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hellisharchive · 3 months

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Heyoooo! You probably know me from messaging you but I wanted to ask if you could write a Vox x Fem!reader where reader just takes care of a really wasted but infatuated Vox?

My Queen

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▏C/TW! ▬ 18+, drunk Vox, jealous reader, fluff fluff fluff, bathing

▏C/TW! ▬ Literally wrote this at 2 am and got done at 3 am, so not beta read <3 TYSM for the request! I hope you enjoy it!. AGAIN HOW THE FUCK DID I ACCIDENTLY POST THIS THIS WAS A DRAFT. I dont like how this turned out tbh

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You and Vox were close, but you wouldn't dare say that you two were dating. You did have a small crush on him and was scared that confessing would ruin your fiendship. Little did you know he also had a crush on you as well, it was just unfortunate he was letting his business and brand take importance over his personal life. You were an honorary Vee and his best friend. Sure, Velvette and Valentino were his friends too, but you always got jealous as you watched Val and Vox act in such a romantic way with each other all the time. You always suspected that they were a thing, and even if they didn't have a label, you respected it. So, you always kept your feelings hidden deep down

. But you did need a break, it got so tiring having to watch and hear them act all cute and making sexual advances from the time to time. You've been ignoring Vox for at least two weeks, probably not the best choice but your emotions got the better of you. But tonight, you decided to get out of the tower and have some fun. You went to a pretty well known nightclub- not owned by Vox, a rare occurrence- to let off some steam. Your goal was to get laid by the end of the night with a convenientially attractive stranger, but life doesn't always work out as you want.

Yet, when Vel called you as you were about to get on the dancefloor with a hot bull, you dropped everything to take care of the television that was drowning his sorrows in alcohol. According to her, he kept talking about how he wished he could tell you something and how beautiful you were. You mulled over it as you walked back through the tower in your fancy nightclub dress just an hour earlier. While on your way there, you came across Velvette who looked very pissed off and scrolling through phone in the main living area of the personal living quarters. When she saw you, she flipped you off and rolled your eyes.

"Fucking finally! Vox has been throwing a hissy fit waiting for his queen to come and shut him up. Fuck you for taking so long, he's called me twenty fucking times asking where you were bevause he forgot he changed your contact info!" That was all she said before growling and walking away, signalling that you were going to handle this yourself like normal. You never let what Vel says get to you, that's just how she normally is. But he changed your contact info? What to? You've calmed down a drunken Vox many times before, but this time seemed bad.

"Vox?" You knock and call out before opening his door to find a very wasted man laying on his couch, hiccuping and looking incredibly sad. He was slumped over with a wine bottle in his hand, no wine glass, and the red liquid was spilled all over himself. Wine? Really? He got drunk on wine out of his entire collection? He's usually a fun drunk, cracking jokes and overall being the most funny in the room from the out of pocket shit he says. So seeing him so down makes you feel guilty for ignoring him. But as soon as he looked at you, his face lit up and a smile immediately popped up. He dropped the glass and stood up, trying to rush up to you. However, because he was so inebriated, he started to stumble, which caused you to rush up and catch him from his shoulders.

"My Queen! Where did you go? I missed you my sweet!" The comment about Vel calling you his "queen" you just passed off as Vel being Vel, but now he was calling that you too? Maybe playing into this fantasy would be best, drunk people are never rational and don't know what they're even saying.

"Well my king, I had a very important meeting with another kingdom to attend to. But you requested my presence immediately!" You spoke matter-of-fact as you navigated him to the bathroom, it was hard already with him being unable to properly walk, but he also kept staring at you, so he stepped over his own feet countless times.

"Hehehe...I like when you call me that. YOUR king. I'm your king! How lucky am I?" He giggled and that made your heart beat faster. How lucky was he? What was he talking about? Maybe this was just his drunk self talking, you knew he didn't feel that way, he absolutely had a thing for Val, not you. Gulping, you finally manage to drag him to the bathroom where you sat him on the toilet. He would be so sticky with all that wine that soaked through his clothes, so you were going to bathe him. Sure, getting him in and out his going to be a challenge, but you still cared for this man a lot and wanted the best for him.

"I'm getting you your pjs, do not move ok?" You started to leave the bathroom when he whined loudly, making a swipe for your wrist but missed as he looked at you with puppy eyes. Due to his television screen head, his facial expressions can get extremely animated, unlike normal sinners. His eyes basically took up his entire screen, only leaving a little bit of space for a pout. The sight made your heart ache.

"Don't leave again my lovely queen! I need to tell you something!" Sighing, you gave him a soft smile and walked back up to him. Picking up his hand, you put your other hand on top of his and gave him the most softest smile you muster..

"It is bedtime, my king, you must be bathed before heading to our bed. You can tell me once we retire" Our bed. Saying it made your heart do flips.

"Oookkk my beautiful queen! Hehehe you're so pretty..." He had a dopey smile as you walked away, heart hammering so loud it should have been echoing in the room. He thought you were pretty? Fuck- why does he made you feel this way? You knew that look too, it was a look of complete love. He certainly couldn't love you though, that has to be impossible. He was with Val, he had to be. Going on autopilot, you gather up his favorite pyjamas and mentally prepare yourself for going back into the flames. When you get back, he was still sitting on the toilet, giggling and staring ahead as he was talking to himself about how in love with him he was.

What?

He was drunk, he was drunk, he was drunk- why couldn't you even entertain the idea of him returning your feelings? Why was it so hard to accept that fact? Taking a deep breath, you walk into the room and he lights up again.

"My queen! Are thou ready to bathe me? You got my favorite pjs! And you have an amazing ass! There's a reason why I married you!" Freezing once again, you ignoring his comment about your ass in luei of the last thing he said. Married...you? Did Vox think you two married each other? The thought made you shiver and face warm with how amazing that sounded. Being officially tied to him forever, waking up with him together, and getting to love him forever. Standing up after finishing setting the dials to the right temperature, you looked at him and now needed to know more.

"And why else did you marry me my dear?" Battting your eyelashes with the most innocent face you could gather, you started to stip him of his clothes. You've seen him naked a handful of times which always made you incredibly flustered, but undressing him? It made you nervous, especially with how he's acting towards you.

"You're the beeeeest, like, THE best! You're so pretty and gorgeous and have SUCH a hot bod! But you're so so sweet and amazing and help me with everything!" Did he...did he actually love you? Was whatever he was doing with Val was nothing? Shakily manging to get him completely undressed, you stood him up to maneuver him into the large tub. Not trusting yourself to say anything more, you gently lay him down in the perfectly warm water and start lathering him up. You also never bathed him before, so your nerves were going to overdrive. He took your silence and silenced himself too, maybe he somehow knew you were really anxious right now. Taking great care in not getting water on his head, you see as his face turned from a happy one, to a somber one.

The rest of the process of getting him out, drying him off, changing into his pjs, and moving him to his bed was deadly quiet. You felt like you would be breaking some unsaid rule. Tucking him into bed, you left a glass of water and painkillers on his nightstand, turning off the big light and turning on the lamp. Sitting down next to his curled up body, you rubbed his back and felt conflicted. He's drunk as balls. He probably won't remember any of this. Getting up and saying goodnight, he yells for you one last time.

"I'm sorry, I don't know what I did wrong but I'm sorry. Is it Val? We aren't anything serious. I was too scared to tell you because you're so beautiful and I didn't want you to leave me. I love you" Vox looked down at his lap with a sullen expression. Heart hurting for the countless time today, you gave him a kiss on his screen and turned away with a smile

"Tell me when you're sober"

#vox #vox x reader #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel x reader #hazbin hotel vox x reader

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luvtak · 7 months

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here, there, and everywhere ✦ lee felix

✦ pairing felix x gn!reader

✦ genre/tw angst, fluff, hurt-comfort, jealousy, a little bit of tears lol, two people so in love it's disgusting and perfect, pet names galore, kissing, obnoxious attempts at being poetic, being in love is complicated and sad and also simple and wonderful!

✦ w/c 1234

✦ a/n ginger write something other than hurt-comfort challenge failed. i wrote half of this with no motivation three weeks ago and the rest in an hour, i hope you like it LMAO! reader and felix were written as the same couple from baby i'm yours, but you don't need to have read it to understand this at all!! as always named after one of my favorite songs, its so easy to write for felix, he really is a love song come to life<33

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Sometimes you wonder if Felix know’s how precious he is; sweet and soft-hearted; void of any ill intent or toxicity, a boy oozing love.

He’s a wonderful son, a charming brother, and an even better friend–syrupy sweet and unbelievably likable to anyone who comes into contact with him, and most of the time that's a blessing, but it can also be a curse.

Of course he’s stunning and lovely, and rationally you know you shouldn’t be upset. That girl at the restaurant meant nothing by looking at him, meant nothing by smiling and definitely was not hitting on him when she asked if you were his partner. At least that’s what he says, vehemently denying and believing that this stranger had no ill-intent, but you know better. From the minute she blinked her pretty eyes at him, you knew she was flirting, and nothing could convince you otherwise. Not your boyfriend's warmth pressing into yours or the moonlit smiles he sent your way, nothing.

You can tell it’s making him sad, this quiet, jealous version of you. You wish you could stop it just to ease his concern, but the green poison is sitting deep in your belly, and you’re positive if you open your mouth nothing good will come from it.

He’s so lovely and you hate that other people can tell. Your love has always been so private, so deep and true it could only be described as intimate. Sometimes, you forget that he exists outside of his place next to you, forget that other people can see him and fawn over his heaven made features.

“I love you, you know.” His voice is shaky, nerves surrounding his every move. You hate to hurt him; hate second guessing every word he says and every glance he’s given to pretty waitresses, but sometimes quiet love is harsh. Sometimes the intimacy of love behind closed doors creates gaps for someone to pass through, and on nights where your trust ebbs, you really wish your love was loud.

You wish you could show it to others, tell anyone who could be listening how much you loved him, but you can’t. Maybe at first it was his job, but slowly, over time you had to learn that loving Felix had to be tender–his heart had to be held like a flower, too tight and you’ll crush the petals. It’s why it feels so wrong to be jealous, he would never do anything to hurt you; physically and emotionally, he would keep you safe.

When you arrived home, sulky and pouting and praying to any god who would listen to you, please, please take these thoughts away, Felix looked at you and knew it was time to intervene. Pressing you close to his heart and rubbing slow circles on your back.

“I know, I love you too.”

“No, I mean it, baby. I love you.” He enunciates the words, emphasizing his point with three kisses on your brow. You relish in his affection, it comes so easy to him… for Felix love is simple, it’s blowing out candles and mornings spent sharing heat, buying warm gloves and letting you hog the covers. Felix was made to love, grew up cherished and treasured and now he treats his people the same.

Mostly, he was made to love you as quietly or as loudly as you wanted him too–he could be your sun, scorching and bright and all encompassing, or he could be your moon: big and beautiful and comforting.

You know he loves you, and hearing him say it doesn’t release the green monster from your belly, but it does remind you how lucky you are that this star boy chose you.

Your shaky arms tighten around his torso and the fast beat of his heart releases the tears waiting at your waterline. Something about his honest truth breaking and mending your heart all at once.

“I’m sorry, Lixie, I wish I could love you as good as you love me… you’re everything, maybe if you were less I could talk about it more, but it’s true I love you so much.” The tears are fast now, racing down your cheeks like raindrops on a window, and you think he’s crying too. All ten of his fingers are clutching at you, holding onto you for dear life and you don’t think he’ll ever let go… god please don’t let him ever let go.

“I’m not going anywhere, my love, I promised a forever didn’t I?” you could never forget the memory, his pinky wrapped around yours and crossing his heart that he’d stay. He’s an earnest boy, as honest as they make them, and he’s never broken a pinky swear.

In many ways it makes you sad that one pretty girl made you feel like this, you can be insecure and unsure of many things, but never of him. It wasn’t the flirting or her twinkly eyes, it was her confidence in appreciating him: outloud and undeniable. Even after loving him so deeply for so long, you’ve found it difficult to scream it from the rooftops. Instead, you pack his lunch and make sure his hot cocoa won’t burn his tongue, you kiss him three times for luck, and you're always the first to praise him. No, you could never yell it out, but you’ve wished for him everyday and if he thinks it’s enough then it is.

