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katz-chow · 8 months

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Coming from puff puffs blog 🤧🤥 hope you don't mind 😝🙈🙉 ur also totally gaining a new follower..

WHAT ARE YOUR HEADCANONS ON SOAP? 🥰🥰🥰 unless you've already done this before then I am so sorry 😓

relationship with soap headcanons

warnings: sfw, fluff, some angst, relationship arguments, family trauma mentioned, religious trauma, homophobia, bad dad

a/n: my fav cod man is soap so this took my top priority!!! i think about this man a lot, 09 and reboot version. reboot is my fav though, realistically, he's who i would actually get with. here’s all the things i’ve thought about him, there’s probably more tbh… OK OK HERE :))

childhood hcs

johnny soap mactavish comes from a large family of 5 siblings, he's the second oldest. it's elsie, him, blair, callum, and olivia.

growing up in a family of mainly girls got him on that respect women juice. he would always have to make sure his younger siblings are ok and aren't you know, being bullied. his parents were adamant on 2 year age gaps between them all.

his cousin, jack, was an sas operator and that was what made him want to join. they had to call security forces to arrest him out at some point because he kept sneaking in to watch them do stuff lol

elsie left for uni with her bf to live in soho when johnny was 16, the same year he would talk to recruiters around his hometown, driving hours and then getting rejected the same day due to his age

9th grade (year 10) chemistry got him obsessed with stem and its *explosive* results. he aced chemistry and then took advanced chemistry and physics just because he loved it so much

after this, as soon as he turned 18, he went to sign his papers THEN graduated school (he's just like me fr). his mom was so worried for him, especially when her sister told her about the danger that jack would get himself into. in the end, he promised he'll always call her and his siblings

his dad's an ass, hes an alcoholic, a cheater, a *bitch*... he would always take the kids to church on sundays and twisted the religion into a reason for his behavior. claiming that johnny's mom being at home was just "their culture"

she makes a killer shepherd's pie though

always had had some sort of love-hate relationship with the catholic faith. on one hand, it was nice to know there's always at least someone watching out for him, but after hearing the constant belittlement from his father, claiming he wasn't "manly enough" for not willing to give his life up in the service, he started to resent the “all merciful”.

he ended up blaming god for all his faults, letting him take accountability. this especially happened when he got diagnosed with adhd when he was 17, his dad didn’t believe in mental health. his mom was only a bit better about it, they both refused meds for him.

he's bisexual, leans towards women though. found this out after a truth or dare game in junior year (year 12) and some beers in a closet

at one point, callum acccidently let it slip at dinner when johnny had first moved out that he had met a cute guy and their dad screamed and yelled at the whole family, especially their mom, about "raising a fucking whore of a son, dragging the family down to shite"

blair called and told johnny a few days later and johnny rushed his work as quickly as possible and begged his chain of command for a few days off to go back home to his family

his family gets loud…like really loud. there’s 7 people what do you expect?

it gets especially bad when it’s sunday morning and you gotta get 7 people awake and looking their church best for an hour and a half 😔

johnny is the quickest everything there is, which has its downsides too. he could run and swim the fastest in the family, but he was also the quickest eater…meaning he’s on dish washing duty. he’s quick at that too so by the time everyone’s finished, he’s washed all the other dishes that took to make dinner

broke his arm chasing a cat through someone’s yard (he was 14)

had a goat scream and kicked him because he wanted to give it a hug

he got a part time job at a local bakery in 10th grade (year 11). the pay wasn’t much but neither was the work really. olivia, who was 9 at the time, made him promise that he’ll get her a doll to have tea with. her tea set had 4 cups but only one of her, so she must get another one to join her! he kept his promise; he ended up getting three dolls for her

he can make amazing soda bread and brioche loafs now too, still keeps a starter from the owner of the bakery to this day

he had a mountain bicycle that he would take everywhere. had room behind his seat for packages and his backpack, which he would tie down. that thing had such a loud bell too, would ring constantly to “let people know hes coming and get ready”

was terrified of selkies for some reason, always had the window closed and made callum sleep by it while he slept by the door

wasn’t much of a troublemaker, but would get into trouble with his adventurous heart.

got lost in the woods once and after a while of fake courage, he sat down and cried until elsie found him. he was 20 yards (13 meters) away from the clearing 😭😭

laugh at that guys, mf was 15

personality & relationship hcs

johnny is such a fun lover. he’s handsome yeah, but what makes ppl flaunt over him is his humor. he’s what jessica rabbit said “he makes me laugh”

such a charismatic and charming person, gets it from his dad. he could talk about just about anything, also the type to strike up a conversation with a stranger at the grocery store. then end up with their number and a date or helping them dog sit

this isn’t always a good thing though, one time before he was medicated, he would talk on and on, his story becoming incoherent due to the amount of self-interruptions he made, that a group of guys got so annoyed at that pub, they punched him.

he was young, 19, and couldn’t fight, so he didn’t win and came back to the barracks with a nasty black eye

he likes to be the big spoon, has to hold something in order to sleep

feel like he’s the type to wrap his arms around a pillow and lay on his stomach to sleep

speaking of sleeping, he HATES sleeping with socks on. he tried it one day and he just shivered at the feel of it, woke up and his socks were missing (he found them under the bed)

i also feel like he sleeps like a log, unmoving once he finds his comfort, i also think it's because he had to sleep in the same bed as his siblings at one point and he didn't want to wake them by moving, so he got accustomed to being a still sleeper

one time he accidentally got into a fight at a bar when a guy kept being misogynistic and was arrested and kept in jail for the whole night until one of his civilian friends bailed him out

johnny's the type to race you in the rain to the car. again, he's quick so he's always ahead of you but then he slips from the rain and ends up all wet and muddy and in the car.

his favorite thing to do is hear you laugh. he'll do anything to hear you laugh.

whenever you're sad, he'll purposely stub his toe or trip down the stairs or make you kiss his "owie" (a papercut) to get you to cheer up. like yeah it hurts like a fucking bitch but seeing you sad hurts more than a silly tumble

number one date event is city exploring and hopping. like cafe hopping, pub hopping, museum hopping, restaurant hopping, anything that makes you get up and get going with time to sit and chill at the same time.

feels like he can eat a lot, he's the type to eat your food if you end up not liking it or being too full

when he gets home from missions and the initial excitement of seeing you dies down, he also dies down and nap for hours until it's the middle of the night and he gets up to eat something.

he loves naps. feels like he needs a nap time every day if it was possible

he's a very kind lover, he's easy going so its not hard that sometimes people take advantage of this and push his buttons until he can't take it anymore

causes a huge blowup because he can have a nasty temper whenever he bottles stuff up and pushes things aside

not a physical manifestation of anger, but definitely a verbal anger, will say things he doesn't really mean just to say it and realize right after the words leave his lips that he fucked up

but he'll stake out in front of the guest bedroom in which you've locked yourself in until you come out and he gets the chance to forgive you

the type to stand in the rain and hold a sign saying sorry right outside your window, a very cheesy romcom style (gaz made him watch them)

he loves you more than anything and loves you even more than you can keep up with him and laugh at his jokes, no matter how awful they are

he wants 4 kids by the way

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arda-ancalima · 5 months

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How's the day going for you so far?

