#theres more but im tired and cant think

[hmmm-fiction]

I've connected the dots

#theres more but im tired and cant think #marvel #dc #suicide squad #across the spiderverse #into the spiderverse #dceu #eeaao #everything everywhere all at once #abner krill #polka dot man #the spot #jonathan ohnn #jobu tupaki #joy wang #my stuff

[todayisafridaynight]

being daigo in january 2017 was probably the happiest month of his life because he just got out of jail Again for a crime he didnt commit Again and he's probably thinking how he has to keep running the tojo clan if he wants to respect kiryu even though hes """""""'gone""""""""" or whatever and then some bitch with the newspaper in his ear like 'the governor's trying to evict us what should we do' and i can only imagine the LOUDEST sigh of relief this man had to internalize as he began to flesh out his two-year plan then and there

#snap chats #no one touch this post fuck you im drawing this at some point but im too tired but i still cant stop chortling about it #like i just know daigo was tired as balls so imagine getting THAT kind of out from it all ....... #NO MORE GUILT ABOUT IT HE GOT AN EXCUSE NOW #Oh Noooo The Governments Telling Us To Fuck Off :(( I Dont Think Theres Anything We Can Reasonably Do But Dissolve #genuinely the nicest thing aoki ever did in his entire life was give daigo an out of this sisyphean existence and he didnt even know #he just wanted to be a big ol bitch boy and accidentally made daigo the happiest man on earth #ending this post now before i think of IW's plot and get annoyed again vjlkJLKAJVAL GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE #AND ALL THAT PLANNING WAS FOR FUCKING NOTHING /SORRY/ IM STILL BITTER #IM GOING NOW FR BYE STAN DAIGO

[orcelito]

I think smth that gets me about the way a lot of the fandom woobifies Vash is that like... so many of them erase his anger? They make him a soft and sweet doormat who never gets angry Ever, and that's just objectively not true, EVEN IF we're just talking about tristamp Vash. He's definitely softer spoken in tristamp than the other versions, but we still see him get angry!! We see him Yell!!! And these people ignore that!

Then when you consider 98 Vash and ESPECIALLY trimax Vash. Bro is genuinely furious like Any time he is dealing with #Situations. He gets angry. He yells. And he's genuinely tempted to kill people in anger (as we see with Monev).

It's just plain mischaracterization when people make him so soft and sweet and Never Angry. And we all know exactly why people characterize him like this.

#speculation nation #it's bc so many ppl r just not normal about trans people lol #like man i love the widespread trans vash headcanons but Man the weird characterizations it often brings... #it is. vexing. my perpetual curse. i will always be annoyed by it. #sometimes i think about when i started writing 3gun fic w stampede vash and i had him Angry in even the first chapter #and i was so anxious about it being mischaracterization bc so many people write him so soft #then i looked back at canon and i was like. '.... no this IS in character. he WOULD be angry. what are YOU guys doing?' #and now with my manga fic i am just continuously writing him angry bc he IS. he is SO angry. #and so tired and so sad etc etc like theres more to it and all but like #you cant take the anger out of vash. it's an important part of who he is. #that 100% justified anger at his life and circumstances and Everything #he is not a doormat. stop writing him like one. im begging you.

[ellilyre]

CW unconventionally sh

Do you think Nico ever uses shadow traveling as a kind of sh ?

Sometimes he purposely shadow travels too much, for too long, not by necessity but just to then feel himself fade away.

Because for a few instants it's like he doesn't exist anymore, like he erased himself from the world and it feels right. Or maybe is it the adrenaline that follows being so close to disappearing, for an instant he feels glad to be alive.