“Don’t worry about random girls, honey, my love isn’t fragile.” He says it with a fluorescent smile, so beautiful and so him that little by little it calms the wasps in your brain.

“I’m sorry, I was being silly. You’re just too pretty, I’m sick of other people being able to see you.” Through his tears, the star studded boy laughs–a big, body shaking laugh that takes you with it. Giggles through kisses and teeth clashing, too tight hugs that steal all the air out of your lungs and passing it back to him.

This is love, quiet or loud, this is it–sharing breath and smiles and knowing he’s yours.

You used to think people couldn’t belong to each other, but Felix’s heart is tied right to yours–chambers interlaced and arteries working together to keep you alive. Every bit of you is caged up with him, locked in tight together; dead-bolted and keys thrown away. You care for him quietly, but everything about your heart is loud–beating for him, faster and faster each day you share together.

Releasing you from his hold and looking right into your heart-shaped eyes, he tells you not to be sorry; you’re too pretty to be sorry, baby and you know he’s making it better–Another kiss cure to mend the broken day. Soft smooches pressed all over your laughing face and down the side of your neck, a million ways to say thank you.

When he releases you, he’ll be as bright as the sun–he’ll nurse your heart back to health and tuck you in tight under the covers. Humming sweet songs and hoping you have sweet dreams, three kisses goodnight for each year you’ve spent together.

Tomorrow, he’ll tease and joke and love you endlessly, his devotion is as blaring as yours is hushed; changing your life with a wave of his hand and reminding you everyday that to love is to make magic–wishing on every constellation atop his nose that forever comes quick.

#skz fluff #skz angst #felix x reader #skz imagines #skz x reader #felix fluff #felix angst #stray kids #stray kids x reader #stray kids scenarios #felix #skz #lee felix #skz felix #✧ drabble

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animeyanderelover · 1 year

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Hello, hi! This is my second request so I’m sorry if this is too much! If it’s is then please ignore this or the other one or both!

May I please request for Yandere of your choice with a reader who really likes their Yandere behavior? Of course minus the killing and hurting others part.

Thank you! And please take care of yourself.

I’ll do my best to take care of myself!

Tw: Yandere themes, unhealthy mindset, unhealthy relationship, possessive behavior, obsession, delusions, stalking, clinginess, paranoia, jealousy

S/o likes their Yandere behavior

Sohma Shigure

🐕Behind his light-hearted facade, Shigure is quite hyper-aware of his own obsession but is quite literally feeling nonchalant about it. Because he doesn't like getting hurt though, he's very possessive of his darling and is always somehow involved in their daily life. Also, he loves teasing you at times since it's entertaining if he can push your buttons enough to make you a bit mad, although it's still very much an asshole move. Shigure is even more of an asshole to anyone who is threatening to take the biggest place in your heart. He's a petty man despite his sometimes insightful moments and can feel quite bitter if he notices that you're very close to someone, closer than to him. He always manages to test the limit of such a person too, only that he is far more cruel than he'd be usually. He's just mean and manipulative.

🐕 He's sort of amused that you still like his behavior for the most part even if you do mention to him that you don't appreciate him being mean and trying to break apart precious bonds you have with others. Shigure expected something else but he's satisfied that you still love him. It saves him trouble that might have come his way otherwise. He likes to tease you for being a weirdo though because you actually enjoy his possessive and more clingy attitude although in a more loving way. He can't help his sometimes more shitty attitude though by testing the waters with you. He just wants to know how far he can go until you get mad, with how much he can get away. For the most part he still acts laid-back and silly but he's more genuine with all of his feelings and hides things less from you.

Roy Mustang

🔥 Roy is a charismatic and charming man for his darling but it's all really just a mask so he can hide something he often finds himself deeply ashamed about. His own possessive and obsessive infatuation. He feels so often embarrassed and guilty for his own emotions but also knows from previous tries that it doesn't do his sanity good if he tries to distance himself from you. Roy at least manages to come over as a normal lover for the most part, he has composure. In moments of weakness he cracks though and that partially rules in his trauma regarding the Ishval Civil War and the death of his dear friend. Moments of insecurity where he turns more possessive, jealous and needy. Moments where you feel his hands heating up as his temper flares up.

🔥 He's shocked when he finds out that you actually enjoy it when he gets more possessive and wants you around him when he feels insecure all the time. He expected you to react the exact opposite if you'd ever suspect that he's actually quite obsessed and is unable to come up with something good to say the first few moments. He doesn't even know how he should feel for a while. A rational part of him thinks it's wrong for you to enjoy this all even if you at least say that killing others is still wrong and he shouldn't do it. On the other hand he loathes that another part of him is relieved and even glad. He sort of tiptoes around you, observes you as if not believing you. He refuses to use your willingness yet you find him clinging to you whenever he's hit with his paranoid insecurity and wants reassurance.

Takasugi Shinsuke

❤️‍🩹 Takasugi Shinsuke is a mess when it comes to his feelings. He's driven by his anger and guilt and has set his mind to destroy the world since it took what was most important to him. He's already slightly deranged and knows it but the new feelings blossoming inside his chest worsen that even more. He didn't expect to love someone, never wanted it either since he already had a goal he wanted to achieve. Your appearance confuses him, another wish which should be forbidden for someone like him pollutes his thoughts. The man hates you, you ruin his plan and he wants to reject you but longs for you deep down. He stalks you, watches you, is possessive enough to kill anyone who might be your potential partner even if he himself rejects the idea of a relationship himself.

❤️‍🩹 At one point he nearly loses it though, the chaotic storm of feelings inside of him leading to an abduction. He's quite aloof and cold to you, expects you to hate and fear him and even wants it. Yet apparently he isn't the insane one, you are. He is unable to understand why you like his behavior and him, tries to ignore the way a part of his heart flutters out of happiness. He stares at you with a unreadable face, analyzes you in silent hopes to find out that you lie, that you fear him. You seek him out, he avoids you. He can't love but you make it hard for the irrational emotions of his who just want you. Takasugi, for the lack of knowledge how to handle your genuine affection, resorts to show you the worst and ugliest part of him so you stop tugging at his heartstrings. He can't even make sense of himself right now, torn apart between revenge and new desire.

Integra Hellsing

🚬 Integra has this domineering and intimidating aura around her that demands respect and she knows that this might scare others a bit. Integra herself is lucid about her own feelings but what is as admirable as fearsome about her is that she handles her obsession with her normal controlled ease. She goes about it in the ususal business-like manner but doesn't allow her darling much choices in the end. Alucard likes to tease his master for his obsession but luckily her temper doesn't flare up that easily. As a partner Integra is strict and controlling though and due to her showing rarely any emotional reactions, she comes over as rather detached and cold at times. She's still very protective which is shown with her willingness to punish or even kill anyone who dares to attack and harm you.

🚬 Besides shock Sir Hellsing is genuinely impressed that you actually saw through her. Her servant Alucard is one of very few people who is able to see behind her composed and firm walls so to think that you were able to do the same is a small shock for her. There is a small part of amusement too when she hears how you find her behavior actually some sort of attractive even if you firmly stand against her killing others because of you. She keeps her coolness though and just sits down with you, interested how she gave herself away to you. It's probably sort of mind-blowing for an observer to hear and see how she spends an entire hour discussing and negotiating with you regarding her obsession and what you two will do from now on. Integra keeps her word though as long as you keep yours.

Kikyo

🏹 Her resurrection has given Kikyo certain freedoms she didn't have during the time when she was the guardian of the Sacred Jewel. She is allowed to hate now, to have negative emotions and that is some sort of relief for her even if she knows that such emotions can lead to terrible actions. Kikyo allows herself to be openly more selfish though and that is strongly shown with her obsession she has with her darling. Apparently with a new life came a new love for her too, far more intense than what she felt for Inuyasha. She stays in the place where you live for a while, you get to know her and she you too, additional stalking helping her even more. There comes the time where she has to leave though and she's selfish enough to force you to tag along. She knows that it's wrong and feels partially guilty yet is too tired to be selfless again.

🏹 She thought that you'd despise her, make things more difficult yet apparently you've gained feelings for her too and are happy to follow her. Your reaction flusters her a bit as she is not prepared for this. Yet Kikyo accepts your own feelings without quarreling with herself much. She feels a great sense of relief and joy that you reciprocate her love despite her somewhat apathetic act at times. She finds her fondness for you only deepening, reassures you that she won't harm people if they haven't done anything wrong. Sure, she still keeps an eye on you for a while to just go the extra mile to be safe but after that she gives you a lot of freedom. You're allowed to explore a bit without her although she insists that you still stay close enough so that you'd be able to hear her if she calls for you since Kikyo is very protective and given her past slightly paranoid.

Zenin Maki

💚 Maki represses her emotions mostly in order to maintain her tough and cold attitude but that doesn't mean that she dislikes you even if it sometimes comes over that way. It's rather that Maki is somewhat in disbelief that she is as romantically obsessed as she is with you. Her life revolves around becoming a strong sorcerer and humiliating her entire clan via that. Maki is almost a bit hyper-aware when around you although you don't catch her fleeting and subtle glances at first. The woman is strict and as tough as usual though with a good hint of a more possessive side at times. She won't be your knight in shining armor and expects you to be able to fend for yourself, even if you're just a normal human. Messing with her darling is never a good idea though because she's serious and won't hold back if someone clearly wrongs you.

💚 You manage to elicit a rather surprised and flabbergasted expression from her when she realizes that not only have you discovered her rather obsessive feelings but also came to like the way it influences her actions. Maki is not stupid, she knows that she's in the wrong with her feelings and struggles at times still with it. She's as straightforward with her words as ever though, deeming it to be useless to deny your words. You're too sure of yourself. She questions you about your weird liking for her obsession, you sense a hint of distrust from her. She still hasn't bought your words completely yet, it's not what she expected to hear from you. She's worried that others might notice too so she tries to cool her behavior down although she eventually relaxes more around you when she believes that you told the truth. She still tells you that you're weird for liking this albeit with a slightly amused grin.

Tomoe

🦊 Tomoe speaks badly about his darling the entire time but it's merely a way to distract himself from his own attraction. He's in utter disbelief and rejects the idea that he, a fox yokai, has fallen in love with a mere human. They're weak and mortal so why? Why does he feel this strong need to protect you? He's big in stalking at the beginning, a silent shadow who watches you. Surely he'd feel disgusted if he'd see how fragile and annoying this human really is. Nothing like that happens though, it only worsens Tomoe's addiction. An abduction is bound to happen since there is a certain paranoia Tomoe feels. Mikage already left him, he doesn't want to let you leave him too. He's very possessive and jealous too, not hesitant to scare or harm anyone who harms you or is too close to you.

🦊 Tomoe can pretend as much as he wants, deep down he longs to be loved and accepted by his darling which is why their confession catches him off guard. He's paranoid though since Mikage left him despite promising to be back soon so he doesn't believe you, experience has taught him so. He might even accuse you angrily of lying to him as a way to use him. Why would you love him despite him having kidnapped you? A part of him wants to believe you but he's too distrusting. You notice him being around you more often, his gaze never leaving you. He observes, searches for any signs that you lie but can't find any. It needs a lot of time and proof from you that you like him though before he slowly opens up and mellows out. He starts doting on you openly when he knows that you're genuine and wants at the same time more affection from your side.

Jacaerys Velaryon

He probably doesn't come over as someone potentially dangerous because Jacaerys is a big sweetheart for his darling. Even a blind person would see that he loves his darling to the moon and back, constantly singing praises about them in front of his family and spoiling them with whatever they wish. Jace isn't thinking rationally, his infatuation sort of keeps him from being completely aware about his own obsession. That doesn't mean that he has those silent moments where he kind of considers if his love can really be seen as completely harmless. Jacaerys experiences darker thoughts at times which sometimes startles him when he catches himself in the middle of it. It's important to keep in mind that he's highly protective and only truly caring to those he loves. Not to mention that he's more possessive than he lets on.