Pretty good (at least once the tylenol and adhd med kicked in this morning lol) - work was good, and we had some big fluffy snowflakes come down. Just finished lunch and about to go get sheet music in order for singing tomorrow and a wedding next weekend. How is your day going?

#arda answers

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mistyfoxxy · 2 years

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please someone give me a distraction. I can’t focus. I drew a little earlier, I read some fanfics, did/tried to do school work. I just feel so bleak. So empty right now. I want him home. I want this to be over already. But I know it’s going to be a terribly long journey for him. My anxiety can’t handle this. I’m so glad he’s ok, I’m gonna tough it out for him. My best friend, my brother. This is a bit traumatic so if you don’t want to read pass on please 😅 but here’s what happened. It’s very uhm. Mature? Not like rated X but ykwim.

My brother was in his way to work yesterday morning around seven o’clock. His seat belt locked up, (he’s adhd so his meds hadn’t quite kicked in) so he took it off to readjust. And got distracted. He went off the road by accident, and out of reflex jerked the car back into the road. His car then went airborne, and flipped several times. He was partially ejected, hanging out the passenger window- while it was flipping. Everyone is saying it’s a miracle he’s alive, which my goodness it most definitely is. He told me, he wanted to sit on that car. He didn’t feel like getting up, but he thought of me. You see, we’re both adopted, we have the same biological mother, different fathers and were adopted by the same people. We talked the other day, I guess you could say we’ve both been suicidal. We made a promise to eachother, if one can’t die, the other can’t die. He told me, while he was sitting in that car, he knew he couldn’t leave me. So he tried his best to crawl out. He did well except the fact that the car had also landed on him. A family who wasn’t to far behind him in traffic came and helped him. The man had the same first name as my brother coincidentally. He lifted the off him and my layed my brother on socks ( as my brother had informed me lol)

He had to be life flighted. And underwent a four hour surgery on his face, since it had been banged up a lot. They did an amazing job. His eye had to be seen shut for now, but once he starts to heal a bit, they’ll work on fixing him up. He’s conscious and able to talk and move around. He should be able to come home tonight. My mom is a nurse so she should be able to take care of him. We watch anime together. We worked together. Laughed at the same things. We aren’t twins. Had different dads. But he is my best friend. He’s always felt like he had to take care of me, which is ironic, because I’m a year older. It’s my turn now tho, as soon as he comes home. This is my promise to him. I’ll always have his back no matter what.

#Traumatic #car wreck tw #my brother #my stuff #please pass this and don’t read on if it’ll upset you #This is me venting #Delete later

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astronada · 3 months

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I can’t tell if my adhd meds help me breathe better or if my sinuses just clear out every morning about the same time my meds kick in lol

#I have chronic allergies and breathing problems and every morning I wake up with sinus issues lol

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adhdvane · 1 year

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brain b goin cray lately but do u ever just??? go ham over kink and psychological causes thereof like esp when characters have long history together and kink as a way to cope and live out things safely with someone you love and---

okay, so I read this last night before I went to sleep (okay maybe it was early morning rip) but I was so tired I read half of the words wrong and I was so confused xD actual response under the cut, bc boy I get it...

I totally feel you anon. Kink is so much fun to think about and play with. Like it's generally believed that most kink develops in the early stages of childhood, but like it varies so wildly from person to person; it's so board. Sometimes there's a deep psychological things behind it, sometimes it's trauma related, and sometimes... it's just there and you don't know why other than: this is hot lol. (I have kink I'll phsycoanaize myself about why I have, because of my lived experiences and trauma. and then I have kink I've literally just had since I was baby and literally just it's just always been there yo, I can give you explains now why I think it's hot and how I might have ended up finding those things hot, but baby me watching barney the dinosaur didn't have those experiences so clearly it's been with me longer than I can explain. It just is oops). Typically I'm the one using character to explore taboo/unsafe kinky things in a safe fictional environment lol. But, yes, analyzing why some characters have a kink I've decided to give them is fun (especially when those meds kick in and you brain is like WOOOOO LETS GOOOOOO THINK ABOUT THINGS AND DON'T GET DISTRACTED). Or like character who canon have kink and I don't have to give it to them in the first place (beli lol). (catch me thinking about how the fuck kink works with beli. like how much of it was, he was programmed that way when he was literally created, how much control do astrals have on that sort of thing when they create a primal beast. how much of it developed for beli as he developed a personality while existing. how much of his personality developed while existing and how much was programmed into his when lucilius created him? i joked once that whether or not a primal beast has genitals depends on how horny the astral who made them was. and that lucilius is ace (I KNEW I FORGETTING SOMEONE IN MY ACE HEADCANONS). and just the concept the beliel was a fucking ken doll down there (unless belial's directive was to go down a fuck the mortals there's no biological reason for him to have a dick, technically, and I'm pretty sure that wasn't his purpose) and just beli sobbing like why would you make me so horny and not give me a dick. and lucilius just like, because i hate you. but that's just a joke (beli has canon sex, though, i mean, could have sex other ways, i just assume nah he had a dick, it's more fun if he has a dick). but anyways, it's super interesting to think about how much is nature vs. nurture esp with primal beasts bc we've seen them change, we've seen them grow and developed based on their interactions with other (esp mortals). How much of Beli's kink was predetermined. How much was an accident? How much of it happened because of what he experience? ((don't ask me about the fake events about my gbf oc's that jokingly lead to a sequal event that jokingly lead to shit with where lucilius, beli, and bubs were trapped and then led to fucked up belisan shit, being stranded alone in another world. belial abandoned by lucilius. fuck.))) rip I think I got off subject, but anon, I feel you. God. My adhd brain goes ham over that shit too sometimes

#anon #ask #sammy be quiet #sammy no #rip im rambling #also while i was answering this ask i pulled a muscle in my neck holy fuck it hurts so much #but answering this ask was keeping me moderately distracted form the pain #i'm just going to try to keep kink talk under the cut for the most part #i know tumblr like auto shortens posts now so that's not such a big deal but idk

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quillsmora · 1 year

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🌙 👖

🌙 "What time of day do you prefer to write? Why?" – early morning to mid-afternoon, mainly because i'm most attentive right after my adhd meds kick in lol.