#i would say that Hades knows he does that but doesnt understand #hes aware Nico sometimes shadow travels (multiple times) when he has no need to #but he *cant* comprehend why he keeps doing sometimes that hurts himself while theres not need for it #(bc the concept of sh is so foreign and weird for a god) #and Nico shut down everytime he tries to talk about it so Hades rly cant know whats happening with him #it takes time for anyone to notice bc Nico makes sure to be alone when he does that and only comes back when he looks presentable again #but also bc theres no way to see hes physically hurt except maybe hes more tired than as usual #I think either Will Jason or Percy would be the first to understand #i wanna write about that now aaaa im a sucker for hurt/comfort #not sure i will tho its a subject im not super comfortable with #i like to hurt this boy (just as Rick intended) #tw s3lf harm #percy jackson #nico di angelo #percy jackon and the olympians

[saeshiraw]

tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry

#tw rant #studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not #its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels #so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday #i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me #n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone #yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my #friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep #of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle #but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today #i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts #and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics #just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people #im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier #im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk #and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know #but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac #h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe #ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch #people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and #seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want #are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to #spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was #i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next #“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes #me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good #but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im #intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout #but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one? #the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone

[marklikely]

like that l.a. times article is rightfully being dragged through the mud so maybe my complaining is redundant. but i think if you wrote "maybe barbie would get a nomination if she survived a mass murder plot" you should never be allowed to write again

#the disrespect to not only lily gladstone (who deserves the win) but also more important to the real atrocity that kotfm portrays #like. belittling the actual violence that happened in real life against these women and the men in their community. #jesus fucking christ i have no words for you. over a movie about barbie dolls. you should lose all credibility forever. #avpost #also ill say it i think its stupid that ryan gosling felt the need to apologize for his nomination #when a woman in the same movie literally did get an equivalent nom in best supporting actress.... #which is crazy bc idk that america ferrera did her best work in this movie but like good for her. does she not exist to barbie fans? #double also i cant believe theres this much nonsense over a movie that got EIGHT NOMINATIONS being 'snubbed' #and this is just the barbie discourse dont get me started on the discourse around other movies most of which is also stupid #god the consequences of a year where people start moving from big franchise schlock to Caring Abt Film. annoying discourse. #well anyway. theres more important things in the world im just so tired of oscar discourse and i had to rant a little bit.

[girlcrushau]

#me? about to use tumblr as a diary again? in 2024? unfortunately:/ #but here have a waterfall i saw on a hike last week as payment #i am sO tired and exhausted emotionally after dating #there's this guy that i fr thought was going to last and be around for a long time. we spent like every moment together that we could for 2 #months straight and if we werent physicaly together we were texting or calling or on ft . just every part of our day had the other in it #not once did i ever feel unwanted undesired or uncared for. not once did i feel that i wasnt sure of his intentions. i felt safer with him #in those 2 months than i ever did with any one else i could think to compare to. #until one day he just didnt think it important to communicate any more. after 3 days of nearly nothing .. hardly any talking . i asked if #he was ok if we were ok. what was going on in his head. he said some ive just been with my buddies and family and havent been on my phone #and just. immediately thats heartbreak yanno. thats :// thats what they say when theres a new girl. but there'd never been a reason to think #there was another girl so i was like ok we're gonna trust bc this dude has been So good in every way. so i said imy but i understand. enjoy #your time with your buddies and with your fam -- i cant wait to hear about it (and hold you) #and i havent heard from him in the 3 weeks since. just randomly #so last night #i send the dreaded 'i miss you' text. #i dont expect to hear back and i accept the hurt that will come with that and the confusion that i've felt settles deeper into my heart #until this afternoon i hop on ig and see a hard launch that was posted an hour after my text was sent #that shit kinda hurt different. but also sent me into a bit of a delirious state where all i could do is laugh bc are you for fucking real #did she see my message? i know it. bc i know him and i know that he wouldnt hide anything from the person he's giving his heart #and his softness to. i can almost imagine how he showed her and promised her theres nothing to worry about #and there really isnt anything to worry about because he genuinely is the type to give his all to the relationship he's in #which feels silly to say after what happened w us. like no there wasnt a title ever #it sucks to call it a situationship because a month ago we were laughing in bed together about how we could never bc we were all in. #just the timing of the hard launch makes me giggle. did my text push them to have a conversation about what they are. was she really the #reason that he went away on me. #im trying not to blame myself . trying not to think about the phone calls i didnt answer. about what i could have done differently. trying #not to think about where we would be if i didnt let my anxieties hold me back. if i wasnt scared about what he'd think of the parts of me #that i keep hidden just a little bit longer than the rest. #and at the same time im trying not to put him on a pedestal. but that pedestal is just where i wholeheartedly believe he belongs #he set the bar for me. he set the standard. i was never too much. i was never too little. he made me feel perfect just as i am

