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boneinator · 4 months

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Hope this doesn’t bother you a lot, but can we get some headcanons of the teachers? I was curios about ur vision for them

Dw it doesn't bother me !! I love getting asks ^^

Anyway it's going under read more bc this feels like a long one

Sketch

• she/they enby, omnisexual (<- me when I'm projecting)

• mentor figure for the newer teachers

• gives drawings and crafts as gifts, might or might not have various voodoo dolls

• uses Colin as a monitor for digital art

Tony

• he/him, bisexual

• you CANNOT tell me he doesn't drink tea 24/7. Most British mf I have ever seen

• weird hearing, very sensitive to loud sounds but can barely hear normal talking tones. Applies to his own voice too so that's why he screams a lot

• kind of an inferiority complex for the decaying use of clocks over technology lol

Shrignold

• gay and homophobic idgaf

• aware of the harm he's doing but genuinely loves his cult- "family" a lot

• likes telenovelas, granny type of beat

Colin

• he/it Libramasc, pansexual (here I am, projecting once again)

• has haphephobia but is working on it (this one might as well be canon idk)

• everyone has a computer day, so even if you see him every day you only get screentime once a year

• autism 🫵

• his tail is retractable

• has SO MANY viruses, that's why he glitches and talks slow

Healthy band

• doing them all together bc how can you think of them alone :[ don't separate them

• common fanon of them being a family ykn the drill

• their "birthday" (or date of release lol) is actually fridge and steaks anniversary

• depending on the day they either make the most rancid bizarre food or a 5 stars, Gordon Ramsay approved meal

• running on the same luck, fridge can either be filled with normal groceries, nothing (you have to buy groceries) or gore. Like those are his guts leave him alone

• everyone hiding inside fridge is apparently a normal bonding experience

• bread boy is transfem !! (Should we start calling her something different?)

• spinach is also a she/they enby, nobody in here isn't lgbtq

Lamp

• he/him but doesn't really care, pansexual

• has been trying to be sober but he's already very fucked up, that's why he's like That™ in the TV show

• the other teachers we see in his episode are his party friends

• absolutely watches the others dreams, likes to bother them about what they mean

★ ok now the TV show ones

Briefcase

• has an absurd amount of skills, barbie kind of ridiculous

• lives with his brother and sustains them both

• workaholic

• was mr.petersons before red guy

• actually not that bad he's just really fast paced, genuinely just lost the trio on the fabric

Coffin

• he/him goth gf <3

• doesn't like music AT ALL. And is very mean about it

• besties with the tissue box !!

• originally only used his hush tone for work but it slowly morphed into his normal voice

• pretty bad PTSD

• very kind with kids and people in general tbh, it might be something useful for his job but it's just how he is really

Lily and Todney

• I don't think about them a lot sorry

• they know what they are doing and that their whole family dynamic is pretty fucked but they genuinely just really want a mom tho ,,,

Warren the wo-Eagle

• genuinely just hate him so I don't think about him a lot either lol

• had no power over the trio because he was fired and not technically a teacher anymore

• his whole Thing (ykn) comes from bullying and a feeling of inferiority. He still sucks tho

Mr.Transport

• well. I guess I just don't think a lot about the newer teachers

• was actually a really nice teacher before still going to work at 120 years old

• nobody really liked him but he was the other's only way of going outside the house so they endured him

• there was a fight over his will. People died

Electracey

• she/they enby n°3, lesbian

• really scared to touch her batteries now, has caused her to get cranky but still refuse to change them until forced

• puts up light shows for her friends

• huge sci-fi and videogames in general fan

• Colin's cousin. Actually all electronics are related

• wanted to be a music teacher but her biology said no

★ this is more of a general one but all of them are somewhere in the aroace spectrum !! I think it comes with the object nature. I have not defined where all of them fall tho

That's it I think. This is so long I am so sorry I just enjoy them a lot so I have a lot of thoughts

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timomoe · 2 years

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Aph Russia Hcs

This man is nothing short of unhinged. He's got so much unresolved trauma and PTSD that he just does not know what to do with (and that no one around him seems to take seriously because "All nations have trauma, dipshit, don't be a pussy, jfc", so he just refuses to get any help for it bc he thinks he's SUPPOSED to be this way, someone help him.)

Contrary to what Himaruya tried to write, I like to think that Russia is hyperaware of the fact that his violent tendencies are immoral, he just does not care. It's been drilled into him from a young age that he needs to use violence, manipulation, fear, etc., to get the things he wants. He's aware they're bad, but he simply considers them necessary acts of evil in order to bring about what he thinks is within everyone's best interests. He's got a very clear idea of what's wrong and what's right, it's just extremely easy for him to justify why something is right when HE does it. If someone were to do something that he's also done, but thinks is wrong, he will condemn them for it.

Basically, he's a massive hypocrite.

This, however, sets him apart from a lot of other nations - not the hypocrisy, most nations are pretty hypocritic at one point or another, that's just par for the course. The fact that he's just. So openly antagonizing makes him super interesting to me. Most nations are really sneaky with their awfulness, but Russia's as subtle about his intentions as a brick to the back of the head. He doesn't care anymore. He's too old, tired, and sad to really give a shit about his reputation being tarnished. Not only that, but he already knows that most nations do not like him, so what even is the point in pretending anymore? He's not sly about it anymore. Part of me thinks he genuinely enjoys being a pain in the ass (this is kinda canon, as he does enjoy the sound of people arguing, and thinks world peace would be boring bc there would be no fighting.

For example, if we were to compare the guy to America, according to my hcs of course, we'd see some key differences. America is a lot like Russia in a lot of ways, he thinks the bad things he does or says are justified if he does them, and he always has a reason for why he did/said something prepared, but it's suddenly bad if someone else does/says them. He's ambitious and a little cowardly and pretty entitled, but most of his awful intentions are hidden beneath this "good boy", "American Dream", "I'm the Hero!" nonsense. He's a fantastic liar, cheat, swindler, etc., and he uses that to his advantage. Typically the guy will have an ulterior motive for everything he does. When he was younger, he did do things out of the goodness of his heart, but life as a nation, and especially as a world power has jaded him, even though he's not been around for long. As such, he treats most of his interactions with other countries as a business exchange instead of real human interactions. He tries to slip something that would benefit him into every move he makes, but he's always quiet about it, has every exit and escape marked, and will lie, lie, lie about it if he's caught.

Russia will do exactly none of these things. America is about harsh negotiation, Russia is about ultimatums. "Do this. Or don't. I don't care. I will get what I want either way,"

#Basically Russia's a bad person #but that's why I like his character so much #I've said I hate russia in the past #but a better way to explain it is: I hate russia as a person but adore him as a character #we don't get a lot of genuinely terrible people in this series #powers you'd expect to be portrayed as awful typically are not #England spain and france are all portrayed in a pretty positive light (save for some early series weirdness for France and Spain)#But Himaruya really cranked it up to 11 with Russia and for WHAT?#Like why's Russia portrayed as a dick but America's just this. Guy?#Like don't get me wrong #I could make a long-ass post about America on his own #America's a prick in canon to a degree #But not to the same degree #I want villains himaruya!#I want characters who aren't good people!#hetalia #aph russia #hws russia #hws russia headcanons #hetalia headcanons #aph america

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starvels · 2 years

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Thoughts on the blindspot that Steve can get, where he has a hard time seeing that Tony is having a hard time. And if it’s because of wishful thinking, stubborn refusal to accept the reason Tony isn’t doing well, situational blindness, or a flat out denial, does them getting together actually fix it? Or is Steve’s willingness to take Tony at his word and Tony’s tendency to downplay any troubles he’s having continue the habit?

mm this is some good thinky thoughting, my nonny nectarine. here are my thoughts, coming from the background of: i know and love someone i would say is quite like how i characterize steve - in anger and in belief in other folks and in tenacity to a moral stance or cause.

steve is complex and thinks he's not.

so as a short answer to your question, it's a mix of a lot of things, i think, yeah! most of the things you listed! his brain works very fast and his emotions come to him a month and a half too late. (tony's brain and emotions work at the same speed. chaos, my poor meow meow, etc), so there's always steve being like, you're my partner, we're in this together, look how good we are doing in the team, in small moments, etc. he's headstrong and narrowly focused when on a mission, professional or otherwise.

not to quote myself but, he doesn't recognize how wildly he swings to balance his own beliefs.

i don't know that canonically we are still at 'steve's willingness to take tony at his word,' because i think there's been a lot of doubting it and like all relationships, the amount you're willing to take someone's word really does depend on their consistency and reliability in the most pertinent past.

but steve does accept generally take tony's word and tony does generally downplay his troubles.

why?

bc i think sometimes it genuinely doesn't occur to steve that tony is doing unwell lol. i think steve wants to believe in the best in tony, even when he doesn't, he wants to. he's very unbiased about this guy, has too many pent up thoughts and lifetimes of history and that colors his ability to objectively be like is it logical that tony is doing good rn?

and tony puts up a good front and steve's hypocritical enough to be like?? 'why would you put up a front if you feel bad, just be honest.' and when tony is like 'i don't know' it means, last time i tried to tell you i wasn't doing well it came out all garbled because i wanted to choke the words out of my own throat for having the weakness to try and speak them and also you didn't want to hear it, you think the world should have the knees you do - to get up and get up and get up but not everyone has knees and not everyone lives on stable ground.

so i think tony says that he's doing okay, NOT in a lying sense (it's not really lying to him! i could write an essay on this) but in a HOPEFUL sense. in a - if steve believes in me and believes me here maybe i can channel that belief and i can then make that a reality, i can be that, be okay, i'm good at turning dreams into circuit boards, i'm good at routing my energy, right, right?

and steve actually believes him on almost the same level - i want to believe him, i want him to do well, the world is such a better place for the goodness of tony stark, my world is such a better place, he's strong i know he is, he knows i hate lying, he likes being believed in by me, i should believe him, i know him, he's surely doing well, right, right?

which is literally the same coin.