👖 "Are you a planner, plantser, or pantser? Is it consistent?" – if plantser means a mix of planner and flying by the seat of your pants, i'm definitely that. half the time i have really in-depth plans for a story, the other half i just open a doc and hope for the best. i'd say it's pretty consistent!

thanks so much for sending me an ask!

prompts are from this fanfic ask game

#ask #anon #fanfic ask game

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starsbythepocketfulll · 4 years

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Your braids like a pattern

Love you to the Moon and to Saturn

#lol this morning my adhd meds kicked in while i was brushing my hair so i had to like..attempt folklore braids #folklore #braids #mine #anywayyyyy

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thatferalwitch · 3 years

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Discarnate Possession 101:

A practical master guide by someone who unwillingly experienced it and studied the phenomenon in an academic context

Disclaimer: this isn't meant to scare, nor victim-blame, nor criticise some practices, but rather to promote understanding on the phemonon based on personal experience.This isn't substitute for professional help or medical assessment. If you are unwell, please please please seek talk to your doctor or therapist.

[TW: mentions of depression, delusion, s**c*de, abuse, SH, derealization] sorry for the long post lol

About possession:

There are two main types of entities in possession: incarnate and discarnate. Incarnate entities are entities who were once alive and have since passed; human souls, animal souls, etc. Discarnate entities are entities who have never known incarnation, and may or may not have harmful intent; demonics, angelics, deities, etc.

Not all possession is unconsensual.

Many religions, including Caribbean voudon and some Christian churches use possession in their rituals. However I will be focusing on unconsensual, discarnate possession by demonics and other low vibrations entities.

What causes unconsensual possession?

1. Traumatic events and abuse.

In my case, an abusive relationship. Traumatic events such as abuse, sexual assault, witnessing an accident, suicide attempts, incendiary events, terrorist attacks and more are classic scenarios. Trauma and abuse attracts very low vibrations and leaves the victim feeling helpless, lost, fragmented and very vulnerable. There's a shattering of the self and the auric field that enables discarnate entities to attach themselves.

2. Depression, s****dal ideation and SH

Again, negative entities thrive on low vibrations, misery and helplessness. Many people who feel depressed and suicidal wish someone was there to "take their place"- a discarnate might just take you up on the offer.

3. Dabbling in negative or dark energywork unprotected.

Yes, that includes Ouija. If you dabble in Ouija, hexing, demonwork and other low-vibration practices without proper protection, training or boundaries, you run a risk of inviting a discarnate in your personal energy field without realizing it.

4. Severe emotional or work-related burnout

When you've burned out, all your defenses are down. You are vulnerable.

What does it feel like: the possession cycle

The idea of possession is a lot dramatized and exaggerated by horror movies. As you may suspect, it's not an immediate, black-on-white phenomenon, but rather a progressive one that creeps on you in several stages on the span of several months, and is very similar to a severe depressive episode. This is where it gets pretty personal.

Stage 1: Feeling Off

Symptoms: constantly tired or fatigued. Mild but frequent derealization or depersonalization. Too little or too much of an appetite. Potential weight or sleep schedule fluctuation. Feeling numb. Bad dreams.

Stage 2: Kick In The Nuts

Symptoms: in my case, all my ADHD meds started acting up out of the blue. My sight got worse. I lost weight. I started displaying disruptive hand tics. Kick In The Nuts is just whatever keeps you functional and grounded, suddenly crumbles. You try to fix it, but each attempt makes you feel worse. The depersonalization is getting worse. You're starting to slip. Your body is rebelling against you.

Stage 3: Depression/ Free Fall

Symptoms: Feeling like Kick In The Nuts was always meant to happen and you won't get back up. Social isolation. Complete misery, fed day and night by a whisper in the back of your mind. Anxiety attacks. Body dysmorphia. Nightmares. Disengaged from life. Classical symptoms of depression, but somehow worse (I've had depression before, and this objectively felt worse.) Rapid emotional and cognitive decline. Utter hopelessness.

Stage 4: Delusion

Symptoms: the very first Late Stage, and where it starts to get dangerous. You start to associate yourself with a very misguided belief system about yourself as you are slipping into severe delusion. Your life prior to Kick In The Nuts feels like a fuzzy dream. You have obsessive thoughts. Chunks of time start to go missing. That delusion is a trap of control. Possession is the entrapment of the mind and will in controlled illusions, a maze of mirrors. Examples of delusions: you're cursed from birth, all of this was worthless. This is the REAL you. Friendship is a lie. You're useless and better off dead. You are your trauma. You're broken for good. You'll never amount to anything because this the REAL you. Everything else is a lie. Angels and spirit guides and God were all a manmade lies to deceive you. You're doomed. Life is misery. The only way to feel better is [insert self-sabotage]. This is the REAL you.

Stage 5: S****dal Delusion

Symptoms: The belief that based on delusions, that the only way out is to commit suicide. You want to prove you're right. You may form a plan. You don't want help. The next stage is your funeral.

In retrospect

This is the stage where I was intercepted. A family friend who happens to be a professional psychic and energyworker was contacted by my worried mother about me not being myself. He performed an emergency energy clearing and the next morning sent an email to her titled "Fucking hell". He had found and cleared not one, but two thriving demonic discarnates in possession. My mother woke me up to show me how I had been under spiritual possession, and when I read it in bed, I did something really unexpected that I hadn't done in months. I burst out giggling.

Just a good, contagious laugh from the pit of my stomach. A spell had been broken. A huge weight was lifted from my shoulders, and I could laugh again. It took several months of conscious effort, therapy and several clearings to completely shake it off, but my tics disappeared, my meds started working again, I got myself out of my depression, and I successfully lived past the date I had planned to off myself.

Conclusion

Again, this isn't to freak out anyone. My experience was a strong learning one that I wouldn't even wish on Donald Trump. I don't pretend that this is the ultimate, final objective truth. And if you show symptoms of depression, suicidal thoughts, trauma, PTSD, declining physical and mental health, don't be stupid like me, GET HELP.

#pagan #wicca #witchblr #spirituality #magick #pagancommunity #possession #entity #book of shadows #pagans of tumblr #dark magick #demonic entity #hexing

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bornadreamer · 4 years

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My watch dogs 2 headcanons

Sitara:

Aro/Ace (not just because she wears the flag colors lol)

Dedsec is a big queerplatonic relationship for her. She loves all the guys so much and would kill for them, but as soon as someone mentions her fucking one she kinda just *vomit emoji*

Hyper protective of kids. After the mission with her niece she dedicates at least 10 hours a week to developing software to protect kids on the internet/root out pedos

Hardcore listens to nature noises while she paints/sketches

Fantastic at calling people out on their bullshit. She does NOT let the guys get away with anything demeaning/sexist, even by accident. To their credit, they always apologize and try to do better

Loves weird/facey tea flavors. One time she brought back a bbq boba tea and everyone else gagged.

Knows everyone’s triggers and actively purges them from Dedsec feeds before the others can see

Crazy wine aunt vibes. Will care for you when sick, but will roast you for how you acted like a baby after.

