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#i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts
saeshiraw
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tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry
#tw rant
#studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not
#its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels
#so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday
#i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me
#n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone
#yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my
#friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep
#of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle
#but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today
#i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts
#and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics
#just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people
#im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier
#im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk
#and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know
#but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac
#h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe
#ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch
#people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and
#seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want
#are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to
#spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was
#i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next
#“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes
#me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good
#but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im
#intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout
#but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one?
#the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone
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