#am i tired?? is it just bc im tired??? bc its not consistently at the same time and most of the time i dont *feel* tired

[dustorange]

opinions?… 😬😬

https://www.tumblr.com/melmov/750293558453501952?source=share

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Wfa =free, comics = $3.99 per -> subsidized demand -> market distortion -> :/ :(

The claim of that post—“people have gotten tired of unrelenting grimdark” e.g. actual DC main runs and therefore prefer “slice-of-life fluff [that] also presents a coherent, easy-to-enter, balanced storyline” e.g. WFA—is directionally accurate but its also sort of talking about a Different Group of People than DC Comics Readers.

in particular there is a group of people who have been pretty much totally deracinated from developing or being capable of developing their own opinions on media or humor or life. because of social media and maybe also they r very young. there is a general valence to that part of fandom: the incorrect quotes, the Canva-post-derived politics, the memetic vocab + jokes and like this weird very limited view of redditizedhistory and culture+literature consisteing of the binding of Isaac and twoheadedcalf poem. and so there is just genuinely not the ability to process things that haven’t been run through a filter of accessibility. and WFA, which has BEAUTIFUL art and lots of very sweet moments, IS super accessible and its also sort of been through the preapproved foundfamily neoliberal kitsch machine and come out with a passing grade. but yes it is missing that like elusive Something and it also lacks a seriousness and it isnt the Characters. it’s something else. And its so pretentious to say its for people who don’t have the like stamina ??? for longerform storytelling but yes if you pressed me i would say its a bunch of people, primarily young genz and millennial girls/women, whose critical mental faculties and attention spans have been fried by social media and underexposure to challenging original content

that’s a different new group being lassoed into dc stuff from the previous existing audience. The DC Comics Reader People. i don’t know how much of this to do gender politics with but comics fandom has DEFINITELY gotten MUCH more female in the last 2 decades and there was a distinctive male comic book go-to-the-LCS-and-get-physical-copies and rigorously-autisticslly-fight-about-minutia-of-canon culture. Men also r going to be the one who GENERALLY prefer your fightheavy “”””grimdark””” comics, as opposed to women who doooo generally prefer social relational content. And also women-dominated comics fandom spaces are obviously qualitatively different from men’s fandom spaces. So PART of the reason WFA outsells real DC stuff is market distortion and PART is the DCfan genderdemographic shift that favors content like WFA

I rly hesitate to endorse a lot of Canon dc tumblr’s posts about the fanony WFA-style stuff bc it seems so clear that a the latter is enjoyed primarily by a group of very young people and it also feels like there’s a weird power imbalance intellectually between fanon and canon people. AND I AM A BIG BELIEVER IN LET PEOPLE READ AND ENJOY THE CONTENT THEY WANT and they shouldn’t be shamed for enjoying something as visually sweet and cute as WFA. and a lot of canon tumblr’s rants abt fanon stuff r clearly sort of excessively vicious and insecure attempts to feel superior. although admittedly quietly they r correct but it comes off cruel idk. also i think that BATMAN and superman and to some extent some others ARE indeed very flexible in terms of what is canon and what you have to consume to have consumed The Character and The Story. ive never seen BTAS but as far as im concerned, someone who has only watched BTAS is someone who has the right to do whatever batman stuff they want.

Related questions are: Is mainline DC batman stuff GOOD right now? and Is WFA good? I agree that mainline DC stuff isnt the best right now and i haven’t read WFA so i can’t comment on its quality but i honestly don’t think its the case that “WFA is better written than actual Batman comics, so thats why WFA is more popular” lol

#THANK U FOR ASKING LEGEND MUAH kissing your forehead this was super interesting to think about i hadn’t seen that post before!!! What are #your opinions???

[puppyeared]

how. do u sona....

#i want to give myself a solid sona that. isnt just me with puppy dog ears and a tail slapped on but its hardddd #i want to make like a snowman that can change shape but it keeps certain features like branch antlers and a carrot nose #for consistency yk. but im struggling to find a balance between smth i like drawing and smth that looks like me #how often does one's sona resemble the artist irl.. for one i dont have bangs but i love drawing characters with bangs #so its just an internal conflict on if i should give my sona bangs if i dnt have them but love drawing them. etc etc #maybe im thinking abt this too hard bc nobody really knows what i look like anyway and i can do what i want anyway #but i get hung up on small details like that. like im worrying abt stuff like damn how tf am i gonna draw a snowman in the summer #girl... its a fuckig drawing.... follow your heart. but also HOW. i cant even draw myself with bangs bc it feels like im lying augh auuhggg #its 4 am im too tired for this. im goig to bed #my art #myart #doodles #wip

[tiredstressedemotionalmess]

me, every night for the past three weeks: oh im feelin good rn! and i had a good day today!! im definitely not gonna lie awake filled with anxiety and dread over my future tonight :D

me, lying in bed 20 minutes later looping famous last words: by talos this cant be happening

