#they are so dysfunctional to me

[rosenbergamot]

The Sand Permits; or, conversely, Scar and Grian are unable to communicate like normal people

“I don’t like my permits,” Scar says, something unreadable on his face. Grian adjusts his tie, then the papers on his desk., and prepares for another long Scar rant. Whatever it is he’s ranting about this time, Grian’s not sure he can tell, but based on his tone it has to be something difficult for him. “It’s annoying-- it gets in everything! Gets everywhere! I need something else.” 

There’s a loaded quality to that sentence. Grian raises his eyebrow, his hand coming to clutch his pencil as if it can help him through this moment. “What permit do you even have, Scar?”

The answer is something he should have expected from the way Scar is looking at him. The hurt in his eyes. He remembers-- and Grian knows that he remembers, and Scar knows that he knows that he remembers-- but it’s never been brought up before, never been shoved too explicitly in his face. Scar keeps it retained to small comments followed by awkward crooked grins that say nothing. 

“Oh, you know… just sand.” 

Their eyes meet. Scar holds the gaze, as if daring him to say something to him finally-- to acknowledge everything they’ve been through together that he’s only just now remembered. If only Pearl had killed him in Secret Life. Maybe then Grian could have put this off. Oh. Whatever. He’s still going to put it off. Skizz is right there after all.

He studies his nails. “Sand is a pretty good seller, y’know? You’ll have a whole monopoly on it and everything, so I can’t see why you don’t want to go through with it. I thought you liked sand.”

“Sand is useful!” Skizz chirps. 

Neither of them say anything for a second, still staring at one another. Skizz scratches at his head.

“Sand is useful,” Scar agrees easily, his voice strangely flat. “I did like sand. I do like sand. But sand hasn’t been the same ever since it came out of the desert.”

His wings puff up but he keeps his voice level. “Of course sand hasn’t been the same since it left the desert, do you even know what the sand went through in that place?”

“How could I not? I was there! I harvested the sand! I built a home with the sand!” 

The way Scar’s face wrinkles is very reminiscent of Double Life. Grian wants nothing more than to erase that face out of his mind. 

“Maybe the sand didn’t want you to harvest it.” The words are spoken from behind his teeth. His heart is picking up its pace. 

And that gets emotion out of Scar. It’s the same as it was back on Monopoly Mountain, when his eyes were red instead of green, his hands shaking with barely concealed bloodlust. “Maybe the sand shouldn’t have killed me, then!” 

“Maybe the sand shouldn’t have!” He agrees, throwing his hands into the air. Hurt flashes in Scar’s eyes-- as if Grian didn’t just agree with him and his stupid metaphor! He wraps his arm around himself. His voice gets quieter. “Maybe the sand regrets it. Maybe the sand wanted things to be different, wanted to be with you but just didn’t know how. Maybe… maybe the sand just wants things to go back to being normal again.” 

His voice betrays no emotion. He smiles at Grian. “Maybe the sand shouldn’t have broken my heart. Maybe things could be normal then.” 

The pencil in his hand snaps. 

“Scar, you…” His hand is full of snapped graphite. He drops the pencil onto his desk. Being at a loss for words is a feeling that’s foreign to him. It’s rather uncomfortable right now. 

Scar keeps his eyes on him as he tries to formulate a sentence. He gives him longer than he deserves, watching carefully, until finally his smile softens. It makes his stomach drop despite how gentle it is. 

“I’ll see you around, Grian.” He turns, cane in hand, and walks out of his makeshift door. As he leaves, he calls back, “and forget about the permit thing! I’ll figure it out myself.” 

Then he’s gone. And Grian is left to stare at where he just was and wonder what the hell went so wrong. The permit office is silent, still, the only sound and movement coming from himself-- from his shoulders as they heave with his breaths, with his attempts to hold in the tears that suddenly want to fall from his eyes. He can’t cry, though. There’s work to do.

“Um?” Oh. There’s also Skizzleman. He awkwardly shuffles his feet, still holding a file of forms that Scar hadn’t taken with him. “Was that like… was that a thing? Should I have not witnessed that? I don’t think that was about sand.” 

He laughs. It’s hollow. “No, Skizz, I don’t think it was about sand either.” 

read it on ao3 here!!