[tiredstressedemotionalmess]

me, every night for the past three weeks: oh im feelin good rn! and i had a good day today!! im definitely not gonna lie awake filled with anxiety and dread over my future tonight :D

me, lying in bed 20 minutes later looping famous last words: by talos this cant be happening

#its like im fine literally all day qnd then i start to get ready for bed and the Dread sets in #like its an actual physical feeling in my stomach and i just suddenly out of nowhere have to hold myself back from crying #i literally go from perfectly happy to on the verge of tears in an INSTANT and idk whats causing uty #it #like i know broadly ehat the causes are but idk whats causing the specific switch at night #am i tired?? is it just bc im tired??? bc its not consistently at the same time and most of the time i dont *feel* tired #or is it just like. i knoe im going to bed so i know im gonna be alone with my thoughts and so they all come and hit me at once??? #idk idk idk i just know i hate it and i want it to stop i want everything to fucking stop #id say i need a minute to breathe but really ive been using the past four months as my minute to breathe & thats part of the fucking problem #because ive been putting this all off for so long bc its so overwhelming but now theres so much igotta do and theres real tangible deadlines #so i cant keep putting it off but i DO and its just making it all even more overwhelming and my parents arent fucking helping #but its not even their fault because im chosing not to talk to them about this bc talking to them about it makes it all real #and i dont want it to be real yet im not fucking ready for it to be real yet i just need a goddamn minute TO FUCKING BREATHE #i wish i could freeze time and just give myself a day where none of this matters #actually a days not long enough i think i need like. two weeks. two weeks for me to get my shit together where none of this bullshit exists #and i can just do whatever i want and not have to think about deadlines and decisions and the fact that this is all ive wanted since the #7th fucking grade and now that its actually here i cant fucking stomach the thought of it being real because im a goddamn coward who cant #fucking commit to anything or get themself to DO anything and i know its not really my fault bc i probably have adhd and i get #knocked off my ass with a migraine every ither fucking day but i still feel like i should be more prepared for this than i am #and im not prepared and im not ready and i cant get myself ready because i cant do things like this myself because i dont really want to be #doing them at all #like sure! the bitch can write a 400+ page fanfiction no fucking problem!! they can find time for that but a college essay?? even finding #schools to apply too???? dont be fucking ridiculous they cant even get half an app done in the time it takes them to write a two 6k chapters #delete later

[quarklynx]

Folks, can we please tag posts regarding current events? not everyone is in a space where they should be seeing content like that quite so frequently

#lynx thinks #there is obviously more nuance i could add to this statement but i tried tj keep it straightforward #tag your current events and news so that those who arent up to seeing more about that than they'd like don't have to #and i get it can sometimes be a privilege to avoid those topics at all if ever but like #the human brain iant designed for a constant deluge of depressing information #and some people have trauma that could be seriously triggered by some of these headlines ive been seeing #completely untagged stuff just being shared around. some posts dont wven have text that can be filtered either #even if you come up with your own unique tag for all serious irl stuff thats still better than leaving everything untagged #i genuinely can only stand to look at news articles for so much of my day before my mental health dives #and i cant avoid social media completely because thats where i network for my commissions #but i dont want to unfollow everyone that posts untagged things #tumblr can filter some things but if you tag stuff then theres a better chance of it being filterable #also on an unrelated note it's probably not a good idea to just reblog evwrything you see without vetting the source #you could accidentally be contributing to the spread of misinformation if you don't check the source before rebloggong #idk. maybe this is privileged of me to even ask. im just So Tired. every day it's just mote death and doom and im so... tired