(sidenote for steve also has a lot of fucked up internalizations about ableism and labor capacity and work ethic and mental health and PTSD. he's often projecting because it's his ~defense mechanism)

but yeah, real eyes realize real lies ! steve and tony's problems aren't as a result of them being too dissimilar, it's as a result of them being too similar!

this would not change with them being in a relationship together, because being in a romantic relationship only strengthens the ways in which you want your partner to be well, to succeed and to be honest with you in the doing of it. but i do think if they were entering the relationship genuinely looking for it to last it would become evident quickly that they can't do that without working on their similar, burning instinct to give each other what want. and they would genuinely have to face the ways in which that instinct leads to their own individual and their combined detriment.

i wrote a line about it in are we satellites? that i always always think about:

Their problems have always been here, not in the ocean breaks where their lives and loves and morals meet up, but in the shore tide where tiny difference in their density intensities build them to choking foam.

the ocean is the ocean, even at different densities, but when the ocean meets the earth, how it behaves is entirely different - particle to particle, even as it stays strong and salty.

#stevetony #our talk #616 #steve rogers #tony stark #character talk #ask cleanout

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blackbird-brewster · 1 year

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you know what’s kind of annoying to me in a very specific to me way ? it’s so frustrating to me that jj/tara/emily (some of my fave characters of all time) are in a show that is so violent and i cannot watch for extended periods of time- hello trauma and nightmares. also a show that does not believe in positive development of its women. like it’s so genuinely tragic to me!!!!! i just want jjtaraemily in a cute environment being happy but instead every time u see them they’re surrounded by like… death and violence and the worst of humanity. makes me sad

-tjj

TJJ, I fucking FEEL that. Coming back to this fandom now that I am admittedly too old and tired to purposely watch trauma shows....has been interesting. I honestly can't rewatch this show. I showed my partner '200' just so they had some Jemily reference. And I've watched maybe 3-4 other eps for fic references. But overall? I CANNOT watch this show anymore. I'm not playing PTSD trigger chicken anymore I can't even read canon fics that have any case details. It SUCKS. Bc that rules out so many fics (including one I'm trying to finish that I started in 2015) This is why me and my partner always daydream about 'Fooled Around (and Fell in Love)' being a cute queer TV show. I want my OT3 to just be HAPPY and SOFT and DOMESTIC without the fucking trauma!! I only watched the first two episodes of Evolution but I CANNOT watch any of the other eps (thankfully, people gave me a heads up on trigger warnings). Having my comfort show suddenly become a show I CANNOT actually watch anymore has been an adjustment. But the thing is, fanfic TRULY does feel as engaging as re-watching CM. My partner has seen maybe 5 episodes ever, and through CM fanfic (mostly mine) they are FULLY invested in JJ/Tara/Emily, which I think is such a cool thing I know so many people who have fallen into new fandoms simply through fanfic and without them ever engaging with the source media. Fanfic is so magical!

#the jara jamboree #criminal minds #about me 2k23 #I wish there was a super cut of my blorbos WITHOUT the killing and violence lol

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macarensesangles · 1 year

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this might sound a bit sillycore. goofypilled even. im told my ideas of what constitutes indulgent treatment can be kind of skewed.

however. sometimes i feel so guilty and entitled for like, the kind of way i would want to be treated by emet? obviously i'd want him to be nice to me, which i'm at least aware is baseline for a partner, but like...idk i think it would be nice if he paid special attention to making me feel comfortable and safe (PTSD reasons) and if i got to spend a lot of time with him where he paid lots of attention to me and said like, praising and fond things. once again, probably baseline, i just feel bad

i think there's also an element of like. i mean this is bc i sort of imagine there would have to be a context where i as myself could interact with him, so this isn't strictly canon so much as kind of riffing on it (he's certainly loaded at certain points as like, a simple matter of fact). but the fact that he's wealthy makes me feel SOOOOOOOO BAD, actually. the idea of receiving gifts from him horrifies me bc it makes me feel very materialistic; i usually think more about REJECTING whatever he offered me to prove i'm not entitled and selfish and that i'm genuine than i do about like, being given special treatment in a material sense. in real life i have difficulty accepting gifts, but i understand like, people like to give them and so i try to accept that with grace, especially with people close to me, so i realize irl that would actually probably be extremely rude.

it's just like....idk. like in my most cringe gay fantasies even if i refuse to touch any thought of material gifts i would still receive a lot of positive treatment emotionally and the only thing that would be required of me would be like, being present and myself. but i feel like that's such an awful thing to expect from a partner, like, just showing up and being a warm body is not what being a good partner is, and i would owe him just as much effort and forethought as he gives me. it would be awful to just be like "shower me in love and praise simply because i'm cute, and in return i will spend time with you and that's it!" like it feels so entitled. i want to be able to relax around a partner but i would hate to just phone it in and expect them to still love me.

You can probably clearly see this pattern with me already it's why i flip out and start trying to make decisions about maer's birthday or our anniversary months in advance, i used to be way more neurotic about it, but like. idk. i wonder sometimes if i devalue myself too much, i know relationships need to be reciprocal but i constantly feel like i have nothing to offer and am being negligent and not doing enough for my friends and loved ones emotionally, in terms of material gifts, practically, etc etc

#tag for complaining #i Guess #i feel like this is probably a consequence of being parentified and neglected but like.....Maybe not. who knows

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myaimistrue · 3 years

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del myaimistrue’s underrated destiel fic recs! (part 1)

these are all fics i’ve read and realllllllly enjoyed, and they’re all ones that i don't often see people discussing on here. bc of that they all either have less than 10k hits OR were published pre-2015 OR both. i hope you all like them, and if you do, please consider giving the authors some love and leaving a comment saying so. we fic writers live off that kinda stuff :)

list under the cut, organized by word count!

I Know! Straight Out of a Telenovela, Right? by @credentiast

quick 800ish word meta joke about y yo a ti. so sweet and domestic and lovely. i read this right after it was uploaded and have gone back to read it multiple times since then. always makes me smile!

strap the wing to me by a_good_soldier (aka @s11e17)

as i’m sure we all know, basically everything a_good_soldier writes is wonderful. this little 1.9k bit of sweetness is one of my personal favorites of theirs, and is sorely underrated. a bit of conversation between dean and cas about how much cas loves him. nothing like holy devotion to a human man!

The First Thing There Is by bendingsignposts

cas seals off dean's memories as part of the effort to stop michael, and amnesiac dean immediately realizes that cas loves him. 5k of really sweet, in-character moments and a healthy dose of humor.

Eyes Like the Texas Sky by RogueTranslator

do you hate john winchester? do you want to read about dean’s queer awakening and how that relates to his love of cowboys? do you love sweet stories about finding love and acceptance in places you didn’t expect? this 5.6k fic is for you! dean tells cas the story of the first guy he ever had feelings for, and boy is it sweet and heart-wrenching and wonderful.

Nothing Equals the Splendor by RurouniHime

7.8k fic in which 15x20 was all part of a djinn dream. perhaps my all-time favorite finale fix-it (which is why it’s on this list despite having like 12k hits shhh) featuring full-powered angelic cas blowing out all the lights in the bunker when he and dean have sex. beautifully written and so sweet. and the sequel is also great--highly recommended as well

Telemetry by scifive

DEAN STUDIES FIC!!! 9k set during the first seven episodes of season 4 that actually addresses and deals with dean’s ptsd and trauma from hell. dean’s voice is absolutely perfectly in-character. also it’s pre-relationship destiel but the moment with them at the very end is so tender and lovely.

the pie isn’t a metaphor (it’s just pie) by noviembre

9.3k post-canon fic in which dean and cas get comfortable with their relationship and bake some pies together. it’s a very soft little story that features dean being head over heels and cas being beautifully sarcastic.