He orientates himself strongly after his darling though so it's a bad thing when he finds out that you adore his behavior. Sure, you're not too fond when he uses his position and influence to scare other potential pursuers away but you know that he loves you just a lot. The moment he knows that is the moment he pretty much abandons any doubt he had in the past about his attitude. He makes you happy with him if he acts that way apparently and that's all Jace wants and needs to know. If he knows that intimidating and threatening others upsets you, he tries to cool that part of him down but he will never stop being more aggressive if someone says or even looks at you the wrong way. His behavior around you intensifies since he knows that you like it though so he dotes on you even more than before.

Rokudo Mukuro

🌫️ This guy is disgustingly possessive over his darling and everything but tame. Mukuro is rather apathetic too which only means that he doesn't really care if he hurts others or even has to kill someone if it ensures that you stay with him. He even threatens and intimidates his own darling if it helps them to stay in line. He's less involved though as he is often away and takes care of something he never tells you about. You're either left under supervision of Chikusa, Ken and Chrome or are completely alone. Chances to run are tempting but that's what he wants to test in such scenarios. If you stay, he praises you for being obedient and smart and if you try to escape, he tracks you down an crushes your hopes by displaying the huge gap in power and skill between you two. Mukuro does care but he doesn't show it very openly.

🌫️ He wouldn't have minded your fear as long as you would have obeyed either but he's pleased to know that you actually like his behavior. He doesn't question why you do though because he knows that the average sane person would despise and fear him. Apparently you are another strange one but he doesn't really mind. It just means that everything will go smooth since you'll obey without throwing a tantrum. Mukuro decides to believe you too since he's confident in his ability to read you so he just sort of knows that you didn't lie to him when answering his question since he noticed. He doesn't exactly let you of the hook easier, still keeps you locked up and more isolated but he lets his more affectionate side show a bit here and there. Terms of endearment or the occasional soft caress of his hands when he isn't away.

Chae Yul

💜 Chae Yul is the complete package, the worst mix of everything. He’s extremely possessive, obsessive, trigger-happy, jealous and terribly clingy and needy. He’s incredibly attached to his darling to an unhealthy degree and relies solely on them for his emotional support. He rejects anyone else, isolates himself since you’re the only one he wants to spend time with. He’s a red flag, toxic enough to guilt-trip his darling whenever he feels like they reject him or is paranoid enough to think that they might plan to leave him. Yul can spend every waking second with you and attempts to do exactly that since he gets anxious when he isn’t with you. He’s the tamest when he is alone with you and isn’t scary to everyone who tries to get in between you two. Worst is that Yul tends to see everyone as villains who wants to separate him from you.

💜 He’s never viewed his excessive infatuation with you as wrong and despite the wrongness of it, you find it almost endearing. You make him aware of it too although you tell him that you don’t want him to threaten everyone who does as much as greeting you, he doesn’t have to act so overly jealous and possessive. Honestly, it’s probably best if his darling likes Yul’s behavior because otherwise he’d be insufferable. He doesn’t attempt to change much though although he tears up when you express your disappointment in him for acting so overly aggressive and frightening to others around you. He hates it, it makes him feel paranoid. So he opts to keep you most of the time in his apartment where he doesn’t have to worry about others. A perfect solution, wouldn’t you agree? Just let him stay like this forever, cuddled up in your arms.

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neptuni6n · 2 years

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✧ ꒱ 𓂃 ༘ ☕️ 𓍼 𓈒 ♡̶ 🫓

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☾ ⋮ 𝑃𝐸𝑅𝑆𝑂𝑁𝐴 𝐶𝐻𝐴𝑅𝑇 𝑂𝐵𝑆𝐸𝑅𝑉𝐴𝑇𝐼𝑂𝑁𝑆

ೄྀ࿐ as promised, here are some observations i was able to make on persona charts ! persona charts are probably my favourite charts in astrology since they are extremely accurate and they give you a deeper insight about your natal placements. remember that this is just based on what i’ve seen so these are not necessarily facts ! oh and here’s my new aesthetic, hope you like it! ningning the loml. 🫶🏻

༺♡︎༻ scorpio rising in the venus persona chart might approach love and their love interests in a very obsessive, alluring, magnetic and passionate way. if they have a crush on someone, they might be extremely jealous towards them, even if they’re not together. they tend to have some scorpio venus traits.

༺♡︎༻ mars in the 1st house in the fama asteroid (408) persona chart could indicate being famous for your sex appeal and venus in the 1st house in the fama (408) persona chart for your beauty/charm.

ೄྀ࿐ also for being famous for your sex appeal : mars in the 10th house in your medium coeli (mc) persona chart.

༺♡︎༻ ok that might just be my opinion but i believe that your moon sign in your moon persona chart is much more accurate than your natal moon sign. ex: i’m a natal 29° pisces moon which i never really felt fit well but i have an aries moon in my moon persona chart and i have several aries moon traits. i used to think that my birth time was inaccurate (i still think so by the way).

༺♡︎༻ close-minded people tend to have mercury square/opp. saturn aspects in their imum coeli (ic) persona chart. they may have been raised (for example) in a racist or even homophobic environment. they may have probably been taught to think this way from an early age.

༺♡︎༻ capricorn rising in the mars persona chart could indicate being seen as not interested in sexual themes (even asexual) or extremely serious and reserved about your sexual life.

ೄྀ࿐ and those with capricorn rising in their mars persona chart tend to be very cold and ruthless when angry or frustrated.

༺♡︎༻ your ascendant in the ascendant persona chart tend to be more accurate about your physical appearance and even your personality. ex: sagittarius rising in the ascendant persona chart could indicate someone with thick thighs and an optimistic personality. another ex: aries rising in the ascendant persona chart could indicate being very fiery and passionate.

༺♡︎༻ cancer mars in the mars persona chart might indicate someone who cries and/or isolate themselves from everyone when angry.

༺♡︎༻ if you have pisces in the 11th house in the ascendant persona chart, your friends might see you as a dreamy, compassionate and funny person. probably sensitive too. you might give your friends a lot of love.

༺♡︎༻ moon in the 12th house in the mercury persona chart might indicate someone who’s more rational rather than emotional. they think first, emotional respond is second.

༺♡︎༻ venus-ascendant aspects in the medium coeli (mc) persona chart could indicate your reputation is associated with beauty, fashion or aesthetic. you could be seen as very charming and talented.

༺♡︎༻ mars in the 1st house in your moon persona chart might indicate that your first emotional respond to something is anger. probably that people irritate you very easily and you just can’t but yell at them. my mom has this and her anger issues are terrible lmao.

༺♡︎༻ jupiter in the 11th house or uranus-midheaven aspects in your jupiter persona chart could indicate having a lot of luck on internet and your social medias ! ex: you could gain followers very easily.

༺♡︎༻ moon-pluto aspects (esp. conjunct) in the actor asteroid (12238) persona chart could indicate being an incredibly intense actor. someone with these aspects might have superior acting skills, their emotions and pain can be so fascinating.

༺♡︎༻ basically everyone tends to fantasize (in a sexual and sometimes inappropriate way) about natives with neptune in the 1st house in the mars persona chart. these people tend to have insane body features too !

༺♡︎༻ mercury conjunct mars or mars square pluto in the imum coeli (ic) persona chart is so toxic.. always arguing with your family for every single thing. it’s complicated to maintain a conversation without yelling at the end.

༺♡︎༻ leo moon in the ascendant persona chart might indicate someone being seen as very dramatic when an emotion invades them (sadness, anger, fears,..) they may do “too much” sometimes. they may have already been told something like “it’s really not that deep” and stuff.

༺♡︎༻ you’ll never catch someone with moon conjunct saturn (or uranus ?) in their ascendant persona chart crying/showing too much of their emotional side. they’re always seen as logical and rational even if they’re not. and they’re super mature and sweet too!

ೄྀ࿐ the same goes for natives with saturn in the 1st house in their moon persona chart. these people absolutely hate crying infront of others. they have the impression that it’s a part of themselves they should never show to others, for fear of being taken for weak.

༺♡︎༻ gemini venus in the ascendant persona chart could indicate being complimented on the car you have very often, it’s one of the things about you that people can quickly notice.

༺♡︎༻ saturn in the 12th house in the neptune persona chart could indicate your intuition and spiritual abilities being stronger as more as you grow.

༺♡︎༻ mars-jupiter aspects in the mars / ascendant persona chart are just so great at physical activities ! they are always on the move and have insane reflexes. these people tend to gain muscle easily.

༺♡︎༻ cancer in the 11th house in the moon persona chart could indicate motherly, nurturing, kind and supportive friends are what you need to feel emotionally secure. your 11th home in this personality chart clearly indicates the type of people who could provide you with the greatest emotional help.

༺♡︎༻ the venus and mars signs in the lilith persona chart could indicate the type of people that sexually attract you. if you have a capricorn venus and/or mars, you’re sexually attracted to serious, goal-oriented, work-alcoholic and fatherly people.

ೄྀ࿐ but since this is the venus sign in your LILITH persona chart, this could definitely be the type of people you shouldn’t go for.

༺♡︎༻ capricorn midheaven / mc, saturn 10th house or saturn conjunct mc in the medium coeli (mc) persona chart could indicate working in the same place for years or retire lately. these people are typically work-alcoholic.

༺♡︎༻ jupiter in the 1st house in the mercury persona chart have such an abundance of knowledge! it’s like they perfectly know every damn thing about anything. they basically can outsmart anyone.

༺♡︎༻ aries mercury in the ascendant persona chart could indicate being seen as someone with strong opinions. could be really difficult to make them change their mind. very strong mental energy and love to learn on their own.

༺♡︎༻ again, natives with venus in their 1st house in the neptune persona chart could be idealized af (even sexualized). people tend to dream about them and wish a relationship with these natives so bad but will never ask them out.

༺♡︎༻ natives with taurus in their 2nd house in the moon persona chart lowkey have the sweetest moms out there.. so soft spoken and calm. they probably even buy you pretty things often, it’s like their love language towards you.

༺♡︎༻ venus in the 1st house in the lilith persona chart are attractive as hell. they’re beauty is so hot and irresistible. they have a sexy charm. this placement is a 10/10.

༺♡︎༻ aquarius or uranus in the 7th house in the venus persona chart mostly fall in love with their friends and they will probably never crush on you if they don’t considered you as their friend in the first place.

༺♡︎༻ jupiter square saturn in the mars persona chart could indicate being a procrastinator or very lazy. nevertheless, they tend to have a lot of ambitions and a big dream of glory but they constantly think they will never succeed.

༺♡︎༻ natives with moon in the 12th house in the imum coeli (ic) persona chart could be secretive with their families. i wouldn’t be surprised if they reveal almost nothing of them to their families.

༺♡︎༻ pluto conjunct venus in the pluto persona chart could indicate loving doing black magic while pluto conjunct midheaven in the pluto persona chart could indicate being famous for doing black magic.

༺♡︎༻ pluto in the 1st house in the mercury persona chart really do sound passionate when they talk about something/someone they love. they don’t even talk much but when they do, it’s almost always about something or someone they care about.

ೄྀ࿐ pluto in the 1st house in the mercury persona chart tend to be very sarcastic. they can sometimes appear hurtful in the way they communicate with others.

༺♡︎༻ moon-saturn aspects, especially the harsher ones, in the mercury persona chart have a hard time expressing their feelings. they simply can't put words on their emotions and it frusters them a lot, especially when they want to communicate about it.

༺♡︎༻ aquarius mars in the moon persona chart could indicate being really cold-hearted and distant when angry. they will intentionally ghost you and if you have the misfortune to approach, their anger will be terrible.

༺♡︎༻ an 8th house stellium in the neptune persona chart could indicate doing horrible nightmares (maybe even every night) and having sleep disorders. it’s a very hard stellium to bear in the neptune persona chart.

༺♡︎༻ the venus sign in your chiron persona chart can show how you can heal your partner/loved ones. if you have a taurus venus, in your chiron persona chart, you could heal your partner by buying them gifts or by cooking them something.