[the-mushroom-faerie]

what do writing fic and playing scrabble have in common?

both make you question whether or not you actually Know Words

#just mentally rolodexing through synonyms because the only word you can think of is Obviously Not Right #im so tired but im not sleepy so i cant take a nap #and also tumblr is using me to pick on my friend so thats fun #i cant scroll up on mine and sticks dms and theres this one post of hers that refuses to show up Anywhere #she tries to send it directly it doesnt go through #i check her blog its Not There #its not on my dash i got a blank notification for it #makes zero sense and im gonna cry about it #on a more positive note though i got a REALLY GOOD title for my mute john fic #it is now officially called Louder Than Words and im so so so proud of that title

[jrueships]

stefs ass is SO fat..... HOW isn't there more fanfiction of diggs/allen. im gonna thr*w up

#sometimes i think abt how much more loved my favs would be by others if they were basic white twinks and i wanna claw the wall #sauce would be a tumblr sexyman rn #diggs/allen would get more love if 1. allen was skinnier 2. diggs was the top 3. diggs was the bttm but he was white #sorry aometimes it's like. frustrating to see even in the simple media #shit is cruel #and i feel like i keep just encouraging more fans for the underrated #and rarely ever make stuff for it myself bcs i keep trying to hold out some hope that things can change #without me #bcs im terrified of starting things off on the wrong start but since it's the start no one notices and it just goes downhill from there #but it's like i think i have to which sucks so so bad #bcs i KNOW theres people who can do so much better than me for it but it just #idk sometimes i hate caring abt stuff no one else does sometimes like it's just so tiring #maybe i just need to leave or give up or smthin like im the outsider and thats just how it's gonna be #im always gonna be attracted to the stray and i cant ever stay it's so tiring it's so tiring #anyways this was supposed to be funny bcs it's me being all harrumph abt little ship fic lol #i need to watch fat albert again i love fat albert

[locklylemybeloved]

babe wake up i just found a new reaction image

#mae-rants #hmmm what should i tag this #idk #kaz brekker #lockwood #anthony lockwood #percy jackson #there are more #but i cant think of them rn #oH #jj maybank #for sure #theres more!!!! but im tired 😔 #harry styles #louis tomlinson #niall horan

[todayisafridaynight]

everyday i constantly think of masato's wheelchair and if that's his only one/main one no wonder he's so pissed at everyone

#snap chats #someone pointed this out to me like last year so im stealing it sorry cause I Think Of It Constantly #the handling of masato's disability will forever annoy me esp with how vague it is but esp his chair #one day ill draw masato with an appropriate wheelchair. maybe then he'll be happy for once #in a way i guess it could tie into how restricted or trapped he felt since the type of chair he's shown is more like. a hospital one #and not one youd really use as a regular user- like in that vein it is a bit of storytelling in that he can ONLY go out with help #since hospital chairs are SO much different from home chairs ESPECIALLY in regards to mobility and independence the user has #AND NOT TO MENTION HOW UNCOMFORTABLE THOSE CHAIRS ARE get his ass a proper cushion P L E A S E #like it portrays the idea that its unfathomable for him to go anywhere on his own and so in that vein . Interesting Storytelling #theres a lot of implications going on here if im so honest and again it makes for Really Interesting Story Telling #however i refuse to give rgg credit like that when it comes to disabilities. ... they havent earned that from me yet #see this is why the vagueness of his condition annoys me because he's shown to be independent enough to roll himself to his elevator #and presumably get himself dressed but he cant have a proper chair ? #because ik there are people who have expressed they have conditions where even writing is tiring #so if his condition was in-line with that and it was hard for him to push himself in his chair then i could buy it #obviously the issue lies with his lungs but i just want to know the full extent yk... #to wrap this up tho ive been thinking of character design in rgg and how we dont give credit to it enough #sooooo if i make a second post ten minutes from now thats why cause i keep forgetting to spam my thoughts on here LMAO #ok bye

