Rowan pressed his face in your neck, biting the sensitive skin to stifle his moaning. “Fuck, fuck, sweetheart. Come for me. Come on my cock.”

Your vision went hazy, nails raking along his back as your orgasm tore through you. A few more thrusts, and Rowan cursed, filling you with thick ropes of his cum.

He stayed buried inside you for several minutes as the two of you regulated your breathing. As soon as he pulled out, he placed you on his chest, his strong arms wrapping around you protectively.

“Are you okay?” He asked, brows furrowed with worry.

You hummed contentedly, nuzzling against him as your eyes grew heavy with sleep.

“More than okay.”

#rowan whitethorn #rowan whitethorn smut #rowan whitethorn x reader #throne of glass #tog #tog smut #throne of glass smut #smut #female reader

[imnobodysbaby]

that can't be it. srsly?!?!?! but no, yes i am MAD that we didn't get to see Sylki kiss but i am even more madder that we didn't even got the chance to hear out how Sylvie feels, BECAUSE SHE FEELS A LOT AND YOU CANNOT TELL ME OTHERWISE! WHY?

Just the way she looks at Loki when she found out that Loki had the choice to kill her and the universe will be saved, but he didn't. CAN YOU EVEN IMAGINE HOW SHE FELT WHEN SHE FOUND OUT ABOUT THAT?

When Loki goes out to the Loom, we can see how Sylvie is frantic and says "I need to get out there" so she can be with him, but she can't and all she can do is watch, not even knowing what will happen to him. YOU CAN SEE ALL THE CARE AND LOVE IN HER EYES

this one shot of everyone being just silhouettes and we can see the light center at her only for a while but we can clearly see the look on her face. her hand on her mouth just shows how fckng worried she is

also THIS

WE CAN SEE THAT SYLVIE UNDERSTANDS. SHE KNOWS THAT LOKI KNOWS WHAT SHE WANTS. AND THAT IS TO HAVE A NORMAL LIFE. SHE CAN SEE WHAT LOKI IS ABOUT TO DO, SHE UNDERSTANDS THAT HE’S DOING THIS FOR HER (for all of them ofc) AND WHY SHE SAID, “He’s giving us a chance”. WE CAN CLEARLY SEE THE HURT IN HER EYES!!!

“for you” (FCK I AM WRECKED 😭😭😭)

SERIOUSLY, I'M PRETTY SURE A LOT OF THINGS ARE GOING ON IN HER MIND. THEY DIDN'T EVEN GET THE CHANCE TO TALK!!! AND WHY DIDN'T WE GET MORE OF SYLVIE'S SIDE IN THIS MATTER?!

Sylvie is new to this kind of feelings, that's why it's hard for her to let it out, BUT WE CAN CLEARLY SEE THAT SHE DOES CARE FOR HIM SO MUCH AND I HATE IT SO MUCH THAT THEY DIDN'T EVEN LET HER EXPLORE IT OUT MORE.

SYLVIE IS LITERALLY THE HEART OF THE WHOLE SERIES. Everything Loki does boils down to her/for her (and ofc for his newfound friends and family) and to think everything started because of her and we didn't even get a chance to see what she'll do now. YOU ALSO CANNOT TELL ME THAT SHE WILL JUST LIVE ON WITH HER LIFE AND NOT THINK OF LOKI BECAUSE SHE WILL OKAY?! SHE CAN GO AFTER HIM IF SHE WANTS (she still have He Who Remains tempad bracelet thingy soooo)

ALSO LAST THING I am also MAD that we finally see how Loki is when he falls in love that he literally sacrifices EVERYTHING, GOES OUT OF HIS WAY, GOES BACK TO HIS VILLANOUS HABIT JUST TO FIND HER AND IT ALL ENDS UP LIKE THAT?!?!??! I WILL NOT ACCEPT IT!

#loki #sylki #loki series #loki spoilers #loki x sylvie #loki laufeyson #sylvie laufeydottir #sylvie #loki finale #sylki deserved better #WHY WHY WOULD THEY END IT LIKE THAT?! #I AM SO MAD IM CRYING #loki season 2 #loki tv

[craniumflight]

old knife

they are unhinged your honor, chapter 218

xie wei: am i that much of a villain to you?

jiang xuening: you are peak villain

xie wei: (quiet ouch)

jiang xuening: if i sleep with you for 2 years, will you get me out of your system, then i can leave?

xie wei: you just want to escape, you coward. Yeah just deserting like what you did with zhang zhe.

jiang xuening: stfu. i dont want to be involved with you. being with you put me in unknown danger.

xie wei: what if you just try?

jiang xuening: only fools run into danger

xie wei: (drags her to an iron forge)

xie wei: look you are not a broken unfixable porcelain you idiot. you and me both are iron! we have to be destroyed, melted and smited in order to be strong. we are the same. accept yourself. im the only one who understands and loves you as you are. cant u see?

jiang xuening: im not like you!

xie wei: that's why a coward like you can't be with zhang zhe! either he sees through you are as stupid as you!

jiang xuening: stfu

xie wei: hurts doesnt it?

jiang xuening: let me go!

xie wei: escape all you want even if you go to the ends of the earth!

jiang xuening: you just want to drag me down in your madness!

xie wei: what's wrong with being buried with you?!

jiang xuening: holysht you're crazy

xie wei: pls

jiang xuening: if you wont let me go then what if you just kill me?

xie wei: ....

xie wei: (gives her the dagger)

xie wei: come, kill me

jiang xuening: you fckng piece of...(stabs him)

xie wei: (tries to reach out to her but fails)

jiang xuening: (walks away, blood on her hands, and hangs out with her girlfriends.)

lu xian, jianshu and daoquin: (panicking)

lu xian: who tf did this?!?! find them!

xie wei:(bleeding to death) find ning'er

lu xian: holysht

jiang xuening: (sipping tea)

daoquin: miss, please

jiang xuening: is your master still alive lol

daoquin: yes T.T

xie wei: (weak coz lack of blood) where's ning'er? did she leave?

daoquin: uh no she's sipping tea with her besties T.T

xie wei: so she didn't leave then... fck yeahhhh (passes out)

lu xian: bruh.

#story of kunning palace novel #story of kunning palace #xie wei #jiang xuening #lu xian #jianshu #the were so unwell here #but its so funny if u think abt it #ppl that need ancient china pyschological therapy

[bbina]

i fckng hate second chances with every fiber of my being and every living cell in my body. once its over, its over. if u fckd up IMMEDIATELY ✂️✂️✂️ i hate it when a characters get second chances after fckng it up real bad like NO U DO NOT DESERVE ANOTHER CHANCE AND OTHER MC ALSO DOES NOT DESERVE TO RISK GETTING HURT AGAIN

on the contrary tho, for btl, i do think yn should get another chance? is it another chance? well, wonbin didnt really give her a chance to explain herself, he went ahead of himself and created assumptions. and i know that every one says yn is the problem cus had she not offered the fake dating set up this wouldnt have happened BUT wonbin had no problem agreeing to it so....wouldnt really say yn is the root problem. the root problem is their lack of effective communication skills, emotional management/control and listening skills!!! wonbin im sorry but running away was a stupid af thing to do and i know ur hurt but u literally made assumptions after seeing 2ppl hug. babes ppl can hug platonically, believe me. thats all i have to say. *bows, drops mic and leaves stage*

im sorry for the sudden rant when this discourse was already over like a week ago i could not help it. ive been following u for a while but i am a silent reader and this is my first time sending an ask to anyone here in general. im so nervous. is my english okay? i swear i know proper punctuations but im too lazy to do it rn rip. i just want to say ive never been so invested in an eng au cus i usually read the ones in my native language cus THEM ANGST HIT DIFFERENT BRO anyway, i love ur writing sm <33 makes me wanna start writing again as well if it werent for my busy af shed (graduating student things). cant wait for the next updates ✨️🫶🫶

but the angst material is tew gewd don’t you think? second chances trope is nice and all if done right 🤪 maybe some groveling here and there and viola! perfection

most valid btl theory ive seen 😫 they’re both dumb 🤝 and did mistakes,, (yn made a bigger mistake tho) but point still stands

nah ur sudden rant about the week old discourse is perfectly okay. any rant about btl is 👌 cus im curious on how each person takes in the story and seeing a bunch of different reactions is what keeps me going 😫🤝 AND AGAIN IM HONORED TO BE ONE OF THE FIRST PEOPLE YOU SENT AN ASK TO 🙏 your english is great!!!! thank you so much for reading!! and i hope whatever i put out or something makes u want to go back to writing 🙏 i myself is a graduating student too but i still find the time to insert my hobby which is this because i love it so much and its honestly my stress reliever (contrary to popular belief i write more eloquently when i’m either stressed or having a headache idek why lol maybe it gets my brain juice all worked up)

#mailbox #btl ask #★.mail: unnamed #beautiful essay anon i salute u

[neteyamsilly]

my favorite bits of this GUT WRENCHING, HEART SQUEEZING, PAINFUL TO THE POINT WHERE IT SUFFOCATES YOU, TEARS INDUCING MASTERPIECE. this is kinda long I'm sorry in advance. Adding a bead to his songcord about how he got his firstborn daughter to utter her first word: dada. ANYTHING ABOUT JAKE AND HIS CHILDREN WILL ALWAYS HAVE A SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART “Good job, boy!” Jake had cheered. “Say I got that fish!”