#its like im fine literally all day qnd then i start to get ready for bed and the Dread sets in #like its an actual physical feeling in my stomach and i just suddenly out of nowhere have to hold myself back from crying #i literally go from perfectly happy to on the verge of tears in an INSTANT and idk whats causing uty #it #like i know broadly ehat the causes are but idk whats causing the specific switch at night #am i tired?? is it just bc im tired??? bc its not consistently at the same time and most of the time i dont *feel* tired #or is it just like. i knoe im going to bed so i know im gonna be alone with my thoughts and so they all come and hit me at once??? #idk idk idk i just know i hate it and i want it to stop i want everything to fucking stop #id say i need a minute to breathe but really ive been using the past four months as my minute to breathe & thats part of the fucking problem #because ive been putting this all off for so long bc its so overwhelming but now theres so much igotta do and theres real tangible deadlines #so i cant keep putting it off but i DO and its just making it all even more overwhelming and my parents arent fucking helping #but its not even their fault because im chosing not to talk to them about this bc talking to them about it makes it all real #and i dont want it to be real yet im not fucking ready for it to be real yet i just need a goddamn minute TO FUCKING BREATHE #i wish i could freeze time and just give myself a day where none of this matters #actually a days not long enough i think i need like. two weeks. two weeks for me to get my shit together where none of this bullshit exists #and i can just do whatever i want and not have to think about deadlines and decisions and the fact that this is all ive wanted since the #7th fucking grade and now that its actually here i cant fucking stomach the thought of it being real because im a goddamn coward who cant #fucking commit to anything or get themself to DO anything and i know its not really my fault bc i probably have adhd and i get #knocked off my ass with a migraine every ither fucking day but i still feel like i should be more prepared for this than i am #and im not prepared and im not ready and i cant get myself ready because i cant do things like this myself because i dont really want to be #doing them at all #like sure! the bitch can write a 400+ page fanfiction no fucking problem!! they can find time for that but a college essay?? even finding #schools to apply too???? dont be fucking ridiculous they cant even get half an app done in the time it takes them to write a two 6k chapters #delete later

[skenpiel]

homestuck fans when theres no rhyme or reason to the trickster designs and its literally just a jumbled mess of hideous colors and vague candy themes which means theres no consistency to analyze to help with making fan designs

#now imagine if you will a very distraught face. because i cant be bothered adding an image #ANYWAYSSSSSSS i wanted 2 try making one but god its just so hard bc theres so many fucking colors and i suck at coloring anyway #i tried analyzing them to the best of my abilities to see if there was any consistency i could go off of......... but no theres Nothing #the only thing is that their cheek swirls are the same color as their pestechum colors. and thats it #even the outfits are different it seems to be slightly altered versions of their original outfits? #like roxy was wearing her purple knit dress when she got bonked but it was still her original outfit afterwards #their hair colors dont make sense their shoe colors dont make sense their head ornaments make a LITTLE sense.......... #jakes and dirks are the most obvious. pumpkin and orange soda its like their thing i guess #janes being a muffin makes sense cuz crockercorp baker etc etc #roxys makes the least sense...... i dont think there was ever any mention of cotton candy for her aside from when caliborn wanted his weird #smut to be color coordinated for whatever reason #whenever i make otufits its usually just varying shades of the same 3 or so colors so trickster designs are a nightmare #even my old trickster mode trollsona was like. 3 colors total LOL #not to mention i wanted to make this design for my trollsona. and we only ever saw humans in trickster mode #and looking at older fanart didnt help cuz everyone had decided unanimously that the canon designs sucked ass (they did) #and in the future we should all give each character a food or somthing similar to base the whole design off of (good decision) #blehh. i give up its too much of a pain-_- #anyway. maybe i really am sick i think i need to lay down #already slept literally all day but im still so tired.......... #i took painkillers and allergy meds in case of cat hair on bed but i still feel groggy as fuck #well whatever. itll probably go away soon i never really stay sick for long

[yelloworangesoda]

gotta get off the internet and only interact irl with people who were 30 before they got their shit together i cant keep doing it like this

#like this being. feeling like i have no future and nobody likes me #‘youre only 19’ only goes so far when i dont know any other fail 19 year olds #im not gonna be a damn dentist for sure but like. and ive said this a thousand times. what am i gonna do. i cant live a worthless nothing #life where i work a shitty job i hate. i have to like something #i hate my art. i hate my lack of creativity. my art is so bland i just dont think its in me anymore #i finished. and i hate it #i have other hobbies. i like to cross stitch. i like to sew. i like to paint. i like to make dolls. do you see the common theme here #i have a few more than that i technically could do but i cant create anymore and it kills me. i want to. i constantly want to but i cant #it doesnt help that even if i havw ideas i dont even want to do them #i was gonna draw some characters from a game i played when i was little but i just #didnt want to. at no point did it not feel like a chore #ill try to go to new mediums! its fun to mess around and then itll feel boring again and going back doesnt feel any better #idk. googling it is useless. ive tried all the things. for years. ive been TRYING to draw consistently and like. doodles are fine theyre fu #but theyre not what i want to do i want to make something im proud of. i drew almost every single day for like 2 years #and its not burnout bc its been like. 2 more years! and ive barely wanted to at all!!! #i want to be creative and i also want people to recognize it. different complaint but it sucks so bad #i feel like nobody likes me. still. nobody cares about what i do. nobody would care if i stopped #like except me but i can only support myself so far!!!! im so tired of it!!!! someone PLEASE be here for me and just say ‘hey i love this #drawing :)’ like you have no idea what that would do for me #not always. but yknow especially if its been a while. if you like it. if you dont like it :( idk. you should tell me that too i guess #yknow so i can have some confirmation so i dont feel like im crazy. idk. dont actually id never go online again. i would probably. well. #i dont like to say the words #simons spouting #vent :(

