#theme: pain

[radiomogai]

[ID: two flags, both having three curved outer stripes and a semicircle in the bottom centre of the flag. the sections on the first flag go gold, gray-tan, green, and dark brown. the sections on the second flag go dark purple, red, muted red, and dark brown. end IDs]

Fiesterypt and Guiltrypt

[PT: Fiesterypt and guiltrypt. end PT]

Fiesterypt: a chokebt (chokrypt gender) that's related to financial stress

Guiltrypt: a chokebt that's related to heavy, maybe endless guilt, guilt that's been repressed but yet still affects you

these are both for day 1 of our coining event, for the prompt Chokrypt!!

@aetherive @en8y @queeerrmogaigremlin @neopronouns @hoardicboy @liom-archive @enderluna @kiruliom @mogai-sunflowers @local-yurei @revenant-coining @thecoffeecrew404 @noxwithoutstars @synderscug @termsfromceefax @ashenvanity

#liom coining #liom community #radiocoining #chokebts #fiesterypt #guiltrypt #genders #theme: emotions #theme: pain #theme: sadness #theme: infinity #our terms

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

finally at that age where i'm thinking i should get a tattoo. not bc i feel strongly about it, just seems like a waste not to. i've got so much skin i'm not using

#feels so selfish like. all this skin what am i saving it for? #open to design suggestions! (please make me regret this offer) #maybe some deep sea horrors. a pretty watercolor of a gulper eel #once saw a person on the subway with various Skeleton Tattoos on all their limbs #i respected their commitment to the theme #but more than that i respected how all the skeletons were engaged in Activities #dancing in a ballgown. juggling its own (and two other???) skulls. swordfighting. being a mermaid skeleton #ANYWAY. the only reason i haven't already gotten tattoos is i just couldn't be bothered #i'm old enough to know i don't have any strong-but-potentially-temporary feelings driving me towards it #aesthetically i prefer decorated to non-decorated surfaces. but i'm not artistic or thrilled with commitment #honestly it feels like sheer laziness. indecisiveness--nay. immaturity!--that i HAVEN'T gotten a tattoo yet #letting all this blank canvas go to waste. tut tut i need to grow up and be an adult and get a tattoo sleeve already. #really i've put off my responsibilities long enough #(in fairness i DID at one time have 18 different piercings) #(but i took most of them out bc they interfere with wearing headphones and/or shoving my face in my pillow during Sleep Time) #(i only kept the nape piercing bc oddly enough it ended up being the most convenient. and the least painful to get now i think about it.) #(neck piercing? no problem. normal pair of earrings? Tribulations And Suffering. i don't make the rules i just poke them with a stick.)

[willowser]

thinking about you laying in bed with bakugou and lightly tracing the messy edges of the scar in the middle of his chest, hardly able to comprehend how deep that wound runs. it had already been there for years by the time you'd met him, but sometimes you see it and are unable to swallow the fact that—at one time—you were alive and he wasn't.

very quietly, you say, "it's crazy to think how easily i could have missed you,"

because it's not every day you meet and fall in love with a man that's died and come back. if fate is destined and soulmates are real, you imagine the two separate paths of your lives traveling parallel, in sync—and his breaking away for one horrible moment, torn from you before you even knew it.

bakugou is half-asleep, you know, but he shifts until his chin is lightly nudging your forehead, and speaks into your hair. "nah," he murmurs, voice thick and slow and slurred. "would'a found you eventually."

and somehow, you can't find it in your heart to doubt him.