Out of the camera’s frame and making little jumps on your toes, you’d blithely yelled. “Yeah, you got that bish!”  LITERALLY THAT VIDEO OF THE KID WITH THE FISH- MADE ME FCKNG LAUGH LMAO ("I got that mf fish!") “Ye“That’s right!” The cockiness was dripping from you as you pulled on his dreads. “I’m Toruk Makto Makto now. The first of my name!” THE RIDER OF RIDER OF LAST SHADOW HAD ME ROLLING TBH “Don’t do this to me.” Jake couldn’t breathe as he shook his head, he was about to lose it, about to tumble down the edge he could never climb his way up from. In denial, he didn’t lift his hands, losing all strength in his upper body and gradually collapsing forward as his forehead found yours. “Don’t do this to me, sweetheart, not like this. Please, not like this.” SARAH AND JOEL FORM THE LAST OF US OH MY GOD- “What child does not seek her parents when she is hurt?” OH GOD HERE COMES THE FEELS (AND HONESTLY SAME...) “How am I a mother when I can't feel her pain? How am I worthy of being her mother when I saw my child’s pain and just sat there helpless? Why would the Great Mother ever want to send her back?” She just kept going, not having any mercy on Jake’s soul. “Where was I when she won against her ikran? Where was I when she had her first flight? Where was I to protect her from those demons?” I KID YOU NOT I DIDN'T EVEN NOTICE I WAS ALREADY CRYING WHEN THIS SCENE CAME UP YOUR WRITING IS SO BEAUTIFUL, AND I LOVE HOW YOU CAPTURE EVERY SINGLE BIT OF EMOTION FROM JUST PRETTY MUCH EVERYONE ELSE WITH YOUR BEAUTIFULLY CONVEYED WORDS. AND IT REALLY HIT CLOSE TO HOME WHEN THIS PART CAME UP.

“What child does not seek her parents when she is hurt?” WHEN I READ THAT- IT WAS JUST LIKE "wait hold up- is that me?" IT'S JUST THE WHOLE THING IS SO BEAUTIFUL AND SO GUT-WRENCHING, I JUST BEYOND LOVE THIS SERIES SO MUCH, I CANT WAIT TO READ THE NEXT PART.

me reading this ask fr fr

thank you for taking time to literally take out all lines you've liked, that must have taken a lot of time AND for the kind words 😭 THE FLASHBACK TOO!! this fic is littered with references and tropes i love LMAO

so happy you're enjoying it!!! have a lovely day <3

#irma mirma ask mask #irmasks: itevilhag

[zukka-pegged-by-suki]

ok so guys, remember that “my father always says azula was born lucky, i was lucky to be born” line? yeah, now explain to me why tf are we even considering OZAIs words?!?! like some people use this line as an argument against azula when its literally what OZAI SAID?!?!!?!!?!

Zuko’s good and bad luck, as well as Azulas. Was either of them lucky? Let’s see.

Please read all of it before drawing assumptions.

Zuko’s luck:

- has mums care and affection

- has irohs care and affection

- can get away with being a softie as a child, because he may get disregarded and called weak but lets be honest, azula wouldnt have been able to get away with his behavior because she didn’t have firstborn privilege (which is a thing while azulon lived) or mummy’s protection like he did.

before anyone comes at me i’ll expand a bit on the firstborn privilege. as first born he was instantly considered more important by the masses since birth, that might’ve changed later but before neither could bend that much was still a fact. which means azula wouldn’t really have any recognition for anything unless she surpassed him in every way, which is what became her goal especially when ozai became the one who spent more time with her rather than ursa, anyways lets continue.

- constantly receiving second chances; iroh, the gaang minus katara, katara, azula (even if not from the “good” side), ozai (no matter the intentions, this much is true), iroh again, mai, the entire fckng world.

- he had a guide and help throughout his long healing and learning process.

Zuko’s bad luck:

- Unloving father

- Mummy disappears

- Doesn’t train that hard and surprise surprise, is worse than azula. Because if he had really trained hard, he would’ve at least known the formations wether he was able to firebend with them or not, but he was just clearly trying to copycat azula while tripping over because he didn’t have that much experience doing it. This is something no one can change my mind about. How tf did he expect to excel if he didn’t train enough. This wasnt about luck but hard work which he didn’t put in, too busy playing with mum and the little turtleducks. And I do not hate Zuko, I really love him but this is just a fact and he’s too fixed on blaming everyone else for his own mistakes and problems (esp Azula). Like, im sorry to break it out to you honey, but Ozai hates you because he’s an asshole, and that’s his own fault, not Azula’s.

- Scar and exile time, we all know this.

- Ugly haircut because of dishonor

- Finally achieving his goal of regaining his “honor” but realizing it wasn’t what he wanted only when he was already at the Fire Nation palace having all the glory from Aang’s presumed death.

- Katara’s distrust after his betrayal (bc who would’ve expected that to happen /s)

- Getting zapped in an attempt to save Katara.

I mean except for the things related to Ozai, most of this was all consequences from his own actions.

And I’m sorry but I don’t understand the fixation he has with having Ozai’s love. Unlike Azula, he has had his mother’s love and his uncle’s love. He knows what real love looks like and he has never really seen anything that could imply Ozai likes him, while he has Iroh treating him like he’s his actual father.

I’m not invalidating his traumas in any way and terrible things did happen to him, but why is he so obsessed with Ozai and why would he choose him over Iroh, he’s 16 and has been with Iroh since age 13, he was also with Ursa for the majority of his childhood, make it make sense.

Azula’s luck:

- Uh she was born rlly smart i guess

- She had some natural talent and knew to train hard to shape it to perfection, as well as studying a lot about war tactics and shit ig

- Ty Lee and Mai loved her and she loved them back

I mean as far as luck goes, that’s it. Everything else was achieved on her own merit and even if she had no scar, her traumas are just as valid as Zuko’s, neither is worse or better, we do not compare traumas in this house and they were both terrible.

Azula’s bad luck:

- Bad mother (i’ll make a post on why Ursa sucks)

- No second chances

- Mum never said goodbye just like she never said “i love you” lol, except in that one hallucination

- Never has had any real help to heal (i’ll make a post on why the asylum was a trash idea that would’ve never worked)

- Can’t fully trust anyone, not even herself, or will be punished for it

- The only people who loved her, Mai and Ty Lee, “betraying” her (check out my post on that, its under #jinta’s commentary)

- Ozai psychologically abusing her all her life

- Some characters may have been lonely, but she was genuinely absolutely alone. And she knew it.

- Hurt and self-hatred channeled through anger like Zuko did sometimes when he had that shame shave ponytail, but with her, its all the time.

- Even his abuser abandons her

- Everyone hates her but forgives Zuko, Mai and Ty Lee. And it’s so annoying because all Mailee did that Azula didn’t was swap sides almost at the end, if the excuse is that they were being manipulated well Ozai was manipulating Azula so what’s the excuse.

- Is always believed to be lying but usually isn’t (check out my azula always lies post)

- Has a mental breakdown and nobody gives a shit?! Like the first think Zuko thought of was “ooh she’s slipping lemme take advantage of that”

- Has nothing and no one, yay

- Gets thrown into a stupid asylum but not rlly because there are no comics in ba sing se

While Zuko had Ursa and Iroh to protect him and stuff, she was victim of Ozai’s manipulation and psychological abuse all her life.