#hermitcraft #hc10 #hermitcraft 10 #desert duo #scarian #they are so dysfunctional to me #hermitfic #idk if thats a tag i just like how it looks #in which scar and grian CANNOT communicate #fanfic #rosie writing #skizzleman is standing there like What........ #he WILL be commencing therapy talk after this

[goldensunset]

did you know? if you do your laundry you can get your clothes back

#fascinating stuff. let’s see if i (person with the worst executive dysfunction when it comes to doing laundry) remember it #i literally have this issue where i’ll let dirty clothes pile up in the laundry basket for an entire month #like it takes me that long to get around to it #and then- who would’ve thought- i find that i don’t have anything good to wear. strange! #finally did it last night and i’m like ohhh that was so difficult but the payoff finally #augh #peach rambles #hall of fame i guess #shut up about socks. idc. #this was a fun positivity post of sorts it’s about overcoming executive dysfunction #derailing into jokes about losing socks is. it’s not horrible but just boring and annoying #it was supposed to be celebration!! and encouragement!!!

[gascreates]

^^ infectious

#i now desire to read sickfics #this is an old sketch that i colored cuz i was dying to feel productive #depression and executive dysfunction are joining forces against me #i fight back by finishing something fast so i can feel accomplished for a bit #then maybe i can work on the bigger pieces/comics i want to get through #or maybe *gasp* work on a FIC #wouldn't that be crazy #atla #zuko

[lazylittledragon]

isn't it weird how if you get up at 7 or 8, do your work all day, then have free time and go to bed at 11 that's absolutely fine

but if i said i get up at 10, do fun stuff in the morning then work in the evening and go to bed late, i could be called lazy, nevermind that i'm getting just as much or MORE work done as i would in a traditional work day

#ramble #idk if this is a me problem or not #i've tried to do the early rise early bed thing again and again and it just does not work for me doing freelance right now #maybe it's bc i used to work at a bar so i'm more comfortable being active in the evening #i love working at night because there's less going on to distract me #what used to happen is i would get up early then fight executive dysfunction all day saying i couldn't do fun stuff until i did my work #then my will to work would hit at 10pm and i'd be up till 2am anyway #right now my routine is waking up later and playing a game or knitting for an hour or so and then working in the afternoon and evening #something something capitalism and 9-5 and adhd don't go together #this sounds like i'm just making excuses but it works and i'm actually getting shit done and sleeping enough so i don't see the problem #i just figured i'm probably going to sit and do nothing for a few hours in the morning anyway so i might as well give myself permission to

[minnow-doodle-doo]

They all got batburgers after

#dc #batman #redhood #red robin #batfam #I know this is ooc but I thought it was too funny #they are so dysfunctional it makes me feral #my art

[macksartblock]

beware of burnout it's so real i'm afraid

also bc ended up making my writing into a font to avoid killing my hand as much and bc I saw Caden do this, I thought it would be fun to see who y'all think it suits lol

#trust me i am working my way out of it lol #dndads #dungeons and daddies #normal oak swallows garcia #hermie the unworthy #oakworthy #once again i find them really funny being so dysfunctional #and no there is no step prior to the inevitable breakup it just happens #this is just how they are throughout college (they do not talk post graduation the reunion is the 1st time they see each other in years) #lincoln li wilson #taylor swift dndads #hero oak swallows garcia #ik i didnt write out like every character i could have but i was distracted by giving my brother impromptu sewing lessons #i didn't expect that to happen he just kinda showed up like 'I know you'd love to help me with something' like who told you that?? #my artwork #edit: I wrote reignite wrong are you kidding me dugjxghshzs it was 4 am oh well

[st4rking]

tfw you, as a mind reader, have to team up with a man who thinks too much

Slight spoilers in tags

#wednesday spoilers #marvel spoilers #your honor they're my emotional support dysfunctional couple #as everyone should know #i love tony stark #hes baby girl (derogatory) #and I also love emma #I feel like they're great foils to each other but I dont want to talk about that #theres so much controversy around their wedding #however #people do not realize how funny their friendship could be #tony “i think a mile a minute” stark #Emma “Worst time to be a telepath” Frost #you could not tell me the shenanigans that would happen if the situation was not so dire. #if it was not life or death #emma would be flooded with Tonys nonsensical ideas against her will #she is being held hostage send help #yes i know emma wont read his mind without consent but also mindreading would be smart now #especially since they're kind of alone in this #I have so many thoughts on them #AND THEY SAID MRS. AND MR. EMMA FROST #Literally called Tony malewife #Also Feilong is terrifying as an Iron Man villain #The Invincible Iron Man (2023) #I know this isnt how Tony looked in the comic but this is how I draw my tony #tony stark #marvel 616 #diddlydoo #emma frost #irondiamond