Talk Therapy by shara

9.3k of dean figuring out what he wants from cas and how to be in a relationship with him. sex-focused, but intentional about what details are shared so it feels very natural and sweet. cas is so steadfast as dean tries to unlearn what he’s been taught his whole life.

it’s such a mystery (the way you know me) by fleeceframe

another memory loss fic, except it’s cas this time! 10k words about cas getting hit with a temporary memory loss spell and his rediscovery of love and friendship. straight up this one made me cry happy tears. fleeceframe writes beautiful stuff, and this one is no different--the language is just gorgeous.

killing time by orestespdf

11.2k post-canon fic. it’s kind of a day in the life of dean and cas in the lake house they’ve made their home that doubles as a cas character study. very cathartic and romantic.

Kingdom Come by ahurston

17.3k cas comes back from the empty fic featuring a road trip and lots of cas introspection. dean and cas’s interactions are so so so in-character the entire time, and the final moments of the story are absolutely perfect. one of my personal favorite fix-its.

a certain light by flightagain

24.3k au in which cas works at a gas-n-sip and dean’s a customer that comes in a lot, with a supernatural twist! this story is so gorgeous and gentle, and dean and cas’s relationship is portrayed beautifully. if you’re a cas fan, this story is his from pov and nails it in a way that i think is really hard to do in an au.

Peace And Good Luck to All Men by KismetJeska

31.3k human au in which dean is anna’s boyfriend she brings home for christmas, and he and cas immediately click. i am not a big au person, especially when it comes to angel characters, but this fic is so genuinely in character and still hilarious. also a long time fandom classic.

Everybody Needs the Light by opal_bullets

46.5k words of another banger by opal_bullets of poet dean fic fame! actually i might like this one just a little better which should tell how great this one is. it takes place pre-series. dean stops at an old motel in minnesota that cas is running, and something strange is going on… this fic has one of the most interesting conclusions i’ve read in a spn fic and there is such a cool atmosphere to the whole piece. highly recommended if you’re a fan of mysteries and/or supernatural’s angelic dynamics and/or pre-series dean.

Smells Like Roses by orphan_account :(

53.8k words. an absolute classic. seriously, if you haven’t read this, ESPECIALLY if you’re a dean girl, it’s a must-read. set in season 5, dean has a vivid djinn dream of an entire life he spends married in domestic bliss with cas. when he gets pulled out of it, he struggles to readjust and focus on the coming apocalypse. dean is so in-character and so heart-breaking. def a dean thesis fic with a healthy side of destiel sweetness.

The Hanged Man by ellispark

87.6k words. PARK RANGER CAS. literally need i say more?? if that alone hasn’t sold you, the story is that he finds dean out in the woods after someone has tried to kill him, and the mystery unfolds from there as the two of them grow closer. the plot is really interesting and in-character despite being an au. also, if non-verbal dean is something you like/find interesting, you will really love this fic. absolutely worth the read and frankly deserves more hits!

#there will definitely be more lists i after this one #i read a lot of fic #if anybody has any specific requests i can also look into that--i'm not afraid to brave the main spn tag on ao3 if need be #del's fic recs #is the tag i'll use ig #deancas #destiel #destiel fic rec #deancas fic rec

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jostenneil · 2 years

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I honestly am so confused by people who want Jason to kill forever or who act like any and all scenarios where Jason ever stops killing must be to coddle Bruce. Like, first of all, (& I mean none of this as justification for his behaviour, just explanatory) imo Jason’s killing is very much like an unhealthy coping mechanism for his trauma. Like, he is very much caught up in the cycle of violence in the sense that he has this very pessimistic view of it being something that it is never ending/cannot be broken out of (which is a belief he has to cling to if he wants to be able to justify his behaviour- honestly one could argue that the belief that the cycle of violence is never ending is fundamental to both Bruce & Jason’s ideologies but where Bruce believes in focusing on how one responds to it & those it hurts, Jason is focused on controlling it in a misguided attempt to control how much harm is caused- that’s besides the point though ) & therefore the only way to mitigate it’s harm is to control it, and it very much confuses me why people who claim to like him want him stuck there?? Honestly, especially because Jason’s always been a very caring & compassionate character & him having narratives that focus on his response to criminals rather than to victims leaves him with so few chances to flex one of his best traits! Like Batman: The Cult is one of his most well liked Robin era stories & a lot of it centres around him trying to work with a recently victimized Bruce! Even when there’s a chance they’ll both die his focus is on trying to make Bruce feel like it’ll be okay! Second of all, like, Jason’s story from the start has centred so much around the cycle of crime & what justice means especially in relation to the victim since his Robin era to the point where, aside from Bruce’s questioning of Jason at the end, I’d say Jason & Gloria’s relationship is the most impactful part of TDS. Additionally, Jason is canonically someone who is very much aware of why people commit at least lower level crimes in relation to poverty. Like honestly him killing in a way that goes against what he was initially built to value due to untreated ptsd, dulled compassion from the pit (& compassion is like a muscle! Gosh the amount of arcs I have in my head where Jason relearns how to use it & it centres as a theme in his story again mxncnxm), being caught in the cycle of violence from a young age, and not having a support system that he can trust (again none of this justifies his actions but it does contribute to why he lashes out that way specifically imo) is honestly such a disheartening endgame for his character to want for him. And Jason reconnecting with victims & crime alley over time is an arc that can have nothing to do with Bruce! Like all this to say that you are one of like two users on here who wish that instead of RHATO we got crime alley! Jason who’s cast of side characters is mostly civilians who have varying views on the Red Hood’s behaviour & moral code. I respect you for this, thank you for being big brain (also sorry people get mad at you for liking female characters, it’s insane)

omg how did you manage to make all of this fit into one ask i get broken up asks so often i didn't think they could be this long lmao 😭 but YES this sums it up so well tbh like compassion is something he desperately needs to rediscover in his life bc it used to be such a driving force for him prior and the thing is i get that people might thing searching for he used to be would be regressive bc generally walking back into the past is not necessarily a marker of growth BUT the irony with jason is he is already allowing his past to rule him due to the violence he's giving into, and there is so much else about his past that's important that he's forgetting in the process. no one is asking him to be that boy again or to prove himself. but he had genuine compassion and love and dreams as a boy and those aren't worth throwing away just yet and i wish writers could allow him to realize that in a way that was compelling and allowed him to actually engage with the community whose people he feels so endeared towards and protective of

#jason todd #dc #asks #interestingly there's this mini arc from lotdk called 'faith' by mike w. barr #and it's set like year one/twoish #where bruce saves someone from a drug lord and due to them still recovering from their drug induced hallucinations #they decide to take up armed vigilantism themselves and create an army of batmen bc they think bruce wants their help to enact justice #but he ends up being almost reckless and violent and although bruce appreciated the army's help initially #eventually he realizes that the senseless violence coming of it isn't worth it and that it's obscuring normal people's lives #and actual opportunities to help him #and at the end when he finally apprehends the guy he says one thing:#'tell the people of this neighborhood the man they're protecting betrayed them all'#'he's a murderer who doesn't deserve their loyalty. much less their blood'#and LIKE. thinking about that in relation to jason is crazy like how has NO writer ever contended with the actual normal people #affected by his crusade or how he doesn't actually fulfill all of their needs #we NEED more of that engagement from him #also omg the last comment ajdkfsjfldhgf it is crazy tbh #this is what comics misogyny has done to us it's terrible

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pezarcoiris · 2 years

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OH and also umm. nagito komaeda