#just #imagine meeting a man and loving him and knowing that he'd died and come back #like fully DIED #not almost not kind of but dead done-zo #that's just so insane #how easily you could have never known him #could have never known him the way you do now #waaaahhh #not to diminish his pain and suffering and death and resurrection and trauma and only acknowledge it for a romantic scenario #but you very easily might have never known bakugou katsuki #and that is not lost on you #✿ willow writes #✿ thoughts: bakugou #✿ theme: domestic bakugou

[lucidloving]

墨香铜臭, Heaven Official's Blessing // Tina Tran, "Until I started choking on our memories" // Rykarda Parasol // Richard Siken, "Saying Your Names" // Bluepoch Games, Reverse 1999 // Trebbe Johnson, Fierce Consciousness: Surviving the Sorrows of Earth and Self // Marina Tsvetaeva, "Poem of the End" (trans. Elaine Feinstein) // Boyish—Japanese Breakfast // @catradoraism // Richard Siken, "Planet of Love"

[Requested by @wispy-wallfish]

#theme: devotion #i hope this captures a story of devotion #becoming pain and violence #(because they've always been one and the same) #request #web weaving #webs #web weave #webweave #poetry #prose poetry #prose #aesthetic #literature #book quotes #novels #books #novel quotes #quotes #poem #poems #richard siken #tgcf #heaven official's blessing #reverse 1999 #compilation #parallels #words #writing #inspo

[roach-works]

ok im waffling on about fallout instead of having breakfast but i saw a criticism of how the prisoners were treated that's stuck with me.

spoilers!

so i think the criticism wasn't incorrect, per se: it condemned the way the show portrayed the vault dweller's naive intention to rehabilitate their murderous captives. it found fault with a common, and horrible, message that tv shows like to say, which is that carcerial violence and even the death penalty is the only effective way to deal with criminals, who are a fundamentally Bad category of human. im sick of that message too! but i think that wasn't what was going on here, actually.

so like, the vault dwellers had only ever experienced violent loss the once, and didn't really know how to cope other than denial and repression of the ordeal. but they were all hopeful and enthusiastic that their prisoners, the invaders that came to kill them all and take their stuff, could be eventually welcomed into the community as their comrades. the champions of this cause were nebbishy dorks and painfully out of touch academics. this is pretty normal for how prison reformers are portrayed, if extremely fucking annoying for those of us who ARE in favor of prison reform.

but so of course when the son of the former overseer, Norm, speaks up and suggests killing the prisoners, because why should they share resources with invaders who explicitly wanted to keep hurting them? why should they show mercy to their attackers? everyone is appalled by this suggestion. because they had to reinvent the whole concept of vengeance right then and there, because grudges and cycles of violence are anathema to a bottle society like theirs. they have been raised all their lives to forgive and forget and now, put to the test, they're recommitting to this ethos: get along, let the past go, look towards the future, believe the best of everyone.

but the prisoners die, anyway. the prisoners are killed with rat poison. and the thing is that Norm who suggested it didn't do it himself. and the prison guard who's blamed for it, even though she privately agreed with Norm that the prisoners are dangerous and unforgiveable, she didn't do it either. it's not a moment of triumphant, cathartic vengeance and it doesn't prove that there's no way to negotiate with terrorists and invaders but kill them like vermin because that's not what the message is meant to be.

the message is that norm stands there in the middle of these inconvenient prisoners, these corpses dressed in his own people's uniforms, and he looks at the new overseer. and he knows that she killed them, and she knows that he knows. she wanted him to know. this is her message and he's reading her loud and clear. and he doesn't look like a guy who's just been backed up by authority, who's just been validated in his desire for the ultimate control over those who have wronged him.

he's scared and pale and the music is ominous as fuck. and he's inside the cell, he's directly in the middle of it.

because what just happened is that he realized his entire society is being held prisoner, and the overseer is the one with the rat poison. and that he doesn't know, anymore, what freedom and safety and justice actually mean, just that he doesn't have them and he doesn't know where to find them.

that's what that scene meant. not that rehabilitative justice is a pathetic delusion of people who have no idea how to make hard choices.

but that before you advocate for killing prisoners, you might want to see how big that prison is, first.

and which side of the bars you're standing on.