When she gets panic attacks, she needs weighted blankets. Like, enough to break a few ribs. Wrench sat on her once. It actually helped.

Loves She-ra. Hacked the studio to watch the eps being made and yelled at the screen like a banshee the whole time. The boys were very afraid.

Horatio:

Actual only straight person in the group. The butt of so, so many jokes.

He, like Marcus, LOVES fashion. While he can’t wear what he wants all the time due to his undercover persona, he buys fashion mags like nobody’s business. Can name his ten favorite designers off the top of his head.

A little bit very OCD, though you can’t tell by looking at him. Ratio is very anal about what goes where. Everyone knows not to go near his station in the hackerspace.

One time Wrench knocked over his desk (nearly destroying his rig) and Ratio’s stuff went flying. Wrench almost had a guilt meltdown. Luckily, Sitara had a picture and they managed to put everything back almost exactly. Almost.

Stress cleans. When his undercover stuff is really getting to him, he’ll kick everyone out of the hackerspace and just. Clean. For hours. When they’re allowed back in you could eat off the floor.

Since he can’t be around all the time, he gets little gifts for everyone and leaves them at their stations to show that he’s thinking about them.

Wrench:

We been knew that the boy is suicidal, but he’s manic-depressive bipolar as well (also not shocking)

ADHD

Self medicated with every kind of drug out there.

Marcus and Josh eventually beat him down enough to take Meds That Are Actually Helpful. Sitara mediates. It was A Process.

All of his fingers are broken from one thing or another, it made him really self conscious when he Marcus and Josh started dating. He didn’t like holding hands because he felt his were ugly.

Texts solely through emojis like fucking hieroglyphs. Half the time nobody knows what he’s saying. He has no intention to stop. It drives everyone nuts.

Likes to be the middle spoon, with Marcus as the big and Josh as the little

DO NOT let him consume more than three cups of coffee. He will not sleep for days.

The first few weeks of sleeping with Josh and Marcus he doesn’t take his mask off. He’s terrified. Finally, they manage to get im comfortable enough to do so and his boyfriends have a great time kissing every inch of his face. He laugh-cried from relief.

He and Marcus have terrible hacker movie night. They watch cheesy hacker moves and laugh at how bad everything is.

Squishy toys help relax him when he’s having a bad manic episode or an anxiety attack.

Josh:

Also hardcore ADHD

Somewhere on the autism spectrum as well.

Marcus’s first gift to him as his boyfriend was a chewy necklace, since he needs his hands to hack. It actually helped more than he thought it would.

Most of the time he totally forgets he has it, though

Unironically enjoys black and white television. He’ll have I Love Lucy running for audio while he’s working. Sometimes he even turns on the blind narration.

Horatio and Marcus switch off on making him blind narration eps. They have a ball with it.

Lists. Lists. Lists. This boy has a timed checklist for almost every day. His phone will ping and won’t stop until he Does The Thing. When he’s really in the zone and doesn’t hear it everyone at Dedsec kind of wants to kill him.

Sometimes Marcus and Wrench need to tag team who coaxes him into the shower and who does his laundry while he’s distracted because this boy is a fucking disaster. They both fucking hate his green hoodie.

Must Hack. There is nothing else But The Hack.

Will crack if you say enough bad puns. It’s really the only humor he can get behind

When he does his happy stim (flappy hands) everyone at Dedsec just does from cuteness overload

Loves slow, lazy kissing in the morning or right before bed. It’s the only time his brain slows down enough to really enjoy it before he goes into work mode

Marcus:

He and Ratio have the deepest discussions about fashion. They both lose their minds at John Boyega and Orville Peck

Marcus loves to shop! He drags Wrench and Josh with him for opinions, though neither of them really care they love how happy it makes him. Sitara is his real shopping companion, she Knows what looks good on him.

He’s the only neurotypical person in Dedsec. Boy was THAT and adjustment. Marus spent months after he joined reading up on everyone’s conditions and how to best help. He feels like a pro now, but is eager to learn. He stayed updated on all medical research.

Marcus works with Sitara to prepare little emergency ‘fit-kits’ as they call them, for everyone. He can pull them out when someone’s having an episode and help them through it.

It can be a struggle to make sure both his boyfriends are on their meds and keeping themselves healthy, but he’s happy to do it. Marcus can take almost anything life throws at him

Organizes hack offs within the group just to show off, basically. The only one who has beaten him so far is Josh.

Josh isn’t into clubbing, so Marcus and Wrench party hard. When they come home they binge one of Josh’s old shows until all three fall asleep on the couch.

Tasers pedos and rapists on sight, unless he’s on mission.

He goes back for them after

Terrified of motorcycles but loves weird cars.

He’s jewish and keeps a menorah at the hackerspace. Everyone loves to help him celebrate.

#watch dogs 2 #marcus #wrench #sitara #josh #horatio #dedsec #maddy rambles #mine #my hcs #headcanons #long post #marcusxwrenchxjosh

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cesium-sheep · 3 years

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also arin had her appointment with my pcp yesterday (who when I was complaining about her unmedicated adhd and how it affects my own health went “I trust your self assessment and your partner’s, and I’m a lot more familiar with adhd than most primary care providers, so if [she] wants to set up an appointment with me we can absolutely talk about meds”) and picked up her new prescription last night.

I woke up this morning to her reorganizing the scarves that have lived in a haphazard pile on the back of the door for months XD she told me it took about an hour to kick in, then she’s had cleaning momentum for another hour, but not in a way that irritates her to divert from a task (eg pausing organizing her desk to say hello to me for longer than she thought I’d talk this soon after waking up :v )

so uhhhh good news, it sounds like at least a portion of the home maintenance and partner management problems are solved lol

(she explained that it’s like she has loose ferrets in her head and any time she wants to start a task she has to catch one of the ferrets first, but once the med kicked in? no ferrets. also she can’t understand why anyone would take it as a party drug.)

#I did point out that a lot of the folks obtaining it under questionable circumstances to use it as a ‘study aid’?#prolly legitimately need it but either don’t know or can’t access it otherwise.#(eg how many of our dumb asses made it all the way through college pre-discovery lol)#and that I don’t buy into the overprescription narrative with the possible exception of one narrow demographic #(young white boys)#everyone else has had access artificially restricted (which doesn’t even really do much for the actual problem demo)#and it’s such fucking bullshit #she even found a primary-care-usable adhd inventory #just like the depression and anxiety inventories #that they just. don’t use anymore. because they’re cowards who can’t apply even a drop of critical thinking.#basically she’s unlocked the abilities to prioritize tasks and visually process mess #(she told me she was gonna start studying but she has like a month to study and only a couple days to clean before her next rotation)#(so she decided to clean first and study after that.)