[camptw1nk]

milking my little breaks for all they're worth

#i have 5 more minutes and then 1h 20m left of my shift #i like the job i have fun w my department #but usually after like 4 or 5 hours our dep is done so we help with stocking shelves #and its not bad or anything i enjoy stocking its just. i am consistently paired up with one guy #and i like him! he seems cool! but hes. i dont wanna say condescending bc i dont think he is #but hes been here a while and knows where everything is and i Dont Know where everything is so i am slightly slower than him #and he doesnt say anything theres just a. vibe? #i think some part of him feels like hes babysitting and im slowing him down akshrls #i just don't know how anythings done bc i wasnt trained in the stocking stuff i just have to work it out as i go #and in the few times hes told me how things are done its been really nice and he emphasized that if no one told me then how would i know #but im still 🧍‍♂️ #2 mins left of my break #im meant to go do laundry right after my shift but i dont wanna im Tired #but i need to. so i will. regrettably

[floofyfluff]

starts crying because i thought too hard about friends, who i had barely had a few weeks to get to know before pandemic hit, bringing me thanksgiving dinner from 10 feet away door dash style. i know this i was just a regular thing to do but id 1. just moved for the 10th time in 7 years like three months before the panini. to Yet Another state. 2. recently given up on art and decided the smart thing to do was get licensed and start working as an emt. in the pandemic. like a person with No Fucking Brain. while further deciding to go back to school bc i guess i spent enough time in the infectious ravioli to think i could stick this out for the long haul BC REALLY COULD IT GET WORSE (it can always get worse). and thus hadn't spent extensive time with anyone that wasnt intimately involved in making morbid jokes about the "meat lockers" outside all the hospitals (in case we ended up like nyc. Which we didn't by sheer icu-bed-per-capita, but only sorta). and also you gotta laugh or cry and they Were meat lockers. so you laugh.

but anyway i hadn't seen these people for months and they made a whole dinner and brought it to me and that's why i'm still in chicago.

#im very tired so many people always die in december for no reason #probably for some reason but i'm not smart enough to know it #but also its like damn i do enjoy seeing patients on a consistent basis as compared to what i used to do where i never see them again #and just assumed they were left for dead in an overcrowded nursing home #but its weird to have a healthy 62 year old come in for enough post ops you get to know them #and then suddenly they are found dead in their bed bc sometimes life sucks #so if someone brings me food i start crying #@the little polish lady i'd met once and who brought me so many anise flavored waffle cookies today i love you and its your fault #bc i am normal and regular and would not have stabbed myself in the eye if i didn't have two small cats who needed me by august of 2020

[wormtiddies]

screams into the void am i destined to only be able to trust myself

#realized this morning: oh no wonder i have anxious attachment issues its bc no one has ever been consistent w me ever #im always on edge bc i never know how someones gonna react #are they gonna be supportive or distant today? are they gonna respond or ignore me? am i their best friend or just an acquaintance? #im tired #freys babble

[chapst1ckmcdyke]

.

#just realizing my ex consistently told me i talked too much and i was too loud #and i put up with this bc I thought it was teasing but im rlly insecure abt it now #like maybe i do talk too much :( #should i shut up and practice listening bc its a valuable skill to listen? #or am i annoying as fuck and need to can it? #fuck im rlly tired guys 😞

[jeepers-scoob]

Just in my hibernating bear era 🐻💤 (it's a couple days before my period so I can't not sleep for less than 10+ hrs a day). It definitely doesn't fuck with my routines that I have to make myself not feel terrible and I definitely don't get angry at being so fucking tired that I can't do anything I want to do!

#text #kayla rambles #i am such a tired man and it always happens just before my period so i get to have preperiod cramps while being sad bc i sleep all the time #tw periods #tw period mention #i looked it up and theres different things but its def hormone related and probably lack of serotonin #normally im fine being a sleepy boi but when it is for this reason i literally cant keep myself up like i slept last night #and went back to sleep at like 11 and just got up #and im still tired!!!!!! and like normally i do have issues with under or over sleeping but its never this consistent

[crushedsweets]

Would you ever consider including nurse ann in more of your art/ stories? She's one of my favorite characters and I think your design for her is amazing lmao- I'd also sort of like to know what her relationship with the others would be like

yes. actually. i would love to . ok i have some vague ideas for how shed fit into the lore so thatll be under the cut !! i also start rambling about lulus lore too cuz i decided theyre friends.

ok so, again, my au is based around slenders forest being like... some sort of magnet for the paranormal. slenderman wants to keep all of these cryptids within the forest.

since its in a fictionalized forest in tuscaloosa, where marble hornets was filmed, i decided to move the abanonded hospital they visited up north of the tuscaloosa lake. she roams there.

SOOOOO nurse ann is just... a demon. slenders forest is sort of like limbo for a lot of the cryptids and kinda puts them in like.. a long daze and loops unless they're consistently leaving or being grounded by humans.

i dont EXACTLY know why/how she's in that specfic hospital, especially since i dont believe she has an official origin? maybe when the hospital shut down, she was let go and wasn't transferred to work in a new hospital, so she lost her shit and preformed some crazy rituals that ended up making her an undead nurse ? now she's forever roaming the hospital. or maybe she was killing patients when she was a human and kept doing weird demon shit with their bodies and the operator/zalgo fed off of her bad vibes. LOL IDK.

now about lulu cuz i drew her too.

i used to be sooo fond of lulu. and i originally said she was just going to be another ghost roaming the forest pointlessly, mourning everything and being incapable of interacting with humans, BUUUUUT. she is 24 and NOT A GHOST?!?!??!?! IDK WHY ALL THIS TIME I THOUGHT SHE WAS JUST A GHOST WHO AGES CUZ YK HOW CHIBIWORKS STUFF WAS BACK THEN LOL... i def am tired of little kids being tortured and all these children ghosts tho so im kinda glad to have smth new to write. anyway. so im thinking lulus just another little demon thing... i'm thinking her story goes.