So when we know Ozai said she was lucky, why tf is anyone taking his word for it??!

Plus when Zuko was born they didn’t know how he would be and Azula didn’t exist so there was no way he could’ve been lucky to be born.

Zuko was very unlucky, but he was also lucky.

Azula was just unlucky.

edit: as bellatrixobsessed1 said, azula had the illusion of luck.

#atla #zuko #avatar the last airbender #mai #maizula #atla fanart #princess azula #tyzula #lu ten #fire siblings #jinta’s commentary #jinta’s take on zuko #jinta’s take on azula #azula #iroh #azula always lies? i don’t think so #azula & zuko #ozai #ursa #anti ozai #anti ursa #avatar:tla #the gaang #katara #azula deserves better #zuko deserves better #there’s no comics in ba sing se #there’s no asylum in ba sing se #azula protection squad

[expectingtofly]

july masterlist

august roundup! a little late but here we are, complete with commentary bc i want to rant about how good these creations are :)

as always, thank you to everyone who supports what i make, love you all <33

(and @ me or use my tracking tag #user_k in your creations! i’d love to see and share the wonderful things you make <33)

: my creations

fics

BFFs : It's friendship day and Jack is making friendship bracelets for all his friends. Dean's never made one for anyone or received one himself, but Cas is his best friend plus much more. If anyone deserves a friendship bracelet, it's Cas.

made of love : Cas told Dean, "everything you have ever done, you have done for love." It takes Dean a while to believe it, but love is in all he does and touches.

Claire Novak's (Surprisingly) Not-So-Lame Day : Claire joins two lame ex-hunters and a toddler for an excursion to the mall.

: favorite creations

fics

Those Who Favor Fire : guys this fic is so good. im reading it v e r y slowly bc im savoring every second of it. the tension between dean and cas is incredible, cas is wonderfully snarky, and side characters from the show really get to shine. definitely one of my favorite fics of all time and all 18 chapters are out now for our enjoyment!! [@dothwrites & @friendofcarlotta]

note/lost : i am OBSESSED. this whole purgatory series is sooo good. the angst and pining is *chef's kiss* [@chapeldean]

And Cleanse Me From My Sin : wingfic! hurt!comfort! caring dean! so so good [@thisisapaige]

dean bakes bread : dean using his hands for baking bread rather than violence UGH emmy you've killed me again [@one-more-offbeat-anthem]

dean and cas hold hands : the PINING and the sweet quiet resolution <33 so so cute [@fireworksdeancas]

end of the beginning : cas loses his grace in a quiet, tender moment. absolute perfection [@queen-rowenas]

art

bridgewater art : this art is so cute!!! look at professor bradshaw's little bowtie!! [@bee-in-a-trench-coat]

dean and cas at a diner : quiet nights at a midwestern diner my beloved <33 [@abidraws]

undercover at summer camp : i woulda killed to see this concept ep on screen. love love love how op drew final girl dean [@ivydean]

purgatory reunion : op is right, why fight over deancas or deanbenny when you can have both?? [@mjulmjul]

purgaytory : ive been eating up all things purgatory lately and this artwork is incredible (and definitely happened off-screen in s8) [@thefriendlypigeon]

soft destiel : cuddly destiel makes my heart go brrr. cas in glasses makes this even more perfect :)) [@dykecas]

edits/gifs

vintageadnatural edit : windmillcas does it again. always choosing a quote that stabs me thru the heart [@windmillcas]

The End: The Game : so fckng cool. the creativity, the execution, the imagery, 10/10 would play this game in an instant [@maydays2]

Love You Forever : rip my heart out why don't you. the dadstiel/love you forever combo i didn't know i needed [@deanwinchesterforbatman2k21]

#destiel fic #spn #destiel art #art #dean/cas/benny #fics #edits #monthly roundup #expectingtofly masterlist #lmk if you dont want to be tagged :)

[trashlie]

STALKYOO POST LETS FCKNG GOOOOO

Hahahaha anon PLSSSSS I love your energy!!!!!!

I've been trying to figure out how to break up all my thoughts into coherent pieces because, frankly, if I just started gushing about them, I'd have a 10k essay for you guys and listen I don't think you guys want that lmao

I'm thinking I'll start with something near and dear to my heart: the establishment of a foundation for future Stalkyoo. I know sometimes when people think about endgame, they try to look for clues in terms of like, who is biggest in this illustration, who is Shinae looking at, what colors were worn, etc etc and look don't get me wrong, quimchee is a MASTER at her clues and foreshadowing (but also she admits to using red herrings in her illustrations lol) but to me, if you're going to look for shipping, esp written by someone like quim who makes sure she gives us details, even when we don't yet know they're details, I think the best place to look is the text. She's not going to just spring a romance out of the blue at us, which is why I've been feeling HMMMM about all the build up between Nol and Shinae.

You can argue that it's "too obvious" but frankly, a relationship to come SHOULD be obvious. I'll never forget how angry people were when Tonks and Remus were revealed in a relationship because there was no build up, no indication to readers, it just felt out of the blue. And if our MC is going to be in a relationship, shouldn't we see the foundations? Not just the potential - I know a lot of people are potential shippers and that's fine! I was just never able to ship like that because I am boring lol and as such I have obsessed a lot over the foundational groundwork laid for a potential future relationship for these two.

(I'd like to state now, for the record, that there is no one in the main trio of ILY ready for a relationship just yet and when I talk about relationships, I'm always talking about the future. While I think it's clear that Nol and Shinae are at a point they are experiencing feelings that aren't exactly platonic, there's no way I'd want to see them in a relationship. I bring this up because sometimes I see people counter the pairing as "Well Dieter likes Shinae and if Nol was to date her that would hurt him!" and bro that's not happening any time soon is it? My man's going to jail! lmao)

If you've read all this lmao if you guys have any other ideas you'd love to see me write about, please let me know! I'm cheesy and will probably want to write about my favorite Stalkyoo scenes at some point, or at least examine how they've progressed through those scenes, idk. Also not entirely Stalkyoo related but I am suddenly D Y I N G to write about Nol vs Minhyuk, because I was talking to someone about the ways Nol protects Shinae vs how Minhyuk does (ie: Minhyuk is very overprotective for understandable reasons and tries to keep her in a safe bubble where Nol kind of pushes her to broaden her bubble). I'd also like to write, in general, about the ways Nol and Shinae mirror each other, which is not so much a romantic thing but creates a lot of compatibility and understanding in them.

Basically: i wanna yell about them SO MUCH lmao

#I Love Yoo #ILY Brainrot #Stalkyoo #Shinae Yoo #Yeonggi #Nolan Oliver T. Lochlainn #in which i want to write 97878 pieces about this webtoon #and my dumb pairing #and my favorite children #god help me #lmao #seriously anon this energy is catching i love it lmao

[villanelle-wlwship]

Okay but IF supercorp are indeed “just friends” their whole storyline doesnt make sense at all?

- James, Winn, Alex, Jonn and Kelly(??) know Kara is SG... WHY is lena the ONLY ONE being attacked and thrown into court (100th ep) if she knew beforehand that Kara is SG. HOW would other people even know she would know that Kara is SG?? She befriended KARA not supergirl.

If you look at lois and clark. Everyone knew lois was supermans love interest and that made her a target. Because if you could get to lois, you could hurt superman. But Lena just being a friend to KARA doesnt give other people any reason to attack lena for her knowing who supergirl is. In fact they made it very clear that Kara is her hero, not supergirl. So that whole storyline didnt make any sense.

- Second IF THEY ARE JUST FRIENDS. Why is lena the ONLY ONE supergirl bridal carries like that? She bridal carried Kelly once, but she holded her in a very in-fact- friendly way. And Why is lena always the damsel in distress?

- if they are indeed JUST FRIENDS, why is Lena only relevant for the “superfriends” if she is in good terms with Kara? And why isnt she just as hurt about her “friends” lying to her for YEARS. And why are Lena and Jonn not in the same position as Lena and Kara in this moment because HE LIED TO HER FOR YEARS about being a martian?!