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studying-with-adult-adhd · 4 years

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Hi, I’m new to your blog. I wanted to know if you had any advice on how to plan a daily schedule. I work from 8-5 and I’m trying to get on routine and wake up at 6am and be in bed by 10pm. Usually I just wake up and try to survive the day. I’ve tried breaking things down like color coding my beauty routine, workout time, study, work, meal times, etc but then everything feels overwhelming and my brain just shuts down and I’m like welp so much for trying. I get easily frustrated. 😔

Ah yes. The struggle. Don't worry my friend, there's so many resources available to you.

I also struggle with this and I'll say that once you have a routine, and it becomes a habit, it'll stick. There shall be light nonny, I promise you. Don't give up yet.

So, what I like to do is set a shit ton of alarms, 5 minutes apart for a half hour until I have to get out of bed. This makes sure I don't pass out again and that I'll wake up if I do.

I then get out of bed and go to the washroom. I'm on blood pressure meds which help cause I constantly need to use the washroom lol.

While building a routine, it's important you follow it everyday. That means weekends too. It sucks but it helps.

I also like to set alarms on my phone with little notes telling me that I have to switch my task or which task I should be doing. Being able to check off certain things in the morning makes you feel more productive and motivated to keep at it.

If you have ADHD and are medicated, I suggest taking your meds maybe an hour or so (depening on how long they take to kick in) before you actually have to get out of bed. I noticed this early on with my vyvanse that if i took it about an hour before, I'd wake up feeling like I had to go go go.

Though, my meds have worn off and I think I'm rambling. I'll keep researching and we'll figure it out. Check out the ADDitude magazine for ideas too. Typically geared towards parents with kids who have adhd but it's also kinda nice to see what works for others.

In the meantime, followers, do you have any suggestions?

#routine building #executive dysfunction #adhd things #adhd mood #adhd #adhd post #adult adhd #adhd stuff #adhd brain #adhd feels #anon

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justchasingghosts · 7 years

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How come you never post anything anymore? I always enjoyed your gifs! ^^

First, thank you, that’s very sweet.

Now…this is kind of a long answer, so if you are actually curious (assuming you even remember who I am since it’s been a while), you can read under the cut. Sorry people on mobile, I know those don’t work on there. Just scroll a bunch.

To make sure I’m not misunderstood, I’m going to try to explain this the best way I can. Also, concise is not in my vocabulary.

In late July, which was coincidentally also the last time I posted something on here (I just checked lol), I made the decision to start doing an intensive outpatient program (not randomly, it was the culmination of a lot of things). It’s therapy three times a week for a few hours per day. I do it in the morning and then stream my lectures for the day in the afternoon, which I can somewhat actually kind of do now since I’ve stared taking meds for my ADHD. I say all this because once this new regimen started, I became so busy most days that some of the routines I previously had fell off. The main one being this blog.

Then something weird happened. My days became….uneventful. The next month and a half went by in a blur. Not because it was fast, but because it felt like I was stationary and time moved around me. Mentally I remained constant. Constantly numb. That may sound like a bad thing, but for me, it was a major improvement considering the days I had before. I noticed this and decided to decipher the cause, and lo and behold, the answer was clear. It was this blog.

*deep breath*

I am a cutter. Have been for years. I kind of use it as my gauge for how shitty I feel. I was clean for 9 months in 2016, and discovering Sean’s channel was the catalyst. I’ll always thank him for that. But just like one needs a flu shot every year to prevent getting sick, I had become resistant to that effect of the channel, and the opposite happened.

My reactions to things are not…what you’d expect. No matter the severity of the action, I get a tightness inside of me that I can’t make out. It’s painful, and I don’t know what to do about it. So I cut. Use the physical pain to drown out whatever the hell was going on in the inside. Probably not the best solution, but it works. What relates that to this are the things that cause those reactions– tiny things. Not kidding. Me leaving my apartment and forgetting my keys. Missing a traffic light. Seeing one of my friends talking to someone else briefly. Or, in the case of tumblr, my post not getting liked. Or reblogged. Things that are disproportional to my reaction to them.

Once my resistance kicked in with the channel, those tiny things began to tear at me. Every day. I posted less frequently. Then even on the days I didn’t post anything, I would be worn down anyway because I’d think people, including Sean, had this expectation of me to post consistently, and the pain would be back. If Sean reblogged my posts two days in a row, but not the third day, I’d be completely convinced that I had fucked up majorly, and now he hated me. It sounds ridiculous, believe me I know, but you would not have been able to convince me otherwise. Until the next time he reblogged me. Then all was well again (I’m not saying that I felt entitled to it, but my brain works off patterns, it would have been better if he never reblogged me in the first place). That wasn’t the only thing, but it’s the most representative of what I’m trying to describe.

It was a viscous cycle. I started cutting again, but not as frequently as before. In a way, it was almost another form of self-harm because I would do nothing to stop it. I didn’t think I could, because I had made this commitment, and I didn’t want to. I dug myself into a hole. The only way out of it was to stop digging, so I stopped engaging in the community.

Now looking back on it, I realize that choosing to stop was a good idea, as accidental as it may have been. I’ve learned that I am not mentally stable enough to fully engage in society with other people, as sad as it sounds. My emotions are either non-existent or so internally painful I have to displace it with something physical. All or nothing.

So for the time being, this blog won’t be posting any gifs until I feel like it is okay for me to come back.

I want to clarify, too, that I’m not blaming anyone for this except myself. I’m the one who reacts and feels this way, it’s not other people’s responsibility to change their behavior simply because I don’t have a handle on my own. That goes for Sean, too; it’s not his fault either, and I really am sorry he got caught up in it.

Thank you for your ask though. I honestly didn’t think anyone noticed my absence, so I appreciate that.

tl;dr Being as active as I was making gifs/vids was very detrimental to my mental health, and med school has gotten a lot busier, so I’ve stepped away for a bit. Hope that’s alright.

#Anonymous #jacksepticeye #is that okay?#i dont remember how to tumblr #i literally only used this blog to post jse stuff so i think its alright #whatever

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sweatylesbian-blog · 7 years

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corm dogs breakfast now im HUNGRY tbh it might just be that in the last couple weeks ive been having my adhd meds kick in before the AM weed can reach the appetite boosting phase but i woke up early and have been smoking allll morning lol oiOOGHJOJHOoo !!! since i have $ again i should immediately spend too much of it on food delivery today.... ooo yes

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clotpolesonly · 7 years

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Stallison, Allydia, Malydia and Malia/Kira for the ship meme thing maybe please?

ooooooh lots of them =))))

STALLISON

1. Who remembers what the other one always orders at a restaurant?

Stiles remembers Allison’s usual order because she’s relatively consistent, but that’s whatever. The real impressive thing is that Allison is really really good at guessing what Stiles is going to order, and his tastes are all over the map. He never orders the same thing twice (unless it’s curly fries) and Alli’s got him pegged every time.