she was in strict private schools all of k-12, and went to uni on her own in tuscaloosa. she wanted to branch out, have a little rebelious phase, make friends, etc. tried to join a co-ed frat. she experienced an absolutely horrific hazing when she was like 19, the frat fully believed they killed her by accident and in their panic, tried to bury her in slenders forest, and some demonic entity in the forest infected her before she was buried fully. she ends up climbing out of her shallow grave, never having died. perhaps the operator did it, perhaps zalgo like in her og lore ? PERHAPS ANN CUZ SHES A DEMON HERSELF?

anywaaayyyyy :3 l think theyd be cute friends. they just look really cute together and i could see good chemistry so i totally would love to expand on them and make them friends. maybe expand more on the type of species they are, what kind of powers they have(esp if i make ann the demon who infects lulu).

BUUUUT ALSO this made me realize i should totally look into adding zalgo to my lore. cuz it doesnt make sense for the operator to make anyone a demon, thats not really what he does.... and i dont want him to do that i just dont like the vibes. so mmm yes.

anyway in terms of relationships..

lulu and her are cool good besties beautiful they would take selfies and do tiktok dances together.

masky and hoody are incredibly indifferent to her, because they dont have to worry/visit her often. she stays in the hospital thats in the forest, and thats exactly where slenderman wants her, so theyre content. theyre kinda grateful she keeps lulu in the hospital too, cuz lulu actually freaks them out bc she'll be jumping at them and shit talking about their eyes.

tobys EXTREMELY scared of ghosts (bc of his hallucinations of his sisters ghost . . ). he eventually gets over it(kinda?) with sally, but he keeps accusing ann and lulu and the sort of being ghosts cuz they just.. kinda pop in and out. at least jack has to walk into the room to show up. so he doesnt like them

mmm jack wouldnt like her IF he knows that she kinda turned herself into a demon through like, a ritual or smth. he'd be beyond pissed to know someone CHOSE to be what he is. if he doesnt know, he doesnt care for her. he kinda jokes about 'well why dont YOU be their medic' and shes like 'dont fuckin wanna be'.

jane and liu and kate prob dont know her... kate might but wouldnt care.

jeff would prob think shes hot or some bullshit and nina would be beyond pissed. at first ninas like AHHH SHES SO COOL cuz shes a fangirl at heart, but the second she hears a single 'goddamn' from jeff shes livid.

ben prob wouldnt care much for her... hes so uninterested in demons idk why i just feel like he doesnt care.

clockwork would LOVE HER. she'd think she's so fucking cool. she'd try talking to her all the time but ann prob wouldnt be interested in clocky at all...

ofc the proxies purposefully come into contact with the paranormal the most because thats their job, so i wrote the most for them, but that doesn't mean theyre the closest or anything.

ok thank u anon you did smth to my brain that benefitted my mental health cuz i love writing this shit for the creeps thank u sm .

#asks #creeped #hcs #sweetart #creepypasta #nurse ann #lulu creepypasta #creepypasta art #creepypasta fanart #creepypasta headcanons #ticci toby #masky #tim wright #aaahhhgghg #i love doing these so much seriously #heals me #toby rogers #Lucille-Tiffany Greatfeild

[urfavnegronerd]

stars in the sky- phora + jhene aiko

trope: fluff, s/o mick for the idea in my ask box smooches 

sum slight 

warnings: grammarly hates me, reader has trouble sleeping bc i said so (i’ve had so much trouble falling asleep idk why), no use of pronouns but use of mama, ma, n mami, idk how much i like it but im outa slump so yay, lmk if i missed anything

published: august 15, 2023

song lyrics are italicized   

w/c: 1.3k ish

reader is black-coded like always 

stay in the state of the greatest bliss 

Miles’ room was dark. Well, dark-ish. He tried though, pulling the curtains all the way shut, turning off the light in his room and the hallway, but the afternoon sun still gently weaved its way through the fibers of his curtains. 

“What’s the point of this, Miles?” 

“To get you to try and sleep,” 

“It's four in the afternoon,” 

“Naptime,” 

“What?” 

“Just try, mama, okay?”  

You’d never been a good sleeper and usually stayed awake while Miles fell asleep in your arms, that was how it usually went. Even more so when he came to your window late at night after his Prowler duties, those visits mainly consisted of cleaning any wounds or scratches, on occasion giving him stitches, helping him change, and kissing the top of his head when he inevitably dozed off on your chest. You were usually up then anyway, it was a fun addition to your nighttime routine. Miles had only begun to worry about your sleeping patterns when you fell asleep at 9 am while you were over his, watching a telenovela with Mrs. Morales. Gently nudging you awake after the telenovela marathon at about 1 that afternoon, he fell into the pattern of observing your moods. Most of which during the day consisted of you constantly being tired, and yawning, but somehow always getting school work done that assisted in your straight A’s. At first, he assumed that it was just you putting too much pressure on yourself to perform, but when he realized these patterns continued well into school breaks, he started to worry. 

He had started to realize that every time he came to your window after his Prowler work, you were up anyway, reading, writing, drawing, or pretty much any activity you could get your hands on. Again, at first, he thought this was endearing, and went as far as getting puzzles for you after he had interrupted the puzzle on the floor when he gently knocked on your window. And so a much-needed conversation ensued the morning after.

“Ma, I’m worried about you,”  

“For why Miles?” You turn your attention away from the mirror where you’re laying your baby hair down. 

“Ian never seen you sleep,” 

“So?” 

“Do you sleep?” 