EHJEHENBS okay. this is probably gonna be all over the place but whatever so my lgbt headcanons for komaeda would be that hes gay nonbinary and transfem and that he uses he/she/they + dog themed neos. like pup/pups or paw/paws probably idk. I use he/she for them more frequently than the other pronouns because i forget about them ODBHDFBJSJDNH so lets just pretend its a preference. when it comes to ships i think everyone who knows me or even just follows me probably knows that i feel very strongly about komahina. i also ship kamukoma BUT I'M NORMAL ABOUT IT I SWEAR. i know this particular ship has a really bad reputation because of how 90% of people who ship it make it out to be like this really sexual and even abusive relationship even thought thats like heavily out of character for both of them. I promise im not one of those people but i understand those who are uncomfortable with the pairing even if portrayed accurately i can imagine how hard it is to separate it from the common missconception lol.. Either way i still like komahina a lot more. but there arent any pairings ((that i can think off)) with komaeda that i dislike or hate other than the ones where she's shipped with women or with naegi. no hate to the people that ship komaeda and naegi but i think it would go really wrong VDBHNSB. but again as much as i literally cannot visualize anything other than a huge failmarriage involving those two i could be wrong and if you ship them continue to do so if its something you like etc. ANYWAY for other headcanons i think pup has autism ocd c-ptsd and i cant think of a disorder that could be the reason for pups psychosis so you think of one. I also have several physical disability headcanons for him like albinism and a coloboma on one eye (which i draw pup with), blindness (caused by the two things i said before probably) and chronic fatigue syndrome. (<- i googled it and it says its a disability but im not too sure ? OAGHAHGS) also despite the fact that when i make art or talk about dangan im referring to my own non despair au bc canon sucks i still draw him missing an arm (sometimes wearing a prosthetic one) because Why not tbh. might as well. Well ok when it comes to my opinion towards her i think if you follow me you can tell i like her a lot LMFAO. I think hes really cool and a genuinely really unique and impactful character. it makes me really sad how many people misinterpret them despite the fact that there are very few things that are up to interpretation about them if you actually pay attention to what they do and say having in mind their motivations. TBH i dont think even the writers themselves are aware of how complex the character they made really is, especially while they were writing him. I think thats one of the funniest things about komaeda, how he is such an iconic and unique character with so much to discuss and analyze and all of that was made completely in accident and it would likely be impossible for his own creators to make another character like that without them being a direct copy of him. And believe me i can tell they definitely tried to do so after seeing how popular paw was and failed miserably because everyone on the writing team sucks im assuming. Okay so back to talking about komaeda herself, i think what caused all of her delusions about hope and talent and stuff like that were various factors. She is used to a life in which no matter how much she tries she never succeeds and all she can do is watch everyone die around her and just take in the horrible things that constantly happen to her. So obviously that sucks a lot right. So he would obviously need an explanation to why all of that is happening. and thats where the society in danganronpa comes in. Everyone there values talent more than they value people and if you dont have a talent you are less worthy than those who do and you are not unique, you are just another face in the background. So as you would guess that did not have a good impact on komaeda. That belief gives them a reason to live and while even hinata (who subconciously shares it) thinks its too extreme, it is constantly enabled by things like how admired the ultimates are all around the world just for their talents, how hope's peak itself is considered a symbol of hope and you can only get in if youre an ultimate or a reserve course and if you are the latter you are seen as inferior as the main course students by them and probably the academy itself). Without that belief komaeda feels like theres no point in living but with it all of his questions are answered. its sort of like "why does all of this happen to me" ---> "because i have no talent, therefore no worth and only people who are worthy succeed" "why do so many horrible things happen to everyone" ---> "while it is unfortunate that so many people suffer, it is for a better cause. hope is something so good that any methods used for the sake of achieving it are always justified" "why do i keep living a life that only brings me pain" ---> "because the reason i was born was to become a step ladder for hope and dying for any other sake would be completely meaningless". one of the main reasons why i like komahina a lot more than other hinata/komaeda ships is because in their arcs both komaeda and hinata get character development and start to unlearn that mindset and i dont really see that happening in any other ships involving komaeda or any other ships involving hinata. They both go against eachother's belief and yet they can't stop caring about the other. Their feelings ended up being a lot stronger than what they were brainwashed into thinking... "love wins", as they say. I COULD and would LOVE to go on but i hate to talk this much in public despite how often i do it SBDHJDNDVB thank you for reading..

#nagito komaeda #ask #phytoplank #character discussion #art #ms paint #danganronpa #abuse ment #kamukoma ment #komahina #long post

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luna-rainbow · 3 years

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I really can’t get over how they framed buckys ending in tfatws as him being entirely healed from his trauma. He doesn’t need therapy anymore, he’s not displaying noticeable pads symptoms that were highlighted in the show (nightmares, staring, irritability, etc) I just find it so frustrating bc it’s just the cherry on top of a horrible representation of trauma & therapy. I know that they probably wanted a happy & hopeful but I feel like they could have done this by showing him still going to therapy with a different therapist who he likes & is working well with & coping a bit better with his ptsd symptoms rather than having those symptoms disappear entirely. Buckys trauma is something he’d likely have to live with in some capacity for the rest of his life & it sucks the way they’ve handled it

Thanks for the ask!

I’m guessing this might be brought up in response to the latest discourse on “why can’t you be happy that Bucky is happy”? I haven’t had a chance to dig that one up yet (also I think lots of Bucky fans already said fantastic things so I don’t have much to add).

What’s interesting to me is that the creative team said the ending scenes were shot at the very start of the shooting. I have a lot of confidence in Sebastian’s interpretation of Bucky, so I think Sebastian genuinely, at one point, believed Bucky earned his happiness.

And I think that’s the key here that that particular poster missed, earned. A well-written story earns its emotional beats, and not just bludgeon you over the head with “BUCKY’S HAPPY NOW SEE HE’S SMILING DON’T YOU GET IT”. The thing is, we believe in Bucky’s pain and sadness because he’s earned that - we’ve seen the torture he went through, we’ve seen what he’s lost, we’ve seen Sebastian bring to life his despair. We want him to earn his happiness too, because then it’s not something flimsy that can just be torn apart by the next bad writer. Look at him smiling at Steve in Infinity War! Was he not looking happy? He was, but they took all that apart so easily in episode 1 of TFATWS because he didn’t earn it.

And there were a lot of beats that weren’t earned. His and Sam’s friendship - as recent as right before the boat scene, they were still snappy and surly with each other. The idea that you could patch up a relationship with an expensive gift and imposing on their family…cheapens what their friendship was about.

That said, I want to believe that off screen, Sam has linked Bucky in with a good psychologist, he’s still going to therapy, he’s dropped the amends BS because he realised it was retraumatising him and the victims, he’s in a better place because he’s got a found family and people who treat him like a human. But that’s just head canon, because you’re right, he didn’t get any of that. He just magically got happy, just like Rhodes with a severe spinal cord injury magically got walking. It minimises disability into something that just magically goes away if you’re “good enough” or “try hard enough” and that’s where I take issue.

#bucky barnes #tfatws critical #asks

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moirasimagines · 4 years

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standing by | david budd x reader

summary: it’s the night of october 1st, and the reader is expecting a visit from david after an outing with his kids to see their grandmother. feeling nervous, they phone vicky and receive some less than reassuring news.

warnings: canon-typical mentions of su*cide bombing/terrorism and ptsd, lil angsty? but tender i promise, vicky and the reader each have one (1) drink, general concern is to be had about david’s mental state

word count: 2787

a/n: i kinda wanna make this a series? where david and the reader just? are dating so instead of sleeping w/ julia he just... becomes her friend and everything else just... happens the same way ig??? lemme know if anyone’s actually interested in this bc i might write it anyway but it’d be good to know if there’s any actual like... market for it bgjkrtbgkr

David is late. You aren’t angry–– it just seems odd. He’s a very punctual person, normally, and you couldn’t imagine why he wouldn’t just text you if something had come up with the kids. He hasn’t answered any of the texts you’ve sent him, and both times you called, his phone went to voicemail. You think about phoning Vicky, then decide against it. You like to think that the two of you are friends. She’s kind to you whenever you see her, anyway, and David has mentioned once or twice that she’s asked about you, remembered that your aunt had been sick and sent well wishes or mentioned a book you’d told her about. You like her. She’s a good mother to her kids, and she treats David with the love and respect he deserves. You’ve never met a pair of exes with such a healthy relationship, and though you know it’s a two way street between herself and David, you’re still impressed with her grace. It’s these feelings that drive you to give her a ring when an hour’s gone by since Dave said he’d be over and you haven’t heard anything.

“Hello?”

“Hi Vicky, it’s Y/N. I was wondering if Dave––”

“Oh love,” she says, and you notice that her voice wavers as she speaks. Your heart drops. “Everyone’s alright, the kids and him, but…” She sighs. “There was a suicide bomber on their train home.”

“Oh christ,” you murmur, your heart rate picking up. “But they're okay? The kids? And Dave? Nothing happened, no one got hurt?”

“They’re all fine, yeah. They’re taking a cab home now. Dave said to expect them in at about half past 10. He…” she takes a deep breath on the other end of the line. “He talked the woman out of it. Nearly got himself killed, but…” For a moment, neither of you says anything. You glance at the clock. It’s 9:45. You have to make a conscious effort to even out your breathing, but you manage it.

“He saved their lives,” you say.

“Yeah,” Vicky manages, but you can tell she’s crying.

“Is there anything I can do for you, hun?” you ask, “Do you want some company?” She sniffles.

“That actually… That would be nice, if you’re offering. And that way you won’t have to wait to see him, or the kids.”

“Yeah,” you say. “Yeah, of course. I’ll start over right now. Should be able to get there in twenty. Thank you, Vicky.”

“Yeah, all right. No, it’s…” She pauses. “I mean, thank you, hun.”

“See you soon.”

You smile as you hang up, but your stomach is still churning. He’s fine, the kids are fine. Everything is fine. Vicky obviously spoke to him, and they’re all on their way home now. But the thought of something happening is too much to bear, and you notice after a moment that your heart is practically pounding. You don’t want to keep Vicky waiting, though, so you toss your phone and keys into your bag and drive over.