#fallout #look i went NUTS over the prison scene #it's gonna live in my brain for a good long while #RATS ARE A BIG THEME IN THIS SHOW #the rats that are vermin and the rats that are lab subject #both disposable #both struggling so hard to survive #both in pain and wondering what's going on and why is life so hard #both disposed of when they go where they shouldn't

[0vergrowngraveyard]

little star boy

#that background was so much more of a pain than it looks #anyway for my next trick #ill make a star themed tails design because im susceptible to peer pressure #and by peer pressure i mean my brain #miles tails prower #art

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Assisting Acquaintance Acquired.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wen ning #wei wuxian #Ignore how Wen Ning's hair looks here because I messed it up. Let's pretend he just sported a different hair style for a brief moment. #I am not exactly great at consistency but I am trying very hard to work on that (immediately messes up again). #Absolutely *love* how Wen Ning clearly remembers and admires WWX...who does *not* recognize him. #This is the best day for Wen Ning and it means *nothing* to WWX. A painful one-sided crush made worse. #It is bittersweet to realize that we care about someone more than they care about us. Sometime we pour love into a relationship- #-with someone who just can't reciprocate. It isn't always a conscious things either. Some people just aren't aware we care. #And painfully - so painfully - You can't make them aware. No act of kindness or gift or self sacrifice will make someone care about you. #You can martyr yourself for someone and they will continue on unchanged. #I think a lot about the parallels between WN and LWJ. Not foils - just reflections. A theme repeated. #People who give so much of themselves to someone who doesn't have the capacity to give any part of themself away. #I will die on the hill of 'Wen Ning would be the love triangle romance if that trope wasn't being avoided'. #And to be honest - thank the stars above that is the case. I do not know any good love triangles in media. #We are skipping some of the sad Jiang Cheng content because I really want to finish season 2 before May. #Sorry JC emo moment lovers...I'll deliver another time.

[paperlignes]

NANDOR THE RELENTLESS WHAT WE DO IN THE SHADOWS (2019-) SEASON 5, EPISODE 8: THE ROAST

#wwdits #nandor the relentless #nandermo #nandor x guillermo #kayvan novak #guillermo de la cruz #harvey guillen #wwdits spoilers #what we do in the shadows #wwdits season 5 #--fandom: what we do in the shadows #--ship: nandermo #--type: gif #--mine #--theme: scenes #inflicting pain onto myself

[taylortruther]

must be very strange to have to perform your heartbreak. as authentic as the emotions are, to market them at all (do a photoshoot, decide on "promo")... it must be strange to reconcile that with your private life, the intimate details, at times

#this isn't shade btw #just thinking about how some people are calling the photoshoot overwrought or dramatic #like well yeah the album is gonna be dramatic #but it got me thinking how strange it must be to set the art direction of your own pain #and it brings me back to the clinical sterility of the 'department' theme #ttpd predictions

[this-cult-of-dionysus]

Nikola Orsinov || The Piper || Mikaele Salesa || Jonah’s Deception || Spider Lighter

#tma fanart #tma #the magnus archives #nikola orsinov #the Piper #mikaele salesa #jonah magnus #FUCK Jonah Magnus fr #writing that out was viscerally painful #i love him #he’s the worst #elias bouchard #elias bitchard #spider lighter #the web #annabelle cane #jonathan sims #love me a good Themed Sketchbook Page

[opbackgrounds]

This is true both literally and metaphorically, and fits well with the themes of Thriller Bark. Moriah turned to zombies in the first place because the loss of his initial crew was too painful, and he never wanted to experience it again. It was further enabled by Hogback's twisted desire to do the same after Cindry's death. The whole nightmare of Thriller Bark, the darkness and the suffering, was brought about by people unable to cope with loss, who preferred numbness and shadowy imitations over forming new connections with other people.

Brook is the obvious contrast, reveling in the joys of life despite the objective shittiness of his last half century, but looking forward it's easy to see how Luffy could have followed a similar path after Ace's death if he hadn't been able to make a genuine friendship with Jinbe to help pull him out of his destructive grief after Marienford.