“Yeah, I just have some trouble with it is all,” 

“I don’t make you sleepy?” 

“You make me feel safe, comfortable, relaxed, and loved, but no Miles, you don’t make me sleepy,” 

He huffed, falling back onto your duvet. 

“What's wrong papá?” 

“I’m worried about you,” 

“Sueñito, you don’t need to be worried about me,” 

“You fall asleep when most people would be awake starting their days, almost always during the first and second period, mama, that's not normal,” 

“Maybe I’m just sleepy in general,” You were beginning to get defensive then, why did he care if you were tired usually? 

He sighed then, rubbing his eyes and urging himself out of your bed. He didn’t want to fight with you, he never wanted to fight with you, so he had just decided to leave it alone then. However, the very same conversation was repeated about two weeks later. The two of you were walking home, as school had gotten out early that day, and you had slowly begun to slump onto Miles’ shoulder, yawning and rubbing your eyes. 

“Ma?” There was a twinge of concern in his voice, it was barely even noon, is it normal to be this tired? “You okay?”  

“‘m just tired,” You yawn, still clawing at your eyes. 

“It’s 11:45,” 

“So?” 

“Mama,” he knew you were just being stubborn, but he also knew you didn’t want to admit that you had a problem sleeping. You didn’t like to ask for help, you tried to get things right on your own, and you usually did. “Be honest.” 

“Fine,” you forced out, shame tugging at your cheeks, and Miles knew exactly what you meant by that

“Thank you,”  

And so, the two of you were here, in this moment. 

“Please? Just try for me,” 

You huff plopping onto his mattress. 

“Now what?” 

“We wait,” 

“Oh, joy,”

whenever i’m in your atmosphere  

The two of you had been lying, in the dark, for about an hour and a half. Naturally, the sun was slowly beginning to set, hence dimming the light in his room. 

At this point, you were fighting sleep. It’s not like you didn’t feel exhausted all the fucking time, it’s that you had this mental block in your head. It’s like when you’re so tired but you can’t manage to fall asleep, like someone is forcing your eyes open. It’s hell, and it frustrates you, makes you want to scream and cry and essentially just throw a tantrum. Not that you’d ever admit it, but you feel so powerless, so out of control. A sigh mixed with anger, frustration, and disappointment breezes through your lips as you press the heels of your palms into your eyes. 

“Uh uh ma, don’t do that,” he whispers, gently pushing your hands away from your eyes. “What’s wrong?” 

“This isn’t working,” you whine. “I turn seventeen in a year and I can’t even sleep right,” 

“Hey hey hey, it’s not that serious,” 

“I’m so tired, Miles,” you mumble, tears poking at your eyes. 

“Amor, I know it’s frustrating, okay? I know how much you love to be in control and I get that, but this is so bad for you,” 

“I know,” 

“So can we try? Just one more time?” 

“Yeah,” 

“Do you want like, some kind of noise?” 

“Can you just talk?” 

“Yeah. I can do that,” 

And he does. He talks about anything and everything, all while staring at you, your body pressed against him, your face angled upwards at him. Your full lips slightly parted in a little ‘o’ as your big brown eyes ogle up at him. To a lot of people, everything he’s saying would seem pretty mundane, but the way his voice soothes you is something different. His voice is calm, cool, and collected, his nuyo accent ever so prominent. 

You’re not sure just how much time passes until you slowly begin to get groggy, your eyes heavy. Miles, obviously, takes notice and brings his voice down to a whisper. 

“Dad woulda been so happy I met you, ma,” 

Your movements are thick as syrup, you nod, trying to open your eyes more so he knows that he has your full attention. 

“No no no, don’t do that,” he whispers, running a hand over your eyes, forcing them to droop lazily once again. 

“Jus wan’ you to know ‘m listening” you slur, languidly clutching his wrist. The point of this action? You didn’t know, but you held onto him anyway. 

“You’re always listening, Ian gotta worry bout that.” He mumbles, softly stroking your cheeks with the pads of his thumbs. His hands are calloused and rough, but they’re always soft and gentle, making sure to love every curve of you. As your eyes begin to wilt close, he delicately traces your cupid bow, in response to which your lightly freckle-kissed nose scrunches, your brows tightly knitting themselves together. With a quiet laugh, he gently runs his fingers over your eyebrows, desperately trying to relax your face, to which you hum tiredly in response. 

“Kiss?” 

“Mmmm,” you groan, fatigue finally catching up to you, in affirmation. Taking the hint, he kisses you- your cheeks, chin, jaw, everywhere– peppering light butterfly kisses all over your face. Gently, you sigh and fully close your eyes, your head relaxing into the pillow. Smiling, he brushes gentle kisses onto both of your eyelids and then your nose. Cradling your head into his chest he kisses the bonnet covering your hair, inhaling the scent of hair product and oil, the scent of you, something he adored in a way that words couldn’t describe. 

“Sleep, princesa.”

i’m so glad that i got you, you’re my dream come true <3

a/n: everyone say thank u mick @lunarfleur

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xoxo,

rae <3

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[sparring-spirals]

okay im going to give a fair warning now that i am so incredibly fucking tired, and all of the posts i am seeing in the tag are HEIGHTENING MY SENSE OF DELIRIUM.

Bc. This is like a mixing pot of 20 of my favorite character tropes/jokes/flaws blended together.