She meets you at the door, and to your surprise, throws her arms around you. Relieved, you return the embrace, giving her a reassuring squeeze.

“Thank you for coming all this way,” she murmurs against your shoulder.

“Thank you for letting me come by.” Vicky takes a deep breath and pats your back. You both pull away and she nods for you to follow her inside.

“Drink?” she asks, padding into the kitchen. She sounds tired. You trail behind her, realizing slowly that you’ve never really been alone together. Normally you feel a bit like you’re visiting your in-laws or something when David brings you round to Vicky’s. But the house feels smaller now, somehow, more intimate.

“I won’t say no to that.” She offers you a weary but genuine smile and takes a wine glass from the cupboard.

“I’ve got my own in the sitting room, so don’t worry. I’m not trying to liquor you up. White okay?” You let out a laugh at the joke and she shoots you a wry smile.

“Yeah, perfect, thank you.” You both go to sit and wait for David and the kids, finding yourselves on opposite ends of the couch. She sits so that she’s facing you a little, shoulder resting against the cushions.

“So, how’s things with you and Dave?” Vicky asks after a moment. You feel a guilty pang, but it’s clear that she’s really just curious. There’s no malice in her words–– of course, there never is. If anything, you imagine she just wants to fill the time.

“They’re good,” you say, hesitantly. “Thanks. It’s, ah… You know, obviously I love the kids, and––”

“Oh, they adore you,” she replies, smiling despite the anxiety on her brow. Your expression softens.

“Really?”

“Yeah, ‘course. They’re always asking about you.”

“Oh. That’s really sweet,” you say, genuinely a bit surprised. You love Charlie and Ella fiercely, but you’d always assumed they must have felt a bit strange about you. After all, you and David have been together for the better part of a year now. They know you’re dating their dad. You’d always thought it would be a little bit difficult for them–– and who could blame them if it was?

“We all love you, you know,” she says earnestly after a moment. “I’m pleased it’s going well with you two, really, I am.” Spindly fingers reach across the space as she covers your hand with her own, giving you an affectionate jostle. Tears glisten in her eyes, and you feel your chest tighten. “I know it’s probably weird, me saying all this, but…” She shakes her head. “I love Dave, he’s the father of my kids. And all I want is for him to be happy. I think you make each other happy.” You nod slowly, taking her words in, feelings tears slip down your own cheeks as you place your free hand on top of hers and squeeze.

“I think the world of you,” you say once she sits back. “I really want you to know that. You’ve been nothing but kind to me since day one, and––” She waves you off.

“Oh god, don’t give me so much credit,” she says, recovering a bit, “You were the one in the really scary position. Meeting the ex-wife? Please, I would have shat myself.” She lets out a shaky laugh, sniffs, wipes her eyes. “And you were so sweet!”

“Are you kidding?” you reply, halfway between tears and laughter, “If I had to meet my ex’s new partner, I probably would have had a cow.” Vicky laughs at that, and the two of you share an admittedly tearful but warm look.

As you’re wiping your eyes again, a car pulls up outside of the house, and both of your heads snap up at the sound.

“Oh thank god,” Vicky says, and you both hurry out the door. Charlie and Ella come bounding up to her, and just like that, you’re welling up again, seeing the kids reunited with their mother. David follows a few paces behind, and the kids step back from their little group hug as she goes to embrace him.

“Y/N, what are you doing here?” Ella asks, turning to you. Charlie follows suit, and soon you’re knelt on the ground to give them a hug as well.

“I was worried about all of you,” you say, “so your Mum asked if I’d like to come see you.”

“That was nice of her,” Charlie says.

“Yeah,” you agree, pulling away to scrub at your eyes, “it was, huh?” They both smile at you, and you glance at David, who’s reassuring an understandably distraught Vicky. It had been easier to curb your emotions when the two of you were talking, but now you can’t help yourself. No sooner have you dried your cheeks than fresh tears roll down them and you look at the kids again, admiring their sweet faces. “I’m very glad to see you both,” you say quietly.

“We’re glad to see you too,” Ella replies. Charlie moves to hug you again, seeing that you’re still crying, and Ella joins him. You squeeze them both as David and Vicky walk over.

“Come on you two,” she says, voice a little calmer, but still tinged with emotion, “it’s past your bedtime.” You let them both go and Vicky offers you a smile, which you return gratefully. They scamper off after her into the house, and you can’t possibly stand up quickly enough. David’s arms are around you in an instant and when you exhale, it feels like you’re deflating into him.

“What are you doing here, love?” he asks gently, a hand coming up to cradle your head.

“I thought you were going to come over tonight,” you murmur, “and when I didn’t hear from you, I got worried, and I called Vicky and she told me about the train, and...” You feel David tense up for a moment, and then sigh.

“Fuck. Fuck, I’m sorry, love. I completely forgot.”

“No, it’s all right, Dave, really––”

“No, but you must have felt awful talking to Vic–– and I didn’t even call you.”

“Well, you had quite a lot going on from what I understand,” you say, pulling away to look at him. He looks exhausted, rattled, and upset at himself, no doubt. “I’m not angry,” you insist, “Really, I’m just so relieved you’re all okay.” You lift a hand to his cheek and though he leans into the touch, he looks down, brow creased in frustration. “David,” you say, trying to get him to look at you. “Your kids come first. I know that, I’ve known it since the day we met. It’s one of the many things I love about you.” Finally, he lifts his eyes to yours. They’re bright, you notice, more intense than usual.

“I would’ve called you first thing in the morning.”

“I know you would have,” you say reassuringly. For a moment, you just look at each other, your thumb brushing across his cheek. “Love, are you all right?” David sniffs, nods. You drop your hand.

“Fine, yeah. I’m…” he takes a deep breath. “I’ll be alright,” he says, but he sounds defeated. You frown slightly, and nod. He takes your face in his hands and kisses you softly, quickly, before pressing another kiss to your forehead. “I’m gonna go help Vic put the kids to bed,” he says, nodding towards the house.

“I’ll drive you home,” you offer. “Yours or mine. Whatever you need.” He nods gratefully and tucks an arm around you. With your arm wound tightly around his waist, his kisses you on the temple and you both head back inside.

You sit back down on the couch and lean your head on your hand as he sheds his jacket and trots upstairs. You don’t even realize that you’re beginning to doze off until the sound of your name rouses you from half-consciousness. David’s face materializes before your own as you blink yourself awake. He smiles softly.

“Hi, you,” he says. You chuckle, and he reaches for your hand to help you up.

Vicky leans against the stairwell and hugs David and you each in turn.

“Don’t be strangers,” she says through a yawn, and the three of you shuffle to the front door.

“Night, Vic,” David says, stepping outside.

“Night, Dave.” You pause before following him out and take Vicky’s hand.

“Thank you for tonight,” you say. “Really. Get some rest, all right?”

“You too,” she replies softly. “You’re always welcome here, you know.” You nod.

“Thank you. Night, babes.” Vicky smiles.

“G’night.” You turn and step out into the yard, David nodding to Vicky as she shuts the door. He puts his arm around you again and you start down the street towards your car.

“You two seem very cozy,” David says after a moment, almost sounding amused. You chuckle.

“Yeah, I like her. She was really sweet to me tonight.” You slow to a stop as you reach your car and dig in your bag for your keys. “It was nice talking, just me and her, I guess.” David’s smiling when you look up at him.

“Vicky’s good people,” he agrees. “And anyone would have to be out of their mind not to like you.” You can’t help but smile as you shake your head at him and unlock the doors. He climbs into the passenger seat and you go around to the driver’s side.

“Do you want me to take you home, love?” you ask once you’re situated. David looks at you almost sheepishly.

“I’d rather stay at yours, if you’ll have me.” You let out a breath and give him a tired smile.

“Of course I will,” you say, leaning over the console to kiss him. He chases your lips when you pull away, a hand resting on the back of your neck. You kiss him once more and start the car.

The drive home is comfortably silent, and when you look over, you see that David has closed his eyes, is taking measured breaths. It’s something you’d recommended he do that you’d learned from your own time in therapy, though you’ve yet to convince him to go. It’s better than nothing, though, and while he doesn’t look completely untroubled when you park the car, he seems a bit calmer.

It’s nearly midnight when you finally trudge into your apartment, and David heads straight for your bedroom. You don’t bother to do anything more than take off your makeup in the bathroom before following after him. He’s already in his pyjamas–– he has a decent sized drawer at your place–– and you change unceremoniously into your own. He draws the covers back and climbs into bed and you do the same. You have to lean over him to turn the light out and for a moment, you hover over him in the darkness. You feel protective, like you want to stay poised above him, ready to frighten off any would-be attackers in the night. He shifts beneath you and you drop a kiss to his temple, then another. He exhales slowly.

“What do you need, darling?” you murmur against his skin, “What can I do?” He’s silent for a moment.