#opbackgrounds #one piece #ch477 #themes threads and throughlines #moriah #monkey d luffy #There are people born without the ability to feel physical pain and others who develop nerve damage #Either case is extremely dangerous and potentially deadly #~symbolism~

[radiomogai]

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Stingingwoundvesil

[PT: Stingingwoundvesil. end PT]

a vesil in which all or most of your identity is related to being the sting of medicine when applied to a wound

coined as a gift for a headmate

#liom community #liom coining #vesils #stingingwoundvesil #our posts #theme: pain #theme: medical #not doing the taglist since it's more personal and not a really good flag lol

[finalgirlsamwinchester]

Joan of Arc + Sam Winchester: PURITY/TRANSCENDENCE

John Everett Millais, Joan of Arc, The Maid of Orleans | 2.13 (trans.), "Houses of the Holy" | Luc Besson, Joan of Arc (1999) | 5.14, "My Bloody Valentine" | 8.23 (trans.) "Sacrifice" | Pascal Laugier, Martyrs (2008) |

#sam winchester #sam winchester edit #spn edit #comparatives #web weaving #second joan of arc post. happy birthday sam!! <3 #this is just. leftover stuff that wouldn't fit in my other post but got me thinking. transcendental catholic horror sam #the theme of pain/sacrifice/purification in his arc......... #also i just needed an excuse to fit sam covered in blood + besson!joan covered in blood in one post lmao. #but also martyrs (2008) bc i am always martyrs (2008) posting #j.edit

[lucidloving]

Christa Wolf, Cassandra: A Novel & Four Essays (tr. Jan van Heurck) // Camille Rankine, "Emergency Management" // Gwen Benaway, "Holy Wild" // @inanotherunivrse // Tracy Chevalier, "Girl with a Pearl Earring" // Stephen Dunn, "The Waiting" // @deadbyinsidee // Sue Zhao

#theme: staying quiet #theme: hurting in silence #web weaving #webs #poetry #aesthetic #art #prose #prose poetry #collage #literature #books #book quotes #novels #novel quotes #quotes #words #poems #pain

[sysig]

It’ll all go fine if you’d just don’t worry about it, probably (Patreon)

#Doodles #Handplates #UT #Fellplates #Gaster #Toriel #And technically Sans and Papyrus are offscreen in that last one but they're there! #Starting with a dress because Gaster always needs some pretty clothes! #His cute little angel wings expanded into a shawl :D With a feather-themed dress as well #I was thinking he'd look good in a bleeding-heart pigeon getup - just a little on the nose symbolism hehe - but it'd be very stark as well #But I mean Monsters don't bleed it's fine probably it's just a pop of bright red! Doesn't mean anything! #Thinking about the symbolism of his decorative wings normal-like as well...and of Gerson talking about the Angel of Death.....hmmmm #I'm sure it's nothing haha :) #Thinking again about Toriel taking issue with Gaster's new hole punches but not necessarily of her knowing what they mean #He has to be careful how much he shares of his progress! If she knew what might she make of him? Of them? #Two new little things to be subjugated? Or worse? All the more reason to keep them secret #I like both so much but hmmm he also wouldn't be held as accountable if he kept them secret #It's interesting as well - Gaster had a lot of growing pains with his experiments initially - I wonder how much Fell!Gaster struggled? #He always seems so placid and put together but surely Something breaks him - hard to avoid where and how he is now #Maybe not forever but just for a moment! A moment of weakness is all it takes after all ♪ #All the more reason to have safeguards in place! #Like teaching the boys how to heal! :0 Fellplates!Gaster would be able to heal wouldn't he? But nobody else could haha #Would the boys be able to from the beginning? Or do Fell Monsters have to develop it? :0 Through inaction or through intention? Hm ♪ #It'd be nice proof of concept if they could heal :) No time like the present!

[theboyjack]

please, please, please…

blacken my eyes, break my nose, crack my ribs, bring me to my knees, let me smile up at you with bloodied teeth as i gain my absolution

shape me as you wish, as i am meant to be

#i just feel like having my ass kicked would be a very gender affirming experience #trans man #he/they #forcemasc #autoandrophilia #forced masculinization #autoandrophile #ftm hypno #boy hypno #ftm t4t #t4t nsft #ftm nsft #trans man nsft #pain play #religious themes #praise and worship nsft #cishets dni