Laudna being distraught and being WAY TOO FOCUSED on "I JUST WANT HER TO BE HAPPY THEN I'LL BE HAPPY ITS FINE BUT ALSO WHAT IF SHE NEVER LOVES ME AGAAAIIIN" and Imogen just About To Fucking Lose it going "welll i cant fucking BELIEVE- but its FINE but also GODDAMMIT-". and apparently both of them are going through LITERALLY EVERYONE ELSE IN THE FUCKING PARTY TO ASK WHAT TO DO, BEFORE ASKING EACH OTHER. And Dusk and Ashton both DIRECTLY asked Imogen and Laudna whether they were in a relatio ship- and those ANSWERS- I.

(And Dusk asking Imogen and then getting That Reaction is so, so funny, and Ashton asking Laudna and then feeling bad about assuming- and Laudna's reaction- is so, so funny). And apparently Laudna is consistently wailing "i broke her roooock :(" and Imogen is just Peak I am Dealing REALLY Well With My Emotions Do Not Fucking Touch Me.

and Fearne is??? a QUOKKA?

These characters are so flawed and care about each other so much and are all kind of terrible at it and I am thriving, this is GREAT. i am trying to get it out of my system in one post so i can be somewhat coherent during the rerun.

like i love character foibles and flaws and I specifically love flaws manifesting like this, in a mildly romcom slightly embarassing, mostly hilarious, understandable, terrible decision making. its hilarious. its great. fuck yes.

like, this is about the romance to an extent, definitely, but its also about the humanness of it all and relationships (of all kinds) being stupid and messy and full of TOO MANY feelings to function- just. These two going around the Bell's Hells trying to get relationship and emotional advice and getting the most beautiful blend of helpful, confused, well intentioned, kind of useless advice from everyone other than each other.

Come on. Come on. :'D

#im so happy and also this is so funny im sorry #critical role #cr spoilers #cr liveblogging #spar speaks #imogen temult #laudna #sorcery pact #bell's hells #meta #???? #sure #my meta #but also #shitpost #c3e25

[cantdanceflynn]

OK HERES MY PROPAGANDA TO EITHER SUBMIT, OR IF SHE GETS IN, VOTE FOR, CANDACE FLYNN TO @he-would-not-fucking-say-that.

I AM GOING TO PREFACE THIS BY SAYING THAT WHILE I FULLY TRUST ONLY FIVE OTHER PEOPLE IN THIS FANDOM W CANDACE THE MAJORITY OF YOU R PROBABLY FINE. IF UR MY MUTUAL UR DEFINITELY FINE. I AM NOT TRYING TO INSULT ANYONE I AM SIMPLY SAYING THAT THE FANDOM IN GENERAL TENDS TO RLY FUCK UP CANDACES CHARACTER IN BASICALLY EVERY SINGLE WAY

1: LITERALLY THE WRITERS ALSO DID THIS. WHILE CANDACE HAS BETTER CONSISTENCY THEN LIKE. LINDA OR MINOR/STRAIGHT UP MADE TO BE DISLIKED CHARACTERS, THERE ARE SO MANY MOMENTS THAT ARE JUST MEAN AND OOC TO HER.

AND SHES AN INTENDED BUTT-MONKEY, IM NOT JUST SAYING BAD STUFF HAPPENS TO HER, IM SAYING AN EPISODE STRAIGHT UP LIES AND SAYS SHES NEVER DONE ANYTHING NICE FOR HER BROTHER EVER(EVER?!!!?!!) BEFORE THAT EPISODE. DESPITE HER CANONICALLY BEING A GOOD SISTER. AND THIS KINDA THING DOESN'T HAPPEN OFTEN BUT IT HAPPENS ENOUGH THAT LIKE. U NOTICE WHEN SHES A BIT TOO MEAN OR TOO MUCH OF A PUSHOVER OR A BIT TOO INTENTIONALLY ANNOYING OR WEIRD FOR THE SAKE OF GOING "ISNT SHE ANNOYING AND WEIRD?" FOR NO REAL REASON

2: SHE IS A COMPLEX, WRITTEN AS A TEEN BC SHES A TEEN, ND-CODED OLDER SISTER FEMALE CHARACTER IN DISNEY MEDIA. DO I NEED TO SAY MORE ABOUT HOW THE FANDOM MISINTERPRETS HER? BC I WILL

3: THE BIGGEST USUAL OFFENDER I WILL SEE IN BASICALLY EVERYTHING IS SHE IS EITHER COMPLETELY OBSESSED WITH BUSTING TO A FRANKLY OOC AMOUNT(LIKE. IT GETS TO "SHED LET SOMEONE SHE LOVES ALMOST/ACTUALLY DIE FOR A CHANCE AT IT" BAD SOMETIMES), OR SHE DOESN'T ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT BUSTING THEM AND SHE'LL STOP AT THE SLIGHTEST INSTANCE DURING THE EVENTS OF THE SHOW(WHEN ITS LITERALLY HER WHOLE MOTIVATION FOR 95% OF THE SHOW. LIKE HER THING IS BUSTING SHE CAN 100% PUT IT OFF IF SHE NEEDS TO BUT SHE DOESN'T WANT TO BASICALLY EVER). ITS IN LIKE. EVERYTHING. ITS INSANE. THERE ARE SEVERAL PEOPLE IN THIS FANDOM WHO THINK SHE EITHER BARELY CARES ABOUT HER MAIN MOTIVATION OR THAT SHED LET SOMEONE SHE CARES ABOUT GET STABBED OVER IT.