- 5A..wtf was that?! It was literally a fckng love story with romantic music, romantic scenes, parallels with kelly/alex with russel/andrea.. like 🤷🏻‍♀️ WHY and WHAT was that? Buying Lena lunch from three different countries because she wants her lunch “to be perfect”.. this whole part of the season made me SO excited and it was absolutely the FIRST time they had me believe they would make them canon.. the picture scene, seriously???????? WHAT WAS THAT? i was screaming, my whole timeline was screaming... i never believed they would go there for a second until 5A I WAS HAPPY WITH MY FANFICS FANART and inside jokes with the fandom!!

And then it all exploded in 5B.. like honestly? Why WRITE 5A like THAT????? WHY? I HONESTLY want some answers because i think a lot of people are hurt, frustrated and done because of all of this and then getting blocked and attacked and hated on by other viewers, the crew and the cast.

If they had invested in the whole william/ kara thing from the start of 5A and never gave us this much MAINtext because it fckng was, between supercorp. It would have hurt less and I personally could have lived with it, if the season was greatly written because i love Kara Danvers, I love the Danvers Sisters, I love Kelly, i love the friendship between Nia and Kara, i love Brainy i love everything about that. But they honestly destroyed everything? So for season six IF IM EVEN GOING TO WATCH (dont think so) but i HOPE we get:

- Danvers sisters as main storyline like season one.

- Alex / Kelly a decent well written love story

- Bring the alex wanted to be a mother storyline back?

- give kelly her own story as a therapist helping Kara, Lena, and Alex

- Make Catco relevant again, Nia and Kara being the journalist team and show us growth for Nia as a reporter maybe even winning a pulitzer at the end of the season. And let her use her powers (dreaming the future) to make great stories for Catco?? Andrea being the CEO would be cool

- turn William into a villian i think that could work because his story was useless in season 5.

- Make lena our strong female empowerment CEO again, i loved her so so much and they destroyed her whole character for the sake of drama!

And finally MAKE THE SHOW ABOUT SUPERGIRL AGAIN!! let her be the hero again fighting villains, lena providing her suits and weapons and shit.

And last but not least STOP.WITH.THE.QUEERBAIT!

#supercorp #lena luthor #kara danvers

[lansizhuis]

Your thoughts on Yi City arc??

MY THOUGHTS ARE JUST “JFSJKFBSFKIMCRYINGDJAKDKD” tbh haha

Okayokay, but for real - IT HURTS!!! I’m going to be super brief bc otherwise I’m going to cry haha Let’s start of with the characters. A-Qing is my favorite girl in all of the fictional characters I’ve ever read!!! She was sooo dang strong and courageous and fck man if anyone deserves the best second chance the most - IT’S HER. She fought her way through that even when she was already a ghost, she was still metaphorically clawing (and successfully hurting) XY! 

Then we have Song Lan *sighs and hugs him tight* I saw people dissing him bc he told XXC to go away and that he never wanted to see him again lol honestly sometimes I wonder if some readers just can’t empathize or something. Everyone in their sect literally just got murdered in front of him and his eyes were fckng gouged out. I’d be mad at the world, everyone, ANYONE tbh - he was at the height of his negative emotions! People who are hurt tend to bleed on people even though those aren’t who hurt them. And we see his true feelings on XXC with one of my favorite lines in MDZS that came from him - “When he wakes up, say sorry, the fault is not with you.” AND THEN he searched high and low for XXC. 

Next up is Xiao Xingchen *wraps him in a burrito blanket* daozhaaaaang!!! He was so new to the real world my god - he was seventeen when he went down and met SL AND HE ONLY “WANTED TO HELP SAVE THE WORLD” im fckng crying already hnnggg He did what he believed was right - to give justice, to save people, and to sacrifice what he has to the one he cherishes. istg he and TGCF’s XL are so alike with how they were so idealistic and young and then came their inevitable fall (only difference is that XL had a happy ending whelp). The despair he felt when he found out that he had been unknowingly killing the very people he wanted to help and save had been so much like a dam just broke and his raw cries resounded in the hollowness of his soul.

And now there’s Xue Yang *stabs and hugs him* As I’ve already said, people who are hurt tend to bleed on people even though those aren’t who hurt them and it’s sooo evident with XY. He didn’t know what love was, what having a family felt like so when he almost had a home, he didn’t know what it was or what to do with it and resorted into going about it in his usual psychotic way. Bruh, he didn’t even know how to deal with XXC - someone so pure, so his crazy mind went on a torture/murder spree. I think he would have connected better with A-Qing bc both of them were street rats trying to survive and their dynamic was really good! But well, XY went the wrong path and he has to reap what he sow.

Yi City crew was such a tragedy from A-Qing and her lost future so early on, SL’s regret on how his last words to XXC were from the darkness of his heart, XXC’s despairing fall into the abyss and no one (not even himself) managed to save him, and down to XY and how he failed on a second chance that he could have taken.

(on the other hand - WWX being a teacher to the junior ducklings, LJY and his moments, and WWX being bamf def helped in pulling me through the entire arc lol)

#aqing #song lan #xiao xingchen #xue yang #text #anon #answers

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #229

“goddamn, need some help, ‘cuz my girlfriend’s in love with someone else.”