༺♡︎༻ asteroid fortuna (19) in the medium coeli (mc) persona chart placed in the 2nd house or 11th house could indicate being extremely fortunate. the same goes for fortuna-venus/jupiter aspects (especially conjunct.)

༺♡︎༻ aries in the 11th house in the moon/venus persona chart could indicate you have more male friends rather than female friends.

༺♡︎༻ a lot of conjunctions between your planets in the ascendant persona chart could indicate having a strong personality and presence wherever you go.

☾ ⋮ 𝑃𝐿𝑈𝑇𝑂 𝑃𝐸𝑅𝑆𝑂𝑁𝐴 𝐶𝐻𝐴𝑅𝑇

༺♡︎༻ TRIGGER WARNING: death. the signs, aspects, degrees.. in your pluto persona chart can tell you more about your death and how it might be.

ೄྀ࿐ if you have mars-pluto aspects, especially the harsher ones, in your pluto persona chart could indicate dying brutally, painfully or very quickly.

ೄྀ࿐ libra or venus in the 8th house in your pluto persona chart could indicate having a ‘peaceful’ death. or, at least, not as brutal as the one above but check every other placements!

this post took me a crazy amount of time to make and it's quite long. i wanted it to be perfect and it is exactly how it is, sooo i’m really proud. don’t hesitate to give me your opinion and tell me if you want a part.2!

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sleepingdeath-light · 1 year

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s/o who is jealous of willow hcs ; hunter

requested by ; anonymous (30/04/23)

fandom(s) ; the owl house

fandom masterlist(s) ; main | hunter-only

character(s) ; hunter wittebane

outline ; “hii! Can I request a hunter x reader where reader gets jealous and kinda insecure about hunter's relationship with willow? Like, the reader would be really trying to hide it, bc they know willow is a very close friend of hunter, but he notices it anyway 🥺

maybe a bit angsty?

also i just wanna say that you are my favorite hunter x reader writer omg ♥️♥️ luv u”

warning(s) ; angst, jealousy, comfort

you knew that it wasn’t rational, you knew that they were just friends — and you knew how important that was because he had so few support systems in his life — but knowing that didn’t change anything

not all feelings are rational, and feelings don’t need to be rational to exist

and exist your jealousy did

a gnawing parasite that buried itself in your innards and twisted deeper and deeper whenever she made him smile or blush — a stabbing pain like a dagger or some other jagged blade

a cold flush like iced water being poured over you every time he laughed at one of your jokes

the necrotic, bloody wound that spread and spilled its puss in the form of the scowl threatening to pull downwards on the edges of your lips every time she touched his arm

a disease, an infection, an infestation

so very wrong and irrational

but you couldn’t help it, couldn’t cure it, couldn’t rid yourself of it

something didn’t need to make sense for it to hurt — didn’t even need to be intentional

and you knew it wasn’t intentional

titan, no! hunter would never even dream of hurting you and willow was so lovely that she wouldn’t consider it for a second

which only made you feel worse

made you withdraw more from the group, from your relationship, as you tried to put on a facade of being okay

but he noticed

of course he noticed

and he confronted you in the privacy of your home — told you that he knew what was wrong

he knew about your feelings when it came to willow, he’d noticed — but she hadn’t (thank goodness) — but you still felt horrible because this was the exact thing you were trying to avoid

and you feel like you’re going to cry as you fall over yourself to apologise for feeling so jealous and being so stupid about it and not being able to stop

and he stops you, silences you and pulls you into a hug as he lets you cry it out

he’s rocking back and forth and soothing you and shushing you as he lets you calm down, slowly letting you know how he stood on the whole thing

and he’s so understanding because he’s hunter so of course he is, and he’s murmuring promises and reassurances against the crown of your head as he soothes you

he says he understands, that there’s nothing wrong with how you’re feeling and that it’s not your fault

that you can’t control your feelings but you can control your reaction to them and he’s so proud of you for how you were dealing with your jealousy

but that he wishes you’d have come to him to talk about it sooner rather than trying to hide them

that you’re partners and it’s important that you trust each other to have these conversations so you can tackle these things as a team

he reaffirms that he and willow are just friends (which you knew) and when you pull away to look at him he makes you promise to talk about things like this with him first rather than just trying to hide away

and you agree

and you kiss

and everything is back on track to being somewhat normal

because now you’re a team and you’re going to kick your jealousy in the ass

#sleepingdeath #gender neutral reader #toh x reader #toh angst #angst #angst hcs #the owl house angst #the owl house x reader #hunter toh x reader #toh hunter x reader #hunter wittebane x reader #the owl house fluff #toh fluff #fluff #fluff hcs

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witchthewriter · 2 years

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𝐁𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝟏𝟎𝟎 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐁𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐦𝐲 𝐁𝐥𝐚𝐤𝐞'𝐬 𝐬/𝐨 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐥𝐮𝐝𝐞

⤷ gender neutral, ambiguous race, and any size reader. Requests are open, thank you for reading!

ᴹᵃˢᵗᵉʳˡᶤˢᵗ

ENTJ

Gryffindor

Chaotic Neutral

Sagittarius Sun, Capricorn Moon, Scorpio Rising

SFW🌿

⭑ Sent down to earth with the rest of the group, only for a petty crime of trying to feed your sick mother. You had stolen someone else’s rations and a fight broke out.

⭑ Being in the ship’s cell had hardened you somewhat, but you were able to talk to Clarke who was next door to you.

⭑ The day you landed on earth, was the day that everything changed.

⭑ You were no longer safe.

⭑ And so you stood behind those with loud mouths and bravado. John Murphy was the best option, and soon Bellamy was the camp leader.

⭑ You didn’t like the others on earth, but you did take a liking to Clarke, Octavia, Wells, Jasper, and Monty.

⭑ Slowly you became part of Clarke’s crew -

⭑ And Bellamy seemed like such a big arch-nemesis at the time

⭑ But over time you learned to trust each other, because you had no other choice. And when you saw that changed in Bellamy, something in you shifted.

⭑ As a significant other, Bellamy is very protective but also very caring.

⭑ He wants to make sure that you feel comfortable and safe at all times.

⭑ He can get a bit jealous, but not overly. He isn’t possessive either.

⭑ Bellamy loves cuddling. And he’s very good to cuddle as well. There’s no greater feeling than having his arms wrapped around you. Nowhere else do you feel this safe.

⭑ Before doing anything dangerous, Bellamy cups your face in his hands and rubs his lips over your lips. And like a promise, he tells you he loves you and kisses you so deeply.

⭑ When you’re alone together, you talk about the future and what you want. If you want kids, where you’d want to live etc. If you think of something midday, you’ll try and find each other to add it to the list. E.g., “I want a flower garden” or “I changed my mind I want to live by a lake” etc.

⭑ He always makes sure that you’ve eaten, and if you’re hungry he’ll get you whatever you want (or whatever is closest to it).

⭑ You share a room/tent (I mean it changes doesn’t it!) And he has minimal possessions, I mean everyone does now. But you have your little knick-knacks that you’ve created, little gifts from friends.

⭑ The moment Bellamy fell fully in love with you, was when you had found a few of his favourite books.

⭑ He doesn’t mind PDA. Bellamy will wait for you to sit next to him so he can hold you against his chest.

⭑ He would really appreciate you listening to him when he opens up. Not a lot of people know a lot about Bellamy’s interests, hobbies, likes, and dislikes.

⭑ He would want to marry you, or if that wasn’t possible, he would want to commit to you as much as possible.

⭑ You do worry about him a lot. It’s in his nature to protect, defend and lead. He raised Octavia, so it’s ingrained in him to be the first to react and step up.

⭑ He gets surprised when you remember things about him. Especially memories and other people in his life that are long gone

⭑ Bellamy teaches you skills, he doesn’t want you to have to rely on anyone.

⭑ Doesn’t like it when other people look at you with lust in their eyes. He will move closer to you, but not be too obvious

Theme Song:

‘Davy Jones’ by Fia Oradd

Relationship Tropes:

Snarky Power Couple That Can, And Probably Will, Destroy You

Moon (mysterious, night-person, creative, introverted) (Bellamy) x Eclipse (has so much worth but doesn’t see it, initially closed-off but has the biggest heart) (You)

Rivals to Acquaintances to Friends to Lovers

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brujaluas · 2 years

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ALL ABOUT YOUR FUTURE SPOUSE - TAROT READING

CHOOSE YOUR FAVORITE FRIDA KAHLO

Disclaimer: Don't blame me for maybe not listening to something you'd like to hear, I just say what the cards show me, english is not my first language so there may be spelling mistakes, I'm sorry

Pile 1

His future is in a very delicate situation, I see who are very flawed as you can see, he presents financial stability, and this shows a good professional position that he conquered and this ended up making people seeing him with so much envy even the people closest to him don't like his success side, I see a stormy side in his life, where he doesn't know what to do, because he has a great bond with his emotional side, he don´t use often your rational side. He's a mature person, doesn't like fights and may be older than you. I can also see that he is very affectionate but doesn't know how to show it very well, he looks like a cold person but is very soft hearted. lots of male energy. He probably has problems at home, doesn't get along with a family member (maybe a male figure) who constantly disapproves of him and is very hard on him. Big problems in sight but it will come out of this and be fine You will meet him when he start to know how to deal with the afflicts now, I see that he is going hand in hand with you and, you will be great partners. you are at the moment, you are getting to know each other when he moves to another city, will meet by chance, but it was fate. Make him see who is true in your life because there is falsehood from all sides around him and don't fall into provocations because before he met you, he was more naive but you instructed him to see things clearly, don't be too jealous and unprotected from envy.

i started this reading and felt a very good smell in the air. wow, he really has a lot to say.

Pile 2

I see that you will meet they in something new, it could be a co-worker, a new college colleague, or a neighbor, a new colleague of your friend, is a person with a free spirit and adventurous, detached , may be younger that you, you feel that this person has not had a troubled term in they life and I feel that have one person in they life that does not accept you, or it may be from the family that is very much against the relationship, can be a ex too. I see that things will develop quickly, you and they will get engaged or live together in months, I would say that in less than a year you guys will live together or getting married, I see misfortunes and immaturity on both sides but they will know how to deal with these adversities because have a lot love each other very much, I see you and they will grow financially together, you are the his adventure partner and I see him becoming more committed to things after meeting you. much, much, much love.

It was a fast read because this person's energy is like "I don't have time for this but I love you, hope to meet you soon, take care and feel my big kiss" hahaha a fun person I would say. They can be earth sign, you can open a business together, this person can be a foreigner and you can also meet they in a trip.

Pile 3

This person knows how to live life in a good way, knows how to be kind to himself and will teach you that. You can be the same age or close age, and that person will be very romantic, you know those fairy tales where a gentleman with a white horse comes to save you? because your person is exactly like that, I see you receiving flowers, being pampered, traveling together and happy with great harmony. He can give you good news, but I feel like he needs to work some area in their lives to evolve together in the relationship, he need to let something go, and you, well I have GREAT advice: be careful with someone in your life, big cruelty coming from that person , it could be someone in your family, learn to defend yourself, know that you need to love yourself and you don't deserve to be treated like trash, you deserve more, end this toxic relationship that you have with or never show this person about your life, if you don't do that, all the beautiful relationship you have with your future spouse will end, I also see him being very protective with you, probably, my little roxinol, have a lot problems in your life too, but now it's time to be happy, love yourself first to love him later, don't worry, your love will wait for you.

#tarotcommunity #divination #tarot reading #free tarot #tarot deck #pick a pile #pick a card reading #pick a card #pac reading #pick a picture #pick a pile reading #tarot cards #tarot reader #intuitive #witchy things

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hoedamn-eron · 2 years

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doctor steven grant, phd - part 6

You confront Steven over what Jake said to you, and you don't know what to do.

Warnings: Age gap, but it is appropriate/legal. Steven may be a little OOC. Inaccurate depictions of DID (only knowledge from the show and some light research). Angsty. Word count: 1,472 GN!Reader, no use of Y/N.