4: SHE IS SO DEMONIZED. THE PNF FANDOM, DESPITE BEING SUCH A NEURODIVERSE FANDOM, IS LIKE THE PEAK EXAMPLE OF HOW ND-CODED CHARACTERS TEND TO EITHER GET INFANTALIZED OR DEMONIZED DEPENDING ON HOW "CUTE" THEIR USUAL TRAITS AND STIMS ARE. DESPITE DOOFENSHMIRTZ ACTING LIKE HER MOST OF THE TIME, AND BEING TREATED AS MORE ANNOYING THEN CANDACE USUALLY, HES ALL FINE AND CUTE WITH HIS RELATABLE QUIRKS, MEANWHILE CANDACES R USUALLY SEEN AS ANNOYING OR TOO EXTREME. THE PARALLELS ARE LITERALLY INTENTIONAL AND PEOPLE ACT LIKE SHES HORRIBLE AND ANNOYING COMPARED TO DOOF.

5: HER RELATIONSHIPS WITH LITERALLY EVERYONE GETS AFFECTED BY PEOPLE DISLIKING HER. SO MANY PEOPLE END UP PUTTING HER RELATIONSHIP WITH JEREMY DOWN AS HER BEING CREEPY AND WEIRD AND SCARING HIM OFF WHEN THATS LITERALLY THE OPPOSITE OF CANON, OR DECIDING STACY WOULD GET TIRED OF HER BUSTING OBSESSION AND STOP BEING HER FRIEND WHEN THE SHOW PULLED THAT AND CANONICALLY SHOWED ITD WORK ITSELF OUT BC CANDACE LEARNS TO MANAGE HER PRIORITIES!!!! THATS LIKE ONE OF THE BIGGEST CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT THINGS AND I WILL RANT BOUT HOW PEOPLE DISRESPECT HER CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT LATER. OR THEY DECIDE THAT LINDA IS THE WORST MOM EVER SPECIFICALLY TO CANDACE TO A HORRIBLE EXTENT BC OF THE INCONSISTENT WRITING THERE, OR THAT SHE DOESN'T RLY CARE ABOUT HER BROTHERS, SHE JUST WANTS THEM IN TROUBLE DESPITE LIKE. EVERY SINGLE FUCKIN THING BOUT THE SHOW SAYING OTHERWISE. SO MANY PEOPLE GET HER DYNAMIC W PERRY WRONG TOO BUT THATS USUALLY LESS OUT OFMISINTERPRETINGN HER AND MORE BC ITS COMPLICATED.

SOME PEOPLE GENUINELY GET TO THE CONCLUSION THAT NO ONE COULD POSSIBLY BE PATIENT ENOUGH TO DEAL W CANDACE BESIDES JEREMY, STACY, AND HER DIRECT FAMILY BC SHE'S SO ANNOYING DESPITE HOW DEEPLY CANONICALLY UNTRUE EVERY SINGLE THING ABOUT THAT IS.

5: NO ONE. FUCKIN RESPECTS HER CHARACTER COMPLEXITY. EVER. SHE DOESN'T JUST WANT TO BUST NON-STOP THROUGHOUT THE PLOT UP UNTIL SHE DOESN'T, SHE HAS A CURVE TO IT!!! SHE STARTS OUT WANTING TO BUST BUT WILLING TO PUT IT ASIDE EASILY ENOUGH IN VAGUE COMPARISON, ENDS UP STUCK IN THE CYCLE AND OBSESSED W BUSTING THEM TO A FAR GREATER EXTENT, BEFORE EVENTUALLY WORKING HER WAY OUT AND GETTING TO THE POINT WHERE HER PRIORITIES CAN BE HANDLED REASONABLY, EVEN IF BUSTING IS USUALLY AT THE TOP!!! AND SHE ABSOLUTELY HAS ISSUES W HER FAMILY, SHES NOT JUST ALWAYS PERFECT TO THEM OR ANYTHING, SHE GETS PISSED OFF AT HER BROTHERS AND MOM A LOT, BUT ITS VERY CLEAR HOW MUCH SHE LOVES THEM AND HOW MUCH SHE'D RISK FOR THEM CONSTANTLY!!!! SHE CAN BE STALKERISH, YEA, ESPECIALLY EARLY ON, BUT NOT ONLY IS IT BALANCED OUT BY THE FACT THAT JEREMY LITERALLY KNEW SHE WAS DOING IT, BUT SHE ALSO STOPS FAIRLY QUICKLY!!!

AND OFC THERES SHIT THAT THEY DONT UTILIZE ENOUGH W HER(HER TROUBLE SAYING NO, MALADAPTIVE DAYDREAMS, TROUBLES W LETTING HERSELF HAVE FUN AND DO THINGS OUTSIDE OF WHAT SHE BELIEVES IS EXPECTED, AND WHATNOT) BUT SHES SUCH A WELL FLESHED OUT CHARACTER, AND PRACTICALLY EVERYTHING ABOUT HER IS WELL DONE IN A WAY PEOPLE NEVER USE OR RECOGNIZE!!!! HER GENERAL THIRST FOR JUSTICE, HER ANXIETY (AND!!! HOW THE PEOPLE AROUND HER ACCOMMODATE HER SO WELL RATHER THEN JUST IGNORING IT LIKE SO MANY PEOPLE THINK), THE WHOLE GODDAMN CYCLE SHES TRAPPED IN AND HER ETERNALLY TRYING TO GET OUT???