[bonojour]

house, md s05e14: “the greater good”

#hilson #house md #gregory house #james wilson #housemdedit #tvgifs #gilles gifs #i think what gets me about this particular scene in this particular episode #is that a lot of the episode is about romantic relationships between characters on the show - you see taub and his wife in bed #as well as thirteen and foreman #and in a way this scene feels like hilson's answer to that type of relationship and on screen depiction in this episode #and it makes wilson in amber's kitchen only sadder :( #if they weren't so repressed they could have fit in perfectly in the montage of lovers sharing a bed #but no they are dysfunctional like that

[polaraffect]

i love bloodweave because it really is just the two most pathetic men in the world. a malewife and a trophy husband. both simultaneously the definition of sex appeal and sopping wet losers with no game. they want to rip each other apart and it's not even sexually. neither of them know how to do taxes. i want to study them under a microscope.

#damien.txt #the posts have convinced me. bloodweave it is. #listen the dynamic...... it's just so good. #doesn't help that i am in love with astarion and probably kin gale soooo. has that fun self-insert flavor #neither of them can do anything. like literally they are the most dysfunctional pair in existence #<3<3<3<3 #bg3 #bloodweave

[chiquilines]

Ochako my relatable academically exhausted queen

#back at the uni AUs #for anyone who cant read my chicken scratch #toga: do you think i should get her a muffin #dabi: your courship rituals are beyond me #toga doesnt work in fast food now sorry i like my coffeeshops too much </3 #also dabi is togas coworker slash older brother in spirit #i cannot express how much i love the dabi-toga dysfunctional sibling dynamic #hes so done with togas crush but also sneakily pays for the muffins she 'donates' to the ochako cause #ochako would appreciate the muffins more if she wasnt entirely out of it every time she gets one #yes this was prompted by my finally catching a break from exams #felt like ochako this morning #not a good time #i just love the idea of toga giving her lil treats and leaving hearts on receipts and ochako reacting with 😴 #sillies #toga himiko #ochako uraraka #togachako #toga x uraraka #mha #bnha #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #wlw #chiquilines draws

[itspileofgoodthings]

always thinking about when I was talking to a friend about IX about Ben’s death and she said “there was a whole lifetime in his smile” and I just. think about that forever.

#reylo #i know that like. nobody cares. and all the reylos have left/unfollowed in the way of scattering fandoms and I’m still at the restaurant #sitting in the corner I haunt #but reylo will always be that to me #anyway there WAS a whole lifetime in his smile 😭😭😭😭 #the thing about Ben and Rey is that they were simply and ultimately so quiet and so private #like. just the two of them in all the world #and for them to be stuck in the hugest of franchises in the most controversial of sequels in the most disappointing of final installments #just makes me love them more. #I’m a fighter. I’m a lover AND a fighter #anyway it’s just. I know #he just. it’s all there on his face. Breaking through the mask of his suffering and his dysfunction and all of his choices #just shining out for one perfect moment before he slipped away

[creekfiend]

I just read a book about like. memory and trauma and grief and family and attachments and loneliness and there's a part at the end where the main character, who has lost her dad and sister horribly, is sitting with her mother and she thinks that she can't trust her memory of what has happened to her. her mom remembers things differently than she does. sometimes her memories are one way and sometimes another. and she has this moment of realization that when her mother dies she won't have anything left to anchor the past. "no confirmation and no refutation"

and I just started crying

#the past is so big inside me and i can tell it but its not the same and i cant even really see or feel it the same way twice but it takes up #the same amount of space no matter what #i have so little left from then i have lost almost everything #who will i be when it is all gone what will that mean for me #i know i need to transmute it into something i can use to connect with other people but i dont know HOW #dysfunction junction #it sticks in everything it sticks in all the gears inside my head and i cant get it out

[kaldurcalm]

Hey does anyone have tips for keeping fleas off the damn dog while depressed and not earning your own money?

They're taking up residence on her tail.

#no i don't want to use essential oils. mostly. #it would be nice to just spray her with rosewater and be done with it. #i gotta get over the malaise and either schedule a grooming appointment or give her a bath #I've misplaced the flea medication i brought with me #seresto collars are at best over 40 dollars #fleas are learning to ignore certain medications #i need to bathe her like every week right? #please excuse me while my executive dysfunction despairs. #i gotta talk myself into being able to do this again. #it's just. so much. #the yard the dog the floor the dog all of the laundry the dog laundry again the dog the floor again the dog #those alternative collars don't really work. they just smell bad.