“I don’t know,” he admits softly, shaking his head against the pillow. “I dunno.” You nod.

“It’s okay.” You lay down beside him, one arm slung over his waist, face pressed to the back of his neck and your other arm tucked up against yourself. “It’s okay.” For a little while the only sounds in the room are his and your breathing. He reaches for your hand, interlocks his fingers with yours. Minutes go by. You close your eyes but don’t sleep. Then it feels like he’s trembling, and you hear his breath hitch. His grip on your hand tightens. He’s crying. You squeeze his fingers where they curl under your palm, your arm bracing more tightly around his body. The sound is so quiet, only a few gasping breaths every now and again, but you can still hear it rattling out of him. He could have died today. His children could have died today.

You don’t say anything–– there’s nothing to say. All you can do is hold him, and you do. When the shaking subsides a little, you move to cradle his head with your other arm and you stay like that until you’ve both fallen asleep.

In the morning, it’s almost as if nothing happened. David is a little bit quiet while you both eat breakfast, but that’s not terribly unusual. While you sit, he places a hand on your thigh, as if to silently reassure you that he’s fine. With a kiss to your forehead, he gets up to dress for work (there are a few of his suits in your closet), and when you’ve finished your tea you do the same. He has to leave a bit before you do, and you walk with him to the door.

“I’ll call you when I’m done today, all right?” he asks. You nod. “Okay.” His expression changes, becomes softer. “I love you,” he says earnestly, his voice soft. You can’t help but smile, even through your worry.

“I love you too, Dave.” He kisses you gently, a hand on either side of your face, and lingers there longer than he might ordinarily. Your hands find his waist and give a comforting squeeze. He smiles. Part of you wonders if he really is just okay. His expression seems peaceful as he kisses the side of your head again and turns to leave. You can only hope that you’re right.

#david budd x reader #richard madden x reader #richard madden imagine #david budd fanfic #david budd reader insert #kgbkjg this is how i express my thirst apparently #thru shared coping w/ emotional trauma #also fair warning this is a vicky budd stan zone so #we may be dating her husband but that doesnt mean we disrespect her!!!#nothing but love for vicky fuckin budd!!!! what a queen #ok im done #mine #my writing

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morethanonepage · 3 years

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johnny constantinny for the reverse opinions?

Ppl send topics and instead of salt or hot takes, you MUST talk abt smth you like about it. Good excuse to gush abt smth you already love, OR think and find smth positive to say.

Hard mode, “missed potential” is NOT allowed as an answer.

oh this one is easy bc i genuinely do love this disaster man.

like i just legit am delighted by everything john represents: this blond, canonically handsome, canonically pretty smart, guy who dresses in what reads as a very respectable manner (i mean HE WEARS A TIE. why??? why does he do this????), who ostensibly seems like the epitome of like, English competence (white, male, blond), is actually a complete fucking disaster.

like he’s lazy, he’s mean, he ruins the lives of his friends and loved ones. he ruins his OWN life with predictable regularity. he starts the beginning of a day wearing a tie and a white shirt and a fancy trenchcoat, and he ends it disheveled and almost certainly covered in ~fluids. whenever he has a moment of normalcy and peace, he freaks out, partly out of boredom, partly out of just inability to process what it is to be normal anymore.

and he’s just so bad at things. whenever he tries to fix a problem he either makes it worse, or manages, at the last minute, to pull off a solution (that inevitably leads to another, worse problem for him, down the line).

but he’s still just a person. he’s working class, he drinks too much and smokes too much, has PTSD , is always filled with a base level of guilt for what he’s done and fear of what the future holds, but still does stuff like -- go to the movies. goof around with chas. watch star trek and doctor who. read william blake poetry and talk about it with a one night stand.

he’s supposedly an awful boyfriend but when we see him try -- with Kit, with Dani -- he can be genuinely quite sweet and caring and giving (by which i mean -- oral). he has a strange chivalrous streak -- an impulse to defend women and children -- that he always seems almost embarrassed about, but which shows up as early as when he was a child.

and he cares about his friends, too. when he does try to fix problems, they’re almost always because a friend needs him to, or asks him to. he’ll grumble about it and try to get out of it (not very hard) but he’ll always try to help the people in his life.

and i just love how many normie friends John has -- this is partly why i can never get into comics where John’s on a superhero team or w/e, bc to me, John is at his best when he’s floating into the otherwise very mundane, working class, English world he comes from, bantering w his friends who are cabbies or writers for cheap tabloids or unemployed & spending most of their time down at the pub. the contrast of his ~magic and ~spooky shit world with people just living their lives, and the way he’s torn between contempt and jealousy when interacting with them is just -- 😘👌

also love how much of an unreliable narrator he is. just like ‘blah blah blah chas’ marriage and home life suuuuuucks’ when it’s like, yeah that’s literally only when/because you’re around, john.

and y’know, the canon bisexuality and awful punk band backstory and just fundamental, consistently progressive politics mixed with his cynicism, it’s all just -- good. It’s good stuff, and I like it.

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Tell us more things you have issue with in rwby and maybe some things you'd change.

Oh god, there’s plenty.

General World Structure/Building

- Please, for the love of god, outline what the government systems are. This isn’t a minor nitpick--knowing how the world works is, y’know, important. It would make the stakes of Volume 7 so much better if I fucking knew just how important a seat on the council is. The WoR tries to outline it better but 1) they sucked at explaining it even then and I still can’t understand it and 2) the WoR’s are considered semi-non-canon due to how much of the information in it is ret-conned, so I genuinely can’t tell what is still relevant or not.

- Please clarify how passive semblances work because if you’re going to have three important characters have them (so far it’s Qrow, Ironwood, and Maria who have somewhat “passive” semblances confirmed at least out of the show) we really need to know the rules behind them.

- Narrow down Dust Types and further clarify what does what holy shit. On the wiki, there are three(!!!) different types of dust that have to do with fire! Ice, “Steam,” and Water dust are considered separate, despite the fact they all deal with water, just in different forms of matter--why aren’t they the same and water dust covers all of it, and more experienced dust users be able to manipulate the state of matter? This makes things so much less complicated and narrows things down.

Rewrite parts of Jaune and Sun’s background

- Look it’s ridiculous that neither of these idiots know how the world works and I’m still salty about it.

- Sun doesn’t know the history of the past 100-or-so years about Faunus and why Menagerie is the way it is (which??? why would he not??? He seriously should’ve known more than he did upon arriving there with Blake). I know it’s bc he’s supposed to be the audience explainer but gdi there are ways to do it without making your character look like a massive idiot.

- Jaune doesn’t know about Hunters (who are basically celebrities??? there is a semi-annual tournament broadcasted across the whole world how does he not know at least some famous names) or Aura which, based on the very shitty worldbuilding in RWBY, would be the real-world equivalent of not knowing how blood works and that’s honestly ridiculous.

- Basically I just want to make it so these two don’t look as dumb as they are bc their roles as Audience Inserts/Exposition Catalysts sacrifice any intelligence they have by making them dumb as hell.

Yang’s PTSD

- My god. My fucking god.

- Either don’t do it or do proper research on how PTSD affects people and that their symptoms involve more than “having their hand shake” and have her “conquer” said PTSD by having her pass on a fight by getting her arm detached, thus putting her at a severe disadvantage when going to fight basically two demigods.

- Fuck’s sake she just casually detaches her arm when arm-wrestling Nora! She laughs about it! Someone with PTSD shouldn’t be laughing over basically what created the PTSD I am still so salty about this.

The entire racism subplot with the White Fang

- So... okay, I’m never going to FULLY understand the problems with the WF, mostly because my experiences as a white person don’t give me the same insight as someone who is a POC. However, I know it’s written poorly, and I listen to fan who are POC, this entire plotline NEEDS to be rewritten, preferably with actual research and POC writers contributing it it. As for what I find annoying or what I would change...

Why is it that the only person of the main cast who gives a fuck about racism Blake? I mean, yeah, it’s obviously because she’s a Faunus, but Yang doesn’t have any indication she cares beyond beating up Adam, Weiss only cares about reclaiming her family’s honor (which, yes, ties into faunus racism, but the way it’s portrayed seems to show she cares more about one-upping Jaques than actually improving things for Faunus, both as a whole and those personally afflicted by the SDC’s actions), and Ruby doesn’t seem to care at all. Make more than one main character care about equality, and make them care about it before they learn about the Gods, whose ultimatum is “the world must be united, or else everything will die.” If that is the motivator for 7/8 of the cast finally giving a fuck about racism instead of, y’know, actual racial injustices and oppression, you’ve fucked up.

I’m not a fan of terrorism either but, when you say “look at faunus-on-faunus crime, we’re just as bad as the terrorists for letting this happen, let’s make a small army out of never-before-trained Faunus to defend the humans of the second-most-racist-country and prove them wrong” it’s... just a dumb plan? I’m honestly partially convinced that the reason why so many people joined in was bc Illia said “I’ll do it” and the Menagerie citizens simultaneously got FOMO, holy shit.