NO ONE DOES SHIT W IT, NO ONE USES OR RESPECTS IT, AND SO FEW FUCKING PEOPLE EVEN RECOGNIZE THE CURVE OF HER CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT ITS INSANE

6: OH MY GOD DO YOU KNOW HOW PEOPLE REMOVE HER CHARACTER ENTIRELY SO SHE CAN FIT IN THIS CUTE CANDY PINK BOX. SHES GIRLY, SHE LIKES PINK, WHATEVER!!!! SHES LOUD SHES RUDE SHES ALLOWED TO BE SELFISH AND PEOPLE WILL TAKE THAT ALL AWAY TO ACT LIKE SHES THIS CUTESY BITCH WITH NO FUCKING DEPTH BEYOND BEING THE PINK LOVEY ONE. LIKE ITS RARER TO SEE BUT ITS THE REASON THAT DESPITE HAVING CANDESSA AS A COMFORT SHIP I CANNOT STAND THE FANON FOR IT BC PEOPLE ARE FUCKIN DESPERATE TO REMOVE ANYTHING REAL ABOUT HER CHARACTER TO EITHER MAKE HER HORRIBLE IN WAYS SHE LITERALLY CANONICALLY WOULDN'T BE OR TOO SANDED OFF TO DO ANYTHING OR CARE BOUT ANYTHING!!!!!

IM SURE ILL THINK OF MORE AND ADD IT ON LATER THIS IS JUST OFF THE TOP OF MY HEAD

#PHINEAS AND FERB #PNF #CANDACE FLYNN #PROPAGANDA #THIS HAS BEEN A POST.

[daenysthedreamersblog]

how ml! just wanted check in and see how you're doing <3

hi! i am alright ive been really down/depressed/tired/anxious about random sheit (mostly my job and my mother bc she sucks 🥲 ) its just been causing me to find little pleasure in things and makes me unproductive but im trying to get back to things i enjoy :) like writing!

ngl ive had huge writers block with this peacekeeper fic... i have the last half and most of the beginning but i cant seem to figure out how to get from point A to B while maintaining consistent characterization and pacing so its been a struggle bus and discouraging and then i feel like i cant write anything else bc ive devoted myself to this one thing until its finished 👎🏻

but we're getting there i think im figuring it out slowly but surely 🤍 and soon ill be back on my zoloft so that will help 😂😂

thank u for asking love u bestie 🤎

#daenysthedreamersblog

[kurjakani]

Alright quick question..we have similar taste in fictional men and I’ve never watched Bleach before should I start it so I can obsess over Mayuri as well?

HMMMMMMMAH rly hard to tell. Ok sorry bleach fans i love u but im gonna shit talk this show a bit. Pls dont read if u cant handle me rambling abt my personal experience w a show meant for 15 year old boys. I actually love it deeply !!!!!!! I enjoy ir a lot!!!!! However. I really struggle w watching the show sometimes. Its over 300 eps + the movies which i havent even gotten started with. It's difficult bc theres a lot of cool moments too but good lird esp at tge start the fights consist of characters deciding that they have more soul power bc of some memory they had and beatinh eachother. Everyone is confident there is character variety but everyone is like supposed 2 be a huge badass and idk thats just not my type of media (which is why orihime is actually one of my favourite characters bc she stands in such contrast w her confidence issues and damseliness. Also Ishida i love Ishida i love his arc in the umm when they had the bounts and his self reflection about his inabilitu to help the others + hes always rly analytical in fights. Mayuri too bcs all of his power comes from thinking & experimenrting & PREPARADNESS. I dont remember him ever mentioning soul power bc hes like only talking about technique. Zaraki is also incrhesting bc he is overpowered, but to a point of ridiculousness and where he has an one punch man styled conflict w being unable 2 find someone he has fun fightinh w) i like casts full of losers and freaks. Talking of freaks Tite Kubo is one and will NOT stop making fucked up jokes, esp about girls. His humour is shit theres been like. One scene where i laughed out loud and it was bc ichigos dad pelted him w no mercy bc hes used 2 him being able to fight but ichigo was just tired and he flew thru the room thats fr the only time ive laughed. Theres a lot of rly dark topics also treated very lightly, including when it comes to Mayuri??? Esp his treatment of Nemu. As far as ive seen!!! The storyline has an interesting end in the manga tho and like it seems more thoughtful but ive yet to see that. But the treatment of Nemu as a prop to show how awful Mayuri is and to also be fanservice rly. It frusturates me. Theres so much like, interesting stuff you could do w her character. Again tho im at ep like 180 so maybe there will be!!!! For the good tho Tite Kubo has just. Theeee most incredible eye for character design in my eyes hes so fuckinh good its ridiculous. Even a lot of the side characters are mega memorable and its no wonder a lot of thr characters are absolutely iconic. Also the show definetly gets better the beginninh is just so. Slow. As u can prolly pick up from my earlier notes there are a couple characters that i fuxking loooove aside from Mayuri. As for mayuri he is fuckinh viile and they make some gross jokes abt him too but he is so. Ill b real hes just sexy and also transformation coded so. Literally childhood fave chinhands emoji idc. There also are some great interactions between characters!!! Thr main characters rly care abt eachothef and are so devoted 2 taking care of eachother and i think thats lovely. They can be cranky and mean but theyre always worried for eachother and rwady to help and i think thats just so sweet i like that dynamic. Sorry i di have more to say abt the show as u can see i have some big big emotions abt it and i care abt iy sm but it also often frusturates me deeply a lot of tje time. Its a show you endure. Thank god it jas a dub bc i am watcjing it while knitting / drawing etc.

#Ask #Anon #Im sorry this is so mean but i do genuinely love this show and thats why its fallpits rly suck extra much #If i didnt like it. Well id still wagch it for mayuri but yk. Id be way quieter about it. #And just say it sucks dont watch it #But i fucking love it its a strained love tho esp bc of the constant fucking freak ass jokes sTOP