#(bc the concept of sh is so foreign and weird for a god)

[ellilyre]

CW unconventionally sh

Do you think Nico ever uses shadow traveling as a kind of sh ?

Sometimes he purposely shadow travels too much, for too long, not by necessity but just to then feel himself fade away.

Because for a few instants it's like he doesn't exist anymore, like he erased himself from the world and it feels right. Or maybe is it the adrenaline that follows being so close to disappearing, for an instant he feels glad to be alive.

#i would say that Hades knows he does that but doesnt understand #hes aware Nico sometimes shadow travels (multiple times) when he has no need to #but he *cant* comprehend why he keeps doing sometimes that hurts himself while theres not need for it #(bc the concept of sh is so foreign and weird for a god) #and Nico shut down everytime he tries to talk about it so Hades rly cant know whats happening with him #it takes time for anyone to notice bc Nico makes sure to be alone when he does that and only comes back when he looks presentable again #but also bc theres no way to see hes physically hurt except maybe hes more tired than as usual #I think either Will Jason or Percy would be the first to understand #i wanna write about that now aaaa im a sucker for hurt/comfort #not sure i will tho its a subject im not super comfortable with #i like to hurt this boy (just as Rick intended) #tw s3lf harm #percy jackson #nico di angelo #percy jackon and the olympians