What would you consider to be the worst television channel out there? Idk. I don't watch TV. Are you currently sitting on your bed or some other place? Where? I'm lying in my bed. Have you ever had anyone drop off animals at your house? What kind? No. When was the last time you were somewhere that offered free Wi-Fi? Today/technically yesterday but w/e. My school offers it free, but the connection isn't strong. Do you know anyone who is on drugs? Are you personally on them? I mean, I know people with prescriptions of course. If you mean illicit drugs, yes. I don't take them. Name one interesting fact about yourself that people might not know about? Uhhhh I used to be a dancer. Do you ever have to write down a phone number to remember it, or not? Oh yeah, I don't even have my own phone number memorized. Who was the last person you talked to on an instant messaging service? Hm. Oh, Facebook says the friend of my sister whose wedding I shot. I did it like, two or three or so years ago and she wanted to know if I had the raw photos I took, and I'd literally JUST cleaned out my OneDrive a couple days ago, so they were deleted. Talk about bad timing. What color are your curtains? Are you satisfied with this color? Maroon. Yeah. Does your phone have texting? How many times a day do you text, estimate? Yeah, and I don't have a clue. Sara and I generally text all throughout the day. When was the last time you were stung by a bee? What kind was it? Uhhh over a year ago or something. Was the only time. It was just a bumblebee. Do you know anyone personally who had their house burn down before? Yes. Do you think the media can further manipulate our teenagers anymore? Ohhhh, I'm sure it could get even worse. Who would you consider to be your favorite American Idol on the show? I've watched so little of that show. Do you know anyone who has their septum pierced? Does it look painful? I know two, off the top of my head. And I mean, a piercing is a needle shoved into your skin. It's obviously painful to a degree. I'd imagine the septum to be more painful than a lot considering the thick cartilage. Has anyone ever complimented you on your singing? Did you believe them? Yeah, and I dunno. I don't generally like my singing voice, but I think I sing some songs okay. Do you know someone who constantly tries to embarrass you on all occasions? Omg no, I could never handle someone like that with how poorly I handle embarrassment. Has anyone ever kissed you in the rain? Did it seem romantic at the time? Yeah, and I guess, only really because it's an "accepted" thing as romantic. Something you're taught young. What is one part on your body that hurts at this moment, if anything? Nothing, at the moment. What was the last song you listened to? Did you enjoy this song? This metal medley I adore of Shadow of the Colossus pieces is on rn. What is your heritage? Do you have a bunch of mixed heritages? German, Irish, and Polish. When was the last time you listened to a genre of you music you despise? I didn't really *listen* to it, but some ass was blaring his rap music in FYS today. Have you ever tried the cinnamon challenge? NO, do NOT. That shit is noooot a joke. People have died. Do you ever countdown to anything? Not really, at least not seriously. Who was the last person to visit your house besides family? A friend of mine and Mom's, Randy. My rat Mitsu apparently fell or something, and her teeth were knocked crooked, and they became grossly overgrown and had to be clipped. He works at a wildlife rehab clinic and is overall just real experienced with animals. It was so awful though, seeing her like that. He's coming over about once a month now to keep them clipped; he's quite sure she has... damn, what was it? Metabolic bone disease (very common in rats), I think, that will push her teeth to keep growing. I can't remember exactly what he said, but. Are you allowed to watch rated R movies? I'm... nearing 24, lmao. How many bedrooms are in your house? Two. Do you see more of your mom or dad’s side of the family more? Mom's. I see both very rarely since they live states away, but yeah, Mom's. I haven't seen anyone in Dad's fam since I was a little kid. Are there any tattoos that you really want to get? lol got a few hours to talk? Do you really believe that everyone has a soul mate? Definitely not. You are compatible with sooooo many people. Do alligators scare you? I mean I wouldn't walk in front of one or anything, but as animals themselves, no. I think they're cool as fuck. Dinosaurs, man. Do you have abs? *ugly wheezing laughter* Have you ever been in detention? Twice I think, but only for too many tardies arriving at school. Do you believe in vampires? Uh no. Can you play the guitar? Not anymore. Have you ever kissed someone while they were dating someone else? Wow, no. Do you like hot dogs? Sadly. Are glasses a turn on or turn off for you? I don't care. Do you have a hot tub? Darling we poor. Would you ever try one of those dating websites? I like to pretend that one time NEVER fucking happened. I very much doubt I would again. Do you like to be tickled? Ew no don't. When’s the last time you flew a kite? Not since I was little. Do you ever take a bath and eat food at the same time? ... Does anyone do that?? Do you hate long surveys? No, I prefer them. I just do them over time. Gives me something to do... and I also don't spam where I share them. Do you like the taste of blood? UM no. Has anyone ever given you flowers? Yeah. When was the last time you swam in a lake? Wowie, I couldn't possibly guess. Who was the first friend you made in Junior High? That's a good question. Maybe Hannia? If you could learn any language, what would it be? GERMAN. I wanna be fluent. When was the last time someone asked you your age? Uhhh idk. Have you ever been on a train? No. Has anyone ever tried to physically fight you? No, but one girl literally told me she almost punched me. I used to hate her more than anyone in the world because she's Jason's ex and really hurt him, and yet now we're friends, lmao. Oh, how things can change. When was the last time you were angry? Last night because my headache wouldn't fuck off. What’s your worst subject in school? Math. I'm failing like, badly. What’s your favorite genre of music? Metal. Have you ever been called too skinny? OH MOST DEFINITELY NOT. Do you prefer analog or digital clocks? Analog clocks are way more aesthetically pleasing, but digital are more convenient. Do you have any stickers decorating your computer? Bruh I have tape, get on my fckng level. Tell me about the last nightmare you remember having. It was about seeing my grandma, who's really beginning to suffer from her chemo. What snacks do you usually get at the cinemas? Popcorn and a drink, then rarely a candy. Usually Sour Patch Kids. What scent is the deodorant you use? That's. A good question. I haven't payed attention. What did you last receive in the mail? The book Sara sent me. What is your favorite kind of fruit? Strawberries. How far away do you live from your place of birth? Like... 10-ish minutes? Have you ever been in a police car? Only when being transferred from the ER to psyche hospitals. How do you mark through your word search puzzles? I draw a line through them. Or circle them. Depends on the font and size, really. Have you ever sewn something? Idk how to sew. Name a CD you have or one you would like to have. Ha ha, the very first CD I personally bought was the "You're Awful, I Love You" album by Ludo. When I knew like, only three songs, ahaha. Have you ever watched an episode of Barney? I loved him as a kid, so, y'know. Can you name more than five U.S. presidents? Yeah, but I definitely don't know a lot. Are any of your neighbors’ yards in desperate need of a grass cutting? No. Do you still have your tonsils? Yessir. What does your mother’s wallet look like? What about your dad’s? Idk. I don't pay attention to Mom's and I very rarely see Dad. Who was the last person you cried in front of? My mom and one of my school advisors. And people who walked into the library. Do you think your last ex will eventually want to be with you again? He may still want to be, idk. It doesn't matter though. Does your ex hate you? The only ex I have that I think might is Jason. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you can talk to? Girt. Does anyone call you babe? Sara sometimes. Is your school’s mascot an animal? Yes. All my schools' were, lol. What would happen if you were stuck in an elevator with the person you’ve fallen the hardest for? I don't want to imagine it. Do you think that hair extensions and colored contacts make a person fake? Oh my god. Where do your hands go during kissing? I mean that. Depends. Generally just around a person's sides. Conservative or liberal? I'm such a mix. Do you have unlimited texting? Ye. Were you ever in the spelling bee? Never been a part of one. Do you dress suggestively? No. A very explicit song you’ve listened to recently? Ahaha, "Love Rhymes With Fuck You" by Jeffree Star is on right now and it is. Intense. When did you last see someone you know in public? Errrrr good question. Do you think you’d survive if zombies took over the world? Hell no. If you were to write a novel, what would it be about? The meerkat RP I've done since I was 10. My friends and I have made novels upon novels worth of stories. Are you currently pretending to be someone’s friend? No. Are you an impatient person? YEP!!!!!!!!! Are you afraid to watch movies that have sex scenes with your friends? Friends, no. It's awkward with family, though. Who sings the last song you listened to? Jeffree Star. Have you ever had a serious issue involving your eyes? No, other than being a blind mfkr. Have you ever watched South Park? Who’s your favorite character? Yes. Don't have one as I don't really care for it. Do you have sensitive teeth? Yes. Does it bother you to get shots in the mouth? Does it hurt? Nah. And I mean at the dentist they numb you, so not really. When did you last talk seriously with one of your parents? I have no clue. Does anyone ever say they miss you often? Sara. I mean we talk all the time, but she means like, physically being there. Would you rather become a wizard or a vampire, if you had the choice? Idk. I like vampires more, but a wizard sounds funner. Have you already moved out of your parents’ house? I've talked about the apartment situation enough. Are your parents divorced, married or separated? Divorced. Have you ever thought you might just have obsessive compulsive disorder? I'm diagnosed with it. Do you think it’s rude to text someone else while on a date? YEAH. What is the funniest movie you’ve ever seen? White Chicks never fails to get me. Has one of your websites ever quit operating or shut down? Were you sad? Recently the site I used to upload large .gifs I needed to use online shut down & I'm still mega tilted. There's probably others. Who is the person you talk to the most in your house? I only live with my mom. Is there a television show out there that you never miss? No. What movie have you seen too many times to be healthy? Ha ha, The Lion King I & 2 and Finding Nemo. What is your biggest responsibility in your household? Take care of my pets. How cold did it get where you live, last winter? Idr. Very, for NC anyway. Do you ever wonder what your exes are doing? I only ever wonder about Jason. Have you ever been caught in a huge lie with your parents? Never told a biggie lie to 'em. Ever ride in a limo? When did you last do so? No. Are you sober at the time being? Yeah. Have you ever lied to someone & said they could sing when they couldn’t? Possibly? Are you more tolerant of hot or cold weather? Describe a time when you were extremely cold? Describe a time when you were extremely over-heated? I handle the cold far, FAR better. I physically cannot last very long in like, even 80 degrees. The coldest I've probably ever been was when Sara and I were walking once up at her house and it was really windy. I think the absolute most over-heated I've been was when I was taking bridal shots of my sister's friend outside in the summer for a long long time. I was nearly to the point of tears and was absolutely soaked in sweat. When we got back in the car, I literally finished at least three water bottles in a very short period of time. I think I even downed half of another. What was something weird that you did as a child? Did anyone make fun of you for it? Were there any other children you knew who did the same thing? I actually created this trend in elementary school of digging tunnels in the sandbox with my hands because I wanted to feel like a meerkat, lol. No one made fun of me, I think? And as stated it kinda became a thing, so yeah, there were others. What has been the hardest thing about growing up? What was the easiest thing about it? Was there ever a time when you wanted to stay young forever? Was there ever a time when you wished that you could be older? Accepting my mental illnesses was by far the hardest. Easiest, uh... idk. Enjoying more freedom? There was definitely a time I wanted to be a kid forever; I remember I criiiied when I got my period for the first time because I didn't feel like one anymore. Simultaneously, there were certainly times I wanted to be older. Who was the last person you yelled at? Do you often yell at this person? Are you on good terms with them again, or are you still upset with them? I practically roared at Mom for pulling the rudest shit on me like a month or so back. I definitely don't yell at her a lot. We're on good terms now, yeah. If you work, do you get along with your coworkers? Which one of them have you known the longest? Is your current place of work somewhere that you plan to stay for a long time? Sadly no, so these questions are N/A. Name three items that have much sentimental value to you. Who gave you these items, and for what occasion? Do you ever have a harder time throwing away things that people have given you? My pebble from Holly Hill, my childhood plush moose Brownie that I got in Ohio, and the stuffed meerkat Jason gave me. It's not really because of it being from him, but rather because it comforted me deeply after the break-up. The little guy is so worn from all the love I gave it. I do have a hard time getting rid of things people give me. Who do you speak with more often: your online friends, or those that you see face-to-face? Of which type of friend do you have more? Which of those friendships do you value the most? Online to all three questions. Are you often misunderstood, or do you think that people can get where you are coming from pretty well? Do you think that you have a good ability to understand others? If yes, explain? Eh, idk, really. I feel like I don't communicate how I feel well enough, but I think people understand me decently. Most, anyway. I know I'm pretty good and relating to people. When was the last time that you had a headache? What did you do, if anything, to help it feel better? Which is worse for you: headaches or stomach aches? As previously mentioned, last night. I took medicine, but it was sleep that actually helped. AND I CANNOT DEAL WITH STOMACH ACHES. Gimme a headache over that shit any day. Have you ever had a crush on someone you met online? If yes, what happened between you and that person? Do you think that online relationships are legitimate relationships? Yes, and we're dating now lol. And of course I do!! Out of all of your past friendships and romantic relationships, which one was the worst? If that person were to show up at your place, would you be willing to talk to them? Friendship: Colleen. No, I wouldn't talk to her. Romantic: Tyler, but I mean sure, I'd talk to him. Well, Jason was the traumatic one, but the *relationship*, on my end, was a fairytale. It was the breakup that was... yeah, y'all know. Yeah, I'd be willing to talk to him, but quite honestly I'd probably end up collapsing into a sobbing heap because yeah PTSD. If any, how many friends have you made in the past year? How many have you lost? Is making friends something at which you are good, or does it take you awhile to form friendships? I've made a couple friends online, and I lost none, I think anyway. I can be someone's friend very easily, but it's the trust that really takes a while. If you are 18 or older, did reaching your 18th birthday make you feel like you were an adult? If not, what moment (or moments) made you feel like you were finally maturing? I don't remember, honestly. As a kid, did your parents force you to eat everything on your plate? If you had them, how did you feel about family meal times? If you were to have children, would you have structured meals with them? Well, Mom tried, but my picky ass usually won, lol. Some days I miss family dinners, other days I'm glad to do my own thing. If I were to have kids, I'd probably want to have family dinners, really. What was the last new thing that you tried? What is something you did a long time ago that you might like to do again? I don't know. I don't try new things often. From my past... I dunno. It's too late to think of all this stuff. What is your least favorite part about going to the doctor? What about going to the dentist? Which of those people would you rather see? THE GODDAMN WAIT. My dentist is usually pretty quick, so that's not typically a problem there. Instead, I fucking hate when I have to get x-rays done because I have a very small mouth, and the things they stick in your cheeks to bite down on are always way too big for me. I have to use a size down from adults. Do you ever take care of anyone younger than you (ie. babysitting, watching a younger sibling, etc)? Do you like doing this, or does it get to be a hassle? No, and hell no.