2. Who reaches for the other one’s hand while driving?

Allison does, cuz if she doesn’t then Stiles drums so enthusiastically on the steering wheel that he almost ran them into a tree once. If he’s only got one hand free, he can’t do the sick beats so he has to actually keep the other hand on the wheel. Also she loves his hands and savors any opportunity to hold them tbh.

3. Who gets the window seat?

Window seat makes me think plane ride, in which case Stiles gets it. Honestly it’s more for the other passengers’ sake than his, to spare anyone from having to sit next to him and be subjected to whatever form of obscure history lesson he deems “small talk” on that particular day. Allison is capable of entertaining herself and doing it without badgering other passengers, but Stiles needs the distraction of the changing scenery to keep him occupied.

4. Who leaves little notes in the other’s one lunch? (Bonus: what does it say?)

If you think Stiles doesn’t make Allison super healthy lunches every single morning with post-it notes included that alternate between ridiculously sappy and obnoxiously sarcastic, then you are WRONG, my friend.

5. Who wakes up first?

Allison is a morning person. She will not let Stiles forget it. Stiles might hate her for it just a little bit. (He doesn’t hate the wake-up sex though. That part’s okay, even if he does lose hours of precious sleep over it.)

6. Who falls asleep while watching a movie?

Stiles’ sleep schedule is wildly unpredictable, especially with his ADHD and whether or not he’s taking his meds. So sometimes he’ll think he’s up for an all-nighter and then crash ten minutes into the movie, other times he’ll glance up and it’ll be 4am and Allison gave up trying to get his attention three hours ago, whoops. Allison is self-aware enough not to start a movie when she knows she won’t make it through, lol.

7. Who’s prone to wearing socks indoors (or to sleep)?

Stiles will wear them to bed when it’s cold out cuz he knows he’ll kick the blankets off in his sleep and end up with toe-cicles. Allison will wear them around the house, paired with short-shorts and slouchy sweatshirts, cuz she knows Stiles greatly appreciates that particular aesthetic. ;)

8. Who has bigger cravings?

Stiles gets in moods. Sometimes he’ll fixate on something really random and just be mildly obsessed with eating that one obscure thing he had that one time and didn’t actually like much but he thinks he’ll probably like it better the second time if he can just track it down and try it again. But usually he’ll forget about it before he actually gets a hold of whatever it is.

9. Who reminds the other to put on sunscreen before going to the beach (or pool)?

Stiles burns like a son of a bitch if he forgets sunscreen, so he KNOWS better. He has LEARNED that lesson (and also the lesson of not letting Scott help him put it on, courtesy of the unflattering message sunburned onto his back that one time, thanks a bunch you asshole some best friend you are). But Allison has a tendency to overestimate her ability to tan, forgo sunscreen on purpose, and end up a little lobster-y. Stiles always warns her, but nooooo, she’ll be fiiiiiine. Uh huh. Right.

10. Who carries all the important documents while traveling?

Stiles insists on carrying them himself because his anxiety will allow for nothing less. He needs to have all the essentials in his own hands or he will turn the car around halfway to the airport to go back and check every nook and cranny of the house to make absolutely sure they didn’t leave anything behind.

11. Who checks the prices while grocery shopping?

Stiles is very conscious of both nutrient content and price point, having been raised on a single dad’s cop salary. Allison’s family was pretty well off so she’s not as accustomed to counting her pennies like Stiles’ is, she’s never worried about money enough to bother with buying off brands or cutting coupons.

12. Who sneaks in cookies in the shopping cart?

Allison does, mostly just to see how long it will take for Stiles to notice that she messed up the organization of his cart. Some days he notices right away and scolds her into putting it back. Other days he’s scatterbrained and just throwing things in there all pellmell and she starts sneaking gross stuff in there instead of cookies. Once she managed to actually get him to buy cat food instead of actual tuna and he didn’t realize until her poker face broke and her giggles gave the game away.

13. Who’d give their child sweets behind the other’s back?

Neither. Stiles is more inclined to give the kids sweets if they eat it together, like making cookies as a family. Allison teaches the kids how to stage a jail break on the cookie jar and stealthily liberate the cookies without getting caught (but she always reminds them that if they steal cookies from her, they can’t complain if she steals them back).

14. Who’d pop the other one’s pimple?

Stiles has an academic interest in such things. Allison thinks it’s gross as shit.

15. Who would discreetly pinch the other one’s butt in public?

Allison. No doubt about it.

16. Who cooks at 2 in the morning?

Stiles cuz he just can’t sleep and he’s not tired yet and he’s gotta do something so he might as well make an elaborate breakfast for when Allison gets up at her ungodly hour like the heathen she is.

17. Who gets extremely competitive playing Mario Kart?

They will fucking THROW DOWN. Seriously their mario kart tournaments are the stuff of legend and everyone knows to duck and cover.

18. Who takes longer getting ready?

Stiles doesn’t give a flying fuck unless they’re going somewhere special, and even then there’s only so much he can really do, lol. Allison will take the time to do special things with her hair but honestly, neither of them spends too much time unless Lydia comes over to insist Allison get really dolled up with her.

19. Who likes doing the dishes?

Stiles doesn’t mind doing dishes. Whenever he needs something to do with his hands just to keep himself busy, dishes is always a reliable fallback. Allison is more than happy to leave him to it.

20. Who points at a dog when they see it?

Stiles. He’ll follow them down the street and run through traffic to pet the perfect dog, no joke.

21. Who’s prone to road rage?

Usually Stiles, but if Allison has had a bad day she will blow up more than Stiles ever will, and usually over really stupid shit, lol.

ALLYDIA

1. Who remembers what the other one always orders at a restaurant?

Lydia remembers practically everything Allison has ever ordered at any restaurant they’ve been to.

2. Who reaches for the other one’s hand while driving?

Allison, but she’s also prone to toying with Lydia’s hair instead because Lydia can get tense about distractions while driving.

3. Who gets the window seat?

Allison. Lydia has to be in the right mood for idle gazing into the middle distance, while Allison is more prone to appreciating the scenery.

4. Who leaves little notes in the other’s one lunch? (Bonus: what does it say?)

Allison leaves Lydia messages reminding her to slow down on whatever big important project she’s working on that day and actually take a moment to breathe and eat and relax. But sometimes Lydia will get a romantic whim and leave Allison some romantic poetry in a handwritten note, just because.

5. Who wakes up first?

They both tend to be early risers. Whoever gets up first gets to pick what they have for breakfast.

6. Who falls asleep while watching a movie?

Depends on the movie. They both have pretty distinct taste in movies, so when one of them picks, the other one is approximately 3x more likely to nod off at the end, lol, but neither of them really minds. It gives them an excuse to cuddle indiscriminately.

7. Who’s prone to wearing socks indoors (or to sleep)?

Allison’s got cute silly patterned knee socks that she loves and wears at every opportunity.