Please do not reduce the power-hungry leader of the civil-rights-turned-terrorist organization to a whiny incel yandere. If you’re going to do that, you have to give more than a character short (which not everyone is going to see--that shit should’ve been in the main show) to ‘flesh out’ his character and make me think this is a logical leap.

Seriously Adam needed to be developed more before this to make this character arc 1) progress logically and 2) make me give a single fuck about him, his affect on Blake and Yang, and his death. You cannot rely on out-of-show material (like the character shorts, comics, and director commentary) to build character.

srsly why the fuck is Weiss never involved in White Fang stuff outside of telling Blake “I deeply regret what my father did :(” like make her fucking proactive outside of going “my dad is an abusive piece of shit and I hate him, and he’s also a racist so I hate him for that too I guess”??? have her go to the election party w/ Robin who appears to be pro-Faunus, actively condemn Jacques and give support to Robin, instead of going to a fucking movie with Oscar and Jaune of all people??? make her actually give a shit about civil rights instead of having her whine about feeling bad my fucking god.

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conduitandconjurer · 3 years

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Hi there! I’ve lurked for a little while and just recently followed. You have a really interesting take on Klaus and I’d like to ask: what kind of things do you do to get into character so to speak? Are there any important things about his character you like to keep in mind when you write him? And as someone who has written for many years but is considering rp, any advice for a first-timer? Thanks and hope you have a wonderful day/night!

First of all you should know that I’ve been rping on various platforms for over 15 years at this point, and messages like this still MAKE MY WHOLE WORLD BETTER <33333 Thank you SO much for your gracious and generous kind words. You took a second to extend a hello and compliment my hard work and it means so so much.

So Klaus and I are NOTHING alike, which is exactly why I choose to write muses like him. It provides me an outlet of escape from my own life (which has its ups and downs) and it’s a creative and intellectual challenge to understand what makes a person so behaviorally different from myself tick. Most writers like to write characters who are like them. And I do that too, but for me, I just need some single trait in a character that I resonate with. For Klaus, it’s his innate sweetness and vulnerability (which he tries and fails to conceal) and his need (and failure) to establish boundaries (with family and with ghosts), and finally it’s his fear of being insufficient as a person his family can rely upon (which he copes with by creating artificial emotional distance, and abusing substances, whereas I the mun marinate in guilt and try to overcompensate lmao). While we’re still not alike, I can BEGIN to understand WHY he behaves the way he does, and I can build my portrayal off of that.

Put another way, most of my muses are queer nonbinary he/him/they pronoun users, often neurodivergent, who are undergoing a moral struggle, usually somewhere in the antihero category, or even villains. I on the other hand am a queer cis disabled woman with PTSD who is a Lawful Good......and I think that, having a point for relating to but still not being exactly like my muses, I almost begin to see myself as these characters’ mother or advocate of some kind. I want to see them GROW and THRIVE. From that urge, I derive the compassion that every writer needs to have for their character to (try to) portray them authentically.

And that also means that the character is not going to remain within the bounds of their canonical portrayal. The way I write them will always START and be BASED ON that. But the character will grow far afield of it. Take Klaus, for instance. I sense you call my portrayal “interesting” (correct me if I’m wrong) because I choose to write Klaus as almost always post-season 2 AND sober. He’s more at peace with himself than he was during the first season, he’s begun to properly process his grief for Dave Katz, he’s getting clean and staying clean, he’s becoming more emotionally reliable. But he still makes mistakes, he still has the most severe, frustrating and painful (for him) case of ADHD I have ever seen, people still don’t “take him seriously” (his own words) and he has to grow a thick skin about their dismissive behavior.

The fandom, even a number of Klaus rpers, like to keep Klaus in this depressing stasis chamber where he’s constantly nihilistic, selfish, and strung out, and a lot of people see Klaus’s addictions as the brunt of jokes, and while that’s cool for them, and I’d never ask them to censor their portrayal, that makes me uncomfortable. As a person who’s worked with, still works with, at-risk youth at the college level, I just can’t jive with it. Addiction is an illness and it’s not funny, and there are underlying reasons for Klaus’s addictions. And what I want to do is excavate those underlying reasons, and watch him get the support he needs. He is still a snarky, sartorial, chaotic, quirkily sweet goofball when he’s sober. He’s still Klaus.

Things I do to get in the headspace:

--Listen to playlists that I make for the character or mood. Music is crucial. --Watch videos of Robert Sheehan talking. Doesn’t have to be as Klaus, but sometimes is. If you can’t hear the character in the dialogue (not only word choose but little mannerisms and speech patterns), rewrite it. Don’t settle until you can hear the actor’s voice. --Scream to my friends on Discord about how much I love specific elements of the character, to get psyched up. I’m so sorry, @apocalypsejumped, you are the main person I do this to with Klaus, lmfao.

--Never EVER look at my follower count, because it’s gonna either depress or intimidate me.

--Look at pictures of the character. I’m incredibly visual. Just looking at my own screenshots makes me want to dissect him more.

For advice? Oh lordy! Uhhhh.....

Write a lot. Practice a lot. I have a PhD and have written book manuscripts exceeding 600 pages, but you don’t have to go that far, lmao. That drabble in your head at 3 am? Get up and write it down. That passing bit of funny dialogue you think your muse would say? Write it down. I used to carry around a physical journal. Now I use my laptop.

Write fast and only edit minimally because this is for fun, avocational, and you don’t want to spoil it with too much plotting and refinement.

Drop threads that aren’t working for you. Again, this is not a job, and when it feels like one, scale back.

Resist the urge to over-format. If your posts cease to be easily legible, the aesthetic will only impede the flow of your prose. It’s okay to vary your writing voice character by character. My syntax, vocab/word choice, sentence length and structure, vary from one muse to the other, bc the standard rp pov is third person singular, present-tense, meaning your muse is narrating it all from their specific pov. Klaus and say, a very serious, formal character, would not have the same internal monologue, or even exposition.

Beware of writing partners who are passive aggressive or possessive, who get jealous of your writing with others, and guilt you for spending your time elsewhere than catering to their needs. I spent eight years in one of these writing partnerships and only escaped last March, and I am still recovering emotionally. Writing partners can absolutely be abusive, so make sure to enforce healthy boundaries and when they are violated repeatedly, run.

Pick a blog theme that is clearly organized and accessible.

Don’t pick “main” or heaven forbid “exclusive” writing partners until you have experimented with your chemistry with a number of “versions” of their character (especially canons). Take your time and see who you gel with. Sometimes you can have a great friendship with someone and your writing together still doesn’t click. It all depends on chemistry.

Pick a small group of like minded friends and write with them. Do not worry about “exposure” or “popularity,” they are over rated. Fandoms are genuinely crazy. Just sit in your sandbox with your trusted buddies. <3

Anyone else reading this, chime in with some writing advice for nonnie! <3 They’re an experienced writer but new to rp!

#save tag #Anonymous

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plague-of-insomnia · 4 years

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Fave Kuro moments

I sent an ask about this to @chromehoplite and she suggested others answer as well, so here goes.

I’m going to list my ten favorite moments, broken down by arc. I really didn’t get hooked on the manga until the circus arc, so that’s where I’m going to start.

(Warning in advance, this is a long post.)

Circus Arc

1. Ciel shooting Kelvin is one of my fave moments because it shows that he isn’t going to rely on Sebastian 100%. Just as he had said when they formed the contract, he is willing to kill—with his own hands—when necessary. Although Sebastian is the one who finally ends Kelvin’s life, and this entire scene is controversial, I also picked it because this was when I really began to relate to Ciel as a character. As someone with PTSD myself, the moment he begins to lose himself really clicked with me and he began to feel like a fully fleshed character for the first time. When he says shortly after that there are two types of people, “those who steal, and those who are stolen from” (anime translation), I felt like that really hammered home who Ciel has become. He no longer sees things in terms of morality but rather survival. Either you kill or are killed, simple as that.

2. The scene at the orphanage is one of my absolute faves in the manga. I related to Ciel so much here because my instinct was also to laugh at the futility of the circus troop’s lives and deaths, and I love Ciel’s little speech. I love Seb’s reaction. I love how Yana subtly shows Ciel’s guilt (not just by having him go, but having him go dressed in mourning), and how he “lets go of that guilt” at least partly when the ribbon comes off and blows away.

Murder Arc

I prefer the movie bc it’s so much funnier, so a lot of my fave moments of Seb and Ciel teasing each other aren’t actually in the manga (at least in the English translation). I could probably do my ten fave moments in this arc alone (since it’s my fave) but I’ll just pick one for now.