This is actually on time, and my second shortest chapter so far, and is possibly my least favourite (I felt like my writing could have been better). This is also the second to last part of my story, Doctor Steven Grant, PhD.

Part 5 ● Series Masterlist ● Part 7

Jake’s words replayed like a broken record in your mind. You’d barely slept, wondering if he was right and if Steven didn’t think anything serious could happen with you in the long run, so it was best to end it. You’d finally nodded off around 4am, only for your alarm to go off for work a few hours later. You felt like you’d been hit by a bus.

You’d gone about your day as best as you could. You’d decided not to respond to your friend’s texts about your dinner with Steven, since she didn’t know about your interaction with Jake. Work went by quicker than you would have liked it too, and you soon found yourself stood outside Steven’s flat, knocking on his door like a robot.

And you hadn’t stopped staring at him since you walked in, only this time, it wasn’t for the usual reason of being incredibly good looking (which he was, of course). You’d been there for about an hour, and Steven had told you about what you were both having for dinner (mushroom ragu and pasta) and how he’d bought a really nice red wine to go with it. He seemed normal, and maybe you thought Jake hadn’t said anything to him about your conversation yesterday; but still, you were watching him for any odd behaviour.

He was acting normal.

“And so Sam, you know Sam?” Steven asked, motioning to the mushrooms sat on the counter as he stirred the sauce that was in the pot on the stove. “Are you able to chop those up for me, love?”

You hesitated for a moment before giving him a hum of confirmation, standing next to him as you lay the chopping board in front of you. You opened the packet of mushrooms as Steven continued his story about his student, Sam, a first-year university student who, when drunk the weekend before, had snuck into the Natural History Museum because a custodian had left a door unlocked. Sam was found sleeping under the animatronic T-Rex.

“The museum, of course, didn’t want to press charges. After all, nothing was damaged or stolen, so he got off lucky, I think.”

“Yeah, definitely.”

“You all right?”

You don’t know why but the question takes you by surprise. You stop chopping the mushrooms as your eyes widen when you look at Steven, who is now looking at you with a furrowed brow, concern written on his face as he abandoned the sauce on the stove to look at you. You give him a quick nod, and a closed lipped smile. “Yeah. I’m fine.”

“You sure? You’ve been oddly quiet.” Oh, so he had noticed. “Do you want to talk about it?”

You really didn’t. You had tried not to think about Jake’s hurtful words to you, but they had been on your mind. Did Steven see a future with you? Was this evening to let you down gently, that you’d both had fun but now was the time to end it? Do you beat him to it, and end it before he can? He’d already broken your heart once, you can’t let him do it again. If he was honestly thinking about ending it, then it shouldn’t bother him if you ended it first.

Or maybe you shouldn’t take his brother seriously. Maybe Jake was just a jealous human being with no consideration for any other person other than himself. The rational side of your brain was telling you to just talk to Steven about it but you were still feeling a little bitter.

You clear your throat, trying to come across as nonchalant as you turned back to chopping the mushrooms. “I met your brother yesterday.”

Steven’s head snapped to you so quickly, you were surprised he didn’t give himself whiplash. You glanced at him as you continued to keep chopping, trying to look casual despite your thoughts running a million miles an hour. Steven’s breathing was a little laboured and he had paled, his eyes wide as they stared at you. “Which one?” Steven asked, his voice nervous.

Your brow furrowed at him. “What do you mean, ‘which one’?”

Steven gulped. “I haven’t…mentioned both brothers, have I?”

“No,” you say, pausing your chopping and placing the knife down a little more forcefully than you meant to. You turned to Steven, confused, trying to keep the venom from your voice. “You haven’t mentioned two brothers.”

Steven wavered, turning to the stove quickly to turn the stove down, bringing the sauce to a simmer. You could hear the gears turning in his brain, and you knew he was trying to get his own thoughts together before talking to you. “I just…we don’t get along – “

“You keep saying that, but why are you so secretive about it?” you ask. “Like he seemed to know quite a lot about me but I knew nothing about him, I even thought it was you at first – “

“Which one did you meet?” Steven interrupted you.

“Jake!” you cried.

“Oh…bollocks.” Steven let out a frustrated groan, running a hand through his hair as he looked at you desperately. “You can’t take anything he said seriously, he’s…he’s a prick, yeah? He’s just…just doing what he was doing to piss me off – “

“So you haven’t – “ you stop yourself, gritting your teeth in annoyance before carrying on. “You’re great, Steven, really, but there’s always something about you that seems a little closed off. I didn’t say anything because we were finally going out and everything was going well, but…you haven’t asked me to be your partner.”

Steven stared at you with a helpless look on his face. “Pardon?”

“Jake mentioned that our…relationship…had an ‘expiry date’ and that’s why you hadn’t asked me to be with you officially. Was he just talking out of his arse or was he telling the truth? Are you going to end it?”

Steven gawked at you, his face one of someone at a loss. What had Jake said to you? Why were he and Marc suddenly so quiet? He could understand why Jake would have an aversion to you, but Marc? Marc knew how fond he was of you, why wouldn’t Marc say anything, or stop him?

You take Steven’s silence as an answer to your question. Your eyes widened at him, your hand coming to cover your gaping mouth in shock. “Oh God.”

“No!” said Steven, his own eyes widening. “No, no, no – “

“I have to go.” You startgathering your things quickly, not being able to look at him anymore, focusing on trying to get out as quickly as you could.

“No, love, please, let me just – “

You opened his front door a little more violently than you’d intended as you turned to face him, your eyes still averted to the floor. “Please just give me some space for a few days.”

You didn’t give him the chance to reply as you turned and left, forgoing the lift to his building, and taking the stairs, trying to get out of there as quick as you can so you could have a break down by yourself. You make it to your tube station before you feeling the tears escape your eyes. You wrap your arms around yourself, trying to feel some sort of grounding as you tried to hold the tears in. Nobody wants to be around the crying person on the tube.

You made it to your flat before you let yourself go. You let the sobs out, crying loudly. You could feel your heart caving in your chest, feeling silly about being in this position again. You’d fallen hard for Steven Grant and you didn’t know what to do. You couldn’t put yourself forward if the other person didn’t see a future with you. You felt like everything was going so well for you, and now you were unsure about everything.

You got yourself ready for bed, intending to have an early night and self-indulge in terrible take away pizza and ice cream. You settled yourself on the couch, a mountain of pillows and blankets surrounding you as you wait for your pizza to arrive. You settled on a terrible, low budget horror film on the Syfy channel, anything to keep your mind off of romance. The horror film still didn’t stop you from crying.

Your phone was mostly quiet for the evening, and that was good enough for you. You knew your friend wouldn’t contact you until the next day, wanting to know an update on how your evening with Steven went, and although you could tell her what had happened just hours before, you could still feel your breathing hitch with a fresh batch of tears. But a text coming through close to midnight had broken you, causing you to turn your phone off.

I’m sorry.

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Omg thanks hahah. No worries it’s not a request or anything. Just ranting and asking your opinion because you write chishiya so beautifully 😩 and it’s no fun to share random blurts that I had about this man with my rlfriends who couldn’t appreciate his existence.

I have been thinking about Chishiya with a popular s/o. Do you think Chishiya will mind? I think he would be annoyed because he prefer to be in the shadow and doesn’t like people to know about his business. But I can also see him as perfect candidate as a famous person’s boyfriend ya know? Like that man will not be bothered at all if you got scandalous dating rumours or working with attractive costar. He is pretty secure with himself.

So yeah I’m stuck here with my plot. Which do you think Chishiya would value more. Will having no privacy be his deal breaker?

Im looking forward to hear your thoughts! 🫶 you are one of my favourite Chishiya’s writer and I trust your opinion

OMG THANK YOU! not you saying you trust my opinion🥺

rant under the cut!

i think chishiya as a famous person's bf has its pros and cons? he is definitely a very private person, so he wouldn't mind signing an NDA and keeping everything a secret/private

at the same time, i wonder if he would think it's too problematic/too much of a headache? i can definitely see him being put off by the paparazzi 🤔

i think he might need some convincing, but he could consider dating a famous person, especially if it means he can have benefits, such as private and avant-première viewings. i headcanon manga chishiya as secretly enjoying art galleries bcs art is subjective and he won't feel weird for not understanding a painting exactly as the next person does

netflix chishiya is portrayed as having more empathy, so depending on which version of canon you prefer, he will be more or less a good boyfriend for a celebrity. ofc, i don't really see manga chishiya as trying to date anyway. at least not before the borderlands🤷‍♀️

if his s/o is a normal person, but just popular in general, he would definitely be smug about it still. he would also find it interesting how so many people crowd around a person who isn't even famous, just because they are nice or funny. he would definitely choose to hang out with s/o's friends just to observe the interactions (i think this gave me some ideas for trtc omg)

also, if the celebrity!s/o has dating rumours or good-looking co-stars, i agree that he wouldn't be bothered by it. he is too rational to let jealousy get the best of him fr.

i imagine it more like, he is on the sofa, scrolling on his phone. celebrity!s/o is sitting next to him. an article pops up on his phone.

y/n l/n rumoured to be dating co-star. then some pictures of them together laughing in close distance.

chishiya looks over to you, an eyebrow raised, and reads the title out loud. "there are some interesting pictures too," he muses.

when you turn to look at him, you see his lips quirked up in amusement and his shoulders relaxed.

"it's just a rumour," you say the obvious. "we started doing the promo for the newest season and have to act close. he asked to meet you, by the way. if you want to come on set one day, you could. or we can go out for drinks."

chishiya turns back to his phone, wondering if coming on set and dealing with the paparazzi is really worth it.

"we'll see," is all he says, then he scrolls down. he's never cared about the rumours anyway. he knows that at the end of the day, he is the only one in your mind.

he is so secure, i don't see him getting jealous too often. maybe if there is something else going on with the rumours, like s/o not having time for him anymore, or them not answering his texts? then, i see him acting petty for a short while before telling s/o about it. i don't think he would sit them down, he would just be asshole-y and cold about it

anywayyy this is only what i headcanon

this was so fun!!

#chishiya imagine #chishiya headcanons #chishiya alice in borderland #chishiya shuntaro #anon <3

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SWEEETHEARTT HAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIヾ( ˃ᴗ˂ )◞ • *✰

Literally SO excited to participate you can't even imagine.

Ok ok so, it took me two days to send in the request finally but I was busy writing mine and then I needed a few hours and accidentally got into a hole of astrology but here I am

So I would like a 1- stellar union and 5- Venus aesthetic (with the person you match me up with)

So I am an ENTP 3w2 my sun is Scorpio my moon is aquarius and my rising is Taurus. (Idk much about the other things it's way too hard to understand for my stupid ass)

I'm very hobbyless since I pretty much suck at everything, but I do like writing, and art, very basic I know I know but yk.

Anyways onto personality!

Input from my friend - sometimes passive aggressive, seems confident but actually shy, charming

Personality-

Its hard to say honestly so I'll just start with random stuff and see where it takes

I consider myself a very jealous person, and not the cute jealousy over someone flirting with my partner type of jealousy, but the kind where you get jealous over the smallest things, like crying when someone is better than you, being jealous over a pet, and to the point jealousy caused a lot of my friendships to break, i would say im better with it now, ate last I pretend to be happy for someone.

I am very sensitive, I cry whenever I feel any strong emotion, it doesn't matter if it's like happiness,sadness anger etc, and also I cry very easily if someone with authority yells at me like teachers, parents,bosses etc.

I would consider myself sometimes mean to people that try to use me, but I am different with my friends and people that are nice to me. I like taking lead in group works and generally in friendships too like I plan hangouts etc etc.

I would consider myself an ambivert but a bit of an extrovert lean, since I do like hanging out with people and, for example, I can't watch movies by myself yet I love it when Im watching it with my friends, but I still need time to recharge sometimes as an introverted aspect.

I kin characters like - scaramouche, furina, topaz (from hsr) . . .