8. Who has bigger cravings?

Lydia gets cravings for fancy shit that makes Allison scrunch up her nose, and she always knows exactly where to get this weird stuff. Allison’s cravings are at least for normal things like pickles.

9. Who reminds the other to put on sunscreen before going to the beach (or pool)?

Allison uses it as an excuse to get her hands all over Lydia under the guise of “helping.” Of course, Lydia always makes a big fuss about her fair delicate skin first just to give her the opening to offer.

10. Who carries all the important documents while traveling?

Lydia’s always got all their essentials lined up like four weeks in advance, Allison doesn’t even need to think about it, lol.

11. Who checks the prices while grocery shopping?

Neither of them really bothers. Occasionally Allison will provide Lydia with a challenge, like finish all the shopping under $65 but including ____, ____, and _____, and watch Lydia zip around the store playing mental tetris with discounts and coupons to find the best deals mathematically possible.

12. Who sneaks in cookies in the shopping cart?

Usually Allison, unless Lydia is in the mood for those fancy little ones that are ridiculously fucking expensive and Allison thinks are a travesty against their wallets and refuses to buy when there are so many cheaper alternatives.

13. Who’d give their child sweets behind the other’s back?

Allison. Lydia’s got a more refined taste when it comes to treats and the kids don’t always appreciate it. Allison also helps the children get rid of Lydia’s treats behind her back, lol.

14. Who’d pop the other one’s pimple?

Not applicable. Lydia’s got a very strict skin regiment to prevent that very eventuality.

15. Who would discreetly pinch the other one’s butt in public?

Allison, yup yup yup.

16. Who cooks at 2 in the morning?

Lydia’s more of a tea-at-2am kinda girl. Allison’s more of a cereal-at-2am girl. Neither of them is gonna actually cook that late, unless they both end up awake then and spring for something nice.

17. Who gets extremely competitive playing Mario Kart?

Allisooooon. There comes a point when Lydia has to bow out and tag someone else in cuz she knows when she’s beat.

18. Who takes longer getting ready?

Lydia, was there ever any doubt.

19. Who likes doing the dishes?

They tag team it, Allison washes and Lydia dries.

20. Who points at a dog when they see it?

Allison gets really excited about cute dogs. Lydia tries to pretend she’s unaffected, but puppies + happy excited Allison?? There’s no resisting that.

21. Who’s prone to road rage?

I’d say Lydia but it’s really more like road disdain tbh.

MALYDIA

1. Who remembers what the other one always orders at a restaurant?

Malia. She doesn’t care much about the outside world, but if there’s anything she pays very close attention to, it’s Lydia.

2. Who reaches for the other one’s hand while driving?

Lydia does, just to calm her down and keep her anchored. Malia’s road rage is legendary, and she does have bouts of intense anxiety and even the occasional flashback about the crash when she was little and knowing that Lydia’s there for her helps a lot.

3. Who gets the window seat?

Malia, especially if said window opens. She likes the wind and all the scents it brings with it. She misses nature.

4. Who leaves little notes in the other’s one lunch? (Bonus: what does it say?)

They both prefer more concrete displays of affection. They’d rather deliver the lunches themselves than leave notes.

5. Who wakes up first?

Lydia. Malia’s more of a nocturnal creature, so she’s usually up late.

6. Who falls asleep while watching a movie?

Malia goes back and forth between being enthralled by every movie even if it’s terrible and being utterly disinterested in anything on the screen, and there’s really no telling when it’ll be which. When she gets bored, she doesn’t hesitate to curl up in Lydia’s lap and go straight to sleep. Lydia just shakes her head and pets Malia’s hair.

7. Who’s prone to wearing socks indoors (or to sleep)?

Malia is very fond of tall socks.

8. Who has bigger cravings?

Malia craves raw meat occasionally. Lydia insists she cook it. Malia shifts and goes hunting for rabbits anyway. Lydia won’t let her back in the house until she’s hosed off all the bunny blood and brushed her teeth at least three times.

9. Who reminds the other to put on sunscreen before going to the beach (or pool)?

Malia doesn’t really need it at all, which is good because it would never occur to her to put it on.

10. Who carries all the important documents while traveling?

Lydia keeps track of all that. Not that Malia couldn’t, she just is more likely to cancel the whole thing than go to all the trouble.

11. Who checks the prices while grocery shopping?

Malia is very conscious of the fact that she needs to be a functional human, and price checking at the grocery store is one of those Human Things that she feels like she needs. It usually leaves her frustrated and mad at herself because math is still very much not her best subject, but this is one area that Lydia never tries to offer help in because she knows Malia really wants to feel self-sufficient.

12. Who sneaks in cookies in the shopping cart?

Malia doesn’t really bother to sneak, lol, she just throws whatever she wants in the cart. Sometimes Lydia makes an executive decision to put stuff back, but most of the time she rolls her eyes and indulges her.

13. Who’d give their child sweets behind the other’s back?

Malia probably. She likes the simple things in life and sees no reason why the kids shouldn’t appreciate them too.

14. Who’d pop the other one’s pimple?

Lydia takes better care of her skin than that, and Malia doesn’t usually care enough about putting up a front to actually pop them.

15. Who would discreetly pinch the other one’s butt in public?

Maliaaaaa

16. Who cooks at 2 in the morning?

That’s about the time of night that Malia convinces herself she can actually cook. That’s pretty much the only time that Malia lets herself think she can cook, lol, when she’s fully awake and not sleep-deprived she knows better.

17. Who gets extremely competitive playing Mario Kart?

Malia does, but sometimes she crosses the line from competitive to just frustrated with herself for not being better at it and Lydia has to take the controller away and distract her.

18. Who takes longer getting ready?

Depends on whether or not they’re putting effort into it. Generally, Lydia, but when they’re getting fancy then Malia ends up hogging the bathroom because she keeps changing her mind over and over again.

19. Who likes doing the dishes?

Neither of them, lol. Malia will let them pile up. Lydia will contemplate hiring a housekeeper again and then eventually see if she can bribe Malia into doing them, or at least helping her do them.

20. Who points at a dog when they see it?

Sometimes Malia likes petting dogs, sometimes she feels strangely territorial and is more likely to growl at them.

21. Who’s prone to road rage?

Malia, by far. Lydia will just keep up a steady stream of scathing insults under her breath.

MALIRA

1. Who remembers what the other one always orders at a restaurant?

They’re pretty varied in their dining experience, so they rarely go to the same restaurant twice, but while Kira likes to try new things wherever they go, Malia tends to always order the hardiest meat dish they have so Kira always knows what she’s gonna go for.

2. Who reaches for the other one’s hand while driving?

Kira gets nervous about taking her hands off the wheel, but once Malia has gotten a handle on the whole driving thing she has no such qualms.