3. I absolutely go nuts every time I watch this scene, where Bard forces the other servants to remember their duty. It’s the first time we really see him as more than just comic relief, as the leader he is (and probably one of the reasons he was hired, though I do hope we find out when we get to his and Lau’s part). This scene was an enormous inspiration for how I write WDH Bard.

Campania Arc

This arc also has a lot of great moments, so it’s hard to narrow it down. I love Seb’s cinematic record, but since I’m keeping this to 10 moments, I’m going to skip that for now.

4. My one absolute favorite moment in the arc is Seb collapsing in the boat. (Obviously, since I love whump and I wrote “Affinity & Agony. “) It’s the first time we really see Seb “defeated” and truly in pain. I also love how it highlights how he risked his life for Ciel... and he didn’t have to do that. It shows how he’s changed subtly from the demon in the flashbacks who handled Ciel like a rag doll.

Weston Arc

My favorite part of this arc is the whole Professor Michaelis thing, but it’s also how devious Ciel is. So while I know a lot of people find the cricket part boring, I love it bc I absolutely love how it shows how far Ciel will go to get what he wants.

5. So if I want to condense to one moment, it’s when he gets hit in the head and his and Sebastian’s performance in front of the crowd vs when they’re alone in private. I love it so much, especially bc I feel like even in private we’re able to see how their relationship has changed subtly.

Green Witch Arc

In some ways this is my least favorite arc, but I still love a lot about it, like seeing another side of Ciel, and how his PTSD affects him, which felt like the first time since Circus we’ve really seen that, or ofc Finny being awesome and protective. I also enjoyed seeing Seb’s jealous side quite a bit. But if I had to pic just one or two moments, it would be these.

6. The panel where Sebastian has the semiconscious Ciel in his arms and is rushing for help is a huge favorite of mine because of the expression on his face. The demon who made the contract wouldn’t look like that. He’s changed. Ciel is still a meal to him but this is more than just “oh no my meal may be damaged.” The fact that Seb was willing to do anything to save Ciel, even to the point of risking exposing their secret, was a huge inspo for my canon fic Deadly Nightshade. The end of this scene, when Ciel begins to “wake up” and flashback was also an enormous inspiration for WDH. I love the detail here of Ciel’s fingers scratching so hard he tears the flesh of Sebastian’s arm.

7. The first time I read the scene where Sebastian snaps Ciel from his flashback, it felt like a slap in the face. Why? To me, it seemed like the character progression I had seen in the Campania arc had disappeared. But then when I stopped to reflect on it I realized this was a good way of Yana reminding us that even if he’s changed, he’s still a demon and he still plans to eat Ciel. The way Yana drew this, with all of Sebastian’s inky tendrils ensnaring Ciel influenced me heavily for Deadly Nightshade.

Blue Sect Arc

Definitely my least favorite overall. It’s also really long, but I won’t break it down, I’ll just pick the moments that really stand out in my memory.

8. The negotiation of the contract. I love this because after so many years we finally got to see how Sebastian and Ciel hammered out the details of the contract. I absolutely adore seeing this version of “Sebastian” where he’s not the devil who first appears in his black nebulous shape-shifting form, nor is he the butler we come to love later, but somewhere in between. I absolutely love how his posture is so relaxed and casual (and apparently rude in Japan?), which is a stark contrast to his stuff, formal, and seemingly subservient posture he adopts later. I adore adore adore the feral way Yana drew him here, especially bc it’s such a contrast to the seemingly genuine emotions of sorrow and anger we see in this arc with Agni’s death and RCiel’s reappearance.

9. This scene is so great. We get to see Bard as the calm leader again. I love the little panel showing Bard putting his hand out to silence/stop Finny in a wordless way of saying “I’ve got this.” It also shows that either he and Sebastian had worked out some kind of signal at some point prior, or he has worked closely enough with Sebastian to know that the demon would understand what he was really saying here. I’m also very excited to learn more about how Bard came to the manor.

10. I geek over this moment bc it’s so important narratively. Ciel has a huge inferiority complex throughout his life because of his abusive and manipulative older brother, and this shows he is accepting that despite RC’s return, he is the earl and he’s accepting who he is. I firmly believe that before we can get to the final arc, where Ciel goes after the culprit who ordered the attack on the manor, he must “kill” his brother so that he can fully bury his past and accept who he is and what he must do before he dies (by Sebastian’s hands, as he agreed).

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Feel free to chime in with your fave Kuro moments!

#black butler #kuroshitsuji #黒執事 #ciel phantomhive #sebastian michaelis #fave moments #long post

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i've never watched this show but the ladies you keep posting abt are pretty so tell me abt them

I think you should watch it <3 as a treat <3

anyway,, Ava and Sarah,,,, my loves

idk how much you’ve picked up about them from my posts so I’ll just tell you whatever comes to mind <3 (under a read more bc it’s gonna be long oops)

Sarah is literally just. baby. she’s the one with the curly hair, and she was originally introduced as a fourth-year med student doing her ED rotation (which definitely went on Way longer than it should have but uh. that’s med’s shitty writing for you <3)

she’s so insanely smart but she’s not that confident in her abilities, especially around patients, and it’s :( bc ma'am. you’re the best

tbh seeing her confidence develop during season one was so nice because she became more a part of the ED family (which is why it was so hard when she left Med) and she was finally seeing how smart she actually was and how much potential she has!! she’s the best girl <3

also the way she said she didn’t want to work with patients which is why she was going into pathology, and then she ended up becoming a psychiatrist? incredible and I love that growth for her!!

I rlly believe that season 2 was the best for her - her relationship with Dr Charles was good and healthy (I’m genuinely so sad that the writers ruined it for them because it was obvious how much she looked up to him and like. she literally told Noah that he was the dad she’d never had!!! what the fuck why couldn’t the writers let them be happy!!!), and it was before her PTSD and everything that happened with her dad. she was allowed to have a good, happy storyline, and even though she was dating Joey for most of it, her character didn’t revolve around him the way other female characters do (they’re literally all written around men and it’s so frustrating)

everything went downhill for her in season 3 and I’m still mad about it ngl. like. she got PTSD from Dr Charles being shot, and as she was starting to recover, her dad turned up out of the blue and fucked her life up even more >:(

I guess the med writers can’t have any women be happy for too long :/

(also she looked hot in her final scene. not to make this gay but uh. her jacket is gorgeous and she’s perfect and I love her)

(also also,, my main headcanons for Sarah are that she’s autistic and either gay or bi bc like. have you seen her. there’s no way that bitch is straight lmao)

as for Ava,,, she had so much potential when they introduced her, then as is the pattern with med, as soon as she started dating a guy everything went downhill (but she couldn’t have dated a woman bc med hates gay people)

like. at first she was this incredibly intelligent CT surgeon (better than Connor, as she was Dr Latham’s first choice for the CT fellowship) who wasn’t afraid to speak her mind and do what she had to to succeed in a male-dominated field. like yeah, maybe she was a bit of a bitch, but who can blame her really :/ also she’s hot so like. if she wanted to be a bitch to me I’d let her

anyway. her initial conflicts with Connor were actually interesting, because it’s obvious he’s never really been challenged before, and as a result has a bit of a god complex. even as they warmed up to each other, there was still a friendly rivalry, but it was nice

(we’re not going to talk about the fact that she was introduced simply as an antagonist to Connor bc I can’t bring myself to think about that rn)

but of course they had to throw in a romantic relationship, and because she pretty much only spent time with people from CT, it had to be with Connor <3 they’d have honestly been better as friends because literally everything went downhill from here

Ava in season 4 is almost a completely different person to when she was introduced. she was suddenly obsessed with Connor, and was literally willing to do anything (including commit murder!! wtf!!!!) to be with him?? the agency and self-assuredness (idk if that’s a word) that she somewhat had in s3 was suddenly gone, and had been replaced with a personality disorder that the writers only mentioned after she’d left the show

(it genuinely seemed more like an afterthought to explain away their bad writing and inconsistent characterisation rather than an actual plot point, but that’s just me)

anyway like. not to keep making things gay but she genuinely had Big Gay Energy (the med writers love making the gayest characters possible then having them be canonically straight, but that’s a post for later) and her storyline would have been so much better if she Had been a lesbian

there wouldn’t have been any of that rh*kker drama, which means it’s unlikely she would have murdered someone and then [redacted] herself to avoid prison

and like. even if they hadn’t had her date Sarah, it would have been nice to see some lesbian rep, and avoid the toxic relationship that was her and Connor

idk I just think the med writers could have done so much better with her, and they did Norma (and Colin) dirty by fucking their characters up that much

anyway to conclude. Ava and Sarah are both perfect and also have the biggest gay energy and I love them a lot <3 if you’ve made it all the way to here please know I’d die for you ajdhsjdhsk

#ask #chicago med #sarah reese #ava bekker #this is SO LONG omg #ask: can u tell me about ava and sarah please :)#me opening up my laptop at 12:30am: essay time >:)

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