I would consider myself a hopeless romantic, even though I have never had any crushes/interest in real people (only fictional). I say I have high standards but would fold at the slightest show of affection

My love laungauges are

Gift giving (receiving and giving)

Physical touch (receiving and giving)

My type of lover I'd desire would be someone who can actually put in the effort to make the relationship fun since I can get bored easily (so a person like alhaitham would make me go insane), someone who could make the first move because I am terrified of rejection, someone who can meet my love languages since I really like physical affection and a lot of people don't like being touched so..

My favourite colours are pink and white, so I would consider my aesthetic softcore-ish? Idk

My favourite characters are-

Lyney 🔛🔝

Ei (not raiden, ei)

Nahida

Furina

Aa sorry if it's too much or if i didn't provide enough good descriptions TvT

Don't overwork yourself, eat good, drink water and have an INCREADIBLE day (๑˃́ꇴ˂̀๑)

1] STELLAR UNION ! ░ you get along the best with ...

KAZUHA !

—kazuha admires people who do not feel the need to express themselves to grab attention. perhaps it's because many of the people he is close to are like that, but whatever may the reason be, he would find you interesting. he would think that you have a great personality that is well balanced and rounded, with equal measures of rationality and detachment. not to say he appreciates your overly emotional nature, but he does find you endearing because of it. he could feel the need to protect you and fight for you and would make sure he doesn't hurt you accidentally.

—he wouldn't mind your possessiveness and would find it cute even. he wouldn't even have eyes for anyone else honestly, so there's no question of jealousy rising in the first place. you would very well find him boring to be around in the start, but when you both get comfortable enough with each other, he just knows how to entertain and amuse others. he is spontaneous when he has placed his trust in someone and would love to be your partner in crime. he would be just as good at covering up for the two of you! being versatile, he would give you the control and go with the flow when you're in a good mood and tend to you when you're upset. he would love to teach you about music and would genuinely love it if it piques your curiosity and you get into it, as well.

AYATO !

—ayato enjoys the company of charming people. not to say that's a mandatory trait to have to make him admire someone, but there's something about a charming gesture that has his gears running. he likes playing mind games and enjoys there's related to that, so if you're clever and manage to do it back, then congrats, yoh have piques his curiosity; and if you can't, then congrats too, because he's going to swoon over your innocence and purity. he is the type of person to like getting to know someone inside out, so once he decides that you're a good person by heart, he's going to be very caring and gentle with you.

—he likes his share of fun too, so being with him when he is free is no less than playing a game of snakes and ladders—you never know what may happen; when he is going to tackle you, crack a joke or take you out for a walk. he enjoys random displays of affection and he makes sure to show it graciously. he would even enjoy being quiet in your presence, just calmly sipping tea or reading a book. whatever it may lead to, all you need to know is that when yoy are under his watch, no harm will be allowed to come your way. he may take your jealousy with a bit of salt though, perhaps that can be something to speak to him about.

YOIMIYA !

—yoimiya loves friendly and extroverted people! given, she likes befriending almost everyone, but even then, when she sees your warm and fun side, she's going to consider you as someone close to her heart. she would love it so much when you would be genuine and honest with her. she would like to be close with you and would enjoy doing creative things with you such as pottery, art, music etc. since you don't seemingly have many interests she would try to get you into something that she loves!

—closeness with her would feel like returning home to a mother or a loving sibling. she would be concerned about you and would guide you if you ever feel lost. she would want to know about your everything and in return she would tell you everything about herself. she would enjoy vulnerability in ypur company and would like to be with you often. again though, jealousy wouldn't sit well with her because she is very naturally friendly and bright and she would try to make you understand that everyone has a life! nothing to worry about though, relationships often bring necessary transformations within us after all, and yoimiya is more than willing to help her loved ones through anything and everything.

5] VENUS AESTHETIC ! ░ your moodboard with kazuha ...

hi! this was fun :) you take care of yourself too <3 i'm always willing to help you out with astrology though!

#genshin impact #genshin #genshin imagines #genshin x reader #event #anon <3

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Anon wrote: Hi, I’m an INFP dating an ISTP in a long-distance relationship. We’re both 21 and have been dating for about 3 years. But I have a problem with our relationship that I don’t know how to fix. We’re really attached to each other and spend as much time as possible together, although I am definitely the clingier one most of the time (he has his moments too).

I find myself getting really defensive and on guard whenever he acts more “neutral” to me or makes “logical” observations… I know it’s stupid, but I start taking everything offensively when he’s not overtly affectionate or lovey-dovey with me, which I know rationally isn’t proper, but in the moment I can’t help but get emotional over nothing, and I kind of feel myself being destructive but struggle to resolve it anyways. I’m surprised he tolerates me, I’m sure it’s incredibly annoying, and sometimes even his reassurance isn’t enough for me because it feels shallow or like he’s just saying what I want to say since he usually isn’t very elaborate about his feelings or moods.

I guess it kind of scares me that I can’t read him, even though he’ll say there’s nothing to read… I can’t help but assume he’s against me or doesn’t like me or something in the moment if he’s not flirty or affectionate, when he’s probably just being his normal self. I also get stupidly jealous when he hangs out with his friends, although he usually tells me he misses me when we can’t spend time together or talk and that he’d rather be with me.

I think it’s because compared to him I lack a social life… most of my friends aren’t close to me anymore and don’t really care about me in my opinion, so I rarely see them. All I do is go to college, and I don’t have any real friends there either, and I still live with my parents who can be toxic and overbearing. So I really only have him, and it’s just hard. But I don’t like the direction my mentality is going, and I don’t want to get worse, so I guess I’m asking for some advice or steps I can take to improve myself and feel more secure in my relationship.

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The more dependent you are on something, the more you will fear losing it, which often leads to desperate or overbearing behavior. As a general rule, you shouldn't depend on only one person to fulfill all of your emotional needs. By doing this, you turn love into a burden for your romantic partner. While they may be willing to shoulder the burden, it isn't fair to them, and it sucks all the fun out of the relationship. How can dominant Fi be healthy and feel at peace when you're behaving in a way that is exploitative?

You've already pointed out a major aspect of the problem: you don't have any other social and emotional supports in your life. If you're in college, it means you're an adult, but you aren't properly nurturing adult independence. Independence doesn't mean you have to do everything alone, rather, it means you have to take the initiative to get the things you need and want in life. Independent people take matters into their own hands and don't waste time with waiting around, self-pity, or wishful thinking.

For example, you could put more effort into building yourself a social support network as well as engaging in activities outside of your romantic relationship. Many introverts struggle with this. You don't have to be the life of the party or a social butterfly to build a social support network. A small handful of carefully chosen friends should suffice. Join clubs or group activities. Observe some good friend candidates and take the initiative to strike up a relationship with them. If it works out, great. If it doesn't work out as expected, oh well, simply move on to the next person.

Remember that once you leave school and enter the workforce, it becomes much more difficult to make new friends. College is an ideal time to make friends because there's much more opportunity to meet like-minded people. Knowing more people in college can open more doors for you personally and professionally. Don't waste the opportunities right in front of you. This will require you to develop auxiliary Ne and entertain a wider range of possibility in your life (see the Type Development Guide). Ne development is also necessary for changing repetitive patterns of behavior, through choosing new and different paths for opening yourself up to the world.

#infp #infp relationships #auxiliary ne #si loop #social skills #socializing #social support network #independence #ask

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This may be weird to ask but I have a new boyfriend who I really like, and he's way more experienced than me and has had a lot more partners and it's kind of intimidating idk. Do you have any tips on how to deal with this?

Hi hi hi. Yeah, I totally understand how you feel lol. I'm not letting this post be reblogged but hopefully it helps people out nonetheless.

First of all, if your boyfriend is making you feel bad or insecure about being less experienced than him or trying to make you jealous by bringing up other girls constantly, dump him ASAP, that's extremely shitty and you don't have to put up with that. But, if this is really about you and your feelings and he's genuinely a good guy, proceed down this answer accordingly.

I'm not a huge fan of casual sex, especially compared to my fellow college-educated 20-something coastal liberals who partied a nonzero amount in college, and I'm a very competitive person by nature. But, I'm not generally jealous about people I date having slept with a lot more people than me (and that's basically every guy I'd want to date at this age lol) because my first serious boyfriend was extremely promiscuous before he met me, and since we broke up and got back together a few times, he also slept with a lot of people in the interim that we weren't together, many of whom I had to interact with socially.

He never cheated on me, and he very intentionally didn't sleep with people I was friends with, but when we were discussing getting back together, I had to grapple with the fact that in the 4 months we were broken up, he slept with a few soccer teams worth of girls, many of whom I was socially acquainted with if not remotely close to, while I was completely celibate. Basically, if I wanted to get back together with him, I could either hold what he did when we weren't together against him and drive myself insane with resentment, or I could accept that we saw sex differently on principle. As someone that's otherwise pretty anti-rule, the converse of my perspective on sex being 100% valid is that other people's are as well, you know?

Basically, I got out of my head and tried to be logical about it. I rationalized that he'd never cheated on me or lied to me, and I trusted him when he told me that he wanted me without overthinking it, which was extremely difficult for me. I took him at his word that he saw sex as meaningful with me because he liked and cared about me and wasn't comparing me to the dozens of other girls. And, even though we eventually broke up, I don't regret it despite all the other issues our relationship had.

(This is also exactly why the people my second serious ex-boyfriend had slept with prior to me made me WAY more jealous because I knew he cared about them. He'd slept with even fewer people than I had when we got together, and ironically, he actually cheated on me while the first guy never did, isn't it funny how life works??)

So, the long-winded answer to this question is that you have to either accept his past for what it is, or you probably have to break up. If you are fundamentally not okay with the fact he's slept with a lot more people than you, which is valid if it's really how you feel, you really can't have a relationship with him. But, if you want to be together and like, build a life together etc. you have to genuinely be okay with it, even if you obviously don't have to be friends with his ex-partners etc. since I think that expectation is insane.

Does that all make sense? Ironically, that first ex-boyfriend and I are now good friends as of this year so I definitely texted him this response to see if it made sense and he said yes lol.

#anonymous #answered #sex cw #I give advice sometimes

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'without thinking about what harm their actions or ideas might cause' so these tags from the post about abuse, I'm a little lost by the ideas part, could you explain a bit more about what can be harmful?

I'll use myself from a time where I was at my worst possible self as an example, because I think it makes a good reference point.

So in the past, I was in a relationship where I was deeply jealous of the friendships my then partner had with other people, because they talked about them a lot, and used language to refer to them that I had associated with romance based on y'know culture and upbringing etc. Now, jealousy isn't actually a morally wrong emotion to feel, nor is it wrong to have anxieties or insecurities about things someone in your life is doing. Like all emotions, they're inherently neutral; the moral failure lies in how you deal with it. In my head, I wanted my partner to stop associating with them, because that would make me feel better.

That's not something you can ask for. It's actually pretty common on abuser warning signs that if someone is trying to get you to stop associating with your loved ones. When you ask someone you're supposed to love to cut out people they love, because it would make you feel better, that's something you do without really thinking about the harm it causes your partner. Those concerns are irrelevant. The abusive party is first and foremost concerned with assuaging their own anxieties and fears, by whatever means would best do that, and if they accomplish that then they're happy. It doesn't occur to them you might be less happy to not have those friends in your life, or that you'd be more alone or more dependent on them. On some level, subconsciously, they might want the latter, but more than likely they're not actively thinking either of those things. They're not thinking in terms of 'how do I make your life worse', they're thinking 'how do I make myself feel better'.

This is what I mean by an idea that is harmful. It's an fix that doesn't consider the other people involved or how it affects them, and is entirely focused on just immediately curbing the emotional response you're having. A lot of this mindset is actually something anyone can have, without being abusive. People when they're stressed or overwhelmed often are not thinking rationally, but are thinking shortsightedly and in extremes about making the stressors go away as soon as possible. This usually results in bad, selfish ideas, and they never come close to addressing the root of the problem. That doesn't inherently make you abusive. That's human. I think it's important we remember this going forward, before we continue talking about abusive people.