[orcelito]

I just desperately miss being able to be silly at work y'all my boss has been so staunch about no downtime ever and it's really cramping my style 😭😭😭

#speculation nation #im putting in my 2 weeks soon anyways so this wont matter before too long #but just thinking about how he constantly complains about us sitting and chatting when theres nothing to do #like BROOOOO im doing my job im finishing my tasks just sometimes there's nothing to do!!! #or maybe im tired and wanna sit a bit did u think of that??? #i cant even rly take breaks bc of the structure of how he has shifts happen #bc hes a stingy ass who cant spring for more than one or two people on shift Most of the time #how am i supposed to take breaks when im alone on shift or working with a trainee????? bitch #thinking many uncharitable things about him. let me fuckin chill sometimes god Damn

[passumstars]

words fail me

#my art #emeto tw #sorta #who needs sleep after your catbwakes you upmat 3am to hurl after a fairly fucken bad day not fuvken me #i cant be bothered w the typos #like how tdo people say words #they just tell people things...?......???????????????? #wah wah i had a bad day and couldnt sleep and had a panic attack #when i put it ike that indont look smart #im starving also #idk why #have to get up then #the words just lodge in my stupid throat and i cant fucking spit them up without a reason and no telling people is not a reason #apparently art is a reason #i have more words secretly. its likely healthiest to putnthem here #i feel like crying whenever mom and sibling have a productive convo cause thatb means i didnt waste months of my life working with himonstuf #getting in the boat stuff. theres still problems i dont know where thr balance is. betther to clean the kitchen to show yoh care or better t #o trust people to understand the limits of others? who knows but be sure to yell at me in a panic because you suddenly want my help with it #i think it was a legit panic attack with hyperventilation and everything and it was the middle of the night and i had to be the one that tal #ks myselfnthrough it not that id really trust anyone to have that skill but its still fuckend up #im tired #im really very tired

[flovverworks]

(person whos exhausted and thought of chloe a second too long) u know how im 70% sure chloe has an area convo where akira says something nice and chloe goes "is this what its like to have a big sibling?!?!", i need rustica to date someone n chloe to go "is this what its like to have (loving) parents?!?!?"

#stardust speaking ! #DO U SEE THE COMEEEDDYYYYYYYYY #im not gonna word it better. imagine the superior wording in ur minds #also since figaros june bride has that...' oh id like to have that role one day. 'do u think ure good enough for my rutile?!' like that' #training ep. can i have that for chloe. for rustica. since theres alrdy that entire summer event where chloes so concerned rusticas #getting scammed #AUGHHHH 1.5 MY FAV MOMENT FOREVER WITH CHLOE N RUSTICA......PARENT CHILD DUO OF ALL TIME #im not normal when i think about oz n arthur for long either #mhyk said heres a billion family relations and i was the target audience #i think mitile should accidentally call figaro or leno dad one day and Die on the spot #at the same time i do think a lot of my views r on them r more complicated than 'haha parent child' #its just that rustica n chloe especially......since rustica took care of chloe since chloe was like 13?? #n they get along so well that im always kinda. yeah those 2 r family in the very sense of the word #its why im so annoying with them in my own modern aus cuz rustica raising chloe....T_T #I JUST like them a lot #massages temple mhyk and the older wizards raising/looking after the younger kids oh i have a headache #(neros care for heath n shino n riquet comes to mind always) #oh im so tired id like to write all of them so i couls properly explain how i feel about all of their relations #cuz i just cant in posts like this #oz is not a parent but. also. ALSO. u get me dont u