[fallowfrog]

hades x dmc!!

dante is HERE😈 i also have nero HERE !!!

#hades #devil may cry #dmc #hades game #vergil #dmc vergil #dmc x hades #crossover #dmc fanart #devil may cry fanart #hades fanart #this took me so long simply bc im still learning how to use my new huion BUT IM STARTING TO GET THE HANG OF IT #it's honestly good for defeating my executive dysfunction bc it's directly in front of me and it's like #once i have it set up for drawing it's practically yelling at me until i pick up the pen and start drawing

[welcometogrouchland]

[ID: an 11 panel comic featuring characters from the owl house. Panel 1- a cloaked Darius sneaking around a wall. panel 2 he peaks around the corner, saying "well? Did you retrieve...the package?". Panel 3 Hettie Cutburn (who has old Hollywood style text announcing "surprise Hettie Cutburn!" next to her) says "Darius! Of course! Took some digging but I found them eventually. Tell the boy I say 'hi!'". Panel four- she hands documents labeled "classified" to Darius. Later, Hunter (post timeskip) walks through a door in Darius' home, saying "hey Darius, hey Eber, I'm ba-". Next panel- Darius, Willow, and Eberwolf on the couch. Hunter says "...willow?", She replies "hey hunter!", he asks "what are you guys doing?

Darius says "oh nothing...except looking at pictures of you as a baby!" Holding up the documents from earlier. We see two pictures of a younger hunter framed like panels- the first is of hunter as a baby/toddler aged hunter freshly sprouted out of the ground with a blanket around him, covered in dirt, while the second one shows a young scout Hunter covered in bandages receiving his sprig plushie. Darius' narration reads "courtesy of Hettie Cutburn- she found the only surviving copy of your early life medical records and gave them to me". Willow says "aww, you were so cute!". The final panel shows Hunter looking embarrassed/stunned as Willow takes a photo of the documents, and Darius says "I'm considering it an early father's day present- so, thank you, Hunter". End ID]

MERRY DADRIUS WEEK!!! Thank you to @sergeantsporks for hosting! There's other prompts I wanna do but they'll probably be late (maybe I'll do them in bulk and upload them on the final day). Til then here's a silly comic!

#the owl house #toh #dadrius week #hunter toh #hunter deamonne #darius deamonne #won't tag eber and willow cause they're barely there #also i realize that op isn't really a fan of hubtlow i. literally forgot while making this the brainrot was so strong #it's not explicitly romantic though so hopefully it's not obtrusive. i know ships are allowed but i don't wanna annoy anyone yknow? #anyway this was 90% an excuse to draw baby hunter even though it was 90% me practicing drawing Darius #he's fun to draw! i just struggle w drawing him consistently but like. i do that w/ most characters from illustration to illustration #i finished this right under the wire. executive dysfunction and exams really got my ass #but it's finished now! not perfect but i haven't really made a proper comic since my final piece this year #on account of that one took me like 6 months #i needed comic recovery time 😭 #also hope the ID isn't an issue for anyone since it's a bit spartan. i was trying to trim down it's length since a) it's long as fuck #and b) this fandom is- respectfully- whimpy as hell abt image IDs #but anyway yeah! happy dadrius week #and also happy fathers day if you celebrate! #i got my dad 'do androids dream of electric sheep' and he was really happy w/ that :]

[welcome-to-the-agender-agenda]

I don't think anyone talks about ADHD meltdowns enough.

I get them 9/10 times when I try to do homework.

It's not just crying because I do that every time I get frustrated with work and that's quite often.

It's not just accepting defeat and being angry with yourself because I do that a lot too.

It's breaking down sobbing, bending over and hugging yourself as snapping at anybody who tries to get you to continue working.

It's repeating I can't I can't over and over and feeling so ashamed whilst you're doing it.

It's feeling so angry with yourself because you know you can do the work you just can't do it like this and you're taking out your anger on other people.

It's other people trying to be helpful by saying that you can do it and there isn't much left so we have to crack on but that only makes you more frustrated.

Because they don't understand.

You want to.

But you just can't.

#living with adhd #adhd #meltdown #neurodivergent #adhd meltdown #actually adhd #actually neurodivergent #adhd struggles #adhd strikes again #adhd stuff #adhd things #overwhelmed #frustrated #it's the only time i yell at my mum and i feel so bad #i just get so angry #and i know it isn't her fault #but she doesn't know how to help me #and no one ever talks about it #executive dysfunction #cant focus