Back to the personal example, I didn't ask for this in my relationship. I knew that if you do this, this is just blatant abuse. I did ask for them to stop using that language to refer to them around me (anywhere/everywhere else is fine), and I also asked if I could possibly hear about one of them less. I don't think I was out of bounds on the former; it's a small thing that doesn't involve majorly changing your life or your feelings. However, the latter still feels wrong to me. I can see like now that 1) that didn't address the reason I was anxious and insecure (too long and irrelevant to unpack for this post) and 2) it set up this idea that I don't want to hear about what/who makes them happy because that makes me upset. That's a feeling that causes division and isolation in a relationship, where you either decide not to talk about what you love to keep your partner happy, or you talk about it and then feel responsible when they're not. That's not a position you should put someone you care about in. Your partner is not responsible for managing your emotions. I don't think I should have asked that, and if I was in that position again today, I would not.

But at the time, when I suggested this, none of that was on my brain. I was just thinking about how I wanted to not feel so miserable and insecure anymore, because I was overwhelmed by it. My suggestion didn't come to pass anyway, even after I brought it up, and surprise surprise it turns out that request wasn't the solution, because just trying to dodge things that make you feel anxious doesn't solve the source of why you have this insecurity and lack of esteem.

The action is in how the bad idea is implemented, by force or coercion. While someone who isn't abusive but is handling their feelings like shit might say or do things that put strain on the other person (I'm sure everyone has had unpleasant talks or arguments that were stressful to navigate, and have been on either end), they still care about the other party. They will try, although not effectively (cannot stress this enough the more overwhelmed you are when trying to have the talk the more likely this conversation is gonna be a hot mess), to have an actual discussion and reach a mutual agreement where all parties are okay at the end. The abuser isn't.

To the abusive person, their shitty idea is the only solution, and it must happen, or else you don't really love them. They see anything that isn't complete acquiescence as you wanting them to stay in pain, and so they react as though that's what's happening. Again, they're not thinking about you, or how you feel. It's not on their brains. They are only thinking about their pain, and making it stop, so if you disagree with them, or have any issues with it, they don't see it as you expressing how this affects you, they see it as you trying to invalidate and dismiss their pain, which makes you the bad guy.

This is also why it is common for people to see their abusers make claims they were the real abuse victim, because that is genuinely how they see it. They understand that disregarding someone else's concerns or feelings is abusive, which is what they think you're doing. They can't see that they haven't thought once about you this entire time, or that they're dismissing you. As I said before they aren't thinking about you at all. It's about them, and their feelings, and making those feelings go away, which often involves you doing something.

This is why I think it's bad to think about abusive people as conniving, or as a separate type of person. They're not. They start at the same place everyone else is also capable of, but they navigate those places in a shortsighted and self-centered way throughout. Nothing they do is really about you. You aren't a person to them; you're a means of managing their emotions. They're the only real person with a rich inner life and complicated emotions, and they want to be happy, and you're there to make them happy. An abusive relationship is one-sided because the abusive party does not see their victim as a person with needs or wants, but as a thing that is meant to make them happy, and if its not doing that, it must be fixed. It's dehumanizing.

I used a romantic relationship as an example, but this is the dynamic in any type of abusive relationship. The only changes are in the kinds of unreasonable things they might expect from you to caretake for their feelings. I hope this helped make things clearer.

#hope.txt #its probably a risk to use myself as an example of what i consider to be unhealthy behavior #especially when talking about abuse #it might open me up to people using this admission against me to harass or whatever #but i feel like the value of my doing so is worth more #if i use myself as an example over any other person in my life #no matter how abusive they are #i make it clear that abuse is not something 'other people' do #it is something you are always capable of #it's something i'm capable of #even now with a lot more self awareness of my trauma and how it leads to my maladaptive behaviors #toxicity is something everyone (even YOU) are capable of

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The List- Moonchild

Things have been getting progressively better over the last year. I went on a trip to New Hampshire with my close friends which ultimately was magical and changed my life. After that trip, I made a lot of changes with the hope of improving my mental state. For the most part it has worked. I started taking anti-depressants to help my anxiety and depression. (I feel like i’ve been in a weird state of higher forms of depression and then lower lows of my depression but never actually being happy.) I’m still on the meds along with adderall now. I finally feel like a normal human being. I have my confidence back for the most part, and my life it seems like. Covid is ending, life is beginning again. My dad is okay. I’m closer than ever to my family. My job finally got new owners and I’m so excited for it. Life over all is pretty great.

I still have difficulty with relationships though. The biggest symptom of my PTSD that I struggle with besides my general anxiety, is my deep rooted thought that I am unlovable. If you ask me if I think I am an unlovable person, I would respond with, “Of course not”. The rationality of my mind and the way it’s been wired for many years often clash and it is very exhausting. I think that I like myself as a person, but do I really love myself? And if I don’t, why don’t I? I always feel as if I could be a better person, a better daughter, sister, friend, environmental-friendly person. But I am human, and these are not reasons to not love myself. I deserve love, even in my darkest moments. I deserved love as a child punching holes in my wall because I felt out of control with my life and felt like a prisoner emotionally and physically. I deserved love when I thought I was going to lay a hand on my mother, or when I’ve cursed at her. I’ve deserved love when I’ve hurt people I care about that didn’t deserve it. I deserved love my entire life because all I’ve done was to survive and I’ve always tried to be better. I am always striving to be better. I am always striving to be smarter, and more self aware. That is much more than what most of humanity will ever do, and yet, with all of this reasoning, when I find someone that I fall in love with immensely, I find the quickest escape root at any sight of danger. I’m afraid they’ve seen me for who I am. Needy, jealous, possessive, scared, anxious, high strung, wild, uncontrollable. I have dark thoughts. I fantasize about killing my step father, his family, making them understand everything he did to me as a child, everything he did to my family. I want to thank him for all of the good he’s turned me into for just existing in my life, because I never want to be anything like him. Other times, I just think of how unfair it was to grow up the way that I did. In those moments though, I’m happy I was wild and uncontrollable. I lived my life even though I was a prisoner in my own home and I made the best of it. I snuck out, I threw a party, I stayed out passed my curfew, I was a good kid and never got into anything bad but I experienced life as much as I wanted to.

As dark as my thoughts can be, I always do look at the bright side of everything. I see the light in people always, and I always look at things in a positive way even when I’ve been very depressed.

I began dating someone that made me really question if he was possibly the one or not. I’ve thought this 2 times before. My sister once told me that her first date with her husband, she knew that he was the one. I’ve always wanted to be that sure but I’ve never trusted or liked anyone enough the first time I meet them. There is always something about them that makes me weary, or I’m not attracted to them enough. Clint was different in the way that he is very similar to me in so many ways. Sometimes he truly feels like the male version of me. He’s empathetic, caring, does cute things for me, equally as needy and loving. I also understand his trauma probably more than he realizes. I get his anger, his calmness, his fear of confrontation. I’m not afraid of it. I just feel like I get him, and I understand him. I know that even in his worst moments, he’s trying his best. I think that’s why I care about him so much. But, I have to be honest with myself. I’m not sure I love him. I’ve told him I love him. Saying goodbye to him was extremely difficult, more than it has been before with many people. Truth is, he might have been a good match and I’ve had a lot of fun with him but I wasn’t always sure about him. I don’t know how it works though. Do people really just find “the one” and they’re sure about them? With some people is it just a gradual climb until you finally trust that person wholly? Do some people remain single forever because they just simply do not try hard enough? Am I not trying hard enough? Or do I just have more boundaries than most other people? I’m not desperate to be with someone. I truly would rather be alone than have a failed marriage or relationship. Most people would rather just get married and move along the “ladder of life”. I’m just not that person.

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Fic: A Woman Scorned - Part 17

Pairing: Billy Russo x Reader

Rating: R for language and smut.

Words: ~3300 words.

Summary: You’ve been sleeping with Billy Russo for a few months now. Knowing his aversion to emotional commitments, you’re satisfied with your clandestine arrangement until you catch him having dinner with Dinah Madani one night. Then it finally dawns on you. It’s not that he doesn’t want to commit, he just doesn’t want to commit to *you*.

Billy may think he knows you, but he has no idea what he’s just lost…

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10 Part 11 Part 12 Part 13 Part 14 Part 15 Part 16

Part 17

Billy couldn’t stop gawking at you, wondering how it was possible you grew more beautiful each time he saw you. The red wrap dress you were wearing accentuated all your curves, and it took every bit of willpower he had not to rip it off of you and fuck you senseless right then and there. Unfortunately, he had to behave himself. Caravan was a pretty bouji place that had recently been labelled as one of the hottest restaurants in Manhattan and he had to pull a few strings to get a last-minute reservation for tonight. But seeing the smile on your face when you realized this was where you were dining had been completely worth all the hassle.

As the hostess guided the two of you to your table, he noticed a few assholes at the bar admiring you from afar. Immediately he snaked his arm around your waist to draw you in closer. You were his. If he could he’d pluck out every one of those fuckers’ eyes so they never made the mistake of looking at you again. Better yet, he’d keep you locked behind closed doors. Of course you wouldn’t agree to anything like that because you were too goddamn independent for your own good.

“What’s wrong?” you asked, taking a seat at your designated table.

Billy’s attention returned to your face as he followed suit, his gaze inhaling you in. “You look too hot. Too many assholes staring at you,” he grumbled.

The worried look on your face was replaced with a beaming smile, one that made his cock twitch.

“You’re being ridiculous” you remarked, scanning the menu.

His eyes drifted down to your chest, the swell of your soft, supple breasts just begging to be kissed and licked by him.

“Stop staring at my boobs, Billy,” you chastised even as a small smile graced your lips. “This is a proper first date. You can’t just ogle me like that. You have to behave like a gentleman.”

He quirked his eyebrow. “Sweetheart, I’ve never been that.”

“Well, try,” you ordered.

The waitress came by with the bottle of red wine you’d requested and poured some in both of your glasses. He noticed the redhead giving him a friendly smile, her green eyes lingering on him for a second too long. Fine, yeah, she may have been hot but she wasn’t you. No one was. So while he would have happily slipped her his number in the past, now the idea of being with someone who wasn’t you no longer excited him.

Once she left, he took the opportunity to move a few inches closer to you. What he really wanted was to get on his knees and bury his head between your legs, but something told him eating you out in in the crowded restaurant wouldn’t go over very well with you.

“I think she likes you.”

Hand propped on the back of your chair, he started playing with your hair. “Who?”

“Our waitress. She didn’t look at me once, her eyes were on you the entire time.”

He leaned in, ecstatic at the thought of you acting possessive. Even though you’d confessed to having feelings for him, Billy still worried you were ready to bolt at any moment. To see you jealous meant you genuinely cared and he didn’t have to worry about you leaving him. “She’s not my type. I have my eyes on someone else.”

You made a show of looking around the restaurant. “Oh, is Madani here too?”

“Funny,” he retorted, taking your hand in his.

“Your ginger’s lucky. I’m dressed way too nice or I’d take my knife and stab her with it.”

He smirked. “You’re vicious when you’re jealous.”

“I’m not jealous. I just don’t like bad service.”

“Bullshit.”

“Billy, you’re hot. You know that. All the women here are checking you out. If I freaked out every time someone did that, I’d have a breakdown.”

He wanted to destroy the fucking world at the thought of someone even looking at you but apparently you were simply ambivalent about him. “So it’s that easy for you? Your brain tells you to turn off a feeling and your heart just does it?” Even to his own ears he sounded bitter. “Guess you’re not all that invested in me.”

Your eyebrow quirked up, apparently surprised by his edgy tone. “Do you want me to go nuts?”

“Just want you to give a damn.”

“You think I don’t?” you snapped. “Every time she looks at you I want to tear her hair out. Even though the rational part of me knows she’s probably just flirting with you because it’s part of her job or she’s hoping for big tips. Or maybe she really does want to fuck you. Either way, I want to punch her across the face. Happy?” You gulped down your wine.

Grinning, he squeezed your hand. “Then why not just tell me that? Why act like you don’t care?”

The agitated expression on your face was replaced with tenderness, your eyes soft. “Just because I don’t have a jealous fit doesn’t mean I don’t care. I just…” You exhaled a sigh, and he sensed this was difficult for you. “I express my emotions differently than you.”