3. Who gets the window seat?

They do rock paper scissors, and sometimes Kira loses deliberately if she can see that Malia is wound up and needs to relax.

4. Who leaves little notes in the other’s one lunch? (Bonus: what does it say?)

Kira, most definitely. Whatever sweet little endearments she thinks Malia needs to hear. Malia pretends she doesn’t like it, but she really really does and she keeps all the little notes in an envelope in her car tucked away so no one will ever find it and realize how much they mean to her.

5. Who wakes up first?

Kira, but oftentimes Malia is just still awake from last night and Kira will drag her into bed and go back to sleep to make sure she sleeps too.

6. Who falls asleep while watching a movie?

Kira falls asleep in practically every movie that is started after 8pm and nothing can prevent that, not even Malia trying to nudge her awake to ask endless questions about what’s going on and why.

7. Who’s prone to wearing socks indoors (or to sleep)?

Both of them. They have matching toe socks.

8. Who has bigger cravings?

Malia still sometimes craves raw meat. Kira puts forth the counter offer of sushi, which is more civilized and less gross.

9. Who reminds the other to put on sunscreen before going to the beach (or pool)?

Kira’s the one who needs it and does forget it occasionally, but usually she’s pretty good about remembering. There was that one time she forgot and ended up bright red and in agony, and Malia was beside herself with worry. Now Malia tries to remember to remind Kira about sunscreen, but they’re usually halfway to the beach before it occurs to her so it’s kind of pointless. Kira appreciates the thought tho.

10. Who carries all the important documents while traveling?

They split the difference. Kira takes care of the passports and stuff that’s required for international travel, while Malia handles itineraries and hotel info actual plane tickets. They both check in with each other relentlessly to make sure neither of them has left anything behind because no one wants a repeat of last time.

11. Who checks the prices while grocery shopping?

They confer a lot. Kira’s very indecisive and she’ll go back and forth between “well this brand is better but this one is cheaper gee i don’t know i mean i guess--” and Malia will eventually make the executive decision by just grabbing one, tossing it in the cart, and moving on.

12. Who sneaks in cookies in the shopping cart?

They’re both pretty happy to have cookies in the cart, bth. Malia’s more likely to sneak in pork rinds.

13. Who’d give their child sweets behind the other’s back?

Again, they’re both pretty happy with sweets, no sneaking necessary.

14. Who’d pop the other one’s pimple?

Malia would if Kira weren’t such a baby about it (but it hurts come on it’s not worth it!)

15. Who would discreetly pinch the other one’s butt in public?

Malia most def

16. Who cooks at 2 in the morning?

They know better by now. The fire department doesn’t like 2am calls and neither do their neighbors.

17. Who gets extremely competitive playing Mario Kart?

Kira is surprisingly vicious, but only on that particular game. No other game brings it out in her. But she will blueshell your ass into next week.

18. Who takes longer getting ready?

They’re both pretty lowkey, but sometimes Malia will let Kira get her ready and that takes forever and a day cuz she gets really into playing the stylist, lol.

19. Who likes doing the dishes?

Neither particularly likes it, but Kira’s always pretty ready and willing to get it done.

20. Who points at a dog when they see it?

Kira thinks dogs are the best thing on the face of the earth and she will absolutely make a fool of herself when she sees cute dogs in public. Yes, Malia does get jealous of strange dogs sometimes, but it’s okay because Kira coos over her in her coyote form just as much.

21. Who’s prone to road rage?

Most def Malia. Kira, while not an entirely passive drive, is more prone to exaggerated groaning and woe is me than actual road rage.

#Stallison #Allydia #Malydia #Malira #Teen Wolf #fics by me #mylittleshipperhart #and the answer is

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drashleighreid · 5 years

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Hey girl. Sad question, how are managing to survive with your hectic schedule? My mental health is so bad right now, I really don’t even have that many responsibilities or things taking up my time but even with my bare minimum I can’t even handle what I have to do in my life. Everything is so overwhelming 😭 I would really appreciate any advice you have on being able to function like a normal human. Thanks 💞

oh honey same. i understand this feeling a lot, it’s something i’ve always really struggled with. seeing my friends and peers handling a full study load, work, cultivating their skills in their spare time, and still somehow maintaining a social life when im barely coping with the bare minimum... not working, not even taking as many classes, having no social life etc. etc. its a really rough feeling, and especially with the unhelpful pressure you put on yourself because of it.

its always been an issue for me and still is to a degree tbh. a couple of months ago i was diagnosed with adhd and i’ve been taking meds for it. theyve done wonders for my mood and motivation and thats made it so much easier for me to get things done and stay on task tbh. it really kicked me out of that space, i have a lot more energy and every day activities and things dont feel as much like the huge daunting task that they did before lol. thats helped SO much i dont know if i would have been able to work through this semester without that diagnosis. its taken the edge off a lot of the things that felt ‘impossible’ before bc i was super defeated about similar situations. im not saying you have adhd or anything lol that was just my experience and maybe its worthwhile seeking out therapy if you havent already and exploring these avenues/talking to someone about the things you struggle with/doing some research.

honestly a lot of it too i think is the ‘object in motion’ kind of thing. its really hard to get started with things, or build a new routine, when you’re stagnant. its the same as anything... its hard and it takes more effort to begin anything when you’re stuck in that rut, but once you start it really and truly gets a lot easier to maintain a routine and everything wont feel so difficult anymore. a big thing that has really helped me lately is keeping a decent sleep schedule. i know its really hard because people would suggest that to me when i was really stuck for motivation and it seemed impossible to regulate it for me but it really does help a lot, i have two early morning classes so making sure im always up and going to those keeps me accountable so the rest of the week im usually getting up semi early anyway, whereas before id sleep really late and then feel crappy and unproductive lol. writing lots of lists and keeping track of things/what i have to do has helped a lot too ! i’ve become such a crazy list-person lmao i make them for everything and check things off and break things down into little bite sized increments so activities dont seem so overwhelming, and its done wonders for my productivity and for generally just feeling accomplished ? and positive? and then in turn more likely to stay happy and motivated to keep working.

just getting more structure and routine into your life can do absolute wonders tbh. im not sure if any of this has helped at all. ive been exactly in your position and its something that really affected my life and the way i felt about myself so i understand. and i understand how hard it is and how impossible everything can seem. its not easy to break out of, but putting in that extra little bit of effort at the beginning to get yourself moving, even though it seems impossible, can make all the difference down the track.

i really hope any of this helps even a little bit! honestly if you ever need to chat im always here and i can try help any way that i can, i know what a rough place it can be. but really youre not alone in feeling that way so dont be too hard on yourself, it really just makes it even more difficult to pull yourself out of it, so try to have patience with yourself and just do the best you can every day ! im sure you’re doing absolutely amazing anyway! def feel free to come chat to me any time about anything though.

#Anonymous

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