#survey #quiz #questions #random #bored

[aquagustd]

i was expecting your analysis more in the end of hie, bc i know hell is not that close yet. well, i gonna say it:

i was thinking and i gonna say: i am team tae. If tae becomes the devil a long the way, i gonna be "team oc free from devil's men".

My trust issues & bad relationships made me be more careful about Tae and his perfect facade.

SO THE EPIPHANY HITTED

i was being like oc. i had a promised relationship, the one which becomes nothing by time passed. but she, even being a mother - with a lot of responsibility! - opened herself to love again, after meeting Tae. That being said, there is no other reason why i am not gonna be team Tae.

Even without the rewind drabble, i know jk is not good for her for a good time, and ALL he is being doing just proved it. If he was good, he had more than one chance to do it right. But he didn't! EVEN IF HE HAS A GOOD EXPLANATION for everything he is doing, still...no good for her!!! If he even doing something to help her (i doubted!!!), It's bc he put her into it, in the first place!!!. Idk who invented "the same who hurts is the same who is gonna heal it"... bullsh1t! (98% the time!!). AND AS I SAID this is the 3rd time he is coming and fckng everything AGAIN AND AGAIN no guys. No matter what, everything is put her through cannot be forgot/forgave at the point for them being together again. Unless, you don't care about oc' self-love & mental health. Bc, it's clear that if she ever wish to be with him again, it's bc she will feeling hopeless, unloved & unworthy.

Plus already like Hoseok, however Hoseok x oc have a nice relationship now, so whatever happened, must stay in the past. They are doing well by now, i feel it.

So, team Tae or team leave oc alone, y'all fckrs. She deserves to be happy alone or with a hell good nice handsome hot richest man in the world. 👊🎤 (i drop the mic mic drop my militan speech)

we all love real jk. but hie jk NOPE

english anon

“hell is not close yet” why do you always crack me up 😭😭💀💀💀 but yeah jks analysis this early … it’s bc what the anons said really got to me like how could i hate jk 🥲🥲🥲 i just really want everyone to understand my perspective as an author.

“team oc free from devils men” BYEEEEE 😭😭 im literally tearing up rn. but you’re making some valid points !!!

true. i think everyone has a small idea of how rewind is gonna go since they hate each other so much after that 💀 you’re right ! don’t get burned by the same flame twice 🧏🏻‍♀️🧏🏻‍♀️ again they had misinterpreted my words. when i said if you’re team jk, you’re ultimately against oc — i meant that you’re not paying attention to the effect his presence has had on her in these past chapters. and her mental health like you mentioned !! even if she does seem unbothered. she’s gonna crack soon and it can go one of two ways. she’ll give up or want revenge 👀🤷🏻‍♀️

yessss hobi x reader have a good friendship now and that’s the way it should remain 😌 team oc or nothing in the end !!

we love irl kook 🥺🥺🥺

#always a good chat #english anon #fic: hie #squishies

[themaninmynotes]

ten, an open letter to the tenth letter.

Hi, hello, hi.

As of writing, i’ve had feelings for you for almost nineteen months now bwahahaha. pathetic, right? and like what i’ve said in my previous entries, since the very beginning (Dec 12, 2019, if my memory serves me right) when we were sitting on the floor of the conference room and i was pulling your laces, when i realized that what i feel about you was more than just a petty crush, i knew that i didn’t have a shot! haha.

i was willing to love you in secret and it should’ve stayed that way. why’d you have to find out that those heart notes were from me ba kasi?! haha. i feel like my feelings ruined everything.

anyway, this will be a long-ass letter so bear with me! lol.

first off, i’m sorry for the times when i triggered your anxiety or the times when you felt insulted by something that i said. i never meant any of those. trust me, i have nothing but good things to say about you. things that i don’t tell you because i don’t want to make things between us more awkward than it already is. because you may admit it or not, i know that ever since you found out about my feelings, you felt awkward around me— or is it disgust? probably both.

anyway, prepare to be more disgusted by my pathetic self because here are the things i wanted to tell you but never had the courage to, and the things that i never told anyone.

here’s me in my most vulnerable.

first off, i wanna tell you that you’re cute like what the fck, how? that’s probably the reason why i liked you in the first place, you would do this confused expressions that i found so adorable. and remember when you were late? and trainer made you perform that alien dance? cute, cute, cute! agrh.

every single night i would wait for you in the locker room, i would pretend to be on my phone but in reality i wanted to get a glimpse of you, but you probably already know that, don’t you? bwahah. and there was this one time when i waited for you in the locker room for almost an hour only to find out that you were already inside talking to him in the lounge area. that was my first heartbreak! lol.

second one was during our nesting when you sat beside him. seeing you get all flustered broke my heart more than it should.

when we got endorsed in the prod i was devastated because we weren’t in the same team and we had very conflicting schedules. but i knew i had to do something. so i went to work early to go by your bay area, not to “maki-chismis” like what i’d always say, but to see you. i also took my lunch during my 15 minute breaks just so i could take it the same time as yours.