“I noticed. You put on an act while holding everything in.”

“Yeah, I guess.”

“But I want you, the real you, not the version everyone else sees.”

“It’s not that easy, Billy.”

He brought your palm to his lips. “I’d never told anyone about my mother.”

“You didn’t tell me either,” you pointed out.

“You found out anyway, and I’m so fucking glad you did. Otherwise I wouldn’t have realized I could be real with you.” He placed a tender kiss on your skin. “I don’t want to hide anything from you, Y/N.”

“Really?”

“Yeah.”

“Then tell me about William Rawlins.”

Your request gave him pause, his eyes roaming over your face. He’d taken painstaking measures to keep his partnership with Rawlins a secret yet you’d discovered it. “What do you want to know?”

“He gave you a lot of money.”

“I earned that money,” he said in a defensive tone. “He and I were partners for a while. Then he died.”

“You went to a lot of trouble to hide your connection to him.”

“You found out about it though.”

You shrugged your shoulders. “I’m good at what I do.”

“Yeah, too good,” he muttered. He released your hand, watching you intently. “So what do you want to know?”

You leaned in closer, your voice barely above a whisper. He was momentarily distracted by the sensation of your tits pressed against him but he forced himself to concentrate.

“What happened to Rawlins, did you have anything to do with it?”

Billy took a swig of his wine. “Why do you think that?”

You quirked your eyebrow at him. “Knifed by someone in the parking lot. They never found the guy who did it.”

“He had a lot of enemies,” he pointed out.

“Okay, so maybe I was wrong.”

He studied you for several seconds, trying to decide if he should take the leap or not. “You’re not wrong.”

Realization dawned on your face as the truth set in. “Why did you do it?”

“You sure you want to know?”

“I’m asking, aren’t I?”

So he told you, about Operation Cerberus, his role in it and the money he earned, how he’d eliminated Rawlins a year ago when the prick plotted to take out Frank and his family. To this day Frank didn’t know about Billy’s partnership with Rawlins or how close he came to dying and he intended to keep it that way.

Throughout his confession his eyes were glued to your face, gauging your reactions. The part of him determined to do anything to be a success, the one who didn’t let society’s morals get in the way of his ambitions, would never be accepted by his closest friends. Despite the myriad of reasons to have kept that side of himself hidden, he didn’t want to do that with you. Because as risky as it was to be so open with you, it was also exhilarating. There was no one in this world he’d ever been this honest with and that kind of intense connection with you was addictive. He wanted you to know everything about him, all of the dark and vicious thoughts that ran through his head, the burning ambition that kept pushing him forward. He wanted you to know him inside and out and he wanted the same from you.

Before he could prod you to speak your mind the server came by with your dishes, setting your meals on the table. The redhead took her time, all the whilst your gaze was focused on the table, avoiding his. Billy’s heart started to pound in his chest, he was suddenly filled with doubt. Had he made a mistake in telling you the truth? Did he just completely fuck this up? Every second the goddamn redhead lingered at the table felt like an eternity when all he wanted was to shake you out of your stupor.

The second the server left, he moved in on you. “Are you gonna say something?”

You finally looked at him, your forehead burrowed. “We need to do a better job of hiding your history with Rawlins. I found it, that means someone else can too.”

“You gonna help me with that?”

You shook your head ‘yes’. “Yeah, I have to. You need me.”

“What I did doesn’t bother you?”

You exhaled a heavy sigh. “Of course it does, but there’s nothing I can do about it. You’ve seen me at my worst and you didn’t judge me. I won’t do that to you either. Besides, when the universe deals you a shitty hand you’ve got to find other ways to even out your odds.”

A strange feeling of warmth flooded over him, compelling him to angle forward and kiss you on the lips.

You pulled away a second later, smiling at him as you rubbed the corner of his mouth. “This lipstick isn’t kiss-proof.”

“I don’t care.” Wicked visions of you flashed through his mind. Your bold red lips wrapped around his cock, sucking him off the way he liked it. His cum spread over your tits, your neck, your lips. The taste of your sweet, delicious cunt on his tongue as he fucked you with his mouth. The heat of your tongue against his as he rammed into you over and over-

“Stop looking at me like that,” you warned.

“Then stop looking so hot,” he snarked.

You smiled, biting down on your bottom lip.

It blew his mind how sweet and shy you were when he paid you compliments, like you didn’t expect that from him. Obviously he needed to fix that, because you deserved to know how insanely beautiful you were all the time.

“Has Anvil been okay without Rawlins?” you asked, taking a bite out of your butternut squash ravioli.

Swallowing his steak, he wiped his mouth with a napkin. “It was tough for a while but we’ve been doing pretty well the last few months.”

“You should be proud of what you’ve accomplished, Billy. You took a big risk going into business for yourself and you made it work. That’s amazing. I could never do that.”

Billy’s insides radiated with happiness. Other than Curtis and Frank he never really had people who genuinely believed in him so to have you cheering him on was exalting. Especially considering you were great at what you did and he had so much respect for you.

He poured himself and you more wine before reaching for your hand again. “I think you could. You’d make a shitload of money if you freelanced.”

You shook your head ‘no’. “No way, I’m too much of a coward to take a risk like that.” You took a sip of your wine. “Plus I get to go to Paris for work.”

“Or you could go to Paris on vacation and not work.”

“Then I’d have to pay for it,” you pointed out, grinning. “When you grow up the way I did, you learn to appreciate free things.”

Your enthusiasm was infectious, he couldn’t hep but smile back. A part of him was hoping this would be the perfect opening for you to talk more about your childhood, about everything you went through, because he desperately wanted you to trust him as much as he trusted you with his secrets.

“I’ll be there for two weeks,” you continued, oblivious to his disappointment. “We’re going to scout out locations for the new branch and-”

“We?” Billy interjected.

You cast him a quick glance. “Roger’s coming with me on the trip.”

The jealousy that struck him felt like a swift kick to his gut. Images of you and that goddamn bastard traipsing around and enjoying romantic date nights in Paris assaulted his mind. Agitated, he pulled his hand from yours. “I bet that fucker can’t wait to be alone with you.”

“Billy, come on. You can’t be serious.”

“How would you feel if I took off with someone who wanted to fuck me?”

“First of all, he doesn’t want me.”

His jaw clenched with frustration as he glared at you. “I’ve seen the way he looks at you. He’s thought about fucking you.”

“Even if he does, I don’t want him.” You reached out to cup his face, your voice so soft and tender in your attempts to placate him that he momentarily forgot how upset he was. “You really think I’d jeopardize what we have for a fling with Roger? I wouldn’t do that.”

“Then don’t go. Turn him down.”

Irritation flickered over your face, he could tell you were done coddling him. “Billy, you have no right to ask me that. I’d never interfere with your work.”

Underneath all that jealousy he knew you were right. As much as he despised the idea of you going away to Paris with another guy, he couldn’t demand that you not go on work trips. If you did that to him, it would annoy the fuck out of him. Yet despite his rational side recognizing he was asking for too much, he couldn’t help but feel bitter. “That asshole’s gonna make a move on you, I know it.”

“What if he does? What do you think is gonna happen?”

Hs eyes met yours, urgently seeking some kind of validation from you. “You tell me.”

“Do you think I’m going to sleep with him?”

He flinched. “Don’t talk about fucking another guy, please. You’re gonna make me lose my appetite.”

You took his hand and placed it over your left breast, probably to distract him from all the disgusting images that were running through his brain. “I wanted you so badly and even then it took me like a month to fuck you. Trust me, I’m not going to sleep with him when I’m not even attracted to him.”

Spotting the earnestness in your eyes, the knot in his stomach finally loosened. Roger may have had a hard-on for you but Billy knew you felt nothing for the fucker. He’d noticed that even at the night of the gala. So that meant he had to trust you, there was no reason not to. “Call me every night when you’re there,” he grumbled.

“Every night? You’re probably going to start blocking my calls,” you laughed.

He booped your nose. “Every. Fucking. Night.”

You beamed. “Fine.” A wicked glint flashed in your eyes, a seductive smile on your lips as you slowly moved his hand lower, his fingers now on your nipple. “Hey, just ‘cause you’re not there with me doesn’t mean we can’t have fun.”

He stroked your nipple over the fabric of your dress, enjoying how the nub hardened under his touch, the way your breath hitched in your throat when he continued his ministrations. With his other hand he tucked your hair behind your ear, whispering to you. “Phone sex is alright, but nothing beats this.” His tongue curved along the shell of your ear, and you trembled against him. “Right?”

The waitress seemed to come out of nowhere this time to ask how your meals were, and you jumped back. Disappointed, he sighed.

“Food was great. Thank you,” you replied, smiling stiffly at the redhead.

“Can I get you anything else?”

“Privacy would be great,” Billy muttered.

You kicked him under the table. “Dessert menu?”

“Sure. I’ll bring it right over,” the waitress said, taking your plates away.

“I’ll give you all the sugar you want once we get outta here,” he murmured seductively, caressing your thigh.

You giggled, rolling your eyes. “That’s a terrible line!” You took his hand and removed it from your thigh. “Billy, I’m not sleeping with you tonight.”

“Why not?”

“Because it’s our first date and I don’t put out on the first date.”

“Now that’s a terrible line,” he fired back, mimicking your earlier tone.

“Also, we already had sex this morning.”

“So? I’m greedy. I can’t get enough of you.” There was that shy smile of yours again, and he reached out to give you a sweet peck on the cheek. “You blush every time I tease you.”

“I do?”

“Yeah, it’s adorable.”

Your cheeks grew even more red. “I’m not used to it from you. A part of me still thinks you’re bullshitting me.”

Billy stiffened. “Really?”

“I know you’re not playing me,” you reassured. “It’s on me, not you. I just have a hard time accepting when good things happen.”

The waitress came by with the dessert menu. He briefly glanced at it before ordering a slice of pecan pie while you ordered a piece of chocolate cake.

As soon as the redhead left, he broached the topic with you again. “I’m not gonna hurt you, babe. You have to believe that.”

You didn’t look at him, your eyes fixed somewhere on his chest. “I do. You were so pissed off at me last night. I honestly expected you to hit me because you were so angry. But you didn’t.”

It made him sick to his stomach that you actually thought him capable of hitting you. It hadn’t even occurred to him that you would worry about that, but of course you would. With your childhood it made perfect sense, he was just a fucking idiot who hadn’t realized how much it still impacted you. “I’m never gonna lay a hand on you. I swear.” His eyes locked with yours, hoping you can sense how much he meant those words.

“I believe you.”

His voice was insistent, his gaze boring into you. “Why did you think I would?”

Your eyes wavered from his eyes to his lips for a long time, the atmosphere thick with tension. Your facial expressions ran the gamut of painful emotions, from uncertainty to fear to sheer panic.

It finally sank in that maybe the reason you were keeping the truth from him had noting to do with if you trusted him or not. Maybe you didn’t want to be assaulted by memories from the past that caused you so much pain. The last thing he wanted was for you to experience that hell again. Regretting his demanding tone, his hands caressed down the length of your arms. “You don’t have to tell me, It’s okay.”

Your eyes brimmed with aching vulnerability as you looked up at him. “I want to… I just… give me some time, okay?” You pressed your lips against his, giving him the softest, sweetest kiss. “I’ve been looking forward to tonight for so long, I don’t want to ruin it, you know?”

His heart felt full, his mind reeling with wonderment at the thought of you truly reciprocating his feelings. His arms wrapped around you as you sank into him, burying your face in his chest. His fingers stroked the back of your hair, murmuring soft, soothing words to you. Somewhere in the distance he heard the server’s voice trying to interject, but he didn’t give a damn. He was yours and you were his and nothing was going to ruin that. Nothing.

Part 18

A/N - I realize not much happened in this chapter but I just reallly wanted to write a dialogue heavy part where they simply get to know and enjoy each other. I think they’ve earned some fluff. LOL.

As always, thank you for your kind words of encouragement. Please let me know your thoughts.

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