and every end of your shift, i would stand up from my station to see you, only to get my heart broken again because you were waiting for him or he was waiting for you so you could leave together.

the time when you were transferred to our team was probably one of the happiest days of my 2020 because i got to sit beside you lol. and remember when you wanted to go to a different station because there was something wrong with the backspace of your keyboard? i actually tried to replace it with mine because i didn’t want you to go elsewhere! lol. oh, and remember when i bought wafer deluxe and brought it in the prod? i gave you one and since then, i always bought two in hopes that you would ask me for it.

everyday since we got to be on the same team, i stayed in the office an hour after my shift. i pretended to be doing admin tasks but in reality, i just wanted to spend more time with you.

albeit it was only for a short amount of time, and most were spent bantering, i really enjoyed sitting next to you. you made me happy. i mean who wouldn’t be? hearing you say brow-ns made my year! kidding! that was cute. you’re cute.

and then came the pandemic which ruined everything. you opted to work at home and i opted to be quarantined in the office, which really fckng scks because i wouldn’t get to see you, but i was glad for our weekly meetings because i get to hear your voice. i missed it. i missed you.

months passed, and i thought we were okay, we were still fighting over some random things from time to time but i thought we were all good but then you unfriended me without any explanation as to why. i was left confused for months.

it probably sound superficial to some but the reason why i was so affected is because i knew all we would ever be are friends (if you even consider me that) so when you unfriended me, i thought that that too, was off the table. and i was devastated because you are so important to me and i wanted to to be part of your life.

i was depressed for months and having to live by myself didn’t help. i did things that i deeply regret now.

oh and by the way, i don’t blame you for any of it. the only one to blame is me because i was weak. i knew you had to protect your own mental health.

during those times, i tried to move on from you. i really did. i tried everything but to no avail. there’s probably something wrong about me mentally and emotionally. that would explain why i’m still not over you up until now.

anyway, i’m glad we made amends. having you back as a friend made me so happy. talking to you makes me so happy. you make me happy.

i can no longer construct a decent sentence so i’m just going to list down my other confessions in bullet form lol.

i know i don’t have the right to but i always get jealous every time you mention your past or present. gosh, i wish you’d talk about me like how you talk about them haha a pathetic boy can dream, right?

it hurts me everytime when you’d think of me as a bad person, because albeit i probably am, i always try my best to be good to you. and even though you say you’re joking, sometimes, i feel like what you’re saying about me, if not whole, is partly true. which really sucks.

when i found out you told someone that you will never like me because i was too feminine, i actually considered acting more masculine but i didn’t because i realized that that’s just part of a long list of reason why and it wouldn’t change anything.

there was this one time when you got mad at me because you felt like i was pressuring you to treat us, but in reality i don’t care if you pay for our food or not. i was pushing because i wanted to see you. i missed you.

i don’t tell you this but i admire your work ethic so much. you are so professional, passionate and hardworking. you’ll achieve great things, i know it.

do you remember that time last year when you message me asking if i was okay? i appreciate that so much. you were legit the first person to ask me that. thank you. it meant a lot.

just like what i’ve said in my previous entries, i admire and adore you so much. you are so intelligent, funny, full of wisdom, caring, good listener, you are the best person i’ve ever met. i wish i could tell you all this but i can’t.

anyway, this have already been super long. but the bottomline is you are amazing.

the person you’ll love will be so lucky to have you and i hope they take care of your heart because you deserve all the love and nothing but everything good in this world.

i wish i could be that person. oh, god how i wish it could be me. i wish i could be the one who make you happy, the one who calm you. the one you’d talk to when you’re going through something. i wish we could send each other good morning texts, go on coffee dates, listen to music together. i wish i was your favorite person. i wish you loved me but no.

i will always be yours but you will never be mine. the stars just don’t align.

perhaps in another lifetime? or the one after that? lol who am i kidding.

i don’t even know why i wrote this. perhaps to cope with something i lost but never had? i don’t know. i just hope that now that it’s out in the open, i could finally move on.

and if you happen to stumble upon this silly blog of mine in the future, i want you to know that even though i know you’d rather hear it from someone else, i’m proud of you and everything that you have achieved, and if there was ever a time that you felt unlovable, know that i loved you with everything that i had.

i love you forever, j.

these are the words i can’t utter.

KIER.

[that-shipper-type-fangirl]

Everything anon wanted to know and wasn’t afraid to ask part 2 :D

request

WH:

MC: In general, I can't really identify myself with her; she's a pure young girl while I'm a rotten, pervert woman :"D However, in the second seasons (at least as far as I read them) - she improved so much! Not like a woman though, but a wizard, but that's also nice to see, I'm so proud of our little Lizzie now ^^ <3Elias: Such a cutie. I love cuties. Though I also like bossy guys too so I can’t decide if I like him or Klaus more. No, please, just don’t ask me to decide! >_< Luca: I have that headcanon that he’s bisexual. Is it okay that despite this, I find him hot!? It’s not that I like every bad boy, but he has special… circumstances. Have I ever mentioned how obsessed I’m with royal guys? Oh, maybe just a thousand times. Yukiya: I’d like him anyway, but as he was the very first character I played in WH, he’ll be always special to me <3 Yeah, I’m a bit sentimental and I always remember the first characters in games like my first loves xD But I must mention one more thing: I want to meet his family! I don’t remember how many siblings he has, but it doesn’t matter anyway. I’m sure I say regularly, but I have a strong attraction to older brothers… Randy: his story is my favorite, but he’s not my favorite guy. Is it a contradiction? I don’t think so. His story is complex, tragic, full of mysteries at first, it was interesting to read. But as a guy… of course, he’s cute but I always thought I’d rather be his best friend. Stuffing our heads with sweets, doing crazy things, having fun etc. instead of romantic interactions. I don’t have any problem with him as a guy, I’m just not sure if there is enough chemistry between us like lovers. Azusa: he’s a misunderstood character! How can anyone say that he’s a jerk? There IS a difference between being a jerk just because why not, and being a jerk because he’s deceived, broken-hearted, mentally unstable because of several personal reasons. He’s not a bad person, he’s a good person manipulated by bad things. I don’t agree that it’s okay to act like him in a relationship! But hey, MC heals his heart, isn’t it still a great story? :) Klaus: asdfghasdf I’m horny… Okay, now he IS an actual jerk. He acts like he does because of his own decisions, not because he is manipulated by something. But… can’t we be optimistic just a little bit? I mean okay, he’s strict, but let’s see the good side of this: MC needed that strictness. Joel: I constantly have two things in my mind everytime I see him. 1st: when he appears in another guy’s route, a piece of my heart dies. Seriously. How sad can it be to see your love of life with another guy, without her remembering you? T_____T I can’t bear it… 2nd: in his own route… he wants MC to look him like a guy, without comparing him to June. Can you imagine how much thirst he has to prove his manliness? Every time he kisses MC, his kiss must be deep and passionate. When he makes love to her, he must show off all his skills as a man, and as he waited years for her, I don’t think he can hold himself back, he’s very possessive… but at the same time, as he loves deeply MC, he constantly fights with his selfish desires as he tries not to hurt her… awww I’ve already written Joel lemon, but I want more… T__T Vincent: Handsome and confident, but not jerk, protective and supports MC. The hottest of all the hotties! Haters, please just stop talking about his old he is… because he’s not old! Of course, he’s not a boy, but not being a boy doesn’t mean that he’s old! Anyway, I think he resembles mostly a real-life guy. He’s not a psycho, not tsundere, not a total bad boy, still, he’s not that all lovey-dovey romantic prince type. I personally think that most of the guys are like this: they don’t fall in love so easily as girls, needs some motivating to accept their own feelings, but it doesn’t mean they are all bad people. And Vincent… I can totally understand his way of thinking about love after hearing his about his past. And I’m very-very proud of myself that I could hold back my fangirling for his uniform until the end of the paragraph. LET THE FANGIRLING BEGIN!!! Leon: Well, I found his story lovely and emotional, and he is an interesting character. Not because of his race, but it’s interesting to see how he learns about emotions and tries to be a better person. Still… my body reacts better for guys like Klaus or Vincent, I’m sorry >_< But my platonic love will never fade, don’t worry my sweet angel! <3 /friendzoned Cerim: I like knights or knight-like guys in general. But it’s more important to talk about how MC got stronger in his route. I really like how she tries his best to share his burden, now she’s not just a damsel in distress. I like Cerim’s story, but I’m afraid my deepest crush in this mystery series is Guy… >_< Saella and MC were more interesting in his story than he, the main character itself. Also, the way how he looks isn't my type of guy. Well, it happens, not all the otome game guys are my type xD Guy: Can we stop for a moment to talk about how cute he is? He has his own problems due to his family, yet he doesn't act like a jerk (or like Luca xD) Despite his problems, he's cheerful and he doesn't treat MC like a piece of trash, moreover, he's sweeeeeet :3 He's a really good boyfriend material :)Glenn: His story was okay with the mystery around his village, but the way how he constantly friendzones MC made me tired. I know he doesn't do it on purpose, still it killed the chemistry between us. Sorry babe :* Leslie: He looks like Luca with brown hair. His personality is not the same, fortunately (yeah, I'm a fangirl of Luca, yet I admit he's awful xD) But even if he's not totally a copy-paste, his route didn't leave a very deep impression on me. Yeah, it was averagely entertaining, but I didn't feel when I finished that "OMG how will I recover from this love?" *shrugs* Sigurd: I like that type of character who you get to know only slowly. There are many layers, stories and feelings under the surface he shows to the world. He's a well-written character who managed make me forget how I started to get bored of WH recently.Mel: Younger than MC but looks older, clueless about love but a genius in his field... if he had dark hair, he would be literally my fiancée :"D Beside the sadist guys (like Raymond or Klaus), my other type is the "shota", I'd corrupt these cuties :3

Amelia: I ask her route from Santa again and again. It will never happen, but I won’t give up. She’s supporting, cheerful and not lame if the topic is love… ;-) Sometimes I ship her with different guys, but my main ship of hers will be always she x MC :D Ronny and Chica: they wanted to be cute side-kicks like Taffy - they turned out to be annoying :/ They have good moments though, but I say they aren't so original and funny like Taffy. Headmaster Randolph: he’s always a mystery to me, sometimes he looks like he’s something omniscient being on the Academy, and sometimes he doesn’t know about stuff. But doesn’t matter, I think he’s a great teacher; I wish I could have teachers like him… :/ Prof. Merkulova: I can’t understand what SWD did with him. There is a character. We don’t have many teachers in the school in the game, but he is one. Girls like him. He has dark secrets. And still, he rarely gets attention! I’m not especially his fangirl, I don’t say I wish they would release his route, but he is an interesting character so he could have gotten more role. Prof. Schuyler: ohohohohoho, this is my topic ;-) My opinion about him? *throws feelings into the crowd, here, have all of my feelings* He keeps his words and tries his best to protect the one who was important to someone important. I try not to say spoilers so word repetition FTW xD Loyal guys are hot! Also, I don’t think he could be one of the three mages, a royal attendant wizard or such a skilled teacher if he wouldn’t be smart. Strong wizards are hot! He never joined the dark side. Unwavering guys are hot! And why do some people say he’s not good-looking? He’s a badass guy with quite a difficult past, of course, he has a strict expression on his face! Though I’m curious about his smiling or soft face too… Argh, I’m so fckng hopeless! Months ago I wrote: "I’m not sure how long I can hold back to write a sequel to the Schuyler fanfic I wrote" Now let me announce: since it's time for sequels, something is on the way here too... ;)

#shall we date #otome game #shall we date wizardess heart #wizardess heart

[xye1907]

you see that face?? lol woke up in the middle of the night and the ffffffff was not able to return to sleep!!

yeaaaaaah and see that face?? lol I argue and fight my man again.. told him hurtful words

I burst out.. cant stop the pain anymore

I told him to leave and i dont need him at all

I always say that but none of that is true

I love him so much, its just that I cant fake what I feel and what I want to say

part of what I told him is half meant but not for the I dont need and love him 😏🙄☺️✌️

but seriously I am so fckng tire dealing with my very chaotic life most esp to my self

I always push him away from me

I feel like I dont deserve him

He is too good to be true and I will only hurt him esp if I am mad and out of control

I speak very bad toward him every time my anxiety attacks

Worst is I dont want to say sorry or apologize because I said part of what I always told him when I am mad is true or half meant

I am so jealous about his family they always get what they want..

I dunno I feel like I am not a priority...

He is a Mamas boy and very family oriented.. the jealousy i felt towards his family is may not jealousy at all

Maybe is anger and insecurities

Anger that why the hell in this world his family is complete and happy and why mine is not..

Insecure that they always get what they want when they ask or need it, but why cant I??

Why do I feel like I am always begging to pls him

Pls him to provide me those material things though I dont ask often about that

Pls him to love and make me feel secure

😭😭😭 I felt bad for all of this!!! 😭😭😭😭

And see the other photoooo?? I will hurt my self so bad till I feel na very painful na for me to be satisfied and ma stop ang pain sa heart

This is my only escape hurt my self. Sleep. Eat tuen repeat -- anxiety again

Putangina!!!!!

[kenjkats]

Kenji x Alex as parents HCs 

for the lovely @truthfulchange​

Ok this is actually focused more on Kenji because idk he was all I could think about lol.

Also, specifically writing this with my F!MC in mind.

I picture their first kid to be a girl. Idk something about the image of Kenji with a goofy little girl who looks like him WARMS MY HEART

Her name is Lia lmao this is why this took so long I was looking for names smh She’s cute and energetic and cheeky like her dad.

I said this already in another post, but Kenji just stares at her all day and all night the first few days they bring Lia home he’s so in love with her.

And Alex is just upset like “KENJI PUT HER DOWN LET HER SLEEP AND NOTICE ME.”

Both of them playing pranks on her now and then cause they’re both cheeky shits tbh

Kenji and Alex always read to her. Alex makes the funny voices and Kenji acts parts out.

Sometimes Kenji has to go into work during the day when Alex is also out, so he has to take Lia with him.

No clubbing lol. Like, he’s running errands and auditioning the bands that’ll play the next week. The Grand is empty except for them and the musicians.

And ok Kenji totally dances with his daughter it’s so fckng cute it makes me cry.

Mama Meiko spoiling her so much it’s insane.

“Ok that’s unfair mom, you never did that for me when I was a kid.”

“You were never this cute, Kenji.”

*mutters to self “I was the cutest.”

Kenji cooks for her all the time. He likes to try out new recipes with her and even lets her help.

An argument over eating broccoli:

“Come on, little hero, you gotta finish these.”

“No they’re gross!”

“Ok but you know if you eat these, they make you strong. You’d be the best hero ever.”

“Strong like you?”

“Nah, kid, strong like your mom. She can lift a car and pull a tree out from the ground. So eat up.”

Proceeds to wink at Alex and kiss her cheek. And she just smirks back.

Lia totally looks up to her parents like, she has a collection of superhero costumes.

Put together by Poppy of course. Along with a bunch of bomb-ass outfits from photo-shoots she’s done for kids’ clothing lines.

They just run around the house sometimes acting out battles.

When they’re on the same side:

Kenji turns to his daughter and yells “Who’s the best hero in the world?”

Lia smiling mischievously and saying, “me!”

Kenji being extra with his acting surprised, “WHAT??? I AM HURT, LITTLE HERO.”

And then Lia giggles and says, “Just kidding, daddy! Talos is the best!”

“That’s my girl.” Proceeds to pick her up and swings her around then blows on her tummy. 

Tickling her until she’s crying from laughing too much.

But when Alex is there she’s the best hero because then Lia gets to fly like an airplane on her back.

When they’re against each other:

Alex coming home to a living room with all the furniture pushed out of place and toys everywhere.

Kenji and Lia are nowhere to be found.

Then she sees Kenji hiding under a fkng table

“Kenji why are you in your Talos--”

“Shh!! You’ll blow my cover!”

“What are you--”

And then Lia comes out dressed up in a mini black suit like her mom’s and starts fake-punching her dad.

And Kenji’s just yelling out exaggerated noises of pain.

“No, please! No more little Hero, you’re too strong for me! Agh” *plays dead*

There’ll probably be more and I’ll include more Alex idk hope you liked it!  Also I know I know I said there’d be drawings but I thought of too much and I couldn’t keep up loool I’ll just add that to my list :P

P.S. how’d the vocal auditions go???

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